#no I'm not procrastinating. I would never do that
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@lonnson thank you so much for the tag!🫶
What's the origin of your blog title? It's an oxymoron-ish rendition of one of my childhood nicknames (Snow White).
OTP(s) + shipname: Hannigram (Hannibal Lecter and Will Graham, NBC Hannibal); Mary and Matthew Crawley, Downton Abbey (no ship name afaik); Farawyn (Faramir and Eowyn, The Lord of the Rings); Tomgreg (Tom Wambsgans and Greg Hirsch, Succession); Aegond (Aegon II and Aemond Targaryen, Fire&Blood/House of the Dragon)
Favourite colour: green
Song stuck in your head: The Line by Twenty One Pilots
Weirdest habit/trait: refusing to do certain things just on principle, without any kind of rational explanation (it doesn't happen often but some of those principles are very silly)
Hobbies: travelling, reading, writing poems, listening to music, watching movies/TV shows, making collages that I pretty much never post
If you work, what's your profession? I head a division of the Fares and Services department in a public transportation company.
If you could have any job you wish, what would it be? Project management (it's pretty close to my current job, so I'm fine in that regard).
Something you're good at: planning events and mediating conflicts
Something you hate: having to defer to stupid people's judgment
Something you collect: chopsticks
Something you forget: buying salt🤣 For some reason I'm always caught off guard when I run out of it and then go without for a solid week because my brain just can't process the fact that the salt is gone.
What's your love language? Problem solving.
Favourite movie/show: The Lord of the Rings, Love Actually, Inception (movies); Hannibal, Succession (shows)
Favourite food: OMG, I don't even know! I'm such a foodie that I can't really choose.
Favourite animal: cats
What were you like as a child? Very Hermione Granger-like.
Favourite subject at school: English and history
Least favourite subject: PE (mainly because the teacher was an effing tyrant)
What's your best character trait? I'm responsible and dependable.
What's you're worst character trait? I procrastinate way more than I should.
If you could change any detail of your life right now, what would it be? I'd like to be more certain about the future (big freakin' detail, right).
If you could travel in time, who would you like to meet? My maternal grandfather who died before I was born. He was a remarkable man; plus I've been told time and time again that I resemble him a lot, often in really uncanny ways.
No pressure tags: @vhagar-balerion-meraxes @very-straight-blog @autumnrose11 @heretherebebookdragons
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Hey, welcome to this awesome trainwreck I call a blog. I'm Tarn Ation (first name Tarn, last name Ation), possible Hellspawn, definitely cursed, and this is where I post things.
- He/Him, Adult
- On this blog, you're gonna see stuff like Professor Layton, Splatoon, Metroid, Octopath Traveler, Ghost Trick, Pokémon, and anything I feel like posting about at the moment.
- I'm German, so you're gonna see some german stuff on here from time to time. You will also see me spelling words wrong now and again. This is a charming and endearing character trait of mine.
- Certified Theme Park and Rollercoaster Freak. This has no relevance for this blog, but it's important that you know this about me.
- Besides the @layton-heritage-posts blog and some tournament blogs, I'm also the mod for @octopath-traveler-ost and @is-metroid-prime-4-released-yet
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post-canon where siffrin decides they do like isabeau like that and they start dating but eventually it turns out they're not compatible bc they just want different things from a relationship... isabeau wants to settle down, siffrin wants to keep traveling... siffrin likes the same couple casual types of dates, isabeau likes grand romantic schemes... siffrin wants to stay together forever but doesn't want to get bonded about it and isabeau can't not take it personally... siffrin gets so mopey when isabeau stays out late working because being alone in their shared house is way worse than just being alone on the road... isabeau wants to have kids and siffrin isn't sure they'll ever feel up to the task of fulltime parenting... alexa play sad violin music ten hour compilation classical royalty free sad music for crying
#i love making siffrin and isabeau break up#it's enrichment. for me#sometimes the love is there but that's not the only thing that matters </3#also siffrin is polyam ace and isabeau is monog allo but this isn't even about that#siffrin WOULD not date anyone else and isa WOULD never have sex#but it's just like one more way they aren't particularly compatible on Top of everything else yknow#and possibly it informs some of the other issues? like. maybe part of the reason siffrin doesn't want to get bonded is bc it feels unfair t#place his love for isa as something different and more important than his love for his other friends#maybe part of the reason isabeau wants to do special romantic things all the time is to fill the gap left by Not having special romantic se#yknow?? like just bc they respect and love each other and are genuinely willing to abide by each other's boundaries#doesn't mean it's for sure gonna work out perfectly......#and they're such good friends and that's why they gotta break up before they keep disappointing each other relationship-wise and#start to resent each other#</3 </3 </3#thoughts about siffrin & isabeau#thoughts#isat#isabeau#siffrin#siffrin & isabeau#i'm procrastinating work can you tell
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do you ever think about how all you used to draw when you were 10 was ponies and that you should still know how to do that, then get an idea and proceed to draw something like these in nearly one sitting and it turns out better than any drawing you've done in the entire past month
sooo anyway does anyone have cutie mark or pony name ideas for them?? lol
#(the b girl lineups are older than a month because i procrastinated a lot on doing minor fixes. nothing i drew in the month of june 2024#is really worth showing it's all shitty doodles lmao)#bnha#class 1b#mlp#?#yui kodai#setsuna tokage#itsuka kendo#ibara shiozaki#(i love how she came out in particular! creature :3)#reiko yanagi#tikto's art#you may be wondering why pony of all people isn't here.#i did draw her! but i kind of ran out of steam so i ended up not really liking the result lol same for kinoko#anyway shoutout to elementary school me i was SO obsessed with mlp. brony stuff was one of the first things i used the internet for#and you know what. i wouldn't say it ruined me it was a pleasant experience#i just read what was basically a polish version of equestria daily and constantly checked the deviantart profile of one (1) specific artist#that i liked a lot#i did watch some weird speedpaints (yknow the horror ones) but i honestly dont remember being very bothered by them i just liked the art#i was just chilling there lurking and never actively participating due to being 10 and afraid of online strangers (good for me tbh)#i remember having an identity crisis though because can i really call myself a brony if i'm a little girl? the target audience of the show?#lmao anyway i would also draw ponies constantly and write oc fanfics (and the ocs were actually my irl friends ponified)#and i even had my own little g5 concept. good times good times#tag story time over god bless enjoy your day
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I've seen it come up a couple of times, (probably jokingly, but still), so I do want to clarify: I did not personally choose who gets matched against who.
Yes, some of these match ups are incredibly unfair, but they're based entirely on the results of the original polls. They've been seeded and then paired up based on where they lie; for example, Rangiku's seed number is 1 and Wernarr's is 128, Rose is 64, Cirucci is 65, and Kira is 32 while Izumi is 97.
#seireitei bulletin#i never would have had the time or patience to manually do this i have other things in my life to devote time to#such as ignoring other hobbies and pretending i'm not procrastinating#anyway i hope this offers a little insight into the Why X is matched with Y
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so i've been working all day on my thesis and one thing about me is i can't do uni related work unless i'm listening to music (or watching a film/series) but anyways not allowed by tv girl just came on shuffle and i lowkey wanna write an au where kevin and jeremy are make out buddies, but kevin is closeted and jeremy is out and they both struggle with this but it'd be an alternative universe with exy involved, maybe even them being rivals idk ?? but maybe less canon-based because i have absolutely no idea how i could ever write it when i keep canon events in mind :(
#idk man maybe i'm just saying all this to procrastinate and i'll never actually write it#and what would it even be? a one shot? multiple chapters??#i definitely don't want to write actual smut tho so....#maybe i'll leave this just to hang in my mind and y'all can do whatever you want with it#anyways i need to continue my thesis i want to finish as much as possible tonight
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i have Thoughts
#just me hi#i'm gonna ramble now check this out Lmaoo:#ofc any major belief built on hating someone sucks. like fundamentally#and mostly the idea is that you would be protecting yourself and the Similar-to-yous (which is U-2.0)#and it's confusing like. what do you get out of this ?#ik there's the satisfaction. the deep feeling of security you get in your stomach believing that you're right and your anger is purifying#that you're somehow anointed for persecution by Words and Actions you see through the other side of a water glass#and i don't know what i'm tryna say. i'm confused hjfshvgh#of course there's fear. there's a lot of fear. but it's very selfish fear. the kind that makes you protect others because they're Just like#you#and i dunno. what's the point ? so you hate somebody. that's cool :)#how can you love people then. do you love people because they are people or because they have faces you wish you had ? or you can see faces#on them that may not be there ? or they say your face can be like theirs if you only try and never stray ? or that you've had this face all#along. why change? you can't change it's wrong#i dunno man. this makes no sense !!#isn't it always scary to hate everything ? i know it is#like yes the world hates everyone anyway but what is special about that ? what makes this fear worth so much more than another person ?#i dunnooooooo ♪#maybe im just naive! but holding onto somethin like that until you find solace in misery is no way to be baby! i'm gonna go eat snow outsid#//anywhoooooooooo i AM drawing. and that IS in fact a lie i've been procrastinating on it for some timeeeeeeeeeee ggoroughhhhhhhhhhhh LMAO#i don't wanna :( but i REALLY wanna you get what i'm sayin hfshjgjfsh#it could be so easy.. life could be a dream life could be a dream... doo doo doo doo ba dee...... ♪#i need to find an animal for this though and i don't wanna 😔 i do hate this part of the process jfhgfjghjsf#don't like.. researching animals..... it's Not fun lol#but i must prevail. because it's inevitable that i do :/ oh wells#so i'm gonna GO and watch my VIDEO and have a SNACK and DRAW :33 because i WANNA. okey doke hjfshgs#TOODLES 💫💥#//edit: also lowkey i feel like hate is too weak word for this kinda thing ykno? like damn what's got the gates of hell open dude chill Lol#okay BYEEE
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i'm not doing anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not fucking doing anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just sit and rot and worry and yearn whilst other people are out there living and feeling and breathing and experiencing and still i just do nothing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#'you're young there's still time' you do not understand#i don't do things because i'm unwell. chronically. it won't ever go away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#that doesn't mean it can't get better i'm sure it will one day#but it will never be what i want it to be#i get so overwhelmed by all the things i'm not doing#i need to stop watching videos and films about people living the lives i want#been procrastinating my hrt shit for ages now even though all i have to do is send two emails and ask my friend for one link#i'm putting off the new tattoos and piercings i want because i always do that and then i get sad that i don't have them yet#i'm putting off my assignments for a degree that i actually enjoy and want to do well in and i do not know why#i'm just WAITING. what am i WAITING FOR. the change is INSIDE OF ME. why am i waiting#i guess i am holding onto safety and predictability because it's the only thing i have control over#i bounce between that and the image of a future me that is completely unattainable#and i tell myself there is no possible middle ground so i just give up#i can't be all the things i want to be. i will never been seen the way i want to be#but that doesn't mean i have to stay stuck like this forever wasting my life feeling miserable about everything#but i still choose to keep doing it every day anyway because i don't know how to stop#is it too much to ask to be a beautiful man who is not technically a man but is perceived as one and gets silly about it#is it too much to ask to be nice and well and attractive and successful#i don't want to be normal. i don't want to be cis. but i would like to be myself in a way that feels right#but i am not brave enough to start doing anything about it
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#altough it got better in a way my self confidence is still so bad :(#some days it's worse than others it changes with my mood or idk#just lately i have been feeling kinda down about myself#i just have never been this naturally confident person and i feel like i'm not enough or not doing enough a lot at times :/#when i was younger it was even worse and i thought of myself that no guy would ever like me bc i'm so not good looking#obviously that was not true and guys do like me and i would not go that far anymore but often i look at myself and think average at best#even though that might not even be true and sometimes i like what i look like in a mirror but i think to myself just good lighting or sth#and so often when i see a bad picture of myself i feel so ashamed like i'd just wish i looked differently#and when guys tell me i'm pretty or also other people i find it so difficult to believe that like i don't see that in myself#but it does not make a sense i know others don't think of me like that also guys i think of as a attractive but i don't see myself like that#but it's not just that i often also feel doubtful i will ever achieve much#i always think i should be finished with uni already or have better grades#and mostly that i'm not smart enough in general#but my grades are not even bad and i'm not failing any classes#like i just got another a in that class (i'm actually really happy about that one) but then i think okay but some people have all a's#like i could do better i could study harder#unfortunately i'm a master of procrastination as well 😅 and quite good at lol#what i mean is that i manage to study very little compared to others and still get good grades - sounds good but keeps me lazy 😅#and i also think when i achieve a good grade often that i don't deserve it that much because i could have studied more#and that i just got lucky which is not very rational i know 😅#or once i actually just passed an exam (i studied the night before) and i though yeah the teacher just felt sorry for me and let me pass#realistically i don't think it was like that#and at uni i studied for big exams which were feared by students for 2 days and got a b#which should indicate i'm somewhat smart but i think i just know the right study techniques and got lucky again#altough i do know good study techniques i think :))#buuut sometimes i do things which are so dumb like i do have these moments my mind is going like blank#and it's not difficult things even#like in football we did this exercise of a series of passes and everyone got it but me until a few tries like how is this harder#i'm just kind of bad at envisioning like this series 3 dimensionally in my mind idk i usually get it once i do it and remember the movement#what it feels like
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i need to write a ghost story i need to write a love story i need to write historical fiction i need to write a 16-episode korean drama i need to write a 5-season sitcom i need to write a short film i need to write a feature film i need to write a coming of age story i need to write a weird modern fantasy i need to rewrite a fairytale i need to write something i need to always bounce between genres and mediums i will not be contained by genres and styles i will constantly exasperate readers and the overall marketing scheme by never fitting in a single box i will constantly dabble in new forms of writing i will never be predictable and etc
#caroline talks#do u ever. do u ever just get filled with the overwhelming urge to CREATE. CREATE A STORY#sometimes i severely miss college#because i miss bouncing between writing short stories#and poems#and short films and television and movies#i remember my screenwriting professor learned that i was applying to law schools#and that was after i proudly told him i wrote a 40k word story#and then he gently said 'you know . . my dad really wanted to do music#but he wound up working the family business instead. . . and when my dad got later in life#i would hear him playing music and he would cry'#and i was like. 'hm. okay professor.' and i have never stopped thinking about it#but u know what. it's fine it's fine it's fine#[through gritted teeth + through shaky breath] i can do it all i can do it all i can do it all i swear i can do it all#(u can tell. i am procrastinating by how often i'm talking today huh)
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hey girl is the room flooding or are you just happy to see me
#the room was flooding#btw#i have to say stepping out of my bed and into ice-cold water barefoot woke me up VERY quickly#it was only a little water tho so it's ok. less than an inch. AND it was clean#like this is not FLOODWATER floodwater. my stuff is soggy but not ruined. it could be so so so much worse#i also think the maintenance people were rather perplexed by my good mood? like#1. this is so far from the worst case flooding scenario it isn't even funny#and 2. girl my daily struggle is waking the fuck up. the fact that my room is flooded means that i can now be awake to study for my midterm#this is honestly an improvement over my normal daily stress level#cus see. ultimately. this is other peoples' problem. i'm not responsible for this one. i just happen to live here#the joy of dorm life i suppose#always very interesting to be standing on my soggy doormat in my buc-ee's pjs watching someone's job security flash before their eyes#at least one other suite was flooded this morning AND they mentioned that this isn't the first time this has happened. so. erm#maybe that's not a good thing. maybe some of my tuition should go towards... preventative maintenance? perhaps?#you know. as a treat. it's not really that important or anything.#not like there's a threat of. oh idk. burst pipes? flood damage?#all hypotheticals of course. that would never happen in real life#anyway...#this means i sure won't be procrastinating doing my laundry any longer!
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Desktop code under construction. enter at your own risk
#narrations#I'm not procrastinating I would never do something like that#I'm certainly not relearning code to do this so that I don't have to put in job applications
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Me when everything is hard & i know why and i just have to get over myself But Also
#you are Disabled#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#trying to apply for jobs again and giving up halfway through cause . how do i explain any of it#would i even get hired now#COULD i even get hired if i went to a vocational rehab place now#but what happens if everything goes under? what can i even do about it?#clearly something in the now if i stopped being... the way that i am but can i stop having to do it scared for 99% of the things in my life#? please??#the everything else is also bad cause i procrastinated all day so ... no dance warmups now and a very half assed stretch#when COMPETITIONS are LITERALLY ALMOST HERE in just a few more days!! why cant i be better!!!#why cant i do the things that are supposed to be easy!!!#also idk the process so i'm not sure i would even get diagnosed ? with anything?? like yes it's uhm. obvious that i am not Normal#but i don't think it's in like a way ?#then again i dont go outside so i wouldnt really know anyways#... people in guard did definitely treat me a little weird last year (i never got to go to awards) ((i wanted to))#i dunno. anyways. interviews hard. job applications hard. figuring out vocational rehab ... also hard#&& the state of the politics means like... well idk but i'm not too sure that voc. rehab COULD help me get anywhere y'know?#personal life dragging itself on still but i'm Aware of how much... confidence? ability to communicate effectively? i've lost#or ability to exist in spaces i mean. idk#then again i've always been nervous to be On My Own it's just ... maybe more obvious now that im older. not so normal (if it ever was)
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Man, tomorrow is October and I've only finished one prompt thanks to getting art block/burnout for the past two weeks :( and now I'm over thinking it, feeling like I need to do some additional stuff to add contexts and stuff so it'll make more sense. And I'm currently trying to work on the second prompt but I'm struggling a tad with figuring out rendering and stuff. I'm just feeling a bit stressed because of deadline. I'm trying my best to tell myself that it's okay to finish these late and to be slow, but it sure is disappointing
#The art prompts are for selfshiptober and I had soo many cute little ideas!#I can still finish them whenever but this felt like such a good opportunity for ideas. motivation. potential to make friends and#make a lot of cute RadioFluff art. At least I still have all of the ideas. A few that I would have never thought of on my own#Oh but I'm procrastinating right now. I better get back to work. I have a lot to do this month#nillisaie talks#nillisaie rambles
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I believe that there are a lot of people who love getting storyworth as a gift and religiously complete it. It's just funny to me because absolutely no one in my family and especially not my parents would ever follow up with that at all
#my mom would just be procrastinating it and my dad would be like. well he wouldn't say it out loud but I know he would just think#this is not important and I'm never going to do this
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wishing so bad that I was a great writer or artist rn
#there's sm things I wish I could paint and draw and write#but I can't#because I don't know how#or I'm js simply so bad#and idk where to start even#but at the same time I'm not creative enough that I could use my imagination for drawing#or come up with unique plots and ideas and everything#and even if I did start working to be one#I have commitment issues#so then I'd js give up easily because I wouldn't be where I want to be right at the start#and not commit to practicing alot so that I can improve or wtv#because to me everything has to be perfect right off the bat#and also idk how to manage time so one thing I often find myself wondering is how would I fit these hobbies into my schedule#with school#because the thing is I do have time#I js don't know how to manage it properly#and I procrastinate on everything schoolwork related and don't let myself do anything (except reading fanfics and scrolling on tumblr/pin)#unless that work is done#but I don't do that work until the last minute so I never end up doing anything else except scrolling and reading fanfiction#not even reading actual books#Arghhhg#i hate this
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