#nicotine craving

[artcalledtattoo]

Can I Will my Cloud? Am I better alive then dead Wealth more in clouds Then physical worth Can I will my clouds? Numerous entities Non compatible List of factions: PS3 VuduFandango UniversalPictures Disney Sony Amazon iTunes MoviesAnywhere[iTunes(i tums, sorry Mr President that pill causes cancer, tums is safer, I can teach you, to rid yourself of both tums and prescript, I have had both not a need anymore, $$$,$$$ 4you! The VA allowed the cancer causing with my other prescripts from VA, I take vitamins only now, $,$$$ for my regimen and I’ll throw in more advice, pick me up in a Limo some time for theatrics a few squad size guards at least 6, fuck it, gag me, snuff me, zip me, water board me and then ask my advice with $ in a triple plastic bag like the kind in sands without an education for the predecessor’s last not the orange but bright and plenty fruitfulness, wife began children eating healthy in schools, i’m educating now, send money for more)Amazon & Vudu = equals] Steam maybe more sources to follow That’s all the stuff past for physical entertainment VHS, Cassette, Vinyl, CD, DVD, BluRay, Books What about willing all my different Profiles? On various social media My clouded pictures? My snapped photography Aesthetically speaking That which not physical? I’m near a 49iner No gold to speak of Can clouds be granted down!? Rocket landed back So close to century but not half way through just yet But this above is ending for above just typed in by thumbs My thumbs are not calloused I’m not in gaming Just In questioning Why are You not asking I’ll smile you may know someone just for me Love happens Now I’m venturing off my cloud talk I can add more later of this pillow whisper Smiles to all

[firecooking]

Did this little number recently. Thinking about a modern human au where all the tugs are human, so of course I did some stuff with the Z stacks.

I think it’d be an interesting au to do something like modern harbour in port tugging systems, having a captain and a deckhand on a ship, maybe Zero Marine has 5 ships but only three ever get used at a time, maybe they have only three, or two even, but the job requires complexity. Maybe the Z names are nicknames, they dont even think of their real names anymore. Lots to think about.

This was me thinking about a smoke break, maybe the AU is in the early 2010s? Late 2000s? The main harbour tugs are all more oldschool still, enjoying a smoke break to take the stress and edge off the paeing of this job. Zips young, fresh outta school probably and the first new blood they’ve gotten in a while, with it he’s ready for his smoke break with his new fangles vape that smells like sugar and will probably give him popcorn lung within the decade. Zug meanwhile hates smoking but needs his break all the same, so slots on his phone is where he breaks his time. Zero’s a little less receptive to that break, but aslong as he doenst look down Zug’s not getting caught.

Even beyound that, The three harbour tugs deff have their own prefrences they argue about. Zorran winging on about how he rolls his own cigarettes at the end of a long week to destress, and how they are so much smoother and taste better than that shit the other two smoke. Zebedee doesnt give a flying fuck about his cigs as long as they do the job, and he only smoke a two packs a week so it’s no big deal what he gets. Meanwhile Zak Carries around a custom cigarette box but is clearly smoking premade cigs, only for them to eventually discover he smokes untralight slims, misty rose’s type deal, because he’s asthmatic as hell and in denial.

Zero thinks they are all stupid but goes through a pot of coffee an hour while managing the office, that or worse there is a convience store near by and he’s hyped on 128oz fountain drinks and slurpies and is actively melting his organs with energy drinks and sugar. He can’t smoke he has a kid at home to live for but doenst realize his resting heart rate is 120 and he’s going to have a stroke from all the caffiene. No rest for the wicked of course.

[wizardnuke]

you cant say tumblr is the appalachia of social media unless youre posting from here

[soup-is-here]

Mouthwashing Spoilers

TW: Addiction and Self Harm

I wanna go on about Swansea's final monologue but it's hard to put into words, but I'm gonna try anyways cause it's a short, but strong story about autonomy again. This post ended up significantly longer than I wanted though

It's the autonomy to choose the "less healthy" option because it's appealing to you. It's the moral assignment to normality and stability. An alcoholic is an alcoholic by choice, technically, but do they owe us otherwise? Is it morally reprehensible to enjoy taking LSD at a party? Should we see someone as less than because they relax with a xanax instead of a hot shower? It's not healthy. We know that. We've seen anti-drug ad after ad after ad. But is that the part that's morally wrong, in and of itself? Does enjoying the drugs and chaos make Swansea a worse person?

Like him talking about his entire life and ending it by saying between the "stable" "normal" life and him waking up every morning with a new hangover, he preferred the latter. People always talk about getting clean and fixing their lives and Swansea did it! He did the thing "good men" do! A wife and kids and a trade job and sobriety! He was doing it! He was finally "worth" something!

And he hated it! I mean I don't know if he actually hated/despised it, but he misses his previous life. He misses drugs and partying and living like you might not wake up the next day. He said the thing that changed him was seeing himself dead in a ditch under the bright beam of a streetlight. Now he's looking down the barrel of a gun. And as he looks down it, he looks back. That was his preference. It felt good to be like that. And he wouldn't be here if he stayed there

We always have a narrative about drugs or gambling or sleeping around where a person suddenly realizes that they aren't "doing anything" with their life and becomes stable and it's always played like addiction is a false pleasure. Swansea got to the stability people said would be the real pleasure of life and that just wasn't true for him. One bad paycheck could've been the difference between his stable life and falling apart anyways. His lifestyle was going to kill him someday apparently, yet he's staring down the barrel of a gun at his steady trade job to feed his wife and kids.

I don't know quite how to word it but Swansea is the poster child for rehabilitation. There's this weight to him saying his alcoholic period was the best time of his life. Like it just hits at that pang that makes people wear DARE shirts while smoking weed and post those videos of smoking 100 cigarettes at once. Anti-vaping ads tell you about the damage they do to your body but everyone knows that already. Everyone knows "this is what your brain looks like on drugs." I smoke medical marijuana and it isn't good for my lungs but it's good for my pain. Doing drugs isn't good for me and I know that and that's sorta the point sometimes.

I don't know it's just this weird pang where I know what Swansea means, just not to nearly the same extent. I don't have an addiction so I don't think I could fully understand it. Maybe a better thing I could relate it to for myself is self harm. It's not healthy sure, but who do I owe health? Myself? Other people? And what is healthy? Is it feeling better now? Is it resisting now and feeling worse for it until it stops? What if the coping skills I learn make it worse? What if they make it better? Do I want it to get better? Does Swansea want to get better? What would better feel like to either of us?

Who knows until you try. Swansea got a collared shirt, a mortgage, and a credit card. He got a job and a wife and kids. He got sober. He got healthier, depending on your definition.

But did he feel better? He's looking down a barrel of a gun and he has to decide if he feels better. It doesn't seem like he regrets his new life. He says he wants his kids to be better than him. He wants good things to happen for them. He saw himself as one bad slip away from falling again. I don't think he felt better though. I think he got healthier. He likely would've ended up in the ditch he dreamt about, but we don't know that. We also don't know if that's what he'd prefer. But, we do know he got healthier, depending on your definition.

[beesantennas]

quality memes are for suckers

[timetravelstudies]

the cigarette fandom about to die fr 3 of its pillars quit at the same time…

[1242pm]

I'm going so insane I wanna see Scien again so bad but I have lots of work to do 😭😭 I'm gonna set a picture of him as my phone wallpaper to cope

[liebelesbe]

apparently some doctor made the hypothesis that long covid can be treated with nicotine... and apparently that worked for some people... like there isn't a full study on it but like. hello? should I start smoking?

[118diazs]

eddie for sure absolutely started smoking cigarettes in the military and quit when he got back for chris but he keeps some in his truck and in his nightside table for when he really just needs one

[brittleboneshowl]

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[awesomehoggirl]

I fucked up so fucking bad guys I totally totally forgot to renew my sertraline prescription before coming home from the holidays, thought it would be fine bc its only been abt 2-3 months but woke up today with all the fucking withdrawal symptoms and only JUST realised that is why (its been 4-5 days since my last dose). am i seriously gonna be withdrawing over christmas 😭 i feel im being turned inside out

[yeticantfeelyou]

😆😆 I am literally dying j am actually getting closer to my death with each breath of smoke exhaled and it's not aesthetic its not pretty my fjcmjng teeth are fucked my fjcmjng mental state is gone not to mention I am without my antipsychotics for another day it only gets worse BUT YES GUYS SUBSTANCES ARE SO AESTHETIC AND PRETTY AND A PINTEREST BOARD AND JTS TOTALLY NKY A FUCKING DEBILITATING FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!

[meowcifer-nails]

So, just saw Joker 2, and the main thought I have on it is that it's too half-baked.

They wanted to turn it into a musical, but couldn't commit enough to make it work, even as a jukebox musical. They obviously wanted it to be a slap in the face of the "joker fanboys" who misinterpreted the 1st but the way the went about it honestly was just so lackluster.

But the most disappointing thing to me is that Harley Quinn was not nearly as deranged and fanatical as she should have been AND her presence was not prevalent/strong as I'd have expected from a movie specifically titled Folie A Deux. I don't mind the angle they went about her obsession with *Joker* specifically but she was just... idk like Harley is supposed to be THE hardcore Joker stan yknow? And I'm supposed to believe that based on what I've seen?? LMAO have any of the writers ever met an actual fangirl?? I think not

The only things I can really commend on is 1) there is some beautiful photography and the pacing isn't bad despite the songs shoved in for no rhyme or reason 2) I get the intent of wanting to make Joker even more pathetic and kinda give the middle finger to the hardcore stans even if I don't think it was executed that well, and

(Spoilers ahead)

3) The ending has balls, unlike most of the rest of the movie, with the other main exception being the scene with Puddles.

[pokeathlondome]

im fighting some demons rn

[dabideserveslove]

Hi, lollipop oral anon here, with someone with an oral fix to give more stuff you can snag to add if you want. (Gonna go with hero dabi cause it amuses me)

Dabi at first going with the meetings for missions and all just chewing on the corner of his lips, but that's painful, so he switches to chewing on his thumb but that's an issue when trying to write notes or motion with his hands, so he's gotta find something, and those weren't quite working, so he's tried gum, only for one heated argument with another hero to end with it on that hero's face quickly ended that being used, so he's searching for something else, and realises, maybe from Toga giving him one of hers for whatever reason(little sister toga is always a fav after all) and he realises it helps better to plus he can take it out if he needs to talk, less risk of it being spat at accidentally too.

And he's just rolling it between his teeth at a meeting, focused on notes, tongue occasionally slipping out when the candy is stuck into the corner of his mouth to snag some of the like, candy drool it creates, and when he's thinking, it's between his lips, held there and just rocked back and forth in place against them, which has the added effect of making his lips plumper.

And sometimes with lollipop's the candy drool goes down the stick and he just like, wraps his tongue, with the candy still in his mouth, down around the stick to grab it, and just driving hawks mad

I love all of that omggg

I might have to go w hero Dabi for this bc I also enjoy the idea of Dabi getting so pissed off during an argument with another hero that he spits his gum on them on "accident" 'cus even as a pro hero we all know that Dabi would still be feral af. I can just imagine Hawks seeing that happening and swooping in to try and smooth things over.

Then Dabi shows up at the next meeting and sits across from Hawks like usual and, after getting out his notes and everything, unwraps a lollipop and sticks it in his mouth without really thinking much about it.

Hawks is thinking a lot about it right from the start, though, lmao.

[hummingbird-hunter]

Is anyone else's mental health also directly correlates with how long ago you washed your hair. And I don't mean your mental health failing -> no energy to wash your hair (although that too). I mean washing your hair and suddenly you're no longer mentally ill. What's up with that