#nicky hemmick angst

[dustisus]

Imagine you are Erik Klose. You get an exchange student who is obviously not doing alright, but you and your family show him that there is nothing wrong with him. Over the year he comes out of his shell and you are so in love with the vibrant person who has been hiding in there all year so you tell him you love him and he tells you he loves you too.

He goes back home but he returns (for you) when there is nothing left for him there, and your family is so ready to embrace him as one of their own. You catch him and your grandma in the kitchen, and she's teaching him the family recipe for Spätzle and he's teaching her the ingredients' names in Spanish. When the winter comes he is always the first one to volunteer to shovel snow with your father. When warmer temperatures come you wake up to his voice streaming in from the window where he always has breakfast with your mother. Your family loves him, so when he decides to move away again to take care of his own family (we are your family, too, you tell him, and he just smiles) they cry just as much as you do. The night before he has to wake up early to catch his plane you ask him to marry you, in the future, when it's legal, and he says yes. Still you wake up from his alarm early in the morning and his kiss goodbye.

At first you speak on the phone every day but then a job takes you across the country and takes all your time, and when his first job doesn't make him enough money for a three-bedroom house, he gets another one, and then another, until you have to schedule calls days in advance and most days you just text. But he tells you again and again that those boys need him, and from the sound of it, they do need someone to love them. And who will love them like your fiancé will love them? You have never met a person so capable of love, of engagement, in your life.

The call comes one early morning and he says that one of the twins has been arrested, that he has gotten into a fight, that it was to defend him, and doesn't mention until several minutes into the frantic call that it was him that he was defending. He says he has a smarting rib but is okay but what will happen to his cousin? I don't care, you don't say.

Finally the twins turn 18 and you start a countdown until they graduate in the spring, but come March he calls you and says they have all been offered full-ride scholarships, on the term that they all play Exy. The coach says he needs to keep an eye on Andrew, and maybe that would be for the best? he asks, and then when can start a life together I'd have a degree, and... and... By the time the call ends, he's convinced, and you could never step on his dreams.

Over the first year he calls you and tells you about his asshole teammates, and of how he answers on Andrew's beck and call to make sure things run somewhat smoothly within the team. You hear him pause slightly before choosing his words, consciously choosing the most innocent ones for his twins and the most incriminating ones for himself.

In the summer he comes home to you, but the summer is too short.

The next year, his texts dwindle and on your calls he sniffles but says he's not crying. He calls and says he did something bad and whatever comes to him it's his fault, but won't elaborate. This sounds like what he was saying when he first met you, so you comfort him and says it isn't. It's just been difficult, he says, when a teammate's died. You want to tell him it's so simple here, so simple to you, but you don't. It's not what he needs to hear.

The next few months are a shitshow that you only hear about from his calls and texts, and then eventually some news articles that reach you from the other side of the world. It worries you to know that he is distantly involved with some of the people that are not mentioned by name in the articles, but that you recognize from his stories. Once again, you tell yourself that he knows how to manage it, has always been able to manage it.

The chaos culminates at the championship finals and you are there to see it all go down. He turns his head to you, shouts your name as you spot the opposite player come close to killing your fiancé's friend. He lives, but the opposite player doesn't, and there are no loud celebrations for you to take part in. That night you and your fiancé celebrate quietly, on your own. You have not seen him in almost a year, and it's as if some of the vibrancy has run out of him. His eyes lack a glint, his hair a shine.

You stay a week and you meet the twins in person for the first time. Andrew is more subdued now than in past stories, Aaron feistier. You don't care much for them, but they are important to Nicky, so you make an effort. Neither will talk to you.

It only takes two days until Aaron catches you cuddling on the sofa in the dorm and you overhear an ew. It bewilders you but Nicky is falling asleep so you just continue running your fingers through his hair. The next day all of the Foxes have gathered for a film night, and Nicky has talked about how excited he is for you to meet them and introduces you to them with a joke and a flourish. They tell him to shut up, and Nicky laughs it off as a joke. Maybe you just did not get it. The rest of the night they try to pull you into also harping on Nicky, and get bored when you just say that you love him.

A week into your visit, Andrew pulls a knife on Nicky, and all the moments you have shared with him, all the ones you have planned, flash before your eyes. Nicky doesn't even seem scared, and the Foxes around them watch you curiously instead of the crime before them. Before you know what you're doing you have grabbed Andrew to pull him off, pull him away, but you're quickly overpowered.

Nicky cries as he patches you up. You understand he had not wanted you to see that, and you don't know what to say. You pull up the edge of his shirt to find small scars patterning the bottom of his abdoment, and for the first time you see them as what they are and not as a result of the game. You ask how often this happens, and he says only when I deserve it. He says it and you watch yourself transported, sitting in Berlin with a boy who said I deserved it, and once again you tell him he has never deserved this. You tell him he needs to leave, to please go back home with you, that they are not his family, but he says he can't. You have not seen him so grey in years.

He sees you off at the airport when you leave. Once again you plead for him to come with you, and once again he says he can't. You know you can't force it, can only say that you'll wait as long as it takes.

[frannonfire]

thinking about: a barely adult nicky was the first person who made andrew feel somehow safe

[saintbennetts]

I love angst and I love pain but I cannot read "Neil died in Baltimore" fics. they genuinely make me sick to my stomach because he just didn't deserve it. he did not deserve to die terrified and alone and nameless. He deserved a life. a family. a future.

And Andrew? God. It would have destroyed him. He would have blamed himself for releasing Neil from their deal. He did not deserve to lose the one person who could pull him back from the edge. After everything he went through? fuck that.

It's too much. AFTG might be a mess but at least we got a happy ending. I cannot stomach the alternative.

[coffeeco001]

How do you think Nicky felt, when Andrew chose Neil?

This stranger that joined their team, attractive yes, and many questions surrounding him. Everyone was interested in Neil to an extent, Nicky included. But Andrew is the one who focused on him, chose him, confided and let in.

But Nicky? The boy who had to raise Andrew, help him get his first real job, house him and watch grow? The one who tried at every turn to bond with him and show him love, give him a taste of what he should've had. The older cousin who was desperate for recognition and left his lover in Germany to make sure Aaron and Andrew had somewhere to call home, and someone to call family that they could rely on?

He was rejected at every turn. He was pushed out. Barely acknowledged except for extreme situations. Andrew stood up for him where it counted, and protected him. But he never let Nicky in. He never showed vulnerability to him, and he never once gave Nicky even a shred of the care Nicky gave him.

Yet Neil comes, and Andrew catches an interest in him that develops quickly into a full scale obsession. He doesn't break down walls for Neil, but he did give him a key to the door. He gave him a chance to learn Andrew inside and out.

How much do you think that hurt Nicky, watching them grow inseparable and watching Andrew learn how to love someone, knowing he's never gotten anywhere close to that level of care and respect?

[weirdhamfire61]

Just finished reading The Ravens king.

Yall did NOT WARN NE ENOUGH!!

I FEEL BETRAYED

[kiwiaok]

just a lil continuation of my angsty aftg rambling (link to pt.1 below):

andrew being absolutely terrified that one day he’ll wake up and realise he’s not actually gay. bc he fought tooth and nail to accept this part of himself and the thought that what he fought so hard for is just a residue of filth the men that touched him left behind? terrifying. even years down the line, when he’s married to neil, when they live together and have sex regularly and tell each other ‘I love you’s in a million different ways, the fear is still there. it never leaves.

nicky. NICKY. WE ARE NOT TALKING ENOUGH ABOUT NICKY!!! nicky who always tries his best to stay positive, who never talks about what’s troubling him. nicky who had to grow up too fast. nicky who learned very early that love is conditional. nicky who learned that people only stay when he fits to their tastes. nicky who abandoned his life to take care of the twins and accepted that he’ll never mean to them as much as they mean to him. nicky who knows shame and fear. nicky who has self harm scars around and on his private parts, a souvenir from years spent under luther’s regime that no one will ever know about

[palmettoshitposts]

rooftop gays

part time soulmate, full time problem by crystal ball kefu

hello! it is 🔮! i have returned after months to shamelessly promote my new (but actually has been sitting in my docs for ages) fic, affectionately titled rooftop gays. it's basically a character study about the times andrew and neil retreat to the roof when life gets too much. neurodivergent andrew, therapy avoiding neil and renee being the only fox with any brain cells. enjoy ✌️

[rosalinesurvived]

Natalie Renee Shields Walker & Nicholas Esteban Hemmick

[hatfordheadquarters]

completed fic ✎ 3/3

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭��𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞: 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐰𝐨: 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐘 𝐁𝐎𝐘

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞: 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋

Nick Hemmick centric Fic🪽

mature, angst, past rape/non-con, stalking, hyperreligiosity, homophobia, suicide, etc. (please treat yourself kindly and stay safe ❦)

pre-canon & post-canon

multiple POV

background andriel (if you squint)

ace rep

Nicky finally snaps

twinyards & Nicky learn to communicate

𝚊𝚘𝟹 𝚜𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚢:

Nicky would do anything for the twins.

When money problems threaten his ability to maintain the home he had managed to create for them, Roland offers Nicky shifts after-hours at Eden's.

Nicky sacrifices himself a little more, and soon a person from his past creeps back into his life to push him closer to his limit.

He worked so hard to keep this part of their lives his personal secret, but the desperation of the past never leaves quietly.

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝

Nicky turns to sex work to support Andrew and Aaron, and must deal with the toll it takes.

(inspired by "Making Ends Meet" by onedayanauthor and "All we need is somebody to lean on" by AgapantoBlu)

✨check it out!✨

[youdontknowhowtodiequietly]

so this prompt has been stuck in my head for EVER and it's probably gonna need to be a long fic but it could be shortened

whatever(sorry). so aaron minyard POV he's been slightly relapsing but it's just over the counter stuff and katelyn breaks up with him around the time she found out but they also been having issues lately and then him and kevin get closer when kevin finds him doing drugs in the bathroom at edens and he's about to be taken advantage of but "it's nothing that's never happened before" (Yes kevaaron or just single aaron platonic friendship with kevin) and YO I love nicky bring a comforting cousin like i need that for aaron and some andrew and Aaron therapy moments/bonding brotherly moments (sorry again)

fall in love with a girl (4899 words) by crazy_stupid_potato Chapters: 3/3 Fandom: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Katelyn/Aaron Minyard, Aaron Minyard & Andrew Minyard, Nicky Hemmick & Aaron Minyard, Kevin Day & Aaron Minyard, Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard, but only in the background, Kevin Day/Aaron Minyard Characters: Aaron Minyard, Katelyn (All For The Game), Andrew Minyard, Kevin Day, Nicky Hemmick, Neil Josten, Original Male Character(s) Additional Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Wholesome Twinyards, Healing, Drug Use, Drug Abuse, Hurt/Comfort, Spoliers, there WILL be kevaaron in this fic, that is a threat - Freeform Summary: An Anon Tumblr request. Aaron and Katelyn have issues - Aaron has relapsed - Shit goes down at Eden's, and Andrew is nice, for once. (Title form loml Cavetown's new album songs.)

Here you go bub! I did not expect to get this out the day after I said you'd probably be waiting a while for it, but fuck if I am not a reliable person lmao!

Anyway, I hope you enjoy it!

[flaminghellhole]

I need Nicky Hemmick angst that doesn't revolve around the twins.

I've tried to write about it but it always ends up with his conversion camp on fire and all his camp friends dead.

[sagelvr111]

TALE OF A MARTYR IN XII PARTS- REDSKIESANDSAILBOATS

TALE OF A MARTYR IN XII PARTS- redskiesandsailboats for chubbytomato

All For The Game - Nora Sakavic  

Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard

71k words

12 chapters

complete

Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard, Kevin Day & Neil Josten, Neil Josten & The Foxes (All For The Game), Neil Josten & Jean Moreau, Neil Josten, Andrew Minyard, Kevin Day, Riko Moriyama, Matt Boyd, Allison Reynolds (All For The Game), Danielle “Dan” Wilds, Aaron Minyard, Seth Gordon, Renee Walker (All For The Game), Nicky Hemmick, David Wymack, Abby Winfield, Robin Cross

Alternate Universe - Soulmates, kind of, Grim reaper au, Reaper!Andrew, Alternate Universe - Reincarnation, Character Death, AFTG Reverse Big Bang 2021, Angst with a Happy Ending, POV Neil Josten, This is so much longer than I thought it would be, but im not complaining, Canon-Typical Violence, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Implied Violence, Happy ending people, I promise, andrew is tired, Neil is relentless, and they literally love each other

Neil closes his eyes and counts the things that he knows: One: Death has a name. Two: He has met Death before. Several times, in fact. Three: Someone is trying to kill him. Permanently. But it’s only kind of working.

Or, the one in which Andrew is the Grim Reaper, Neil is very, very good at dying, over and over and over again. They teach each other a few things over the centuries.

[aftgficrec]

It open!

Is there any new Nicky and or/twinyard centred fics or any Kevin wymack bonding ones?

Or wymack parenting the other foxes?

Thank you in Advance

There is a lot here, so we split this up.  You can find fics about Nicky and the twinyards here, both canon compliant (or at least adjacent) and AUs.  Find Kevin & Wymack bonding here and Wymack parenting the Foxes here. - S

Previous recs:

Nicky with both or one twin here - see the extensive list on previous recs in this post

Nicky parenting the twins here 

new twinyards bonding here - also features many previous recs

Nicky & depression here

Nicky-centric fics here

big brother Nicky here

bad days-andreil & nerik here

angst w/comfort for andreil and nerik here

Nicky after thanksgiving here

Nicky in germany 2 here

long distance soft nerik here

‘AFTG/TFC minifics… ch 84’ here

‘Afterthoughts ch 90’ here

‘A two-man team’, ‘Something Good’, ‘Love is Patient, Love is Kind’ here

‘It’s a love story, baby’ here

Nicky-centric:

All We Got Was Bruised by Rose_vine [Rated M, 48214 words, complete, 2024]

They sent people to Camp Full Point to change them. Nicky was a boy made of secrets and lies, and he had broken a long time ago. Camp Full Point might just be the thing that kills him. Or, Nicky's parents send him to Conversion Camp. This is that story.

tw: violence, tw: blood, tw: conversion therapy, tw: electroconvulsive therapy, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: religious guilt, tw: implied/referenced homophobia, tw: internalized homophobia, tw: restricted eating

Struggling in Silence by Ciara_Westford [Rated M, 34487 words, incomplete, last updated July 2024]

Nicky has been struggling with his mental health for a while. He tries to hide it from the others, but after a more or less public meltdown, he can't hide it any longer. The other foxes, as well as Wymack, Abby and Betsy want to help him, but Nicky doesn't know how to accept help from others.

tw: depression, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: conversion therapy, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: panic attacks, tw: nightmares, tw: vomit, tw: implied/referenced self harm

Holy and free by sapphosgaycousin [Rated M, 2871 words, complete, 2024]

„Will you come to mass with us for Easter?“ That’s how it all started to go south. When Erik’s mother had asked him to attend church with them on Easter Sunday, Nicky had said yes without thinking twice. What bad could happen, right?

tw: ptsd, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: religious trauma, tw: vomit

Nicky is the sun that shines even through the clouds series by ThePureMonster [Rated E/G, 21452 words, 2 complete works, 2024]

Part 1: We'll pray for you, honey (E, 15038 words)

"Homosexuality is a sin. Homosexuals are doomed to burn in hell forever, if they want to change, they can be healed. By rejecting temptation, they will become normal again. They must try and make more efforts if it doesn't work." That's what Nicky had been hearing all his life. And he really tried his best until one day he stopped. Nicky's difficult path to himself.

tw: violence, tw: child abuse, tw: rape/noncon, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: homophobia, tw: conversion therapy, tw: depression, tw: religious trauma

Part 2: We love you, Nicky (G, 6414 words)

Five times when the Foxes learn a little more about Nicky's terrible past. And one time Nicky feels confident enough to open his heart and tell them the truth.

tw: panic attacks, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon

Du bist der Einzige für mich by Anonymous [Rated G, 772 words, complete, 2024]

Nicky gets jealous, Erik reassures him.

A little crush turned into a like by HereBeChickens [Rated T, 3814 words, complete, Aftg Mixtape Exchange 2024]

In the end, it’s his German teacher that works everything out. Or, Nicky's year in Germany with his host brother that he totally does not have a crush on and his feelings that he totally has under control.

tw: implied/referenced homophobia, tw: implied/referenced conversion therapy, tw: implied/referenced suicidal thoughts

I'm never gonna not dance again by Acetober (allfortheBoyds) [Rated T, 7023 words, complete, 2023]

Pole dancing, as it turns out, is fucking hard. Even the simplest swing requires a type of body control Nicky doesn‘t think he‘ll ever be able to possess. He tries anyway and with a few tries and tips from Dan he manages a decent performance. Out of the corner of his eye he sees Kevin - looking as grumpy as ever - strap into a pair of hot pink heels. He wobbles around like an oversized newborn fawn. or 5 times Nicky danced in front of other people +1 time he danced only for himself (and Erik)

Twinyards-focussed:

Come across the universe between you and I by bInTheMoon [Rated M, 4258 words, complete, 2024]

“Aaron! Wake!” “Hey,” Aaron answered his twin, who was crouched at his side and staring at him. “I bought ice cream, it’s on the bag.” “What the fuck, Aaron!” Andrew hissed, his cold eyes not leaving him for a second. “What happened?” “Accident.” ---- Or: Only they would need an accident to take another step to healing.

tw: car accidents, tw: injuries

I‘d die to be somebody you could love by moonlightboyz [Rated M, 39860 words, incomplete, last updated June 2024]

"For a medicine student you're really dense sometimes." It was quiet for a while before Andrew spoke up again. "I don't know, how to be your brother, Aaron. Not the one you want, but I'm trying." "And I'm trying too." OR This fanfic explores Aaron Minyard’s complicated feelings regarding Andrew Minyard and how he learns how to love and be loved by his brother.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: drug abuse, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: panic attacks, tw: disordered eating, tw: self harm, tw: negative self image

Don’t go where I can’t follow by moonlightboyz [Rated M, 8579 words, complete, 2024]

Andrew held out his hand between them and Aaron intertwined their pinkies. “I promise to never leave your side.” He muttered. “I promise to protect you and never leave your side.” Andrew echoed. OR an AU where Nicky kills Tilda and Drake and the twins live with a foster parent while they wait for Nicky to be released from prison and everything else that happens while they wait.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced drug addiction, tw: implied/referenced murder

Slings and Arrows by This_Witch_Writes [Rated T, 5935 words, complete, 2022, locked]

Andrew Minyard had spent quite a lot of his admittedly short life wanting to die. It wasn’t really a secret though he didn’t talk about it. The evidence was right there on his arms, in every cigarette, in the way he stood between those he’d chosen to protect and a world that wouldn’t hesitate to leave Andrew in a cold ditch. So he was a little surprised that now that he was going to die he was so pissed off about it. His only thought as the gunshot rang in his ears was a pathetic ‘this isn’t supposed to happen’ like life had ever cared what he thought. - As he faces down what could be the end, Andrew considers his complicated relationship with his own survival.

tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: past suicide attempt, tw: gun violence

Nicky & the twinyards:

Mom by high_lady_kate [Rated M, 1941 words, incomplete, last updated April 2024]

"“Are you sure about this?” Nicky wanted to shout no! and then several insults regarding Tilda Minyard. Instead he grinned at Erik and finished zipping his suitcase." Or: Nicky Hemmick is 19 when he gets custody of the Minyard Twins.

Eat Your Young by Rose_vine [Rated M, 1947 words, complete, 2024]

Any hopeful feelings vanished the second he sat down on the medical chair in the doctor’s office. There weren’t any straps on it, but Nicky felt like he was constricted anyway. He remembered viscerally the sensation of thrashing without being allowed to move, the buckles that had wrapped around his arms, legs, and chest. The bite guard they’d shoved in his mouth, tasting like vomit. “Nicky,” Andrew said. Nicky looked up with wild eyes. “I can’t,” he gasped.

tw: ptsd, tw: anxiety

The secrets we keep by DrowningStrawberry [Rated T, 5067 words, complete, 2024]

Andrew never kills Tilda, he never had too. A certain cousin had gotten there first. or Nicky Hemmick has a murder problem.

tw: implied/referenced murder, tw: implied/referenced conversion therapy, tw: implied/referenced abuse

And I Fall by DrowningStrawberry [Rated M, 3193 words, complete, 2024]

“Maybe Eric is glad you stayed away longer because he doesn't want to have to see you.” And on and on and on in a rotation in his mind. Before he realizes he is moving, he's grabbed a knife and locked himself in the bathroom. Or Nicky's depression gets the best of him.

tw: depression, tw: suicidal thoughts, tw: suicide attempt

Nicky thinks the twins don’t love him by @hmmm-shesucks [tumblr, 2023]

Nicky thinks the twins don’t love him, but then they both get ejected from a game for beating the shit out of a guy who illegally hits Nicky hard enough Nicky breaks his wrist.

Nicky & Andrew by @bisexualchaosdemon [tumblr, 2024]

I think Nicky does piss Andrew off, but not because he's loud and dramatic; because he cares.

Art

Twinyards by @eeriethacus

twinyards by @art-foxx

Happy Birthday to the Minyard twins by @midgart

I dont smoke by Mitski and the Minyard brothers by @eeriethacus

Nicky after taking this picture: 🏃🏃🏃 by @prince-peachie

A little candy by @neroholik

Nicky Hemmick by @neroholik

I heard someone had a birthday some days ago😏 by @yarn_garn (Twitter)

[ao3feed-brucewayne]

Wymack collects another traumatized gang member

by InvictaCorpus Jason didn't know who he was anymore. Was he Jason Todd? A zombie who's only purpose was his partners and child. Was he The Red Hood, crime lord and protector of Gotham's unfortunate? Was he Tayir Khaled? Student at Gotham University studying English Literature and playing for the Gothan Exy team? He didn't know anymore. What he did know was that in his hands was a scholarship letter from an Exy team in a different state with a reputation for being all sorts of screwed up yet somehow being one of the best in the span of just a year. tldr: Jason joins the foxes as his civilian identity Words: 1255, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic, Batman - All Media Types, Batman (Comics), Red Hood and the Outlaws (Comics), The Flash - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M Characters: Jason Todd, Roy Harper, Lian Harper, Koriand'r (DCU), Andrew Minyard, Aaron Minyard, Neil Josten, Kevin Day, Nicky Hemmick, Renee Walker (All For The Game), Danielle "Dan" Wilds, David Wymack, Betsy Dobson, Abby Winfield, Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Wally West, Damian Wayne, Tim Drake (DCU) Relationships: Roy Harper/Jason Todd, Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard, Dick Grayson/Wally West, Katelyn Mackenzie/Aaron Minyard, Roy Harper/Koriand'r/Jason Todd, Koriand'r/Jason Todd, Roy Harper/Koriand'r Additional Tags: Fluff and Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Implied/Referenced Torture, Aftermath of Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Jason Todd Has Mental Health Issues, Established Neil Josten/Andrew Minyard, Other Additional Tags to Be Added via https://ift.tt/LTRAfG0