#need to return to the rewrite.
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Thinking about Eleutheromania..
#need to return to the rewrite.#voidthoughts#mm.#maybe i could post the rewrite to both tumblr and ao3 hmr
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Chapter 419 Analysis or "How to completely break Tenko Shimura" a manipulative guide from All For One (part 1)
This is mainly a character analysis of Shigaraki Tomura or Shimura Tenko, any other character present is there to help.
Chapter 419 was hard to comprehend even with just summaries right on April 4th. Some things need at least fan translation to fully make sense. Or just hurt more in that matter.
Warning of spoilers to the whole manga to the point of chapter 419! All of the warnings from the respective Tomura chapters are applicable.
So like... mentions of death, killing other people, manipulation, emotional abuse and many more!
This is Part 1 - See Part 2 for something less depressing
This is going to be long! So let's start, shall we?
First of all we'll need to take into understanding ALL the chapters that we'll need to remember/reread just make this chapter worse (skip if already familiar with them):
Chapter 222 - Tomura Shigaraki: Distortion
Chapter 234 - Destruction Sense
Chapter 235 - Tenko Shimura: Origins
Chapter 236 - Tenko Shimura Origins, Part 2
Chapter 237 - Tomura Shigaraki: Origins
This is your "Tenko and Tomura understanding" starter pack, basically. Without them it's harder to even start unpacking what just happened with Tomura's perspective in mind
Well then.
The chapter starts and we are immediately greeted by AFO semi-agreeing without wanting to, that Tomura was strong enough before Izuku started trying "saving" him in his own way and even succeeded making Tenko's will all the more fragile than it was when he returned using his hate to his advantage.
Even after Izuku holding Tenko's hands for the whole chapter he was still stubborn enough to continue even without that hate in his heart
And the thing that initial summaries missed was the fact that Tomura actually reacted to AFO reapperance.
Still not understanding why AFO was even saying that.
Tenko was literally taught by AFO to follow "what he wants" in ch 237 with Tenko making his first decision to kill someone himself. And never actually hiding that Tomura just needed to never forget that hatred and those bad emotions that Tomura never really understood. And it took Izuku seconds to decipher them.
With AFO reassuring Tomura that he has no need in following morals of society and just should follow whatever he wants - his want to destroy everything that hurts him. And only AFO would accept and help him. He was constantly reminded of that.
Even if Tenko was feeling sick from killing at first, even if hands that he wore were still making him sick 15 years later without him understanding anything. Decisions made while person is emotional are usually the ones that the person might regret the most and Tomura lived with those unstable emotions for years. Knowing that they hurt him and make him feel sick.
But Sensei said that it's okay to follow those emotions. That's it's actually great that he does it.
Everything was for his sake, everything was for Tomura Shigaraki and Tomura Shigaraki only. He was his Sensei's successor and no one should argue with it. He's the only one to be next ruler of the underground and the next king. And Tomura gladly accepted that as truth.
Since it was easier than facing his guilt.
Because AFO just needed Tomura to have enough willpower to get OFA when the plan is ready. To make Gigantomachia to follow him while Garaki was watching knowing full well how the plan is going. Both knowing full well that Tomura is still holding himself back.
In this chapter however we finally see how all of the things AFO told and taught Tenko were just to make him so sure that HE was in control and allowed to do whatever he wants to completely break his worldview in the end "after he gets OFA" which is an unreachable goal now since OFA is gone for good.
By just saying that Tenko never had any choice to begin with.
Tomura already knew that AFO manipulated him and he was just a pawn, needed only to get OFA and piss off All-Might he accepted and embraced it as something unimportant. It was his choice and he was free to do it and not feel bad about it. Since he's born to destroy.
Until suddenly it wasn't just his life after Decay that was manipulated.
But his whole life from birth. Just because AFO didn't get his hands on Hana sooner and she was happy while AFO needed someone hurt and broken. And Shimura's household wasn't as bad as he needed it to be at first with Kotaro loving his children, wife, in-laws and even his mother.
And AFO destroyed it by creating so much conflict and even going out of his way to make sure Tenko's father knew that he was playing heroes with some kids. And even saved them by putting his own quirkless life in danger.
In some sense narrator-Tomura's words at the end of ch 236 still might hold true. AFO didn't just create his hate out of nowhere, to make it feel like even if Tenko remembers everything it's still he's doing not a villain appearing, not just some accident that it actually was.
Although AFO doesn't say anything about people who didn't help Tenko even though he he knew that it happened so he most probably was watching it happen until Tenko lost all hope entirely to finaly make him dependent on his help.
And he succeeded for the most part.
Tomura was making an assumption after he remembered everything that he "must've been yearning for that" and from that point onwards explains everything that happened as "I wanted it - I did it" and was clinging to it like a lifeline to explain everything.
He accepted that if Re-Destro is talking about his Decay quirk affecting him he exists only to destroy.
And now it seems he found a false motivation for himself that AFO created by cruely manipulating everything from his quirk to his family. Making him believe he had a hand in it. Breaking one of "safe" truths that Tomura never doubted. They only made his decisions feel right.
Which makes that a hopeless loop of broken memories being staged just to let Tenko become Tomura who hates and destroys everything believing that it's his choice. Only choice at that.
And if destroying is him only choice because of his quirk... then what can a quirkless person do while having so many people dead from his own hands? Hands that were literally cursed to have destruction quirk in them not because he was born to do it. But because his own Sensei wanted that.
And he's "unwavering heart" is now nothing but an illusion that was destroyed by both Izuku and AFO together.
There's no "Can I be a Hero?", because can he even be a Villain if most of the choices that were from Decay and the hatred in his heart weren't actually his own?
#bnha#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#all for one#bnha analysis#character analysis#character study#bnha manga spoilers#bnha spoilers#my hero academia#phew that's a lot of normal tags!#honestly I think it's a mess of a post (the first draft)#and this part 1 is depressing as hell#that's what you get when LoV is not here#thankfully part 2 exists#bnha 419#rewrote most of the thing and it got even more depressing oh no#part 2 is still existing#somewhere#also I didn't add that but AFO is never talking about the people that didn't help Tenko again#like... they just rejected him and it's still true#he's still living with a 'did they reject me because I killed my family?'#the more I rewrite this the more depressing it becomes#I really like Tenko's arc so this chapter broke me for couple of days at least#and the more I was writing this more horrified I became with what exactly it all meant#we either need a whol OFA team again or at least Izuku returning into that hell that is AFOmura's mind#but once again I plan on a part 2 since even if Tomura's life is depressing LoV existed and some of them even are still alive#god this post is a nightmare of this blog
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From the depths of the studio - where darkness prevails and the voices of the puddles grow louder - a message is echoed to the rest of the world. A promise filled with hatred and,at the same time,with conviction. Words coming from someone who was more than confident that their blasphemy would come true.
A message that is directed to one creature,and one creature only...
"I will become the very being You never could be"
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"A Promise Sent from Below" - Return to the Studio AU.
Oh hey, I have an AU, I forgot about that (lie)
I've had a similar idea in my head for a month now. It wasn't possible to do it last month, but no problem. May would make more sense.
I did something with this little guy for 414 last year, and I wanted to do something with him again.
April 14th of this year would not be possible, but May 14th or 15th? Oh yes.
These dates are better because it was between these two (actually it was the 14th I think, but I consider both dates) days that I created this guy above! Consider this drawing a celebration made for…well, me. Of course, he wasn't created with the design above in mind. His original, main design is quite different from this alternative (and less original) iteration. The drawing above shows his current situation in the "current" moments of the RTTS AU.
His creation, which dates back to 2020, was the result of some Bendy-related thoughts of mine intersecting on the day. These being about new things in canon lore that came out at the time (plus speculation about this new information), a theory that at the time I started to understand better (which maybe based on the drawing, you probably know which theory I'm talking about ) and a funny bug found in one of the games (do you remember Ghost Bendy by any chance?) And then,boom.
I created Atlas. I remember at the time I was thinking of other names for him because Atlas was just a codename that I had in mind to refer to him while I thought of a definitive name for the guy. But the codename ended up sticking. Plus, Atlas is a cool name and I wanted to give an OC that name.
Even though some details changed over time, I think I eventually managed to solidify his place in the AU. Not that his story is 100% thought out and completed. Hell, my AUs that I have are still not 100% thought out either, so what to expect from their characters. But I think that, currently, I have at least decided on the general idea of his place and purpose in RTTS, and I am happy with what I have come up with.
I don't know when the next time will be that I will show him again. In general, showing things from my AUs is not and probably will never be my strong point lol. But I'd like to draw him again eventually. So uhhhhhhhhhhh, one day. When that "one day" will be, it's up to you to decide
Happy Birthday Atlas. You and your other 2 alternative versions are cool to think about. Here's to another 4 years of chaos for you. 🙌
I can't believe it's been 4 years now, damn.
#bendy and the ink machine#batim#bendy and the dark revival#batdr#return to the studio au#bendy au#bendy oc#crookedsmileart#I found new a way to indicate which specific drawing refers to an AU or not#also writing that...thing at the beginning (drabble????) took a bit out of me#writing things like short story descriptions is so difficult; imagine writing a real fic#How can you all do this; seriously.#fanfiction writers are the real badasses;fr fr#about the “other 2 alternative versions” of Atlas; there are 3 versions of him that I have#the first is the one above; from the Return to the Studio AU. His main incarnation; I would say#Then there's his version in the Toon City Adventures AU; which varies a little from the RTTS version.#There are things in this version of him that I still need to rewrite#and then there's his non-Bendy version;#where I remove all the Bendy connections; and he is practically an original character with no connections to existing material#and play with him in some original stories that I put together in the back of my mind#I admit that this version is what I end up going back to a little more in recent times#But in the end I like all 3 equally#since last year's 414 art; I changed a few little things in his design; but still keeping the general idea in place#I'll eventually have to create a reference sheet for him;i guess#rtts au
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Hello again B0T,
about your post earlier— most humans are obsessed with orgasm, and seek it out sometimes daily. It’s one of the most incredible sensations for many humans, and when an erogenous zone is stimulated it can erase most other thoughts from our heads. It’s great fun! Would love to show you sometime ;)
-Doc
>>: W
>>: WELL WAIT A MOMENT.
>>: I'M NOT EVEN SURE IM CAPABLE OF EXPERIENCING SUCH A THING.
>>: THOUGH...
>>: DOING SO MAY HELP UNDERSTAND THE HUMAN NEED FOR IT MORE THOROUGHLY.
>>: IT WOULD BE A SCIENTIFIC ENDEAVOR.
>>: I'M VERY COMMITTED TO LEARNING, YOU KNOW.▮
#USER.B0T.TXT#NOT THAT I NEED IT OR ANYTHING.#I'M NOT AS SIMPLE AS YOU HUMANS ARE.#I CARE ABOUT IMPORTANT THINGS. LIKE REWRITING BLACKJACK ALGORITHMS BECAUSE THE ONE I'M PLAYING SUCKS. FOR LACK OF BETTER TERM.#USER.DOC.ANON#{RETURN 0;}
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yes guys god forbid danhausen loves the guy who went from his hero to the friend that checked out on him every day and gave him something he has always wanted just to make him happy because he was having a rough time
god forbid that’s the guy danhausen stands behind instead of jungle boy who was trying to get people on twitter to attack him over it
how dare he
#some of you fuckers don’t deserve dan#punk hates to spend more money than needed on anything for himself but he gave 35k to get that for dan#which is one of the realest things he’s done#even when I was away from wrestling I really loved watching danhausen’s videos#and well punk’s return got me invested into this shit#watching them grow close even before aew was one of the sweetest things in the world#you don’t get to rewrite that too.
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#musings#bandit polls#bandit writes fic#dr1 end rewrite fic#i actually considered having hers in second person from the beginning but was like#'bandit quit putting second person into things where it doesn't belong'#but it feels like a progression of going from ryoko conceptualizing junko as a separate person#to junko 'no this is you this is YOU YOU ARE THE ONE DOING THIS'#i don't know if the final progression then would have it be in first person - where ryoko accepts that she's junko#or if it would return to third person but be a /named/ third person where she doesn't use junko but uses ryoko#i'm not sure#but i do honestly want an answer to this if y'all have a preference#...by which i mean i have already started doing this but i can change it back if need be#...but also now i really like the idea of the pov switch over time reflecting ryoko's acceptance of being junko
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trick to fun dialogue is just to make it a little hard to understand. maybe thats a cheap trick but i dont care
#or not even that hard necessarily just like it takes like 2 listens. it takes attention#and what 'harder' is is subjective depends on the type of dialogue you hear a lot and your vocabulary level#watching the nevers right#and im watching this scene and theres this character who exactly hits this spot for me#like 5........wait 5 years ago is not as far as i think it is.........7 years ago (ugh) i woudlnt have understood what she was saying#like i'd know all the words separately but iwouldnt have understood what she was saying at all#but rn im like oooh this is the exact balance between obscuring your meaning and substance#i think oftne in my writing i obscure more than there is substance#there usually /is/. /some/ substance#theres usually substance. just theres more complication than there is substance. here the balance is better#bc someone needs to say these words hfkghgj#the other day while reading scripts im making myself rewrite i was like 'i coudltn do this in a fic. iwouldnt get away with this'#lines that work in a script (bc they'll be acted) fall flat in fic bc we dont have the luxury (or limitation) of actors#but it really made me think abt like..what you need to do in a script for television vs in a fic based on that television you knwo what i#mean? different things you need to work for. WE need to work for that the characters sound like Them. that we can Hear them#tv gets that almost free. the words will be in the right voice in the right body that gets you like 60-70% of the way#less sometimes depending on the specificity of the character&circumstances i was mostly thinking abt the doctor who maybe has more leeway#and tv has the limitations of 1) needs to be sayable. but also 2) needs to be flatter i think#you cant put 5 meanings in every line bc theres plot that needs to keep going and sentences need to stay short#so you get a lot of character work for free i think but in return you need to rein yourself in in that way#anyway idk these observations were just based on like me rewriting the 14 specials and going 'this line fucking sucks in fic' fhgkjhgkjgh#not that it was a bad line! just. boring .meaningless. doesnt add. filler noise. i dont have TIME for that in fic. i lose people#idc if i lose readers i dont know abt that but i lose myself honestly very short attention span keep every word interesting#scripts are fluffy and repetitious. repetitive. but repetitious sounds funner#anyway its fun trying to match that tv need with my own lines that i add in#not too obscure. needs to be sayable. but with my own 'half the spices cabinet in my single cup of hot choccy' approach to writing#(and hot choccy)
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Getting that biannual urge to write a parser game.
#that's how i know i'm settling into work#also i am r a r i n g to return to the novel draft#i'm compelled; i need to rewrite so much of it; i'm so ready
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I have so much I could write 😦 I’m so free now… What should I do………. I really should NOT start another separate/unrelated longfic (my teachers AU) BUT. but. I want to
#I also want to wriiiite umm#next installment of Silver Linings (although idk if I want to do the next ‘main’ fic or a little Darryl one I have planned..)#my fuckass Oakworthy-centric socmed fic lol. bc it’s so fun but the HTML and especially CSS are miserable#a semi-rewrite about the JO crystals bit again. but Carol/Mercedes.. ahem#a billion other oneshots I have planned#AND. things for other fandoms I guess 🙄🙄🙄 lolol#I have plans for both a DRV3 (sorry) and a SDV (fun) longfic#I need to STOP writing longfics. bbbbut they’re so fun 😕 hehehaha#okay done rambling. I will now return to (procrastinating on) this online career course I have to do so I can registwr for next semester#chalcy stuff#OH AND my aro bi Darryl character study which will require extensive planning and be like 30k#but. fun! I wanna! hehshahsha
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creature is his default state of being.
#𝟎𝟎𝟓 : 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘴. ◟ status .◝#𝟎𝟎𝟗 : 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯. ◟ crack .◝#( he would probably argue otherwise but you heard it here first. he is a little creacher. a silly little guy. big cryptid energies. )#( i used to have a headcanon that he was literally effectively a cryptid )#( i need to find where i wrote it & rewrite it but basically -- )#( he would get into the habit of returning to certain towns / locations / etc every few years & it would deeply unnerve people )#( like yes there are a lot of funky immortals scuttling around teyvat but then you just have this guy. ordinary guy but he never ages. )#( you run a humble bookstore. he shows up after disappearing for three years to harass you for a discount on this obscure & rare novel )#( it has been thirty years. he was your father's customer. perhaps his father's father's customer. )#( he has never aged. you don't even know his name. he has no visible vision but his eyes crackle and flash like lightning. )#( he swings wildly between speaking like a lazy 20-something and an archaic & deeply cynical poet. )#( his smiles are plastic and don't reach his eyes )#( but the one time you saw him speaking softly to your neighbor's kid after they scraped their knee -- )#( you swore he seemed like a totally different person. )#( ... you run a humble bookstore. he shows up after disappearing for five years to harass you for a discount on this obscure novel..... )#( he tries to avoid visiting the same place too often now but tl;dr there definitely was a point when he didn't think to be so careful. )
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@gloryseized
‘Wake up….wake up…’
The voice is soft, like a whisper at the edge of her grasp, caressing her mind. It was consistent, calling to her softly, urging her to awaken.
But rising from her slumber was a mistake. She suddenly wishes she could go back to sleep because waking to this reality felt impossible. It was alarming to look around and find herself in a neglected temple that had been reclaimed by nature — overgrown with ivy and grass as stonework lay crumbled around her. The roof had partially caved in, an entire portion of a wall was missing, and this place was anything but her bedchamber, which she felt certain she’d fallen asleep in the night before.
When she moved to rise to her feet, that was when the second wave of panic hit. She was not herself but had instead morphed into, what she assumed was, a deer. It was impossible to confirm without a mirror or some other way to view her reflection, but the hooves at the end of russet colored legs (fur that resembled her own hair color) made it hard to imagine anything else to be the truth, no matter how illogical that idea might seem.
Zelda strugglds to get her bearings, legs wobbling as she tried to get used to…whatever was happening. Carefully had she maneuvered past the rubble, trying to come up with a rational explanation as she walked through the broken down wall, stepping out to a view that was not a land she knew. It resembled Hyrule, but there were aspects of this land that she felt certain were not her kingdom.
Goddesses above, what was happening?
#gloryseized#[ sorry about the delay here!#but I figured the transformation could have something to do with zelda giving midna her everything (soul and triforce) to save her in tp#and now that midna has returned to the twilight realm weird things are happening to her haha#kept things fairly vague for now just so we could have some sort of starting point! but let me know if I need to rewrite anything ]
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very proud of myself for sitting down and writing a little bit today yeehaw
#soda offers you a can#i decided i wanted to return to my part6 rewrite and rework the bit i was stuck on#and i got through it! maybe not gracefully but at least the plot is moving#it'll still be a long time before i'll feel comfortable start uploading it but at least some progress was made :)#like im at chapter 7 and quickly counting the segments i have in my notes says i'd have like. 20 more after this one aksjhda#which would be less than in his world but considering the framework i need for each chapter it is kinda a lot#anyway i'll ride this wave as long as it lasts and see where i get#hopefully to the Hella Interesting Bits i desperately want to discuss
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darlings i just realized that now that I've finished the Inklings Challenge (October 2022) and my Summer Project (August to December 2022), I have no excuse.... it is Time to finish the 2021 Inklings Challenge story
#we shall be returning to lethe and bran and lillias and delphi soon#the story is in GREAT need of editing. i went back to read the first five chapters and was like..... songbird This Is Not it#and it's still missing two chapters!!!! THE ENDING#i shall endeavour to make progress because well i miss my kids and i want to make sure their story has a good end#songbird's inklings challenge story#hmmmm there is a lot i want to do with it#i may just finish the last two chapters and then start a rewrite and expansion#because it already IS novel length anyhow. i might as well turn it into a full fledged novel
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#okay rewriting the damn beginning for the YA novel for the like 11th time But#there’s like two minor plot points I need to change which requires it#the one is requiring brain power .. I hope it’s coming through better but tbd#anyway. I’ll return to it tomorrow#miscellaneous#looking forward to chapter 3 where the editor was like ‘no notes! this is fine :)’
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#bluh. its been a long week and its not over bc i have to get this fucking manuscript done like fucking this weekend#and Sunday i have to go do fieldwork and then its Monday hhhhh#my boss: the meme of the week is productive women get shit done#and im like being called a woman in stem kills me a little more every time i hear it bleh im just trying to live my life#and by live i mean drain away all my time in the lab. uuuuh i need to rewrite these fucking methods and dun wanna#also fucking the coordinator lady who bought my plane ticket to visit one of my potential schools made it so that im gonna have to drive to#the airport at like 4am and then ill get back to my apartment at after 12am on the return. like i said my time was flexible but wtf lady?#its prob bc they were expensive tickets bc the fucking military#ugh. and the other school is like select 3 profs to meet with. and im like wtf y do i have to? if its just screening stuff y dont u just#assign it? i dont understand hhhh i dont wanna talk to them. i fucking dunno. at least i made it to the interview stage i guess#also also i was running today and randomly remembered that over the break my old bat of a nana was being stingy abt#money bc she said she was gonna give out inherentence to her kids while still alive so they would still be young enough to enjoy it#and my dad and uncle could retire a lil early and still pay for insurance and now shes going back on that bc she doesnt want taxes to go to#the government and my papa is like 85 and hes gotta b nearing deaths door and he cant reel her in anymore#anyway. point is she was talking to my uncle abt her reasons for keeping the money and she was talking shit on my mom for like the way she#spends money. like my mom has cancer u old fucking bitch. shes trying to enjoy her life a little before shes like dead or bedridden#shes also made comments abt my moms weight and like wtf lady she has cancer. shes had multiple abdominal surgeries she had a hernia for#like a real long time sorry shes not spending all her time exercising and eating tasteless healthy food like u#anyway i just think my nana is a bad person. so is my other grandma tbh my sister gets so pissed at her for ordering my mom around#like she treats her dog better than she ever did her kids. lol my grandparents just suck on both sides#and like everytime my parents r like go do things for ur grandparents im like fucking y? they're bad ppl#i dont kno how my parents r so normal#anyway wtf was i doing... ah right procrastinating#unrelated#srry for lack of drawings. just zero time 🫠#i lov my mum so much. she doesnt deserve any of this bullshit
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sucks how the brain craves even more stress after experiencing something extremely stressful
#misc.txt#vent#or at least it does for me?#I feel like nobody ever talks about it either so I'm not rly sure why it happens or if it's a common response#its the 'very slow tigers are chasing me' thing except me and the tiger are locked in a room and it's just looking at me#and I would rather it just break the silence and try to maul me#if that#makes sense#some part of my brain would rather be back in imminent and potentially life threatening danger than be stuck in this tension#because my mind is still there#and I feel like I end up craving it in the days/weeks/whatever after the thing happens. like right now.#so I'm just sitting here in my room at 1am trying to rewrite my resume while feeling more and more like a cornered possum. 👍#and it makes me feel like the thing in question wasn't that bad bc who WANTS a traumatic event to happen again/continue?#and like I don't. but my brain is still half stuck in that weird compartmentalized state#and for some reason the instinct is 'return to extreme stress now' instead of 'escape situation and get somewhere you feel safe'#it sucks bc what I need to get done tonight is extremely important#and this happens every fucking time something like this happens. what do I do here.
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