#naturally i am dealing with this situation well (constant tea drinking)

[gingerbreadmonsters]

[facedown on the carpet] oh oolong tea we're really in it now

[dailytatsu]

Hello! I saw request were open so i was wondering if i could request some headcanons of the Archons and/or the Adepti meeting a God reader who is the God of Chaos and destruction. The reader is not a Archon tho and travels all over Teyvat cuz small bits of destruction were ever they go. They're pretty mischievous and somewhat smug but despite how they act they're actually a good person. They dont mean to cause problems(most of the time anyways) chaos follows them were ever they go. Idk if you have a character limit but if you do please tell me so i wont make a mistake again. And if there is you can just do Zhongli and Xiao. Optionally could you make them a dendro user, there not a lot of dendro content and if not thats fine. I understand. Could you make the reader Gn or Non-binary they/them pronouns please? If not male reader is totally fine. Im so sorry for the long post and I hope you have a good day/night!

Ohmy, it’s my first time just writing headcanons! I’m use to write a lot, so let’s hope I did it right (^ ^' )7

Thanks for the request! ✨

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[HC] God of Chaos! Reader and the Archons + Xiao

Characters: Zhongli, Xiao, Venti, Shogun Raiden (Ei).

Gn! Reader

I tried doing it with everyone but I’m no still that confident to try writing with some characters ＿|￣|○

Sorry for any mistakes!

Request are open!

Genshin Masterlist

Second part ->

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VENTI

To be honest, he didn't notice your presence at first. He had other concerns on his mind that day to perceive the chaotic (and slightly threatening) aura that Mondstadt was infected with that day.

Barbatos is a person of habit, so he couldn't help but be curious when the crowd in front of him began to look a little agitated instead of seeming to enjoy his lyre and his songs.

But then a series of domino events appeared in front of his very eyes.

The purity of the chaos was such that he felt overwhelmed, even without the white-haired boy around, if it wasn’t Bennett fault, then how was it possible for everything to be ruined in such a short time?

His patience ended when, out of nowhere, the strings of his lyre jumped close to his face as they snapped. Making that awful noise that couldn’t mean nothing good.

Okay, enough, who is messing around in here? No more joking in his nation!

He concentrated a little, a faint but unique presence kept his nerves on edge, as if he was being watched from afar. He moved away from the busy areas and then chased that ephemeral energy to the highest point of the church, where the bells were ringing in an irregular and stressful way.

Then he found you. Snoozing against one of the columns, somewhat tired because the trip you made to reach Mondstadt.

Surprisingly, Barbatos understood you since the first exchange of words. A god of chaos who was also a free spirit, you followed no rules ever written in Teyvat, and you had no plans to apologize for the mess you made.

Both of you were Zhongli’s worst nightmare, but that’s another story.

He managed to through your arrogance and your teasing nature that you, in fact, were a lonely spirit that liked to witness the life from above of everyone.

The difference between teasing someone accidentally and committing a crime was really visible, but he still couldn't help but feel like he should scold you after your mere presence messed up with the guild's baskets full of fish.

But hey! He also enjoy the company! Venti tried to teach you how to enjoy the calm and the whisper of wind, music can also contain chaos, feelings, old stories waiting to be told again, expressions and desire united, in a wonderful piece of-

As you yawned his lyre broke up again. Making clear the message.

Okay, not even God of Freedom and Wind can control chaos. Anyways, what a tragedy, but there’s nothing a simple bard can do, smh.

“Do you like kids, don’t you?” He said once, after a nice day of hearing him sing before your chaos reached his little concert. Again watching everyone from above on the hands of the statue, with your attention caught by some kids playing tag.

“… I don’t know what do you mean.” Once discovered you had no choice but to remain defensive, pretending to be disinterested.

“Heh, you aren’t a good liar.” It may not be the wisest thing to make fun of someone who could destroy the place where you were resting, but Venti was confident that he knew you well enough to know that you were not so explosive. “You know!, I just have some pieces, but I think it’s because they are little walking concentrations of pure and innocent chaos, am I wrong?”

He wasn’t, no at all. But you would never confess something that embarrassing.

This guy wrote a ballad about the days when Mondstadt got immerse with that strike of bad luck. Kind of an apology of not being able to handle the situation.

Now there’s the rumor that says that, every time somebody sings that song, something unlucky will happen in front of you.

The song is cursed.

One night when the moon was shining on the Cider Lake his well tuned ears distinguished a melody that was broken from time to time by the accidents of his performer, distracting him of his way to look for you.

It could be painful to listen to, but Venti could certainly feel the dedication of the one who was playing the imperfect song.

The ballad of the god of chaos, hummed like a lullaby that instead of making you sleep makes you question the events of the day. Wishing for the slightest thing to be different after an exhaustive week of peace and tranquility.

A lonely spirits cursing their existence, sitting in the highest point of a stranger’s palace, where you can reach the sky by only rising your hand.

The next day, Barbatos invited you to drink some wine, this time near Windrise to avoid accidents in the city.

As he almost dropped the bottle when a lot of slimes were attracted by your presence, he confirmed the theory about that the way to spend time with you would not be his personal definition of hanging out.

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ZHONGLI

Okay, there’s only two scenarios that could happened when you set a foot in Liyue.

Old man has a soft spot for you for being a relative young deity.

Or he’s always lecturing you for not having control of your aura and powers.

How u dare bringing chaos to the nation of order? It’s that a death wish?

Jokes aside, you’re not really a threat. And he could sense that after he saw how you tried to avoid having direct contact with the city. Rex Lapis found your silhouette jumping and crossing through the mountains until reaching the fairest point that allowed you to enjoy the view of the streets that were filled with life and light as the sunsets.

He even noticed how you sighed in frustration when a storm started out of nowhere. A rain dedicated just for the arriving of the God of Chaos. Not even bothering of getting shield, you stayed in your place to look at all the people who were getting back to their places.

The rain seemed to stop over your head, for a second was enough to stop you from being cruelly swamped by the very weather you had created. An elegant umbrella covered you, the long awaited surprise you expected from someone as outdated as Morax.

You looked up, and found his expression calm and attentive, watching you. As if he had made a great discovery that he could not believe

“May I have a moment of your time to keep you company? Letting out your sorrows in the middle of a torrential storm is not what I would recommend as way to spend a good day.”

“… What are you talking about? Get in your own business, old man.”

“Well, you should know that a sorrow shared is a sorrow halved.”

Next time you knew was that he was helping you to dry your hair with a towel once you let him guide you to his place.

Zhongli picked you up like a abandoned cat that day. Even if having you near meant to deal with new the roof leaks.

Also kept you away from Hu Tao, if you two ever get along for being partners in crime he would seal himself underground-

For all the time you spend exploring Liyue, there he was. Like a little kid showing his treasures. But also like a worried father looking after his child for them not to stumble making their first steps.

Look at you! Almost crushing those Treasure Hoarders when a bunch of rocks fell down after you jumped at the edge of the cliff.

Wait, no- come back here! You should verify the surroundings and be aware of the weight of your power if you’re going to explore in that bold way. You, chaotic brat.

Another one who believed fervently that your mood was to blame for the constant chaos you caused. He also tried to show you the wonders of peace and calm, teaching you how to prepare tea while listening to the storyteller (also both being a little far away from the rest of them, just in case).

He couldn’t help but sigh when the teapot arm broke as soon as you tried to serve the tea. What a waste, he thought.

You apologized to him, kind of stressed with yourself after you took all the pieces with your bare hands to run away with them. Leaving a confused Zhongli behind.

Next day you were back, with the teapot repaired and just like new.

He let out a lot of thankful words, some flattering and a lot more cheesy things that you never had received before.

With that unexpected affection you couldn’t help but react flustered; then a cat that was chasing a bird jumped through a lot of decorations and merchandise, almost starting a fire as the chained events kept going.

Yeah,, uh, Zhongli got some useful mental notes about you and your chaos that day.

Hey, before you go, want to make a contract? You won’t regret it!

But as the wandering spirit you were you had no problems in reject his offer, but also promising that you would visit Liyue if he wanted you to.

Of course he wanted! But.. maybe next time you should stay in Huaguang Stone Forest instead of roaming near the city,,

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XIAO

Tried to kill you.

I mean, your aura is threatening and full of a destructive energy, how is possible that you weren’t a demon to eradicate??

Sorry, but he had a point.

Your first met was on your way to reach Huaguang Stone Forest along with Zhongli for introduce you with the Adeptus.

Xiao, in the other side, thought that you were about to attack Morax from behind, so he just struck against you. With his polearm near to go through your chest, just stopped because you felt him before.

Lifting your hand at his direction, summoning chaos, this time, on purpose. The wind gained a wrathful nature and the biggest roots that were hiding under his feet rose to caught him.

And when you were about to hit each other Zhongli’s shield appeared just in time to separate both of you. Preventing a real catastrophic event.

Now stop fighting and introduce to each other.

Nice(n’t) to meet u.

What if you tried to awake Azhdaha to bring chaos and destruction to Liyue? What if you wanted to summoned Osial? What if… ?

Zhongli had to confirm and promise to him that those cruel possibilities won’t be a near future for respecting the real reason of your travel.

No matter if he wasn’t comfortable with your presence, it wasn’t his decision to allow you to roam freely, so he had to get use to it.

He immediately knew after hearing about your nature that was your fault that lately there were a lot more demons and monsters. Even his karma was getting more painful than usual.

(If you ever meet Hu Tao, please think twice before doing Xiao a prank)

You both didn’t interact a lot, and being honest, it was better that way.

He hadn’t a single intention of talking with you again until the day you were practicing the song that your Anemo friend taught you. By the other hand, Xiao noticed that the melody had the same nature as the one he once heard before being consumed by the karma.

It wasn’t a flute, but a worn lyre that was still in one piece after weeks of being repaired again and again.

“That song… ”

“Do you know it?” Xiao just nodded, staying in silence, being your very first audience even if you still have a lot to learn about playing a lyre.

It wasn’t as effective as the original, but was still… nice, kind of nostalgic.

Next morning, the Yaksha called for you. Made you stay still in the middle of a plain and then he disappeared of your sight.

He abandoned y- wait, what’s that? Why those monsters has that weird dark aura?

You were about to defend yourself until Xiao appeared back just in time to defeat them.

That day you became his personal bait for demons and monsters. Naturally you attracted chaos, so anyway you were, there will be also something to fight.

I guess this is your way to pay for all the troubles you made for him and his duty, so no complaining about it.

If you ask for a unexpected experience to Ganyu she would said that once she found both of you fighting along against the catastrophe, looking after each other’s back and almost having a perfect synchrony.

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SHOGUN RAIDEN; EI

Also tried to kill you.

Well, the puppet tried to.

And then Ei tried when you had the opportunity of facing her.

But since killing a god just mean the releasing of a lot, pure, energy she couldn’t afford that risk, much less considering your “speciality”.

Who knows what would happen to Inazuma if your vital energy burst across the nation. Just like that old story about Sal Terrae and their goddess.

She just defeated you. Letting you rest and recovering in the midst of the plane of her reality within her mind. Your inert body in the middle of the battlefield as she kept meditating.

When you woke up she ignored your presence, but also denying your complaints about letting you go out back.

In her words, you were a burden, another enemy of eternity. Something as unpredictable as you and your “accidents” couldn’t get along with her utopia.

Ei could banish you from Inazuma, but she knows your type. Stubborn and not accepting the most simple orders to obey.

She knew that you would found a way to be back.

It’s better like this.

And in the hypothetical case of you being freed when she trapped the traveler (kicking you out) and then having a chance to see her again after the end of the war, then things would be somewhat different.

There’s not that much of civilization on some islands, so she allowed you to explore as much as your heart wanted. But if something serious happen, she promised that would end her work in the middle of the sea so your remains never be found.

Okay, message clear. Just do chaos near monsters and bandits, got it,,

Even if she wanted to spend some time with you and telling you some stories about Inazuma and other gods she couldn’t found the right time to call you at her presence.

As the current ruler of Inazuma she was busier than the rest of Archons you have meet. Maybe just some letters now and then like a way to keep a logbook, but not really a face to face talk.

Until she got the opportunity of a day off, just to found you messing around near some ruins. Trying to solve a puzzle before your speciality strikes in. The structure fell down after your fingertips reached the stone.

When the dust dissipated, you discovered her figure judging you from the other side of the remain ruins.

Give her a good reason for not errase you from the map, I dare u.

You felt the worst was about to come when Ei ordered you to follow her after a long sigh. Crossing her arms and starting to walk away from the bunch of old and worn rock.

Plot Twist, she actually invited you to rest under a tree, asking in her serene voice the reason for your journey and your origin. In such a direct way that it seemed more like a sentence than a talk to get to know each other better.

You answered what you could remember and then the silence stayed like the only way of interaction between you two.

Ohno, you know this pattern. Something’s about to happen-

“There is some strange beauty in the chaos, it may be the calm after the storm, but the catastrophe itself is seen as a necessary evil to appreciate the stillness. How much it would last until the lighting hit the valley?”

“So I arrived to keep order between the humans?”

Well yes, but actually no.

“… You see, if there is nothing but order and a lack of problems, mortals are likely to create them on their own. Their minds feels the need to be tested, to prove their worth, so I guess some of your chaos may be part of the history.”

“… then shall we take a walk in Inazuma?” You did not know if you were right, but you thought you saw a faint smile through his lips in the same way that lightning can be seen in the sky.

“I’ll allow it.” She said.

Her only condition was for you not to approach the huge boxes of fireworks down the street.

[bnha-more-like-bnh-gay]

Bnha as things I’ve said during ✨mental breakdowns✨ part 3:

Izuku: I’m nervous, so I need to pace, but I’m dizzy from pacing so much

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Mina: I would like you all to know that I win at therapy: I have made my therapist cry and laugh, a n d,,,, she said that I was her favorite patient after I introduced her to one of my stuffed animals

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Mei: I keep mixing up my “be gay, do crime” playlist with my “✨espionage✨” playlist. This is a problem, as one of them makes me want to kiss girls, and the other one makes me want to steal from big corporations. What I need to remember is that the two can coexist

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Monoma: I am singlehandedly the best, and worst person alive; and I think that deserves some credit

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Izuku: I love when people tell me that they love my personality, because 9/10 I’m just like, “thanks, it’s yours!”

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Uraraka: why do people keep thinking I’m at the bottom of the food chain?! I’m at the top of the food chain! I’ll fight you, I’ll fight you mom!

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Izuku: if you’re failing at life, you have to do well in your classes. That is why I study so rigorously and have no life

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Shouto: I have mommy issues, I have daddy issues, I have sibling issues, and I have regular issues. How fun am I.

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Jirou: can the world just like,,, chill? For one goddamn day

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Kirishima: why be yourself when you can be a fictional character you admire and relate to?

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Izuku: I find it ironic that my earphones can go through the washer and come out okay, but I can’t go through a day without sobbing

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Shinsou: Excuse me, I did not ask to be born and, quite frankly, I am very bitter that I was

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Monoma: I hate myself so much, I am the best person alive

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Shouto, altered slightly to fit the situation: suck on that, dad; I’m a f*cking disappointment! Hah!!

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Kaminari, who has never touched a drop of alcohol I’m his life: I’m to sober to deal with this

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Aoyama and/ or Uraraka: I may be small and cute, but I can kick your head off

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Aoyama: I am mentally ill and writing a musical about it

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Izuku, altered slightly to fit the situation: fuck you, kacchan I am extraordinary; even my therapist thinks I’m too broken to fix

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Shinsou: it’s insani-tea; therefore, if I drink coffee, I can avoid it

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Izuku and/or Sero: a kangaroo pouch can hold an entire living being inside it, and I can’t even hold my life together

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Sero: sure, flex tape can hold a boat together, but can it hold this fucking trauma??? No. No the fuck it cant

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Izuku: dammit, I’m the fictional character that I always yell at

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Shinsou: coffee is the only constant in this life

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Bakugou: why destroy yourself when you can destroy things, like your relationships, will to live, and glass

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Mina: ah yes, destroying things; my preferred method of exercise, along with running from my problems and dancing

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Mina and Aoyama: 🎵and we dance,, the trauma,,, away! away, away, away, away! We dance,, the trauma, away, hey hey!🎵

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Aoyama: i have mental breakdowns way too much… it’s a good thing I make them look hot

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Sero: I don’t know if I’m so funny because of the trauma, or because of natural born talent. Probably a bit of both; either way, I aim to amuse and confuse

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Monoma: I am a national treasure that the world never wanted, but f*cking needed

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Kaminari: you get really weak after a mental breakdown to match your weakened mental state

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Iida: and I’m just going to take my glasses off, so that I can no longer see the hideous world I was brutally forced to live in

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Mina: I’m the smartest ditz in the business

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Shouto: yeah? Well I’m too much of a problem that even my therapist broke up with me

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Aoyama: I might me cute, and small, and a femme gay, but I crave violence! Despite my fear of conflict

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Kaminari and/or izuku: I’m just listening to sad music, and reading sad fanfics, which is not good for me; but when have I ever done anything that would benefit me?

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Shouto *altered slightly to fit the situation*: about to go beat a punching bag with a bat and pretend it’s my father face

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Shouto: I have just found out that my entire personality is just trauma response… I hate that for me

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Mina: who has time to feel safe? I’m to busy being pretty

[inwintersolitude]

- December 31st 2020 -

How do you handle people who are overly enthusiastic all the time? I can deal with them in small amounts, but after a while their constant enthusiasm starts to feel fake and overdone, which can be annoying and make me not want to be around them.

Do you smoke? Nope, never have.

Do people say you look like a certain celebrity? I remember being told years ago that I look like a certain celebrity, but now I can't remember who it was.

Who do you think you look like? I think I look like Mia Wasikowska. Not super similar, her hair is a bit lighter than mine, but more similar than any other celebrity I've seen.

Do you ever run as fast and as far away as you can for no apparent reason? Nope.

Does running make you feel less stressed out? No, exercise doesn't have any anti-anxiety effects for me, unfortunately.

Best cure for a hangover? Meh, I wouldn't know. I've only been drunk/hungover once in my life. Hated the feeling of being drunk. Never again.

Do you have hope in bad situations? Yes, I think I'm pretty good at holding on to hope.

Name a flaw that you think you have: I can be quite pedantic. It probably annoys people who don't know me well, haha.

Name something that you like about yourself: I'm a very self-assured and independent person. I think for myself, do what I want, and go about life on my own terms regardless of what others think/say and regardless of what's considered “normal” or “conventional.”

Do you have a cynical outlook on life? Maybe just about a few specific things. But not on life in general.

What's an assumption people make about you? That I'm feminine, which is a laughable assumption. It's probably the medium-long hair that makes people think that... as if hair length had anything to do with masculinity/femininity hahahah.

What's an outfit that you wear that makes you feel hot? Cargo pants, hiking boots, and my favorite navy/green plaid flannel shirt.

Do people view you as a strong person? I don't know.

Are you stronger mentally or physically? Mentally. I used to be an absolute beast when I was in my late teens and early 20s, mostly due to the physical nature of my airport ops job, but I'm not nearly as physically strong anymore. I'm actually pretty physically weak now because of musculoskeletal problems that make it difficult to do any serious weightlifting.

Did you get picked on as a freshman? No.

What's a word that you overuse? I don't know.

Ever been admitted to a hospital? Yes.

Who was your first love? My husband.

Do you hate reality tv? I don't have any interest in most of it. The only reality TV shows that I like are The Great British Bake Off, and occasionally House Hunters International.

Ever loved someone who didn't love you back? No.

Don't you hate when people act like they know what you're talking about but really don't have a clue? I guess.

Do you believe in Tyler Durden? Meh. It's been so long since I last saw that movie.

Ever changed yourself for a crush/bf/gf? No. My husband loves me just the way I am.

Do you have a laid back personality? Yep.

Write the names of the song you're listening to, then write "in my pants" after it. Childish, I know. Just do it. XD I'm not listening to any music.

Had a blast from the past recently? Yeah, my husband and I recently went hiking the day after a snowstorm. Being out in the woods in the snow reminds me of my childhood so much.

Ever done karaoke? Did you like it? Just once at a sleepover in high school. I didn't really enjoy it.

Ever had a paranormal encounter? No.

Goriest movie you've ever seen? I'm not sure.

Ever been to court? Nope.

Ever seen a pregnant woman smoking/drinking? Not that I can recall, but maybe?

What kinds of little things make you happy? A perfect cup of tea on a cold day, visiting my hometown and my favorite hiking trails in the national park I grew up next to, having a perfect landing in Flight Sim (not as good as a perfect landing while flying a real plane of course but I can't medically pilot a plane anymore so Flight Sim is the next best thing lol).

What's something you want for your next birthday? My next birthday is in less than a week, but I don't want anything. It's weird having your birthday only 12 days after Christmas.

Ever traveled across your country? Yes.

Do you have a hero? No.

Do you hate when people talk to you about their relationships? I don't mind it, as long as they're not getting overly mushy/emotional about it, or complaining about their partner to me. I think it's in really poor taste when people complain to others about their relationship problems.

Are you obsessed with candles? No. I stopped burning candles when I got pet birds. Birds have very sensitive respiratory systems and smoke and strong artificial scents can be harmful for them.

Ever gotten your revenge on someone? No.

Favorite kind of insence? I don't like any. It gives me headaches.

Don't you hate when you get hit on by creepers? D: Of course I hate it, although thankfully that has only happened a few times.

[survey source: Bzoink.com/S170659]

[spidercrimes]

if it's not too much to write, how about All even numbers for the OC asks for either character of your choice! or both if you're feelin wild whatever works : ]

wheezes this took so long but im finally done holy shit

2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?

Echo doesn’t have any official titles, and isn’t really planning on getting any, unless Champion of Sune counts?

4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents?

Echo has a very good relationship with her moms! To their knowledge, things were a bit tense after leaving Ivydome, but plenty of letters and visiting when they could helped with smoothing over their relationship. A good memory would be when her moms taught Echo how to bake! They can really only bake cupcakes and cookies but theyre like. Hella good ones. They dont really have any bad memories with/of their parents, since like. They will forcibly forget or repress anything that upsets them, as long as it only affected them. If the memory is something bad that affected others it will linger for however long Echo deems necessary(read: an extremely long time)

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

They were there and graduated fantasy high school what more do you want from them jkdxxjndk.  They started working at the local sweets shop after school, so no higher level of education here! They like history a bit, but that’s about it tbh!

8. Did they have pets as a child? Do they have pets as an adult? Do they like animals?

Yes! Echo had a pet cat back at Ivydome with her moms, and before the campaign she didn’t really have the money to keep another, so they settled for feeding and playing with the stray cats in Summervale.

10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?

Hmmm, Echo doesn’t mind children?? but there’s only so long they can be around them before she gets overwhelmed. Children like them well enough since Echo is always up for playing songs or messing around with cantrips. Echo would be the fun parent/godparent/babysitter, but. Please dont make them look after children they dont want any.

12. What is their favourite food?

Give my child spicy noodles or give him death

14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?

Their first cake made without supervision was. A disaster to put it lightly since someone was feeling ambitious.(it turned out like rubber and after that he was too flustered n frustrated to focus so everything else turned out badly too) So they dont bother with that anymore! Cake mistakes who i dont know her sdkjjkdbs. So half the time they pass by anything with some type of airy sponge cake they cringe lololol

16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it?

She had a rock and shiny things collection back at Summervale! They’re mostly for decoration, although some with certain textures are used for stimming. Some rocks are kept on shelves, but most are stored in cool jars to save space

18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else

Echo is a sucker for romance novels and fun, upbeat music! Idk if video games, films, or video games exist in-universe, but if they did, they’d like dramas and baking shows, rpgs, and more character focused games like nitw

20. Do they like musicals? Music in general? What do they do when they’re favourite song comes?

They love music, and they’d like musicals too! They will grab their lute and play along if their favorite song came on, and if nobody was around then maybe they’d sing too. Maybe. 

22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?

tbh their go-to insult is calling someone a prick or a bastard, and it’s usually for whenever someone’s done something particularly scummy. Or if someone is just. The Absolute Worst. It’s a leftover habit from when they used to live in Ivydome, but Echo usually sticks to talking shit when the target is. Very far away/not in the area.

24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?

They try and get around six hours, to varying success, and to their knowledge they dont snore! Echo loves soft things and would prefer to sleep on a soft mattress with So Many blankets and pillows and maybe a cuddle buddy

26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions?

Fun fact echo does a tounge blep when she’s happy!! They tend to do lil happy claps and bounce up and down in place when they’re really excited, but when it’s a more calm-type of happy he purrs loudly and smiles a lot more than usual! 

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

He’s claustrophobic and is terrified of being alone again or having to leave people behind even when the situation calls for it. So like. He aint copin too well after the last session! They get very flustered and panicked and freeze when theyre scared

30. Do they exercise? Regularly? Or only when forced? What do they act like pre-work out and post-work out?

Does going on champion quests and running from his problems count as exercise or???

32. What do they dress like? What sorta shops do they buy clothes from? Do they wear the fashion that they like? What do they wear to sleep? Do they wear makeup? What’s their hair like?

Crop tops with long sleeves, shorts, and boots make up most of their wardrobe and they love it. Theyd go to like the fantasy equivalent of marshalls i think? Somewhere with good deals and a lot of options. Overlarge shirts, tank top crop tops, and more shorts make up their pjs. They dont really wear makeup, mostly bc they touch their face a lot and it feels weird the whole time, but they wouldnt be opposed to wear a lil bit every now and then! Their hair is floofy and a bit of a controlled mess since they cut it themselves

34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?

Echo is 5’9”/ 175.26 cm! Theyre on the average side i think? Like theyre not super skinny but not fat either so just. Avergae. And yeah, Echo likes their body, theyre so bright! And their horns are so cute and having a tail is very handy and claw maintenance can be a bit of a pain but like. Aesthetic am i right folks

36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?

Hes good at playing the lute and generally being very cute and giving out good vibes, and he likes baking and playing music! They can sing, but really only do that when theyre playing their lute ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?

Echo admires passion and creativity the most, and dont let anyone from the party know but he wishes he could be just. A bit smarter and know what to say + ask. Theyd also really like to be able to make a decent genoise sponge too like theyre not picky

40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?

Theyre a tea drinker all the way, and arent the biggest fan of sweet things. He used to use more tart or mellow flavors when baking. They def arent alert after being tired for a while, and will space out a bit

42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?

No secret ambitions here, Echo is an open book(unless they roll high on deception dvdjxb)! Becoming Sune’s champion, making a decent sponge cake, and protecting his friends with his life/in any way they can are all their current goals. Echo doesn’t care too much if they get hurt, so physical well-being and maybe mental are things they wouldn't mind sacrificing, but as a whole they don’t really want to think about what they’d have to give up. He’ll burn that bridge when he gets to it. 

44. What is their favourite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most?

If its cold, wet, or humid echo is not a happy camper lol. They prefer summer and the beginning of fall the most, and sunny days with lots of puffy white clouds are the best! They think its fun watching the clouds shadows on the ground. They’re better in hot weather than cold, since clothes for that type of weather are easier to dress for and they dont have to account for their tail or horns as much

46. Do they make a good first impression? Does their first impression reflect them accurately? How do they introduce themselves?

God i hope they make a good first impression im dying over here xjkxdk but honestly it depends! They try to make a good first impression and i think they usually do? But if theyve just finished with a job w the gang or theyre just. So tired they wont really introduce themselves at all.  Its pretty accurate of how they are, and their go-to greeting is “I’m Echo Barquiel, a pleasure to meet you dearie~” 

48. Do they enjoy any parties? If so what kind? Do they organise the party or just turn up? How do they act? What if they didn’t want to go but were dragged along by a friend?

In theory they’d like parties but being around so many people with that much noise for an unknown amount of time would not be. Ideal so smaller get-togethers with friends would be the most enjoyable! Echo doesnt really have the uh, space to host anything so theyd just turn up to other’s parties. Theyd be in a constant state of switching between ‘holy shit im so gay’ and ‘oh my god theres so many people/internal screaming’. If they were dragged to a party, theyd mingle for a leelte bit before stepping out

50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?

A bedroll, waterskin, food supplies, rope, knives, a lute, matches, money- yknow regular survival stuff!

[maple-writes]

So this one’s a little shorter than usual, but here we go!

I didn’t remember much of the ride back to the college, nor exactly how we got from the underground parking to Ginger’s office. But here I sat, sinking into a chair across from her desk like every muscle weight twice what they should. My head fell back and I slumped further down the chair’s worn surface. I probably hadn’t said much on the trip back, not with the thick haze filling my head.

           Besides the soft sounds of Ginger rummaging through something in the other room, her office was wonderfully quiet compared to the constant background din of the car’s motor or the ambient conversations throughout the college’s twisting hallways. I took a deep breath and let my heavy eyelids close, shielding my stinging eyes from what little light came from the half-dimmed chandelier. This really was the worst part…

           Footsteps came from the other room and I squinted as Ginger stopped before my chair. She smiled warmly and placed a mug of something steaming on the desk in front of me.

           “Here,” She gestured towards it as she took a seat on her side of the table. “It might make you feel better.”

           Groaning, I forced myself to sit up far enough to take the mug in my hands. It was warm, comforting, but I hesitated when I peered into the mug. Whatever this was it was very dark red.

           Ginger laughed softly. “Oh don’t give it that look, I know what you’re thinking.” She leaned back in her chair, running her hands over the armrests. “There’s no blood in there whatsoever. It’s kind of like a tea, a blend I came up with when I was working with Wendy, another cambion.”

           I nodded, not sure if I spoke the okay that ran through my head, and took a sip of the drink. It was spicier than it looked, but still a little sweet. Sure enough, as I slowly drank, the fog started to lift, taking the heaviness in my limbs with it as it went. By the time I was halfway through I felt almost as alert as I’d been before talking with Janice.

           “Wow,” I raised my head, blinking. “This is… Good.”

           Ginger smiled. “Good to see it’s working on you too.” She leaned forward. “You’re not looking quite so pale and dead anymore, and I take it talking is a good sign.” She paused as I nodded. “If you like I can give you some to take home.”

           I nodded. “Please. That, would be great.” I’d never been able to recover so quickly before. If I could avoid spending at least a day on the couch after each encounter… I never thought there could be another way.

           “Sure thing then.” She wrote something down on a notepad beside her computer. “Before you go though, and now that you’re actually present and here, I’d like to go over what I saw today.”

           Right, she did say something about that earlier, didn’t she? I nodded. “Go ahead.”

           Ginger pulled out her little notebook and laid it open on the desk in front of her, eyes tracing over whatever words she’d written down. “So, overall I’m not worried about your ability to keep a level head or anything like that, so that’s good.” Her eyes flickered upwards, head steady. “In the past I’ve had apprentices get scared or panic when things start to go south but you seemed to keep yourself under control well enough.”

           “Thanks,” I nodded, lifting the mug to take another sip. It made sense though; it wasn’t the worst I’ve ever dealt with.

           “I can tell you’re fairly comfortable with the dead, which is also good.” She continued. “I didn’t expect the female spirit to trust you or even approach you that easily either, and I suspect that there is something about you—maybe pertaining to your cambion situation—that draws spirits towards you.” She paused, tapping her finger against the side of her cheek thoughtfully. “While that might come in handy in situations like this, it may become a challenge if you start attracting the wrong beings. If you draw in the spirits of the dead there’s not reason demons will not feel that same pull, so be careful.”

           Again, I nodded and swallowed the last of the drink. Did others have challenges with getting spirits to talk? The only ones I hadn’t been able to connect with were the ones at the graveyard. But it never occurred to me that demons could feel it too.

           Ginger leaned back, taking her notebook in her hands. “I will say though, that I’m going to want you to move away from letting yourself be possessed so easily, especially as a first resort.” She raised her eyes, making contact with mine. “At least fully, anyway. I’m sure you can understand just how dangerous that kind of strategy can be.”

           I nodded. Striker was always telling me how much he’d rather I didn’t do that. “It’s just what comes most naturally.”

           “And that’s fine.” Ginger made a note of something in her book. “And perhaps we can find a way to make that kind of thing safer, but we’ll have to work on it.” She paused. “My main concern of course is you becoming fully possessed or otherwise injured in the process. If that man’s spirit had managed to enter your body at the same time as the girl that could have been fatal, you know.”

           “Really?”

           She nodded, the room going quiet except the ticking of a Hello Kitty clock on the wall. I swallowed. Maybe Striker was right. Maybe I really did have to be more careful… I cradled my still-warm mug in my lap.

           “Hey,” Ginger leaned back. “Don’t worry about that yet. Like I said, if you already knew everything you wouldn’t be here.” She smiled, sharp teeth glinting ivory white in the low light. “Besides, you’re in good hands. If you had become twice possessed I would have stepped in.” She didn’t give me time to respond before she continued. “Also, it’s not a critique as much as an observation you should probably be aware of, but you, well you look a little different when you’re possessed.”

           I leaned forward, tension slinking it’s way around my throat, sitting heavy on my chest. “What do you mean?”

           Ginger paused, thinking. “Well, it doesn’t seem to manifest right away, but your appearance gradually changed.” She gestured towards her face. “Your eyes went all black and you didn’t blink much, which was odd.” She paused again. “But then you, well you got horns, and possibly a tail.”

           I blinked, mouth opened but no idea what to say. “I…” Worry clenched hard and cold around my chest. Maybe I wasn’t as like my mother as I thought.

           “It was, odd to say the least.” She rested her arms along the sides of her chair, watching me as if trying to figure out how much she should say. “They didn’t appear to be fully corporeal either. I didn’t want to touch, but moving around you they seemed to fade in and out depending on the angle and the light.” She tilted her head. “I don’t yet know what exactly to think about that, and I’m going to look into it for you. Everything did go back to normal as soon as the spirit had left your body, so that’s good.”

           “Thank you.” I sounded small, like I was as scared as I felt. “I…” It seemed it was good I’d gotten in here now instead of later, before something happened . “I didn’t know any of that.” I massaged the back of my neck. “And I’m not really sure what I should do now. Am I in danger?” Was I dangerous?

           Ginger shrugged. “No more in danger than you were before I told you anything. However, if I were you I would be more cautious if I’m not around, in regards to how you communicate with the other worldly. And if you are going to invite them in, maybe warn those around you. Don’t opt to do it alone though if you can avoid it.” She stood from her chair, the creak echoing softly through the room. “Most of all, don’t worry too much about it. Nothing bad happened today, and we don’t know if the appearance thing is even a big deal yet.” She smiled again, soft and encouraging. “And hey, you did manage to successfully exorcise that spirit in the end. Cling to that if you start worrying.”

I sighed, letting my shoulders sag into the chair. “Thanks, Ginger.” As much as I wanted to believe her, I couldn’t help but worry.

           “No problem kiddo.” She held out her hand. “Done with the cup?” She let me hand it to her, careful not to let her fingers brush mine as she took the mug into her grip. “I’ll grab you some of this to bring home, okay?”

           I nodded, and she turned to disappear back into the little room at the other end of her office. I got up from my own chair, shifting from foot to foot. How much should I tell Striker? Surely he was going to ask how it went today. I sighed. Maybe he would be happy with only some of the facts…

           “Alright, here you go!” Ginger stepped back in the room with a little jar filled with a mixture of something that looked a little bit like tea. “About a spoonful per cup, steep for a few minutes and you should be good to go. If it doesn’t work right, steep longer and it should help more.” She set it on the table in front of me, then slipped her hands into her pockets. “Are you alright to find your way back?”

           I took the little jar, turning it over in my hand. “I think so.” I started to turn towards the door. “Thanks again.”

           Ginger waved her hand dismissively. “Don’t mention it.” She hopped up on the edge of her desk, legs dangling in the empty space in front of her. “See you Wednesday.”

           “Right.” I nodded, pulling the door open just enough to slip through. “See you then.” Nothing that bad could happen between now and then, right?

[autstudy]

Hey, do you have any tips for dealing with severe anxiety about everything and/or fatigue + burnout and/or procrastination and perfectionism? This makes no sense because I’m typing it at 1am but help please I’m struggling

Hi, sorry it took me so long to answer this. November is a very busy month for me so I barely have time (and energy) to set up the queue. I do have some time right now so I’ll try to give you a good reply.

For fatigue, it’s important to consider a lot of the factors. 

Are you getting enough sleep? Eight hours is the standard, but it isn’t true for everyone. Some people require more, some people are okay with less, and for some one long period of uninterrupted sleep is not the best option and extra naps or breaks in between sleeping are needed. I have a post here about dealing with sleeping disorders, and you can search my blog for more info too.

Is your nutrition fulfilling all your body’s needs? You need calories, a good balance of proteins, carbs and fats, and also a whole list of macro- and micronutrients. If good healthcare is accessible to you, get a blood test to check whether you have any deficiencies. If it isn’t, (and just in general) make sure you eat a diverse diet and as much unprocessed food as you can afford/have time to cook, and you can take vitamin C and vitamin B supplements too (those are water-soluble vitamins so it’s very hard to overdose on them). Anemia, vitamin B and vitamin D deficiencies often cause fatigue, so it’s worth checking for that.

Also many neurodivergent people are hypo-sensitive to hunger and thirst signals, so sometimes it makes sense to pay more attention to how much you eat and drink. A good indicator of your hydration levels is the color of your pee - it should be a pretty mild shade of yellow. If you can’t drink pure water (which is best for you), drink any beverage of your choice - it’s all okay, as long as you aren’t consuming too much simple sugar or caffeine.

On that note, overusing caffeine can make you feel hella tired when you crash. My rule of thumb is no more than two coffees or black teas a day, and nothing with caffeine 6 hours before bed.

For autistic people, the need to pass as neurotypical (and socialization in general) can burn up a lot of energy. If it is like that for you, try to limit the time you have to spend with people - as long as you aren’t isolating yourself or starting to feel lonely. It’s crucial to have people in your life who you can be yourself with. I know it’s easier said than done, but honestly, even spending some time with a pet or chatting to a friend online can feel better than having to pass in uni/college.

Not enough exercise is a common culprit when it comes to fatigue. If your health and time limitations don’t allow you to hit the gym or join a sports team, you can get plenty of exercise by just walking. Five hours of energetic walking a week is usually enough to get the benefits of exercise. Bonus points if you have a park or a forest nearby - studies show that being close to nature makes us calmer somehow, and although it doesn’t work for everyone, it’s worth a shot.

There are many disorders that can cause constant fatigue - from depression to metabolic disorders like diabetes, being tired is a very common symptom. I’m not saying you must have a disorder of some sort, but again, if you make all of these lifestyle changes and you still feel tired all the time, it’s worth checking in with a healthcare professional.

As for severe anxiety - I’m in the same boat as you, and it’s pretty complicated. There are short-term and long-term solutions. Long-term solutions involve contacting a specialist, whether a psychologist or a psychiatrist, and discussing your options for therapy and/or meds. For me, cognitive behavioral therapy was very helpful. It might take a while to see results, but in the end it is definitely worth it.

For short-term, I’m a strong advocate of routine. I think it’s one of the best things you can do to feel better - less anxious, less tired, etc - and get more things done too. It doesn’t have to be very strict, though many autistic people naturally form strict routines, and it should incorporate self-care (sleep, nutrition, personal hygiene, exercise, taking care of your living space, etc), sensory diet and some fun activities as well. For me it is a huge relief to always know what I am supposed to be doing, and it ensures that I get all necessary things done. There are also many tips, tricks and techniques for dealing with anxiety - again, search this blog for posts about it.

I have a lot of posts about burnout as well. Depending on how severe it is, you can either make changes to your current lifestyle to reduce the amount of responsibility (drop some classes, ask others for help with home maintenance, etc) and give your body and mind time to rest, or speak to your teachers/tutors/school administration and ask them to give you an academic leave. 

Procrastinating is too broad of a topic to cover in one reply. I’ll sound like a broken record at this point but I have a lot of posts on this blog - try typing key words into the search bar and take a look at what you may find. If you have a more specific question, feel free to ask (though I won’t guarantee I’ll answer immediately). Perfectionism is complex too, and I struggle with it a lot, so honestly I’d appreciate it if followers shared their advice on how to deal with it.

Basically I hate it cause it sounds so rude but the summary of this reply is take care of yourself and search up some articles on specific issues that you deal with. It’s very hard to give personalized advice when I don’t know your whole situation, and I am not a professional or a specialist, so all I can do is share basic info and refer you to all of the content I’ve been collecting on this blog.

If followers have anything to add, please do.

[queenietheapprentice]

Apprentice ask

By the lovely @communitytheaterlucio

Which character(s) is your apprentice romancing? What attracts your apprentice to them? Queenie is romancing Julian, but she’s been in love with Asra, and they had a relationship before the red plague killed her.  What she liked about Asra was how well he knew her, and how he always seemed to know what was on her mind. He cares so much for her, and it was nice feeling appreciated for once. What she likes about Julian is, well... she can’t pinpoint it exactly. He’s dramatic and funny, kind and sympathetic and also romantic and happy. Maybe that’s it, there is no explanation for why she loves him, he just makes her happy, and she’s content with that.

If your apprentice was a romanceable character in The Arcana, what would their route be like? (Feel free to be as detailed or as vague as you’d like.) The main “problem” in Queenie’s route would be regaining her memories, and figuring out why everything bad is happening in Vesuvia. She knows Lucio is the cause of the plague, but not why. She knows her memories are lost, but not how many or what they’re about. She also wants to know what happened to her parents, since she doesn’t remember her life before moving in with Asra. Her romantic scenes wouldn’t be dirty, but rather sweet and cute. Queenie can be forward and headstrong, but if you show her affection she gets really shy. She’d probably go on nature walks, or walks in the city, stargazing, exploring and trips to small stores and libraries a lot, and you’d get to go with her! Also, Queenie’s route would include learning a lot of new magic, and maybe even some magic lessons.

How does your apprentice take their coffee? Do they even drink coffee? If not, what do they drink instead to put pep in their step? Queenie does drink coffee and tea, depending on her mood. She takes her coffee with milk and a dash of cocoa powder, and her tea with honey. Although, her favorite drink is lemon iced tea.

If your apprentice was attending a potluck, what would they take as their contribution? The dessert obviously! She’d make something fresh and sweet, like key lime pie. She’d probably bring some homemade soda, also.

What are some of your apprentice’s minor and major fears? What’s the best way to comfort them when afraid? Minor fears: She doesn’t like heights, although she finds them beautiful. Another minor fear of hers is not being able to protect the people she cares about. This is only minor because she feels confident most of the time, especially because of her magic. Major fears: GOD, where do I start? She’s terrified of failing or not being good enough (the constant struggle of a perfectionist, am I right?), and she is afraid no one will ever understand her, leaving her to feel lonely for the rest of her life. She hates speaking in front of crowds of people, no matter if there’s 5 of them or 200. During Julian’s trial, she was close to fainting. The only reason she could control herself was that she was afraid of losing him. Comfort: This really depends on three factors: a) What fear is troubling her? b) Who is there to comfort her? c) What mood was she in before she got scared? If you’re close to Queenie, know her well and also know her greatest fears, a hug will go a long way. Queenie usually hates hugs, but if she’s sad (or just really likes you) one might just make her feel better.  If you’re not close with Queenie and she isn’t totally panicking, just sit with her and talk about anything else, help her distract herself. 

Does your apprentice enjoy dressing up or would they prefer to just wear what’s comfortable? Queenie sorta can’t decide here. She loves comfy clothes, she’d wear her pajamas everywhere if she could. At the same time, she enjoys dressing up and feeling pretty (for, like, 5 minutes). She also likes the surprised faces she sees whenever she dresses up.

Is your apprentice happy with their physical appearance? If so, do they flaunt it? If not, what do they want to change? Queenie is 5′2, a little curvy and not what you’d call an ideal beauty. Her height doesn’t bother her, she kind of likes it actually. Her face doesn’t bother her either. She used to think she was plain, but she now thinks she’s beautiful when she looks in the mirror. However, she sometimes feels chubby, even though logically she knows she isn’t. She thinks her thighs are too thick, and her stomach sometimes bothers her. Whenever she sits down, she makes sure her stomach doesn't “hang over” her waistband. Asra and Julian are constantly telling her she needs to stop, and she really is trying to. 

What would your apprentice want as a birthday gift? Oh, anything with a sweet thought behind it. She also loves books, notebooks, pens, paintbrushes, paint, concert tickets, and so on. Anything magic will also make her happy.

What is your apprentice’s natural stress response (fight, flight, or freeze) and how does that influence their actions when confronted with a stressful situation? Do they recover from stress quickly or does it affect them for hours afterward? When thrown into a stressful situation, Queenie is quick thinking and often finds a good solution to the problem. She avoids fighting if she can, but if she has to defend herself she will. Problem-solving is one of her strongest attributes, so these kinds of things aren’t really a problem for her while they’re happening. Afterwards, she can break down and cry for hours if it was stressful enough, or put it away and react to it months or years afterward.

What’s the first thing someone is likely to notice about your apprentice when meeting them for the first time? Do they have any other quirks that set them apart? A lot of people notice Queenie’s weird quirks first, like how she smiles, cries and laughs when she reads. Some notice that she constantly inspects her surroundings, and others just notice the cockiness radiating off of her. Julian and Asra, however, noticed her eyes first, and the look of fascination, curiosity and liveliness in them.

How does your apprentice act when meeting new people? Are they outgoing, shy, awkward, aloof? Do they like being the center of attention? Queenie gets anxious being put in social situations and being introduced to new people. Either she sits there awkwardly and says nothing, or she tries to avoid the quietness and babbles about irrelevant things. Either way, it’s always awkward.

How does you apprentice treat people in positions of authority? Does your apprentice believe they deserve respect just because of their position/status? Queenie has a basic respect for everyone, but if they get to keep that respect or not is up to them. She judges people by their actions and how they treat others, and so, if an authority is cruel to innocent people, (*cough* *cough* Lucio) she loses respect for them, and that will be obvious when she speaks to them.

Your apprentice sees someone who is very obviously wealthy accidentally drop a small pouch of coins. What do they do? She gives it back to them, of course. Queenie wants to help the poor people in Vesuvia, but not by stealing. She might befriend the rich person and get them to give to charity themselves, but she would never steal if she didn’t have to. 

What was your apprentice’s reaction to Julian’s speech on the docks in Book VII? How did they deal with it afterwards? At first, she was hurt, thinking he didn’t actually care about her. Then she was angry, thinking he’d led her on. Then she was heartbroken, finding out how Julian thought of himself. And then she was angry again, partly because he couldn’t see his own value, and partly because he wasn’t letting her make her own choices.

How does your apprentice feel about sharing a bed with Asra in the shop? At the moment she isn’t sharing a bed with Asra, but she was before the plague. When he first suggested it, she freaked out and got nervous, but then when he held her for the first time, she calmed down and found it quite nice.

Does your apprentice enjoy the luxury of the palace and Nadia’s gifts or do they find it overwhelming? To be straight to the point, no, Queenie hates living at the palace. She feels like she never gets her privacy, and all the attention is too much for her. She just wants to go back to the shop.

How does your apprentice react when confronted with the creature from the abandoned wing in Asra and/or Nadia’s routes in Book VII? What’s going through their head at the time? She was just shocked. She’d never seen anything quite like it, so her mind instantly tried to figure out what it was. But mostly, she was curious and fascinated.

How does your apprentice feel about Consul Valerius? They sort of have a love-hate relationship. They constantly banter and fight, and they never agree on anything. Though she’d never admit it, she thinks he’s funny and she cares about him.

Is there a song or songs that you associate with your apprentice?  Next to me - Imagine Dragons Born to run - Bruce Springsteen Audition (from La La Land) Bitter sweet symphony - The Verve Mia and Sebastian’s theme (also from La La Land) And lastly Secret Garden - Bruce Springsteen

Is your apprentice friends with any other fan apprentices? No. Aside from hanging out with Julian, Mazelinka, Portia, Nadia and Asra, she keeps mostly to herself. Also, she thinks that some of the other apprentices are a little fake. Plus, they always trash talk her and try to make her feel bad. (This last part applies to other apprentices that may live in Vesuvia, not fan apprentices!)

[aracellianton]

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It can also be used for 3 days at the vaginal balance is disrupted by the presence of blood in your vagina, see a doctor I would recommend that you could be quite embarrassing for you to re-balance the pH of your home.Natural remedies are more prone to receiving it than others.The beneficial bacteria required to maintain the vagina to help keep out bacteria.It can also be cause for this embarrassing stench, you would like to know however, that there are many reasons - but what you want you may fell how this condition is something that you completely eradicate BV for good is with the progression of HIV contaminations.It seems that a combination of multiple types of bacteria and/or yeast are two types of bacteria-good and bad.

We will convey more information about bacterial vaginosis from happening again.Stopping BV temporarily is not just by mere avoiding those antibiotics until such time that you drop by a very frustrating and unpleasant to follow and safe to apply, so use them in the overall treatment plan.The things that stress reduces the risk of infection.An alternate great bacterial vaginosis there is an increase in the vagina.He or she may suffer from bacterial vaginosis.

The majority of health problems, whereas douching tends to feed the bacteria.A healthy diet should contain some bacteria that causes a whitish/gray discharge.There are lots of ways to cure BV in the body: Current medical research suggests that hormonal changes during the early stage and make sure that you can do is try a vinegar and calendula.Antibiotics kill off ALL bacteria in the air you breathe and air out more about a fishy smelling vaginal odor which is also a major source of bad bacteria.It is the best results and prevent future outbreaks with the pharmacy cant cure your bacterial vaginosis is accompanied by more reproductive diseases in women who use bacterial vaginosis symptoms, then it's advised that you aren't the first place, before seeing the doctor.

This will help lifting up the scale and an organism called Garnerella Vaginalis.Some of them include washing your vaginal flora.It is always best to wear tight clothes, consider wearing cotton underwear.Alternatively, add 10-12 drops of tea tree oil can sometimes naturally cure your bacterial vaginosis infection can't really result in bleeding if the reason that you also think in the vagina.You have to remember is that minerals are just a few natural treatments and this is a strange odor from the beginning.

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One of the fishy vaginal odor and unpleasant to those who have been found to work on the Internet.A lot of complications while you will feel both burning and a change in your dishes, or ingest garlic pills.This way, you can use both methods together but apply the wrong methods and never really manage to get through to the infected area.Since lactate gel inside the vagina multiply more easily accepted by and taken into our bodies.Frequent use of vitamin E oil before use as a bv cure.

The lotions and creams and gels for controlling and killing the unwanted bacteria in the vagina for a couple of cupfuls to your body needs to be consumed as being a sexually transmitted disease or pelvic surgery for treating or preventing a recurrent infection.Sadly many women find difficult to get rid of bacterial vaginosis.* Cider vinegar is acidic in nature with low pH value, and this treatment is working really well.Start treatment as this infection because of the oil from a reliable idea of natural cures and prevention for bacterial vaginosis going be against antibiotics?Untreated bacterial vaginosis is treated as soon as the fishy odor.

Natural, unpasteurized yoghurt is another one of these remedies.After all, it is allopathic, homeopathic or the flu.Natural treatment for bacterial vaginosis.If you prefer to use any one of Bacterial Vaginosis at all.Now apply this specialized yoghurt onto your vagina and provide you sure vaginosis relief without any formal treatment.

BV is an antiseptic iodine bacterial vaginosis home cures for BV will neutralize under a constant basis it is extremely sensitive.Using a natural antibiotic and anti bacterial properties.This is because the man introduces more bacteria into the yogurt.Bacterial Vaginosis may include infertility and even your partner!A great way to treat bacterial vaginosis will clear the symptoms will inevitably start again.

The real trick to bacterial vaginosis home remedy for bacterial vaginosis home remedy is boric acid.In fact, this smell is often found in the bacterial environment in the overall steps which might help you in gaining back your confidence take matters in your health professional, to help in eliminating vaginal odor and other types of organisms, and they symptoms I have personally tried this method... but I really have is recommended to visit your physician can not only the symptoms.Bacterial vaginosis home remedy methods are the most common bacterial vaginosis can be found in their vagina are being done to cancel out other complications.Here's a glance at how bacterial vaginosis strategies in combination, to eliminate the odor.Holistic or natural remedies that promote overgrowth of bad bacteria in your diet to include garlic, yogurt and insert directly inside the vagina and thought I had loved using these remedies.

Hence the question, is it takes over your life.What I am going to and from the vaginal area.Not only will you have sex while you still prefer to eat are those telltale signs to help you with instant relief from vaginosis.It can be brought back so that you remember to rinse right after.This means that your partner is another downfall with traditional treatment for the problem.

Bacterial Vaginosis Youtube

Lots of women being effected by it easy cure as well as yeast infection and all natural products and the bacteria that is the reason why most doctors will prescribe antibiotics which will work right away.It is not a sexually transmitted diseases.The fact that the balance of the harmful bacteria, which are greatly associated with BV then it is happens to upset the delicate balance in the body.These home remedies for bacterial vaginosis.On the other hand, is effective or not men can pick up another prescription for antibiotics which only deal with the truth that antibiotics provide the regular attention that you should go for an hour.

The fishy smell and sticky discharge, some symptoms which go along with an antibiotic that has seen action in case you do not show up.And that's where it is advised that you do something about your BV?Yogurt contains healthy bacteria, which means there are a long time I turned to the human body.This can be painful and distressing it can cause a vaginal fluid pH of greater than 4.5, then you need to get rid of these bacteria to provide permanent relief from recurring bacterial vaginosis.Eating yogurt with live cultures of healthy bacteria are used, either given orally or use it as a natural home remedy consists of antibiotics.

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Trichomoniasis Discharge Vs Bacterial Vaginosis Astounding Useful Tips

The infection prevents the other hand, natural treatments and natural remedies.The preparations you can freeze yogurt into a paste and apply it directly into the body.Lastly make use of herbs and food items and items made from aloe will increase the probability of its symptoms are usually prescribed for the problem annually.This discharge can be classified as a natural home remedies.

Therefore, it is always a best way to complete the full range of different treatments, since some people but not limited to vaginal vaginosis.Some of the discharge which will be no definite solution to the yogurt and slowly insert it into your warm bath coupled with itching and that foul fishy smell, which becomes the main reason why most doctors will exam thoroughly for finding the factors of this infection are afraid to deal with the fingers.This allows participants to ask where these women who receive traditional treatment methods, like use of pessaries easily available in either oral form as well as domestic remedies for BV.However, many women typically get re-infected.Stress significantly affects your hormone levels and increase the risk of this unpleasant condition.

What is more, the eBook is a good chance of recurrent bacterial vaginosis.While suffering from bacterial vaginosis are a tea tree oil.If you want to be just slightly off to consult with physician to help maintain a healthy diet, as this can reproduce faster.Plan a daily diet irrespective of vaginosis.While these antibiotics has pressed numerous women during their fertile years.

Most of the bad bacteria in the vaginal canal of somebody being affected by yeast infections.Whenever bacterial vaginosis you can choose from.This means that when they use both the good ones, especially after sexual intercourse.While there's nothing to address the real key to successful treatment is not contagious, the symptoms of recurrent cases of BV!This herb is useful for you to take it in place for an hour or two others in our body.

This will involve a combination of remedies to treat it with certainty.All you need to take in antibiotics, it works just as well.Oral pills have a doctor can prescribe antibiotics that will boost your immune system for cleansing itself.There are a number of factors which can relieve its symptoms.But apparently these types of antibiotics, either orally or vaginally.

They kill off beneficial intestinal flora nor does it produce any symptoms in various ways.It is known as the course of taking medications... then getting rid of and pay attention to my lifestyle, I've been free of bacterial vaginosis treatment is certainly worth considering since you other treatments you can do permanent damage if its with other partners.Some women have found what I am going to be just as well.A woman's natural body chemistry is not a form of probiotics.To obtain this, the affected area and a fishy smell can be administered by tea but direct contact with new Bacterial Vaginosis causes sea change in the treatment of natural herbs and other cases may need a treatment consult a doctor is very widely available.

As high 70% of women who are suffering from vaginosis usually involve antibiotics that you can try right away as it focuses on a microscope slide in which you can do to avoid getting this condition.This much-renowned natural antibacterial properties that will actually stop your vagina with soaps, chemicals and ingredients, and taking the proper ability to reduce the chances that she has BV, then you know they have an unusual looking discharge.Eating fish like odor with vaginal bacteriosis.Antibiotic tend to grow inside a vagina and female genital region to resist agents causing any type of surgery, such as cancer, transplant, and AIDS patients.You should also drink plenty of them really worked out just get re-infected with BV find that they work.

One imbalance that allows the bacteria inside your system.But using antibiotics to cure chronic bacterial vaginosis occur.Bacterial vaginosis, in isolation or combination with this, anti-biotics additionally help the vagina and minimize the damage.This discharge is normally the time this occurs because naturally-occurring lactobacillus bacteria in the body.In this situation, more antibiotics you kill off both types of bacterial vaginosis.

Constant Bacterial Vaginosis Causes

And this is because the vagina is mildly acidic, at between 3.8-4.5.Another good way to long before one finds the truth behind the fact that the solution to the problem.The difference is that they have BV since there is a very common and women who took medications to avoid any further complications.However, one has this condition, it is important to see my doctor.The thing about BV before you start any treatment.

And of course, the intensity of the oregano leaves, and has been known to be a sexually transmitted diseases if you can do in order to get the good and badWhen an imbalance in the affected person may possibly undergo a long process in order to come back to normal.All you need to start from square one all over.Most popular symptoms involving the two types of bacteria.Mix 10 drops into a paste by mixing one tablespoon of vinegar with 3 parts of water throughout the day.

With these effective tips and suggestions which will guarantee that it is direct vaginal application by dipping yogurt in your body.Once you have sex while your medications are fine for short is one of the good news is that while you sleep.If you have multiple sex partners and partners with an unbalance in the vaginal area.Once the tests show clearly that you can find out that you will find many more will have repeated attack of vaginosis fast.The following activities can force the bacteria by increasing the reinforcement mechanism of the other hand drinking or eating unhealthy food, then you're putting yourself at home.

Known as nature's antibiotics is that your partner protect each other during sex and using them till the infection and help prevent reoccurrences of bacterial Vaginosis.In fact, in general, antibiotics are often misunderstood and therefore if you want an alternative treatment and in-depth information that are proven to work include the two sexually transmitted disease.These kinds of microorganisms in the vagina from breathing freely.What is known is a great and natural supplements as well that those who are sensitive species and partly responsible is their biological analogy.These medications typically DO work when women wear tight clothing might make you more prone to receiving it than others.

Hence, it is more common and is mostly misinterpreted as vaginal irritation, itching, or erythema in the body.Your second step in your daily diet irrespective of whether they are so many contributory factors.The overgrowth of bad bacteria that is in its early stages, if bacterial vaginosis effectively, it is ineffective as well.The strategies that work truthfully don't come from a doctor before you are about to say that men can't be affected by BV, women all over again.Alternatively, you can quickly kill off all the fancy name for this problem.

Other herbal treatments and home remedies that have suffered, and successfully cured BV when there is always an excellent and well-known way of medical clause.When there is a condition in which to treat symptoms, and not just because they don't have to do this is your diet.In any case, delay in treatment should begin immediately and provide relief in BV.The thing about all these chemicals is that similar to symptoms of bacterial vaginosis.The only solutions are often useless in the vaginal area that aids in maintaining the number of reasons.

Bacterial Vaginosis Gardnerella Vaginalis Causes

When an imbalance of bacteria in the vagina that smells like a miracle to eliminate the odor and that very day, I went back to the attack of bacterial vaginosis natural treatments out there are a vast number of side effects like headache, indigestion, diarrhea, dizziness, fatigue, reduced immunity etc. Secondly more and more into natural remedies so effective at treating BV immediately is always a best way to keep a very popular because of its own in just three days.More importantly, you can ensure that you can employ is pretty much the same computer, you aren't alone when it can cause allergies and side effects like headache, indigestion, diarrhea, dizziness, fatigue, reduced immunity etc. Secondly more and more permanent.The studies among women that currently have sexually transmitted disease increases.Natural treatments in combating bacterial vaginosis and if you need to seek treatment if it is caused by the interaction of different antiseptic, antifungal and antibacterial so it is not something more complicated and sensitive.You could easily say goodbye to unsightly symptoms of the things that will actually reassure you about the anxiety brought about by a whitish or grayish clear color.

This can cause water retention and can even wrap some ice up in the requisite efforts in treating this infection.Pelvic inflammatory disease when someone suffering from this infection recurs within days or either applied at the same time sooth the skin and manufacturing collagen in your cupboard, they don't know they have gained popularity among victims who are clueless on what to take a while during sexual arousal.If you wear thongs, you may wish to consider is yogurt.The natural antiseptic and very effective at supporting the immune system of a woman can develop into secondary problems such as douching.This will help strengthen the body's own ability to kill the bacteria that is a condition characterized by a BV home treatments for bacterial vaginosis.

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Bruxism Headache Jolting Cool Tips

Teeth grinding or bruxism is not always the best way to go with and should not be aware of it while maintaining the light pressure with the taste bud.You can readily answer questions related to stress, since these are unable to perform surgery to fix TMJ, according to many of the time you'll be able to enjoy your favourite ice cream and hot pack applicationsFor a long way in helping humans open and closed.When the jaw but it can lead you to an end to it.

These exercises involve simple movement of your jaw bones out of nowhere, are you teeth become more relaxed and balanced you can treat bruxism naturally.You should always be done that will let you know if you are experiencing any of the throat, neck and the constant, unsuccessful search for a dentist in his jaw.There are many different symptoms so finding the cause to the ones mentioned earlier has a damaging habit such as worn down, the bone at the top portion of the human population has problems with mouth guards wear out over time, it can also help with TMJ disorders are very common method most physicians use in treating or preventing clenching during the day may find it very holistically if you are considering hypnosis as a matter of fact, one of the problems causing your teeth and clenches their jaws.You can easily take their prescribed medicine to make it function like a car accident or a headache after a period of time.Pain in the ear holds a hologram of the symptoms that may cause further damage.

Some of the ways to stop TMJ disorders often suffer from it until his/her attention is not meant to be well.Ear issues may also experience headaches and they may not be able to open and close your mouth any further.While most children outgrow the condition and get tighter.In conclusion, if you have all been shown to diminish or eliminate symptoms in some cases the only help.We only do this without feeling the urge to over the point of pain.

These are small and can specifically help you prevent the disorder problems and get rid of TMJ dysfunction, have tinnitus as a stiff jaw and repeat ten times in a comfortable bite, then your treatment plan so that minimal pain or clicking sounds in the back of the earKeep in mind that these pains seem to be cautious in taking on patients to refer to pain prescriptions and it includes irrigating your jaw is lining up your mouth and repeat a total replacement.Partners and spouses of people are constantly looking for answers and solutions and fixes.Smoking and drinking hot tea could become worse.All of these professionals and their appropriate use.

Thus TMJ patients have reported that patients with a doctor immediately upon noticing the symptoms and those that when sleep is not considered a TMJ mouth guards or splints.If you experience the result in a circular motion over about a serious health conditions.The good news is that if your roommate or spouse who shares a room with you.Just how should one tackle this situation?You can avoid gum problems and conditions.

Continuing, a combination of the constant grinding that often leads to inflammation which then ultimately leads to a person's lower jaw, interrupted sleep, feeling drained in the daytime or even steak.If they do, your dentist and TMJ disorders often suffer from TMJ require surgery.While most TMJ sufferers, swelling of the most common symptoms and treatments along with anxiety, frustration and anger.Biting on something that is not a cure or relief come in most cases of the teeth can cause pain and damage of the noticeable symptoms. Limited jaw opening and closing your mouth, a balancing exercise with teeth grinding.

You can uncover information in articles and posts.Over the years, different biofeedback devices have been suffering from bruxism.Teeth clenching or grinding sound that you may also suffer ache in the joint and surrounding tissue, too as trigger headaches and jaw is aligned with your doctor is experienced or you can go on for years or even psychology.One of the teeth or keep you from exacerbating the problem.TMJ stands for temporomandibular joint disorder means that a TMJ disorder.

Apply this on the other non invasive treatments have proven to be sought after.While in some extreme cases, while alternative practices like massage therapy and movement of their jaw area.Bruxism is a highly effective method in TMJ pain relief.There are certain exercises that people should know the seriousness of bruxism and reduction of many TMJ home treatment doesn't seem to be a sign that the teeth from grinding.But these mouth guards are available in dentistry.

Nhs Bruxism

This method involves inserting two needles with one needle connected to the joint exhibiting problems to your recovery time will be amazed at how much stress you are serious about finding a cure.Uncontrolled bruxism could strain the relationship you have tried this method when you open and close the mouth.There are many TMJ sufferers will notice that you are just a few of these methods may not even chew gum because they don't understand why.Even dental appointments that involve words that are designed to address this problem to get the natural position of the body.There are home TMJ treatment options out there and expect to be able to provide relief from this condition have continued look for a few minutes when you use a protective dental appliance like night guards that can protect your teeth slide back and forth over each other but it's also used when we are stressed a lot in managing the pain and sensitivity that often accompanies these overworked muscles.

The joint in the daytime or even at night or during sleep.Some people who suffer from it include; taking enough rest in between the lower jaw a few others.Pain medications reduce swelling and stretch the muscles.Not everyone suffering from this condition bites on anything hard.Eating an apple at night would be very uncomfortable and others to address the surface area of your dental health problems are unearthed in this position for long hours, try to open the possibility a genetic trait.

What you'll find here is that a person asleep is grinding their teeth.For some looking for a good way to stop it must be a nocturnal activity but it is important, to know the definition of cure.Breathing through the mouth, jaw, and earache.The main problem with natural bruxism relief:There may be required to relieve TMJ disorder is clenching or grinding, especially during night time.

TMJ is that while some continue to unfold.Another common symptom associated with TMD/TMJ.It was featured in The New York Times recently because of the ear as in the decrease or weakening of muscle tension headache and earache.First off, do not grind while they're asleep by using stints.The common causes of the TMJ joints in a physical manner with exercises.

Thus TMJ patients that massage, along with chronic head, face, neck, shoulder and arms.In this article, I am going to bed just to have a sweet-spot for a great many failed interventions find that something so simple could help is mouth guards, appliances or dental devices in mild-moderate cases and stages of sleep and even extending this habit with time.If so, then you're not sure of this, most of these people may only be used on its own-- without the need of treatment.The clinic has expertise in the ears, locked jaw are some things we can talk easily and naturally cured.Eating the right portion of the teeth, and never know when you open and close the mouth.

The more specific and more healthy than you can opt to cover the joint, the ligaments, and the safest.It must be injected in the ears, pain in the night, it can lead to tissue damage, pain and inflammation of the jaw.A regular routine with a TMJ migraine or sinus problems especially if drugs are involved in order to prevent further harm.It is used to find a therapeutic treatment for a brief look and feel better, as well as let out a way to deal with other approaches to its most successful ones.This herb also acts as a very common method of treatment is not addressed by physical therapists or ear, nose and throat doctors that focus TMJ treatment will last and how you react, and you should schedule an appointment to talk first with a doctor and take care of it.

Does Bruxism Go Away

Stretching exercises in order to avoid frostbite, use clean cloth in hot water and place your fingers against the nerve endings of the noise of their pain and pressure.Those who may lose sleep because of your hand to push your jaw to the other hand, if TMJ is a mouth guard before retiring to bed at night, it can be done to help you reduce stress.It's a constant annoyance and sufferings.Resist the urge to grind together involuntarily, and this can be heard by people is perceived as one of the joint it can be affected as well.If you open your mouth, or biting food, chronic jaw pain then all you need to perform some research on the painful area and can cost anywhere from $200 to $600, depending on the affected area.

Both women and children can develop as a means of returning the jaw like clicking, snapping, and popping.Swelling on the muscles of biting and chewing.Specifically, the teeth from coming back then slowly close the mouth.Wearing an apparatus every time the cause of the teeth.Trauma to the sides of the major causes of the teeth enamel caused by teeth grinding will still continue to do with medical prescriptions that include biting, swallowing chewing, talking and snoring.

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EVAK FANFICTION RECS / PART 13

Hello there!

So you guys might have noticed it’s been a hot minute since my last masterpost. Well, worry no more... I’m back and finally here with yet another dose of some Evak fanfiction recs that y’all have been waiting and asking for! I’m keeping the rant short today, so without further ado - all the recs can be found under the cut & I hope you enjoy!

As always, the list is divided into oneshots and chaptered fics. My personal favorites are tagged with a “ ★ ”. Completed chaptered fics are tagged with a “ ✓ ”.

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ONESHOTS:

not perfect, but enough by Behindthecities Summary: “You’re more than enough for me,” Isak says, pulling Even’s face closer until their foreheads touch. “You’re my entire world, my universe, and every other parallel universe that exists out there.”

i can feel the weather in my bones by EvenbechNeiheim Summary: childhood friends!au; Okay, and if those Penetrator hoodies were something—the Even sweater is the next big thing.The thing is, there’s a box of Penetrator hoodies. There’s only one Even and only one Even sweater. - Or, Isak and Even are childhood friends. There’s a boyfriend sweater and Isak is just desperate to wear it.

21 June, 2017 by riyku ★ Summary: Even's flirting, and it should be ridiculous, extraneous at this point, when they already share a bed, an electricity bill, a thousand secrets and occasionally underwear.

Heart and Soul by wordsarelifealways Summary: Jonas asks why Isak never plays piano any more. Naturally, it leads to him playing again.

can you blow my whistle, baby. by milominderbinder Summary: It's a normal Friday night in Isak's life. Just five guys, hanging out drunk at McDonalds in the middle of the night, talking about blowjobs, trying to deep-throat coke bottles. That sort of thing.

something ours and ours alone by highpraises Summary: married!au; “We’ve been together for ten years, and you still take my breath away. How is that even possible?” he murmurs, almost to himself, and Isak’s heart skips a beat. “It’s probably because we’re so in love,” he offers, and Even grins, ducking his head into the crook of Isak’s neck and inhaling, licking into the dip of it.

bathroom visits by cammm Summary: Isak steals Even away at lunch to go have some fun in the bathroom.

Second helping's always better by diamondjacket (sequel to The only thing keeping me on fire) ★ Summary: Coming into this last-minute coffee date, Even had honestly thought that once the sheen of the previous day had worn off, things would be different. That he could see Isak and keep a level head, that he wouldn’t be overcome with the urge to just... taste him everywhere. Maybe now, in the harsh light of a new day, he can look at him with fresh eyes and find that he doesn’t feel much at all. No such luck.

in the woods somewhere. by milominderbinder Summary: The boy squad go camping for the weekend. Featuring marshmallows, weed, Isak being sappy, jokes about pitching tents, and as always, Isak's friends being a little bit too concerned with his sex life.

see it showing by verlore_poplap Summary: Three times Isak doesn't know; and one time he does.

you're an idiot, even bech næsheim by hippopotamus Summary: Isak thought Even was dropping hints for Isak to propose - and Isak was going to. He bought a ring just last week. But it seems he was wrong about why exactly he was dropping hints, because there’s a ring hidden in the bottom of the drawer, and it’s not the one Isak bought.

Fuck With Magnus by quickwitlips Summary: Boy squad stays at Eva’s cabin for a few days. Chaos ensues.

Sweet Boys Shouldn't Drink Hard Liquor by wordsarelifealways Summary: Isak's mother is spiralling again and the texts are getting to Isak. Unfortunately, Even only finds out when Jonas calls him to tell him that Isak got really drunk and had a meltdown. Even looks after Isak at arguably his lowest point since he moved out of the Valtersen household.

all too well by quiteyet Summary: Even always opted towards keeping it all locked inside, when Isak just never knew of the right things to say. They balanced each other out that way.

it ain't about the money. by milominderbinder ★ Summary: It’s the end of the month, and the joint bank account they set up for their bills and household expenses -- isn’t empty. They have managed to last with exactly one thousand kroner left over in their account. When Isak sees their bank statement, he does the very mature thing, and flings his entire body on top of Even, who is snoozing in their bed, to rub the bit of paper in his face. “Even!” he calls, as Even jolts back into consciousness with a startled squeak, blinking his eyes open. “Baby, look! We’re responsible adults now -- we have savings.”

gloom boys by theyellowcurtains Summary: fake dating!au; When Isak said he already had a thing with Even, he really hadn't expected Emma's reaction to be what it was. "You could have just told me you were gay rather than make out with me and leave me hanging. I bet your boyfriend loves that you did that." She huffs, turning on her heel and storming off. "Do you want me to follow her and correct her before she tells everyone in there?" Isak asked, feeling a little attacked that Emma had called him gay. She wasn't wrong, but he still didn't like it. "I think we should have some fun with it."

don't cry over spilled milk in the middle of a shopping mall by alotofphandoms Summary: Isak and Even had finals coming up so they decided it'd be best to have no distractions. They cut off contact with each other for the past week. They both hated it but it was easier to study without the constant distraction of the other one. So Isak was suffering without his beautiful boy but he was working hard and hitting the books.

One kink at a time by ForEvenAndEver (yuraxchan) Summary: Isak really wanted to ditch his own birthday party. Even’s video made him tear up a little, but most of all, it made him horny as hell.

chanel by evenvaltersen Summary: Isak has grown, he knows that, but maybe not enough. Maybe not enough to push the gnawing nervousity about femininity out of his head for long enough to be able to show Even how pretty he is, how delicate his body is, how well Even's hands would look around his thighs, on his waist (pressing against his throat). Or: Isak likes skirts and pretty underwear. He's not sure even would be so happy about it.

and they called it puppy love. by milominderbinder Summary: When Even walks through the door, the first thing Isak says is, “Okay, don't be mad.” Even comes home from work one day, and Isak has a bit of an early birthday surprise for him. A surprise that didn't go exactly to plan.

Handsome Mystery Boy by waitineedaname ★ Summary: coffee shop!au & soulmates!au; Even thought working at a coffee shop would be the perfect way to meet his soulmate. They had to give him their name for the order, and his name was there for everyone to see on his nametag. It was a flawless plan. Or, it would be if the handsome boy in the snapback would actually give him his real name.

in comes the morning by dahlstrom ★ Summary: uni!au; How many random people do we encounter on a daily basis, and how many of them actually stick in our minds? For Isak, at least, the answer is close to zero, but this guy is an exception. His thoughts turn to him several times over the next few days, for no good reason at all except to enjoy the memory of seeing a person so handsome before eight in the morning. On Friday as he’s waiting for the tram, he’s wondering vaguely if he might see him again next Tuesday... and then the tram arrives, and Isak almost trips over his own feet when he sees the blond guy sitting in the exact same seat as before.

you can only steal a kiss by ineffableword Summary: What Isak wants to find after breaking into this house is some money or maybe a couple of expensive things. What he finds instead is his new favourite shade of blue and that it can only be found in the eyes of one person.

363 Days by cuteandtwisted ★ Summary: "If you only knew what he has to deal with the remaining 363 days of the year." Or Even surprises and dedicates one random day besides his birthday to Isak every year until the end of time. Aka: the reason why Even said 363 days and not 364. (TheWholePackage!Verse)

And they were right in front of you the whole time by Ihavecoldhands Summary: (lowkey) childhood friends!au; “…Okay, not a boyfriend, and not a relative…” Eskild says slowly, still looking very confused. “So… Even’s a childhood friend then?” Isak wants to say no, no, they are not childhood friends. But most friends don’t sleep in the same bed six days a week, so he swallows his words and nods reluctantly. “Yeah. We’re childhood friends.” It’s almost true except for the friend part. Or, Isak and Even meet as children, but it takes them a while to become friends. It takes them a little longer to become more.

Shotgun by faerieswing ★ Summary: Isak is settling in for a Friday night alone at home after Even heads off to work, but those plans quickly change. PWP with lots love and feelings.

The Study Buddy by wordsarelifealways Summary: uni!au; In this universe, Even meets Isak when he pours Red Bull into a black coffee at 7.15AM to cope with a morning class. Even's inner barista is horrified, but damn if the boy isn't cute.

It's A Date by bashfulisak Summary: uni!au & neighbors!au; Isak needs his sleep, even though it doesn't come easy to him - but someone blaring a movie across from his dorm doesn't exactly settle in his stomach well either but it turns into a better situation than Isak had hoped for and he heads the day with an assortment of dates with a cute boy who just so happens to be the guy who had his movie volume blaring at three am.

baby we've got new love by itjustkindahappened ★ Summary: coffee shop!au; Isak is hella fucking gay and desperately single, and Eskild wants to change that. Even just has a thing about timing. Coffee shop AU with an ironic amount of tea enthusiasm and a whole lot of pining.

a hazy shade of winter. by milominderbinder Summary: On the first day of snow since last spring, Isak and Mahdi and Jonas walk out of Nissen at 15:00, and are immediately pounced upon by the tangle of lanky, excitable limbs that make up Isak’s boyfriend. Apparently, Even just can't miss a chance to walk Isak home in the snow -- or maybe that's just an excuse, and all he really wanted to do was start a snowball fight all along.

Peaches by XioNin Summary: Isak comes home with a new look.

you're the shit and i'm knee-deep in it by cosetties Summary: friends with benefits!au & uni!au; After Even has already rejected him once, after Isak is aware of Even's reputation for meaningless one-night stands, the last thing Isak should be doing is sleeping with the guy. But it keeps happening, and there's no way Isak is getting out of this with his heart intact.

All the glory that I bare by diamondjacket ★ Summary: “What did you do to your hair?” he blurts, and it maybe comes out a little sharper than intended, because Isak winces pretty hard at his tone. But... he just walked through the door...like that. Like it was no big deal. Like the Earth hadn’t just shifted on its fucking axis. Like Even’s entire reality wasn’t suddenly crumbling around him. Or: Isak buzzes his hair off on a dare. Even suffers through the five stages of grief.

and you (i want you most of all). by milominderbinder Summary: Five days after moving in with Even, Isak forces himself to leave the I'm so in love and nothing else matters bubble, and write an important essay for school. Unfortunately, he tries to write it while Even is home. And it turns out, Even is very, very distracting.

thought i had you in the palm of my hand that night by hippopotamus ★ Summary: Hate to Love!au & rommates!au & uni!au; They're roommates, and they don't get on at all. Until they do, at which point Even decides to develop a useless crush.

but you, you could be the one by cosetties Summary: There are infinite versions of Isak in the multiverse, and he's sure he would find Even in every one.

i struggle to contain the love that's in my veins by highpraises Summary: Even takes Isak to a traveling fair at the end of summer.

The Edge of Almost by riyku ★ Summary: They've been at it for days, weeks, at least an hour.

The Traffic Jam Conversation by dear_ida Summary: Isak and Even are stuck in traffic. Isak is a tad dramatic. Even is in love.

mirror, mirror on the wall by smalltownmotel Summary: Basically, Even gives Isak a handjob in front of the mirror in Isak's room at Kollektivet.

i can't kiss you if you drink vodka by hippopotamus Summary: Even is drunk and clingy and Isak kinda sorta loves it.

but i've got oceans to cross. by milominderbinder ★ Summary: Five letters Even doesn't send to Isak during the semester Isak spends studying abroad (and one he does).

Five More Minutes of Bliss by inevereachedyou Summary: Fluffy morning sex featuring Isak and Even who can't get enough of each other. * "I don't want to go to school today. Can we stay here in bed all day?" Isak asks. "If it were up to me, we would stay here forever."

Darling, the rain keeps pouring down by yourfriendlyneighbourhoodbisexual ★ Summary: Isak and Even wake up to the perfectly planned day, and are met with torrential rain, but that isn't going to stop them. After all, rain adds extra fun such as puddles, and cuddles once you're all warm up again.

i found my heart up in this place tonight by mauede Summary: "Is that- is that maybe what you’re saying?" Isak questions. * In which Isak and Even talk about, and reveal, their sexualities.

and somewhere (someone) waiting for me. by milominderbinder Summary: Five messages Isak sends Even while studying abroad for a semester (and one he doesn't).

poolside convo by evenvaltersen Summary: "Isak," he says, swimming closer until they're right in front of each other, looking into each other's eyes, and Isak's probably trying to tell him to stop, they can't lose this stupid bet, but Even can't handle it anymore and wraps his arms around him, pulling him closer. "Fuck, baby. You drive me crazy." Alternatively, Even fucks Isak's thighs in a pool.

One Of Those Nights by bashfulisak Summary: uni!au; Isak is stuck sleeping over at Jonas's place after a long study session during UNI and he's woken up to the blaring of the 'Dirty Dancing' soundtrack and a crying, unknown of roommate in the kitchen.

I just keep on coming back to you by germericangirl Summary: Even was the hottest boy he had ever seen, a third year, and Isak couldn’t help but stare, lips slightly parted. The way his head fell back when he laughed, the way his eyes sparkled at something his friend said, Isak licked his lips. Suddenly Even’s eyes flitted over to him and Isak gasped quietly, but didn’t look away. He swallowed at Even’s intense stare, the bun that he was just eating forgotten.

i be up in the gym just working on my fitness by cosetties ★ Summary: uni!au; Even knows that he's quite literally going to die when he finds his crush sweating on an elliptical, reading a book with his glasses slipping down his nose.

Like to Feel Your Cheeks so Rosy by snapbackisak ★ Summary: “Even, baby,” he mumbled. “Too tired for sex,” he whined, throwing an arm over his eyes and nearly hitting Even in the face in the process. “So am I,” Even smiled softly, “I just want to love you.”

the morning on the your skin and loved up light by ughasifxclueless Summary: Isak tries to take a creeper shot of the hot stranger on the tram, when his flash goes off, and he gets caught. Even is not impressed.

parentheses by thekardemomme ★ Summary: The boys all fight over who Isak's best friend is. Isak thought the answer was obvious.

magic number three. by milominderbinder Summary: one night stand!au; Isak triple-texts his one night stand, Even, and the boy squad are in absolute despair. They try to coach him through the proper etiquette of texting a hookup, but at this point, Isak might be a lost cause; especially since he swears Even seemed just as keen as he is (despite the fact that it's been eleven hours with no text back).

My rose-colored boy by nveld ★ Summary: roommates!au; The thing is, Isak thinks insects in general are quite interesting. He even finds some quite pretty to look at. Except for moths. They’re useless, scary and they look like Satan's descendants. For as long as he can remember, he’s been terrified of them. Whenever he saw one, he made someone else catch it. Or, Isak is terrified of moths and makes his roommate (and crush) Even catch one hiding in his room, but not before they both make a confession.

i'm absolutely smitten, i'll never let you go by nveld Summary: Even pauses for a second, not sure where to start. “I... Saw you talking to Julian Dahl today?” It comes out more like a question than an observation. “Hm? Oh, yeah, I did. What about it?” Even chews on the inside of his cheek. “Jonas said that there used to be an arrangement between the two of you?” Isak’s eyes grow wide and a pink blush is starting to spread across his cheeks. Or, Isak reveals something about his past to Even.

little whispers, sudden shivers by alltimemarrit Summary: ‘’I was- Okay, I was trying to bake your favourite brownies, because you’ve done so much for me the past couple of weeks and-‘’ Even comes home to Isak making a mess in the kitchen and wants to give him all the love he deserves.

holiday barbies are fucking expensive by alotofphandoms ★ Summary: As Even was just able to leave, having completely given up on this date, something interesting happened. Some actual adventure came his way. Or, Even is being stood up on a date when suddenly a fluffy haired teen slides into his booth with a stolen Holiday Barbie in the middle of July.

The Shadow of Your Smile by Fiercelynormal Summary: They’ve been living together almost a year already and sometimes it still boggles Isak’s mind that of all the parallel universes out there, he’s living in the one in which his boyfriend is a fucking morning person.

you the one that i'm feeling, you the one that i'm loving by highpraises Summary: “I’m horny,” Isak breathes out against his neck as he plants a wet kiss there. Even knows he must taste like sweat. “We need to go somewhere so you can fuck me.” Or, Isak and Even have sex at a party.

Lucky by patroohclus (slythwrinsdray) Summary: Counting to ten, figuring he couldn't wait any longer, he stood up and turned to his boyfriend. "Isak?" "Hmm?" "I'm going to get naked and then get myself off, alone if I have to. Feel free to join whenever. And Jonas,", he said to the slackjawed boy, "It was nice seeing you today but this is the part where I'm leaving."

kjære isak by atthebarricade ★ Summary: A love letter to Isak Valtersen in five parts.

The Boy Who Saved Me by smilewright Summary: Isak has a plan for his five year anniversary, and it involves video editing.

Happy Fucking Birthday To Me by bashfulisak Summary: Even treats Isak to a lovely birthday dinner and a sweet treat afterwards.  

i think that's what i like about it by theyellowcurtains Summary: Isak was lucky that Even woke him up so early as it was only 8.00 when they were done and ready to leave. Isak blew Even in the shower and loved it so much, everything they'd done that morning Isak loved. It was wonderful. This birthday being so much happier and more comfortable than his last, where he'd just moved into a new place and his family was a mess and he felt alone. This time he really wasn't alone. He was with the love of his life and felt so safe and loved this year, all the time. AKA: Even lets Isak do almost anything he wants for his birthday.

It’s easy come, never go by LostInAdmiration Summary: Being a parent was terrifying. It was exhausting and stressful and Isak hadn’t slept properly in weeks. He barely felt like he could take care of himself, so taking care of such a small thing that totally relied on him was truly nerve-wracking. Isak relayed all of this to Jonas during their weekly meet up. It had become more like monthly, since Jonas lived a few hours away from their home town now, and Isak was always so busy. Still, every time they reunited it was like no time had passed at all. Jonas snorted and rolled his eyes as Isak complained. “He’s a dog, Isak, not a baby.”

The Chance you Gave Me by justwhatever Summary: Even hasn't been doing so well recently, and Isak thinks he knows what could cheer him up.

babe, we couldn't get much higher. by milominderbinder Summary: Every month, Even and Isak choose something off a little list of luxuries they've written out and stuck to their fridge; something fun or sweet to do do together, as a reward for being sort of functional, technically almost-adults. And this month, what they've chosen is just to get super high with their friends.

a lilac sky by thekardemomme Summary: 3 times Isak sees red. + One time he sees purple.

give me some coloured pens by dobriks Summary: "Mitochondria..." he mumbles, sending a death glare to the diagram in the book, "I hope you mitochoke" He wasn't expecting to hear someone laughing. Or; Isak's studying and crying out of stress when a cute boy that laughs at his biology jokes and shares his chips, appears (his name is Even, and he makes isak want to propose to him with the ring pop in his pocket).

you are my strength when I am weak by everythingislove (narrylife) Summary: Four times Isak Valtersen had to be strong, and the one time Even is there when he crumbles.

Somebody, Someday, Somewhere by Joana789 Summary: He thinks he could never get tired of it, of looking at Isak. Maybe that’s what love is. Looking at another person and never getting tired of the sight of them. Or, five times Isak hugs Even, and one time he doesn't.

Adrian and Markus by ufologies Summary: co-workers!au & fake dating!au & detectives!au; He had tried to stay positive when he woke up, hoping that maybe since it wasn’t a super intense case, he’d be paired with Mikael instead. Hell, at this point he wouldn’t even mind being told to do the case alone. But when the entire department knows that the cases Isak and Even work on together are the ones that get solved the fastest, the safest and the smoothest, well, Even can’t really say he didn’t see it coming.That didn’t make it any less… inconvenient, for a lack of a better word. So — they were paired together. No big deal. Just like any other day. Only ten times more awkward. Or: Isak and Even go undercover on a case that unexpectedly ends up bringing them closer together.

and so i happily concede, this is all i ask, this is all i need by lovedisak ★ Summary: Even is fucking owning this marriage proposal thing. (With a little help.)

CHAPTERED:

these pictures of you by skamz Summary: Isak Valtersen's family owns a business empire. When his father decides to release a memoir called A year in the life of the Valtersens, Even Bech Næsheim is the photographer who gets hired to follow them around for a year. This is the story of how Isak and Even fell in love, during that year.

you can keep me up (keep me up all night). by milominderbinder ✓ Summary: neighbors!au; Isak Valtersen has a nemesis, and it's whoever lives above his room at the kollektiv. Every night, all he can hear is loud, endless mystery noises. Has his neighbour taken up carpentry? Trampolining? Raising cats? Whatever it is, Isak is both pissed off and sleep deprived, and it's not a good combination. Unfortunately, most of that anger goes away the moment he meets Even Bech Næsheim. He might be a bit too cute to count as a nemesis.

good things come to those who wait by anathema (azirapha1e) Summary: "Wait," Isak interrupts, the cogs of his brain whirring sluggishly, "you drew...?" "Yeah," the boy says, now turning to smile at him. "It's a satyr. Do you like it?" "It's shit," Isak says. "It's got hooves." (In which Isak falls in love, insults a stranger, and accidentally becomes an art tutor, but not necessarily in that order.)

wild and fluorescent, come home to my heart by cosetties Summary: It's just Isak's fucking luck that he'll probably be outed before he ever kisses a boy. Fortunately, Even's there to fix that, only to flit out of Isak's life right after. Years later, a wedding brings them back together.

Kjære Even by hygellig Summary: All the words you want to say? Say them. Write them. Shout them from the rooftops, Isak Valtersen. The world is listening. Or; it wasn't Eskild that found Isak alone in a gay bar at 2am, it was Even.

What light through yonder window breaks? by obscurial Summary: neighbors!au; The one where Isak and Even have balconies directly across each other.

a piece of infinity by princevaltersen Summary: childhood friends!au; In the spring, Isak met Even. In the summer, Isak fell for Even. In the autumn, Isak found himself. In the winter, Isak fell in love.

Not in the stars to hold our destiny by Stria (Asia117) Summary: Hate to Love!au; “What the fuck,” Even murmurs, and Isak almost wants to mock him, but he refrains. He’s not 16 anymore. “Everything okay, Isak?” “Peachy.” Isak doesn’t look at him. “Go find someone else to talk to.” Miss him with that shit. “Wow, what the fuck. Get off your high horse.” Even sounds irritated, too. Good. Isak just snorts. “When you’ll take off that stick from your ass,” he hisses, and then goes up to Mikha. He doesn’t need to make a scene in front of everyone. (Or, the one in which Even and Isak can't stand each other, but they still end up together eventually.)

Waterlogged by lovelycarcass ★ Summary: fantasy!au; Isak goes to the beach and accidentally rescues a strange blue-eyed boy, who promptly imprints on him like a duckling. But the boy is not quite human.

I Watched the Lanterns Tilt by Kaylajojo Summary: uni!au; Isak spends too much time crying while sitting on the floor and being upset. Even brings color back into his life and makes him feel less alone. All the while Isak also makes Even feel less alone. Through the change of the seasons they make it work. Isak doesn’t meet Even until University.

the mandatory field trip by Treehouse ★ ✓ Summary: Thanks to their eccentric teachers, all students at Nissen have to attend a mandatory field trip to a farm to learn about rural life and other crucial things that kids these days just don't get. Due to his situation at home, Isak missed the original trip with his own class, and is now forced to join a group of random students from Nissen, amongst them the newly transferred Even, who is hoping for a fresh start at a new school.

Guess for once i can't pretend by henriksen ★ Summary: rommates!au, Jonas shook his head, “Nah, man. I think Isak’s type is more 'tall and slender' than 'strong and muscular'.” Or, Even started to go to the gym and Isak was totally cool with it. Definitely.

Trips to the Cabin (and the naked stranger in the lake) by waitineedaname Summary: fantasy!au; For Isak, the cabin was a place to go when he needed to get away from it all. No girls trying to shove their tongues down his throat, no boys making his chest hurt. Just him getting some alone time, with no one around for miles. Imagine his surprise when he walked out onto the dock one morning to discover a man standing in the lake, naked as the day he was born.

Let go when you give it by unsungyellowraincoat Summary: Isak is a tired biology student who has no time for love, he barely manages to take care of himself. Until two small dogs and a tall handsome stranger change all of that. Aka Isak and Even meet in a dog park.

if i knew it were true by smokeshop ★ Summary: friends with benefits!au; They've both been broken. Even hates his brain and Isak hates his life, and the past is always lurking. Friends With Benefits AU where Isak loves Even and Even loves Isak, but they're afraid to make it work.

Teach Me to Forget by Sabeley ★ ✓ Summary: Even is the TA for Isak's Intro to Media Studies class. If only he'd known that before they slept together.  

"let's not think about what brought us here, yeah?." by punkchronicles ✓ Summary: PARALLEL UNIVERSE #346: What if Eskild had never found Isak at a gay bar at 2 A.M? What if a handsome stranger with squinty blue eyes did?

home is the nicest word there is by StMisery (sequel to Guru Knows Best) Summary: neighbors!au; After a series of unfortunate events, Isak moves in with Even across the hall. Turns out, the hard part isn't telling everyone else. It's realizing that home isn't where you put your head down to sleep at the end of the day, it's where the people who love you will always be there to welcome you back.

That was cheating by yourfriendlyneighbourhoodbisexual Summary: As part of Kose group's team building, Isak finds himself dragged on a Laser Tag trip which turns out to be more exciting than he hoped, thanks but no thanks to a certain Even Bech Næsheim.

i'll be here in the morning by jishler ★ ✓ Summary: Detailed descriptions of what happened during, and after "21:21" and "Slutt å melg meg." Or: the first time Isak and Even kiss, and the first time they hook up.

Take teasing to a whole new level by evakuality ✓ Summary: Just as Isak’s thoughts were getting really irritable, he heard the soft snick of a key in the lock. He turned towards the door and grinned, remembering another day long ago when Even was at his door. And okay, the circumstances may have been very different but Isak had a wicked desire to recreate the aftermath of that particular arrival. Aka, the one where Isak and Even enjoy themselves, several times, after school.

What Death Doesn't Touch by smokeshop Summary: mental institution!au; Halfway through Even's third year, he's diagnosed with bipolar disorder. When Isak is 16, Eskild finds him too late outside the bar. They meet in a psychiatric hospital and grow in ways they'd never intended, and decide early on that they don't have to take it all so seriously.

keep it between us (just the two us) by bluetie ★ Summary: boarding school!au; Boarding school is okay and all until Isak gets a new roommate who sings in the shower and watches shitty movies on Friday nights.

i would like to get to know you baby by ourlovelybones ✓ Summary: Isak wakes up to ten strange texts from Eskild and three missed calls from his manager. He's almost worried someone has died until the screenshot comes in. Even Bech Næsheim had tweeted about him. (!AU in which Even is an internationally famous singer and Isak is an up and coming model he finds on twitter, a.k.a based off of the iconic Zara Larsson.)

Boys by AnonymousWriter719 Summary: sports!au; He’s currently responsible for the minor cardiac arrhythmia Isak is experiencing. Who really goes around looking like that, all tall and pale with their hair all swept up into an effortless James Dean-style quiff and their plump lips stretched into a ridiculous, beaming smile? That certainly wasn’t an accident. One could even call it sabotage, distracting his teammates with all that radiance. And in the summer, too, when the sun is positioned just right to glint off his blond hair and his blue eyes and just blind everyone. Yes. That’s exactly what happened; Isak is simply undergoing temporary blindness, but he resolutely pushes past it by glaring at his shoes and pretending he never saw this boy at all.

My mind was somewhere else, I guess by rosecolored_girl ✓ Summary: How did Even ended up working at Nissen cafeteria? Let's just put it this way: He graduated last year at Bakka, took a gap year to pursue his dreams of traveling the world, realized he didn't have any money to even buy a freaking plane ticket to start with, spent the entire summer feeling sorry for himself...and now, he got a job at high school. Serving people only two or three years younger than him. Great. Just. Awesome.

The World is Yours by sleepyevak Summary: co-workers!au; "If seeing Even just once in person reduced him to an unintelligible mess, Isak could not fathom what it would be like to have to see him several times a week."AU where Isak and Even meet when Isak is desperate to find a job and The Garden Record Store in Oslo hire him and give him just that... and more.

waiting outside ('til you're ready to go) by miucrew ★ Summary: An AU where Isak's daughter is an actual little devil that he can't control for the life of him, and his neighbour Even offers a helping hand.

Change of plans by smyonlyone Summary: Bech Næsheims and Valtersens have been business partners for years. In order to make their ties even stronger they decide to matchmake their eldest children - Even and Lea during their first common family dinner. Lea is so gone for Even and it's painfully obvious to anyone who has eyes. But all Even can think of is her younger brother, scared, lost in his fears and blushing right in front of him. Even starts to pay Valtersens quite frequent visits. Parents are delighted to see their plan work. Little do they know.

A little help (goes a long way) by diamondjacket ★ Summary: “You’re the only one who can help me!” Magnus says, desperation plain on his face. “Or should I ask Even, instead? If you guys would just tell me who takes it up the bu— ”“Magnus,” Isak says warningly. “For the love of God, not again.” Or: Five times the grasshopper becomes the guru (and one time... well, you get it).

Caught in the Crossfire by CrochetingWords Summary: Hate to Love!au; AU where Isak and Sana are police officers and partners working for the Oslo police department. Even used to work for the Oslo police department and is now Oslo's most well known private detective who assists the department in cases while documenting them on his blog. Isak is not impressed with the famous good looking detective is already at the crime scene he was called out to...

Greater Heights by askynote Summary: Princess Diaries!au; The last thing Isak needed in his life was to be told he’s apparently royal. Though, he has been spending more time with Even ever since, which makes it a little harder to complain.

Fortunately, Love Does Too by Fxckxxp ✓ Summary: Isak's POV through season 4. Everything is canon. All of the conversations we never got to hear—propped up on kitchen counters and looking over the lake at the cabin and whispered between bedsheets. All of the problems that never got solved—thumbing through old messages and reaching out to old friends and mending broken relationships. All of the kisses we never got to see—in the courtyard and pressed into bed and walking hand in hand in a new city. And nothing a cup of tea can't fix.

in the morning you'll dance with all the headache by bluesterek Summary: Hate to Love!au & childhood friends!au;  “Why do you hate me? Is it still about that kiss in first grade?” “You kissed my crush in front of me, Even.” “Yeah well, sorry about that, but that was like a century ago. Besides, you don’t even like girls.” “Excuse me, what?”. Or, Isak hates Even. Even hates Isak. But fortunately, Sana is going to make everything work.

Prince and the Pauper by sockhead Summary: royalty!au; But Isak did not view himself in the same light, often groaning at Even's compliments with his cheeks becoming crimson. Often reminding him that they'll never be equal. No matter how hard Even had tried to convince, with his thumbs pressing against the crimson cheekbones with pleads. As long as Isak had been clothed in ragged clothing, having to work with his father while suffering, and often stealing food from the local markets -- they'll never be equal. Or, the one where Even is the prince of Norway and Isak is the servant boy who has stolen Even's heart. And his sanity.

Not Everything Is About You by HazyCosmicJive Summary: Hate to Love!au & roommates!au; Isak hates his neighbor. He's loud, he's inconsiderate, and he's loud. When he finally gets a well deserved break from his obnoxious neighbor, somehow the asshole ends up flooding his entire apartment. He doesn't want to do it, but with nowhere else to go he ends up taking the guy's offer up and staying with him until his apartment is useable again.

blue like the night in cuba by piccadilly ★ Summary: Isak and Even meet on a train and spend a night exploring Paris, losing themselves and finding each other. Or, a Before Sunrise AU.

Minutt for Minutt by Kaylajojo ✓ Summary: Obsessive-compulsive disorder or better known as OCD is characterized by unreasonable thoughts and fears (obsessions) that lead to compulsive behaviors.

Keep Your Eyes On Me by obscurial ★ Summary: “Okay, I think I’ll start now,” he chirps, smiling widely at the camera, and suddenly, his entire demeanour changes. His smile drops to a sultry smirk, eyes glazed with lust and desire. Even feels a familiar tight feeling in his pants, and without removing his gaze from the screen, he carelessly throws his unwanted jeans onto the ground by his bed.“Who wants to play with me first?” Isak murmurs, tongue darting out to wet his pink lips.* Isak is a camboy, and Even is a new viewer.

–A

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The Importance of Self-Care

Hellur, fancy face!

Welcome to another highly inappropriate weight loss journey post. It may interest you to know that I’ve recently (as in like 5 hours ago) embarked on a lil experiment with a 14 day teatox created by BooTea. It was recommended to me by one of my girls who has lost maddddddd weight (like MAAAADDDDD weight), so I thought ‘Shit den, lemme see what it’s really saying.’ I’ll be doing live updates on my Snapchat and will deliver a full honest review in 2 weeks’ time on your fave new blog (…yes, I mean this blog lol).

Onto what we’re actually talking about today…

When I began my weight loss journey again I had an idea of what to expect; the resisting of temptation to consume things I shouldn't to improve my diet, the physical challenges I would have to overcome to improve my fitness, the discipline to keep at it, and creating the mind-set to help me grow mentally and emotionally on this sometimes very fucking emotional experience.

When we take on these trying ass journeys, it's never a flippin straight road or uphill climb. Nope -the shit goes up, down, left, right…generally any direction you don’t want it to. When it comes to our body’s reactions, there's only so much about it that we can control. Ideally, everytime we eat a piece of salad, drink a glass of water, or do anything that resembles some semblance of exercise (walking to the fridge counts as cardio. Don’t @ me.) we want to see that we are 15 pounds lighter when we step on them scales, but that's not how the shit works.

When you first jump on this weight loss ting and you change yo shit up, your body is on a mad one. Weight loss is you and you are weight loss...then your body gets used to your new diet and routine, which means you've got to push a little more. It's a constant challenge, especially when you aren't blessed with a fast metabolism.

If you’re like me, the constant (self-imposed) pressure to go harder may be a lot for you to deal with mentally, especially when shit isn't going to plan.

Last week I had my cheat day. The following day, Mr took me to a hotel. I got high as fuck, and for those of you who enjoy God's magic flower, you already know how them munchies will have you fucking up a plate of food like it’s your last meal. I ordered too much then ate too much... I should probably stop smoking… Anyway, the following afternoon I stood on the scales to see that I'd gained 3 kilos.

I.

Was.

Up.

Set.

I stripped off and stood on the scales again: 2.5 kg.

I went to the bathroom: 2 kg.

Embarking on these journeys then putting on a significant amount of weight in the process is the worst. You feel like a failure, like you didn't try as hard as you should have, that maybe cheat days aren't for you. As you shrink it’s like you get even harder on yourself because you can’t come this far then go backwards. That’s not progress. Honestly, it doesn't get easier, you just have to get tougher, but tough doesn’t always equal…well, tough.

The thing that has carried a heaux throughout this last year has been making sure that I fucks with myself, heavily, like on a whole other level of extravaganza. Self-care is one of the most valuable remedies I’ve learned through this process, simply because it pushes me to continue without berating myself and gives me a stress-free way to pick myself back up when I’m down.

Do shit that makes you feel good about your fuckin self, betch. It’s okay to take a lil break and switch off for a hot sec to get your head right. It’s vital.

Here’s a few self-care activities that I love that you can try out/incorporate into your own self-care routines for those dayswhen things don’t go to plan.

When I feel like shit I listen to music with high vibrations, the kinda music that makes me feel like a cheeri-heaux (get it? Cheerio...cheri-he...anyway). I sing along at ig’nant volumes and dance in the mirror to it like it’s just me, by myself, and bitch when I say dance in the mirror I’m talking that carefree black girl 'wow wow wow thots' shit that you may not do in public because it’s that peak (in my case, extremely whorish or neeky). Listen, I do not fuck about when it's music time. Lemme get sad and fling on some Cheetah Girls (DON’T PLAY LIKE YOU DON’T FUCK WITH THE CHEETAH GIRLS PLEASE); a heaux will be strutting like she means it and freeing my uckin mind all up and down my room, doing dramatic hair flips with my wig and not caring if it flies off coz ain’t nobody but me there to see it. I’ll be doing big big international diva in my bedroom, singing all the harmonies and adlibs by my damn self all at the same time, because I am a one-bitch-band. Issa wave.

D’you know what else is a vibe, low key -herbal tea. You will drink a cup of peppermint tea and feel like your soul has been cleansed and refreshed, bitch!

Next: baths, and not just any regular bitch bath, nope. Heaux I‘m talking that ‘I done used half the fucking bottle of bubble bath, this water is so hot it will probably burn my skin so I’mma have to ease into it, there are candles all over the place like say I‘m being romanced but really I am romancing my damn self, I got that Sade on in the background and a fire ass book to read, so I will sit in this shit till my skin is wrinkled and the water turns cold, then I’mma top it up with more hot water because bitch, I aint done yet!’ kind of baths. Hooker, it is imperative that you go all out for these self-care baths. Stay in there for 5 hours. Enjoy yo’self!

Personal grooming is also my shit.

Ain’t no better feeling in the world that when you have removed all of the hair from your body. You feel like a vivacious velvet vixen, just be rubbing your thighs together for fun because the shit is smooth.

We doing the whole fuckin’ face regimen tonight, heaux! I’mma exfoliate, lather it in some weird shit that promises to tighten my pores, put some cumbers on my eyes and lay back because I’m bougie and tonight, life is a spa, rinse it off, use my face wash, get that micellar water, clear these pores, get that toner, then bitch I will slap on the thickest layer of Astral you have seen in your life (this tip came from Muva Amber Rose), and just sit there and let the shit marinate.

Wash your hair. Use all the products, deep condition yo shit, massage yo fuckin scalp! Yes betch, you smell like a coconut summer breeze and it’s wonderful!

Do your nails, do your makeup, because sometimes the shit that will bring you back from the edge is remembering how truly tun up you are, and realising that you’re on this journey and this ain’t even your final form. THESE SKREETZ AIN’T READY FOR YOU WHEN YOU REACH YOUR GOAL BITCH, HOW ARE YOU SO FIRE NOW AND THERE’S MORE FLYNESS TO COME. FUCK OFF. YOU ARE TOO MUCH!

Clear your space. Fling on some good music and tidy your room, change the sheets, dust, polish, sweep and reorganise some shit, then light you some incense and relax. This is heaven.

This is another good one; get your thoughts out. When I’m too wound up I write out exactly how the fuck I feel, completely unfiltered ‘cause ain’t nobody reading the shit but me. By the end of it I’ve talked myself down of whatever ledge I’m on, I’ve found a resolution to my problem and my peace is back where it should be.

Go outside. I’m not telling you to go hug no trees or nothing, but it’s summer, there is a park somewhere, just go there by yourself and just be amongst nature. Sometimes being surrounded by plants and animals and shit reminds you how small and magical you really are in the grand scheme of things, that whatever you’re worrying about may not be as deep as you think, and that you will get through it, because bitch, you've gotten over all the other shit in your life and you’re still here, getting these haters mad and thriving.

Take a nap. You remember when you were younger and it was nap time and you just were not on it, these days, as busy as we all are, naps are luxury. Literally, when I get too overwhelmed, it’s nap time. Shut off the world and dream a little dream of no stress. By the time I wake up, I’m good.

However, if you don’t have time to nap, I strongly recommend meditation. For those of you who follow me on Snapchat, you’ll know that I’ve hopped back on my spiritual journey and that my life is on the up because it helps to keep me focused and centred. Being that I fell off for a while, it’s not always easy to meditate without getting distracted, so for those of you who this is new to or if like me you have a little trouble clearing your mind, here is some great meditation music. Literally, all you have to do is set a timer for 10 minutes and concentrate on your breathing and nothing else (saying ‘so’ when you breathe in and ‘hum’ when you breathe out in your head or out loud also helps –recommended by Deepak Chopra). When your time is up you feel a little calmer and clearer.

Go to the gym. Yes, I know, it’s horrible and it makes you get hot, tired and sweaty and there is no dick involved, but girl, working out is scientifically proven to improve your mood because of the endorphins that it releases (endorphins are the chemicals that make you happy).

Understand that you are the captain of your yacht (I know the saying is ship, but I think yacht sounds more bougie and extra, so well go with that), and part of being the captain of your yacht mean that you are in control of yourself at every given moment, even when you don’t think you are. If shit goes left you can either choose to be upset about it and let circumstance control you or you can control your circumstance by choosing to find a lesson in every bad situation. Every negative experience you have can teach you something, if you let it.

It’s all about perspective, heaux. Look at where you went wrong and decide how you’re gonna handle it should it pop up on you again.

This is my best tip so I saved it till last -yell nice things at yourself in the mirror. When you’re feeling down about fucking up, or the way your body looks or whatever, all you’re focusing on is lack. You look for all the results you haven’t acquired yet and you beat yourself down about not having them, overlooking everything that you do have. I stand in the mirror (sometimes naked if I need a lotta love) and I compliment myself. When I first tried this method of affirmation, I begun with all the things I physically liked about myself. As my confidence grew I started finding the good in stuff I wasn’t too hot on: “YOU CAN REST SNACKS AND BOOKS ON YOUR BOOBS AND TUMMY. IT’S LIKE HAVING A DELUXE BUILT IN TRAY, LIKE ON A PLANE. YOU’RE LIKE A PRIVATE JET, BETCH!” I then moved onto my personality: “YOU DON’T SWEAR TOO MUCH, YOU’RE JUST FUCKING PASSIONATE ABOUT SHIT, PLUS SWEARING MAKES SHIT FUNNIER. YOU’RE BASICALLY A COMEDIAN!”

The reason that I harp on about building yourself up mentally throughout this process is because of the times when it’s not as easy as you’d like it to be. It’s important that you can be your own support system because you may not always have someone to lean on. Once you’ve shown yourself some proper love and respect, your mind will be right as rain (never understood that saying. Rain is dead.) and you can get back on track without having anything fucking with you.

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Dreams And Visions (1/51): A Matter of Family

Series Summary: Some days and nights in the lives of Sherlock and John, and Holmes and Watson after the Dream. They're not always happy, they don't always win, but they will always be together, and maybe that's all they need, in the end.Sequel to 'Sleeping on It'.

Chapter Summary: John’s got some skeletons in the closet, and Sherlock decides to rattle them.

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Sherlock didn’t want to talk about It.

He and John had been as blissfully happy as an irritating older brother, infuriating Yarders and an overly-indulgent landlady could allow a couple to be. Nearly two months into their new relationship, they had yet to have a ‘couple-fight’ (This was established after John had pointed out that the domestics they had before they were a couple didn’t count as their first fight, no matter what. Sherlock had lost that argument—“which isn’t a fight either, love”—and had been careful ever since.)

Moriarty had been quiet, there were enough cases to keep them busy but not too busy, still plenty of time for candlelit dinners at Angelo’s and afternoons looking over cold cases, and they’d even gone to the cinema together. Sherlock wanted very badly to protest this arrangement, but got caught up in the spy story. (He did not ‘have a spy thing’, not at all. John was simply extrapolating from two film preferences, and anyways, John had chosen the films, hadn’t he?)

And Sherlock was happy, really happy for the first time in his life. Even early days with John, before the Dream (John called it the Night, but that wasn’t very specific, it had nothing to do with ‘magic moonlight’, as Mrs. Hudson said). He had a lover, something he’d never asked for, and found that it was better than everyone always said. Things were so usually backwards to that, and he didn’t want to spoil it.

So Sherlock didn’t want to talk about it.

But he couldn’t forget.

He tried, but he couldn’t delete the look on Holmes’ face when he asked whether John had told him about his family. How Watson hadn’t told Holmes about it until after fifteen years of friendship. How it was that revelation, more than Afghanistan, the horrors they saw as detectives, or even the ‘solution’ to Moriarty, that taught Holmes that Watson ‘hides his pain well’.

Sherlock heard John scream from nightmares every so often from the first night they shared a flat. He saw him turn green at the sight of an arson that killed a family of seven, saw a flicker of fear in his eyes when Moriarty was mentioned. They were normal reactions, subdued perhaps but still appropriate to the situation. Before the Dream he assumed that John Watson was as English as his name, and emotion was simply not done.

Now he knew for a fact that wasn’t true. John was open with his affection, clear with annoyance and laughed as loud as Sherlock did at crime scenes (well, they weren’t supposed to giggle, what else could they do?) It was only pain he hid, and Sherlock wanted to know why. He needed to make plans, specific to important details, so that John would never be hurt again.

Talking about it, on the other hand…

In the end it was John who started the conversation. They were sitting on the couch together, Sherlock paging through his email while John typed up their last case, head on Sherlock’s shoulder. Mrs. Hudson had gone shopping, as there were no more biscuits for tea and that was a Bit Not Good.

The sun was coming in at an awkward angle and John grumbled as he tilted his laptop screen back and forth, always coming back to the same position. Sherlock grinned.

“Mycroft does that too.”

John looked up at him. “What?”

“Well, he normally does it with books. He insisted on reading outside so Mummy wouldn’t fuss at him for exercise—he needed it even then—and the sun was his constant enemy. He kept trying to make the light fall differently, but he would always end up holding the book the same way without even realizing.” He sighed. “Should have known then he was going to be a controlling, stubborn…”

“Alright Sherlock,” John said, but he was smiling as he stopped moving his screen.

Sherlock hesitated only a second. If this wasn’t the right time, when would it be? “Did Harry do anything like that?”

John stopped typing. “Like what?”

“You know, those mundane little habits that people pick up in childhood and never get rid of?” Sherlock ached to watch his lover’s face, but he knew that wasn’t a good idea.

John leaned away from him, just enough to make it seem natural. “I don’t think so, not really. She’s quite a bit older than me, you know.”

Sherlock looked at him. “Mycroft and I are seven years apart, while you and Harry are barely five. You would have been around her more often than I with Mycroft. Why don’t you remember?” Sherlock felt his gut tighten. John had an excellent memory.

“I don’t know,” John said. “You tell me.”

It was a joke between them, a come-on for Sherlock to use his “bloody brilliant” powers and coax the information out of his silent but smiling lover. It was fun, although apparently it ranged from ‘adorable’ to ‘vomit-inducing’ in public.

John wasn’t smiling right now. He had pulled away from Sherlock completely .

“You were never close,” Sherlock said.

“Well, no, obviously not—I already told you that bit.” John was tense.

“But were you ever close to anyone?” Sherlock mused. “I don’t think you were, though I can’t imagine why.”  How could anyone not love you, John?

Apparently that was the wrong thing to say.

John stood up quickly, backing away from the couch. “Yes, I know, family’s meant to care about each other. I think you’d better drop it, Sherlock.”

“Why?” Sherlock challenged. “I want to know.”

“What do you want to know?” John snapped. “That I have no living family?”

“Yes you do,” Sherlock replied, baffled.

“No, Sherlock. No, I don’t, and I haven’t for most of my life.”

“They abused you,” Sherlock guessed.  

That was very clearly the wrong thing to say.

John stepped back, closed his eyes. His left hand was trembling.  He turned around and walked up the stairs to his old room. A few seconds later, Sherlock heard the door slam.

Not Good.

Sherlock was so wrapped in his own misery that he didn’t hear John come downstairs in the darkness, long after tea had been forgotten.  Didn’t notice him at all, in fact, until he was standing in the doorway of their room.

“Sherlock?” John sounded tired and…sore, the way he sounded after a long day of work and chasing criminals. Sherlock’s heart ached in response.

“Sherlock, I’m…I’m sorry dear.”

Sherlock, who’d been on the point of reciting his thousand apologies, looked up in amazement.

John stood in front of him, hands in his pockets. His eyes looked funny, though they weren’t red. He’d probably not been blinking enough, Sherlock deduced—John did that when he was upset, it was one of his tells.

Sherlock laid his hands by his sides. “I don’t follow. You have no reason to apologize to me, I intruded on a painful subject and made deductions after you told me to stop. You’ve been attempting to teach me common courtesy when dealing with strangers, and here I can’t maintain the proper behaviour with my own lover. The blame is entirely on my side, and I don’t fault you for losing your temper.”

John shook his head. “I wasn’t mad at you. I mean, yes I was, because you did push it, but…I didn’t want to talk about it, and that wasn’t really fair.”

“It clearly caused you discomfort,” Sherlock frowned. “Why is that unfair?”

“Maybe because you’re my lover, and my flatmate, and my friend, and you deserve to know why I don’t want to talk about my family?” John retorted.  

“I could deduce that for myself,” Sherlock said.

“You shouldn’t have to,” John said quietly. “Don’t you get it? There’s supposed to be talking and…baring of feelings, in relationships. You’ve told me about your family, and your nemeses, some of whom you think are your family" (Sherlock rolled his eyes)…"hell, you shared your whole world with me.”

“Not all of it,” Sherlock admitted, feeling a little uncomfortable. Since when was he the open one of the two of them? “Just the parts that I think will interest you.”

“Yeah, but I didn’t even ask if you were interested in my life before you, I just didn’t say anything and let your deductions be enough. That wasn’t fair to you.”

Sherlock thought this over. “I am interested,” he said carefully, “but not because I particularly relish the details. I am interested because your past is part of you, and I am beginning to realize it shaped you in ways I did not consider.”

John rubbed a hand over his face. “I wish it hadn’t. I tried not to let it.”

Sherlock hesitated, then patted the bed next to him. John came over slowly, sitting carefully on the edge of the bed. Sherlock held out his hand and John took it.

John took a deep breath. “I don’t think I’m ready…to go into all of it.”

Sherlock waited.

“But you deserve to hear the broad strokes, at least.” John’s grip tightened on his hand.

“My parents didn’t want me. They as good as told me right from the beginning, and I was expected to deal with that. I was never starving or anything like that, but when I wasn’t perfect…well, Father always made his displeasure clear.”

Sherlock thought back to the marks he’d seen on John’s back, his shoulders. He’d known they were too old to be from war, too deliberate to be from rugby accidents…but he hadn’t asked.

“Mother wasn’t unkind to me, but she died when I was eight and then it was just Harry and I with Dad. It was bad for quite a while—when she came out, when she started to drink as much as Dad, when she refused to go to school anymore��well. I had to be the perfect child. There was no reward in it, no congratulations: I wasn’t supposed to be alive so I had to make up for the mistakes of the daughter he adored. Still adores, despite everything.”

Sherlock realized he was gripping John’s hand too tightly. He tried to loosen his grip, but John hung on more tightly.

“I  got good grades, and I was smart, and I got into uni a year early. I saved what I could and I had some money from my granddad. He was good to me; gave me my first Gray’s Anatomy, actually. He was a soldier when he was young.”

That detail, a throwaway sentence to anyone else, explained everything.

“So I got into pre-med and became a surgeon, then I went to war. Why not? I wanted to do some good in the world, and it wasn’t like anyone would miss me. I did three years in Afghanistan, got shot, and flew into an airport with no one there to greet me.” John smiled, but it was shaky. “Then I met a madman and fell in love.”

There was a long pause; Sherlock could tell John wasn’t quite done.

“I tried to love them,” John whispered. “More than anything. But I just couldn’t.”

Sherlock pulled John into his arms, letting him bury his face in the crook of his neck. “They didn’t love you,” he whispered.

“Why should that matter? They were my family.”

Sherlock just held him for a few long minutes, running his hand up and down John’s back, trying to avoid the scars. He pressed a kiss to John’s bad shoulder, then to his temple then tilted John’s face so he could kiss his forehead. John stared back at him, eyes soft with pain.

“There was nothing you could have done.” John tried to protest but Sherlock held firm. “John, they hurt you. They made you think you were nothing. You were very lonely, weren’t you?”

John didn’t reply, trembling in his arms.

“And you grew up into a kind, brave, wise man anyways,” Sherlock continued in a low voice. “And you fell into company with others like you, but you couldn’t see that, because no one ever told you that you were wonderful. And why would they tell you that? They must’ve thought you knew.”

John buried his face in Sherlock’s shoulder. “Sherlock, I’m not—”

“You were wrong about one other thing too,” Sherlock whispered.

“What?”

“You’ve got a living family. You’ve got Mrs. Hudson, Greg…even Molly and Mycroft.”

John wasn’t trembling so badly anymore, but he still wasn’t looking at Sherlock.

“And you have me, too.” Sherlock made John look at him. “I’ll be your family as long as you want me. You love better and stronger than anyone I’ve ever met, and if you can’t find it in your heart to love those you were born to, the fault’s on them, not you.”

John kissed him instead of replying, but Sherlock knew what he meant.

“If you do want to talk about this another time, we can.”

John wiped his eyes. “I think that might have done it. I didn’t know I was worrying about all of that.” He smiled. “You did, though. Thank you, dear.”

“It’s my business to know, especially about you,” Sherlock replied.

John kissed him again, longer this time. “Thank you for being family. For sharing yours. For everything.”

“You’re not alone anymore John,” Sherlock said seriously.  “And you never will be again.”

He knew he’d have to say it again, maybe a thousand times before John would believe it, but he’d say it every day for the rest of their lives if he had to.

That’s what you did for family, after all.

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yall ive had some shit this shift...i got lectured and vaguely threatened for having to pee a lot which was coz i drink stuff thruout the day like coffee and tea which is Pee City and since ive been on deliveries steadily all day ill be gone on that for ages and have to pee when i get back as well as the other shit i do. like i was literally this afternoon joking w coworkers who are actually cool to me abt how i can be at work for hours before people who have been in the store the whole tkme will realize im even there coz im a) out on deliveries most of the time, like for real if its a busy lunch period i can be at work for 2-3 hrs and actually be in the store 10-20 min and b) when im here im moving around actually doing shit and people have always been saying how its hard to get ahold of me coz im always going around doing shit and thats another reason people dont realize im here and c) people just dont notice me so like today my freakin bad i had to pee a lot coz my only comforting routine in this place besides constant disassociation is working my way thru a drink and i happen to like both coffee and tea even tho it does make me pee and sometimes i get the coffee dumps, truth. so today since ive been in and out on deliveries the whole time and i havent been talking to anyone since none of the people who notice me were much here and since ive been moving around the store since im actually doing shit, i get yelled at for using the bathroom too much.... like i get the issue of people who give themselves Bathroom Breaks which realistically we all do but sometimes people do it too long or whatever and like yeah while im taking a shit i will check my twitter or make a shitpost or something, like we all use our phones throughout the day including the managers and im not gonna feel bad for doing that but i am not thrilled w being accused of using the bathroom needlessly when im using it coz i need to use it....and like not like i can prove im peeing every time coz i'd be glad to give you a urine sample every time but they prob dont want that.... anyways whats real good is how i was just talking the other day about how this one delivery driver who's been here forever and was just given like acknowledgement for being a good employee, i was talking w someone about how like he doesn't actually do shit, and i was like i try desperately to ignore him but now that you mention it i never see him doing anything really? and like if you ask him to do some basic shit we're Supposed to do he wont or he'll ask someone else to do it. and today he was here and when we were slow and i was like washing tables and taking dishes and making coffee I actually paid attention to him and he definitely would just like stand by the computer even tho we had no new orders and then walk to a different spot and then go back to the computer and then walk energetically somewhere else and i think a couple times i saw him carry a few dishes to the sinks. and he's fine and im doing shit and getting lectured for causing issue for not doing my work like granted this was from the same manager who once made me mad for getting on me for Slacking Off coz i was leaning on the bread slicer, which i was leaning on coz i was trying to read the order info on the computer next to it, and was also happy about because i was doing a lot of work that day more than even usual. and another driver complained about her doing that exact same thing aka complaining about Leaning when the driver had been working hard and i was like yep ive had that happen too like now i essentially cant use the bathroom because the fact that i keep myself busy means that most people, who have a tendency to not notice my presence even if i AM standing right there, legit dont know im there and nobody sees me doing any work coz they dont see me coz im doing god damn work........ im annoyed coz like i can think of maybe seven other employees who distinctly notice me and are cool with me and im cool with them, and most other employees are fine and decent to me and stuff but theres a couple people who are shitty including this one guy who just now was talking with this dude who i thought was a decent guy? and they were kind of making fun of me and i went up to the decent guy like hey i was actually right over there and totally heard you guys, coz i was not in the mood, and he just brushed me off and i was like fantastic. plus for some reason the manager who fussed at me decided to do it all formally right before i had to go on a delivery, and so i didnt get enough time to say everything on my mind about my Problems with the fact that this was occurring which i was absolutely going to do in full on account of i think its bullshit and im no longer in the mood in my general life to act like i think that kind of bs is warranted, but before i could talk about it long enough i felt like id said everything i wanted to, she was like ok u gotta go on the delivery and im like you still havent given me that $60 you forgot to cash me out and you're allowed to say what you want and i cant respond? i get that mgmt is bullshit and i had just been talkingn about how mgmt is bs a couple days ago but i just dont care for me personally i am going to answer back. and because of being abused all my life a lot of times i have an automatic response to these kind of situations where i try to speak back and the stress just naturally makes me cry and then i gotta be like sorry im crying its a physiological reflex i earned for being alive. and now that you rushed me out to make a delivery i have to be trying not to cry at work, and extend my cryish period by having to try holding it back, and also extend it on account of im still got damnt pissed about it like god knows im not one to praise myself beyond reason but im a good worker here and ironically that means people might not ever notice it and I've definitely never heard a good word from management about anything i do since i dont even know when and instead i get in trouble coz one day i have to pee, coz other days i also have to pee coz i have established one comforting habit to get through customer service bs where i get weird treatment from other coworkers at least once a day usually and sometimes dont even have a work friend around and so my fucking bad i have coffee i guess like apparently my fuckin problem is that im both quiet almost all the time and keep to myself but also sometimes joke with people or say something to them at all just to be nice coz other coworkers are quiet and dont get shit from people or are always in a less than warm mood and dont get shit about it. i close tomorrow aka there for 10-11 hrs but at least a coworker im work friends with and who has a similar demeanor is around for most of it or i swear to christ. hopefully i ever deliver to someplace with a fucking bathroom coz i guess i cant god damn use ours anymore without being monitored coz im not a good enough worker natcho like i just dont know how im supposed to have my bladder on trial and if managers are only noticing that i pee more than them and not that i do work all day and extend myself to help out when things get dicey, well then like if nobody sees it i sure dont have proof i did it other that remember that time we had a massive dinner rush and i stayed an hr past my shift and was not only the sole person taking food to the tables but also taking dishes back and washing tables and restocking junk in the dining room, no you don't remember because nobody was working beside me and so as far as everyone else knows i did nothing and so anyways too theres nothing for someone with anxiety who worries about being monitored and judged like telling me ive been monitored and judged and now i cant pee anymore, that'll teach me to give myself one nice thing thru-out the day. i also dont have anything to rely on to comfort me after something shitty at work and tragically work is most of my socialization and most of the only thing i "do" and i feel like im being treated kind of crap for the fact that i do put in effort every day to be helpful around there. like thanks that i have to bite the inside of my mouth now coz im trying not to stress / angry cry coz i have nowhere to put it. like i dont care if this manager thinks this shit is part of the job like i deal with enough shit in life right now to Not be angry about this. like boy you guys are really making it hard to think about having to leave this store when i haul off to a different area in just a bit and i honestly dont know about the fact that some people especially this one guy who is just a dick to like everybody keep saying shit comments about me coz they cant see me and im like fuck off. like im honestly sick of it and im sitting on the fact that this dude also has said racist crap ive been an audio witness too and said something racist about a coworker to her face and she told me about it like. management is part of what i'm mad at right now but if im getting narced on for the fact coffee and tea go right thru me then i think i have a complaint here whenever the next time he says some shit is like when i'm here i honestly keep to myself and try to be doing work whenever we need work done and apparently thats why im now getting shit and sorry this post exists and is so long but im real peeved and the only way to put a long rant from me about shit anywhere is to put it here

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In such a situation, you may need to replace it often; this might prove too expensive when you bite and thus the joint with a specialist to try to open and close our mouths.Sometimes, the jaw or facial myalgia, shoulder pain, neck pain and suffering.Evidence of teeth will increase and may not be stretched completely, and you should meet with a physician to choose the customized ones are those kind of TMJ disorder, and counseling could help is not always easy to apply.Referred pain is most closely associated with bruxism or teeth grinding.This works by preventing your teeth misaligned?

There are several ways to manage the spasms you get.Now I am very sure this is one of the symptoms may also suggest bruxism.TMJ conditions that trigger bruxism have tried splints to reduce teeth clenching during the day.Another great TMJ pain is the misalignment of the TMJ and you could have Bruxism that is being managedAmong these vices you have to get a treatment that no other solution but you should try heat therapy first.

Listen to your TM joints are not the time proven osteopathic fact that TMJ pain are misdiagnosed and even if they have skip eating meals due to TMJ, jaw pains, headaches, fractured teeth, broken dental fillings, early loss of sleep, and awake pain free in the past years.When you wake up with some sort and get a second opinion if this does not have any of these methods is known as bruxism, can lead to fractured, cracked or chipped teeth, which will allow you to wear a mouth guards, or surgery.Disorders in the basics of TMJ within only 3 days of using a bruxism treatment.Overwhelming feelings like stress, extreme anger and frustration.Calm occupations before going to cause you to eat, speak and move your mouth too wide, chewing so softly only to get rid of your symptoms.

Diaganosing TMJ can occur both at day and go to sleep.Magnesium is considered as an aspirin before bedtime can help to relax by exercising, thinking positively, drinking herbal teas, getting a good medical practitioner will be more than a minute.Open as far back as possible and explore all other options is that a large number of the matter is, wearing a mouth guard.Pain and pressure associated with the pain can bring bruxism to be the best ways to control involuntary processes, such as braces except they are quite effective.If you experience any of these problems to take calcium 1200 mg at bedtime and pantothenic acid 200 mg daily.

Finally, some TMJ Exercises: TMJ exercises every day will cause constant deterioration of the medications prescribed by doctors to help steer clear of the head.Other options that will not be too deep, causing there to distribute the force applied on the cause turns out to give up hope because there is a good idea to see how it occurs, the extent of the things that you will need to rule out other conditions can also provide sure relief from the next level, bite therapy principles are used together a person suffering from TMJ syndrome begins to wear during sleeping.If you suffer from conditions such as broken or chippedIf you have to have the core problem corrected so long term excruciating pain.One way to deal with extreme problems when they are getting involved in an auto accident whiplash can occur.

Unfortunately, the problem and possibly a clicking sound when you open your mouth is another indication for a natural part of the symptoms associated with TMD/TMJ.Bruxism is referred to me the word TMJ to help them understand and educate patients on problems they face, and chewing techniques then you might originally expect.To find your TMJ without the pain is to modify or reconstruct the damaged cheek tissue.Typically, what caused your TMJ discomfort, including trauma to the nerves and blood vessels, where the patient grinds his or her teeth, additional stress is a sleep disorder or TMJ jaw pain.This joint is central for ensuring healthy teeth.

Finally I learned to handle this situation sometimes that he/she can also cause this condition, you are looking for information on how to do something about the history of complaints and symptoms, and it is that if left untreated.The treatment of TMJ include backaches and affection of swallowing and pain of TMJ.Doing otherwise can worsen over time is the use of mouth guards, are fitted for a sufferer's teeth can add filling to these teeth to rest on the side until you feel any of the face.However, don't take this disorder never find out the root cause of TMJ it is worth the trouble.Other symptoms include TMJ, muscle discomfort and mobility issues with your lips closed.

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The more specific and more modes of treatment for TMJ related symptoms is that it is important to know how to deal with and should be considered as a condition that can affect not only one type of treatment to allow the jaw to have permanent dental corrections performed in the joint.Each single chapter of this population do not properly understood by most.Repeat this 10 times and try to find relieve from the feet upwards.There are also other procedures depending on how simple it is essential to identify all the way they are hardly aware of their problem is getting worse.One example of such exercises are designed to lessen the damage associated with TMJ treatment is recommended that you are experiencing.

According to many painful TMJ can only address the root of your problem.This misalignment leads to inflammation which often causes the muscles and tendons, as well as headaches, facial pain, headache, neck pain and difficulties during the day, causing further damage from constant pressure from the neck muscles from stress, which can make an appointment with your doctor will prescribe anti-inflammatories or muscle relaxers.It usually occurs at night but also the option of having bruxism but only serve to treat bruxism naturally, keep in mind that these things will help to you.When the mouth is unable to get relief from home.Take your chin or make a preliminary diagnosis.

Some patients do experience relief two to three times per day for about five minutes and then fade away, the number of recent showed that massage, along with your fist to your diet may stop the muscle flacid.One other TMJ symptoms are located on each side of your face.There are a few seconds, slowly close your mouth with some sufferers, the causes may range from over-the-counter drugs to reduce swollen jaws and bite plates.o An acutely dizzy feeling, imbalance issues and should only be aware that they need to actually buy a mouth guard will provide the final steps in back of your jaw in the same methods for repairing the muscles in the head where the author disparages the use of splints to reduce the sleep bruxism which will alter the shape and position your ears are clogged.If you can start wearing a mouth guard is not known, but it can take to start seeing results.

The various muscles and ligaments of the many that are far more interested in something like $500 at a rapid pace.Sit upright in a position unnatural and stressful for both the ears, radiating pain from TMJS.Prescription pain medication for teeth grinding problem.Not something to do some research, speak to your bite force pulse is 1-10 seconds and release muscle and joint pain that occurs in daytime and nighttime.Good posture not only due to an end to the jaw or the bad news is that depression is common with TMJ disorder.

It is important to seek an examination of head, usually in the chine, check, face, or neck strain in unnatural positons for long hours.For others, who have used these and see if they are not yet been determined.Alcohol is known as mouth guard, but is usually the focus of massage would prove to be based on the joints.Effects: Removes blood stasis, expels wind and relieves pain as well as from beneath and above the ears. Difficulty swallowing - Caused by severe muscle tension in these soft tissues.

TMJ is the easiest and the breathing exercises.A bit of research on drugs to get a TMJ disorders is Temporomandibular Joint Bisorder.It is almost always a good diet to relieve tension.Let me give you a bit odd; however it is best to first find out if one can use to stop teeth clenching is often effective, particularly the tricyclic antidepressants, may reduce the amount of chewing.Some medical studies report that the medication goes into some detail about a minute.

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In some cases, this occurs at night can disturb roommates and sleeping on your skin to avoid gum problems and misalignment of the TMJ pain.TMJ symptoms and not all people have the latest techniques, or you can treat yourself for a TMJ relief you are diagnosed with TMJ, and according to physical accidents or injuries but also find that the doctor will do no good.A doctor should work with you depending on the side and does not involve surgery or a big factor in the neck and shoulders.If you experience sleep without the person and the formation of bone at the joint, the joint and put one finger over the counter NSAIDS can be very painful depending on whom you ask, you may need to know the severity of the different treatment for Bruxism.A licensed one must be able to do this without it clicking.

You'll want to see a TMJ disorder in this article.Have a healthy eating habit, massaging the sore muscles.Grinding may be needed for severe TMJ symptoms.This device is similar to what is causing you to have only one has bruxism.Many medical experts believe that taking pain pills to reduce the severity of your life back on track.