#narcissist prayer

[ris-a-roni]

The Narcissist Prayer by Dayna Craig

That didn't happen.

And if it did, it wasn't that bad.

And if it was, that's not a big deal.

And if it is, that's not my fault.

And if it was, I didn't mean it.

And if I did, you deserved it.

[bluheaven-adw]

Hi everyone. 😔

I'm asking... begging... please say a prayer to whoever you worship, or just out into the universe... please, for J.... that he is ok, that he will be safe, that he will make it out of this hell. Please.... with all my heart, please...

Please 😢😢😢

[imaginationstimulation]

'The Narcissist's Prayer

That didn't happen.

And if it did, it wasn't that bad.

And if it was, that's not a big deal.

And if it is, that's not my fault.

And if it was, I didn't mean it.

And if I did, you deserved it.

[ruminate88]

Songs For Healing Trauma🎶

I have always turned to music for a safe space to speak my heart and be honest with the world and most importantly, myself. I find it hard to lie in my songs. It’s been so helpful to express myself in music and I hope my music can be a source of healing for you too!! Below I have songs posted from Spotify for you ❤️‍🩹

[vizthedatum]

My friend validated me today - he told me that he never trusted my ex-spouse from the start. And that he was worried about my safety but didn’t say anything since we were newish friends back then.

I don’t blame him.

Would I have even listened?

My other friend told me similar - that she thought they were a covert narcissist when we started dating.

—

I did love my ex. Deeply.

But they are the most cunning and intelligent person I’ve met - and they’re an excellent behavioral masker.

And they’re also the most fragile person I’ve ever met.

I will always love them for their role in my life.

I will never forgive them for their complete lack of empathy for me. I will never forgive them for calling me the abuser WHEN I TRIED SO HARD IN THAT RELATIONSHIP TO HONOR THEM AND US. I will not apologize for finally listening to my needs or for having boundaries (which were not control-based).

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And with that (as I wait in this urgent care where I am still haunted by DV flyers) I’m ready for my Navratri prayer/puja for tonight. I understand what I must say and ask for the matrimonial version of Durga tonight.

[got-no-skill]

Look up “narcissists prayer” for an answer on your tags where you referred to something as the Israel pipeline

AH!

Thank you, anonymous!

[gramarobin]

Started drinking chlorophyll in water today. It's supposed to help with inflammation. My mom gave me a Holy Spirit talking-to over the phone today. Its interesting how her voice becomes so intense when she starts her Jesus talk..."God is going to stop this pain you have because He says "It is enough". He is creating a testimony in you when He takes this pain away in Jesus name because the devil can not keep ahold on you..." All I could think as mom went on was that all makes no sense. God is so "great" and powerful, but he hasto torture people with pain and illness to "give them a testimony" so they will give him credit if at some point they feel better!? 🙃🤪 Makes no sense to me now, that a good loving God would use people like that-seems masochistic to me. I'd never treat my own children that way, nor would any loving decent person, so that version of God can stick it where the sun don't shine. Whatev. My blood test came bk with high inflammation and liver funtion. So, I prob won't hearfrom doc til monday. I will just be here googling causes and treatments for things... I need straws so my teeth don't turn green...

[oasisr]

I truly believe that we're all a little bit narcissistic these days due to trauma, abuse and demonic oppression.

I think what matters most is that we must practice self reflection, kindness to ourselves and others, prayer, repentance, and the path towards redemption.

[ruminate88]

I Use To Think Love Sucks 😝

First off, I grew up in a very loving and positive Christian home. You would assume that I understood what true love was but I had “love and lust” very mixed up! Just because my parents were Christians, didn’t mean I understood it yet. I was very immature too. Whenever I turned 24, I found myself wanting a husband so badly. Most of my cousins already got married and started having kids. I felt like something was wrong with me… I had “loved” this guy named Jesse, since I was 15 and also dated a guy named Stewart during that time but nothing worked out for me. I ended up feeling very alone and depressed. When Jesse was finally ready to settle down and it wasn’t with me, I was crushed to the point I even questioned my existence! 🥺 I felt if I wasn’t made for him, then what was I made for? (I had no identity)

At 24, I’m giving up on myself and my life but then a narcissist named Cody suddenly showed up in my life right then and love bombed me!! I was crazy out of my mind over Cody but after he love bombed me, he suddenly dumped me out of no where with no warning signs and I didn’t hear from him for a whole summer! I truly believed the lie that “love sucks” and I was extremely depressed that whole time. Cody came back in the fall, love bomed me again, asked me to move to SF to live with him but before that could happen, he ghosted me…

At 25, I’m traumatized by Cody and so numb. I didn’t know if I could ever love someone again. I sorta spent some romantic time with a guy named Ryan for a few months but never believed Ryan loved me, just saw him as someone to fill my time and loneliness.

THEN, by that April, I meet a narcissist named Andrew and once again, I’m “crazy in love”. Andrew bread crumbed me for a summer, then we started a “relationship” but nothing changed. At Christmas I thought he was breaking up with me and I was terrified but then he love bombed me hard in January, then by Valentine’s Day, devalued me and did intermittent reinforcement with me for months. Andrew would be sooo hot and romantic towards me, getting all my hopes up, then disappear for days and leave me sitting next to my phone crying. Was this really love? Everyone around me kept telling me Andrew didn’t love me and I needed to dump him but I couldn’t. I was out of my mind for him, in trauma bond and planning a future with him. Always wondering what our children would look like and imagined us taking family vacations! I was overly excited even though Andrew was giving me basically nothing the whole time. (The whole relationship was VERY one sided)

I would often confront Andrew’s behavior and try to break up but he refused so I believed he did love me because he wouldn’t let me go! 😝 I stupidly thought it was “love” and that “love is so confusing and complicated” (all lies I lived) Eventually I found out Andrew was cheating with one of my girlfriends for a whole month behind my back and probably other girls too, so I had no choice but to lose faith and dump him. He blamed me for his cheating and had no emotions when I dumped him but tried to stay “friends” with me. Then for a whole summer he gaslit me and messed with me. Continued to want to be “sexual” with me but tell me I’m not respecting the breakup and that he doesn’t want a relationship with me. I was very suicidal during that time…

So I believed love sucked and I lost all hope and faith in it but I couldn’t end my life because it felt so terrifying and wrong. When I would sit and dwell on ways to hurt myself, I would just fall apart crying worried and afraid. Eventually I was so miserable for help I went back to my Christian roots and prayed to Jesus to help me!!!

Not even 2 months after I prayed to Jesus, I met my husband and in our very first conversation, I could actually breathe for the first time!! It was truly the first time I saw love and not lust. I knew right away there was a major difference!! My husband didn’t make me feel “crazy” or “obsessed”. The feeling with him was so different than with my narcissists exes, that I questioned why!! I never knew back then about narcissism or emotional abuse. I only knew my husband treated me way different and I felt so much more at peace with myself. Also because I had prayed to Jesus too!

Love is patient. Love is kind. It isn’t boastful, it isn’t jealous or hurtful. Love doesn’t cheat, lie or gaslight you. True love wants the best for you at all times and gives you the hard truth always. True love will give your life peace, not drama and chaos!! A person with NPD struggles to have empathy and can’t give you “love” only gives you a false security. They see the world differently than you do. Not all of them are aware of how they treat people so pray for them to do better because they’re still humans like you and bleed same as you.

NOW I know for sure love doesn’t suck and it’s hard work but it’s beautiful and it’s not confusing or complicated. The right person will allow you to feel safe always and you never go to bed afraid they’re cheating or leaving you. I pray you find the right person for you ♥️ Google the definition of “love” and “lust”. You will see they are total opposites!!

“Love didn’t hurt you. Someone who doesn’t know how to love you hurt you. Don’t confuse the two.”

— Unknown

[younes-ben-amara]

الأبيات التي يتلُوها كل نرجسيٍّ كي ينام مرتاحَ البال

ما هذه المجموعة من المختارات تسألني؟ إنّها عددٌ من أعداد نشرة “صيد الشابكة” اِعرف أكثر عن النشرة هنا: ما هي نشرة “صيد الشابكة” ما مصادرها، وما غرضها؛ وما معنى الشابكة أصلًا؟! 🎣🌐 🎣🌐 صيد الشابكة العدد #89 أهلًا والسلام عليكم؛ وبسم الله. عرفت اليوم بوجود شعر يُدعى “صلاة النرجسي” أو “ابتهال النرجسي” من مقال منتقى أدناه (الذي يحكي عن لمدا سكول) يحكي المقال عن محتال (طليق السراح) يبيع الأوهام في…

[tedoded]

Daily Prayer Caused My Life's Most Significant Change

Describe one positive change you have made in your life. In truth at first, I was a narcissist, prideful jerk.  In my mind, I could easily see the moral decay of all those around me, while I was neglecting my sins.  Yes, I knew somehow, someway, I was destined to deliver peace, love by promoting prayer and there by save this world 🌎 from a Satanic 👹 demise. (Okay, maybe not that far-fetched,…

[ruminate88]

It’s painful and traumatic but you can get to a more positive mindset and you can heal from emotional abuse ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

I went through a lot of emotional abuse in my 20s. I dated two emotionally unavailable men back to back. I loved them as hard and as deep as I could and the first one Cody, ghosted me and the second one Andrew, wouldn’t break up with me but was a robot when I broke up with him. He was emotionless. (That’s manipulation but I didn’t know that back then! 🥺 I knew nothing about emotional abuse!)

For a season after that I was so cold, anxious, suicidal and very depressed. With a lot of prayers to God for help and love from family, I got through it. I just didn’t understand what happened to me. I met my husband directly after and married him in less than 2 years!! I did have a bit of a guard up with him and would easily get defensive towards him and so upset at times. (I just didnt know why) I couldn’t stop thinking about my ex, Andrew no matter how I tried even though I was married to someone else. 🥴 I had never heard of trauma bond before!! It got even worse during covid I missed Andrew so much causing me to really feel like terrible wife!

Years later I learn what emotional abuse is and I began to put pieces together from my past!! I now know what happened to me and suddenly I felt so angry and victimized. I was on a journey for over a year restling with so many uncomfortable feelings and with cognitive dissonance, struggled to make a sound opinion of my recent ex Andrew. I was so angry with him but I also still felt attached to him. I could not let him go! He was on my mind 24-7 and it was hurting me so much.

Just over this past weekend I prayed so hard to make sense and while I may not gain a straight forward prospective of my ex,(I can’t understand why he thinks the way he does and it’s not his fault) I know my ex deserves forgiveness regardless and it helps me too. I don’t want to be cold and afraid to trust anyone new because of my exes!!

I would say experiencing all I did with my exes made me aware of how some people can behave and treat you and now you can detect and be more cautious of who you get close to but keeping a guard up only keeps your heart closed off from human connections and love! I can’t live without love and people. I had enough isolation already with my exes just need to take back the love and empathy my exes tried to steal from me! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

I don’t think I’ll ever truly know the whole truth from my exes, I probably won’t get real apologies from them (although I believe anything in this world is possible with praying) I won’t give up on myself or my exes. I’ll continue to hope the best for them and my own life. I probably won’t ever let them close to me the way I did before but I would love to make our past mistakes right!!!!

Has this helped you? Follow me for more ❤️‍🩹 It’s taken me many years to be in this more positive place! I hope you’re all healing daily 🙏🏻 Stay well and have a healthy 2024!

“Trauma permanently changes us. This is the frightening truth about betrayal. You never really get over it. At best, you grieve and make some kind of peace with it. But a major life disruption leaves a new normal behind. There’s no going back to who you were before.”

— Unknown

[senabear]

🚨TRIGGER WARNING ‼️ This woman says it all for me and many others! Narcissistic abuse is real. Karma is real. The Divine, Source, God, whatever your higher power is named is Law above all.

[ruminate88]

Better Me Now 🎶

Lyrics: Shedding old skin from the outfit I was in No longer hating myself I just never knew me that well

I always put others first taking them at their worst casting myself aside in dark shadows, I would hide

Now I want to feel alive Breathe in this clean air so long, I had to survive but I’m no longer there

I’ve gotta learn these lessons some how To be a better me now so much to figure out To be a better me now I wanna be a better me now A better me

[jvrministries]

Love, Forgiveness and the Armor of God Story Blog-May

Nova was excited to see Rose. But why did Rose need to arrive so late in the evening?Nova was still hoping she could convince Rose to sleep downstairs. After all, it was fully set up with a bed, a closet and a bathroom. And it would give Rose her privacy. Not to mention, Nova would not have to give up her office.  The time finally was here. Rose arrived, and as much as Nova tried to talk her…

[sunder-the-gold]

The Narcissist's Prayer

That didn't happen. And if it did, it wasn't that bad. And if it was, that's not a big deal. And if it is, that's not my fault. And if it was, I didn't mean it. And if I did, you deserved it.