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I think the most beautiful thing about writing of Howl and Sophie's pair is that they are written as people before being written as a pair. Let me explain this very quick.
The thing about book Sophie and Howl is that they are not really fully fitting into any "classic" romantic trope. They are not exactly enemies to lovers, as their angry chats are definitely cannot be considered a life or death battle, they are not rivals to lovers because the only aspect of rivalry between them is the cleaningness of Howl's room. They are not friends to lovers, as their relationship just doesn't fit into "friendship" structure at the very start, nor they are roomates (yes, they live in the same house but that's not the core aspect of their relationships). Of course, you can go on and fit the name of the trope you found specifically for them, but that's the thing.
They simply cannot be processed through a pairings lenses only, in order to understand how they act in relationship you need to analyse them separately, as a characters first of all. Cause that's what the book itself does!
Sure, it doesn't have a whole lot of romance instead, but it gives us time to learn and observe the life of incredibly written, alive characters, understand them as personalities first of all, while slowly immersing the dynamic between two characters (in this case, Howl and Sophie) into work. They are written as personalities, both being fully separated and interviewing, changing eachother's point of view.
It's difficult to find a trope for them. They're are not a trope. They are Howl and Sophie, and that's probably the only way their dynamic can be properly described. Just as real people, they are not really fitting into the boxes of linial character progression, but go way deeper into being complex, filled with little differences and moments only people with their personality can have in romantic (or any different) kind of interaction. They're imperfect, and silly, and multidimensional and the reader knows them well enough to imagine them interacting way beyond of what the book says to them.
They are being people before being a ship, a pair of a trope — and that's why they work so perfectly charming in the end.
Howl and Sophie are unique in being themselves.
#and that's not that they're the only ones like that#I'm sure there's a lote of well-written paintings like them as well#it's just I feel that people would try to find them some kind of a trope in the end anyways#actually If you let me brag about it a bit#I feel like people nowadays are trying a little to hard to force romance (and other dynamic but romance especially) into some kind#eh..tiny boxes instead of letting characters actually interacting on independent manner?#like there's so many bookshops and book covers that say “enemies to lovers!!” on it and like#nothing else. that may be a fault of booktock cause so many videos in there are “top-5 friends to lovers books of the year!!”#I don't care?? tell me about the characters about how their personalities are connecting them tell me about their story about their quircks#about the parts of them that led to romance being as it is about the parts of them that compliment each other#TELL ME ABOUT THE BOOK AND THEIR PERSONALITIES GODDAMIT#I have nothing against people inventing a way of naming the progression their characters relationship are that's actually pretty handy#I'm just kinda puzzled cause way people are starting to act like having one of this two three maybe five classic tropes is a necessity#I cannot understand why people won't read a book simply because the cover doesn't say enemies to lovers#I cannot understand why ppl are thinking it's enough for characters to be enemies to lovers and nothing else#I was doing tell me abt your ship template with Sophie and I had to add a million of arrows and little texts explaining every specific#AND I LOVED IT SM LIKE THEY ARE SO??! THEMSELVES THEY ARE SO ALONE#you cannot understand how much I love it#(and yes I do categorise my ships sometimes it's just I feel I don't put as much meaning into it as someone else would??)#hmc book#howl's moving castle book#hmc#howell jenkins#sophie hatter#howl x sophie#howl's moving castle#howl pendragon
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i was rereading some water 7 chapters, and the introduction of kaku was so funny. i love when luffy and zoro are using the same braincell even at a distance
luffy meeting kaku, ch. 325 "usopp?"
and zoro meeting kaku, ch 326 "oh, just usopp"
vs. Egghead arc and meeting kaku again post time skip - with nothing really changing of how luffy perceives some people (ch. 1078)
and also kaku meeting zoro on the sunny on Egghead prior the scene above and their lines echoing the first meeting on Water 7 - "I'm sorry. Did I wake you?" vs here "Who dares to disturb my nap?"
#love when characters has this sort of consistency thoughout arcs and years of other development#but when they meet some annoying guy they already fought before they revert back to that age just to shittalk each other and fight#and call them a name thats not their own (same with lucci. and luffy calling him pigeon guy lol its always funny)#one piece#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#kaku#usopp#one piece manga#water 7#egghead arc#zolu#luzo#mine#gif:op manga#gif:zolu#egghead spoilers#ive just been rereading and skipping through some water 7 chapters. but i will have to reread it more carefully#the zoro luffy sharing braincell is so similar to that fishman island part where luffy says no to being hero bc itd mean sharing food#and zoro says the same thing with sharing drinks. independently of hearing luffys thoughts on that. really same mind for them
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Hey guys,,,,guess whos not dead?!
Teen Dad Logan :)
Or, I suppose more accurately, Young Dad Logan. And by adjacency, Uncle Dad Victor.
This turned out to be one of my largest pieces of writing ever Bee-Tee-Dubs so its going to be under this to not Kill You All:
So in this AU they meet when they're 10 and 11, Jimmy just out of foster care after they found out he's a mutant, and Vic a few weeks after murdering his Father.
At first, it's honestly Jimmy showing Victor a lot of things. Simple things, like how to forage and how to scent, but it's all...quiet. Jimmy already carries a sense of shame for his ferocity that Vic never enjoys. So he draws the kid into fights, helps him laugh until his face is red with laughter instead of shame. He learns about him, and in turn Jimmy learns about him. Happy enough kids until things turned south. One was locked up and the other ran away. They escaped and found each other. It was meant to be.
Victor gives him his new name. Jimmy hasn't felt like His in a long time and the first time Vic calls him Logan, he beams.
Vic still calls him Jimmy when he's scared, but it's their little secret.
Anyways, they stay rough and tumble until The developers in the Weapon X project find them, aged 14 and 15 respectively. It's Victor's idea that they stay. Logan, for all his desires to settle down, feels chafed by the military, but Vic sees through that, see's what they could be, in the future. See's him and his Runt living free after serving, what's a few years as lab rats if they get all their adult life? What's being looked at like a monster when he's allowed to be a monster and still get schooling? Logan doesn't think any of these things, but when Vic nods, he does too.
They're only allowed to be together for the first three months, and then their forced apart, to 'reduce codependency'. They last two years without each other, and when they're reunited...things are different.
Creed has grown into his role, with each murder proving that his dad wasn't special, he's always been meant for this, how dare Anyone Try to stop him. He's become an Animal. Sabretooth.
And Wolverine....is Wolverine now. But doesn't take long before Vic realizes somethings wrong. Wolverine glances at him, but there's no glint of recognition in his eyes. As Creed starts to question him, he thinks it's a clone. So he Kills It.
Its only the third time Logan revives and puts his claws through Creeds chest that Creed realizes it's his runt. Still, being forgotten stings, being ignored stings worse, and there's a lot more blood shed before the guards are able to separate the two.
Safe to say they butt heads a lot more. Vic goads him often, word for word the way he used to, and like a house of cards, Wolverine always folds. The only times he seems to come back to himself for a moment, are the moments after Creed's killed him, and he's just waking up. He'll get a look on his face, one Vic recognizes. He's seen it a hundred of times before, even if the runt always tried to hide it:
Fear. Exhaustion.
They never talk. Victor pets his hair as Logan's throat is rapidly sewing itself back together, or Logan rumbling under Vic's body as his puncture wounds close. In those moments, Logan Remembers.
...
It all starts to fall apart when one Logan Howlett, at the fresh age of 18, is chosen to become Weapon X.
Creed sees red. This was HIS goal, His to earn, that stupid brat doesn't even want to be here, Logan doesn't even remember why he's-
He doesn't even remember why he came here in the first place.
But Sabretooth is smart. He figures out when, and where, they're going to do the operation. And obviously, he bursts in.
As he does, he overhears a Commander noting that they should 'wipe wolverines mind clean one last time, to make sure he's only obedient to them.
And that is First Strike.
Victor lashes out, taking down a doctor and a guard before anyone can blink. But his noise distracts the surgeons and other doctors carefully monitoring The Wolverine's Adamantium intake, and one of them nudges their controls in their scramble to get away, pushing significantly more onto his skeleton than originally planned.
Victor stops when he hears screaming.
Logan hears....nothing. He knows the procedure is going to begin, but he doesn't know when. When the burning starts, he goes to that little place in his head he pretends he doesn't have. He sees flashes of Creed's face, snarling and smiling, and he feels...safe. He sees white, and red hair and...hears yelling. His eyes open, and immediately close as salt water rushes into them. He breathes unsteadily through his
The water stops draining but the burning doesn't stop. Worse, his head feels like it's being torn apart, a feeling he remembers but can't name. And suddenly, nothing matters because,
Sabretooth is calling him Jimmy and why why WHY DOES EVERYTHING HURT OW OW OW OW OW OW Victor help please please plEASE PLEASE VICTOR VIC-
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Safe to say the adamantium causes even more psychological damage to them.
There is one single benefit: The Memory Adjustment failed. In fact, it failed so bad that Creed, for three whole days, get's Logan to himself.
They don't do much. Logan wakes up and launches himself at Vic, legs collapsing as his ligaments struggle to accustom themselves to the weight of his new bones. He's in constant pain, mostly just looking at Vic with big, sad brown eyes until he lies back down with him on the shitty Hospital ordered bed. It creaks under them, but thankfully never gives.
When they do talk, they don't talk about the memories. About Wolverine gutting Sabretooth to prove a point, about Sabretooth biting out his spinal chord, about Wolverine ripping out his teeth in claws. None of it matters. They know it can't last. Creed didn't plan, and Logan is too weak to think, not that he does much of that in the first place.
After those days of clarity post operation, Logan is wiped clean. And for the next year, it's back to normal. For Wolverine at least.
But of course, Logan has to beat him to the punch. Literally.
Around a month after the one year anniversary of his Surgery, Wolverine comes Bursting through the training rooms, with twenty guards hot on his trail. Sabretooth, a Predator, Obviously follows. Logan runs and runs and runs, and eventually rips the door of a particular room, to reveal...
an eerily large room filled with tubes. There's wires and things being suspended in liquid, and at first, Victor can't comprehend what he's looking at. By the time he reads 'X-02', Doner Wolverine, Logan's already broken three of the tubes with his claws, uncaring of the thick glass cutting him open in retribution for being shattered.
people go flying, and as they hit equipment the room itself begins to collapse, separating Sabretooth from Wolverine. Wolverine continues through the rooms, ensuring that there's nothing deeper inside that can help them make more of him. He has enough nightmares. Sabretooth stays back to help finish the job. All those tubes don't destroy themselves, you know?
He finds a room full of his samples, and a woman in a chair. A woman with a bullet in her neck instead of her head. Poor thing had probably gotten caught in between him and the guards. But why was she just sitting-
The woman has a baby in her arms, tubes still attached. He growls for a moment, moving to finishes her off, but freezes when she and she's groans.
"Laura...Laura..."
Logan looks at her little beady eyes, mousy brown hair, and knows...she's his.
Before he's even thought about it she's cradled in his arms, evidently all wrong because she starts to wail and Vic skids in, shoulder denting the doorframe as he stops and stares at the scene in front of him.
The woman gives one final shudder, and her head lulls. Dead.
Still, there's no time to think. Victor hears thuds getting closer to the room, and as he looks to his right he realizes there's only one way out. The window. Oh well.
with a swear, he lifts Logan by the back of his jacket and gives him a shove, and his back goes strait through the paneling and out of the fourth story. Victor whoops, and follows him down. By the time he's already made his much more elegant landing, Logan is groaning and cussing him out as much as his winded lungs will let him, which is a surprising amount. Still, Vic scruffs him again and sets him on his feet, and nods in the direction of the woods.
"Lets go"
And they do.
They end up being surrounded by the X-Men somewhere in Maine and are "Invited" to Stay at Xavier's school. Logan decides for them this time. A house, a promise that the government will be dealt with for them, and that he can get all of his memories back are very good motivators. And they an finish their education.
Victor actually...enjoys classes. He likes being smart, and it's easy. Logan does Charter school. He had lasted exactly a week in public education before deciding that if he had to deal with one more idiotic comment from one of those stupid fucking kids he was going to-
Well. His words were Not Child Friendly, so he made sure to cover his kid's ears. Besides, he's bonded with fellow teen Rogue and preteen Jubilee and Kitty (his daughters) like little sisters, but he never really settles unless he's with his Kid. His Laura.
He had to fight to keep her, a young unstable mutant like him was not the ideal parent, but for the first two months, she sobbed if anyone else held her, terrible screeches, and would reach for him to the point of falling out of peoples arms. And, he had imprinted on her to. He swore he could tell when she was happy or uncomfortable before she could, would burp her or flip her back onto her back before she got fed up with tummy time.
Vic is Terrified of touching her but refuses to admit it. He carefully runs his finger down her pudgy little cheek, in awe of her soft skin against his knuckle, when she moves suddenly, and she attempts to nuzzle her way into his palm. He, obligingly, opens his hand. When one of his claws scrapes her hair, he freezes, waiting for her to cry out. Instead, she burbles happily, honey brown eyes giving him long, slow blinks.
She likes his head scratches the best.
Logan sometimes falls asleep with her on his stomach on the couch, leaving Victor to carry him AND his clingy baby back to bed, the crib next to them so Laura can still grab onto Logans finger. They sleep together now, in a nest of blankets and pillows, Logans hand always off the bed but still somehow still touching Vic, as if to make sure he's still there.
Their codependency is back full swing, and the only time they can be reliably separated is when Vic goes to school, because he goes with Scotty, and the Boy Scout would never let anything happen to another mutant, even if that mutant makes him want to shoot him with his laser-beam full power just to see what would happen.
Thankfully, because of Victors presence, the Mind Adjustment does actually work, but it leaves Logan questioning his parallel memories for years. In the process they realize that...Victors memories have been tampered with too.
But that, is a story for another time.
#did#did you guys notice my Dead Name parallels at the beginning. And also my Brain Exploding this took TWO WEEKS to finalize i hope yall r happ#holy CRAP#anyways tags#blorboblurbs#wolverine#logan howlett#fanfic ideas#logan#fanfic#x men#victor creed#sabretooth#sabertooth#x 23#also guys!!! peep the changing of Names!!!! this is (almost always) on purpose!!!!! : D#also i do not want this to seem Sabretooth bashy as like the Bad Guy that Forced Logan to be like this#this is just mostly? from Creeds perspective in my head#whith only quick shots from Logans#so its more blamey than the situation really is.#In reality#Logan has always had a lot of independance#and knows how to make his own decisions and he CHOSE to go because he ALSO saw things that Weapon X could do for him. Not the same ones#but similar#what i mean to say is that they are two closely intertwinded little guys who may or may not be codependant an therefore in Love <3#but also that they are independant people who are intelegant in separate ways. Victor thinks too hard sometimes#he's tricky and likes to plan. Logan thinks in the moment#and knows that things are ever shifting. why plan when you can hit Real Hard
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had an idea for a post-FoR nightfall/621 oneshot idea, but i'm laughing bc the premise is like, so after 621 does Fires of Ibi 2: the electric bugaloo, he escapes to wander aimlessly on some random planet, completely lost bc he has no idea how to function outside of a handler+hound framework, and doesn't even have ayre anymore. nightfall comes to investigate what's happened to the raven that succeeded him, and is like oh, i gotta bully you back into shape, but they only know how to use tough love...
but really it's just gonna be like this when nightfall drags 621 back to branch like:
#armored core#armored core 6#c4 621#nightfall raven#king (armored core)#chartreuse (armored core)#fanfic ramblings#the idea won't leave me tho bc it'll be interesting to see how#nightfall would try to help 621 find his own meaning of freedom and reason to live#when 621 literally has nothing to his name and no understanding of how to live independently#hngh oh god this'll become a multi-chaptered story won't it#argh
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unfortunately, they could never make me hate you Katsuki Bakugo
#would i like to be his friend in real life? no. is he my pride and joy? yes#blah blah he's a bad person-would you say that to my first born son as he's sleeping on my chest?? no?? shut up???#bakugou katsuki#katsuki bakugou#god i love him#like wow he is me and i am him and also we are nothing alike#bkdk#cus we need to discuss those FAKE leaks#izuku would literally never do that?? what??? like idk if izuocha is canon hood for them but#you mean to tell me kats-his favorite person ever- saves for him so complete his dream as number one hero with a special suit#AND IZU REJECTS HIM???#WHAT??#literally what???#oh well izu just wants to be independent-okay? he can also be a hero at the agency he and his friend have been dreaming abt since they were4#HE WOULD NOT SAY THAT#like you mean to tell me you've been calling this boy kachan ur whole lives#so much so that he has named himself that publicly at one point#you unlock new power at the sight of him in distress#he's what brings you back from being a vigilante AND YOU SAY NO??#those panels are fake good fucking bye#MIND YOU#THE BLACK WHIP HEART.#mind you.#kachan... izuku...!#in the softest voices ever#MIND YOU-#WE WERE INSEPARABLE DAMIT#they are best friends i'm crying WHAT??#hiro when i catch you
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episode 11 of hilda hurricane is truly so well-done, it's crazy. the way the central theme of this episode seems to be contradiction...both internal and external, with characters like roberto struggling with living out a truly communist lifestyle if it means cutting ties with aramel. on one hand, zico is right. any form of activism requires conviction, and that might mean cutting out parts of your life that don't serve your cause. but on the other hand, most people don't live in echo chambers. we might frequently meet or even love people who don't believe in the things we do, who don't live the way we live. the world is full of incredibly complex people, and to live in that world means struggling with our own politics and our own beliefs about that world. meanwhile, it comes out during the commotion at the city council that thin waist is actually kind of religious. and, as an audience, your first instinct is to think of how contradictory that is, since people like him should technically be less likely to be capital-B Believers. but queer people's relationship with religion, as we know, is not as straightforward. many people can and have walked back on organized religion for the role it plays in their oppression, but deep, personal faith is harder for someone to completely discard —more so for people who are raised in religious societies and have been hearing religious rhetoric all their lives. i'm not sure how much more we'll learn about thin waist as the show goes along, but it was so fascinating to see him voice out his faith in saint george in front of the communists. even when they're a part of the same "side," it's clear there's a lot of variation among them.
even if you look away from the individual characters, there's this great scene where lolo and her friends get ready to listen to a radio show, and the very next scene is hilda and the girls doing the exact same thing. you would think, considering just how many differences have been established between the catholics and the camellias, they're in entirely different worlds. but maya angelou's quote about how human beings are "more alike than unalike" comes to mind, because fundamentally, all we're looking for is community and that all oppressive politics tends to do is convince you that a certain group of people aren't like you, when in actuality, you probably have at least one thing in common with them!
#greatest show of all time#hilda hurricane#unrelated but i was also thinking about the scene where that charming old guy#(i forget his name)#dissuades the women from protesting saying '[women] are just meant to be pretty and enjoy life' ...which is patronizing. yes.#but it also shows us that this comittee for decency and morality seems to be the only way for some of these women to participate in politics#it's the only place where their voices are heard and prioritized. and they seem to believe that their leadership will bring change#which is a powerful enough motivation for them. for women like ciana it's a means of independence#- not to say i'm excusing them but it does highlight just how important this cause is to them#great episode great show
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i think part of what Gets me abt metalocalypse is how clearly the people making it really love metal music, like i've mostly seen it in extras and non-show material (skwisgaar guitar lessons, charles on the phone talking abt vintage guitars, defense of speed guitar in the comics) but then of course like. all the music for the show whips ass as genuine metal songs of their own accord, they put the effort in on music videos & visuals, it all just rings true with this genuine passionate love of the genre and i truly don't think i'd be half as interested without that beating heart at the core of it.
#ignore me#once again archival tag pardon me#metalocalypse#there's faaaar more heart in this mid 2000s intentionally low budget adult swim cartoon than i expected. it's nice!#they also frequently do not go for the low hanging fruit punching down jokes which makes it WORSE in the bits where they do#it's like by no means a progressive show but they have characters who would be the butt of the joke in anything else but are#allowed to be like full fledged people independent of traits that would usually solely define them in another show#theyve just also got that fuckass clown that i cannot under any circumstances tolerate. this is an anti rockso blog.#i do NOT think he's been to med school i will not put that respect on his name. ok im done
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Does it bother anyone else that soprano musical theatre "I want" songs cannot seem to pass the Bechtel test for the life of them?
#i mean it's always gotta have some guy name jamed into her gut-wrenching battle for her own independence#god forbid women have hobbies#light in the piaza#lookin at you 👀👀#anastasia#beauty and the beast#waitress#Big Fish#Carosel#fiddler on the roof#musicals amiright
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it's my birthday so i made a low effort meet the artist for fun ft. my new fursona lol
#i say new fursona as if i ever had any actual one but then everything changed bc of one picrew. now this is my fursona (a lynx)#lynx bc it's a wordplay with my name. but only the diminutive of it. also lynxes are just cool cats#when i say picking up stuff in the wild i mean that i have a mini nature museum in my cupboard lol. including a box full of rocks#also my birthday is on poland's independence day. so it's always free! tho this year it's saturday anyway#my art
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based on a tweet i saw
#essen draws#countryhumans#countryhumans art#countryhumans poland#countryhumans italy#countryhumans poland x italy#countryhumans italpol#some silly fun facts about this#italy's outfit was based on an actual gucci formal jacket thats on sale rn#its $3600 as of writing this#meanwhile poland's outfit is based on an outfit polish first lady agata kornhauser-duda wore#some other things id like to mention as well#im actually shocked italpol isn't a popular ship in the slightest#i mean like whatsoever i went on google images and saw NOTHING#i go on ao3‚ NOTHING#honestly disappointed it seems like such an obvious ship for poland#like the 2 literally mention eachother by name in their national anthems#what stage of love do you have to be in to mention the other in yr fucking THEMESONG#YALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO not to mention italy was the first to recognize poland during independence in 1918!!!!#even if theyre not in love theyre still like besties and i dont understand why nobody thinks this!!!!!!!! its all germany!!! gerpol!!!#yall are looking at the wrong former axis power!!!!#sorry im. insane to ssy the least haha#also happy 100 posts to me. i made sure this was my 100th
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i'll be honest op, my main issue with calling aventurine kakavasha is that hoyo heavily used romani culture and history when creating his character and literally made up a name out of romani's festival (kakava) yet refused to give him any melanin romani people have...i would rather not abide by such a crude use of actual existing culture of a strongly discriminated group. so uh. that's why hcing him leaving that name behind is picked by people, in my personal moment bc i don't like how hoyo treats cultures. no offence or aggression to you, of course /gen
hmmm. i see what you mean but, anon, that's... just whitewashing him further, ultimately. because 100% appropriately handled or not, that's what the significance of jade telling him the name kakavasha deserves to be buried in the dirt was. detaching him from his culture and the ties to his family and making him a more palatable part of the ipc's white-based status quo.
like, idk, you are aware that aventurine is rroma, right? he's not white, and simply dropping these parts of his character and treating him like he is isn't... this isn't doing anything. listen, hoyo's bullshit is never-ending so of course he's white-passing, and i'm just as frustrated as everyone else because dark-skinned rroma never get their representation; they're always depicted as pale, and while that's how some rroma people look, it doesn't fairly encompass them as a whole. but the response can't be to just chuck the representation out the window entirely and perpetuate the cycle of whitewashing him..??
#also i'm saying this politely and firmly: people choose to hc him leaving his birth name behind because of this? no the hell they are not#that hc is largely born from the understanding of his self loathing and the disconnect he feels between his current self and his past#a large percentage of this fandom doesn't pay attention to the fact that he's rroma and this rarely (if EVER) factors into popular hcs#also-also saying kakavasha is a made up name. not... exactly? that's kind of a really rude thing to say actually#he was born on the day of kakava so it's only fitting that his mama would want to include that in his name#avasha / vasha are boy rroma names. avasha is particularly popular. both names mean things like freedom and independence#it's not so much 'made up' as it is a blend of names - the meaning of which both pertain to aventurine#aventurine giving up the name can symbolize him giving up his freedom#and taking it back can symbolize... well. taking that back for himself#anyway#mailbox
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you can't do the "i don't care about the baby killing because we don't know anything about jaehaerys" bit while carrying on about the mop with googly eyes known as lucerys velaryon. at least i can name A character trait for jaehaerys, luke was personality-less when he showed up and personality-less when his boring ass got munched.
#personal#anti team black#i mean already if you're doing 'hehehehe so excited' about a four year old getting beheaded i think you're a weirdo#and probably a bit of a psycho#but doing that and then acting like it's utterly heartbreaking that vhagar got her food#make it make sense#name me five independent character traits that dumbass kid had#i've got mommy's boy and mild sociopathic tendencies due to no apparent empathy or remorse for maiming someone for no reason#he's BORING#there's a reason why we got that horribly hamfisted scene to start out ep 10#we had no fucking reason to be sad that he was gonna die#like i feel bad for rhaenyra because i like emma d'arcy's acting#but other than that i feel nothing#(honestly i don't even know why anyone else is sad why tf is rhaena crying does she cry when a piece of cardboard falls over in the wind?)
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Recent game related things .. hrmm...
#I do like the inconsistency of the first map. that is actually something older but that I re-found and added to my Game Reference stuff#so that when characters reference where they're from I can be accurate. I like that the whole map is kind of shifted up that way. Where the#actual south part doesnt even count as the south since its Too Far and Scary lol. and if you say you're from 'the north' thats basically#like.. one single continent. Though some people do make distinctions like 'north midlands' or etc. still. I like the ways that common#language isn't always precisely accurate like that. and thinking about why a culture would classify things a certain way or etc. etc.#The inventory page is so funny to me because it's literally just the BASe like.. sample layout just to make sure it works properly with 0#actual design into it. just colored rectangles thrown together in MS paint. but what if I like... left it like that.. what if all the other#art in the game and UI is like stylized and fully matching BUT the inventory/journal/etc. screens I just left as plain colored blocks#with random misalignments and black spots and etc gjhbhjj... It looks unfinished in a Funny Contrast way to me.#the wordcounts are just like... my past few days of writing.. I am still not getting 2200 words a day done or whatever I needed. I'm lucky#if it's even half of that .... tee hee.. :3c I do also keep having appointments and other things going on but..grrr...#The full map of the area is probably not necessary but I thought it would be more realisitc if people were able to reference things. Like i#you have people all living in a city area probably at some point someone might mention a neighboring city or some landmark nearby#or etc. so I thought having at least the basic names of what's around for reference would be sensible. A side character mentioning#'oh yeah I don't live here full time I just travel from Marisene sometimes' or whatever makes it seem more like a Real#Fleshed Out Place than people just making vague references like 'the river' or 'i come from a city nearby' or 'i went to a place somewhere#around here' or 'the other city' or etc. lol.. Especially since global cities/global areas are weird as they operate almost like an#independent country within their walls. so it's like a micro country inside of another country usually. just plopped down in some agreed#upon plot of land that won't be too disruptive to the main country around it. That could get very complex depending on the cultural and#political backdrop of where they're placed (though obviously they try to choose the 'easiest' areas possible for it). Asen is a very mild#country without much history of conflict or anything so it's fine. But still interesting that Sifeh and the entire branched out global area#border three other districts of Asen. Which means like 3 times the local representitives you'l have to negotiate with for some major change#or anything. I think one of the 'random characters you can find around the world and have short discussions with just to make the area#feel more populated and real even though theyre not actual important npcs' is going to be a guy who actually serves on the council that#handles running the global areas and he's like.. some perpetually exhausted middle aged elf running around with a clipboard or whatever#ANYWAY...... hrgh... still trying to write when I can....#I WISH so badly that I had the scope for a simple character creation menu and all character interactions would allot for the background#of your player character. And also to have a simple day night cycle where places in the world you explore/people you talk to during the day#have new options or dialogue at night.. BUT alas... I already am so behind on everything as is lol.. aughhh... T o T#As the worlds number one Needless Detail And Complexity Enjoyer i must dilligently prevent myself from adding additional complexity
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Animal Games A Lawlight Gone Girl AU (Part Two) Part One 7.4k words Read on AO3 L has moved his lovely, vile, and entirely batshit husband out of their beautiful Brooklyn brownstone into a Missouri suburb, then left him to his own devices. He is under the impression that this is going to end well. In this part: Light gets to say his piece. Content notes: Deals substantially with concerning age dynamics, as well as racism and homophobia; a few slurs are present. Light is as vile as ever. Past childhood abuse is discussed. Suicide is repeatedly invoked, albeit in a way that parallels Gone Girl. There's some arguably disordered eating. Thank you so much to @lightyaoigami for doing so much research and holding hands in worldbuilding and character creation! Everything about New York comes from Monica, and so do all the designer clothes, L's midlife crisis car, and a great deal of the characterization. Monica did so much that it's honestly kind of hard to describe all of it; imo all the best parts of this fic come from her.
I gave him a chance to save himself. You understand this.
I know he's going to make himself out to be the fucking victim in all of this because he always has to be the victim. Oh, poor me, I grew up in foster care and I never got the stable, white-picket-fence life that no one else has in the first place -- come the fuck on. What does that have to do with anything?
I had a perfectly nice life in Brooklyn. I had friends. Friends don't come easily to me, I'll admit that, but I made them anyway. I had a beautiful little apartment in Cobble Hill with real brick walls and portes-fenêtres that opened onto a wrought-iron Juliette balcony and a coffee shop a three minute walk away where I could drink real espresso and eat honey-lemon cornmeal cake and do the work he thinks is so pathetically beneath me which by the way, it isn't. I liked it. It was my job. He worked for a fucking fashion magazine, for god's sake. He wrote about pants and peplums. It wasn't exactly hard-hitting news.
It isn't as if I didn't earn any of what I had because I grew up in a two-story.
Why should I have to throw all of that out because he thought it might be nice to have a lawn when he was seven years old? [continue]
#death note#fic#lawlight#light yagami#l lawliet#ok here it is!!#this was very fun to write and it was fun largely bc it felt like a group project (in a good way) with monica#i cut this off just before light really got going dfgjldfgjl please read the content notes and decide if u want to read the rest#also in this fic: matsuda is here albeit briefly and is a good friend to light actually#L chews on a $1.5k hoodie#light names a cat after himself#also: unreliable narrators abound#.pages#fic: animal games#i actually have no idea what light means by ‘real espresso’ he’s just being pretentious#like he thinks its imported & that this is unusual for coffee and in any way important or something#he doesnt really know what hes talking about#i could not work this in but hes also convinced thats an independent shop even though its a chain#i am also like this about a local shop so i mean i can’t totally fault him for that#every time i see another outlet i just block it from my memory#same with his portes-fenetres they’re literally just french windows
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So those death flags on Roberto eh... Meryl is definitely using that derringer after he dies, right? It's her signature gun, there's no way she won't...
#If they don't do this actually I'll be '??????????'#But yeah the theory that we will be getting Milly after Roberto dies in July grows stronger every episode#[chanting] timeskip timeskip timeskip timeskip timeskip... I really really want one#More experienced Meryl taking on a newbie partner in Milly. Wolfwood aging super fast. Knives healing period. Older Elendira... PLS.....#Trigun#Trigun stampede#Spoilers#Trigun spoilers#Trigun stampede spoilers#I'm very curious to see where episode 5 is going to take us bc they're nowhere NEAR July or even the orphanage#Which means. Hopefully. The pacing really is slowing down now. This episode was great with it... I'm v happy so far#Still bitter about elendira being a kid in this remake tho. That's one of the really big reasons I want a timeskip tbh#I wanted to see her using the giant fkoff crossbow and kicking ass :(#Plus her new design isn't anywhere near as visually interesting as the others shown. I really liked zazies redesign#But she's just in like a white gown. I couldn't even *tell* it was her til I checked the subreddit n they talked about subtitles.#I thought they had introduced a new independent plant bc the design doesn't resemble her at all#She's one of my fave characters and I was SO excited to see her finally animated after all this time 😭#It's the main reason I'm gunning for a timeskip so bad... I want actual elendira not a totally different character with her name attached
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I am visiting extended family and experiencing a spectrum of shrimp emotions both positive and negative. Positive because I love them and love spending time with them. Negative for reasons I feel so self conscious about I can’t bring myself to explain them outside of the tags even in my anonymous personal blog. I can’t sleep even though I’m exhausted. every night I’m pacing from anxiety as I try to figure out which parts of me to be honest about and which to conceal for the sake of not? Deeply hurting the people I care about? Even though I haven’t done anything wrong so if they are hurt that’s not on me.
#this post is primarily about whether I confess that I categorically and completely do not believe in the divinity of Jesus#And maybe telling them to stop trying to make my Jewish faith about the guy because that is offensive along multiple axes#So far I’ve been evading things and giving noncommittal answers to their questions but I feel so… dishonest#Not that I owe them honesty. Their questions are not appropriate#But I feel like I’m not being honest and respecting MYSELF by not owning my own deeply held beliefs#And I have no reason not to tell them except fear that they’ll be upset. Even though that reaction would be on them and not on me!#Once I start my PhD in the fall my stipend will allow me to be financially independent. I am exceedingly privileged in that regard#So there’s no financial risk to me if I alienate them to the point of cutting me off. Not that I think that’s remotely likely.#My own immediate family have been really supportive. My mom especially (my brother less so but he’s trying and I think he’ll get there)#But also. Jesus is so important to them that the one thing I could see myself getting cut off from at least extended family over is this#I’m so frustrated with them and honestly hurt by all the Christian supercessionist bullshit they’ve foisted on me this week#Trying to contort my faith into some validation of theirs. Completely steamrollering and erasing all the beautiful and unique aspects of#Judaism in the process. Trying to explain my own religion to me even though I’ve studied it for YEARS#There are some things they’ve said that are so offensively wrong it hurts#They mean well but honestly it makes it feel even worse#I feel bad but… it’s gotten to the point that I viscerally hate any mention of Jesus#Used to feel neutral about him. Could talk about him positively in the name of interfaith understanding#But the more my family tries to force him on me the more I loathe the idea of him#vent#personal#religion#religion tw#sorry I know this is potentially sensitive subject matter for people#Christian antisemitism
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