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haserot Ā· 5 months ago
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*me who is chronically late for everything* have you guys heard of Derry Girls? did we know it was good?
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chiangyorange Ā· 3 months ago
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the chain but on a scale of who says hooray yippee and wahoo
is this anything.
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arty-e Ā· 4 months ago
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Definitely not a case of love at first sight
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joopsworld Ā· 1 year ago
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Pick Yourself Up Pt. 2 | Jake Kiszka
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a/n: y'all got homework! mandatory listening assignment to accompany this part:
this is a major plot point in this part of the storyšŸ˜Ž y/n makes an appearance, but i really want this story to be about jakey so this is not my normal writing from y/n's pov. i'm really happy with how it turned out, and even more excited for where this story is headed!!!! as always, let me know what yall think xoxoxoxo
here's pt. 1
summary: after years of trying to make his dream of being a musician a reality, jake continues to fall short. on the brink of giving up, can his passion alone keep him afloat, or will he need help from others?
pairing: jake kiszka x fem reader
warnings: language, angst (although this part is much happier than the last) , alcohol consumption, light themes of depression and possible eating disorder
word count: 6.9k lol
ā€œMa, for the millionth time, Iā€™m okay. Really,ā€ Jake assured, phone held between his ear and his shoulder as he struggled to set a couple dirty plates in the sink, ā€œI donā€™t know why that asshole called you.ā€
ā€œJosh called me because heā€™s worried about you, honey, and so am I. You promised me youā€™d call me every week and I havenā€™t heard from you in a month.ā€
He let out a deep sigh; Josh only ever got Karen involved when he deemed the situation drastic enough. It was true, though. He hadnā€™t reached out to his mother for a while now and that alone was cause for her to worry. Itā€™s not that he didnā€™t want to talk to her, but it was the same reason that he couldnā€™t face his brothers: he didnā€™t want for her to see the truth of how he was living. Sure, he was close with Karen, but he never had the relationship that Josh had with her and because of that, it was easier for him to hide from her.Ā 
ā€œLook, Iā€™m sorry, Iā€™ve just beenā€¦ busy-ā€
ā€œWith gigs?ā€ she questioned innocently, ā€œHow are they going?ā€
Jake didnā€™t see the use in hiding the truth from her further but he paused, thinking about the correct way to imply how he was doing without saying it outright.Ā 
ā€œJakey?ā€
ā€œUh, theyā€™re not going so hot, Mom, if Iā€™m being honest,ā€ he said as he straightened up over the sink, bringing a free hand to the back of his neck, letting a shaky breath escape from his lips. ā€œJust kind of same old, same old.ā€
ā€œOh, Iā€™m sorry, honey. How so?ā€
ā€œNo one is biting, I guess. I play the same gigs nearly every week in hopes that the consistency will land me in front of the right eyes and ears, but nothingā€™s happening,ā€ Jake explained, closing his eyes before continuing, ā€œBarely making any money these days, either. Itā€™s been a real drag. Iā€™m feeling a bit hopeless.ā€
Shit, that part wasnā€™t supposed to come out.Ā 
His mother was silent on the other line, surely waiting for him to continue. He was half expecting her to begin down the road that she always went down; how he was the most talented kid sheā€™s ever heard, how he just needs to continue to be patient, but it never came. He listened to her breathing before he finally asked, ā€œMom?ā€
He was then met with sniffles from the other line. Fuck, is she crying?Ā 
ā€œMa, hello?ā€
ā€œMy baby, I didnā€™t know you were struggling like this,ā€ Karen began, voice wobbly as she spoke. ā€œThis has been your dream since you could walk, I assumed that since I hadnā€™t heard from you that meant it was finally coming true.ā€Ā 
Damn.
ā€œI know Josh probably told you to keep going and be patient. Heā€™s always been right when it comes to giving you advice. Whatever he said, Iā€™m sure I agree,ā€ she continued. ā€œWhat do you need, Jakey? Should I come down to see you? Do you have groceries? I can-ā€
He laughed before cutting her off, ā€œNo, Mom, really Iā€™m okay. I swear. Plus, Iā€™ll be home soon enough for Dadā€™s birthday.ā€
ā€œAre you sure, baby? Josh mentioned to me that youā€™re looking a littleā€¦ā€ she hesitated before finishing her thought. ā€œIā€™m going to send you some food whether you like it or not.ā€
That bastard really sees through everything, doesnā€™t he?Ā 
Jake knew that he had been disregarding his health recently, but his mind was elsewhere. And he absolutely hadnā€™t realized that it had gotten so bad that his physical appearance had shifted, but of course his twin was able to detect any subtle changes before Jake saw them himself. Trying to scrounge up the money for monthly expenses had become increasingly difficult; he couldnā€™t remember the last time he had been to the grocery store.Ā 
Before he could respond, his phone began beeping signifying he was getting another call.Ā 
Sam.Ā 
ā€œHang on, Mom, Samā€™s calling me. Iā€™ll talk to you later, okay? Love you.ā€
ā€œAlright honey, call me when you can. Watch your front door for groceries! I love you!ā€
After briskly disconnecting the call, he answered Sam with a meek, ā€œHello?ā€
ā€œCanā€™t believe you actually picked up. Thatā€™s the first time in weeks!ā€ Sam laughed out, his cheery, sarcastic tone palpable through the phone.Ā 
ā€œSorry man, Iā€™m trying to get better at that. Whatā€™s up?ā€
ā€œWell, Josh clued me in that he had given you some instructions and knowing that you donā€™t have a gig tonight, I believe you are contractually obligated to go out with me and Daniel. Josh will be joining us at some point, too.ā€
Jake took a sharp inhale through his nose. Truthfully, he was nervous to begin socializing with his brothers again. He had grown accustomed to being by his lonesome; he didnā€™t particularly enjoy it and was lonely most of the time, but at least he could be his authentic self and process his emotions freely without the eyes of others watching him. He racked his brain for a sufficient way to decline his little brother's offer, an excuse that would seem legitimate enough for Sam to believe.Ā 
ā€œSam, I-ā€
ā€œRemember, you canā€™t say no!ā€ Sam yelled through the phone, partnered with a poor attempt at a maniacal laugh.Ā 
Jake closed his eyes once more, bringing his fingers to pinch the bridge of his nose. He knew he would never hear the end of it from any of his brothers if he declined yet another invitation.
ā€œAll right, asshole, Iā€™m in.ā€
Jake could hear Sam hollering on the other line, seemingly pulling the phone away to tell who he assumed to be Daniel, ā€œThe fucker said yes! Can you believe it!ā€ Then, speaking directly into the phone,
ā€œMeet us at Robertā€™s at 8pm, and donā€™t be late! Oh, and bring your guitar!ā€
The phone disconnected with a swift click, leaving Jake to wonder just what trouble his brothers had in store for him tonight. I think Robertā€™s is that place Iā€™ve been trying to play at for months nowā€¦
He looked around his apartment and thought to himself, ā€œMan, this place is disgusting. You really let yourself go.ā€ He continued collecting dirty dishes from all corners of his home, placing them in the sink before cranking the faucet and filling the basin with warm, soapy water. Itā€™d only been a couple days since his talk with Josh, and he found himself surprised that his brother's words had affected him as much as they had. There was hope in his heart, even if it was just a small glimmer, but he felt compelled to begin trying again. To make an effort to show up for his brothers, but also for himself.Ā 
A couple hours later, the dishes had been dried and put away, garbage collected and taken down to the dumpster behind the building. He even took the time to wipe down his counters and finally change the lightbulbs in the hanging lamp that illuminated his kitchen. To keep him company while he worked, he put on his favorite records, something that again he hadnā€™t done in what felt like months. He let the familiar songs soothe him, his mind lulled into a comfortable rhythm. Humming along as he worked, he began to realize that he felt the most at ease heā€™s felt in ages; his head was free from the heavy thoughts that have been clouding his brain for the better part of a year, the tension in his shoulders beginning to feel a little less tight. Sure, he still felt the gravity of his situation, but having the motivation to clean himself up a bit was a new, welcome change. All thanks to Josh, that fucker.Ā 
Cleaning out the fridge, he was startled by the sound of his doorbell buzzing. Throwing on the pair of beat up Birkenstocks, he made his way through the door and ran down the stairs to be met with a grocery delivery. He picked up the large cardboard box, hauling it upstairs and setting it on the kitchen counter. He noticed a note from Karen lay on the top as he opened the box:
Take care of yourself, sweetie. Canā€™t wait to see you soon.Ā 
Love, Mom
He smiled to himself, carefully placing the note next to the box before digging through it, noticing how she sent him all his favorite foods. He put the groceries away swiftly, and as he closed the door to the fridge he caught sight of the clock on the stove, 7:46pm.
ā€œFuck,ā€ he cursed under his breath before running to his room to throw more presentable clothes on, grabbing his guitar case on his way out the door. Sam had told him not to be late.Ā 
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Y/N POV
ā€œYeah, yeah, Caitlyn, 7:45 sharp. I got it,ā€ you said as your phone was snug between your cheek and your shoulder, bringing your bags and equipment down to your car. It was nearing 6pm; you and your bandmates had a local gig tonight at a bar that you frequented.Ā 
ā€œJust please donā€™t be late like last time! This gig is actually really important, and weā€™ve only got 15 minutes to get set up,ā€ your drummer explained, concern and anticipation evident in her tone.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry I was late last time, Cait, I promise I wonā€™t be again!ā€ You slammed the trunk of your car shut with your free hand, ā€œYou know Iā€™m not usually like that.ā€ She knows I was having car troubleā€¦Ā 
ā€œI know, tonight is just nerve wracking. Iā€™m kinda freaking out. The whole open mic thingā€¦ who knows whoā€™s gonna be there.ā€
ā€œI can tell! But itā€™s gonna be fine. Iā€™m heading to Jen's now to make some last minute tweaks to her solo. Iā€™ll see you soon!ā€
You said goodbye to your friend before shoving your phone back in your pocket. Not too long ago, you and your childhood friends had set out to Nashville to live out your dream of making it as musicians. You had all been playing together for longer than you could remember, the band falling into your lap without any real amount of effort. Caitlyn, your neighbor growing up, was a force to be reckoned with on drums, Jen, your best friend since kindergarten, on guitar, and your cousin, Tyler, holding it down on the bass. You had been chosen as the lead vocalist before you truly knew how to sing, but once falling into the role, you took your job incredibly seriously, taking as many voice lessons as you physically could to solidify your now resonant and skilled voice.Ā 
The four of you hit the ground running once getting to Tennessee, and somehow luck had been on your side, managing to play for the right group of people and now you had your first EP out, working to get your debut album out after having signed with a label. You were confident in your abilities and even more confident in your sound, having pushed many other priorities aside to focus on this career that you had set in motion with your friends.Ā 
After climbing in the driver's seat and twisting the ignition, you blasted the AC in your car. Who knew how long it would take for you to get used to the southern heat. It was only a short drive to Jens, something the two of you made sure of when you were looking at apartments, and as you drove you began humming possible riffs for her to try out on the new song youā€™d be debuting tonight.Ā 
She ushered you inside her place quickly upon your arrival, clearly anxious about your performance tonight.Ā 
ā€œCait is totally getting to me. I wasnā€™t nervous at all until she called me a couple minutes ago,ā€ she fussed, leading you into her makeshift home studio and slinging her guitar strap over her head, walking over to the amp and plugging in.Ā 
You chuckled, digging your own acoustic out of its case, ā€œI really think itā€™s going to be great! Weā€™ve been rehearsing day in and day out, and weā€™ve played this bar before so at least that bit isnā€™t new.ā€
ā€œI think sheā€™s nervous because they asked her to be the drummer for the open mic thatā€™s happening after our set. Theyā€™re paying her good money so she didnā€™t turn it down, but you know how she is.ā€
Oh shit, I didnā€™t know that part.Ā 
ā€œDid they ask you or Tyler to stick around, too?ā€ You realized that tonight may be a bigger deal than you had originally thought.Ā 
ā€œNah, it sounded like they already had a guitarist, and I think they have someone on both electric and upright bass. Weā€™re going to stick around for Caitā€™s sake, but who knows, we might hear some good shit tonight,ā€ she said, pulling her hair out from under the guitar strap and throwing it over her shoulder, ā€œNow, show me what youā€™ve been thinking about.ā€
You beamed at her, situating your guitar on your knee before strumming out the ideas you had come up with.
End of y/n POV
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ā€œAn open mic?ā€ Jake spat out at Sam, grasping his brother's forearm tightly. ā€œYou shithead, why did you bring me to this place?ā€
Sam was howling with laughter as he yanked out of Jakeā€™s grip, leading him to the table where Danny and Josh sat, somehow already inebriated, whooping and hollering once Jake was in their line of sight. Jake reluctantly plopped down in a chair beside his twin, facing the tiny stage in the corner of the bar that was illuminated by soft overhead floodlights. Nonchalantly swirling his whiskey in its highball glass, he glanced around the bar. So this is Robertā€™sā€¦Ā 
It looked like any other dive bar, but a little tidier. The walls were painted a dark crimson with neon beer signs and vintage pinup posters consuming every inch of space. The booths were made of brown, worn leather, the floors a warm hardwood. He took inventory of the instruments already set up on stage, and noticed the upright bass snug in the corner. Maybe this wouldnā€™t be a waste of his time after all.Ā 
Josh nudging his shoulder caught his attention.
ā€œIā€™m really glad you're here, it means a lot,ā€ Josh slurred, just above a whisper that only Jake could hear.Ā 
A slight grin graced his lips as he shrugged before Josh continued, ā€œDid you talk to Mom?ā€
ā€œYeah, I talked to her,ā€ Jake replied, jabbing his elbow into his brother's ribs, ā€œthanks for ratting me out. She was all worried and shit. Even sent me groceries.ā€
Josh shook his head, a cheesy smile plastered to his face accompanied by a pink flush of his cheeks, surely due to the alcohol in his system, ā€œSorry, man, but you looked like crap! I had to tell her!ā€
Jake couldnā€™t help but match his brother's smile; he was beginning to feel true gratitude for all three of them. He was realizing exactly how much they cared for him, willing to carry his burden on their shoulders in any way they knew how. He glanced over to Danny and Sam where they were having their own conversation, and he couldnā€™t help but feel his heart swell, an emotion that was only supplied when he was spending time with his brothers.Ā 
Danny caught his eyes for a split second and offered him a tight smile; Jake hadnā€™t apologized to him yet.Ā 
Tonight, if I can find time alone with him. I need to do better. He knew he potentially hurt Danny more than any of his other brothers, and there was still a piece of him too swollen with pride to completely let himself admit just how badly he had fucked up. Before he let himself get too much in his head, something that Josh consistently warned him about, he cleared his throat to gain the attention of the group.Ā 
ā€œAlright, Sammy boy, wanna tell us why weā€™re here? And why I needed my guitar?ā€ He accompanied the question with a raised eyebrow, inclining his glass towards Sam.Ā 
ā€œWell, brother, if you would be patient for just a couple minutes, weā€™re here to see a band and they should be starting any second now,ā€ Sam replied, clasping his hands together. ā€œThe lead singer is a waitress at my restaurant. She told everyone their band had a gig here tonight,ā€ he explained, taking a second to glance around the bar, searching the crowd, ā€œbut it looks like Iā€™m the only asshole who bothered to show up!ā€
ā€œIā€™ve heard them play before, theyā€™re pretty good! And her voice is unbelievable,ā€ Daniel chimed in, eyes piercing Jakeā€™s as he added, ā€œI think youā€™re really gonna like her.ā€
Donā€™t tell me these assholes are trying to set me up.Ā 
ā€œOkay, but that doesnā€™t explain why-ā€Ā 
Jake was cut off by the lights in the bar dimming, turning his attention again to the small stage to watch three musicians climb the few steps up to the platform. A tall brunette took her place behind the drumset, muscular arms and stoic features that seemed to be evident in every drummer heā€™s encountered. He observed the spritely woman with flowing hair plugging her cobalt guitar into the amp, throwing her wavy locks over her shoulder in the process, and a towering, lanky man who stood impossibly still as he clutched his bass guitar, a mysterious air around him, his eyes hidden behind dark aviator sunglasses. Each one different, surely bringing their own unique voices to the collective whole, but Jake could already tell that their chemistry would likely be unmatched.Ā 
The three musicians checked their sound, the guitarists making sure their strings were in tune, before the lead vocalist made it onto the stage. And as Jake watched her ascend the steps, lights glistening off of her hair and bouncing off her features, his breath was stolen out of his chest.Ā 
She took center stage, if he could even call it that with how confined the space was, and he watched with rapt attention as she adjusted the stand to her height and spoke a hushed ā€œCheck, check,ā€ into the microphone. Her voice was low, sultry, alluring, and everything clicked into place as to why his brothers had brought him here tonight. His eyes were glued to the stage, however, oblivious to the three men observing him, smiles plastered wide across their faces upon realizing that they had been successful in their plan.Ā 
She then turned around and spoke something to the rest of the band, all of them nodding and smiling in agreement before a light shuffle began sounding from the drumkit. They all fell into an easy groove, their sound a tempting soulful rock that only few could pull off these days, in Jakeā€™s opinion. He couldnā€™t take his eyes off the singer as she turned back to the mic, her eyes closed and head softly lilting along rhythmically, an easy, almost lazy smile dancing across her face.Ā 
Jake brought his glass up to his mouth as he leaned back in his chair, settling in for what he knew was about to be a fantastic set, but paused his actions as she stepped closer to the mic, drawing a breath as her eyes opened and the first note slipped past her lips.Ā 
He was sure he looked ridiculous, glass held halfway between the table and his lips, eyes blown wide and mouth slightly agape, but he couldnā€™t find it within himself to care. He was entranced by her voice; his personal siren calling only to him, hypnotizing him. He watched as she effortlessly swayed, interacting with the other musicians she shared the stage with. She was completely in her element, no sense of anxiety or nervousness written in her complexion or any of her bandmates. She acknowledged the audience only a few times, graciously accepting their applause and smiling at Sam when he waved excitedly at her, only to flit her eyes around the rest of the table, pausing when she finally landed on Jake.
His breath caught again and he could hear his pulse pounding in his ears. For a fleeting moment, they were the only two in the dimly lit bar.Ā 
All he could do was stare, and she held his eyes for longer than what would be deemed comfortable, but it seemed as though she couldnā€™t bring her eyes away from his, either. Only when she heard a familiar cue did she drop his heated gaze, returning to her revelry-like state as the band began another song.Ā 
Jake caught himself blinking a few times in an effort to try to bring himself back to reality. He glanced briefly at his brothers sitting with him and cursed under his breath when he noticed all three of them already looking his way, knowing smiles evident on each of their lips. He was still clueless to the fact that they had been observing him all night long, not noticing Sam when he leaned over to whisper to Daniel or Josh, ā€œI told you so!ā€
The set was about 45 minutes long, giving 15 minutes until the open mic started. An older man hopped onto the stage once the band was done, saying that there were still plenty of spots available and that the sign-up sheet was taped over on the bar. The four brothers were still huddled around the table when Sam popped up quickly to announce he was going to get them all another round, which none of them objected to, before hurrying over to the bar.
It was hard for Jake to turn off the voice in his head that was begging and pleading him to go back to the safety of his home, but he had to admit that listening to her sing had been well worth his time. And although he groaned at the thought of listening to whatever ā€œnonsenseā€ was going to be played at the open mic, there was no way he would turn down the opportunity to have the chance to talk to her once her and the rest of her band finished packing up their instruments.Ā 
9 oā€™clock rolled around, fresh drinks arriving on the table as the brothers talked amongst themselves; it had been far too long since Jake had caught up with them. He learned about the upcoming movie Josh would be working on in the next couple months, always excited to hear his twin talk about something he was so passionate about. The first couple of acts had played their songs, none of them horrible but none of them garnering any of their attention, all too engrossed in each other's company.
Jake was right in the middle of hearing about the most recent tournament Daniel had been involved in when he heard his name being called.
ā€œJacob Kiszka and Y/f/n Y/l/n, come on down!ā€
What the fuck?
He panicked as he looked between his brothers, darting his eyes between them until he landed on the culprit, Sam. Of course it was Sam; his little brother was known for getting them into all types of trouble, saying that it was always easier to ask for forgiveness rather than permission. ā€œPlus,ā€ he would always say, ā€œyou guys have to admit that was pretty fun.ā€
Sam was already beaming, not faltering when Jake gritted at him through his teeth,Ā 
ā€œYou motherfucker, what did you do?ā€
All Sam did was shrug and gesture towards Jakeā€™s guitar case, not intimidated in the slightest by Jakeā€™s blinding rage.Ā 
I canā€™t play with her, let alone begin to think about what we could play together- His mind was running a mile a minute as he glanced between his guitar and Sam, cursing his brother to the high heavens.
Finally, Josh clapped his twin on the back and whispered, ā€œDonā€™t you know itā€™s rude to keep a lady waiting?ā€
He finally looked to the stage where she already stood, a sheepish smile evident across her mouth as she waited for him to make up his mind.
How did she know it was me?
He then looked around the bar, noticing many eyes on him and a hush falling upon the crowd in preparation.Ā 
Oh, idiot, she recognized your last name. She works with Sam.
Turning back to the stage, he saw that the drummer was seated behind her kit, and there was an older man picking up his upright bass that had been gently laying on its side, plucking the strings and tuning it ever so slightly.Ā 
Jake squeezed his eyes shut and let out a deep sigh before opening them, bending over to grab his guitar case as he stood from his chair. Delighted applause erupted from the patrons of the bar, making him wince, and before he made his way over to the stage, he made it a point to menacingly tower over Sam who was still seated, grabbing the collar of his shirt and whispering a curt ā€œWe will talk about this later.ā€
He let go of Samā€™s shirt with a little force, his brother laughing at him and cheering him on, knowing Jakeā€™s threat was completely empty.Ā 
Jake had to take a few calming breaths, in through his nose and out through his mouth, just like Josh taught him. He stalked towards the small stage, knuckles surely white from how tightly he was gripping the handle of his guitar case. He was all too aware of the eyes on him; he was used to performing and others watching him do so, but he always performed solo and on his terms. This was new territory for him, and it had his nerves blazing.Ā 
Her eyes followed him as he climbed the couple of steps, and he met her gaze and gave her a shy smile as he passed behind her to the unoccupied side of the stage. He made quick work of unpacking, silently thanking his lucky stars that something had told him to bring his acoustic rather than electric. He plugged it into the amp that was sitting behind him, and continued to crouch with his back to the audience as he tuned his guitar quietly. Fortunately, those sitting out in the bar had begun to talk amongst themselves, effectively helping his nerves settle ever so slightly.Ā 
As he stood, he looked to the other musicians, nodding to the drummer as she sent him a sweet smile, and the bassist who gave him a jovial thumbs up. He could feel the corners of his mouth turn upwards as he finally faced her.Ā 
She was standing in front of the mic, neck turned to watch him make his way to the front of the stage, a grin still on her face but accompanied with an expectant, raised eyebrow.
Oh shit, thatā€™s right. What are we going to play?
He paused once he reached the front of the stage, taking a moment to look between the musicians again, racking his brain as to what would fit their instrumentation best but better yet, what would do her voice justice.Ā 
A smirk found his lips as he settled on a suggestion, feeling much more confident now that he had an idea. Jake found his feet taking him to her without a second thought, closing the short space that distanced them. She turned her body towards him, welcoming him with a warm smile, eager to hear what he was going to offer.
Only once he was truly in her presence did his nerves take the reins again. Her beauty was evident when he observed her from the crowd, but seeing her this up close was something else. His heart hammered in his chest once more as he realized that he got to hear her sing again, and better yet, got to hear her voice sing along with him. He let go of the neck of his guitar, the strap snug across his back, and wiped his clammy hands against his faded jeans in a gesture that could only suggest how anxious he truly was.Ā 
Say something, damnit.
ā€œHi,ā€ his voice cracked.Ā 
Shoot me now.Ā 
ā€œHey,ā€ she chuckled out, thankfully not noting his aura of insecurity. She glanced to take a look at his guitar, his hands still resting on his thighs, and then brought her eyes to meet him again. He shifted his weight between his feet; why did she make him feel like a hormone-ridden teenager talking to a girl for the first time? His lips parted to speak again but was interrupted by her bringing her face closer to his, leaning to whisper in his ear,
ā€œSeems like you have a song in mind.ā€
She retracted her head to stand upright before the mic stand once again, an expectant, but patient, look upon her face.Ā 
Jake cleared his throat before leaning in to softly say,Ā 
ā€œYeah, you know Lilac Wine?ā€
Her face flushed and she beamed an earth-stopping smile as she whispered back,
ā€œJeff Buckley or Nina Simone?ā€
ā€œCan you play piano?ā€
She smirked and shook her head, ā€œNot like Nina.ā€
He chuckled softly, ā€œMe neither.ā€Ā 
ā€œJeff Buckely it is, then.ā€
He backed away from her, inclining his head in confirmation, before making his way back to the drummer, asking her if the song was to her liking and she nodded excitedly, switching her drumsticks out for a pair of brushes.Ā 
Y/n had gone over to the bassist, and he watched as the bassist put his hand on his chest, hopefully a sign of how much he loved the song. Jake looked between all the musicians, making his way back to his spot on the stage, saying loud enough just for the bassist to hear, ā€œG Major.ā€ The bassist winked, leaning his bass against his hip.
Jake watched as she made her way back to the front, only after exchanging a quick glance to her friend at the drums, the bassist, and then directing her stare to him. She gave him a slow nod, indicating that she was ready and waiting for Jake to begin.Ā 
He fixed his attention back front, and took a deep breath as the crowd hushed, watching with bated breath for the music to begin.Ā 
Jake inhaled deeply, exhaling as he strummed the one, solitary chord. And then he heard her voice.
ā€œI lost myself on a cool, damp night,ā€
Jake heard a few whistles of exclamation from the crowd which caused a slight smile to form on his lips as he played the next, slow chord,
ā€œI gave myself in that misty light,ā€
He couldnā€™t help but shift his position to face her, only to realize that she already watched him, her head turned just enough so she could still sing into the microphone.Ā 
ā€œWas hypnotized by a strange delight,ā€ she sang, a sultry smirk gracing her lips as the lyrics came out,
ā€œUnder a lilac tree.ā€
Jake watched her with rapt attention, knowing that it was his cues she was waiting for, and even though his heart was racing in his chest just by the fact that she was staring at him, he wouldnā€™t let that hinder his performance.Ā 
His strumming picked up as she sang the next couple lines, her voice seeming to rumble through the speakers as she sang the line before the chorus,Ā 
ā€œBecause, it brings me back you,ā€
Jake turned to the bassist and gave a cue, letting him know it was time for him to join even though he was sure he already knew that. The rhythm section set the perfect slow, sleepy tempo to paint the mood of the song, and Jake felt overjoyed to be in the company of such talented musicians. It had been a long time since he played with others, and he forgot how great it felt to collaborate.Ā 
The four musicians were feeding off of each other's energy, the song going off without a hitch considering he didnā€™t know them at all. He locked eyes with his mystery girl, y/n, he remembered, for the majority of the song, her voice tugging at his heart strings and filling the air with nearly palpable warmth. He knew the song would sit perfectly in her register, but he couldnā€™t have imagined how beautiful it truly sounded coming from her lips. Her voice would stay with him for a long time; he had never heard a voice quite as unique as hers.
He had to play with her again.Ā 
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The song finished all too quickly. Jake had completely forgotten about the audience he stood before, completely enthralled by her voice and the musicians he was playing alongside. Only until he heard Samā€™s cheers cut through the applause was he brought back to the moment, focusing his gaze forward to the sea of clapping hands.Ā 
For once, he didnā€™t have to fake the smile that graced his face. In fact, he didnā€™t have to think about it at all. Jake was beaming, graciously nodding to the patrons of the bar before his eyes landed on his brothers, clapping excitedly and more obnoxiously than anybody else. It was Josh he lingered on though, his twin giving him a smile that seemed to absolve every insecurity, every heavy weight plaguing him. Before Jake knew it, he was placing his hand over his heart, hoping to convey the immense gratitude he had for his brother, Josh mirroring the action not a moment later.Ā 
Jake ripped his gaze away from his band of brothers and turned to the musicians he just played with, all of them eagerly meeting in the middle of the stage to congratulate each other on a job well done. The drummer, he learned, was named Caitlyn, and she gave him a celebratory firm whack on the back that made him chuckle. The bassist introduced himself as Max and instructed Jake to find him later so they could exchange information. ā€œI can tell youā€™re a talented kid; itā€™s not very often I meet a guitarist who truly knows his guitar like the back of his hand,ā€ Max had said, shaking Jakeā€™s hand with a vice-like grip.Ā 
Jake turned to Y/n to say something, anything, but as he opened his mouth he heard the next band called out over the mic, effectively ushering them off stage. Her eyes twinkled, though, and she grasped his shoulder as she inclined her head over to the bar, silently asking him to meet her there. He gave her a shallow nod, not able to keep himself from smiling at her.Ā 
Jake scampered off stage, leaving Y/n to talk with her band as he went over to the table where his brothers sat, waiting for his return. Once Sam saw him approaching, he leapt up off his chair, bringing his brother into an excited embrace that Jake was not all too eager to reciprocate.Ā 
ā€œOh come onnnnn, you canā€™t still be mad at me! We all saw you up there!ā€ Sam laughed out, still clutching Jakeā€™s shoulders.Ā 
Jake rolled his eyes, once again not able to hide the smile that was on his face, ā€œWatch me.ā€
Danny clapped for him from his seated position at the table, giving Jake the most genuine smile heā€™d received since his fight with him, saying ā€œBrilliant, as always.ā€ Jake shrugged it off, all too aware of the words that continued to be unspoken, but still feeling that this was not his opportunity to apologize. Finally, Josh stood from the table, placing a hand between Jakeā€™s shoulder blades.Ā 
ā€œI think you found it, brother.ā€
Glancing into Joshā€™s eyes, he felt all of the words his twin didnā€™t need to say out loud. All he could do was nod. He agreed; even though he was mere accompaniment, it hadnā€™t felt that good to play his guitar in a very long time. The feeling of adrenaline, of pride in his abilities, had been lost for months, and he forgot just how addicting the feeling of his calloused fingers against the steel strings could be. Maybe his passion was starting to come back, and it sent a pang to his heart to know that Josh had somehow seen that from the 10 minutes he spent on the stage.
Jake glanced over to the bar, seeing Y/n casually chatting with the bartender. Josh followed his gaze, dropping his hand away from his brother's back and returned to his seat. Jake took a deep breath, trying to figure out what he was going to say, not registering that he was already making his way over to the bar. In the distance, he heard Sam yell, ā€œJakey! She likes gin!ā€ but all he could do was give his little brother a dismissive wave of his hand from over his shoulder.Ā 
He grinned to himself, logging away the bit of information. Donā€™t meet too many gin fans these days.Ā 
ā€œSo, Jacob,ā€ she said, swirling her straw around the glass of her gin and tonic. His name tumbling from her lips felt like a bolt of lightning through his system.Ā 
His smile was bashful as he glanced down at his own drink, trying to keep his composure as he assured that she could call him ā€˜just Jake.ā€™ Their conversation flowed effortlessly; he learned all about her band and the members within it, as well as how she could handle Sam as her boss. She asked him a multitude of questions, as well, but he couldnā€™t think about himself at the moment. Any chance he had to think about his own life sent his mind swirling in a downward spiral, so he would deflect the question back to her, genuinely interested in the words she had to say. He found out that she, too, was from the Midwest, both of them commiserating about the heat before he felt a tap on his shoulder.Ā 
Jake turned around to see an older man, probably in his 50s, standing behind him, a knowing smile on his face that immediately put Jake at ease.
ā€œJacob, right? Iā€™m Robert,ā€ he held out his hand, Jake quickly taking it into a handshake, his eyes wide.Ā 
Why the hell is the owner talking to me?Ā 
ā€œI heard you play, you have a really great sound. You a solo musician?ā€
Jake flickered his eyes between Robert, Y/n, and then over to the table where his brothers sat, before responding, ā€œYeah, I mostly do solo shows,ā€ he beamed, "Itā€™s really nice to meet you, Robert. Iā€™ve heard so much about this place, itā€™s great.ā€
Robert laughed as he thanked Jake, the older man asking a few more questions about Jakeā€™s situation as Y/n sat and listened, a lopsided smirk on her lips.Ā 
ā€œWell, Jacob, Iā€™d love to have you regularly play at the bar. The crowd seemed to love your sound, as did I,ā€ he said, pulling out a business card from his back pocket. ā€œPlease feel free to email me if youā€™re interested.ā€
Jake blinked a couple times before gently taking the card from Robert's hands. He heard about many great musicians passing through this bar; it was a family-owned place, ownership being passed down from generation to generation, helping artists get off the ground and into the spotlight. Jake met Robertā€™s eyes again, smiling from ear to ear as he shook the man's hand once more, thanking him and assuring him that heā€™d be hearing from Jake very soon.Ā 
Once Robert walked away, Y/n chimed in, ā€œHeā€™s a really good guy, but doesnā€™t interact with a lot of people much. From what I know, he hardly invites anyone to play here. You should count yourself lucky.ā€ She winked at him, a smile evident on her face before bringing her straw to her lips.Ā 
ā€œYour band plays here all the time, did Robert contact you guys?ā€
ā€œNope,ā€ she shook her head, ā€œheā€™s friends with Jenā€™s dad. Her dad called in a favor, got us our first gig here. Thankfully, everyone liked our music enough that we were invited back.ā€
Almost as if she were summoned, Jen called Y/nā€™s name from across the bar, beckoning her over and signifying that the band was heading out.Ā 
Y/n turned back to Jake with an apologetic look, ā€œLooks like itā€™s my time.ā€
Jake gave a soft smile, glancing at his watch and realizing that already an hour had gone by, the open mic long abandoned. He flickered his eyes back up to hers, ā€œWhen can I hear you sing again?ā€Ā 
He felt the air leave his lungs as he watched her blush at his words, but she regained her composure quickly before holding out her palm. She was so sure of herself, an air of confidence around her that he was envious of. If she had any insecurities, she would never let the world know.Ā 
ā€œCan I have your phone?ā€
ā€œSure,ā€ he fumbled around for it in his pocket, ā€œwhat for?ā€
Her smile only grew at his oblivious question, ā€œSo I can give you my number. Maybe you can call me and ask when our next gig is,ā€ she wiggled an eyebrow as she added her number to his contacts.Ā 
ā€œThere,ā€ placing his phone back in his grasp, ā€œdonā€™t be a stranger.ā€ In a gesture that was over before it began, she leaned in close and gave him a chaste peck on his cheek before sliding off her bar stool and making her way through the crowd.
He sat and watched her as she greeted her friends, completely dumbfounded. Heā€™d lost track of how many times she had stolen his breath that night, and as he glanced down at his phone that lay waiting in his palm, he brought his other hand to faintly stroke where her lips had grazed his cheek.Ā 
Jakeā€™s heart faltered.
Lilac.Ā 
To be continued....
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kainekillinggod Ā· 3 months ago
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any long Hilson fanfic that can align at any point in the Canon plot is 10000% canon to me btw
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lolathepeacocklord Ā· 5 months ago
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ghuuhh..... important.... announcement i must make.....................
I have an Etsy shop now!!! :DDD I just got it finished up and actually opened last night, so I still need to add like a custom pfp and banner to my shop, but I officially have oneeee single listing of a bulkhead pin on there šŸ˜¼šŸ˜¼šŸ˜¼ if you are at all interested in checking this out I would mighty appreciate it gang!! :DD https://www.etsy.com/listing/1734745938/the-bulkpin
I'll be getting my shop more customized and pretty looking very soon, and eventually have more than just one single pin listed. So stay tuned !!!! ^^ <33 I love you guyzzzz bai bai!! runs away really fast cartoon skittering sfx
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laz-kay Ā· 5 months ago
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1:34 chances of getting a Pleak.
ā€œFascinatingā€šŸš€šŸ’ššŸ˜
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edith-is-a-cat Ā· 4 months ago
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i desperately wanna be creative writing wise. the self ship shit all right lets roll it out typed out in app (may not look for errors) aint gonna be long since its one-ish scene
hi ms auburn subjects you to this :3!! @cloudcountry
dont forget my irl they gotta be subjected too @samsung-refrigerator-2000
thought of this while with my bio dad in a kroger so you know i was cooking
580 words and apparently the site i use to check thinks this..
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"Fuck--Shit-- Ugh Idia... uhm give me a second please. Sorry." They murmured out more curses against the chain around their neck.
As Ede fiddled with the accursed clasp; hands shaking so hard it could swear they were going to drop the two precious soda tabs that were on the chain. Though after a few more fucks, shits, and damn its were thrown at the clasp it finally decided to do its job and unhook from the chain. It grabbed one tab white knuckles around the small thing while shoving the other tab an chain in their cardigan pocket.
"So.. Well... Uhm Fuck.. This may be a bit stupid--bit of an odd way to well uhm.. Confess." They looked down at the ground face already redder.
Idia just narrowed his eyes he KNEW this was way too romantic of a spot to just hang out with someone at. (Yes, Ede, very good choice sunset on a cliff overlooking the ocean; yes, he will never guess what he was called here for.) He almost got smug smile stuck on his face after guessing correct. He was thinking to himself: he just predicted the enemy's at-- OH WAIT WHAT. Pause, Pause, Rewind, Slow the playback, WHAT DO THEY MEAN CONFESS.
Internally Idia was processing everything like an old laptop with The Sims 4, 48 Chrome tabs, Spotify, Discord, and OBS all at once. But the outside hardware looked fine, he was stood there like a tall stack of rocks as Ede started their confessional monologue.
"Well uh.. this just may be a bit stupid but please just hold out your hand? I have a thing for you"
Idia without too much thinking held out his hand, partially still thinking about them confessing to him romantically and why the hell they were giving him one of its soda tabs. Yeah, Ede was right, very odd way of confessing. They shakily placed the knick-knack in his palm yanking their hand back in fear (not like hes gonna bite), hands held together as if in prayer.
Idia stared at the tab, didn't look like how he usually got them off the can. This one was different to his usual ones, it had a little metal piece with a hole in the middle, where there usual was nothing.
"Well uhm Yeah this was a stupid idea but fuck it I'm already hereā€¦ It was meant for someone else for awhile, but I won't ever get to see them so the one in your hand is for you nowā€¦ So uhm the tab means I would like a kiss for this scenario it also means something more. I love you Idia. It means I love you so much more than the little platonic love yous I would just drop casually." They take a sharp breath, cutting through the lump building in their throat, "Just-- If you return my feelings give it back, if you don't just throw it away."
They stare down at the ground, adrenaline fueling the getaway plan, run until its lungs hurt.
Thank Seven Idia was still blue screening because Ede sprinted down the cliff as fast as their legs could to get back to NRC Campus, back to Ramshackle, back to its haven to hide from his reaction.
Idia just stood there like rock soda tab in hand. Well? guess that was a W for him.. just gotta hope they aren't too afraid to talk to him again, he has to return it somehow...
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revenantghost Ā· 1 year ago
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When I searched ā€œtrigun fanartā€ to load up the queue on @trigunart there was such a lack of any non-ship art of Meryl in the top 1k-2k posts Iā€™m still angy about it, smh my girl deserves better. Legato and Milly showed up more than her (both of whom are great characters, but Merylā€™s even more of a main character???) SMH
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homoerotic-sea-shanties Ā· 1 year ago
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just found out that the green power ranger in power rangers dino fury is a lesbian and my CHILDHOOD
IM SO EXCITED
i fucking LOVED power rangers. i STILL love power rangers
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adoribullpavus Ā· 1 year ago
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"i didn't get a chance to say what i was gonna say. i think i'd better say it now. okay, yes, so. we've known each other a long time. we've been on this planet for a long time, i mean, you and me..."
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stormofdefiance Ā· 3 months ago
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An incredibly lazy wee doodle of barn swallows since I'm struggling to sleep and going back to my teenage ritual of drawing birds far too late into the night. Where I live, it will soon be time for the swallows to leave and make their bi-annual 8000 mile migration all the way to South Africa. Summer goes with them, and already my late North European nights seem to be turning dark so soon. A couple of months ago the night would just be a muted blue until dawn would crack with a skylark's song at 3am, and from now it will just be a couple of months until the black sets in before the afternoon ends.
It genuinely makes me want to cry thinking about these matchbox sized little beings throwing themselves into that endless blue all in pursuit of airborne insects, those small bodies making their way over the widening, waterless Sahara, that 40 day excursion that, by mid-October, will be over. How long a journey that seems, how short for a being smaller than my hand.
I'll miss them as much as I'll miss the sun until my late-March birthday comes along again and the spring sky is briefly interrupted by their sudden return, their tumbling bodies celebrating the world waking up again, back - somehow, dare I project a sense of sentiment, remembering - to the very same nests they'd left behind just months ago.
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Gemma: You losers better make me look good, otherwise there will be hell to pay.
Sorella: Uh-huh.
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Skid Row (Downtown)
[Anita] Alarm goes off at seven, and you start uptown You put in your eight hours for the powers that have always been...
[Sorella] Sing it, child.
[Anita] 'Till it's five P.M.
[extra] Then you go
[Anita, Mary, and Sorella] Downtown, where the folks are broke, you go Downtown, where your life's a joke, you go Downtown, where you buy your token you go Home to Skid Row
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cosmictap Ā· 7 months ago
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I ride horses! and as of the 30th april it will officially be TEN. years of it??
Anyway i still ride like shit so at least we still have that (still get put on like 13.2hh ponies too.. the horse in the back is 17.2hh for reference)
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The silly little guy in question, heā€™s a twat and i love him <3 (stirrups are short bc we were dicking around a little that lesson)
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me 10 years ago šŸ„² i remember that pony vividly he took me through hell and back LMAO love him with all my heart tho!! Polo <333
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realmermaid333 Ā· 2 years ago
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You don't have to forgive ur abuser
Forgiveness is not the end all be all to healing. Sometimes staying a little angry is healing.
Maybe even feeling a little murderous about it
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emmyrosee Ā· 1 year ago
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All Iā€™m saying is yā€™all better blow up this dad!rintaro piece tomorrow šŸ¤ØšŸ©·
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