#my top surgery consultation is next week!!!

[walkingtalkingfrog]

The amount of gender dysphoria i gotta go through to experience gender euphoria is crazy

Wdym I have to take mugshots of my tits so I can send them to the surgeon who’s going to cut them off??

[gwalch-mei]

IM TWO MONTHS ON T OFFICALLY🥳🤩😤🤯🎉🎊‼️‼️‼️

[mitamicah]

Hi guys, I want to talk a bit about what is going on in my life and my plans for the rest of my year. Feel free to just read the TLDR.

TLDR:

I had a consultation with a private clinic in Malmö about top surgery. Went great and have free reigns to suggest a day for surgery. Want to talk with my social worker and contact person first tho.

Celebrated my one year on hrt anniversary being at a heavy music award show.

The rest of November is busy and then Sunday I will be flying to Zagreb – for this reason maybe I won’t be able to draw a lot (which sucks).

December is building up to be busy too yet I’ll try myself to find time to finished owned artworks (mostly the three secret santas I’m in).  

First up, I want to talk my weekend since it was a very special one for me being that it was my second birthday weekend (Saturday I had been one year on testosterone).

When I realized that my favourite Danish band would guest at a local award show for heavy music in Copenhagen, I immediately bought tickets, which turned out to be the best timing, given that I later booked a consultation at Reformkliniken in Malmö for pre-op consultation about potential top surgery the day before.

I slept by my friends’ house, a lesbian couple where one is a transwoman so they’ve experience with surgery especially gender affirming surgery. They had also offered to be my companions at the consultation which I was very grateful for) so the three of us went over the border the next day and had half a day in Sweden together, visiting Folkets park (to see if my sticker was still up – unfortunately we couldn’t find it) and this cute little café before going to the appointment.

Half an hour late we got inside where the surgeon was surprised to see not one but three people step inside. The consultation went well, and honestly better than I’d expected. He was kind, a good listener, factual and thorough. While I maybe should have expected it for a private clinic the fact that there was no waitlist blew me back a bit, yet I ended up asking if it was alright I went back later with a suggestion to a date for surgery. Then we talked to the secretary who was just as thorough if not more about everything I would need to know leading up to the surgery down to little things I’d never would’ve imagined having to think about like not eating specific medicine, wearing nailpolish, washing myself daily for a month leading up to the surgery and much, much more. All wasn’t fun and games though since while I know it was necessary for the consultation, the 2-5 min. of me being topless in front of the surgeon having to describe what I saw shook me up. This is the first time since my ex I have been topless in front of somebody else and I felt my body betraying me a bit almost making me choke on my words and cheer up having to speak. I guess in the end that only goes to show even more why I want/need this surgery. Now what I need to do is print the part of my journal from the gender clinic in Denmark that’s about me wanting top surgery (to send to the secretary) and see if I can set up a meeting between me and the people around me from the local authorities (contact person and social worker mostly) to hear about how to plan a surgery into my schedule. All this by also knowing I still have a second appointment with the gender clinic on December 12.

The next day I went to see my faves and got a bit of a whiplash meeting up as the sole queue member at 5 pm, one hour before the doors. I have been getting so used to go to shows where you need to queue to secure a spot, so I felt very odd sitting out here alone for an hour even more so when everybody I told was shocked, I’d arrived so “early”. Oh, well the award show was good and I got to cling to my band before it began, steal the set lists of three of four performing bands and talk with new, cool people. I even met somebody from my summer camp that was up getting an award together with a band he’d played with as a substitute guitarist.

Secondly, I feel like I haven’t kept you guys up to date about everything so here’s a bit of a rant about my plans for the rest of the year:

This upcoming week will be wild! Before November is over I have one tattoo appointment (tomorrow), one study to participate in (Tuesday), one craft painting appointment with my sister (Tuesday), one concert with my choir (Wednesday), one trans support group meeting (Thursday) and four more days at the internship to go (Monday, Wednesday-Friday). Then on top of that I have a trip to plan since yes, I got approved to have a break on both December 2-4 and December 16-18 so I can go to Zagreb (and Poland)!!!

December starts off with me literally on day one flying to Croatia to spend the first few days in the Balkans. December 2 I have scheduled a trip to Ljubjana just because. Then there’s the Zagreb concert on Tuesday where I have made a sign to go with my homemade t-shirts for the band members (and another sign saying I travelled to Denmark to see them). I think I’ll bring some of my textile markers if in case the guys want to sign my Bluza shirt. But that will not be my priority – my biggest hope for this concert is still to gift them the shirts and then Bojan to see my tattoo. Everything else after that is bonus upon a bonus!!!

After arriving home from Zagreb I will have a week and a half to work and to find out how to schedule Christmas shopping and art making (also having an appointment with the gender clinic and another choir concert inbetween). Then on December 15 I will be flying to Warszawa (and taking the bus to Kraków thereafter) to participate in two of three of Käärijä’s polish concerts. The closer we get to the trip however the less confident I am about my flight choices (the one home is at 6 almost 7 am in the morning) so I hope to use the option of rescheduling the flight to a later time the same day (I purchased a ticket where you could do that but I have to call booking.com and I am not sure the phone number I’ve found is the right one). Other than that I feel like the planning of the polish trip is coming along nicely as well. Then I will go home, work for two days then travel with my sister and her boyfriend to my dad’s house to celebrate pre-christmas with them and then later Christmas with my mother. I still don’t know what to do after December 24 other than my sister want me (and my mom) out before December 28 so to prepare for her having guests over for the new years.

Honestly, I think this might be the busiest Christmas I will have had for a while, so fingers crossed I haven’t bit over more than I can chew signing up for three secret santa events (one luckily running until January).

[tkbrokkoli]

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[agayconcept]

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[bean-pronounced-bawn]

I don't know why I keep expecting people to be able to do their jobs but I am always proven wrong and I'm mildly having a full meltdown rn because I need documents sent very far away literally by the end of the month and based on when they said 1) the documents would be shipped (1-5 business days) and 2) the documents would be notarized (7-10 business days) it should have been done at least a full week ago but it's not and the document hasn't even been shipped to the notarization place and because I have nothing else to do at work right now and nothing to keep me distracted like I've been trying to hard to do for the past week I'm having a panic attack about this and I know I've called and emailed a combined five times already about this but I'm gonna have to call again to see where they're at because I don't think I'll last the weekend without some kind of update if I'm already having a panic attack today

[ferncloud]

thank u all for the boops. i had an awesome day booping..!

get ready to be booped

[damndude69]

I don’t want to move but if MO keeps at it with this anti trans legislation I’ll fucking have to cause I’m not about to stop hormones

[aarontveit]

in order to keep my home, i have to raise $100 daily and pay it to management. the office is closed on sundays (today), but they are open monday - saturday. i need any and all help with this. i have been trying to do this for months, this is a last ditch effort/attempt. i have an upcoming colonoscopy & then my top surgery consultation is in june (& then the surgery itself is six to seven months from after that appointment). top surgery also depends on the results from my CT Scan and colonoscopy. toes crossed everyone, i am so close to the finish line.

this is my paypal link: you can donate here.

$0/100 - March 24th

i have 3k+ in arrears. for every $100 paid, i will be posting the receipts to show the amount going down. this really needs to get paid! received a notice at my door today (a reminder notice, which gives me about two weeks to really pay some of this down). for every $100 not raised, it will get tacked onto the next day & so on and so forth.

ANY and ALL help is greatly appreciated.

🙏 please help me & my furbabs keep a roof during this time. my name-day is also coming up on April 10th and it would be super awesome to see this get paid to some degree 🩷🩵

[beaft]

well, it's happened - i've got my referral, booked a consultation for top surgery, and will be seeing my chosen doctor next week to discuss options. (!!!!!)

if you'd like to help me out, there's a link to my paypal in my pinned post. 3 people have donated so far, which is lovely and extremely generous, but i'm still going to be struggling as this is basically gonna clean out all my savings and also leave me unable to work for at least 2 weeks - so any and all help is appreciated 💕

[godbirdart]

i know it isnt for a few months yet but i am having SO many excited feelings about top surgery,,, i have a quick touch-base consult with my surgeon next week and i'm gonna walk into that appointment like 

[headknight-oh]

My official commissions post

So I’ve been unemployed for over a year now. I got laid off from my PR writing job because “the intern and ai can do the same job cheaper” apparently. Anyways, I’m starting to save up for top surgery sometime next year (my consultation is in 2 weeks!!) and the money I get watching my nephews 3 days a week is not enough for that. So, come and sample my wares

1. Tapestry Blankets

I posted this a few days ago and some people seemed interested in the style. I have multiple patterns for the center tapestry picture as well as the boarder patterns. This one took me about 30 hours, so that’s what I’m going to base my price on.

PRICE: $300+materials+shipping

2. Tapestry

There are two different styles of crochet that I can use for these: Tunisian crochet and regular single crochet. The snoopy is tunesian crochet. Ignore how curly he is lol. My partner didn’t want to wait for him to be blocked.

If you have a grid pattern that you’d like, you can get that. Or I have a variety that I can search through. These ones are gonna be priced based on size and which technique.

PRICE:

Small (up to 12 inches width and length)

Tunisian: $45 Regular: $30

Large (13 inches to 24 inches tall width and length)

Tunisian: $100 Regular: $65

3. Stuffed D&D dice

I only have a few that I can picture, but I can make a full set of d and d dice or individual d20s. Colors can be customized as you like, and if you want to help me bust my stash and use the yarn I already have, we can discuss a price reduction.

PRICE:

Full set: $100 d20: $45

I have a few more options that I’ll add when I can get some good pics. And some premade things if anyone is interested. My dms are open if anyone wants to discuss. I also might reopen writing comissions but I’m not sure and would have to update rates because I have degrees now lol. Not sure. Anyways, thanks for sitting through my post! My Venmo is https://venmo.com/u/Jenny-Robinson-61 if you wanna help pad out the top surgery fund. I’d also be willing to make things not listed above. If there’s something you want that’s not up there, message me and we can work something out. Thanks again!

[transmonstera]

TOP SURGERY CONSULTATION COST + DEPOSIT

"Hoping to raise a final amount of £700 (currently have £2000) so that I can put down a good enough deposit (£2500 deposit + £200 consultation cost) so that a medical finance plan isn't too much to keep on top of month by month when paying back the £8250 for top surgery! Very lucky to be able to get it on finance, but I'm gonna need a bit of help to do it comfortably. If you like my art, writing, or just feel like helping a trans person out, any and all tips are greatly appreciated!"

currently in the final stretch for my top surgery funds! my referral appointment is in TWO WEEKS and my consultation appointment is NEXT MONTH so any and all tips/shares means a lot to me

i also have an etsy and an inprnt if you'd like to buy something instead!

KOFI

ETSY

INPRNT

[clippy]

totally missed it cuz I spent the whole day sleeping, but I just had my 8 year T anniversary yesterday :~)

don't really have much to say other than HRT saved my life, and that isn't an exaggeration. Like about a week prior to making a consultation appt w my doctor at the time, I had multiple plans to end my life. I fortunately had a break down during the set up for one plan, and that lead me to reaching out to a doctor in a last ditch effort to try and start T. And fortunately, it ended with me starting testosterone within a couple weeks

And now it's been 8 years and while life hasn't been easy, it's been worth it... being able to LOOK how I'm supposed to look has been a wonderful experience even if it took a couple years on T to fully get there (and even then I don't always pass 100% but it's whatever -- got unlucky w the genetic lottery)

I got top surgery about 2.5 years ago, something I thought I would never be able to get despite wanting it since I was like 12... The only thing I still need to do to "complete" my transition is to get a hysto, which I plan on pursuing within the next year or two

Medically transitioning can be very scary, but also just as rewarding and if you think it's something you (followers, mutuals, or random strangers) want to pursue, I wish you the best of luck in doing so, and I am always here for questions about changing your name (this was 8+ years ago in Montana so idk how relevant my experience is to modern procedures), testosterone, and top surgery (cannot speak on estrogen or typically feminizing surgeries)

[pfhwrittes]

Super Casual Announcement Time

hi hello, it's me p. back again with another super casual announcement.

it's official, it's confirmed. i've done my final pre-surgical consultation. providing i don't do anything a bit silly in the next 7 days (like falling down the stairs again), this time next week (27th march) i will be having top surgery.

so what does that mean for this blog? i assume i'll probably drop off the face of the earth for 3-4 days around then as i suddenly adjust to being titless and fancy free. but knowing me, i'll probably make a vaguely incomprehensible post to inform you all that i'm fine. i'm pretty bad at staying off tumblr when i should be doing tasks.

what does this mean for my writing projects? everything will remain on hiatus / semi-hiatus until i can comfortably sit and write stuff post-surgery. or i'll dump little thoughts out via the mobile app. i haven't really figured it out yet.

how am i feeling? suddenly very nervous and excited! i have developed a mild tremor in my hands whenever i think about having surgery too much and i get the urge to scream very loudly into a pillow. i'm not great with managing big feelings so i tend to bottle everything up. i'm sorry if i come across as flaky or snappy! i don't mean to. my poor swiss cheese brain is yelling "SURGERY! SURGERY! SURGERY!" at increasing volume inside my head.

how are the Horrible Creechurs feeling? increasingly clingy. dolly is currently sat on my shoulder purring and drooling on me. i think she's trying to soothe me in the way that only cats can. mango and charlie have both taken to sleeping on my chest or legs whenever they can get away with it.

is there anything you lovely lot can do to help? i don't think so! i'm notoriously bad at asking for help so i'll just quietly link my ko-fi jar again if you have a few bob to spare. don't feel any pressure to donate, i'm aware it's a bit cheeky of me to ask.

do i have any other way of contacting you all if/when i go quiet? kind of? i recently found my discord account and have updated that so i can talk to my friends but 1) i'm kind of shy about asking to add people on discord and 2) i have no idea how it works because i'm kind of uncool like that. feel free to DM me if you want to add me! otherwise i guess we'll have to rely on tumblr's ever amazing askbox and private messaging features.

okay i think that's everything? i know i said on my first announcement post that i would try to set up a queue but i'm going to be realistic and admit that i'll just forget. okay bye!

[transguyking]

I have less than 2 weeks before I start testosterone and my top surgery consultation is next week. I’m so ready to be closer to my authentic self bro.