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Captain Nash Appreciation Week: Day 2 ↳Bobby & his kids

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If you can eat and drink, sleep in a bed, read these words, and have a bank account—you have the power to help. Don’t stay silent. Do something for Gaza today.

The Sameer Project

Dahnoun Mutual Aid

Mona's Initiative

Hussein Team

Water is Life Gaza

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ive been playing the quarry again

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ouch.

he rushes into sex with him too soon after everything, way too soon. and there are consequences to that "decision." and it's so very fucking sad? cause he was very much so letting things slowly build, instead of "ripping off the bandaid." but then he did that, and it's such a switch in his dynamic from earlier when he is more hesitant, almost nervous.

i feel like, with everything that happened in those first few months, it kind of makes sense that he was unable to use/view sex as a functional distraction for himself. he needs to feel comfortable and/or safe with someone for it to work like that.

especially after what happens in the first like month.

so, it makes sense that he's okay [or thinks he's okay] using his partner to prove his abuser wrong [mentally, at least] and to drown out the voices/thoughts inside his head that consistently remind him of these things.

and it EXTRA makes sense why he gets immediately nauseous after, and has to actually break away to go get sick. it breaks my fucking heart, so much.

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That girl didn't wanna die. She just wanted out of that house. The Virgin Suicides (1999) written and directed by Sofia Coppola

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Scream 1996 — dir. Wes Craven

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@bobbynashweek - Day 2 - 5th August - Father's day - Bobby + his step kids

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MISS CONGENIALITY (2000) dir. donald petrie

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but completely unrelated to THAT but also related in a different way, i love how often he picks him up. it's so god damned precious?

i may have just chastised myself verbally for a near solid minute there when i read the words i just did cause what the fuck @ myself that is NOT how that works nor should it have been written as such, sweet baby cornbread.....

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i may have just chastised myself verbally for a near solid minute there when i read the words i just did cause what the fuck @ myself that is NOT how that works nor should it have been written as such, sweet baby cornbread.....

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there's also something insanely hilarious about him having zero gag reflex but [x] having a major one. it's so very funny cause one would think it would, theoretically, be both of them OR the other way around, and yet..........

ngl, i always forget how like....more "forward" he was at the beginning of things, and it makes me super sad to always remember/realize. cause he very much makes a massive shift into being terminally shy/unwell about being forward because of the trauma(s) he endures. and it makes me so god damned sad.

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ngl, i always forget how like....more "forward" he was at the beginning of things, and it makes me super sad to always remember/realize. cause he very much makes a massive shift into being terminally shy/unwell about being forward because of the trauma(s) he endures. and it makes me so god damned sad.

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good lord, i feel like i'm..... anyway, i feel like biting the edge of my plate (or, well, a bowl this time) is not a proper response i should be having to.... and yet???

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there is a line in the song i'm obsessed with rn that, i swear to fuck, they're saying "fuck my butt" and i promise you, they are NOT saying that, but it doesn't change the fact i keep wanting to sing call me addict, baby can i have it, fuck being right, i want it so badly, i can't deny it, you know you're my supplier, fuck my butt---

it's fine. i'm fine. lmao.

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hey folks.

i've updated the list, and i will keep updating if/when needed. and i'd greatly appreciate any shares/etc :)

my pp: donate here. $0/20 - overdraft rip (i don't have overdraft protection so this is just a negative balance lol) $0/33 - august phone bill $0/95 - external hard drive

i am putting off funding for the ac indefinitely

thank you for the constant support, seriously. it means a lot. it really does <3 right now, i have to keep myself on extra-firm lockdown for the next six months until my follow-up scans (or until i meet with the adrenal specialist, whichever comes first). the tumor on my adrenal nodule has grown, but the upside is no signs of spreading is showing! it just still is not at a point to be safely removed without posing a risk to the adrenal gland etc (iirc, it needs to be 3cm ish before they will remove it).

i spoke with the new adrenal specialist - and we are waiting until i have my new scans done in mid-december before we proceed any further. he was a very lovely guy! and he's feeling very very positive (his words, exactly, were "i'm not even a little bit worried about you" which was hilarious lol).

any donations are still helping toward groceries, bills, and PC funding needs when applicable. it especially helps with keeping me indoors, being able to get the things i need delivered <3

thank you so much for any help.

thank you for helping your fellow disabled trans dude ride out each month.

i am also willing to take on gif/scene requests from the stuff you've seen me gif regularly television wise or take on movie gif requests in exchange! please feel free to reach out if interested <3 requests filled: 15 requests info/more info.

thank you again <3

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GRACELAND | 2013 - 2015 S01E03: Heat Run

"Me too, man, me too."