#my silly stims

[lavenderrvalleyy]

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A moodboard for my beloved friend's wonderful PT oc: Trix!💕

[plushiebi]

i have started asking myself “how can i make this more fun?” in regards to the things i have to do and it is such a small difference but it brings me so much delight

[lilybug-02]

Swarm of Bugs.

Bug Fact: Moths have scales covering their wings and bodies. These scales give moths a dusty look and feel, as they come off naturally.

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[cutiepieautistic]

Nerds candy mini plushies

[rocketbirdie]

ahem. gay

[stripysockxx]

PENNY BANK MENTION‼️‼️

I think I’m gonna make this into a sticker I reckon (^^)

CHAT PLEASE GO AND LISTEN TO BIVE AND SPLIT OWE ME MONEY ITS THE BEST SONG IN YEARS!!!!!

as well as ‘don’t go to dr retro’ which was most definitely written by Bive (hence the quick drawing I made)

I CANT STOP LISTENING TO THESE THEY ALWAYS SEND ME INTO THE STRATOSPHERE

[caorannn]

ITS AIZAWAS BIRTHDAY YIPPEE YIPPEE YIPPEE YIPPEEE

HAPPY BIRFDAY HEHEHEHHEHEHHEHEEEEHEHEEHEHEHEHEEEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH

HES SO POOKIE I LOBE HIM

[outletcrash]

shakes her around like a beetle in a jar

[the-only-t4t-octorosie-truther]

eggo my eggo these bricks be autism'in

[wewerebornsextuplets]

everyone should think too deeply about small oc details forever btw. it makes life better

[toasternuggets]

Hatzgang stimming?

They are doin their own little things,,,, my boys

[lavenderrvalleyy]

“One day you’ll laugh so much that you’ll forget you have scars.” — Benjamín Griss

❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️

...a Dulce-Dolcezza (Peppino x Trix) moodboard, once again for my wonderful friend @jav-animations✨

[coolingrosa]

New Valentine’s Day card coming to stores near you

[lolathepeacocklord]

I love my beautiful robot wife who explodes every five seconds🥰🥰🥰🫶🫶🫶🫶

[cutiepieautistic]

My Dinnar 🔥stimboard

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[mueritos]

trying to be more accepting of the likelihood I am autistic, I feel ive been having this constant back and forth conversation with myself for the past 2 years about it. "you can go to school, be a therapist for people, run errands, win awards, and somehow fit 2 jobs into all of that" and I use that as proof that I am NOT autistic...however, realizing i lose an entire weekend for a trip? distress. fire alarm goes off in the middle of the night and leaves me trembling, crying, and forced to recover? oh boy i wonder why that happened. feeling confused and like i'm constantly missing something when people express themselves in class or in the workplace? hm, it's almost as if I struggle to not take their language literally.

i don't think i've ever been allowed to be "disabled" by whatever neurodivergency and its symptomology, like, ever. god speed any other neurodivergent children of immigrants, but i don't feel allowed to let any cluster of disturbances or schedule changes or social conundrums disable me. I mean, they can affect me privately, where I am forced to stim and cry and process all on my own. But unfortunately i cannot look like the misshapen freak I feel I am, or well, as least not appear so in a socially unacceptable way.

it's funny i carry so much shame. i am unmasking in ways i never thought i could. i am allowing myself to take things literally with people, and I am allowing myself to ask more questions. "what did you mean by that?" "why did you use that word to describe that?" "can you rephrase that?" it's funnier that I am at such a queer and neurodiverse internship; nearly all of the other clinical staff have some sort of diagnosis (usually adhd/ocd/with flavors of trauma), and we all serve a population of the queerest and most neurodiverse students. i feel SO happy when I see a student and they refuse to make eye contact with me, because I take it as an invitation to NOT look them in the eye too! i tell students during our sessions feel free to stim, here's a weighted plushie you can hold, sit where you like, would you like to pace, should I dim the lights? it is even funnier that i am a neurodivergent clinician working with neurodivergent people, and half the time I dont even follow the same advice I give my clients!

i worry about what my life will look like when i've graduated. my master's will say, "hey, this guy is a clinical social worker and is now ready to be your therapist! or caseworker! whatever they have you people do nowadays!" and I don't think i feel ready to enter any workforce. how on earth will i manage my life and wellbeing doing this 40 hours a week? like wtf? ugh.

i dunno. these r just rambles and perhaps im just seeking some sort of comfort from other autistic people, especially because it feels like i have very few autistic people in my life. i know a lot of the validation i seek will be "resolved" if i seek out an official diagnosis, but I don't have time or $ for that. nor do I think I want one for a number of reasons. I should just continue working on my own self-esteem when it comes to most likely being autistic.

oh well