#my shoulders are tight

[ananxiousgenz]

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[creaturefeaster]

he looks like he just noticed your soul is doomed for eternal hellfire. but really he's probably just thinking about what he wants for dinner later ... and maybe a little bit about that doomed soul too 🤏

[dewey-ing-it]

The spa people:

My ADHD ass:

Also me once I got in the sauna:

Me again when I had my very first massage:

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts Dream Drop Distance - Sora and Riku in The Grid

[marsbotz]

whats ur fucking deal

[sydmarch]

I want to know more about other peoples feelings about asmr like the actual sensation of asmr not just the content labeled as "asmr". so for the poll below, "can feel asmr" means experiences a static tingling sensation originating from the back of the head, then propagating to the neck, shoulder, arm, spine, and legs. "likes asmr content" refers to if you like all those videos with soothing sounds or whispering or things clinking together etc etc. so consider these things separately before voting.

ik not all "asmr content" actually induces asmr but not including options around that bcus I don't really care about if, for an example that describes how i feel, you can feel asmr & don't like the feeling but sometimes still enjoy some "asmr content" that doesn't cause asmr. I just want to know if people who feel asmr like the feeling or not.

[so-much-for-subtlety]

[wildsaltair]

HOT HOT HOT HOT SUPER HOT HOT HOTTTTT

[bisnes-socks]

so when šta bih ja came out i saw references to how some people didn't like everybody's waiting (and i do recognise many of those posts were jokes) and i realise i'm like super late with this but.. after analysing šta bih ja so much i kinda wanna write about why everybody's waiting is one of my favourite songs by joker out, actually. so here goes.

i remember when it came out many people being confused or put off by the different sections and how distinct they are from one another. i remember people saying they felt the different parts didn't go together. i remember people mentioning bohemian rhapsody.

and i get that song structures with varying parts probably aren't that familiar to a lot of people! they're not that common in 2-4 minute pop structure songs, and that's what most pop music is. not being familiar with that kind of structure isn't unusual or bad!

but the structure isn't unusual either, outside of 2-4 minute pop songs - bohemian rhapsody is far from being the only one. and as someone who regularly listens to music where 7 minutes is a short song and 25 minute songs with several very different sections are routinely played live, i wanna talk about why i really love the structure and why i think they built it in a very cool, pleasing and harmonious way - and they managed to do it in a relatively short song, under 4 minutes, which i find very impressive!

(i also remember people bringing up the beatles, saying bojan sounds like paul on the song. personally i don't hear it, but the beatles are not a bad reference point for songs with structures with strong variation between sections. a day in the life i guess being one of the best known examples. the point here being that these choices are made in music and you can even kind of practice listening to wild structures if you want to!)

BUT to get to my actual point: i think everybody's waiting is built very well to support the differences between sections.

the way it starts small, with one instrument and vocals. then another instrument, then another, one by one. and only after the first chorus, the drums come in (and by the way i LOVE the drums and the bass in the "what a wonderful life" section i could do a whole ted talk on those). the band familiarises the listener with the core melodies of the song ("hype comes, love goes" and "everybody's waiting" being the core melodies) step by step. doing the chorus with just the guitar and keys the first time is an excellent way to allow the singing melody to shine, and for the listener to understand that this is a core melody. and it's a great and memorable melody! you pay attention, and you are later rewarded for it, in my opinion big time.

it's interesting that the verse starting with "starlight effect" and the verse starting with "what a wonderful life" do not have the same singing melody - but they are close enough to exist in the same section. and THAT is another clever way to build the structure of the song. with "what a wonderful life" we're still in familiar territory but we've added all of the instruments and we're changing the singing melody in a way that allows the song to move to a new direction without changing too much at once. 

and then, after that verse, the instruments take us in a whole new direction: we're chaning keys, we have guitar sounds that weren't there before, and most importantly the core rhythm kinda changes. the keyboard in the very beginning of the song sets up this almost swaying rhythm, that feels like it's sort of.. bobbing up and down or left to right, whichever way you feel it - bam-bap, bam-bap, bam-bap, bamm bamm..

and that feeling stays there all the way until "turn it around".

but then, that familiar swaying feeling is gone and the guitars sound different and it almost sounds like we're falling, spiralling down. which, in my opinion, is a strong pairing with the lyrics that then come in: no-one's ever gonna make it easier, you're the only one who can.

and then the final "only ooooneeee" feels even more like falling, falling away almost... it's a sound, that if the song ended there, it would almost sound like.. giving up? there's no resolution.

so what now? well they're not giving up, so the song has to get up! and it does. so what does it do? it brings back a melody you already know, but this time with a new energy. "hype comes, love goes"... it's a new section, it's a new sound, and it's very clearly building up to something, but you know this melody, and you know these words, because you've heard them before in a way that highlighted the melody and the lyrics over any instrument. so we as listeners are back in familiar territory and know where to hold on to, as the song picks up. and then the sort of hold and release into the chorus (only bojan's voice for "everybody's waiting at the ball" and then bam all of the instruments come in) - and doesn't it just feel like aahhhh yessss THIS is where we're supposed to be. this is the reward i was talking about! it's so satisfying. to me, that chorus feels like everything is just bursting into full colour and full bloom. and the reason why it's so satisfying to me is because they have shown the elements before. i know the melody, and it feels so familiar and safe, but now the chorus has it's own rhythm to it and the full band, and we've been on this journey that took us on a bit of a spiral at one point but we're back up with our feet firmly on the ground and it is freeing. and so, after the chorus melody, they become even more free: there's a new solo type riff on the guitar and bojan belts over the music. 

and then the final instrument we hear is the keys from the beginning. 

to me the structure is amazing and i love it, because i recognise the feeling of it. all of it. the song starts small and sort of.. blue, but not sad. the lyrics are on the sad side but it doesn't sound sad exactly - it sounds like, well, life. not exactly happy, not exactly sad, but a little bit of both and neither at the same time. and then we spiral a bit, like you're feeling sorry for yourself - but no-ones ever gonna make it easier. so, you build it up again! and you kinda grab back onto life, just regular life, but this time, with something new, and for a moment you reach a new height where everything feels free. and then you end on a note that is similar to the beginning - it's regular life again - but this time there's just a little bit more of a glimmer of hope in it, like you now know you can build back up to that height you felt, when you need to.

idk guys. i love this song and it packs a lot of emotional release for me. and if it packs emotional release for me, just a listener, well then. what must it contain for bojan. and so as a final note, you will never catch me critisising him for writing it in english. i know first hand how some things just come to you in a specific language, and i know first hand how difficult it is to put yourself out there in writing, so the way i see it, he wrote this part of himself in the languge he needed to in order to express it at all, and i FEEL that in the song.

so there you go. why everybody's waiting is up there for me on the list of my all time JO favourites.

[planetsallalign]

I have today off and so far I have taken an everything shower (super hair wash, exfoliate, shave and moisturize). Had a 75 minute massage. I haven’t had one in over a year and with my job, I should probably get one at least every 3 months. The way I wanted to throw up when she was breaking my knots up in my shoulders/back and the burning when she was massaging my biceps was real. But I just kept breathing through it because I know it’s absolutely needed. My bedding is washed and hanging outside to dry. I’ve got my water cup filled at all times and the rest of today is for relaxing and opening the windows to let the fresh spring air in.

[mistress-light]

That Japanese headspa was so bloody good. It’s like I have a new head.

[an-ruraiocht]

the post i reblogged about fast fashion just reminded me that

a) i have had my raincoat since 2016

b) my raincoat is significantly past its best in ways that cannot be solved with additional waterproofing spray, and also doesn't fit me very well anymore

c) my winter coat, while reasonably warm, is not waterproof, and also doesn't fit very well in a completely different way, and is black which is not good when you are a cycle commuter cos they can't see you

d) all of these combine to mean i keep looking covetously at waterproof insulated coats in tesco even though they are definitely unsustainably produced and also not that good bc that's where my substandard winter coat is from

concluded i should thoughtfully invest in a new, warmer raincoat before i get tempted into buying another shit coat or spend the whole winter cold and wet

went to passenger bc i bought a fleece and trousers from them a few months back and have basically not worn anything else all summer (and thy seem to have reasonably good sustainability credentials, as far as is possible with mostly-synthetic outdoor clothing). found an insulated raincoat in their outlet section discounted 60% to make it almost affordable. and it's partially ORANGE

remembered my rucksack also sucks because it's too small, black, and not waterproof (and doesn't have side pockets for my cane or my water bottle), and my old one that was not too small or black but also not waterproof has well and truly fallen apart after serving me faithfully since i was about 16. well, since i'm here... oh look they have a rucksack in the outlet section as well. AND IT'S ORANGE

god i love it when i can get things that are orange

anyway that's my clothing/accessory purchases for the rest of the year. i hope they're good.

[mo-ok]

family sentai big brothers - an observation

[bixy]

I bought the biggest size but the homura outfit didn’t fit 😔 didn’t stand a chance against my chest 😔

[mooseyspooky]

Quinn wearing all the pretty things I made him last night in New Jersey. Everytime he danced or swayed his hips my jewels would sparkle and shimmer in the colored lights above him so beautifully.

The Caligula shirt I made for him was way too big, but he wore it anyway. I was fussing over it after the show, and he smiled and said it was gonna be his sleep shirt, which absolutely didn't make my knees weak. I'm so in love

[aldoodles]

Solovet designs that have been rattling around my skull for a bit