#my mother’s love is poison

[rotinmycore]

when wood meets flesh.

[ryllen]

Visits twitter, OH MY GOD WE UNLOCKED HER!!!!!!

FSFSFSGSHSHS NOT TO BE NAMED GEORGINA FHSHSHSHSH

[star-struck09]

I fear my mother was right. Love is as ugly as they say it is.

[everytaylorswiftsongisaboutcats]

[trash-and-trash-accessories]

Fox Mulder doesn't have the "I Want To Believe" poster there because he's crazy. He doesn't have it there to broadcast his beliefs or as a mantra or to remind him to always look for aliens.

Fox Mulder keeps that "I Want To Believe" sign above his desk to remind him of his own internal biases.

That sign hangs above Mulder's desk to remind him of his own shortcomings and flaws. He's aware that he's a hack with dangerous beliefs and prone to flights of fancy and maybe even delusions. He's aware that he's desperately searching for aliens and monsters where there are only men doing bad things. And he has to remind himself of that, constantly.

That's why he's thrilled when he meets Scully and she challenges his beliefs, says that logically aliens don't exist. He's thrilled when she tells him to cut the crap in the pilot episode. He needs someone to challenge him. He needs someone who won't take his shit and put up with his flights of fancy. And he knows it. He's been dealing with himself for years and he feels relief and joy when Scully comes in and says enough of your bullshit. We're doing this my way. With science and logic. He isn't smiling and teasing her because he thinks he's smarter and better than her. He's smiling because she's exactly the person he needs in his life.

That's why he tells her right away that he's a UFO freak with trauma about his sister and a true believer. Not because he's trying to convince her to believe, but because he needs her to understand where he's coming from and what's wrong with him. So she can understand that either he's a dangerous lunatic himself, or he's delving into a dangerous conspiracy and either way she could be collateral damage if she stays with him. He spends the pilot episode reckoning with the idea that either he's a maniac or he's pulling this young fresh detective into danger. When she starts agreeing with him he gets upset, talks her out of it.

Mulder keeps that sign above his desk to remind himself to look into the "reasonable logical" explanations. He keeps that sign on his desk because he knows he's flawed and biased and frankly, dangerous.

He tells Scully exactly what he thinks is happening and about all the crazy stuff he believes not because he's trying to convince her to believe too, but so she can be his sounding board. So she can throw his illogical bullshit back in his face and remind him to look past his own biases and paranoia and quasi-religious zealotry. Because he knows he needs that. He knows he's in a conspiracy brained echo chamber of his own making and having a slow-burn mental breakdown. And he sees Scully as salvation from himself. As another figure in his quasi-religious belief system. The savior.

As the series develops he relies on her more and more to reality check him. Literally reality check him and manage what he worries might all be a delusion.

Mulder pretends he's confident and all the constant criticism and sidelong glances don't get to him and that might be true because he doesn't respect those people but he respects Scully. And he needs someone he respects to tell him when he's wrong, when he's being biased or actively delusional. Scully is his salvation. She's compassionate about his trauma and the reasoning behind his beliefs, but confident and logical enough to tell him when it's all bullshit. She's his savior, his rock, and often his only real connection to material reality.

[kazuaru]

Say hello to Yasuko.

[revenancy]

me: i am a simple bitch with simple needs my needs: to come up with entries in a fake botanical for fake plants i made up for my fake world

[the-genius-az]

Mom's daughter?

Azula never felt Ursa's love, did her mother really love her? If he did, why was he never there? Why isn't she there when you need her?

She still remembers those times when she cried in her room and no one came, or when she wanted the same things as Zuko and her mother only gave them to her brother, regardless of whether she asked for them first.

The times she looked at her mother and only saw rejection and sadness in her eyes when she looked at her. Why doesn't her mother love her? Is she really not worth enough to Ursa? Is it her fault that she felt so sad when she was born?

[fruitydiaz]

my dad and i used to sing billy joel’s piano man with each other at every family party. like not actually sing it like perform it with each other but it was on every playlist at every party and when it came on we’d stand in the middle of the room and sing all of five minutes and 38 seconds of it together. because my dad’s been the biggest billy joel fan since the dawn of time and i learned the words because it was his favorite song. anyways over the last couple of years i obviously rarely attend any family parties but when i do ive noticed that they still play piano man but he never looks for me to sing it with anymore. he’ll sing it with his cousin or his friend or my 3 year old cousin that obviously doesn’t know the words because she is literally 3 years old. and i know that this is some bizarre kind of punishment because that is who he is as a person so i try not to think about it. of course this is relevant now because on our rsvp for the wedding i (stupid) left a space for song requests and my dad did of course request piano man. and now i have to decide whether or not i want to put it on the playlist.

[wanderershu]

I think what's really sad is that Zed Crossman most likely loved Alver's mother a lot (I mean, it is very heavily implied) but all Alver would ever remember is the things he faced during his childhood before finally gaining the title of crown prince and even then, he had to face a lot of battles in order to keep his position.

He doesn't have a memory of a loving father or of a man who loved his mother. Hence why the interaction between the father and son duo before book 1's end was really bittersweet.

[star-struck09]

I can’t fault you for leaving but I can hate you for not taking me too.

[tttoluca]

ah yes. john borderline. the inventor of borderline personality disorder. and bill majordepressive. the founder of major depressive disorder. oh yes and of course, ronald generalanxietous. the innovative mind behind general anxiety disorder. fuck you

[calmlb]

kyouka for char bingo <33

if you couldn’t tell, i love her very much 😭😭🤲🏻🩷

unhinged character bingo

[swordmaid]

i like to think about shri'iia's romance scenes if she has one bc she is running through my mind 24/7 like a rat on a cage wheel and i think act 1 would be her sex scene where she is very much servicing mc. shri'iia is trying to get mc on her side and she's been told that surfacers find drows exotic, so she's playing up that sexy drow stereotype. i also think the sex scene would be very much about mc's own pleasure and not really of hers, and if they try to kiss her or reciprocate she will avoid it. act 2 (after her oathbreaking) is a hanging out type of scenario where she teaches them how to make poison and she will reveal the method was her mother's passed down to her. then she will reveal more about her past and even share the memory of when she had to kill her own mother for lolth, and her own turmoil regarding it. which is such a big thing since that's one of the memories she doesn't like to remember and she refused to feel any mourn or guilt before (since that would mean feeling regret over lolth) but she does know..! cue love confession except it's more like she wants to take a chance with mc and she's never felt like this before. there is no word in drow for what she's feeling, and it's something new to her entirely and she's afraid of it but she wants to hold on it if mc wants her too. act 3 she takes mc in the park/open field where there is a willow tree and it's very picturesque and the moon is shining bright at night. mc sits on the bench and shri'iia will kneel in front of mc and there's like two variations - in her oathbreaker arc she leans her head on their lap, letting her guard down and she tells them how tired she is, and how the surface still frightens her but she's so glad she's met mc. there are still so many things she doesn't know about her future but what she does know is that she loves mc. it's all love confessions btw and i like the idea that she kisses their hands too... the imagery is a knight kneeling in front of their lady!! and imagine a subtle breeze too.. flowers flying around them.. like it's so pretty to me... and in the variation where she is not an oathbreaker and she has reformed her oath she kneels in front of mc and swears fealty to them. she wants to serve them forever, and devote her entire self to them. instead of holding their hand delicately, she is grasping on them like a life line, almost desperate. i want you, shri'iia will say, tell me you want me too. and if they say yes she will kiss their fingers then palms then up their arm and on their lips, a very happy dog, but if they refuse her mood sours so quickly and she will act like she's been slapped. she will then go livid and curse them in drowic but it's alright.. she can't deny mc of anything. if mc doesn't want her then she will respect them but that doesn't mean she will stop admiring them from the sidelines <3 ur stuck with her forever

[tadpal]

crazy to experience tangential fatphobia like yeah my parents are fat. what does that have to do with me??? also yeah of course im going to kill you with nails now like i literally love those people???

[rotinmycore]

hell is my parents love.