#my love for that show when i was 11 was UNREAL

[scalefucker]

old hyperfixations never die,,,,,

love hate relationship with hiw i drew scantys face,,, dont look at it i hate it

[f1daydreamer]

Lance Stroll as Your Boyfriend – Who’s Been in Love with You for Years

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He’s had a quiet thing for you for years. It wasn’t some loud, dramatic crush, it was the kind that lingered. The kind that made his heart ache a little when you laughed at someone else’s joke or smiled at someone who wasn’t him.

He’s the kind of guy who’d remember the little things. Your coffee order. The way you hate socks in bed. Your favorite song from a playlist you made two summers ago. He never forgot, even when you were just friends.

When you finally got together, it felt like everything just clicked. Not fireworks, not chaos, just… peace. Like, of course it’s you. It was always you.

He’s so soft for you it’s unreal. Like, he’ll try to act chill around others, but the second you hold his hand or kiss his cheek, he melts. Full-on boyfriend goo.

He gets genuinely happy just being around you. Like, you could be talking about the most boring thing, and he’d still be staring at you like you’re the best part of his day.

He talks about you in interviews without even realizing. “Yeah, I was watching that show with my girlfriend…” and suddenly everyone’s like so he’s in love, huh?

He loves slow mornings with you. Bare faces, messy hair, sharing breakfast in silence or with music playing low in the background. That’s his version of heaven.

He’ll randomly hug you from behind. Especially when you’re distracted. It’s like he’s reminding himself you’re really his now.

He doesn’t get super mushy with words, but his actions speak volumes. Picking you up even when he’s exhausted, cooking with you at 11 p.m., sending a “landed safe” text because he knows you worry.

You’re his calm in the chaos. Life in F1 gets hectic, but he always says the best part of every race weekend is coming home to you.

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[nonbinoclard]

>>> TUNES TO LOSE YOUR MIND TO <<<

KEEP IN MIND: This is a living playlist! Songs may be added and removed at times to further curate the vibe I'm going for. I'll try to keep this post updated, but you can just check out the link for an up-to-date track list.

(EDIT: Song discussions are not finished! I have a lot more to say. I'll reblog when I've updated.)

This is set in a sort of nebulous time between Harry's life right before Martinaise and the night before he lost his memory. I wanted this playlist to feel erratic-- full of manic energy one second, then slow and bleak the next, dreamy, unreal, then right back to ridiculous.

(In no particular order. Shuffle for full emotional whiplash effect.)

I Don't Like My Mind - Mitski

I don't like my mind, I don't like being left alone in a room [...] And then I get sick and throw up and there's another memory that gets stuck / Inside the walls of my skull waiting for its turn to talk / And it may be a few years, but you can bet it's there, waiting still

The days before cleaning out the rooms... also, eating an entire cake and throwing it all up again feels very harry-esque... Overindulgence

A whole cake, so please don't take / Take this job from me

End Of The World - Hether

I mean, I could just post the entire set of lyrics as evidence, tbh. Struggling to find meaning and purpose in his life in the wake of heartbreak (5 year old heartbreak, but who's counting anyway)

I wake up in the morning and I wonder / Why everything's the same as it was I can't understand / No I can't understand / How life goes on the way it does

Cane Shuga - Glass Animals

Baby, don't go / I'll stop breathing coke / No more bloody nose / No more John Does Burn through my love / Just like your drugs / I've had quite enough / Or lack thereof

This is about the last moments of Harry and Dora's relationship to me. The chorus (a kind of circular, endless, self-aggrandizing internal monologue likely fueled by stimulants, implied in the song) continuing after the second verse kind of reflects the solution for Lonesome Long Way Home.

"11 Voyager Road. You no longer live there. Those times are gone, and so are those people. Why did you come here? Why are you still here? And where’s the dealer? You have to get back to work. That’s all you have now."

Hot Venom - Miniature Tigers

Hot venom is mixing with my blood / I can feel it on my fingers and taste it on her tongue / It feels so good to fall in love with you

I've heard a lot of people say this song is about heroin addiction, which is thematically appropriate for this playlist, but also. Harry's unhealthy obsession with Dora/Dolores Dei. Adoration (and hatred) so strong it's killing him.

Her venom makes me strong / Stronger than I am on my own / Before too long, I'll wake up to it gone / Wondering how I ever was happy [...] You can't go back now; that's not how this works / And as long as she's gone, I can never be happy

Who Is She ? - I Monster

This is just straight up about Harry's recurring dream to me. Just. Gestures at the lyrics.

Oh, who is she? / A misty memory / A haunting face / Is she a lost embrace? Am I in love with just a theme? / Or is Ayesha just a dream?

I feel like it falls in line really well with the idea that Harry's mind has been affected by the Pale-- a lack of memory, or maybe mixed memories, in a misty haze beyond the boundaries of reality. (and maybe Dolores Dei has started haunting him via Pale? Like some theories I've read.)

Somewhere across the sea of time / A love immortal such as mine Will come to me / Eternally

I Don't Miss You at All - FINNEAS

Dummy - Portugal. The Man

F the World - The Northern Boys

You Stupid Bitch - Crazy Ex-Girlfriend (TV Show)

These shards are a metaphor for my soul Won't stop the self-pity 'cause I'm on a roll

This song perfectly captures the inherent melodrama of a mental downward spiral imo. Catastrophic and all-encompassing. This is what I think it sounds like in there (Harry's head).

You ruined everything / You stupid bitch / You ruined everything / You stupid, stupid bitch / You're just a lying little bitch who ruins things / And wants the world to burn / Bitch / You're a stupid bitch / And lose some weight

Oleander - Mother Mother

Intermission - Scissor Sisters

Skit #2 - Kanye West

Self explanatory. He's got no money. He's got no clothes. He has no car and he has no hoes.

We broke, broke broke phi broke We ain't got it Broke, broke, broke phi broke We ain't got it Don't spend no money, ain't got no clothes Ain't got no cars, ain't got no hoes

Nobody - Mitski

My God, I'm so lonely, so I open the window To hear sounds of people, to hear sounds of people

This one is more about the feeling of the song itself rather than the lyrics specifically; I love the upbeat tempo that continues through the song (trying to remain steady, continue working), how the beat is simple at first then builds into a kaleidoscope of sound by the end of the track (overwhelmed by the world), then ending in a distorted loop (trapped in a cycle). This song has always felt really authentic to my own experience with mental spirals. The themes of loneliness tie it all into a nice bow.

I'm A Broken Heart - the bird and the bee

Not Allowed - TV Girl

Party Time - The Northern Boys

Comfortably Numb - Scissor Sisters

(Do The) Act Like You Never Met Me - TV Girl

Novocaine For The Soul - Eels

Basket Case - Green Day

Do you have the time / to listen to me whine About nothing and everything all at once? I am one of those melodramatic fools / Neurotic to the bone, no doubt about it

I just think this one fits him well during Martinaise... just shaken up and unloading trauma onto unsuspecting strangers like a can of soda (bad analogy lol), depending on the dialogue you choose.

I went to a shrink to analyze my dreams She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down I went to a whore, she said my life's a bore So quit my whining 'cause it's bringing her down

Sometimes, I give myself the creeps / Sometimes, my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up / I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid, or am I stoned?

Also it's just a little pathetic, which just... it fits. Sorry Harry.

Labyrinth - Miracle Musical

[stylespresleyhearted]

POV: YOU’RE DATING CALLUM TURNER

pt. ✌🏻

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cturnerupdates Cal & Y/N spotted at a cafe in Paris today - March 23, 2024

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fan12 I SHIP IT BUT IM JEALOUS

y/nfan two lovers in the city of love 🥹 fitting ♥️

user23 I’m calling it now these two are gonna be it for each other. They’re end game.

yourinstagram that’s the goal🥹

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keoghan92 Context: Cal taking his bird away because we were apparently “pissed ” 🙄

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anthonyboyle baftas are always a fun night eh?

yourinstagram he saved your ass, i had you!!!

keoghan92 love I’ll out drink you any day

yourinstagram tbh we weren’t even that drunk

rafflaw you were crying cus you “lost” your boyfriend but he was holding your hand the entire time and barry thought the stalls were narnia entry

keoghan92 that’s a solid night mate

fan23 damn y/n looks good

yourinstagram tits out & every thang 🤗

keoghan92 Oi her heads big enough

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yourinstagram trying to enjoy my lunch but this weird (cute) guy won’t stop bothering me (i love him)

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user12 i need to know what its like to be her

fan23 callum is so down bad for her #relatable

fan21 what did she cover up 👀

yourinstagram lol just cal being cheeky

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yourinstagram hi handsome ♥️

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fan23 THE WAY HE’S LOOKING AT HER 🙌🏼😭😭

user68 i wonder if he’s aware how many photos she takes of him and she posts them all its weird

yourfriendsig lmao trust he’s aware & he’s obsessed when it comes to y/n

fan21 ppl see shit on the internet & think they know everything ugh 😑

yourinstagram guys let’s all be nice and enjoy looking at my beautiful boyfriend! 😍

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jimmyfallonshow Tune in tonight 10/11 CT to witness Callum Turner swoon over ‘amazing’ girlfriend 💕 ….

When asked if he’s aware how iconic she’s become on social media he said he’s well aware and he isn’t at all surprised before divulging to Jimmy “she’s the one.” 💍 👀

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user23 After watching the interview I’m 100% convinced he’s the golden retriever and she’s the black cat. Y/N loves him but gosh … the way he was talking about her and looking at her?

fan13 IMA CRY ITS NOT LETTING ME WATCH SOMEONE SHARE

y/nupdates It starts with Callum sharing a joke and Jimmy didn’t laugh but Y/N did from the crowd 😂 Callum recognized her laugh and said “thanks baby” and then that’s when Jimmy asked about her IG fame. Callum said “she’s the one man - we aren’t worried about that.” When Jimmy asked how they deal with the attention.

user12 starting to wonder if they’re secretly married/engaged

fan31 Nah and I think it’s beautiful even though they’re aware they are it for each other she’s willing to wait and support him as he enters a new kind of fame

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yourinstagram Daddy? Sorry. Daddy? Sorry. Daddy - 🥵

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callumfan Y/N PLSSSSSS I CANNNOOOTTT

user41 girllll yes !!!!

fan53 can i please be you???

user91 ur man is so daddy he’s fire

user33 Y/N and Callum daddy kink confirmed

keoghan92 That’s what we called him on set

yourinstagram back off my man barry

rafflaw … we really did though

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drewbarrymoreshow Hilarious, gorgeous, and kind — yes these guys, but I was referring to the star of tonight’s show Callum Turner’s girlfriend. Her Instagram page is one of my favorite’s, tune in to watch me fan girl over three stars tonight.

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yourinstagram unreal !! i adore you !!❤️❤️

drewbarrymoreshow Text me for our date night 🤗

fan23 everyone loves y/n it’s beautiful to see someone being praised when they’re authentically themselves

user12 shoulda interviewed her too

drewbarrymooreshow 🌚

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yourinstagram Y/N by me (Cal) 💍♥️😍

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fan31 HIS EMOJI USE?!?? rip me

user12 im gonna cry she’s so smol he’s so tol

fan23 Cal make your own page!!! We know it’ll just be Y/N and we’re okay with it!!! It’s what we want tbh !!!

keoghan92 “why the fuck are you taking a photo” is what she was mid saying

user25 omg he probably crushes her she’s tiny it’s great

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yourinstagram 🥹

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fan23 ugh the height difference kills me

user12 they’re so in love it makes me happy

fan33 I believe in love because of them tbh

fan67 idk how he hasn’t popped the question yet

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cturnerupdates Callum spotted with Y/N and his mother in London back in Feb for his birthday. The group had a picnic at the park and Callum’s mother even braided her hair — Feb 19, 2024

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user13 ohhhh he’s gonna be a girl dad fs

fan54 she’s got the momma’s stamp approval it’s gonna happen

user23 what i wouldn’t give to be his gf and have a picnic w him at the park and have his mom braid my hair

fan56 Is anyone gonna talk about how he’s looking at her? 🥹🥹😍 Definition of heart eyes

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I’m so down bad for this man so I really couldn’t resist making another one. He’s handsome and charming and manly and ughhhhh kill me!

P.S slight FC use of Olivia Dejonge. Not only is she gorgeous but she’s so smol and I find it so beautiful, especially with how large he is. Needed that picture for a specific use to help identify the size difference between the two but feel free to keep imagining whoever. He’s dated Vanessa Kirby and Dua Lipa so the hair color constantly changes in pics 😭

Don’t have a tag list but thanks to everyone for all the love, hope ya’ll enjoy this one as well 💕

[kinzis-writing]

Last Christmas | Rafe Cameron

Kinzi's 25 Days of Christmas: Blogmas day 3

Summary: It's Christmas in Outer Banks, the holiday where you got to spend time with your friends. It's hard to enjoy the holiday when your mind goes back to last Christmas and who you were spending it with.

Pairing: Rafe Cameron x Reader

Warning(s): a few cuss words, hints at ward cameron being a unaliver, mentions of breakup, soft! rafe.

Disclaimer: in this imagine Rafe did NOT kill peterkin and he’s not psycho. He’s a normal boy who just needed some extra love. So in this imagine Ward will be the villain 100% and Rafe 0% (besides breaking up)

*Gif not mine* *Not proofread or edited!*

*Christmas Eve - OBX*

It had been 11 months since you had been in Outer Banks, your breakup with your ex-boyfriend had been too hard on you to stay. After that you felt the need to leave Outer Banks and your family had finally convinced you to come back and spend the holidays with them. You knew that they would try to convince you to stay and not go back to living with your aunt on the mainland, however, you were unsure if that would be the best choice.

"Y/N!" Sarah shouted as she ran to hug you. The big house your family parked outside of looked familiar, but no longer felt like home. It wasn't what you were used too, or maybe it was what was no longer with you. "I am so glad your back, we've missed you around here." she stated pulling away from the hug.

You were like Sarah, born a kook but turned into a pogue. The only difference is that your family did not make a difference between the kooks and pogues. There had been many times when your family had fed the pogues or gave them a place to stay when they needed it. Your family was very understanding, and you appreciated every little thing they did for your friends.

"Only back for the holidays." Y/N told her as the two headed into the big house that she used to call home. The girl's quickly made their way up to the room that was her’s so they could get Y/N settled in. “It feels unreal, being back in this bedroom.” She muttered memories of her and her ex flooded her mind. No one knew Rafe Cameron the way that Y/N. While he was trouble, most of the time, he was caring around her. Well, she thought so anyways.

Sarah gave the girl a small smile, “there’s a party, John B decided to have a Christmas celebration.” The Cameron girl spoke. “Your parents allowed them to use your guest house, out back…” she trailed off. Knowing that the idea of a party would make the girl nervous.

“Why would they do that?” Y/N asked going through her clothes knowing she’d be dragged to this party regardless of what she wanted.

Sarah shrugged, “John B said it was a “get together” type thing and you know how your family is about welcome home celebrations.” She explained watching the girl shuffle through the clothes that she was putting away. “You’re just back for the holidays, remember? Let’s make the most of it with our friends.”

🎄

By 10 that night the party was on, the guest house behind Y/N’s house was overflowing with guests who had greeted the girl back with open arms. She had showed up an hour late, due to worrying about what to wear, how to do her hair and makeup, and stalling in hopes of not seeing him.

“Y/N, the life of the party decided to come back to us!” JJ Maybank yelled over the music as the girl joined the pogues in the den. “Y/N, you know my girlfriend Kiara, right?” He asked smuggled.

Y/N’s eyes widen in shock, “really, you two? When did that happen?” She asked surprised about her friends becoming lovers.

“Let’s just say that you’ve missed a lot.” Kiara spoke before pulling the girl into a bone crushing hug, “it’s good to see you again.”

“Likewise,” y/n spoke with a smile. “If you’ll excuse me, I don’t want to be rude so your guest of honor is going to go grab a drink.”

Y/N made her way through the crowd and into the cramped kitchen. She was pouring herself a drink and just thinking about her life. She had thought that being back made her feel out of place, that was until she was next to her friends then she felt at home.

“I’ll be damned,” a voice spoke from behind her as she slowly stopped pouring her drink. “I honestly didn’t think I’d see you again.” The voice of her former friend continued.

Y/N sat her cup on the kitchen counter and turned around to face the man behind her. “Kelce,” she greeted with a smile. “It’s good to see you.” She added as she stepped forward and pulled the man into a hug.

“It’s great to see you.” He replied as they pulled away. He glanced around the kitchen before looking back at her. “Have you seen him since you’ve been back?” He asked carefully unsure of how the the girl would reply.

Y/N shook her head as she turned around the grab her drink, “I was hoping to avoid him.” She mumbled before taking a sip of the drink. “It hurt, bad.” She shrugged thinking back to last Christmas and how close they were. “I had to get out and I don’t plan on ever coming back permanently.” She spoke the truth. At this current time, she had no plans of staying in outer banks.

Kelce gave her a sad smile, “I know Rafe puts on a facade, but that doesn’t mean that he didn’t hurt too.” The man told his best friend’s ex. He knew that the two of them were inseparable and truth be told, Rafe didn’t tell anyone as to why they broke up.

Y/N rolled her eyes at the man in front of her before playing with her fingers. “Maybe but-” she cut herself when she looked around kelce and locked eyes with the one man that she planned to avoid. “I have to go.” She mumbled after looking away from Rafe. She walked around kelce and made her way back to the pogues.

It was going to be a long night and she knew it.

The party had been going on for a few hours and everyone was either drunk, passed out, making out, or playing games. Y/N had only had two drinks, making her pretty much sober because she didn’t trust herself if she was to get drunk. No matter where she went tonight she felt as if Rafe was following her or he knew her next step. She had locked eyes with him many times tonight and each time it got her heart racing, her hands sweaty, and made her nervous.

She didn’t understand why he still made her feel that way. After all, she was over him! Or was she? “Hey guys,” Y/N called as she walked over to the pogues. “Thank you guys for this Christmas slash welcome back party, but I’m super tired so I think I’m gonna walk back over and head to bed.” She told them. She gave them all hugs and said good night before leaving the guest house and heading back over to her house.

She was beyond excited to be able to go to sleep. Her parents were going on their houseboat tonight with some friends, so she’d have the house to herself and could relax all she needed. She knew that in order to face tomorrow and the days to come that she would need to get herself together.

“Did you honestly think you wouldn’t run into him at some point?” She asked herself in her head. She knew that she would at least see him, but she was hoping that he wouldn’t see her back or that she could avoid him.

Y/N pushed open her bedroom door while unzipping her dress. She was beyond ready to get out of that dress and get into comfortable clothes. “Holy shit!” She jumped when she moved her head up. Her hand instinctively went over her heart because of how fast it was beating.

Sitting in her desk chair beside her bed was Rafe Cameron. He didn’t have his usually cocky expression on his face, but a soft smile did form when he realized he had accidentally scared her. “I’m sorry,” his voice came out quietly and soft. “I didn’t mean to startle you.”

Y/N scoffed eyeing the man in front of her, “you didn’t mean to startle me? Why are you in my room?”

“I wanted to talk and I knew you’d run at the party.” Rafe shrugged as he pushed himself up from the desk chair.

“You lost the privilege to come over unannounced when you broke it off last year.” Y/N told him as she felt her chest get heavy at the thought of how things ended. She would’ve done anything for Rafe and everyone knew it, so whenever he broke it off… it was a shock.

“You never let me explain,” Rafe started as he walked a bit closer, but Y/N just scooted back not wanting him to get close. Mainly because she was afraid she’d give in. “A lot happened after you left and some of it is still going on.”

“Maybe it has, but Sarah also told me about your new girlfriend.” Y/N replied seeing his eyes darkened for a moment before he let out a huff. “I was obviously the problem with something going on in your head.”

Y/N knew that Rafe had anxiety and depression. she also knew that he was yearning to make his father proud because Sarah was their favorite. She had been with him through everything and that’s why she didn’t understand why he left her.

Rafe ran a hand through his hair before taking another step closer causing Y/N’s back to hit the wall when she stepped away. “My father wanted me to do his dirty work and I was afraid that he would hurt you if I refused.” Rafe explained the girl that he loved, even if he never told her. “I broke it off so you would be safe and he couldn’t use you against me. The one Sarah told you about was a distraction I was with her to replace you and it never worked.”

Y/N could see the sincerity in his eyes as he spoke about his father and his ex girlfriend. “I loved you, Rafe. I would’ve done anything for you and you know it!” She spoke her voice coming out in a whisper.

“I know that, baby.” Rafe spoke back equally as quiet. “Which is why I broke it off, he was crazy and the things he wanted me to do… I needed you here and I needed you alive.” He took another step and that made him right in front of the girl that he had fallen in love with himself. “I’ve always loved you, Y/N. I never properly said it but I do.”

Y/N sucked in a breath, her emotions weighing down on her. He just admitted his true feelings, something that he never did when they were actually together. It was surreal hearing those words come out of his mouth, something that she had never expected. "Then why not try to get through it?" she asked the hurt in her voice showing. "Last Christmas was the last good memory we have, and we didn't even break up until New Years Day."

"If my dad didn't do what he did then we would still be together." Rafe promised.

Y/N's eyes teared up thinking about losing Rafe, she had been with other people and for some reason she had fallen head over heels in love with Rafe Cameron. She was slowly accepting the fact that she was still very much in love with the Cameron boy.

"When are you going to stop living to please your family?" She asked softly. "You are so much more than what your family thinks of you, who cares what they view you as. You deserve to be loved, Rafe. You need to believe that." she whispered softly so she wouldn't make his softness break.

Rafe's eye matched Y/Ns as both of them held tears threatening to fall. He knew that Y/N understood his situation and never once judged him for it. Making him know that she was definitely a keeper and the one for him. Without saying anything, he quickly slammed his lips to hers. Scared that she would reject the kiss if she thought about it too long. He knew his way around her overthinking, seeing as he had helped her with it many times.

Y/N did not object the way he thought she would, instead she yearned for him. She had wanted him since she left outer banks and she had wanted him when she locked eyes with him in her guest kitchen earlier. If he was willing to be with her, even just for the night, she was going to take it. Because at least for one moment, it can feel like the love they had Last Christmas was still alive.

Author's Note: So, I was originally going to base this imagine as "Last Christmas" by WHAM! Turns out I went a different direction and a part two will come out the next time I write for Rafe. I think that it's in a week or two, so if you enjoyed it, I hope you'll stay looking for that. I also feel like this could have been better and that it could have been smoother, but it is what it is. Also, sorry this is so late! I had the stomach virus (stomach flu) and I felt miserable and today is the only day I started feeling like myself and I have also finished all my finals so now I am back to full time writing, excluding my work shifts!

[milaeth]

୨୧┊𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒. ( lando norris )

ꖛ ─ you’re reading part one ∿ part two ( coming soon )

✧.* pairings ─ lando norris x fem! football player! reader

✧.* genre ─ social media au ⨾ fluff

✧.* summary ─ in which you're a football player and after winning the champions league with your team, a secret admirer named "L" sends you flowers. everyone thinks it's your friend Lance, but what if it's someone else? perhaps someone who’s also a formula one driver and is known for being a big fan of yours...

✧.* face claim ─ jana fernández (she’s obv around the same age as lando in this)

✧.* warnings ─ none

✧.* mily’s thoughts ─ so sorry for the wait, i had to take a little break, but i’m back now! btw i’ve had this in my drafts for literal months, but i finally decided to post it so enjoy :)

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user1604 massive win! some sick tackles made by you today, wow. so proud of you guys🔵🔴

user693 LETS GOOOO

lance_stroll So proud of you💙❤️

yourusername Thank you Lance❤️

user4635 y’all seeing this???

user8476 the hearts…🤭

user4316 BARCELONA 🔛🔝

user1036 mother is mothering‼️

landonorris Congratulations, you guys were amazing!👏

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user5837 YOU GUYS WILL ROCK THE FINAL

fcbfemeni best cb in laliga🔥🔵🔴

yourusername best club💙❤️

user3835 devoured and left no crumbs

user8547 who is that girl and why are lance and lando always in her likes and comments??

user9527 girl bffr💀

user1584 “that girl” is Y/n mf L/n.

user5264 @user8547 That is Y/n L/n! She plays for Barcelona’s women's team. She and Lance have been friends for quite a while and I guess he introduced her to the other drivers at some point because a lot of them follow her. She's been to a few races and sometimes still attends them when she's not playing for Barcelona! :)

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landonorris just added to their story . . .

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maxfewtrell Off to go see the love of your life play?👀

landonorris Shut up mate

maxfewtrell You didn’t deny it👀

landonorris Dude she doesn’t even know I exist

maxfewtrell Of course she knows you exist. She’s friends with Lance and therefore knows you from the grid.

landonorris Yeah okay but that’s about it. The first and only time we talked in person was in 2020 so she probably forgot about my existence.

maxfewtrell Well then change that😉

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lance_stroll I’m literally so proud of you. We have to celebrate this, love you💙

yourusername Thank you so much, can’t wait to see you again💙

user836 @lance_stroll confess to her already🙄🙄

user638 i ship them so hard

landonorris This was the first football game I watched live and the atmosphere was amazing. Great win💙❤️

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[yuzukahibiscus]

Pilgrimage to Takarazuka – Seeing "Arc en Ciel" (February 2024)

So I went to the World of Dreams – Takarazuka.

Writing the following feelings to words is unreal – I had written a Chinese report right away after I returned to Hong Kong.

Perhaps because there was only one day, or because it was just this day that the memories will forever be locked into the treasure chest of my heart. What happened on that day – how swiftly it passed – felt like sand particles falling onto the bottom of the hourglass.

One year later, translating the same for English reminds me of the rollercoaster of emotions that I felt. This blog contains specifics that are rarely said in the Takarazuka fandom space, but I would like to share it regardless.

I'll be grateful if you could read this with a kind consideration till the end.

Before embarking to Takarazuka (January 23 - February 9)

Everything was happening too quickly, to process that I got tickets for the morning (matinee) show on February 11 with an A-seat. This was easier than I expected compared to previous history of buying concert tickets.

And while that was exciting, before the trip I focused on my studies.

During that time, I was still working on throwback posts on my page and looking back on her footsteps from the debut stage to cultural festival and when she was still an underclassman.

Takarazuka is a dream.

For aspiring students, it is the place where they showcase their singing, acting and dancing in this "world of dreams".

For fans, and those who are fortunate to go to the Takarazuka Grand Theatre or the Tokyo Takarazuka Theatre, they watch these musicals affirming the positive values of dream and love and happiness.

But dreams are not always granted.

For an average overseas fan, they could only watch through livestreams via VPN or liveviewing.

So before the day of even arriving to Japan, all that "dream" is a mirage. I've learned about Rei for 4 years since the pandemic began in 2020. She's a Top Star who survived through the hardships of this pandemic so for many, her Flower Troupe felt a fleeting moment of time.

But for me, I felt oddly different. When you start to love a person, you'll understand more of herself and the values she believe in. She's someone who values "seizing the moment" but also cherishes those things and the encounters she's had. So even though I'm not her, I'd like to believe that she wants to live every day without regrets, and every day is fulfilling rather than brief to her. I wanted to understand more about her philosophy of crafting her roles, and there began my journey of learning Japanese and even opening a fanpage to translate her words. She used to say,

I'd be happy if you think "She's an interesting one" (laughs). After all when you think that ”this person and what she's doing is interesting", "when I watch her performances it's interesting", that's the happiest for me. — Yuzuka Rei in the Long Interview in Kageki December 2022 issue.

So I selfishly think, even if Takarazuka doesn't allow these fanmade translations, breaking the language barrier allows me to share more about her story, her attitude in life and more people can be interested about her. From 2021 to now, opening this fanpage is a little honour I have because different people say "Because of you, I know Yuzuka Rei and I learn how precious she is". I'm not saying everyone should say thank you to me, but these words always give me strength and motivation.

I set off to Japan on February 9 and I was still feeling "it's been so long, Japan", a vacation when I put aside worries and frustrations over school and work and inhale in the sweet air of Japan. Of course, I felt satisfied because now I can proudly say that I said more than arigatougozaimasu (thank you) but communicating with locals (even hearing a nihongo jouzu 日本語上手 = you're good at Japanese occasionally!) confirmed that my efforts in Japanese <=> English/Chinese translations have not gone in vain.

Tokyo (February 10)

I have never thought I'd be this lucky.

I stayed in a hotel in Atami, Shizuoka and our dinner is at the Viking Sal in Imperial Hotel. I didn't believe that upon leaving the hotel, I'd see the 13 letters of "TOKYO TAKARAZUKA" and I rushed to the theatre like a puppy who hadn't had a meal for days. I parted ways with my family who continued to shop nearby while I began navigating around the Tokyo Takarazuka Theatre. This was where the sense of unrealness bridged with a touch of reality.

Snow Troupe was performing "Boiled Doyle on the Toil Train" in the Tokyo Takarazuka Theatre at Japan time 4pm so there weren't many people inside the lobby. I was too excited I almost ran into the theatre until I remembered that I couldn't enter without a ticket. I got some posters – the Snow Troupe performance, Moon Troupe performance "Eternal Voice" and the Flower Troupe performance I'm watching "Arc en Ciel" – and headed to the building opposite the theatre where Tokyo Quatre Reves was located at.

It was the pre-closing performance on February 10 and there was a costume exhibition of the Sakiaya (Ayakaze Sakina x Yumeshiro Aya) Top Combi. Knowing that Saki would be retiring by herself, I knew I had to see this. There were costumes from "Too Short a Time to Fall in Love".

As I entered the Tokyo Quatre Reves, I felt like skipping on clouds - I was careful and excited. I saw many fans shopping and packing their desired merchandise into the baskets. I felt like we were all children, because everyone was happy inside this world of dreams. It dawned on me that I was no longer looking at pictures but being present in that surreal space was a joyous experience.

It was the Flower Troupe opening day and thanks to my "coordinating" personality in MBTI ("a power J", if you will) I took the opportunity to purchase the goods just as I had planned. Besides, I also noted what I had to buy on behalf of my friends and gifted postcards to the online mutuals I am fortunate to befriend over the course of my Takarazuka fandom journey.

Here's the full list I got: a theatre bag, acryllic card sets, keychains, Yuzuka Rei and Hoshikaze Madoka and Minami Maito and Hozumi Mahiro stills (they probably knew I was coming, because how on earth could I have found myself THE ReiMai Exciter!! still!?), the A3 special feature stills, performance booklet, ANAN Special Cover, opera glasses and postcards.

This took me half an hour, and for the remaining time, I strolled along every lane, each corner (the Blu-ray corner, the stills corner, the postcards corner, the goods corner, the music corner...) leisurely, hoping to remember every location. Looking back, I was grateful to have shopped there, because the Takarazuka Quatre Reves was packed with people, I wouldn't stand a chance getting all that I need!

D-DAY: Takarazuka, February 11

6am. From Atami to Mishima, to Nagoya, to Takarazuka - this was a 3-hour continuously-transferring train ride. It was dizziying at first, because I could not afford getting on the wrong train so I asked the train staff for some assistance too.

I could finally pen my letter when I sat down on the train. I also got a pink envelope letter writing set before I left Quatre Reves the day before and had thought to write the letter spontaneously during the train ride. I had prepared some cute doggy stickers for Rei and Madoka.

Just like Rei thinking of what to say to the audience during her speeches, what often comes to mind when I write is: what do I want to tell her? Because it's a good way to start and it's like conversing with an old friend. Here are the contents of my seventh letter, which I will reproduce in full:

Dear Yuzuka-san, Hi, it’s Hibiscus from HK! I’ve always been calling you “Rei-chan” in previous letters, this time I want to call you “Yuzuka-san”…^^ Yuzuka-san, I’m finally going to Takarazuka. I’m going to see your graduation performance on 2/11. I’m so happy and also excited for it. I’ve been a fan of Yuzuka-san for four years. In this time, I’ve met different friends and in the HK cinemas and in livestreams, I’ve been able to see many of Yuzuka-san’s shows, but coming to Takarazuka is ever more moving for me. This time I want to share a secret to Yuzuka-san. I want to write about why I learnt Japanese. Actually if it wasn’t Takarazuka I wouldn’t have learnt Japanese. It’s really “I want to learn more about Takarazuka’s charms!” that I learn Japanese “on my own”. In these 3-4 years, there have been more Takarazuka fans, but there aren’t many who know Japanese. So I’ve made a fanpage for Yuzuka-san. In this account I translate Yuzuka-san’s performance information and speeches. Why is this a secret? Because this won’t be allowed in Takarazuka. Why do I continue to do this? This is what I think “selfishly”, but I want more overseas fans to know about Yuzuka-san! I don’t know if you will like this secret, but if you don’t mind I’d be grateful😌💗 (Also in my previous letters I’d ask a friend to check for me, but this time I wrote this letter on my own). I’m taking the train on the way to Takarazuka and I’m so excited. Also, with the letter I also put a sticker inside. I got this in a HK stationery shop. It’s a black dog but it’s not a pomerenian…But I thought “this is so cute I want to give to Yuzuka-san!” So if you like it, I’d be happy to:) I’ll meet you in the theatre. Love you!

I placed this in the post office at the Takarazuka Grand Theatre. This was the closest post office to Rei receiving it and I was delighted to see the Takarazuka chop on my letter, rather than the sticker that was always pasted whenever I air-mailed my previous ones.

A bit of a fast-forward in time: I arrived in Hong Kong to see my Instagram fanpage wiped out, bombarded with emails of multiple reports for copyright infringement. Now that I offer you what my letter read, you may understand the potential consequences. The representative of any sienne fanclub has the responsibility of screening the letters, to ensure that they do not contain dangereous, illegal and threatening contents. So some guessed that, maybe the representative of Rei's fanclub read it, deemed it inappropriate and took actions.

Some may find this a foolish action to confide this information to Rei. Yet in hindsight, I thought, if I had already translated such contents in a public page, I would have considered the risks. Had I been afraid of this "open secret", I would never have started.

I had always wanted to tell her about this, and never knew the 'right timing'. But I thought, now or never, I will tell her when she graduates. Perhaps I am not the best fan to her, because I am evidentally infringing the Japanese Copyright Act for all this. But selfishly, I just want more people to know about her. Whether this justification makes sense to you, this had been one year ago - what's done is done.

Then, I immediately began my second letter - my first to Madoka. And it went like this,

Dear Hoshikaze-san, Hi, I’m Hibiscus from HK! I’m 21 years old and I’ve been a Takarazuka fan for 4 years. It’s my first time writing to you, so I’m nervous. The first musical I watched of Hoshikaze-san is "Flying Sapa", the 2020 Cosmos Troupe performance. That time, Hoshikaze-san’s hair was red and it left an impression on me. Also in 2021, you became the new Flower Troupe combi with Yuzuka-san. You played Eva in “Sorrowful Cordoba”, which your singing is amazing of course, but your chemistry with Yuzuka-san was impressive. Also in “The Fascination!” when you sang “L’amour” on the silver bridge alone, I thought, “You’re quickly transformed into a Hanamusume, so I’m happy for you” Hoshikaze-san in Cosmos Troupe is of course amazing, but the Hoshikaze-san as a Flower Troupe sienne showed us new charms of hers, so I’m surprised but also great that happened. (In my next letter, I want to talk about how I feel about your photobook, so I hope you look forward to that!^^) Actually, I’m now taking the train to Takarazuka because I’m going to see Hoshikaze-san and Yuzuka-san’s graduation performance on 2/11. In these 3-4 years, I was able to see many Flower Troupe performances through HK cinema livestreaming (my first was “Years of Pilgrimage” “Fashionable Empire”), but coming to Takarazuka this time is ever more moving to me 💕 I look forward to Hoshikaze-san’s Catherine because your still picture is too pretty Also with the letter I also put a sticker inside. I got this in a HK stationery shop. It’s a white dog and it makes me think of Kuri-chan so I want to give to Hoshikaze-san!” So if you like it, I’d be happy to:) I’ll meet you in the theatre. I’ll support you before the day of graduation comes.

20 minutes before the show opened and I was sprinting at the Takarazuka station to the theatre with @matchala on this exhilirating day (which I've met with her in Hong Kong last February 2nd). I was given the seat 1st floor-Row 13-Seat L2 and then as I snapped the obligatory kangeki (theatre watching) picture, the lights dimmed and it was show time.

Her alto voice rang through the speakers as I heard the opening announcement live for the first time. It reminded me of her 'Ready Steady Go' cover of L'arc en ciel where her voice really reveberated (響いて呼んでいる君の声).

The dream is about to begin.

Below includes spoilers of the show. But this musical has its gravest of faults, so I will be reviewing it from personal recollection.

Seino Asuka played Yves who walked on the silver bridge and relayed the history of Paris to the audience. Itsuki Chihiro played Yves' great-grandfather Pepe, who was talking with 'Young Yves' (Koharu Himeka), Seino' role's grandfather of the same name. Their interaction was loveable.

The mirror ball reflected the refractions of light and as it spinned, the curtains drew up to reveal a curvy staircase for the prologue. The Arc-en-ciel was a prominent theatre troupe company in the 1940s which was what Rei had said in the rehearsal report that they wish to showcase 'the royal classic of the French revues, a stage only presentable by THE Takarazuka.'

Then, she appeared.

Perhaps, the construct of time went by differently in the world of dreams than in a real world. Because her appearance was so radiant, and so dignified.

Omg, she's real, I had gasped.

In her best attire - the classic black tails, top hat and cane, Rei played Marcel, the etoile dancer of Arc-en-ciel. Marcel welcomes us to the premiere performance and more musumeyaku and otokoyaku enter scene.

For the next three hours, I made a mental note that we'd be having the blu-ray and last day versions recorded, so I must have stared until my eyes sored to concentrate on producing an SSS angle of Yuzuka Rei all by myself. It was unbelievable to see her move and dance in such a fancy way with a suit. She was truly a mannequin in motion. She also sweated a lot (because of the hot stage lighting, maybe?). Through Marcel, I could also see his concentration and sincerity in the performing arts, which mirrored Rei's approach too.

There are two highlights in Rei's Marcel. Marcel plays a pierrot in one of their musical scenes The Clown in Montmarte. At first this jester proves himself to be a symbol of joy and reflects the happiness of the Parisians. But as Pepe sings the last lyric which goes, 'Left alone is the pierrot', she undresses the baggy costumes until she is left with a silky shirt and thick pants. Since I was watching this before the first day footage was even released, I was at awe with how sexy the scene unfolded itself: I was not expecting it! I also found her exasperation and frustration the most attractive emotions in her characters so when the etoile dancer Marcel shows that annoyance of playing 'only the clown in the theatre', I could see why I became a deer in headlights locked behind the opera glasses. Rei had commented in the rehearsal report, "As my first time playing a pierrot, when I heard Itsuki-san sing, the melody itself is warm and bright, but the song contains this emptiness, loneliness and sadness. I think clowns represent both joy and despair so I want to deepen this symbolisation." Marcel appears twice as a pierrot in this musical and I always love when musicals add repetition because you could see the contrast of Rei's interpretations in both scenes.

What's more is Marcel playing the piano. Rei's Franz Liszt and her starring musical "Years of Pilgrimage" is my absolute champion among her other works. The former Cosmos Troupe Top Musumeyaku and her classmate, Misaki Rion had praised her, "Rei is the best at playing piano among our classmates; she used to play it to us whenever we asked her. I wish to hear her playing in a live stage performance one day." Of course, it was unfortunate I couldn't witness The Franz Liszt live, but I was truly surprised and elated to hear Marcel play the piano! Once for Catherine's accompaniment and another for a jazz song 'SWING'. Jazz is one of the main motifs of the songs which represents freedom and liberation. I was so glad to hear her playing before she graduates and I was really eyeing on her skills the whole time.

What a blessing to witness Madoka's Catherine's singing in the Grand Theatre with such grand acoustics! She played another strong woman for her final role and looked stunning in long dresses (as expected of the Grace Continental model). As the provisional director, Catherine has a stronger sense of endearment to Arc-en-ciel than Marcel so this divides the two at first. Marcel is upset with only playing a clown role and judges Catherine for not understanding his discontent, since she has been the star songstress as the queen of Arc-en-ciel. We later know that Catherine can give in her all for Arc-en-ciel. Her voice becomes an asset and to allow the continuation of performances, Catherine's stance never wavers and that's also Madoka to me - determined and relentless in her gaze.

The loveline of Marcel and Catherine is by far my favourite chemistry of Rei and Madoka. A love shared by two confident people, sparking in sarcasm and sweetness. They are unlike Elio and Eva as the inevitably-reunited siblings, Chronosuke-Kira as the fated lovers, Dale and Jerry as the mistaken couple, Liszt and Marie as the 'crossing boats of the night', Antonio and Pamela as the impossible pair, Rudolf and Mary as what history told us, Thierry and Pamela as aspiring youth, Reisaburou and Oharu as childhood sweethearts. That was the Reimado history, and concluding it with Marcel and Catherine, I felt like this echoed Rei and Madoka, who both strongly defended Flower Troupe amidst all cancellations. They have such mutual love and respect for each other in a satisfyingly alluring confession.

Marcel and Catherine have a scene in Marcel's bedroom when they talk about their dreams after the occupation. Marcel wants to learn modern dance in America, and Catherine has always loved singing, and wants to sing for the people, to convey her emotions to them. The exchange is simple yet heartfelt, like the relationship of Reimado. This also hints to me their post-graduation careers, so I had hoped they could continue to share their love for dancing and singing to others.

I was also paying attention to Hozumi Mahiro, or Hotti. Hotti's Robert was very handsome. I was grateful she had a centric scene for the resistance army and even got to flex her somersault (Hotti is good at acrobatics!) Besides, Ichinose Kouki's Paul also played the piano, which was double the surprise. Yuki Daiya's Pierre had sharp dance moves as Marcel's choreography assistant. Kinami Raito's Daniel was debonair in the second lieutenant role in The Clown of Montmarte.

The charm of a live performance was how I could feel the power of Flower Troupe. From their choir of singing, to their synchronised jazz dancing, their dominance was intimidating. Of course, seeing Rei dance in real time also blew me away. How did her waist move like that - as expected her use of muscles in dancing was impressive. It was a great sense of satisfaction,

I had previously written these words: Yuzuka Rei's philosophy in leading the Flower Troupe is moving. She wants to grow with the members, so that they all improve in a comfortable environment and they won't feel anxious, but still have the motivation to improve themselves. That is how she heals their inner child, and preserves their love for the stage.

I believe we could love the actors but still criticise a play. Surely, the musical highlighted Rei and Madoka's strength of dancing and singing and was quite romantic to shape their relationship but the historical context was executed disrespectfully by Koike-sensei.

It is risky to approach a Nazist-occupied Paris context from the start. Nazism is an extreme ideology and Koike-sensei had already done a musical of the related era in "My Name is Bond". For a "world of dreams" that delivers the image of handsome otokoyaku and the cute musumeyaku, it was definitely unnecessary to see Towaki Sea in a Nazi uniform, especially when she'd be the next Flower Troupe Top Star.

Asuka's Yves is also a narrator. When the Nazi scene begins, the siennes playing the Nazi step upfront, and they even collectively salutes to Hitler. One may say that each musical has its antagonists, but it really wasn't appropriate to do salutes (that are illegal in Germany) on a grand stage.

I also didn't like how some Japanese fans resulted to sympathise Hitoko's character. When her Friederich and Hoshizora Misaki's Annette had a loveline, it was uncomfortable to watch because it almost wasn't realistically possible and it seemed twisted to believe their story was romantic. I felt bad that a new Top Combi had to convey this awkward relationship before their debut.

That the Arc-en-ciel was only concerned with whether they could perform jazz was an understatement. I also spoke to a French friend who said that there were other social issues that the play could have focused on, because it was such a difficult period of time during the Nazi occupation in 1940-1944. I felt like Yves could have conveyed more about what Paris was going through and her role was easily weakened by the subpar writing (this was even worse than her Takuminokami in "Genroku Baroque Rock")

As commemoration, here are Yuzuka Rei's comments for the musical recorded in the programme:

When I knew that I'll be playing a talented dancer in my last Takarazuka performance, I've been imagining what kind of presence this role should play in the musical. Paris is in the state of turmoil, and it is through performing arts that Marcel learns about becoming a real person. As the musical emphasises the importance of approaching the stage, I relate to many parts of the story as a stage performer. My feelings for the audience, for the stage, and for my co-stars are something so close in contact to my daily life; protecting the French revue was also similar to the time when we continued performing amidst the pandemic, so I believe the role of Marcel was created only for me. It's certain what he wants to do and what he aims to do, but in the beginning, his relationship with others seem lacking. Later on, he has more things to protect, and I've been looking forward to create this process, from how he's only working on his own, to taking action because of others. I only worked with Koike-sensei in "Poe Clan", but I could feel how he delicately created this new stage for us, so I want to do well too. I can feel how he's pouring his ideas and the energy for this performance, so I want to do my best. Hoshikaze plays Catherine to whom I have disagreements with, but this is resolved surprisingly early, so I'll think of how to balance the difference in our interactions. It's a process when we inspire each other and grow, and these are roles we haven't done before, so I'm looking forward to how our relationship will be created. This is a two-act but there are many fantastic musical numbers. Personally I'm happy there are jazz scenes that are my favourite. Not just the 'royal revue' type in black tails, silk hat and cane, but I'm also excited to do a solo dance as the role of the pierrot that I've never done before. There are other solo songs, like 'Wavering but not sunken', a duet song with Catherine 'Nouvelle Arc-en-ciel' which has a beautiful melody - all of these are what I want to emphasise and rehearse well. There are many scenes that I'll be singing and dancing with the revue members 'Swing' which I'll be singing with Towaki who plays Friederich. I'm happy these are scenes that could show how everyone is creating scenes in a revue within a show. To those who have supported me for a long time, or to those who are watching Takarazuka for the first time, I'd be glad if you could feel that I'm happy to have watched this performance today.

After the musical, the finale began. Towaki Sea wore a pink military uniform and sang on the silver bridge and finally I could watch it at an ease of mind. I'm sure she'd lead well for the future of Flower Troupe. Then came the rockette. After that, Rei appeared in a magneta and hot pink ruffly costume and danced with the musumeyaku in 'La vie en rose' and later she changed to red and danced with the otokoyaku. It reminded me again of the electronic music beat and otokoyaku dance combo in "Poe Clan". Then Towaki Sea changed in gold and led her group otokoyaku dance with the other otokoyaku. Then, Rei and Madoka had their last duet, wearing a sea blue of costumes.

Finally, Rei had her solo dance. I had forgotten that a graduation musical has that at the end when the Top Star is alone on stage. So the deja vu hit me strongly.

I felt like returning to the epiphany when I saw her solo dance in "DANCE OLYMPIA" and "BE SHINING!!" She was enjoying the stage to her own and I once again questioned the flowing of time. Every dance step was adequate and not excessive and her harmony with the music was a flawless combination of art. Her smile, her energy was full to thank the audience, to show her love to the Takarazuka stage. At once, I sensed the bluriness of the opera glasses, or maybe because I was about to cry...

Hoshizora Misaki was the etoile of the parade and then I saw how quickly the Flower Troupe members descended the stairs. Reality and fantasy began to disintegrate: was I waking up from this dream?

Frequent-goers applauded as each sienne bowed, but I was just staring through my opera glasses, remembering how all these siennes looked to the very end.

Tears finally fell when I saw Yuzuka Rei in those rainbow feathers, because I knew that this first Takarazuka live stage viewing is coming to an end.

She concluded the parade by singing from 'Unwavering but not sunken' which lyrics went like this:

Even in scorching summers And in excruciating winters We are fearless As we face the winds and sail high We walk hand in hand We hold pride and take allegiance That we may be wavering, but never sunken

Yuzuka Rei, all words are truly lacking to express my emotions in this journey. but ‘thank you’ will be the most appropriate phrase you have taught me to cherish.

[psychette]

RATING AIB (S1) CHARACTERS (part 1)

HIKARI KUINA : 11/10 - i watched alice in borderland JUST for kuina. transgender characters always give me comfort as a trans person. watched for her, ended both seasons with her STILL as my favorite character. i loved every scene she was in and even watch kuina-specific scenepacks during class or just anywhere i am. also i’m excited for s3 because i’m hoping to see her. a majority of my crashouts were from the idea that she would die.

SHUNTARO CHISHIYA : 9/10 - great character, i love when characters have a cheshire cat personality… or something like that. something about chishiya’s energy feels so unreal. he’s pretty much the most favorited character in the fandom but a majority still mischaracterizes him. i love his dynamic with EVERY character. can you tell i’m in love with platonic kuina x chishiya? they’re literally wlw mlm solidarity!!

RYOHEI ARISU : 8.8/10 - he’s absolutely so adorable ???? his strategic thinking and creative intelligence never fails to captivate me. he looked cute both in the manga and in the series ngl.. his constant motivation to save people, not just himself. crazy how he worked so hard just for a joker card. arisu’s a really great character, i just gave him a 8.8 bc im not VERY interested in protagonists in terms of favoriting characters. he has a high score because of how well written he is, and i live for that!

YUZUHA USAGI : 10/10 - she deserves the WORLD oh my god. i love me a strong climber girl wtf. the second i saw her in the tag game i was crashing out and was so excited when i found out she was going to be a big character for the series. my roman empire was when she was injured but still saved arisu when he was getting manipulated by mira into thinking he was actually a mental hospital patient. yes she has 10/10 cz she’s a woman and im gay. sawry.

DAIKICHI KARUBE : 9.8/10 - yeah sorry he’s my token boyfriend in aib, as a lesbian.. HELP. he was literally so charming i miss him so much come back husband… i know he’s a 9.8 which is shocking as i call him my token bf of aib, i just dont find myself THAT captivated over men most of the time. also bc he only had screentime for the first few episodes + arisu’s flashbacks + the end of s2. still love him over every man in the series.

CHOTA SEGAWA : 7/10 - i see a lot of ppl who like him but don’t even see him as a favorite. he didn’t strike me as much as other characters did but smth about his friendliness and playfulness with his friends really made me think about my own friend group. he was a good friend to arisu and karube, and i would KILL to have a friendship like theirs. he was too sweet for the borderlands. he just wanted to be with his friends

SAORI SHIBUKI : 0/10 - ppl actually miss her ?? i lowkey moved on from her fast lol. she didn’t mean so much to me. also not a big fan of chota x shibuki. chota was literally injured, mentally vulnerable, was still processing what was going on, and was in extreme mental distress because of that. she took advantage of that. i don’t really care if it was consented. her death wasn’t that sad for me. yes, she died with karube and chota but she wasn’t really that special to me lol

SUGURU NIRAGI : 7.5/10 - “his rating shouldn’t be this high!” he got a -3.5 for trying to do hanky panky with usagi twice and yes, it made me uncomfortable. he just has a 7.5 because his character IS well written. the way his brain reacted, how he behaved, how he responded. his quote, “i don’t know if they hated me because i was twisted or i became twisted because they hated me.” really said a lot about him. his hanky panky stuff only shows more depth of his character. and no i don’t excuse it, as i said, it made me uncomfortable to the point i had to take a short break from watching. yet it doesn’t change his archetype, he’s well written, admit it.

LAST BOSS : 4/10 - i love his appearance and dramatic katana sword shit but this man tried killing my girl. fuck u tryna do. 4 is all u is getting. no other words

ANN : 7.5/10 - im sorry guys dont shoot me, i like her and shes super pretty but i literally have nothing else to say except that

TAKERU “HATTER” DANMA : 6/10 - idk man he’s really good i love his whole story stuff with aguni and how his character developed but he also made me uncomfortable at times. plz tell me why the scene where he’s grabbing ass shows up right when im next to my mom. lord save me. still haven’t analyzed him so much but i’ll get into that i swear

AGUNI : 6/10 - same thoughts as hatter. he’s pretty cool ngl. i lowkey thought of him as an asshole bc of that one scene in tag where he doesn’t save his buddy that he just uses for bait unfortunately. also ik this happens in s2 but the thing he had with akane made me so uncomfortable

KODAI TATTA : 3.5/10 - specifically in s1 i really wasn’t interested in him that much, he’s pretty okay. i don’t really care.

[lapdogchase]

season 8 ep 11 liveblogging (i get more scared the further i get into season 8 and the first frame of this episode has not helped. seriously what the fuck happened here) (<- edit to add. in retrospect. famous last words)

spoilers under yhe cut :-)

(does tumblr still eat keep reading things if u put an image directly above/below it. im notsure and am not taking the chance yayayy)

^i just know chase is giggling and tucking his hair behind his ear

^i love when tv shows say these sorts of things. 75000 hits looks like youve gone viral hon...

STAB WOUND?????? STABBED?????? HE WAS STABBED????????

^that one coworker who can never just have a good fucking day

this guy is so stuck on how much of an asshole house is which is so funny bc im so used to it at this point. as is the whole team. like Yeah hes just like that

chase doing his own ddx from his hospital bed he's so housecore god its unreal

WHAAAAAT !!! EVERRRRRR !!! WHATEVERRRRR!!!!!!!!

you know. seeing there was an episode called "chase." and knowing chase would get hurt at some point. made me think he would probably get hurt in the episode called "chase." and not the one before it. which is not named after him. So you can imagine what a curveball this was. also i'm scared.

oh my god theyre matching :( leg injury swag :((

the thing is that house and chase Understand each other. th whole Yeah he didnt actually want to interrupt my surgery hes just allergic to genuinity. is crazy. and "i put hair dye in adams' shampoo so you would know not to be late" is INSANE behavior. everytrhing is a puzzle or a riddle with this guy

an honest to god apology. oh ymg od

[lurkingshan]

I don't know what unleashed this school 2013 posting but I appreciate it so much. would love to hear your thoughts on it!

Good morning, anon! I just finished a quasi-rewatch of School 2013 (quasi because I had watched most of it before but for reasons having nothing to do with the show never finished it) and my god does it hold up. What an incredible drama, and one that absolutely should not be remade by people who don't understand its themes or take it seriously. *glares at GMMTV*

I was literally just telling @neuroticbookworm and @twig-tea last night that I didn't plan to write about it because this drama is 11 years old and very dearly beloved, so it didn't need another essay from me. But since you asked, I will share a few things that make it so special:

It really understands the function a school plays in a community, how important teachers can be in a young person's life, and the often disheartening limits of what teachers can do.

It treats platonic friendship, and the pain of losing a dear friend who is your family, with the utmost seriousness. Despite what some atrociously titled remakes would have you believe, the arc between Go Nam Soon and Park Heung Soo is not a story about "frenemies." It's a story about best friends and chosen brothers trying desperately to heal from a deep fracture between them.

It really cares about every young person in its story, takes their struggles seriously, and gives them chances to redeem themselves when they make mistakes. This drama believes that every kid, even those who have engaged in violence and bullied others, are worth the effort and can be redeemed.

But it also acknowledges that not everything can be fixed and not every kid with a hard life can be saved. It's gut-wrenching, but it's real, and the failures make the triumphs of the story resonate that much more.

It manages to write so many compelling and deep relationships without ever giving in to the impulse to turn them romantic. There is not a single romance plot in this drama and yet it has some of the best relationships I've ever seen on my screen.

It has a phenomenal cast. Lee Jung Suk and Kim Woo Bin are the obvious standouts, and this show absolutely would not work without them and their unreal platonic chemistry at the center. But it also has Jang Nara and Choi Daniel as our beloved teachers and a cast of very talented young actors playing students (a couple of which would go on to be drama headliners themselves). Even the green actors in the cast lent to the authentic feel of the classroom.

If you haven't watched this one yet (and enjoy crying buckets), I highly recommend putting it on your list and definitely watching the original instead of any imitators. And if you have watched it before, I am happy to report that it holds up spectacularly.

[pyjamaart]

A looming presence... (A piece of fan art for Episode 11 of the Christmas Comeback Crisis)

Read more for an essay on all the memes and references ;)

So here it is. Finally. Only one month too late: This piece of CCC fan art I've worked on since the episode came out.

Sorry for the delay, but I just started at my new job this week and it's been a little stressful, so I didn't have much time to work on this. But now it's finally here!!! I gotta say, the hardest part by far was the background, lol. I didn't mean for it to escalate that much. At the end I was honestly running out of memes to draw.

I bet we can all agree that episode 11 of the Christmas Comeback Crisis was so worth the wait, right???? My god. Peak entertainment. I still can't believe I'm getting all this awesome lore and music for free, feels kinda criminal.

I'm so invested in this story, it's unreal. I can't wait to see how it will end. I can already tell it's gonna be pretty emotional. (And not to alarm anyone, but I have a slight feeling that the Voice is not gonna make it out of this story arc alive. I mean, after everything he's done, it's safe to say that he kinda deserves it. Of course I really don't want him to die, cause that would mean…….. Woodman would also have to die??? Otherwise the Voice will just keep coming back again and again because Woodman is keeping his memory alive…….. Oh man wait a moment….. I don't even want to think about that. Forget I said anything about this.)

Anyway, let's talk about this piece of art for a moment.

In the foreground, we have our brave protagonists. I really really like how Nozomi turned out, so I decided to make her my new icon from now on. Don't get me wrong, I love my old icon, but it's kinda zoomed out and you can't really make out any details when it's really small. So Nozomi it is. Meta Knights sword was shockingly difficult to draw, especially because I had to figure out how to draw it when he's holding it at an angle like that. Otherwise, drawing him was actually one of the easiest things about this whole thing. His design is really just two circles with some arms and armor. Figuring out how the circle tool in Gimp works has never felt this good. (Kinda crazy I can just draw him like this now, considering how obsessed with him I was when I was about 12-13 years old. Back then you had to download official renders of your favorite characters onto your computer, then print them out and hang them on your walls all around your room. Yeah I've always been like this.) Drawing Santa was really fun too, just his right hand was a little difficult. But that's just because I still can't draw hands in general. Maybe I should practice drawing hands more. (Naaaaaah I'm just kidding, I'll never do that.) Now that I'm looking at him again, he's also longingly staring at President Haltmann in the background. Doomed yaoi fr.

Speaking of the background, let's talk about that next. There's obviously the title-giving "looming presence" the Voice. I had his hands completely in the background at first, but I thought it looked cooler when they were hanging threateningly around Santa's shoulders. (You may ask yourself, 'man these hands look kinda alright for my usual hand drawing standards', and that is because I traced over pictures of my own hands. I love "cheating" at art.) I also gave him his stupid little bow tie and the colored buttons on his suit sleeves. Not only is that kinda my trademark for drawing him at this point, it's also supposed to show, that under all the threats and the evil villain persona, he's just kind of a loser. A real (male equivalent of a) girlfailure. That's why I made sure that half of the things shown in the background are there to make fun of him a little. I love the Voice dearly, but that's just what felt right.

And now let's get to the actual main course of this essay. I probably spent half the time working on this on the freaking background. I'm just gonna start in the top left corner and then go down each column and explain what each of these mean or what they reference. (Since there are some quite obscure ones in there.)

Let's start with the two ponies in the very top left. They're actually ponysonas of Nozomi Tojo (left) and Takane Shijou (right). Nozomi is an earth pony and has a tarot card as her cutie mark, specifically the ace of cups. Takane on the other hand is a unicorn and has some musical notes as her cutie mark, which you can't really see. I don't know enough about the Idolmaster to think of something more meaningful for her, sorry. ;)

Under that are Susie Haltmann and her father, President Haltmann. They were (after Woodman) the first characters I wanted to draw into the background. Susie has this black bar covering her face, since she was never really there to begin with. The whole story line with her father wanting to bring her back was actually so freaking sad. And when the Voice killed him in episode 11 and that image of Susie flashed on screen as the last thing he saw before he died….. Oof……… That's also why I drew that cursor looming next to her "window" about to click on the closing button. Haltmann himself is also the only character in the background to actually leave his little window, wanting to reach his daughter. He's also glaring at the Voice for causing him all of this grief and anger in the first place with his false promises.

Then there's…. ahem, "Hot robots in your area". With drawings of a random unnamed robot and Mettaton from Undertale. Which the Voice has apparently bookmarked. This is just a head canon, but I like to think he has a thing for robots, lol. ;)

Oh and on the left next to that on the very first column is Simpleflips' logo. Shoutouts to Simpleflips indeed.

Onto the next column. At the very top is Haruka Amami (also from the Idolmaster), who played a pretty huge role in the CCC, especially in the latest episode. That moment at the very end where she saved Grand Dad from certain death was just fantastic. Absolutely goated scene. She's kinda pressing her face against the window she's trapped in. I hope you can even see that from far away, haha.

Under that is one of the more obscure references. It's from a King for Another Day video, specifically one titled "The Hobart Hootenanny - SiIvaGunner: King for Another Day". It's a slideshow made of beautiful Hobart pictures. One that struck me personally the most was a little family picture of Hobart and the rapper Eminem, who was also a contestant in the KfAD tournament, looking lovingly over their son sitting in a cradle. Eminem is seen saying "Our son is beutiful". A truly touching photograph indeed. In that same slideshow is also another scene of Hobart together with the Voice, but we'll talk about that one later.

The next one is a reference to the CCC side story "I wanna thank me" and shows a pie chart with the election results that were discussed in that episode. Under the pie chart itself is a little box containing all the different parties and showing their respective percentages. On the left is a poster for the "Poké Poké Literature Party", showing Monika's head with the words "Just vote Monika" at the top of the poster. The words (and Misha.) are scribbled on the bottom, lest we forget that she's not running this party alone. This side story was first featured in the Christmas Comeback Crisis Watchalong in 2020, which was actually the first time I watched the CCC in its entirety. It all went downhill from there. ;)

Then there's the Voice's… thing? Object? Weird apparatus where no one really knows what it does or what its purpose is? Every time we see the Voice sitting in his office, this thing is sitting on his desk right next to him. There's been loads of jokes about its purpose. They've all been made before. I'm not going to repeat them. Only the Voice himself truly knows what this thing does. Probably. Could just be a decorative piece of art.

Then we have something veeeery self indulgent on the next column. It's Aquaman from Megaman 8 (With a not so subtle skull right next to him). You should all know by now that I'm the founding father of the Aquawood ship. And I also have the head canon that Woodman and the Voice are very divorced. Interpret into this whatever you want.

Next to Aquaman is the internets' favorite panel from the web comic Tails Gets Trolled. I fucking love that comic. If you haven't read it in its entirety, I highly recommend doing it. (Though be warned that it contains some pretty heavy topics, many many slurs and a plethora of gore.) Okay, maybe I don't recommend reading it. (Just read it with all of that in mind.)

Under that is a personal favorite joke of mine. It's supposed to be Spotify, with a playlist open that I created some time ago. I called it "Die Pizza Playlist" (Remember that die in German is just "the") which I always listen to when I'm baking my own pizza. Highlights include "Pizza" by Antilopen Gang, "Pizza Heroes" by Lemon Demon (You can actually see the album art for Spirit Phone on the left of the playlist.), "Pizza Pizza Pizza" from the Ratatouille musical and so on and so on. The first song in the playlist is obviously "We like pizza" by the Pizza kids, which is even playing in the image. On the side are two more music artists, at the bottom is the image for the Veggie Tales soundtrack, which also featured a song called "Pizza Angel". And over that is Mitski. I just feel like the Voice would listen to her music. Do not question me on this.

The audience laughs at the funny 7.

On the Voice's left shoulder sits a single green bean. It's flashing you a cheeky grin and a peace sign. While I didn't intend for this to happen, I accidentally referenced my own Woodman birthday gallery art from two years ago, where the bean also sits atop the Voice's shoulder. I know that next to "Yankin'", the bean is one of the most hated memes on SiIva, but I think he's just a silly little guy! :D

Let's head on over to the next column. Seems like the Voice has an incoming call from one of his guards, but he's ignoring it as he has more important things to do, like hovering intimidatingly over Santa Claus.

Next to that window on the right are the Voice's messages. I almost wrote "messanges". That would have been embarrassing, thank god I caught that in time. This is also (yet again) a little self indulgent, since the Voice apparently has the last message he sent Woodman pinned to the very top of his messenger app. His big triangular head is blocking most of it, but since I'm the artist, I can tell you exactly what it says: "Please call me back", which was sent on February 1st 2023, the day "The Disappearance of Woodman" was released. Yeah, I'm still very upset, how could you tell? :( Under that is a message to his trusty pizza guy asking for a pizza with extra cheese.

Next we have two of my favorite memes on the SiIvagunner channel (My absolute favorite being "Funny budots", since I never wrote that down anywhere.), one being Frisk Undertale becoming uncanny and the other one being the goat. I don't really know how to describe the goat, but apparently it was crafted by the same artist who made the stoned fox that's also very popular online?? I may just be stupid, but I didn't know about that until I looked up a reference for the goat. Since it often appears alongside Undertale and Deltarune, many have made the assumption that this is what Asriel would look like in real life. That's why Flowey is there next to it with an equal sign. Whoever drew up that calculation wasn't really sure of their work, which is why they drew a question mark right next to it. Between Frisk and the goat is a little Soul, also from Undertale/Deltarune.

Onto the next column, where I'm dropping very subtle hints that a specific character in this image might like pizza. Or might even be a little obsessed with it. On the left is a list with the contact details of three well known pizza chains, on the very top is Sonic the Hedgehog who just recently became a brand ambassador for Totino's and on the bottom right of this section is a flyer for some kind of pizza sale.

The next window contains my favorite joke of any rip on the entire SiIvaGunner Youtube Channel. "Peepoona 5. Let us shart the pants." Just typing this out is making me die of laughter yet again. (The rip in question is "Our Beginning - Persona 5".) But as you all know, I am very into toilet humor. That's why Aquaman is one of my favorite robot masters. And why I'm such a big fan of Youtube Poop. And why I watch Minion fart gun religiously. But enough of that, you get what I'm trying to say. I love funny poop jokes. That's why this is here.

Oh man. This next one is why I wanted to write this very detailed essay in the first place. A reference so obscure, even I can't find its origin anymore. And believe me, I tried. Thankfully, I took a screenshot of the original comment thread this was based on. A user called "The New Guy" commented on a SiIvaGunner rip, something along the lines about how much they enjoyed this specific rip. At the time, the comment had 920 likes, so I'm guessing it must have been a pretty popular video. (The comment should also be about 4 years old now?) Anyway, under that comment, someone asks them what their profile picture was from. They simply answered "wagon", since that was exactly what their profile picture showed. Someone on the SiIvaGunner team must have found this exchange so funny that they commented "wagon" as well. And that's the origin of this joke. If anyone knows which rip this is from pleeeeaaaase tell me. I need to know.

I don't think I need to explain who the next guy is. Just the love of my life. I specifically drew Woodman in his getup from the Nuclear Winter Festival, since that was the last time he appeared on the channel. He's looking kinda concerned in the general direction of the viewer, for obvious reasons. And right under him is his trademarked >:] emoji.

And last but certainly not least, the final column! Now I finally get to talk about this other scene from the Hobart Hootenanny. It shows Hobart and the Voice having a romantic stroll at a beautiful beach, while the sun is slowly setting in the background, making the water shimmer with its breathtaking colors. Okay, the last thing didn't really happen, since it's a shitty MS Paint drawing, but I like to imagine it did. Maybe I should draw a remake of this image one day. Now I'd like to quote the video in question: "A man and Hobart were walking together on the beach. He looked back and saw that in his times of sadness and need, there was only one set of footprints. He asked Hobart why he would leave him in his time of most need. Hobart simply turned to the man and said, VVVVVRRRRR SRRRRR RRRRGGGHHHH--" (Thank you SiIva Wiki for the transcription.) Now I don't think I need to explain why I drew Hobart in a bikini top and fishnets. The question answers itself.

The next image is actually quite easy to explain. It's mm5charge and smol Maki. In another universe, Chargeman and Maki might have been integral to the SiIvaGunner lore. This specific image is just stolen from my piece of fan art called "Megaman 5 Brainrot (featuring Acidman)", which I posted in 2022. I still head canon that Megaman and Love Live take place in the same universe. Just because I think it's funny. And because I want to see funny robot masters interact with the girlies from Love Live. How do I explain this? It's like…. balancing out the world? The robot masters are almost all male (with a few exceptions) and the characters shown in Love Live are all female. How would Thanos say? "Perfectly balanced, as all things should be." Don't question my cool head canons, okay?

After that we have a poster featuring the Jazz Cats! I really really love the little animations that showed their backstory when KfAD2 first came out. I don't know if it's okay for me to say this, but I also really really enjoy the song "But Not You" written (in universe) by Doge and Naxx. The text is veeeeeeery questionable, but man, does it sound good regardless… And shoutouts to wolfman1405 for the heavenly vocals.

On the right of that is a missing poster for Wade L.D.. Nothing much to explain here I guess.

Left of that is the Voices shopping list, which lists flour, oil, yeast… Wait a minute…. All of these are ingredients for pizza dough! Guys, I'm beginning to think that this guy might like pizza.

On the very bottom of this column is Mario 7 Grand Dad himself, who has his hostile gaze directed at the Voice. I would be pissed off too if someone kept me locked in a glass tube for 7 years.

The last little window just shows the Vineshroom with the words "fecal funny" written under it.

And with that, it is done. The entire background thoroughly explained. (I may have gone a little overboard this time.)

It's been a while since I posted new art, huh? In the meantime, a lot has happened. As I said before, I started a new job, got a tattoo of Woodman on my leg (best idea I've ever had btw) and I also started watching MLP, which explains the Love Live / Idolmaster ponysonas, lol.

And that's all I wanted to say. I hope that the next piece of art isn't that far off. Jenny out. (I think this might have been the longest essay I've ever written here. I'm so sorry. By which I mean, I'm not sorry at all. I'm not forcing anyone to read this.)

[cinderswife]

currently rotating rose red around in my brain so here's some outfits i designed for her (this is pre-meeting cinders btw)! bonus design notes under the cut :3

nude

i knew immediately that i wanted rose to be short and built like a brick shithouse. she is dense and compact and impossible to knock over. also, she gets to be a bear girl because everyone in my ouatis au is an animal eared person. its a fun concept i saw trawling the tumblr tag and i have decided it is very canon.

absolutely covered in freckles

yes those are top surgery scars. very recent in fact! its a cross between unrealized gender things and the pain of breasts that are just. too big. always.

her tail is usually too small to be seen from this angle but i wanted to show off her tiny red puff

most of her scars are from military combat with the exception of the top surgery scars and the one on her left hand which came from when she punched a window at the age of 15 defending snow from one of their dads getting super duper upset b/c snow was starting to date

she is 4'10" and so proud of it. will kick your ass if you're a dick about it

pajamas

nothing much to say here, she just. doesn't care all that much. tank top and sweat pants are the perfect combo of temperatures for her.

also she wears heart patterned boxers and we love her for that

military work uniform

do you know how hard it is to design a military uniform when you don't usually give a shit about the military. i spend so many hours going down worldbuilding subreddits and forums before i figured out something i was happy with. anyways! this is a non-combative officer's work uniform (aka the uniform rose wore when she was commander of the prison cinders was in). i picked red because it's the color most strongly associated with cole's army, but i figure that soldiers in combat would have better camouflage built into their uniforms.

the patch on her left shoulder (the one with the deer) is the symbol for colonel. it's also mirrored on a smaller scale on her breast. cole's army uses animals to mark higher ranks

the other shoulder patch marks her current assignment

i liked white as an accent color because of its prevalence in the album. also it looks nice!

the sleeve stripes and the chevrons both indicate that she is a very important officer

the other patches on her breast are the simplified coat of arms for her noble house (the house of grimm) and all of the medals she has earned in her 11 years of service

military dress uniform

the fancy version of her uniform for Events and Public Appearances. it's a bit darker in tone for the sake of visual interest and has a lot more accessories. this one was a nightmare to color i stg but i'm super happy with the way it turned out.

you get to see all her medals! she has complicated feelings on them but they are shiny and look very nice so.

the stripes, chevrons, and deer are all the same as the work uniform for some easy visual shorthand of her rank

the only time rose will ever wear a tie or any other neck decoration because it's regulation.

i liked the way a black undershirt looked over a white one, no other reason lol

the bear medal is because the bear is a symbol of her noble family. most people have a cougar of some sort instead.

the sword and the lion are both special awards granted specifically by cole. the lion in particular came from her first deployment where she accidentally changed the tides on the invasion of the perrault (cinders' planet) and became a war hero/propaganda piece at 19

the boots have buckles. they are never quite tight enough and its annoying.

casual dress

off duty, rose wears crisp, well tailored masc outfits. she knows how to dress herself to look effortlessly important due to being raised noble but she doesn't think too hard about it.

she wears shorts instead of full pants whenever she can get away with it. snow hates this.

no she is not buttoning up all the way. why would you make her put this much effort into it. she's hotter with it undone

fun fact: i initially made her vest and shorts green but i decided that blue looked nicer

fancy dress

i've elected to go with a 1700s inspired look for the nobility. it's very fairytale-esque and also allows me to have fun with it! i wanted to do more embroidery, but i wound up not having the patience for such a thing. ah well, what i've got looks nice enough.

rose usually wears cool colors in her formal outfits. this purple is a particular favorite of hers because it goes really nicely with her hair and ears without being obnoxious

once again, rose out here avoiding any sort of neck accessory or hat. accessories that annoy her for $10,000

the lilac undershirt is not connected to the off-white trousers it's two separate pieces.

the gold accents cut a very striking figure and also look very pretty <3

the boots are supposed to be longer and pointier but idk how well i pulled that off aha

she's very handsome and i love her

[marinacourage]

It's true that beauty is subjective. But i don't know why I find Way so so pretty whenever he's on screen. Like take context out for a second and he looks sooo unreal and ethereal in EVERY SINGLE FRAME, even when he's doing some of most atrocious things. Maybe it's because of the type of role where he is sad and crying and lonely for like 95% of the time but I haven't been so smitten with any thai bl actor ever before. Even though Vegas was sexy and pathetic,( I was his hardcore fan btw), I didn't felt this level of attractiveness for his sad face at just first glance. I accidentally stumbled on ep 7 couch scene on YouTube and i had to check the drama. I didn't know he was the antagonist.😯 Why they had to cast such angelic face as villain, then give him most amazing outfits and film him so beautifully in pink and blues? Like for 11 episode that man was doing nothing except being sad and crying. that kind of role would most probably bore me otherwise if I do just surface level watching. But for some reason I can't take my eyes off everytime he's on screen. I'm so sorry I think he's too beautiful that I'm being gaslit by the show into liking him the most.

nut, way’s actor, has the face that makes you do a double take for sure. there’s something very alluring about him, especially in this role. his big sad eyes are a killer, his fake smile is so bitchy i might die, but i also would’ve loved for him to show someone (pete pls) his genuine laugh because he looks like a fox when he laughs and it’s so pretty! instant knock out.

i really really love vegas’ face, i absolutely loved him in kp, but way is a character that really showed me what pretty privilege and pretty bias means and how strong it can be. the way i turn a blind eye on his wrongdoings is on another level completely. he SA babe? well, you see, he’s sad, he’s having a hard time, he needs love, i stand with my cancelled babygirl 🥹💀

[jerzwriter]

What's the best and worst concert you have seen?

Hi Nonny!

Hmm. This is a hard one, because I love different concerts for different reasons, so I'll tell you some of my favorites, and I know I'm forgetting some here, for sure!

The Best

U2 - All You Can't Leave Behind Tour - October 2001 - This was at Madison Square Garden, one month after the 9/11 attacks. This area was just shaken at that time, and there was so much loss and sorrow. I remember taking the ferry over to the City, and there were posters of the "missing" all over the mood was so heavy. Well, the show was electric, like their shows always are, but even more than usual. I think everyone collectively needed that release, and we got to share it together, and it was just electric - a feeling I can't explain. There were many memorable moments courtesy of the band, and I'll never forget that night.

Hozier - Unreal Unearth Tour - September 2023 - it was the first time I got to see Hozier live, and the best part was I got to share it with my daughter (also a huge fan). It was the earlier part of his UU tour, and he was just on fire. His Dad even performed a few songs with him on stage and, when he sang Abstract (Psychopomp), I really lost my proverbial shit. lol (I also saw him in Forest Hills and Bethell Woods for this tour - and they were both phenomenal, but the MSG show in 2023 was my favorite).

Taylor Swift - The Eras Tour - May 2023 - Honestly, The Eras Tour was unlike any other show I've ever seen - and it's almost unfair to compare it to any other. It wasn't a concert, it was a production, it was epic and I consider myself so honored to have been able to see it live.

Honorable mentions: Billy Joel & Elton John - Face to Face Tour - July 1994); U2 - The Ritz - 1985(?); Bon Jovi New Year's Eve Concert - Brendan Byrne Arena - 1986; Noah Kahan - Stick Season Tour - Hard Rock Hotel - October 2022, and Radio City (I saw the June and August shows in 2023, but June's was superior! lol) There are more - but I'll stop here lol

The Worst

Luckily, I don't have as many here! lol I guess I've blocked them from my mind, because I don't really remember too many awful ones.

Back in the 80s, I saw The Cars and I didn't enjoy the show. The performance was great musically, but Ric Ocasic (lead singer) literally said "Good Evening" to the crowd and no one in the band engaged again in any way and I thought that was bull shit.

I also took my sister to see Hall & Oates (who we had seen together a lot during our tween/teen years) for her birthday in 2017, and they sucked. Some older bands still sound great live, but they were not one of them - Daryl Hall, in particular, was horrible. It's ashame because they were really good back in the day.

Thanks for the walk down memory lane, Nonny! lol

[clownhunterbebop]

Unreal Unearth postcards

track list + lyrics compiled

1. De Selby (part 1): (here)

At last,

When all of the world is asleep

You take in the blackness of air;

The likes of a darkness so deep

That God at the start couldn’t bear

2. De Selby (part 2): (here)

What you’re given

What you live in

Darling it finds a way to live in you

And your heart, love

Has such darkness

I feel it in the corners of the room

3. First Time: (here)

Remember once I told you about

How before I heard it from your mouth

My name would always hit my ears

As such an awful sound

And the soul, if that’s what you’d call it

Uneasy ally of the body

It felt nameless as a river

Undiscovered underground

4. Francesca: (here)

If I could hold you for a minute

Darling, I would do it again

I would not change it each time,

Heaven is not fit to house a love

Like you and I

5. I, Carrion (Icarian): (here)

I’ve reached a rarer height now

That I can confirm

All our weight is just a burden

Offered to us by the world

And though I burn

How could I fall?

I am lifted by every word you say to me

If anything could fall at all

It’s the world that falls away from me

6. Eat Your Young: (here)

Come and get some

Skinning the children for a war drum

Putting food on the table selling bombs and guns

It's quicker and easier to eat your young

7. Damage Gets Done: (here)

You and I had nothing to show

But the best of the world

In the palm of our hand and darling

I haven't felt it since then

I don't know how the feeling ended

But I know being reckless and young

Is not how the damage gets done

8. Who We Are: (here)

Darling, we sacrificed

We gave our time to something undefined

This phantom life sharpens like an image

But it sharpens like a knife

We’re born at night

So much of our life

Is just carving through the dark

To get so far,

And the hardest part

Is who we are

It’s who we are

9. Son of Nyx: (here)

...

...

...

10. All Things End: (here)

All things end

All that we intend is scrawled in sand

It slips right through our hands

And just knowing

That everything will end

Should not change our plans

When we begin again

11. To Someone From A Warm Climate (Uiscefhuaraithe): (here)

'Uiscefhuarithe'

The feel of coldness only water brings

There are some things that no-one

Teaches you, love

That come natural as a dream

You didn't know you were in

And darling, all my dreaming

Is only put to shame

And darling, all my dreaming

Has only been given a name

12. Butchered Tongue: (here)

So far from home

To have a stranger call you ‘darling’

And have your guarded heart

Be lifted like a child up by the hand

In some town that just means

‘Home’ to them

With no translator left to sound

A butchered tongue

Still singing here above the ground

13. Anything But: (here)

In a shot I’d swap my body for a body of water

Worry the cliffside top as a wave crashing over

I’d lower the world in a flood

Or better yet I’d cause a drought

If I was a riptide,

I wouldn’t take you out

14. Abstract (psychopomp): (here)

The poor thing in the road

Its eye still glistening

The cold wet of your nose

The Earth from a distance

See how it shines

See how it shines

15. Unknown (Nth): (here)

You know the distance never made

A difference to me

I swam a lake of fire, I’d have walked

Across the floor of any sea,

Ignored the vastness between

All that can be seen

And all that we believe

So I thought you were like an angel to me

16. First Light (here)

The sky set to burst

The gold and the rust

The colour erupts

You filling my cup

The sun coming up

Like I lived my whole life

Before the first light

[ofoceansandtombsanew]

Ngl, I dunno if missed a post on the lore but...what's the ship name? I don't think I noticed/read abt it (I did read the lores but my brain's a bit foggy so a few details might've went over my head).

Now...*inhales deeply* I simply demand to know if Ace had feelings for you as kids? When was that moment of realization for him? What was the pining like? Who's more expressive when it comes to their feelings?

P.S.

I told you that I'd come sprinting for the lore.

fdjfnsdkjfn hi cyyyyyy- i still sprinted to your inbox first muwahahahaha

ace/nyla nation has two ship names: flaming pearls and then there's sea otters. sea otters came from hash talking about how cute it is that they hold hands to keep from drifting apart while asleep! and flaming pearls i picked because aside from having complementary emojis, i think of ace as a flaming pearl considering how pearls are made but also because he's the fire, i'm the ocean obsessed nerd

so you'll find things for the two of us under either of those tags uwu

i thought about just combining our names, but nyla and ace are both so short that i couldn't think of any pleasant to the ear combinations fjdnfkdjf

we both had mutual (albeit unrealized on both ends) crushes on each other as kids. my weirdness eventually charmed him as we became friends but i'd say he didn't really get hit with the crush beam fully until i told him i'd join his crew and that is kinda long so imma screenshot old discord messages i said about it

then like 30 minutes later, sabo and luffy show up and luffy just drops the lore reveal of the century that roger is ace's dad and he worries that i'm gonna change my mind (which i didn't even think that for a second). i do take off with luffy to stay with naguri for a week though because i don't want him to be by himself and it's when sabo and ace finally join in does he finally work up the nerve to ask if i still want to be part of his crew and i'm like "obviously 🤨why'd you think i changed my mind?"

but it didn't really turn into love until the luffy getting oneshotted by a bear incident, which is also gonna just be screenshots so this post doesn't get ridiculously long

like he wakes up and sees i'm still there and his heartbeat is hard at work

i'd say the timeline in general is

10 years old, me - the crushing starts 11 years old, me - gets shot by cupid's arrow recently turned 11 years old, ace - the crushing starts still 11 years old, ace - gets shot by cupid's arrow

we'll label it him falling harder but i fell first

the pining is... definitely not realized by other of us with us mutually considering our relationship a very close friendship because we grew up together and have been through a lot together. but underneath those exchanges is a very clear romantic undertone that even luffy noticed back when we were kids ☠️(and that is just embarrassing. LUFFY? i'll see myself out) (if there's any consolation to myself at least, i do realize my feelings first and i do confess first. eventually)

the pining definitely differs from the dawn island era to the pirate era. back home, there was never really any 'competition' for each other's time and attention so there never really were moments of jealousy or anxiety, so when we're pirates despite enjoying the other being appreciated by other people, there's a tinge of missing for simpler times when it was just us in our little 'platonic' world back home

i'd say we're both even in expressing love in our own way during the pining and established relationship eras

one is riddled with lingering touches, communicative looks and shared grins... and one is riddled with all of those things but with more kisses exchanged here and there too uwu