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[noctiva]

hielo this is the birthday boyfriend thingy anon

can I ask what anons ARE open? I think the emoji anon ideas r so cute n I would luv 2 be part of the club :3

okay here is what is taken! so anything that’s not in the list below is free reign (I think I got them all if I forgot u pls correct me I’m so sorry)

- 🐇

- 🦇

- 🪓

- ☀️

- 🌸✨

- 🕰️

- 👽

- 🦑

- 🦝

- ☎️

- 🐰

- 🪼

- 🐞

- 🪦

- 🪽

[avvidstarion]

i've started watching yellowjackets (i'm a couple of episodes into season two) and I am enjoying it but also they have made some writing choices that make no sense to me

[alllgator-blood]

I s2g if you add the layers of these comic pages together, it's over 350 layers. THIS is why I don't do full color for my comics lmaooo- ANYWAY EVERYONE HERE HAS AN AU APPARENTLY, SO THIS IS A BRIEF GLIMPSE INTO MINE. I don't know what to call it yet but I'm thinking of calling it "famous prophets" because 1. I like that car seat headrest song, 2. it's about shamura who is prophetic, 3. it's about trying to outrun fate with the Power of Love (and failing. Like the song!!!). It takes place when all the bishops were teens/kids during the age of hundreds of gods at war, and were trying to survive as a family.

I'm really excited to work on stuff for it but it's all gonna be drawn out of order. Maybe I'll write a full explanation of what it's gonna be about when I have a better idea...I want to channel my eldest sibling angst in a productive way, and maybe establish a QPP between shamura and a completely random npc everyone forgets about <3 also kallamar is trans too cause I said so. I'll do a comic about it eventually. Instead of an absence of gender he has TOO much gender. It simply cannot be contained.

I like that nonbinary genders are normalized in cult of the lamb to the point where nobody singles anyone out for being a they/them, it's not like "THIS IS MY SIBLING SHAMURA. THEY ARE NONBINARY AND USE THEY/THEM. ALRIGHT BACK TO KILLING YOU", it's just like "don't you fucking dare make my poor sibling wake up from their nap to kick your ass. Cause they deserve better than this."

But at the same time I like having the freedom to be more specific, and say "shamura is voidpunk and their gender is best described as the feeling that overtakes you during the first snow of the year, when everything outside is deathly quiet". This comic is actually derived from the time I was walking through a forest that's been torn down for a few years, and came out to my little sister as trans. I must've been like 13 or 14 and she didn't really get it as a 10 year old, but it was better than my mom FREAKING OUT about me coming out. So it was a nice little bonding moment between just the two of us. I don't have a good memory so I don't recall how it went unfortunately...

Now, the climate is a little different. My sis tried out transmasculinity for maybe 5-6 years before feeling happier as a woman, my mom is trying to be Based and flaunt her Woke trans children, and my dad remembered "oh yeah trans natives have existed before colonization. Maybe me being transphobic is a product of my culture being erased" and has gotten better about calling me the right thing. I have a mustache (thanks pcos!!) and wear skirts and am not a repressed "tomboy" teenager anymore. But I can't help but wonder what would've happened if I could've been like shamura and just...been nonbinary without people being fucking weird about it. Or been born as a badass war god who will tear you to shreds before you can perceive my birth sex. I know they're fictional but they are my ultimate gender envy GRRRRR BARK BARK BARK

Here is the secret image for this post- I listen to mostly EDM when I draw cause it keeps the energy up, but as I was finishing up shamura's poetry part, I was like THESE ARE JUST KMFDM LYRICS so I made this

[mediacircuspod]

(this is part 1) (part 2) (part 3) (part 4)

Buddy Cop au where Noel and Oscar stumble into each other both looking for signs of where Arthur/John could have ended up in New York and realize that they should team up to continue the search by retracing Arthur’s steps to find more information.

And god damn, do they not really like one another all that much.

*

(both of them trying to see if Daniel or his place have any clues)

Oscar: Detective.

Noel: Father.

Both, suspiciously: …what are you doing here?

*

(Riding the elevator back to the Order meeting theater)

Noel: So what happened to your arm?

Oscar: I couldn’t help noticing the new neck-wound.

*

(Driving Daniel’s “borrowed” car to Addison)

Noel: …You ever meet John? It’s just you haven’t mentioned him.

Oscar, eye twitching as he holds the map in his one hand: No.

*

(The patrons at The Red Right Hand start to do their freak dance)

Noel: Is this considered like, a God thing? Holy intervention or whatever?

Oscar, slamming back a full glass of disgusting home-made Brandy: Not really, no.

Oscar, after sitting and watching for a few minutes: …Actually.

*

(A random bar after a lead came up empty)

Noel: What’re you even trying to find him for, Father?

Oscar: Not that it’s a third-rate detectives business, but… I think Arthur’s my purpose.

Noel: Don’t quote me on this, bc the only gods I believe in are the freaks who go bump in the night, but isn’t the big guy supposed to be your purpose?

Oscar, sighing: Aye. Sometimes he shows us our path, and I think mine is supposed to lead me back to Arthur. To save him maybe. Or to help where I can.

Noel, putting some pieces together: uh-huh. So is this obsession in a culty way or a queer way?

*

(In some creepy ass basement)

Noel, running his hand over a tattered yellow book with the King’s symbol on it, face flickering between longing and hatred: The King was always so yellow, too bright. But John, when I got to see him, he was golden, nothing like that yellow prick he came from.

Noel, opening the book and scoffing: nothing gold can stay, though, right?

Oscar, still a little pissed off about the cult comment: …do u think you might be gay for the voice in Arthur’s head or something?

[that1emowitch]

One shot suggestion: Dick finding out about joyfire bc him finding out his little brother is dating his EX (and honestly probably his other ex too, let’s be real) IS SO FUNNY

OMG I LOVE THIS IDEA!!!

(also can I just say I also love ur username <3)

This isn't short enough to be a drabble but not exactly too long either, it's 760 words, so make of that what you will. Here it is!

TW: Jason's usual level of swearing but milder

"YOU'RE DATING MY EXES??!"

Dick stood in Jason's doorway at the Manor, eyes wide. This was one of those rare times when Jason was staying here, just for a few days, mostly for Alfred's sake. His friends (or so Dick thought) Roy and Kori had joined him— for reasons unknown.

Dick was... feeling slightly awkward with them being around, Kori more so. He was quite civil, buddies, even, with Roy— after all, they'd only dated for a week or so. But Kori... their relationship had not ended well, at all. But Jason refused to unless his Outlaws did, so Dick let it slide.

He'd gone up to call them down for dinner, at Alfred's bidding, going to Jason's room first... to find Jason sitting on Kori's lap while she cradled him, and Roy french-kissing Jason.

"YOU'RE DATING MY EXES??!" The words tore out of him as he stood with his eyes wide, trying to process what he'd just seen.

Jason turned beet red, suddenly jumping away from the red heads. Kori sat cross-legged, smiling as if nothing had happened, while Roy wore a smug grin.

Dick turned to them, his voice high-pitched with disbelief. "AND YOU ARE DATING MY LITTLE WING?"

"I ain't little, Dickface," Jason scoffed from the corner, looking downright embarrassed.

"I don't see the problem," Kori stood from the bed, towering over all three men. "You and I, or you and Roy are not dating anymore. And we are all adults. And we have the love for each other. Why would we not date?"

A unbelieving sound escaped Dick. He turned to Roy, eyes flaming. "You. I know for a fact how vulgar you get in a relationship. Have you done it with my baby brother?"

From across the room he heard Jason's choked gasp, but he paid it no mind.

"Dude. Your 'baby brother' is 24." Roy shrugged, resting a hand on Dick's shoulder. "Why're you getting so worked up over it?"

"I'm not— no, no, I'm not worked up!" Dick scoffed. He faced Jason, pouting. "You. You stole my exes!"

Finally, Jason managed to get control over his expression and forced a smirk. "Yeah. Maybe they just know who's better."

"Yes, Jason is a much better of the partner than you, Dick," Kori pointed out not-so-helpfully.

Roy finally registered Dick's bloodthirsty expression and backed away, hands lifted. "Whoa, hey, man, chill. Seriously."

"I am chill," Dick snapped, glaring at him. He turned back to Jason, who was clearly trying to appear cool and intimidating, and pointed an accusing finger. "You have so much to explain. But right now Alfred wants you all down for dinner."

Then he left the trio without a word.

A bit after dinner, Dick finally found Jason alone in the library, reading some book titled 'Jane Eyre'.

"Jason." Dick walked towards him, expression a forced calm. "I am... sorry about how I reacted earlier."

Jason looked up from his book, an eyebrow raised. "No, you're not."

"No, I'm not," Dick agreed, sitting beside his brother. "How could you not tell me?"

"I didn't tell the rest of the Bat-cult either. You're not special." Jason leaned back, carefully placing a bookmark in the book before putting it aside.

Dick took this as a sign that Jason wanted to talk. "Jaybird... I'm your big brother, you know I love you, right?"

Jason looked away, muttering something that sounded like a mix of "Fuck off" and "Yeah, I know."

"It's just... If you'd told me, yeah, I might have freaked out at first. But I just want you to be happy, in the end. And if you're happy with my exes..." Dick sighed. "I guess I'll just have to live with it."

Jason turned back to his brother, glaring slightly. "Stop calling them your exes. That's my girlfriend and boyfriend you're talking about."

Dick winced. "Yeah. Sorry, sorry, I just... Do you just have a thing for redheads? You had that schoolboy crush on Babs when you were, like, 13. You were dating Artemis of Bana-Mighdall. And now you're dating Roy and Kori."

Jason scoffed. "You're one to talk. You've dated Babs, Kori, Roy, Wally West... Do I really have to go on?"

Dick chuckled, laying an arm around Jason's shoulders. "Guess it runs in the family, huh?"

"We're adopted, asshole," Jason grumbled, but leaned into Dick's touch.

After a long beat of silence, Jason spoke up again. "I also dated Rose Wilson for a while. She is not a redhead."

An amused laugh escaped Dick, and he ruffled Jason's hair lovingly. "Yeah, yeah."

[veespee]

okay i have no idea how i haven't done this yet, but here are my HABIT headcanons:3 enjoy!

HABIT headcanons

-He would blast romantic old jazz music while killing his victims. Which I know technically ISN'T his music taste (except for the fact that he likes Frank Sinatra) but i just have a vision of him cutting a person up while singing ‘Coney Island Baby’ very casually. (hence why i put the song hehe)

-Eats like a rabid dog. Straight up, his head moving back and forth as he tears his food up with his teeth. Only with meat though, with every other food he eats like a person, which would be pretty jarring.

-Really enjoys watching horror films (big surprise wow) but mostly snuff films. He's a little freak so of course in his twisted mind the fake gore horror movies use is boring, so he watches snuff films. Also i think he'd enjoy historical documentaries, mostly about dictators (i wonder which one) or in general just,,, bad events in history. Also true crime documentaries, especially if it's people he has possessed before just for the thrill.

-Also, I think he'd be one of those killers that taunt the police. Like the Zodiac Killer, he will leave creepy notes or clues around the police stations. Of course, they can't find an actual person named ‘HABIT’ existing, but HABIT would keep the facade that he was just a regular human serial killer taunting them. Thus, in literally every place he would start a spree, there would speculation. “Maybe ‘HABIT’ is multiple people? I mean, it can't be one person, how can they move around so quickly? Or maybe it's a satanist cult, sacrificing people. No, no, maybe it's a mafia taking people out.” And of course, he'd eat the hysteria and confusion up.

-Names all of his weapons. Of course we have Rex the Chainsaw, but I think he'd also name every single weapon. And it'd be some silly shit like his hunting knife would be called Betty.

-He talks to Vinnie about historical figures like he knew them personally. Like randomly, he'll just be on the couch, then start reminiscing about John F. Kennedy. "Poor Johnny didn't deserve that bullet through his head, shame." Also I think he would just,,, randomly lie about shit. Like "yeah i used to drink beer with Rob Zombie, he's a chill guy." and Vinnie just knows he's lying but doesn't dare question it.

[thewinter-eden]

psycho | han jisung

Pairings: Han x OC, Minho x OC

Summary: Anna finds herself trapped in the captivity of a psychopath with numerous other prisoners. The other girls who have been there for a while have been starved and abused, and Anna is obviously headed for the same fate.

Han Jisung, one of the prisoners, a sweet and handsome boy, serves as caretaker for the girls after sessions of abuse. As he and Anna grow closer, struggling to find their way home, the truth about her captor and his plans unfold in the worst ways possible.

cross posted on AO3 under the_winter_eden and Wattpad under alone-at-last.

Genre: horror, thriller

Rating: mature, explicit

Status: ALL CHAPTERS POSTED (20 chapters)

Content warnings: explicit descriptions of violence/torture, mentions of sa, mentions of rape, hurt/comfort, heavy angst, lots of sadness, death, murder, mentions of suicide, starvation, fear, insecurities, hopelessness.

PLEASE READ INFO BELOW

Chapters

1 : hannie 2 : blood soaked cloth 3 : virtues and vices 4 : missing persons 5 : the first one 6 : the knife 7 : the new girl 8 : stay with me 9 : punished 10 : moments in the dark 11 : the pink door 12 : he already knew 13 : the society 14 : I already did 15 : i've got you 16 : here's looking at you 17 : master of levity 18 : never again 19 : all over soon 20 : nothing you can do

THE END

note :

I suck at summaries - they're my kryptonite.

characters :

disclaimer : age manipulation and ambiguity for sake of story.

[the man I'm a little bit afraid of] Bang Chan

??yo, captain of police

[the man I would work out with but never spot on bench press] Seo Changbin

??yo, police lieutenant

[this freaking muse of a man] Hwang Hyunjin

??yo, shop owner

[the other man I'm slightly afraid of] Kim Seungmin

22yo, police officer

[the guy who tricked me into SKZ cult] Lee Felix

??yo, shop owner

[this mini mafioso of a man] Yang Jeongin

??yo, prisoner of Cain (Han's little brother)

[the man who literally haunts my dreams] Han Jisung

22yo, prisoner of Cain

[the man who hurts my feelings regularly] Lee Minho

24yo, police officer

[fill in your own mental image, guys, idk] Anna Park

18yo, prisoner of Cain

[fill in a second mental image ig] Cass Young

20yo, prisoner of Cain

a/n :

don't come for me. I know this is dark but I had to motivate myself to write this story as a backstory for one of my other projects, so I had to transpose SKZ over it or I would never get it done. In ten years, if any of you see this plot in a sucky indie book on a random Goodwill bookshelf, no you didn't.

a/n 2 :

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

Or something like that.

so...I don't actually know SKZ? [If I personally knew Han and Lee Know well enough to accurately represent them in a story like this I would—] so, yeah, anyways those guys are real people who do great things in the entertainment industry and the characters named after them in this story are fake people. Hope that clears things up.

tag list: (Comment a request to be added or removed)

@kayleefriedchicken @eastjonowhere @mysterysold @velvetmoonlght

[dualityvn]

Respectfully, your two little guys have been spinning around in my brain like a microwave since I first played several months ago. I haven’t read absolutely every post on this blog but definitely enough to do some light reading before bed for a solid week lol. I love them both! The concept is so unique and the boys so interesting. Other than the obvious flaws (but this is fiction so I’m suspending disbelief on how I’d deal with literal murder) I feel like I’d genuinely be able to connect with both of them which is why thinking about different scenarios with them has brought some fun and comfort to me. I’m curious, other than the ones you’ve already talked about on the blog, has there been any other AUs that you’ve thought of for them that you haven’t shared before? I know some common ones people think of are like zombie apocalypse, coffee shop (although that’s not much different from what it already is), college, etc. Any shows or video games that made you wonder how they’d fair if they were put in them?

I'm happy to hear you've enjoyed my characters this much <3

I do have a cult AU, in which Keith and Tenebris are raised as godsents rather than freaks of nature.

I've never really thought of inserting them into other media, though. That's an interesting thing to think about.

[barrenclan]

prowl and deepdark sitting in a tree. K-I-L-L-I-N-G. first comes DEATH, then comes WORSHIP, then comes a little blue cat in a barren wasteland...

i really hope that there's more prowl/deepdark stuff in the last few issues. i love those freaks i hope one of them explodes <3

i'd love to know how their story would end.. deers can get kinda old but being in a murderous cult will cut the years down i imagine, even if you are as strong as he is

They may be freaks but they're my freaks.

Deepdark and Prowl are already quite old for their respective species; in human terms Deepdark is about well past middle aged and Prowl is fully a senior. The true reveal is that it's been toxic old man yaoi the whole time.

You're very welcome for the Doe of Deadwood recommendation. Obviously your next step is to read the rest of Songdog's comics.

[disarraydoodlez]

Christmas List Erased Day 25: Navtah Christmas Tree!

This was the piece I was personally looking forward to all month. Naven and Yoomtah are my absolute favorites that refuse to leave my head.

Now I may finally rest and turn into dust! Jk, but wonderful challenge I only despise my past self for doing a little! This has really been an awesome holiday season for us (despite the self torture), but we really learned a lot and had loooads of fun!

Thanks for everyone who gave us support on this Christmas adventure! You support rarely kept me away from my phone and its absolutely crazy how far this dumb little challenge got, like we got followed and reposted by Jello himself!!! We literally couldn't stop freaking out for 3 days.

If y'all want to know what we might be working on next we're planning to keep making stuff but not quite as detailed or time consuming as this last month of drawings has been. We'll be doing fanart of quite a few games and animated series we enjoy such as murder drones or cult of the lamb (the game I definitely didn't play for too long and delayed this post by 2 days for). Prolly also gonna have an ee doodle page cuz why not.

If you guys want any more content from us and refuse to wait then we have just set up a patreon where we will mostly be posting our old art from a home epithet erased game, and also releasing art early. Y'all can even give us suggestions on what to draw next! Its only a dollar, so please do hop in! This could help Kiri pay me back my 6 dollars!

[goblincow]

:// GREEN MILK | #006 | heresy surprise

MÖRK BORG: Heresy Supreme interrupts this newsletter in an act of spooky serendipity to demand that you bear witness to "what if you animated Mörk Borg, set it to a sick soundtrack, and also it's a video game like Darkest Dungeon?"

—

Also inside:

[X] Design insights from my experience attending a local hobbyist convention;

[X] Dive deep with SAVE VS DESPAIR — Mörk Borg: a Holistic Retrospective (8-part analysis coming in October);

[X] Prepare your bones with NASTY BASTARDS: a Slapstick Horror Game for 3-5 Weird Little Freaks (a super-lite beginner-friendly hack for playing Mörk Borg adventures);

[X] Witness the final days of Sourisle in WAIL OF THE ROT KING, a depraved playset adventure of religious horror for #mörktober.

—

Clearly it's gonna be a busy month, so to make sure I really push it over the edge:

If you can help me induct 77 neophytes into my newsletter cult by the end of October, I will burn my copy of Mörk Borg – THE BASILIKS HAVE SPOKEN!

So if the embers of a beleagured arsonist still smolder in your soul: send this newsletter to someone that you think would like it; share it in a discord with your gaggle of nerds; or link to it in your own newsletter!

[petewentzsvaginabones]

intro post

can’t believe i had to bring this shit back, cuz some of yall are weird asf

greetings and salutations, i’m Max

About me: i play guitar and sing, im most likely autistic (ive done two years of research and all my friends with a diagnosis are begging me to get an eval) i have chronic joint pain and im just a silly guy

DNI- Racists, Homophobes, rad-queers, Bigots generally unpleasant people, anyone younger than 13, DSMP fans, Tx2 fans. I block freely lol 

‼️‼️‼️I AM A MINOR‼️‼️‼️

important dates and shit:

Deftones- March 29th 2025

MCR- August 15th 2025

status: on n off

Current Vibe: sleepy

Lyric that i’m feelin rn: “im not obsessed, far worse i’m fine” -Flawless Execution, PTV

song that fits the vibe:

current hyperfixations: 

heathers

P!ATD (pre-split ofc)

FNAF‼️‼️

past hyperfixations:

the grinch

monster high

anime (mha demon slayer ect)

cavetown

hamilton

greek and norse mythology

satanism

catholicism

cults 

ghosts

sewing

crust punk fashion

scene fashion

scene music

It (2017, 2019)

SFX makeup

Gorillaz

stranger things

gravity falls

cirque du freak

asl

Harry Potter (i was 8)

beetle juice the musical

heart stopper

the little mermaid

SIX the musical

FOB

Queen (band)

The Beatles

Goth music and culture 

favorite media:

Will Trent (books and show)

BBC Sherlock

Heartstopper

Dan and Phil (DanAndPhilGAMES, DanAndPhilCRAFTS, Daniel Howell, AmazingPhil)

Kaos

Cirque Du Freak

the Saw franchise (i’ve watched all of them at least three times)

Childs Play/the Chucky movies

Coraline

Nightmare Before Christmas 

The Black Parade Is Dead!

Heathers (musical and movie)

The Crow (1993)

Bohemian Rhapsody 

A Hard Days Night 

Beetlejuice (musical and first movie)

Hamilton

Six The Musical

Shrek (1, 2, 3, and the musical, 4 is bs and unhappiness)

Flatliners (the one with Kiefer Sutherland)

RHPS

Bodies (netflix show)

special interest: Music (playing and listening)

bands/artists I listen to: 

MCR, PTV, SWS, Paramore, Blink-182, Green Day, Misfits, Ramones, The Cramps, Radiohead, Pixies, FOB, FIR, Weezer, Nirvana, Deftones, Frank Iero, The Beatles, Queen, David Bowie, Roger Taylor, George Harrison, Paul McCartney, John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix, The Rolling Stones, Eric Clapton, Elton John, Wings, Pink Floyd, Gorillaz, Dolly Parton, SOAD, Tame Impala, Peter Gundry, Lil Darkie, Rob Zombie, McCafferty, The Cure, TV Girl, Dead Original, Grateful Dead, Dead Kennedys, Slipknot, ICP, Korn, Panic! At The Disco, Bauhaus

^me lolz

[silent-stories]

𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌 𝐀𝐅𝐀𝐑 - 𝟓

Pairing: Eddie x F!Reader

Summary: Eddie finds a note in his locker and doesn't know that someone has a plan to destroy his relationship with you.

Warnings: mention of drugs

Part 4

"Thanks for staying Friday night and helping me with all that stuff, really." You said as you sat next to Eddie on a bench at the back of the school.

It was a quite hidden place, but not to hide but just to not be disturbed and have a more intimate moment, with just the two of you.

The sun was shining that morning and you noticed that when Eddie's pale skin was kissed by the rays of its light you could see many small freckles scattered across his nose and cheeks.

They were almost invisible, you yourself had never noticed them before but they were there.

And you liked them.

You found yourself wondering if they were more visible in summer, if they were also on the skin hidden by his clothes, if they covered his back and what it would be like to trace imaginary lines with your fingers to connect them.

"Don't worry, I did it with pleasure." He smiled as he rolled up the sleeves of his shirt and your gaze immediately fell on the bats tattooed on his arm.

"Thanks for asking me to come." He added after a few moments, his words little more than a low whisper, an almost shy edge to his voice.

"Thanks for asking me to come?" You repeated his words bewildered, perhaps a little too melodramatic. "You absolutely saved my night, which would have been boring and lonely without you."

He chuckled. "Then I think we're even."

"Yeah, I guess we are."

Eddie pulled a metal lighter and a pack of cigarettes from his jeans pocket.

"Do you mind if I smoke?"

"Go ahead." You reassured him before he lit a cigarette, before bringing it to his lips.

"Anyway, Bones has been sitting all weekend where you were, on my bed. I think she misses you, you know? She probably likes you more than me."

"That means I'll have to go back to your house sooner or later." He laughed. "Just for Bones, of course."

"Oh sure. I know she'd like to have another movie night with you soon or just, I don't know, listen to music and talk about the meaning of life at 3 in the morning. Maybe without half school at my house."

Eddie looked at you with a doubtful expression. Was he really still wondering what you were trying to say?

"Yes Eddie, I'm inviting you to my house." You laughed shaking your head. "Friday or Saturday night, maybe? What do you think?"

Eddie stared at you with his big dark eyes, almost hesitant, and for a moment you thought he was saying he didn't want to come, but then a huge grin appeared on his lips before he covered it with his hand, bringing the cigarette to his mouth.

But you saw it, you never missed it when he smiled. You always liked to see him happy.

"Yeah. Yeah, I would like to."

You smiled. "Good."

"Good." He repeated blowing some smoke out of his mouth, the ghost of a smile still on it.

"So, did you seem them?" Jason asked as he sat across from Aaron at the noisy high school cafeteria table.

"Who?" Asked the other before stuffing half a sausage into his mouth.

"Y/N and the freak. At the party. I was dead drunk but I remember them. Holding hands." He added the last part with a grimace, to express his disgust.

"Gross. Don't remind me." Aaron commented, his eyes wandering around the cafeteria, finding Eddie at the usual table eating in the company of his friends

All losers, just like him.

Aaron spent hours spreading the word about the party, getting all those people over to your house to spend time with you, and when the party finally started you were stayed on the couch the entire time until he came and you completely disappeared, with him.

He ruined everything, as always.

Jason had explained who Eddie Munson was, Aaron knew everything about him: he was a drug dealer, he was part of a satanic cult and listened to some kind of music praising his demonic activities, he was poor, he lived in a smelly trailer, just like him, he no longer had his parents. They probably didn't want someone like him around them either.

Maybe he didn't know everything, but it was all he needed to know that Eddie "the freak" Munson wasn't a good person and he didn't even want to see him around you.

Atound the girl he'd wanted from the first moment he'd seen her.

When he had seen him arrive at the party he had thought that someone had played a joke on him and had invited him, he thought maybe it was you.

And you really had invited him, but it wasn't a joke and when Aaron saw you holding hands he nearly spat out his drink.

You were friends. And he found that disgusting.

"Someone told me they stayed in her room all night. You think they fucked?" Jason asked.

"Okay, stop it!" Aaron blurted out. "I don't know what they did but I have a plan."

The girl he had a crush on since he moved to that shitty town couldn't end up with a sucker like Eddie.

"A plan for what?" Jason raised his eyebrows.

"To push them away, whatever they have going on, I don't like it. And then Y/N will be mine."

Aaron was like Jason, they both wanted what they wanted when they wanted and they thought they were the best at everything they did.

The only difference was that Jason acted without thinking and wasn't as smart as he thought he was, but Aaron could calculate, manipulate people and be convincing.

And that was what made him more dangerous.

Eddie opened his locker and immediately a note fell to the floor.

Before picking it up he looked around suspiciously, it wouldn't be the first time someone slipped some notes with insults written on them into his locker.

Instead, when he took it in his hands and opened it, above it he read:

"The bench in the woods, Today, 4am"

Eddie knew what it was right away, or at least he thought he knew, at the time: someone wanted to buy drugs after school and the woods were the perfect place, away from other people and far enough from school.

That afternoon, Eddie waited for about half an hour sitting on that bench, his old lunchbox filled with various narcotic substances next to him.

When he had lost hope of anyone showing up, a voice made him turn around.

"You can put that stuff away, I'm not here for that." Aaron walked up to the bench with his hands in the pockets of his jeans, casually.

"Then why are you here?" Eddie asked, getting defensive.

He didn't like Aaron. He didn't like the way he looked at you like you were a piece of meat, and the way she looked at him, like he was garbage. He didn't like his fake laugh and mean smile.

"To talk about Y/N." Aaron sat across from Eddie, his green eyes colder than usual as they scanned Eddie. "I wanted to ask you not to sell drugs to her, you know I care about her and I don't want her... to end up in a bad circle."

"She, um- I never sold her anything."

"Oh, you didn't? Well, she told me she'll soon ask you to sell her some of...your stuff." He uttered the last word with disgust.

"I'm not sure she uses that kind of stuff." Eddie couldn't figure out where Aaron was trying to get at. "I'm not sure she smoke at all."

"Of course she does! She got close to you because she wanted to buy from you, and she thought that if you became friends a little, maybe you would give her a discount." He said, as if it were a matter of course that you would never approach someone like Eddie except for having something in return.

Eddie felt a weird sensation in the pit of his stomach. It couldn't be true.

You didn't start talking to him just because you wanted to buy drugs from him.

You weren't the only person who sat next to him in class because you wanted to buy drugs from him.

You hadn't spent all night watching movies with him while there was a party at your own house because you wanted to buy drugs from him.

You weren't the only person at school other than the Hellfire kids and the guys in his band who didn't treat him like a complete waste of space, showing him your kindness and affection every time you were with him, just because you wanted to buy drugs from him.

Right?

When Eddie had realized he was in love with you, months and months before, he thought he had no chance with you, that you didn't even know his name.

He thought the amazing girl Dustin always talked about would never even stop in the hallway to talk to him for fear that someone at school would see her with the "freak".

Over time though, after he started getting to know you and consequently falling for you even more: you had a good heart.

Eddie thought he'd always remember the day you brought to his trailer some notes he said he needed for his math test.

He was in the shower when you'd arrived, and you'd chatted with Wayne like you were friends for about twenty minutes before Eddie had came out of the bathroom with his hair still damp and with no t-shirt on.

He'd found you sitting on the couch next to his uncle, you were both laughing and Eddie had just leant against the door jamb with his shoulder, enjoying the scene with a smile on his lips, thinking "that's my fucking family".

You simply were something else.

And lately he almost thought that maybe he could become more than a friend to you, but perhaps he was wrong.

Aaron left throwing one last look at Eddie, halfway between a recommendation and a threat.

He closed the lunchbox filled with drugs, moving the fingers of one hand to the other, playing nervously with his rings, thinking that the only thing that could stop it at that moment was your hand in his.

Eddie stayed on that bench, alone, for an indefinite time while his mind continued to travel without him being able to stop it.

Aaron must have lied.

Right?

Part 6

Thanks to everyone who is still reading this story <3

Who's ready for a bit of Wayne in the next part?

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songs I relate to neil !!

(disclaimer: these are all probably sad + it’s a really long list sorry)

making the bed by olivia rodrigo

pink pony club by chappell roan

bigger than the whole sky by taylor swift

I bet on losing dogs by mitski

I know it won’t work by gracie abrams

my tears ricochet by taylor swift

mirrorball by taylor swift

this is me trying by taylor swift

the lakes by taylor swift

no body, no crime by taylor swift

you’re on your own, kid by taylor swift

midnight rain by taylor swift

family line by conan gray

mastermind by taylor swift

matilda by harry styles

bigger than the whole sky by taylor swift

anatomy by kenzie

what was I made for? by billie eilish

so long, london by taylor swift

I can do it with a broken heart by taylor swift

fortnight by taylor swift

the smallest man who ever lived by taylor swift

I hate it here by taylor swift

end of beginning by djo

vienna by billy joel

you’re gonna go far by noah kahan

out of touch by daryl hall & john oates

scared of my guitar by olivia rodrigo

don’t dream it’s over by crowded house

can’t catch me now by olivia rodrigo

all too well by taylor swift

night changes by taylor swift

1 step forward, 3 steps back by olivia rodrigo

story of my life by one direction

sign of the times by harry styles

scott street by phoebe bridgers

I love you, I’m sorry by gracie abrams

tv by billie eilish

piano man by billy joel

capital loss by gigi perez

pretty isn’t pretty by olivia rodrigo

the subway by chappell roan

heaven knows I’m miserable now by the smiths

this night has opened my eyes by the smiths

seven by taylor swift

daddy issues by the neighbourhood

teenage dream by olivia rodrigo

iris by goo goo dolls

winner by conan gray

everything I wanted by billie eilish

wicked game by chris isaak

the cut that always bleeds by conan gray

kids by nick rattigan

the prophecy by taylor swift

nda by billie eilish

vampire empire by big thief

your best american girl by mitski

symphonia ix by nick rattigan

no surprises by radiohead

favourite crime by olivia rodrigo

exile by taylor swift

the last great american dynasty by taylor swift

fourth of july by sufjan stevens

army dreamers by kate bush

half return by adrienne lenker

pretend by alex_g_offline

wasted summers by juju<3

waiting room by phoebe bridgers

I know the end by phoebe bridgers

half a person by the smiths

first love/late spring by mitski

the grudge by olivia rodrigo

gilded lily by cults

I don’t smoke by mitski

holidays by conan gray

vincent by don mclean

knockin’ on heavens door by bob dylan

everyone wants to rule the world by tears for fears

forever young by alphaville

please, please, please, let me get what I want by the smiths

hey jude by the beatles

no surprises by radiohead

boys don’t cry by the cure

beautiful boy by john lennon

that joke isn’t funny anymore by the smiths

funeral by phoebe bridgers

don’t try suicide by queen

my life by billy joel

all the young dudes by mott the hoople

falling by harry styles

sign of the times by harry styles

little freak by harry styles

love of my life by harry styles

songs kinda about neil from todd’s pov !!

francis forever by mitski

mr. loverman by ricky montgomery

this is me trying by taylor swift

ur so pretty by wasia project

the lakes by taylor swift

the exit by conan gray

I miss you, I’m sorry by gracie abrams

back to december by taylor swift

birds of a feather by billie eilish

wildflower by billie eilish

haunted by taylor swift

who’s afraid of little old me? by taylor swift

loml by taylor swift

right where you left me by taylor swift

cool about it by boygenius

k by cigarettes after sex

this love by taylor swift

fade into you by mazzy star

astronomy by conan gray

angel eyes by abba

strange by celeste

fine line by harry styles

christmas kids by roar

all I wanted by paramore

sunsetz by cigarettes after sex

I wait for you by alex_g_offline

reflections by the neighbourhood

nobody by mitski

cool about it by boygenius

anything by adrienne lenker

break by alex_g_offline

someday I’ll get it by alek olsen

blue hair by tv girl

cigarettes out the window by tv girl

blondie by current joys

remember that night? by sara kays

once more to see you by mitski

I want you by mitski

astronomy by conan gray

lover you should’ve come over by jeff buckley

slipping through my fingers by abba

don’t you forget about me by simple minds

as it was by harry styles

songs I related to neil and todd

casual by chappell roan

close to you by gracie abrams

guilty as sin? by taylor swift

smile by sabrina carpenter

set fire to the rain by adele

suddenly I see by kt tunstall

dive by olivia dean

bags by clairo

picture you by chappell roan

sailor song by gigi perez

rolling in the deep by adele

ocean eyes by billie eilish

somethin’ stupid by frank and nancy sinatra

watch by billie eilish

I love you by billie eilish

about you by the 1975

21 by gracie abrams

satellite by harry styles

blue by billie eilish

look after you by the fray

dream by fleetwood mac

I wanna be your by arctic monkeys

labyrinth by taylor swift

my love mine all mine by mitski

not a lot, just forever by adrienne lenker

velvet ring by big thief

always forever by cults

there is a light that never goes out by the smiths

head over heals by tears for fears

hey lover by the daughters of eve

keep driving by harry styles

if you’ve made it this far please share songs you relate to neil/todd/anderperry!! <33

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About Me!

♡ I go by Kage online!

♡ I’m pansexual, demiromantic and gender fluid (he/him, they/them, xe/xem, whatever in order of preference)

♡ I believe in ghosts, the supernatural and next lives/past lives/rebirth!

♡ In my next life I want to be a twink/femboy!

♡ I’m a bit scared to be myself sometimes and often role play as my OCs!

♡ If I do the slightest thing wrong I freak out and guilt e a t s m e u p!

♡ I’m single (ish)!

♡ I want to be a writer eventually!

♡ I am sadly biologically female

♡ I might have some kind of anxiety

♡ I might have autism

My personality:

♡ A combination of Moxxie, Stolas, Lucifer and Blitzo (a queer, bottom, pretending-to-be-sane-and-definitely-doesn't-have-depression, femboy with relationship issues :3)

♡ Little known fact that no one's knows is that I have body image problems and might die soon

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♡ Ranfren

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♡ Femboys/twinks/cross dressers

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♡ Literally anyone

My k!nks: cannibalism, degrading, size, vore, roleplay, etc (also I’m a bottom boi)

Real life people that I like:

♡ REVENGEOFPARIS (my favorite music artist of all time)

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[herearedragons]

I keep referencing Deadfire Selene being extremely unwell on this blog so I should probably spell at least some things out about her tbh.

TL;DR Deadfire is the Selene Torment Nexus and this is a list of reasons why

point #1: going all in on the "the Watcher is technically dead" thing

my favorite take on this for her is actually in the two-Watcher au with @curiouslavellan's Helaine, where her and Selene are soul twins (fractured from the Inquisitor's soul), and at the beginning of Deadfire Helaine is the only one in Caed Nua. Selene is in Dyrford. she senses Helaine's soul being torn away and basically burns off a lot of her own soul essence trying to keep the fragment of Helaine that hasn't gone into Eothas from fading away. which, she succeeds, but also there's a hole in her own soul now that, unlike Helaine's, can't be repaired with a missing puzzle piece that Eothas stole. Berath fixes her with a chime that kind of fills that void, but basically it's unclear whether Selene can even exist without the chime at this point

in her solo verse I can't really do that, obviously, so instead I'm just focusing on how Selene doesn't really know if Berath is going to let her keep living once she gets the rest of her soul back or go "well you DID die, so thanks for the help, on the Wheel you go" and also like. in general, feeling like a shell of her former self because most of her soul is gone. she struggles to see herself as the same person Edér and the others are used to, and to believe that she's still capable

basically in either version this ends up with her knowing that she's a lesser version of what she used to be, and that she might be living on borrowed time. which she proceeds to talk to absolutely no one about until compelled by The Circumstances (the Neketaka Ghost Explosion Incident) to do so. in her mind, she doesn't want anyone to know how vulnerable she is because that's a Her Problem and morale is already low enough as it is

point #2: the telepathy

she loses her telepathy and most of her cipher powers with the chunk of her soul. she also loses the collected memories that have plagued her for the entirety of her adult life. cool, right?

in reality, losing access to other people's minds after relying on it for decades just leaves her feeling lonely and isolated and also struggling to believe at times that the people are actually there because she can't sense them. her ranger companion (the last creature she does have a psychic bond with, still) helps, though. everyone say thank you to Whiskers the therapy lion

point #3: Caed Nua

her house is gone and all the people that were there are dead and she's grieving it way more than the dialogue in Deadfire allows you to

point #4: Edér

so the dynamic is already weird at the beginning of Deadfire because the cumulative weight of everything I've discussed so far is causing Selene to withdraw into herself and relapse into her worst habits of "I'm just going to keep all of my suffering right here, and then I'll die". which. he can see she's not okay, but also she's not really letting him in, and he doesn't really know what he can do except give her space and hope that she gets better. which is a kind of helplessness he knows all too well

Xoti, who obviously can't possibly know their history or what's happening between them and is too busy crushing on Edér and praising Eothas to notice she's deaing psychic damage to both of them, does NOT help. especially because Edér is very obviously uncomfortable with her, while Selene ends up feeling weirdly sympathetic because she's been in a cult, she's been in Xoti's place, and she wants to believe that maybe she can snap Xoti out of it (she can't). so she wants to keep her around.

then there's the thing with Bearn, and like. him already being with a relationship with Selene (and also my general thoughts on him and Elafa) means that in this version Edér reacts to everything a little differently, but he's still both freaked out and excited at the prospect of potentially having a son, which does Selene in. because. he's never getting that with her. she's a godlike. she's a Watcher. she might be dead in a few weeks, and if not in a few weeks, then in a few months or years the gods will surely devise a new way to make her suffer, and Edér will get dragged along again, and he already has way less time on Eora than she does because he's folk, and is she just keeping him from the life he really wants to have?

the rest of it isn't really about Selene being unwell but just know it's a whole mess and they even break up about it at one point. they get back together later but it happens

point #5: Ondra

sailing.

I wrote a couple of posts about Selene and Tekēhu but basically his presence doesn't improve Selene's mental state either

point #6: welcome to being the Deadfire's errand girl

in my mind Selene has a closer relationship with Lady Webb than POE1 shows, studying under her during Act 2 as she investigates the Leaden Key's activities, and basically becomes an honorary member of Dunryd Row. after Thaos' death Selene puts her influence and wealth as the Roadwarden to use helping Dunryd Row to recover from the Hadret House massacre, and basically ends up being in charge of a lot of it as a "consultant". point being, she spends a lot of time in Defiance Bay during the timeskip, and becomes way more familiar with politics and espionage, and the powers that be notice

with the above in mind, honestly even if she wasn't a Watcher, upon arriving to the Deadfire every faction would try to get her to do stuff for them immediately purely as a political move

and yeah she's more shrewd than she used to be, she knows they're playing the game, but also this just makes her more aware of the humiliation of going from having the Dyrwood's most powerful spy network at her fingertips to agreeing to do a pirate's dirty work and take his weird cipher with you because his ship's guns are trained on you and your own cipher powers have barely started to recover and you did piss off a few pirates in Neketaka so if you refuse now, you'll pretty sure this guy might get them to declare war on you just to prove a point. she's out of her depth. she's still trying