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love trying to make timelines for things that have a clear passage of time but not necessarily a clear timeline. like events happen in the order they are presented but how much time is between each event? fuck if i know
#in other words i'm half delirious from being tired and trying in vain to figure out how much time passes in tmnt 2003#my gut is saying s1-s4 is like 4ish years minimum#it just kinda feels right#funnily this is related to that usagi screenshot i posted earlier cuz like a day later i was trying to figure out how old he was#cuz he's like early 20s in the comics but his appearance in 2003 has him like#look visibly baby in that one flashback fight scene between splinter and drako#and if that's 3 years before the turtles go and they're all like#teenage aged#then usagi's probably around that#but he's gotta be like at least 2 years older than the turtles#my justification? feels right#but then that muddies up the comic canon a bit cuz at age like. 17/18ish#i'm pretty sure he's still one of mifune's retainers or something#but comic usagi and show usagi are 2 different bitches and it's all#[vague hand gestures]#..i'm gonna go to bed before my headache gets worse#mlabs myaps
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biting this scene. sinking my teeth right in.
#from his tone I don't think jon even thinks he's being slimey he's not *trying* to be a motherfucker about this#he's just had his first few justifications shot down and is refusing to look himself in the eye about this and is saying what feels right#and landed on the 'you didn't want this but you did choose it ('it' being my actions)' thing#and for all that basira has talked about wanting a strong functional proactive partner who can serve as a daisy 2.0#it does actually unsettle her to see jon start to become that kind of person. waaaaaaaaaaaaaa.#tma#id in alt text#marina marvels at life
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#dbtag#silly hours#god#I feel like that's a really clear and consistent thing throughout the entirety of the manga but OTL leave it to Toei!!!!#lays on the floor I wish people were less afraid of letting “good guys” be flawed and selfish and reckless without having to like.#idk vilify them?#like Goku does and always has had a ton of negative qualities about him but what keeps him a protag and what keeps those negatives charming#is that 1) he never promises to be anything Else. If you're upset by his behavior that's a you problem Goku's just doing Goku#He's only upset when Other People get hurt because 2) almost none of those negative qualities contain any malice whatsoever#even as a kid when he was 'i killed that guy' it was like 'i solved a problem why are you mad (gen)' not 'good fucking riddance lol'#and he kept that as an adult too even when he learned more about compassion he's still 'well if you're not gonna stop i have to kill you'#it's never 'fuck off and die' it's always 'listen buddy either you knock it off or i knock you out there is no option c '#and god i love that Goku. I spent so long thinking I hated Goku growing up but I only hated Toei's Goku. Toriyama's Goku is GREAT.#like look if an antagonist is just a hero with the wrong perspective a hero is just a villain with the right one#and the fact that Goku has all of the qualities of a villain with none of the malice or intention makes him SO POWERFUL as a character#Goku doesn't like bystanders getting hurt. That doesn't make him less chaotic and self-centered and simplistic in his worldview.#A hero sacrifices his loved ones to save the world -- a villain sacrifices the world to save his loved ones --#Goku sacrifices himself because you cannot kill him in any way that matters#idskahds anyway here's another essay in the tags for your wednesday evening scroll#the justification the interviewer gave was that the anime was for kids but my beef with that is that Hero Tropes strip chaotic characters#of their emotions. Goku's conflicts are emotional. Goku's power is emotional. Goku's childlikeness keep him authentically emotional.#MORE kids -- ESPECIALLY little boys -- deserve a male protagonist who leans into his emotions to persevere and win.#Super deciding his “angelic state” would kill him makes me want to tear my hair out lmao Goku's EMOTIONS are too strong to hold it.#you could've just asked toriyama about it why'd you decide on the most basic high-stakes shorthand possible OTL#aNYWAY#media analysis#in the tags at least lol
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and tattoo #2, on the inside front of my bicep (photo angle was awkward). i. yknow. part of me feels like i have to justify myself here, explain my reasoning, but i don't think i do, actually.
#isat spoilers#in stars and time#i will do a little bit of explaining in the tags here#i can feel the difference between 'i'm obsessed with this purely because hyperfixation brain chemicals good'#and 'i'm obsessed with this bc it has changed me on a fundamental level'#like. i've put 3k hours into ark and never once considered an ark tattoo.#i know if i had ever gotten an xiv tattoo i'd still love it despite not playing anymore.#the fact that i've had this exact idea on my mind for the last month continuously is enough justification for me#it's a reminder to. be a little kinder to myself. give myself some grace for Fucking Up. and to ask for some goddamn help once in awhile.#to be less terrified of what people will think of me if i do something strange or different. idk.#thoughts that i know will stick with me for a long long time.#ANYWAY HAHA TIMELOOP GAME TATTOO GO WEEEEEEEEE#thank you to that one post about having a right to do what you want with your body as much as your future self does#extremely reassuring
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Also hey I wanna say too that pretty much every single headcanon ever is valid. Even if they aren’t popular, even if they go against canon, even if they change on the regular and make for a throughly transformative work.
I think fandom is supposed to be fun and honestly it just acts like a toybox of sorts? With all these malleable characters as action figures that you play with as you like. If you wanna make them bigger or smaller or change their species or what they present as or how they sound or even act - you can! You can and you should!
Have fun, because you’ll inevitably find others who like what you do too. And even if you don’t, as long as you like it, then that’s what matters.
#this is something I’m saying partially to myself too#personally I have a huge problem of wanting to ‘justify’ my headcanons#where I do my damndest to ‘prove’ that what I headcanon is possible in canon#because it personally makes me feel much better and less anxious#but it’s something I gotta move past because sometimes rule of fun is better than canon justification#I still personally prefer to keep close to canon or within the realm of canon for my works#but I think I’ll stop trying to justify every little thing and just have a little more fun with it#but yeah saying right now that even if it’s not my personal cup of tea or something I headcanon myself#I will still fight for people’s right to have fun with these toy box action figures#is there an argument to be made of ‘at some point these characters just become OCs’? yeah but…who cares?#idk this was mostly something for myself to keep in mind but in light of recent events#I think I’ll post it too#also wanna say - don’t attack others for their headcanons#if you don’t like it then block them#remember that there are real people here that you could hurt okay?#the way they connect with a character will inevitably be different than you
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Teen Wolf as Arthurian Characters
Derek Hale as Merlin
#teen wolf#twedit#teen wolf edit#twgifs#derek hale#merlin#arthurian legend#arthuriana#my gifs#mine#twarthur#the only real justification for this other than just vibes is that according to su “they're both mentors who suck at their jobs”#just constantly fucking up and making things worse for the person they're supposed to be helping#ALSO the colouring on this was insane to do#like it took me sooo long to get right and it's still not perfect but i've abused those curves enough#also tumblr logged me out in the middle of initially making this which feels targeted
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I don’t think the Rat Grinders are irredeemable or whatever but I DO think a lot of people are putting the onus on Brennan specifically to redeem them or “write them a redemption arc”, like yes it is a show and there has to be character narratives especially for foils to your PCs, but ttrpgs are fundamentally a /collaborative/ storytelling medium, the thing about DnD is that the players have to invest in the NPCs, they have to give them the time and space to redeem themselves through interacting with them, the reason we see characters like Aelwyn and Ragh get a redemption arc & change and develop is because the Bad Kids went out of their way to talk to them (In Aelwyn’s case Adaine had to commit to redeeming her sister on multiple occaisions). Lets not forget there have been other teen villains, like Penelope, Dayne and Biz who the Bad Kids just straight up killed in combat, who didn’t get redeemed. Do I think it’s fully possible that the Rat Grinders can experience redemption/forgiveness and it would be narratively satisfying? Absolutely! But, imo, a lot of the narrative thrust behind wether a character gets redemption is in the hands of the players, and it would be a little bit unsatisfying if being freed from their rage crystals immediately gave them all full personality transplants (like removing all of Kipperlily’s anger and ambition for example)
#like idk a lot of ppl are taking some really strong stances when the season isn’t even over yet#also I feel like the players have been putting together the mystery and feeling a lot of animosity and rivalry with the rat grinders#so the likelihood of them just beating their asses and killing them is a non zero chance#equally if they defeat Porter before he ascends and The Rat Grinders get free from their weird rage crystals#that’s like a totally different narrative angle#SO#idk I’d say I’m hopeful they get a chance at being redeemed or at least freed from their rage crystals#but I’m not counting my chickens#I find them all to be interesting characters and agree that they’re kids in a difficult situation#but from the perspective of the Bad Kids idk if that’s enough justification for their redemption#text#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#d20 fhjy#d20 fantasy high#kiwi.txt#I know it’s a little hubristic to post this RIGHT before the episode drops but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#fantasy high#rat grinders
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Honestly, every single time the whole 'poppy playtime is a bendy rip-off' stuff ever shows up I find it all extremely unconvincing and silly.
For one thing, rip-off usually is meant to imply that it's a cheap lazy copy of a better more polished thing, and uh. Sorry but even from chapter 1? Poppy Playtime is a better game than Bendy, it has a simple but understandable story, the game manages to be thrilling, creepy, and very intense at times... I mean that Huggy chase in the vents ALONE puts it way above Batim for me.
I mean BATDR had the most slow stupid chase I've ever seen [and every other encounter with the ink demon is text telling u he's there and then a timer goes down and u get jumpscared] and batim's chases were either silly or just not nearly as theatric or terrifying as that.
When making the vent sequence I mean not only is it absolutely horrifying to realize how fast Huggy is in there but also it's so theatric and cool? The fact that you round a corner after thinking you escaped only to see a terrifying animation of that thing crawling toward you is awesome! I wish Bendy had stuff like that!
And all the stuff it shares with Bendy are generic things Bendy ripped from other horror games/media anyways. I'm not saying Poppy Playtime isn't inspired by Bendy I for sure think it is but Bendy is such a generic story that somehow fails to do tropes 100 other horror games have done any comparison only makes Poppy Playtime look better.
"It has employees being sacrificed for their company" That is not a concept Bendy invented, literally look at any of the sci-fi horror series Bendy is very inspired by. This is literally a twist in the original Alien.
"It has a scary woman forcing you to do tasks for her" Once again, not a concept Bendy invented, a scary mysterious person forcing you to do fetch-quests is a concept found in tons of horror media. And at least Poppy Playtime gave you a chase with her and let you defeat her, look at poor malice. She's barely on screen for more than 10 minutes before she gets stabbed.
"It has a cult worshipping the monster" This is something tons of horror games and media have done too. I mean In The Tall Grass has a guy who worships a giant magical rock in the middle of a grass maze, Bioshock [which Bendy has only been taking more and more direct inspiration from while failing to grab any of the compelling parts] also had a lot of themes of religion and cult-ish behavior, almost every horror media franchise has at one point done a cult thing.
Bendy couldn't even come up with a reason Sammy worships the ink demon, the best motivation we've ever gotten is just that 'he's crazzyyyy the ink made him insaneeee'. Who is the cheap rip-off here?
At least Poppy Playtime gave their cultist a motive for worshipping the monster + a proper boss fight that feels intense and looks awesome! Bendy didn't even let you kill Malice [she got stabbed in front of you and then just collapsed on the floor how thrilling] meanwhile you get to kill three of the villains in Poppy Playtime and the gameplay and action in those scenes have only gotten better as the game went on.
I mean Sammy walks into a room and goes "AAA SCARY I'M BEING MURDERED" then later shows up and for NO REASON sees a normal human man and assumes it's the ink demon before once again someone else kills him for you. In Poppy Playtime you defeat Catnap as he floods the world with this horrible nightmare-inducing gas that intensifies the color palette and his design. Fight off versions of him that are illusions that you need your flare gun for, then watch in a wonderful animation as he mistakes the monster for his savior before getting killed by it, in a brutal way I might add, which game are we accusing of being cheap, lazy garbage again?
I just find this argument to be people who Really Really need to find a reason to hate Poppy Playtime which I think is silly. The devs being weird, shady people is already enough reason to dislike the game, you don't need to invent reasons why secretly every part of the game is malicious or bad. But esp when I see Bendy fans saying they don't support Poppy Playtime or dislike it bc of its devs or even saying its cringe ummmm.
I have bad news about the fact Bendy's devs are worse and it took not one, but TWO over an hour long videos to cover it all. Plus the Bendy games are just the worse games in every aspect, if I could sell my batim copy for a copy of Poppy Playtime I wouldn't hesitate at all.
Saying this as a bendy fan, we have no right to be super judgy towards Poppy Playtime. If Poppy Playtime is embarrassing cringe, Bendy is too and is way more embarrassing of an interest. We shouldn't spread misinformation just because we all want to hate Poppy Playtime, you can dislike Poppy Playtime without making up a bunch of nonsense to justify it.
Honestly seeing people just blatantly be unfairly mean to Poppy Playtime only makes its critics look worse and makes it hard to take any backlash to the games seriously. Because surprise surprise if you spread misinformation to make a point people will quickly stop listening to Anything you have to say bc they won't trust you're telling the truth anymore.
#feel free to reblog but Im not gonna tag this its way too rambley at least for my taste to go in the main tags#ramblez#also man can I say I didnt want to make this post super long but theres so many other points I could make in poppys favor#the fact we got to see the hour of joy and it was terrifying we dont even know if joey actually killed anyone anymore#the gameplay itself is more diverse and fun then batim which is a walking simulator that pretends to have fighting n stealth mechanics#at least Poppy n Missys friendship gives u a reason to care for missys safety before shes put in danger#Missy can actually express unlike Boris who sits there looking cute with no proper expressions until he gets yoinked and ur supposed to car#bc he was uh adorable? And therefore you spend an entire chapter tryna get him and get an extremely bad boss fight in return-#also soundtrack wise I like poppys tracks more theyre unique and fun and you can tell which part of the game they come from#bendy has so many dramatic reveal stingers and tracks that are really hard to tell which part of the game they come from#bertrums boss fight has my favorite theme bc its so specifically crafted for him and unique and meanwhile Norman has one of the worst imo#a lot of Bendys soundtrack if I played it for you right now it would be hard to guess where its from bc it all kinda sounds the same#the reveal music for the machine for bendy land for heavenly toys for alices domain all sound the same x_x#its just so frustrating but yeah my point is can we all stop making up new reasons to shit on poppy playtime its just kinda dumb#it feels less like actual criticism and at this point just feels like elaborate justification for cringe culture which I hate#okay thats it bye sorry this is 10 pages long-
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omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!
#& [it might be 5am but i'll still see if i can draw some] trackpad homemade reacts. inhales & hands to head/face x9 then walking off#site giving pretty random Suggested assortment there where i was like oh right sure. prob not tumblr keywords captures lmaooo#(plus happened to have it open in firefox) but my god Not the scapegoated literal seers lmfao. whoooo. my god#also it was just really good anyways like right nice. damn#the (queerrr) seerrr the perceiverrr the truth tellerrr the ruinerrr the scapegoat be-errr the internalizerrr the neurodivergerrr#& now i Know there is 0% chance ppl weren't putting ''always a gay cousin or it's you (avuncular edition)'' in that thing#family tree design not even leaving space for the hypothetical kids of this relative we mostly pretend is nonexistent hmm#also that necessarily. it's giving all intents & purposes Disability abt a dozen ways & it's saying [accept that] vs [we'd better fix him]#you don't cite said [it's giving disability] as part of the We All Hate The Horrible Little Freak scapegoating justification & then be like#''actually we don't have to do that anymore b/c he's sooo normal :)'' or not if you're serious about [don't scapegoat your family] anyways#which like oh ok they Are serious so The Weirdo's scapegoating / casting out / lack of support Isn't justified#so he's still weird & you just gotta get over that b/c otherwise. bye. having a natural rat affinity is such a slay btw#& we've all been there like ''you NEVER want two scapegoats talking it's Over if they do'' + littlest kid is like um. they're the best#plankton voice Correct! inhale i'm so impressed like. getting to go ''finally someone Normal'' (serious abt letting someone Be Weird(tm))#which also always counts as like mm hard time suggesting someone's Not queer & also autistic for a start lmao. an award#adding in suggested layers like talking to oneself; talking Oddly / w difficulty; physical uncoordination; rituals ; acting; animal friend#the layer of ''& all that's fine? like?'' again rather than him ever suppressing or even changing it so far as it's suggested#besides that it's observed as Weird like but so? or else what? nonrhetorical: hostility / rescinded support & driving someone off is what?#& that Truth like the [worse treatment / exclusion / scapegoat] oft recipe for someone giving the support they're not getting themself#again Never let the [ppl both experiencing this] talk oh it's So over. or the child who's all i like family support & kindness actuallyy...#obviously also like the complete opposite of billions. knowing what they're about & letting this Just As Beloved crucial guy be So Weird#but billions Also [hmm feels right for our scapegoated guy to Perceive / Tell Truths / openly want/need & then be hurt] now get his ass#anyway [guy who could always go way on could go way on but only has thirty tags & it's 6am & i still mean to try some drawing] voice#remarkable amt of So True & ''it feels like ppl on the same page w/exactly what they're doing are all behind this''#remarkable amount of concentrated My God That Is So A Slay located in bruno all at once. what a gift#sticking to ''sometimes someone In Your Group is Weird. Disabled. deal'' firmly enough there's no ;) oh u can bet we'll Fix Him in the end#everyone always assumes the worst so....me when i'm [always as a kid yearning for Living In Secret Passages]. emile gtmpota?#oh congrats to whatever rando who will be having his dramatic gay reunion w/bruno just out of frame obviously. i perceive#now imagine if That rando was....emile gtmpota! what a crossover event. haunting4haunting. do i have enough tags for this lmao. yea#& having 1 more tag to say: as though the [endless serving] isn't enough bruno's also as close to gender envy as it gets. incl rats; sure
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Sometimes I think I'm immune to the instinct to place all your trust in one charismatic leader and overidentify with a person with real power and then Obama tweets about the tenth anniversary of the tan suit and I know I'm wrong
#it's also because i was pretty young when he was elected#old enough to understand the importance of a black president and feel like the world was changing right in front of us#young enough to not *really* understand how he was mishandling certain things and bombing innocent people without strong justification#so to me he's still that figure of hope even if I also know better#i think a lot of people my age feel the same way#op
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you know whats more annoying than dems calling vance and trump weird is all the condescending posts justifying it actually. like im a bit annoyed about "weird" being used this way but also like man if it fucking works i guess
but do i have to keep seeing daily posts exhaustively justifying how normie midwesterners use weird different or whatever the fuck man just shut up and call them weird then, stop justifying it to me
#toy txt post#i see the value in pointing out to somehow apolitical ppl that these guys are weird in the sense of being invasive controlling racist#creeps with unhinged fucking priorities. i also see the harm in conflating it with 'weird'. i see the value in using it against them#especially since it seems to be? sticking? and i hope most ppl are capable of recognizing that the dems are not using it to mean harmlessl#harmlessly strange or queer or whatever but to mean a fucking creepy asshole with bad motives and priorities#even if the right tries so so so so hard to conflate that meaning with queerness#i also dread the idea that they might start fucking trying to reclaim weird but i dont know if they will. i dont know if theyll redefine it#to work for them. if they can overcome the way they associate it with queerness and neurodivergence. but i do kinda dread a future where#they try to reclaim it like they did with the 'deplorables' shit. regardless of that: the most annoying in all this is everyone writing#fucking thinkpieces about it actually. and the condescending tone of NO YOU HAVE TO BE OKAY WITH THIS#THATS annoying. also:#the dems are going to have to pivot from this at some point anyway. its going to get Stale if nothing else.#i also think calling it cyberbullying is just. not even accurate anyway?#idk. but ik so done reading everyones Takes on it like goddddddd#i also have mixed feelings about the couchfucker misinfo but not as much#mostly like. in terms of misinfo it really doesnt feel worse than the ted cruz zodiac killer thing#except maybe more believable? but also lower stakes lmao#idk. just. sure man#fucking keep fash out of power#fix shit#make it better#the justification makes it worse almost. like cos it means you know my fucking issue with it. just shut the fuck up and call them weird and#ill grit my teeth and assume youre living a sheltered normie life and dont know the joys of weird and thats why youre using it like that#whatever man
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In another life itd be cool if i had a night time only roommate who like came out of a wall and was a human version of an owl (not vibes but horrible lab accident) and we chatted and socialized when i have insomnia and cant sleep so its like. A positive opportunity instead of a failure that will be pointed out 150 times tomorrow
#😵💫im anxiouser now#owlman would translate owl books for me#i cant grasp the cultural nuance but some of their jokes translate funny#he still has a beak but it might be made of cartilage#idk what he does that keeps him moonlighting. early evening work but then hes up all night and sleeps from like 6-2pm#who motorcycles around at 5 am i guess anyoen could but#apartment living means hes so loud right outside rn#once a prof told me (creative writing#)#that if i was feeling motivated i should chase that even through the night make sure you write and give yourself space to follow the impulse#i still use to justification internally if i ever need to if i ever feel like staying up#but i just cant figure out how to make it work with my gf living with me#love her to death but she finds routine disruptions really annoying and is kinda judgmental about sleep issues without meaning to be;#i guess depressions making me act in strange ways and its scaring me so im. ruminating a lot
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thinking about friends i left on bad terms with whom i can never go back but who i still love. But I wasn't a great person then, wouldn't even call me a good person. I'm glad to see them thrive.
Feels bittersweet to look back at things I still have from them. I wish I was a better person then. I wish I could have been better for others. But also then I wouldn't have met the people I have.
I hope they don't think about me, ever. Feels somewhat bad to be able to look back and see the good moments we had and the good person they were, because I don't think they could do that. And also I don't think I deserve that.
#just some thoughts#it's a weird thing to naviguate these feelings and thoughts of repenting and my morals about doing the right thing#which right now would be to never interact with them again and let them free of me#idk said like this it sounds like i was a terrible person. I wasn't great i was in a very unstable state of mind and i hurt people around m#being that way and reacting to the world around me but it's no justification for the pain i caused them#i'm sad i lost these friends but they are in better situation now with better people#also this was like years ago#such a tricky subject#internet relationships are hard and so are real life ones#isolating yourself is such an easy fix but it's not doable for a long time#i try to be a better person. i try to be more gentle so the people i don't talk to for any other reason don't remember hurt but good times#i want to be a better person.#i don't want to hurt people and leave a mark of that hurt#i don't want to hurt people#i try not to#i've learned how to not make things worse but that feels like...such a small improvement#having more and more thoughts. i could ramble about it for so long
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reading The Americans post about that writers strike as a european is like ...... oh wow they really ARE that far behind on the whole workers rights front huh
#wga strike#like i'm not saying this negatively AT ALL!!!#but from the perspective of someone who grew up in a country with STRONG workers rights it is glaringly obvious just by the posts about it#that this doesn't happen often there and wholeheartedly: good for them! for exercising their right to strike!#but it's just so ... outlandish to me that apparently people feel the need to over explain the situation and the motivation of the strikers#and give an entire backstory on it to (i assume?) try to turn public opinion in favour of the strike#i've even seen posts explaining the concept of a strike#and it's like ... girlie they want higher wages and better working conditions and if they're not happy with the offer made by the companies#they'll go on strike. that's just how it goes.#makes me sooooo fucking glad to live somewhere where that's normal. i'll take the trouble of having to plan my life around certain big#strikes (looking at public transportation here...) every couple months ANY DAY of the fucking week over living in a society where#striking is apparently so rare that it needs explanation and justification
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ive inherited a copy of lolita from my parents (i.e. i stole it from the library in our basement and started treating it like its mine) with the 1989 vintage international cover and i think its actually not that bad. better than the 50th anniversary one with the lips anyway imo (which is the cover for the library ebook vers ive checked out).
like i think any cover that incorporates the "only convincing love story of our generation" quote anywhere kind of sucks on principle, and the fact that it features a photo of a girl at all really goes against nabakovs instructions, but compared to other covers that break those two rules, the haziness of the photo creates a really evocative atmosphere i feel matches the book more or less.
#im keeping most of my lolita thoughts to myself because i know it can be an uncomfortable book to talk about when#not intentionally trying to engage with it but. good lord ive highlighted a lot!#mostly stuff where H.H. is being a lying little bastard even in his narration#theres also this passage in ch14 after he um. 'stole the honey of a spasm' when dolores sat on his lap (not a fun passage to read lol!)#where he goes: What I had madly possessed was not she‚ but my own creation‚ another‚ fanciful Lolita—perhaps‚ more real than Lolita;#overlapping‚ encasing her; floating between me and her‚ and having no will‚ no consciousness—indeed‚ no life of her own.#(end quote. forgot quotation marks) which ohhhhh my god. subtlety is for losers lmao.#H.H. IS VERY VERY BAD AT MAKING HIMSELF LOOK GOOD DESPITE HIS BEST EFFORTS.#he claims he memorized charlottes confession of love perfectly and had conveyed in on paper perfectly#but also he completely skipped parts of it (including where she talks about her late son) and inserted the line:#'you would be a criminal--worse than a kidnapper who rapes a child.'#yes. im sure she said that. to the letter.#or when hes like i didnt marry charlotte with the intention to (extremely detailed grusome murder plan). but ill admit. i thought about it.#and then she oh so conveniently gets run over by a car when she discovers his journal. yeah. sure. right.#SORRY again i havent been Posting My Thoughts on it but i am having thoughts on it in general.#it really is a beautifully worded book though. its got great prose. makes the actions worse almost because its filtered through this#dreamy artistic self-justification. which - to go back to the original point of this post - i feel this cover conveys well LMAO#its so much better than the movies oh my god head in my hands#jumping between the most 2008 musical to ever exist‚ legally blonde fanfiction‚ and a controversial literary classic. im versatile.
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i could give these bitches a million dollars and they'd still treat me like im not doing enough. like im done w yall fake progressives yall dont care about shit for shit. yall only care about yourselves and shit that benefits you specifically and if it benefits anyone else thats an after thought and just a bonus to you, you dont actually *care* if other ppl benefit from the shit you do.
#hell you'd prolly demand more money bc you're so inside your own ass and ego that thats all you care about.#YOU getting money. THATS IT. thats ALL its ever been.#you'd rather play on my guilt and get more money (abuser behavior btw) than decide 'this is enough for me now lets ask him to donate#to charity'#bc you think its FUNNY. you think its morally fine and neutral to do that kind of shit.#you think its FUNNY to be abusive and play on peoples guilt. thats literally it. you get kicks and laughs out of it. thats all you care#about. thats literally it.#you care about manipulating ppl outta their money and you think being abusive is funny and being manipulative is funny and thats your entir#personality. this is just an example btw just tryna speak on a phenomena im observing#yall would do this shit too if i 'apologized' for all supposed 'crimes' i committed#you'd demand more apolgies for more shit i either didnt do or is tame asfuck that other people in your life do but that you dont bat an eye#at bc you dont hate them. but bc you hate me you think your hatred of me is a moral justification to treat me like shit#and youd demand those apologies bc you think me humbling myself before you is FUNNY. you think of it as if im a peasant and your a king bc#its the only way you can feel power over me.#you dont *actually* care about me righting wrongs. thats never what its been about. you want to feel power. thats it#which is why- by the way- dont often apologize for shit you guys demand me to. because ik its alll just a power play thing for you.#you dont care.#not that i even have money like that- by the way- but im trying to point out how yall would be about this#i could give you 10 billion dollars- if i had it- and it still wouldnt be enough.
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