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Fell for Karlach instead of Astarion, and for me, that signifies great character growth
#bg3#tbc i totally get it about astarion lol#and I did take him up on his first offer before i met karlach π#and i get the i can fix him trope and ik he has sweet moments if you go the fix him route#i get the make him worse route too lol#but#i can fix him is purely fictional#i wish i knew that before#selfish assholes dont change bc of love#idk that they ever actually change at all#regardless#my growth is not settling#not settling for someone who might be sweet if i do the right things#if i love them enough#if im good enough#quote unquote#i am good enough#good enough for someone who actually is good#someone who is kind#and also really fucking hot lol
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The red means ily!!!
#i tried a new render. be merciful with me#its far from perfect. but its the start of growth. and that makes it perfect#hellsing#alucard#my art#cw blood#cw ommetaphobia#Alucard can be considered a yandere right. we all agree on that#this was based on an anon that said he's the type to settle for hate if the person he likes doesn't love him#as long as they think STRONGLY of him#this reminds me of that scene in Kaleidoscope by catsvsdogscatswin (absolute PEAK fanfic its my favorite on ao3)#where Anderson finds alu chained in the basement and when he says that he's the one sworn to kill him#alucard smiles and says 'ah so you're someone that loves me'#i NEED a moment here. he hurts me so much#this should be illegal
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#like music you can feel rather than hear...to feel his vibration to the core of your being...#manifesting this for all my ladies out there#don't settle for less#spiritual growth#spiritual healing#Spiritual awakening#saturday thoughts
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#bartender#bartender manga#sasakura ryuu#wakui tsubasa#fairies of edenhall#sasakui#<- can't settle for only one pairing name so they get two (but i'll mostly go with sasakui for concision)#someone's gotta create a tag for them and it might as well be me#shinxo art#shinxo comic#they mean so much to me as friends!!! and queerplatonic partners!!! and master-apprentice!!!#i'm imagining all the domestic sasakui i'll never get and melting my brain in the process :)))#its such a shame wakui is locked behind 90+ chapters of the manga π#i swear it's worth it though!!! bc wakui's character growth is amazing and rly touching (it's also one of my favorite parts of the manga)
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Do you think Jayce could have developed some amount of claustrophobia while sealed in the box all those years? If so, any shift up in height indoors could make him feel trapped again, causing even more of a shift or a longer time for him to shift back. He would try to avoid breaking walls etc. while the Dread might be encouraging that, to literally break free and never feel trapped again, like in your art when the coffer is released then broken.
(Sorry if this is something that youβve already answered. Iβm loving your art!)
It isn't something I talked about much on here, but he definitely ended up developing some claustrophobia since the soul box, yes! While it doesn't quite work the same as being locked in a physical box, it still is a space that seems both infinite and also ever encompassing and small. Weird null space sort of thing that is keeping you in a dream-like state the entire time.
It's a little hard to explain that is he's not quite a size shifter outside of when he fully transforms? It's more that he's just gradually growing throughout the story and trying to manage it with the potions and spells is what has him up and down all the time with trying to maintain a size but it wearing off. I haven't full settled yet if that still is what I will stick withβ¦
When it does happen to him in closed spaces, he really tries to not think about it and focus on the quickest solution, but I also think he's someone who's personally trained himself to react in a sane way in response to panic and fear most of the time. Not always, but this guy is in more life and death situations than the average person should be with his line of work lol I didn't post it before, but during the part he and Lucy get squished between the walls together in, he destroyed enough that it could close around them, but that closed space started to get to him. He tried to not show in front of Lucy (who was an enemy at the time still) that it was getting to him, but he'd start slipping a bit. Obviously growing then will just make things worse, but in this scenario he is needing to anyway to have the strength to push the walls apart again so they can get out. This might technically be the first time she's seeing his other form, but it's obscured by the lack of light other than the parts of him that start to glow.
#Daniel Spellbound#Jayce Chinda#Lucy Santana#Bleeding Magic AU#giant tiny#growth#monster transformation#my art#bonka replies#the-opal-essence#I was a bit unsure how to answer exactly bc I didn't fully settle how the growth is working
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i juat want you to know that "settle our bones" pulled me out of not only a depressive episode but a creative block too!! can't wait to read the next installments if you plan to continue the series π«Ά
Iβm so glad it was able to inspire you! Thatβs so awesome to hear β€οΈπ₯Ί
#I do definitely have plans to continue SOB#Iβm working (very slowly) on a holiday themed installment now#and then I do have plans for a longer fic after that introducing a few other members of the family#that one is exciting but incredibly daunting since I think itβs gonna have to be a chaptered fic and those scare me#(unless they come about accidentally bc I canβt shut up)#but I really wanna do the girls justice so I think itβs gonna have to be rotating POVs and kinda complicated#I think itβll be good for Tim and his growth arc to get to step back a bit and help someone else through stuff ya feel#Iβm also low key working on an Outsiders fic in the background#thatβs my decoy story#for whenever I get frustrated with SOB#I can try to write something set in 1960s Tulsa and then appreciate Batman again lmao#settle our bones
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started to lean away from the jellyfish cut and ended up giving Enoch a full hair progression journey
#my art#enoch#angel#biblically accurate angel#hair growth representing character growth ig#love that full shag tho gonna be hard only getting to draw it right at the end#and finally figured out enochs eyes!! perfect for them#still not fully settled on the colour tho#enoch (ch)#nephilim#nephim
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things i would change in lita if i were in charge:
put Rain in a dorm room instead of living at home
a large part of why Phayu/Rain doesn't work for me is because we don't get to see Rain develop on his own...ever, really. he's in college, but he's living at home, living off his parents' money, still updating his mom on his where abouts like he's in high school. he goes from being closely entwined with/dependent on them to being highly dependent on Phayu. Phayu/Rain didn't come off as "Rain's making stupid and risky decisions but that's part of growing up," which i would've enjoyed, it comes off as ".....no, seriously Rain, can you make this decision?"
moving Rain into a dorm would've given him some much needed independence. even if though he would've still been reliant on his parents financially, there's still the growth that comes from being away from your parents' daily influence, managing your own space, managing your own personal well-being, etc. that would've been Rain's starting point for independent growth. vs canon, where Rain's start in independent growth was an intensely sexual relationship with a highly independent guy (nooot really anything i'm comfortable with myself). Rain can enjoy being coddled/spoiled/etc (which i like! good for him!), but the writers never gave him a chance to figure out who he was on his own, so the relationship as is doesn't land for me :/
more Phayu interacting with the garage family
i really like the glimpses of Phayu's character that we get. he has a lot of contradictions that look like so much fun to explore, but his characterization often gets shuffled to the side in favor of kink. the most interesting Phayu scenes are always the ones where it's not just him and Rain which......really sucks. the Prapai/Sky sex scenes reveal a lot about them as individual characters as well as how they interact with each other. Phayu/Rain sex scenes kinda touch on how they act together, but the main thing they do is tell me more than i want to know about the writers' personal kinks. hell, most of what Rain learns about Phayu as a person is discovered through other people--which is really annoying! i want to be learning more about this guy through his interactions with Rain, not primarily the gossip other people tell Rain. that doesn't happen until like, ep6-7, which is the literal end of their personal arc and mostly spent away from each other. sighs.
more Saifah
quality character, highly underutilized. i love his eyerolls, but the writers never really did much with him to bring him past that point :( i can extrapolate a lot, but canon developed Sig in the second half of the show more than they did Saifah for all of it. Saifah is Phayu's literal twin brother and business partner, and some random architect student got more of a character than him. this is not a complaint on Sig, i fucking adore that guy, but it's a bizarre writing choice.
more kidnapping aftermath
seriously. what the fuck. TWO kidnapping scenarios, the entire reason why i watched this show, and you guys couldn't cut out any of the 1905t59488993e repeated scenes to give me more than 2 minutes of kidnapping aftermath? who the fuck even cares about trucks driving on roads
things i would not change in lita if i were in charge:
Chai showing up to rescue Phayu and Rain wearing a zebra print shirt. sensational. 10/10, no notes
#love in the air#didn't mean for this to be so heavy on phayu/rain but there's not really anything i'd change about prapai/sky#their arc has settled in my brain and rattled me to my bones#the only thing i'm >:( on is the lack of kidnapping aftermath#and the way the mafia was utilized but thats what crossovers are for#but phayu/rain........sighs#the writers clearly have a big/little kink#not my kink but cool for them#but college graduate / college freshman isn't a huge age/experience difference#so they massively exaggerated it by making Rain as literal childish* as they could while making Phayu over competent**#by not developing the first part of Phayu/Rain properly the second half doesn't land#*childish as in still dependent on parents/still living at home/still hugely naive like a child with little *chance* for independent growth#**except in rescuing boyfriends from kidnapping. i have no complaints its fucking great i wouldnt change a single thing#the other odd thing about the Phayu/Rain big/little kink is that it clashes badly with the fantastic point they made with Sky's arc#and how his age+gen isolation+lack of grown experiences#left him extremely vulnerable to Gun's manipulations and grooming#SIGHS
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You know back when the AU was a comic, I was able to gloss over so much of the politics of Mewni Creek I was not well equipped to handle and focus instead on the relationships and bonds that were important to the story going forward and explain the new governmental system of this combined world after it had been established and the masses calmed long down.
But now? Now that itβs a fic? Now that I have to essentially re-start the Ovelia establishment and better flesh out her blossoming friendships and connections to the main cast?
Iβve really gotta buckle down and write the politics and post-Cleaved chaos donβt I.
Manβ¦
#septarsis dragonfly au#I love what the world of Mewni Creek EVENTUALLY becomes#but before now I had never ironed out HOW it got there#but now?#I gotta strap in and write this.#Toffee my beloved youβre gonna have to wait a little bit longer still :(#donβt worry Iβll get to you :(#making Mewni Creek a democracy in progress actively dismantling monarchical systems in place for hundreds of years#equally distributing land. rebuilding. prioritizing monsters in the new system and treating them as equals for the first time#granting equity to the oppressed and calming the masses#especially the MEWMANS#guys the humans are fine Echo Creek is used to weirdness theyβre chill#theyβre freaked out for a bit but they settle theyβre used to weirdness bc of the Dragonflies (thank Great Grandma Deja for that)#the Mewmans are the actual issue#but all that needs to be long set in stone/actively being worked on for Toffeeβs character arc to work as intended#he has to be put in a new world of peace and positive progress#the world Mylanie always wanted to see#for that arc to work#I promise Ovelia establishment also sets the ground for Toffeeβs healing arc#Im very serious when I say that Toffee as I have studied for seven years would struggle to embrace real positive growth#while the main issues in Mewni are still ongoing#heβd be focused on that like he has for hundreds of years instead of himself#and he NEEDS and that arc#also uh is it too soon to say that even though Iβm gonna be putting so much effort into this new governmentβ¦#β¦ it really does not last as long as they wanted#due to#a certain individual down the line#who wants to abuse monarchical power for their own sick twisted goals#GOD Iβm so excited for the antagonist of the AU to develop#ok I reached my tag limit :β)
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Writing fanfic is so dangerous bc whenever I see the name βSeth Gordonβ now, my brain just goes βSETH!! My man!!! My dude!!! Allison and Reneeβs platonic husband!!!!β And then I have to take a moment of silence as I remember that oh. Oh, in canon, he is first an asshole and then dead
#truly itβs a struggle#my brain saw him and decided heβs free real estate#I just think this guy has so much potential to be explored in AU#my fascination with him is entirely based in the quote from tfc where he explains why he hates Kevin so much#βhis life is not more important than mine just because heβs more talentedβ#and the entire conversation surrounding that#Seth is a foil to the part of Neil that is all boundless jealousy over being the discarded one while Kevin Day shines#and just like Seth is often forgotten about I feel like that part of Neil is not often talked about either even tho itβs so essential to him#itβs literally quoted to be the thing Andrew found so interesting as to let him stay#and Seth is a character who potentially could carry that same theme with a perspective that is both unique and complimentary to Neil#which is why I fully am with the EC part where Nora says she thinks they would have been friends#and I would love to see that friendship explored#just like I would love to see Sethβs character growth and redemption leading to a better relationship with the upperclassmen#which is exactly what brings me to Renee/Allison&Seth#Seth and Allison breaking up for good and happily settling into a very committed platonic relationship is something that can be so personal#I have so many thoughts about their relationship rattling around in my brain I swear#and ofc Renison bc they are incredibly canon to me#and I think it could be really interesting to explore where Renee and Seth may find common causes when they are pulled together via Allison#aftg#aftg spoilers#all for the game#the foxhole court#aftg headcanon#aftg hc#seth gordon#renee walker#allison reynolds
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Since charaβs true name is based off the pun βcharaβcter would Asloβs siblings true name be Uma based off of hβumaβn?
that wouldn't really work aslo is a full monster (half boss). aslo more so represents Asriel and Asgore's poor naming conventions. (Asriel is a combo of Asgore and Toriel)
its a nice thought tho! by your logic if chara were to have a kid they'd be name Manny (human) or Monty (monster) since they're not human anymore
#ooc#tbd#not art#NOT that I see my chara ever having kids or at least until they decide to give up their immortality#considering a big part of the reason asriel had a kid was to age alongside Frisk and everyone else they know#since Chara chose not to do that and plans on staying immortal i'd see them fully committing to that#living as a guardian to their family and friend's decedents throughout time#until they decide to finally settle down and most likely donating magic instead of actually having a kid#but who knows what kind of person chara would be 1000 years from now? maybe they would want to be a parent eventually! its so far off into#the future there's no way of knowing what Chara would do then.#but yeah i think its poetic that chara who's entire life changed because they tried to die at mt.ebott (and sadly succeded the second time)#then becomes immortal and wishes to stay immortal#like that? thats growth. they've literally learned to embrace being alive and the future to such an absurd extreme ahah
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i see this anon ask you cool stuff all the time so I thought I'd take a jab at it(even though it reallyIS kind of a stupid question,) but do you believe love is real? i like hearing ur takes on things boss and I'd like to hear your input on this too :p
- THEEE SUPERFAN ANON hello why do they make the text with fontsSO MUCH BIGGER
Hello! Yes I do, I love my mom, I love my cats, I love the world and nature and people and infrastructure and fish and ecology, and I love my girlfriend :)
As a more in depth response, yes. Resoundedly. Love and wonder are things I've really tried to cultivate for myself and doing so in a critical manner is what got me past the Intense Hopelessness that comes after Realizations (as mentioned in my other recent post). It is inextricable from my interacting with the world. I don't have much to say in all honestly because this is very foundational to me.
As for if you meant romantic love specifically, also yes. I've had a much more convoluted experience with that since I was in great denial about my sexuality for a very very long time, to some extensive degrees. Even when I came to terms with the fact that I was a lesbian, I remained in denial and numb to any romantic feelings I had. In general, I am very even keel in a way that makes it easy for me to dismiss things, and subconsciously, I was doing that a lot. Romance was something that sounded nice, but I was alright without, and thought would never happen.
And then my girlfriend told me she had a crush on me, haha. And I had to take a good long look at myself and how I was feeling, and it sort of felt like prying open a clam and I'm doing the prying and I'm also the clam, and it still sort of feels like that sometimes, but I was, thankfully, in a place where I was able to acknowledge how I felt, even though I'd originally been oblivious to it.
It's been going great. It's long distance, which sucks, but we still make time for each other. She visited recently and it was amazing. I was so worried that somehow I'd tricked myself, you know? But no. We bumbled over kissing and stuff and I felt like a fool and it was absolutely perfect because it's how it was for us.
I think, I could live without romance, and I would be okay. But it's really nice. I like loving and trusting someone like I do my girlfriend. I love feeling close with her. I love sharing things with her. Everything I do with her just feels a bit sweeter.
So yes, I do think love exists. Love as a whole is a foundational part of human society, really. And romance is a big part, too. I don't think it's terrible to go without it, god knows me and her kind of both took our time before starting our first real relationship, but it's very, very nice if you find it.
#sfa#many kids struggle to know who they are outside of romance in the sense that they either struggle to not be in a relationship or struggle#with the fact that they arent in one. And I do think it's very very important to be satisfied with who you are and what you do outside of#them. But I like that my girlfriend and I encourage each other to grow.#tl;dr for the tags.. let yourself grow on your own time. dont feel pressured either way. dont settle for someone who isnt#supporting your growth
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I loooove it when OCS go in the complete opposite direction of the path you set them on btw. Love it when kind OCS turn into bitter cunts, and asshole OCS turn into gentle sweethearts. Such is the nature of the characters
#thinking about my guys#citrus was always set to get his redemption and settle down so his stuff isnt a complete 180Β°#and the evil shit he did is still part of his story and growth#meanwhile. viola was supposed to be a sweetheart but ended up a bastard and a pest#gyrian was meant to be a hyper carnivore horrific gore monster and now hes just a dad whos also a dinosaur#orchard. oh orchard. he was a one off jokey character i never paid attention to and now look at him. hes traumatized and sad#as it is so it were....#π‘ incoming transmission π‘#ocs
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Can I just say how I love how you went from βnot a fan of yanderes outside of the horror aspectβ to actively writing yandere thirst lol, welcome to the club! /lh
LMFAOOO PLEASE I THINK ABT THIS ALL THE TIME ! ! ! i think one part of it was that i didn't really like the popular potrayal of yanderes and then when the obsession and worship aspect sunk in i was like Oh No.
i was like this w dark content in general too tho i think i was just in denial. i think i felt bad about enjoying it at one point and then it was like. a switch flipped. im a freak now openly idc anymore. i want that dude to kidnap me and treat me like a cute rabbit in a cage so what
#return to sender#idk if its obvious but i really stopped giving a fuck this last year LMFAOOO#like i think i realized how inconsequential it was to enjoy it. like it doesnt matter#yandere cw#ask to tag#i honestly think cassies sukuna monsterfucking fic really did me in ngl#i remember reading that fic and being like Hm.#ive had this blog for 2 years now and i feel more like. settled in my internet fuckery#at the start i used to get a lot more hate for doing Anything than i do now#but now im like. yeah man. what of it. are u gonna blow me up if i want him to lock me up.#character growth as they say#im a lot less careful about shit now then i was#weirdly i think the smaller my blog was the more people felt comfortable being assholes. v strange
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Soulmate Search
for @imlevis requested fandoms jujutsu kaisen and blue lock
from jujutsu kaisen the cursed womb brother chΕsΕ
from blue lock the all rounder mikage reo
#Valβs Soulmate Search#jjk was the hard one#I browsed the character list for 3 episodes of bnha#I settled on chΕsΕ because of his growth after attaching to itadori#at first heβs calm and detached but also protective and loving of his brothers#I think chΕsΕ after falling for you would be willing to try anything for you#heβd follow you to the ends of the earth and protect you until that energy of yours depletes#heβs the type willing to follow you and try new things even if it isnβt his thing#and he can squish nasty bugs#reo was a pretty instant decision#plus he comes with a free nagi#Reo would be active with you and try all sorts of stuff#plus he has money so you really could try anything#you may not like that heβs always so good at everything tho#even tho heβs pretty go go go I bet he enjoys those nice quiet home dates too#my graphics kinda suck and I used your own dividers haha
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*slaps oc* this bad boy can fit so many themes and motifs in it
#it's funny because i have these two ocs that are in the same story and one of them has like. five themes#and the other has one#...so far#we've got Kris (knights and the number 2 and hide and seek and gold and romantic loneliness) (although I might take out that last one)#and I haven't fully settled on a name but I'm thinking Nate#who is themed around like. fire#oh and pacifism I guess?? Less of a theme#anyway. these bad boys can also fit so much character growth and lessons in them.#mark my words#this will not be the last you here of them#someday they will make it big#(actually getting a post on my blog with their appearance)#original post#my post#my ocs
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