#my exact reaction irl btw

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ok SO

toriel died

sans dies

frisk turned back time

they got mad

threatened to hurt other peoples moms

a kid freaked out and got his mom

and sans had to deal with it

... what kinda fuckery is this

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My take 🤬

On how this is another clear case of antifeminism (by women & men bc women can suck too, obs), doblestandard and maybe even racism, not sure about the latter but wouldn’t be surprised if it also plays a role in the snowball effect, frankly. And also, on how Ayo unfortunately doesn’t know how to handle this, maybe due to her young age, or her short tenure in the biz or bc her PR team, that is supposed to offer guidance in these kinda situations, fucking sucks, or all of the above. And lastly, if I were her publicist this wouldn’t have escalated so absurdly, hereby I offer my services probono to my girl, Ayo 🖤

1- IMO this game sighting was staged, they invited and asked them to go and sit there to get full visibility as a PR move. Those kinda promotions that intend not to look like they are promoting shit but they are. JAW is an expert on that, Ayo isn’t. Thus, his playing with her hair was part of an improv, that was not JAW, he was actually kinda playing Carmy for a sec for the fans, fully knowing they were gonna get photographed, etc. It was just a show! To entice the exact same reaction of the sydcarmy fans that they indeed got >>> frenzy 🤩. Period. Fully calculated by the PR team and innocent. Nothing wrong with that bc as any PR move, it’s consensual, and pre-agreed upon, they all play the game, they all knew it was a promo sighting of the cast to get attention, otherwise they wouldn’t have sat there or in that order. I wouldn’t even be surprised if they actually instructed them to smile, talk to the ppl sitting nearby, take selfies, “hug”, etc, it’s standard PR casual promo procedure. No biggie. The playing with her braids was part of that.

2- The whole cast is always super comfortable with each other, and touchy-feely, they all get along super well, and they trust and respect each other, it has always been like that, which is probably why they were on board with this PR move, to begin with. On numerous previous occasions Ayo and Ebon, for instance, have been holding hands in award shows, Ebon and Fak kissed on stage, Jaw and Ayo always, and I can’t emphasize this enough, always hug and touch as a sign of affection, same thing with Ayo and Molly who are also friends IRL, from even before MG joined TB, so, I hope that my point is clear by now but I will get into it anyway:

3- The fact that this whole thing, that shoulda just been treated as an innocent PR move and absolutely nothing else, and shoulda NEVER bit any of the involved ppl in the ass, specially Ayo, is due to misogyny - lack of correct media handling by those who are in the payroll to do exactly that - lack of Ayo’s experience (not her fault tho, that’s what PR teams are for when they aren’t free loading on you) bc she’s amazing but young and JAW is almost the same age but has like a decade of more experience and thus thicker skin, a divorce under his belt and he’s a guy - and lastly: maybe even racism and here’s why (FYI: I’m pissed! ⚠️ So deal with it):

Who the fuck said that touching a fucking braid is wrong even if they were happily married to other ppl?

Why the fuck Ebon kissing Matty (both happily married, btw) is just an innocent joke between coworkers we all laughed along with, but the literal 3 sec touching of a couple of braids between friends and coworkers that we all know are in other relationships and promoting a show rn is treated by some assholes like fucking adultery?!

Why the fuck that Ayo literally wraps her legs around MG in a game with a big smile, (when both are in a relationship, btw) is not read into in the same way as JAW casually touching Ayo’s hair for a few secs?!

Why a woman should give anyone any fucking explanation on why she let her friend/coworker do that and on why she's clearly not a slut or that they are not cheating on their respective partners, etc?!

Obvs I’m gonna be fucking telling you why right about now:

Because the usual suspects (racists that already hate Ayo just for being successful and hate even more any kinda of interracial interaction both IRL and on TV) are always waiting for the slightest chance to spew their fucking venom online and troll their way into attentionwhoring on every fucking platform they can get their filthy fingers on!

Because even women attack her or question her intentions if she dares to be slightly touched by JAW jumping to the conclusion that they are obs cheating bastards.

And because Ayo bought into it and got caught up in this whole thing due to the aforementioned reasons and unfortunately, her PR team/manager etc don’t have her back. A minor counter-PR move coulda stopped this madness 2 days ago right after the game and nothing woulda happened bc nothing shoulda happened! But I guess they are maybe idiots or too old school who think any publicity is good publicity.

The double standard of lowkey slut shaming or doubting the good intentions of a woman just because someone dares touching her fucking hair in public has to stop!

I’m also defending JAW here, he did nothing wrong and a bunch of prues, racists, idiots, and ppl who can’t tell a promo from real life or fiction from reality completely twisted and turned EVERYTHING and fucking ruined something that shoulda been just cute and fun.

So summing up: 🖕🏿

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feel like I should be saying my family's reactions to dead boy detectives so far cause theyve been. interesting. completely out of order btw this was as I remembered them (we're only up to EP 3 so far but I've seen up to the beginning of ep 7 alone)

all of them were tricked by the clown costumes

my sister loves Niko so much

my dad has been laughing at all the jokes

both laughed at the "we have the same left" joke because they have an irl friend who does the exact same thing. this was the joke I used to convince my mom to watch the show at all

I forget how detail-oriented my mom is while watching EP 3 she noticed Charles' reactions before they'd even started the case and guessed about his dad

my parents were born in the 70s. The 80s jokes have gotten them

my mom knew Charles was crushing on Crystal almost instantly, has laughed at all of his flirting so far

she also asked me why the cat king manifests as a gay human specifically. I didn't have an answer so I told her "why not?"

my sister compared Monty to an irl friend of ours. my mom immediately warned him to please not follow Monty's lead, because boy is not subtle

none of them have laughed as much at Edwin being petty as I have. I don't know if they see it yet

my mom really wants to know how Charles died. She's been guessing (wrong twice now) so I reiterated Edwin's line in the first ep and we'll see where she goes with it

i have to try desperately to answer my mom's questions without spoiling anything. it's getting harder.

they collectively hated the misery wraith

my sister watched the cat king scene in ep 2, waited for the silence as it ended, and said, "I didn't think this show could get weirder." I told her to just wait

My dad's convinced Jenny is going to be the big key to something. I shrugged and silently thought about Girl's Night.

my dad agreed when I said the night nurse gives Shax vibes

My sister questions why animals are pining for Edwin. I didn't have an answer for her

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HSL episode 12 is so unhinged/chaotic (?) [a long post with many screenshots yayyy]

As you guys might know, we can get up to 6 illustrations on episode 12, so A LOT happens. Some of those things are very laughable, but others are not so much... I'll talk about everything in order of occurrence.

!!!: I'm sorry if "unhinged" or "chaotic" is not the right word for what I'm trying to say. although I'm confident enough in English, it's still not my 1st language. btw, i tried to post this 3 times and something always goes wrong, I'm stressed, so I'll be really happy with an interaction

btw again, if you're brazilian and would like to see this in Portuguese on Twitter or here, please let me know!!!

Mrs. Shermansky being toxic af and the exact opposite of how a good educator should act [in my opinion]

So... I get that she was worried about Candy and Castiel getting lost. But if you really think telling a teenager that the only thing they have ever done is to cause trouble is a good way to advert/encourage them to do the right thing next time is the best approach, please rethink your ways.

2. Mr. Faraize being a sweetheart, he is such a nice teacher

I'm not saying that to be a nice teacher you have to sugarcoat everything all the time and just not scold your students at all. But Mr. Faraize was so nice about it all, he just seemed happy/relieved to know his students were well and safe.

Side [angry] comment about episode 11: Bro, that race was so unorganized!!!! The least the school should have done was provide extra maps in case of accidents like the one that happened with Candy and the LI. Mr. Faraize was wrong too, he shouldn't have let Candy and the LI [in my case, Castiel] proceed after hearing that we had been fkn lost bc we lost the map and we were just wandering until we found the right track. UGH... If that happened irl with my little brother or idk any kid that happens to be in my life, I'd be so furious... ANYWAYS!

3. Born to be a star

He is loving the attention!

4. Violet, as always, being the most precious being in that school. [I'm sorry about the screenshot I used, I forgot to take others]

She's just so sweet and adorable, I want to hug her. YOU'RE NOT DUMB, BABYYYY.

4. Armin's reaction to Alexy's secret admirer

before the declaration:

after the declaration:

Honestly, I was just so happy to see that Armin didn't out his brother when he heard that a girl was interested on him. I didn't remember the details of this scene bc I was probably 12 y/o when i first played it.

5. Candy being paranoid that half of the boys at SA will turn out to be gay/not straight

This girl cracks me up istg... and why the fuck

she was just so worried to ask Castiel bc she thought he would get angry. Girl, we don't do fragile masculinity here.

6. Candy goes completely sidetracked on her CasLys fanfic just to check Lys's tattoo and witnessing one of the biggest bombs of MCL

I didn't get many screenshots from this part, because it's just sad when you know what it's all about in the end... but yeah instead of spying on Lys, Candy ends up seeing Nath's bruised body and is also caught by him.

Someone has probably done this already idrk, but I'm gathering some screenshots of moments that foreshadowed that something was just not right at Nath's and Amber's house... It'll probably take a while for me to post, but I'll try.

7. Nath being for real

He was so right for calling her dumb!!!! I think I was ranting about this on Twitter recently when I replayed the beach episode…

8. Lys’s reaction to the whole story [an icon]

I regret not taking screenshots sooner, but I was just too distracted laughing my ass off! There literally was about 2/3 scenes of just: 

Lys: 🤨[...] Candy: [Doesn’t know what to say/says something stupid] Lys: 🤨[...] Candy: [Doesn’t know what to say/says something stupid

Again, she doesn’t say anything [to get the image you need to go for this choice]

And then he shoes you his tattoo! Bro, he was SO COOL about it! If Candy had just asked nicely… But no, she has to complicate everything omg istg 

I still laughed a lot tho, I think at some point in this episode Cas said that this trait of Candy and her need to know and talk about everything is what makes her fun. I agree with him. She is annoying sometimes but definitely entertaining for the gossipers.

9. May the fanfic continue

Insert some dialogues here: Basically Cas sees Candy near them listening to their conversation and he asks what’s up. Candy approaches them and is like “uhhh…. Are you……….?” Then Castiel says:

For my mind’s sake let’s just imagine that the “offended” was not for “I’m offended you thought I was gay”, but for “I’m offended that you thought I’m dating Castiel when he’s not on my level of gentlemanliness and when I deserve so much more than this grumpy angsty tomato head” (don’t get me wrong, I love Castiel and I’d die for him, but it’s either that or think of a homophobic Lys, which I don’t think it’s the case for him)

10. Castiel shoots his 29482904 shot with Candy, but she’s stupid

Actually, one thing that I like about this scene is that it leaves open the interpretation of Castiel’s sexuality. Saying that he likes girls doesn’t necessarily mean that he is straight. I love to see that. And disclaimer: if you prefer to think that Cas is, in fact, straight, go ahead. That’s not a problem. He is not a real person and we’re allowed to imagine and speculate things, so this is just a headcanon of mine that he might be bi/pan or just simply not straight.

11. Amber and Kentin kiss

That alone is just unhinged and chaotic. I don’t need to say much. 

BUT I’M SO GLAD HE IS BACK!!! He’s gonna be a little shit for a while, because I think my Candy lost some points with him bc of a wrong choice after he left, but that’s fine! I MISSED HIM!!!

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I hope you had fun with this little throwback!

[winderlylandchime]

I swear i thought i replied to some of your questions a few days ago but i’m starting to think that I might’ve forgotten to and now i feel bad. But to summarize it: When we first started watching, he thought that Gale looked a little bit like Ashton Kutcher (but older version) and it was the funniest thing ever to me. He did only talk about it in the pilot though. Btw I am more and more tempted to later on give him Gale’s out of the box interview to watch. Or Randy’s podcast. He has been asking me about the actors a lot lately and if they still act and where are they and if theyre all still friends and I’m avoiding answering because well, one of them abandoned his podcast and the other one we dont even know if he’s still alive until we get a new photo. But I do wonder how he will react when he finds out Gale is straight ngl because right now he fully thinks Gale is gay irl.

Also yes, he has been going on and on about Brian’s growth and how he’s changed since he clocked it around 4th episode. He is so happy that he’s growing and allowing himself to be happy and in love even if he doesn’t want to admit it, that i just know the second 5x01 will start, he will have a mental breakdown and it will be very valid of him.

Your celebrities/therapist story actually made me curious now because how can a celeb that is well known, even get a therapist then without weirdness. I had no clue this was kind of a thing. And yes! My brother would absolutely launch into a discussion about Gale without shame, he’d have pictures and everything ready for it. I mean his confidence when it comes to talking to literally anyone about anything in his life (usually interests and shit he’s done thats funny to him or in this case the show) is impressive as fuck but also for an innocent bystander like me? actually a nightmare to be around that. He truly doesn’t give a single fuck and has zero shame and all the confidence in the world and idk how he does it. He just tells anyone who will listen (not in a trauma dumping type of way but like his interests and such? No shame) to give an example: when he was in high school he made an entire poster presentation for his class to talk about his love for the movie School of Rock and HE DID IT BY SINGING A FAKE ROCK N ROLL SONG (id give anything to remember the lyrics). Mind you, the presentation was supposed to be about current events in politics/world and School of Rock came out like a year or two prior. So you best believe he would do the exact same for Gale or more importantly QAF/Brian/Britin. And as someone who does shy away from talking about qaf just because it is a lot, he on the other hand truly gives zero fucks. Because when we started watching the show, he was fully explaining to the nurses/doctors/anyone that listened(our parents!!!) about how the show is AND HOW BRITIN MET! He TALKED ABOUT THE RIM JOB! I NEVER EVEN FUCKING TOLD YALL THAT! HE TALKED TO OTHER HUMANS ABOUT THE RIM JOB! AND HE WAS FULLY EXPLAINING IT bc he was shocked and surprised at how they filmed it and couldn’t figure out if that meant gale really did do it or not. So if you ever feel like maybe you’ve overshared about something you like and it keeps you up at night. Fear no more because my brother has for sure shared even more and has zero regrets about it.

It is hard to believe Gale is straight because he is that good of an actor and just went fully into the role and really thought deeply about who Brian is. Ugh it hurts my heart to think about just because it’s so full of appreciation for Gale and Randy.

I think you could show him any media that was released while the show was airing. But maybe avoid anything more current? Until he’s done and his heart is broken. He is going to be so upset by all the back pedaling in s5. Which is the correct reaction.

(I kinda love how as a fandom we’re like this is on the writers because Brian would never. Justin would never.)

I have a specific approach I take when I have celebrity clients and I think I could be a therapist to someone I’m a casual fan of. I could never be a therapist to someone I’m actively in a fandom for. I would have to leave the fandom, for starters.

HE TOLD PEOPLE ABOUT THE RIMMING SCENE!?! Oh my god. Anon you have to at least have him listen to Randy’s podcast episode about bottoming where he essentially said that Justin was too naive to do any prep and therefore someone experienced would have never rimmed him without making him at least shower first.

However I will feel so much better about over sharing now. Because holy shit I’ve never overshared like that.

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Hey there, it's Ray from Youtube! Thank you so much again for your response to my exceptionally long message, I really appreciate that you took so much time to reply to me! I watched your worldbuilding video and read the blog post you linked, and it actually helped me solve a major remaining issue in my magic system, so thank you for that as well! Anyway — I think one of the main reasons I've been struggling so much is because I'm not great at revision, so I feel like everything needs to (cont.)

(continued from previous) be at least pretty good on my first try. This is another hurdle for me in writing my book series, which is heightened by its closeness to my heart. Right now, I feel like I can't let myself write the first scene before I know exactly what the inside of the protagonist's home looks like, which I've never done for any of my other works. There are definitely still things I need to plan, but I know I'm overpreparing. In your reply to me, you (cont— last one, I promise!)

(cont.) mentioned that allowing yourself to be imperfect (which I think I prefer over "purposefully writing badly") and prioritizing joy helped you finally cross the hurdle for the project where you had the same issue as me. What helped you specifically take that first step of starting? Also - thank you again for replying and offering to chat with me! BTW, I love your published work - it's so unique. You have such incredible imagination & voice. Can't wait to read one of your books!

This answer was longer than I thought, so I've put it under the cut! TL;DR - I discuss overcoming perfectionism in writing, drafting and editing anxiety, and what drove me to work on my perfectionism!

Hi Ray, thank you so much for reaching out! First: thank you for your kind words about my writing, your support is so appreciated! <3 :)

I'm also SO happy to hear about the magic system thing, I'm happy the video was helpful! Onto your ask!

I think one of the main reasons I've been struggling so much is because I'm not great at revision, so I feel like everything needs to be at least pretty good on my first try.

I hear you about needing things to be perfect on the first try because you're not super set on your revision skills just yet--coincidentally, this is an issue I was thinking of yesterday, as someone who was also in this exact position!

I think I'll make a video about this, because from the comments on the "scared of my book" video, this seems to be an issue a LOT of writers have (including me)! From the majority of writers I've met IRL and online, most who struggle with perfectionism do it for one of two reasons (or some from both): a) you aren't confident you can revise, and/or b) you're afraid of judgement.

Let's break down A since that's what you noted!

A: Writer feels they need to write perfectly on the first go because they're not confident in their editing abilities.

This is a super normal reaction to a very typical problem in writing, and will especially become relevant the longer you write (and see yourself improving, since improvement can sometimes create expectations--which is another problem)!

It's funny, because we can't get better at revision if we don't practice revision. This issue stopped me from writing my book Feeding Habits because I was like... "this needs to be perfect on the first go." Looking back, I'm not sure why I thought that, but I now realize it's because back then, I didn't even know how to approach revision.

Not knowing how to revise is NORMAL! It's such a different skill to drafting, so these feelings are very, very valid (and every writer I know has had them). The hard truth though, is that if a writer doesn't practice revision, they won't get better at it. It took me the hard way to realize this (a year after writing a solid chunk of Feeding Habits to realize it needed structural revisions). Funnily enough, revising those chapters I refused to revise because I needed them to be perfect on the first try (even though they weren't) taught me 20x more than trying to perfect their drafts on the first go.

Right now, I feel like I can't let myself write the first scene before I know exactly what the inside of the protagonist's home looks like, which I've never done for any of my other works. There are definitely still things I need to plan, but I know I'm overpreparing.

Overpreparing is something I used to do a LOT out of anxiety that my work would turn out imperfectly (and again, I think this is so common--you're absolutely not alone). The moment I addressed that I was overprepping to quell my anxiety was when I actually could take steps toward deprogramming that behaviour. I slowly realized that I DIDN'T need to know everything in order to write, so why was I even trying to learn everything in the first place? It was because I was so anxious that if I didn't, I'd have a bigger chance at "messing up" and I couldn't mess up because I didn't know how to revise (see point A)!

In your reply to me, you mentioned that allowing yourself to be imperfect... and prioritizing joy helped you finally cross the hurdle for the project where you had the same issue as me. What helped you specifically take that first step of starting?

The reason I noted the things above before answering your question is because they're really important context. I really feel for what you're experiencing because I honestly went through the same thing, and I'm happy to help any writers!

CW here: discussions of mental health

To answer the question of why I began prioritizing my joy and being okay with being imperfect, I should give some context, because this is honestly the truth: I pretty much had to!

I started experiencing really debilitating perfectionism in mid 2018-ish (I was 16). I'd made a genre switch toward literary fiction and also felt like I'd solidified my "writing style." The genre switch and finding my writing style were hugely positive things for my process! Who doesn't want to find a genre they like to write, and who doesn't want to find their writing style?

The issue was that when I became conscious that I'd made developments as a writer (and what felt like huge developments), the more petrified I was of accidentally "reversing" them by writing something "bad." If I could talk to myself back then, I would just say one thing: you can't reverse your accomplishments in writing. I would go on to write bad paragraphs, bad sentences, bad chapters, bad books! My style got convoluted, my literary fiction became confusing and shallow. But I never, ever lost the overall accomplishments of finding my style and finding a genre I loved (I also experienced extremely positive things in my writing too!).

Writing isn't linear progression (sometimes I look back at things I wrote 4 years ago and am certain I couldn't recreate that now), but you do progress overall. It's like climbing a really, really steep hill, where sometimes you might slip or take a longer path because you turned the wrong way, etc, but at the end of it, you're still moving up.

This gets me all the way to nearly mid-2021, when I was still badly struggling with perfectionism. In this three year stretch, I was really struggling with my mental health, but this kind of felt like a tipping point where I felt very trapped in a routine I didn't want to be in anymore. I was struggling to get through days even though my external life was totally fine, and I was also very, very unhappy I remember posting videos to my channel that summer, and sometimes I'd get comments saying, "you look so happy/good/excited" and I never knew what to say because I felt very empty and no one except me could tell!

Struggling with writing was the LAST thing I needed (because writing is my safe space, and it was starting to become hellish due to my perfectionism, so I felt like I had no safe space left--this was detrimental and I knew it FAST, when my feelings worsened). So to answer the question, I was prompted to take the first steps of changing my process and perfectionism because I was struggling, and I'm not sure what would've happened if I hadn't!

However, I don't remember a single moment where I was like, "I'm going to turn my life around today," but I remember there being moments where I'd be thinking to myself, "I don't want writing to be like this anymore," or, "I'm just going to make this easier by doing this," or "I'm going to try to move past this." Instead, the changes were subtler, or at the very least took some pondering to make.

I had been working on a 10k word chapter in Feeding Habits for half a year, and decided, after weeks of contemplating, to remove it. That freed up my process a bit! I then started telling myself whenever a voice in my head would go "this is so bad" while drafting that "it's okay if this isn't perfect, I'm going to move on," and 10 times out of 10, I'd come back a day later, read what I wrote, and make very little changes because the draft was much better than I thought. I then did a bigger thing by rewriting a chapter entirely from the book, which I'd NEVER done. It took me a month of working at it little by little (and constant reminders that I didn’t need to perfect it), but at the end of it, I felt much better about the book. All these very small things I was doing were a covert way to tell myself that trusting myself was okay! If I gave myself permission to move on from line-level perfectionism while drafting, I was pretty much telling myself that I accepted the draft where it was, and could always come back and tweak it later (even if I couldn't do a perfect job then).

I'd built up a bit more confidence doing these things, as I'd gotten used to letting "imperfect" drafts lie around (some of which I have hardly touched since, as they were totally fine to begin with and didn't need lots of revision to begin with). A HUGE thing that helped me that year was writing 11k words of a fantasy novel (brand new genre to me) in one day. I'd barely planned the book, knew nothing about the genre, etc, but having this extreme goal really forced me to face my fears of imperfection early on (as I'd make a decision at 1PM that day and then realize I'd have to fix it at 6PM that day when I made another decision that contradicted it, etc). This is pretty extreme, but it did help me so much, because I learned to sit in the discomfort of knowing the draft wasn't perfect but moving on anyway.

Practicing this grace of allowing myself to fail in incremental steps has built me up into a much, much stronger writer a year and a half later. I look back on that time and I'm kind of shocked as to where my mind was regarding my writing, because things have changed SO much!

It's funny to say, "all this took was allowing myself to make mistakes" because it makes it sound like giving yourself permission to be imperfect is easy. It's absolutely NOT. Every time I draft, there's a moment where my brain is like, "hey this is bad," but I've gotten into the habit of then calmly telling myself "hey it's okay if this isn't perfect, I'm going to keep going now." Just as much as writing is practice, editing is practice, etc, shaking perfectionism is practice and something I now do every day. It becomes easier each day I do it.

For example, a couple months ago, I was reading books from a writer I really admire, and I was quite literally feeling extremely inadequate about my writing. I was shocked to feel this way, because it'd been over a year since I last felt so badly about my work, but instead of letting that drive my process, I took the skills I'd learned and applied them. I reminded myself that I was writing a first draft, and that what I was reading was a published book--that's like comparing apples to oranges. I reminded myself that I have my own style and my own approach to writing, so of course my writing isn't going to be the same as another writer's. I also reminded myself that if I REALLY was unhappy with how something turned out, I could rewrite it or revise it at a different time. Then I moved on. Couple hours later, I had one of the best writing sessions of my life.

So the practice really has paid off for me, even though it was SO hard! 2022 was the best year I've had for writing maybe ever because I felt so much freer than I have before! I only wrote things that made me excited (and this doesn't mean writing was smooth sailing 100% of the time--it just means that I was still relatively passionate about something even if it was giving me issues). Learning to trust myself as a writer over the last year and a bit is the best thing I've done for my process because it's made me SO MUCH more confident. So what if I write badly? I don't care anymore (or at least as much, and sometimes not at all)! So what if I embarrass myself? It's not as big of deal to me anymore, and if it is, I can talk myself through those feelings (example: I posted a video reading excerpts of my book on YouTube, and 2 days ago, was re-reading one of the excerpts and was SOOO embarrassed that other people had read this, but then took 30 seconds to talk myself through the issue by reminding myself this video was for fun, the excerpt makes me feel excited, and that I actually do like it even though I'm uncomfortable in this moment knowing other people could judge it, positively or negatively).

Anyway, I know this was SUPER long, but I just wanted to share the full breadth of my thoughts. I wonder if you'd mind if I made a video on this topic because it's something I haven't talked about in-depth before!

Wishing you all the best, Ray, I absolutely believe in you! Always feel free to reach out, my DMs are also open! <3

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USER FIZZTHELEE PULLING UP WITH ANOTHER TICKLE DREAM, AND HOLY FUCK ITS A LOT /POS

this is a lot of words to the point its just a terribly set up fic so props to you if you read the whole thing

Alright. So Tommy posts a new video, Sadly i don’t remember what it was called nor do i remember what channel he posted it on, but it was probably the Tom Simons channel. However i can remember the thumbnail, i just dont know how to explain it.

Anyways. This is everyone in the video:

Tommy(duh)

Tubbo

Ranboo

Karl

MrBeast

Wilbur

Techno

And i think there might’ve been more but i cant fucking REMEMBER. Also when did this giant meetup happen? No fucking clue LMFAO

Anyways. So what they’re doing in this video, it’s basically seeing who of that group can last the longest being tickled. I guess its not very fair that everyone would have 5 people tickling them, but still. In the dream they actually got through everybody, but it cut off & i woke up before Tommy and Techno’s turn. However i will end up saying how i think their turns would’ve gone!

So up first was..

*drumroll*

TUBBO! WOOOOOOO

so it’s Tubbo up first, and when Jimmy announces this (jimmy didn’t have a turn btw, i think he should’ve had a turn bc it isnt his channel that it was posted on) Tubbo has a look of dread, anticipation, and excitement. He tried real hard to make it look like more of dread, but it was really mostly excitement and anticipation.

Tubbo sits down in a comfortable enough chair that he won’t get hurt from squirming, and he is trying to prepare himself (kind of like how he did in the IRL ylyl back in october, like closing his eyes, breathing and doing that hand motion) as Tommy, Ranboo, Wilbur, Karl, And Techno crowded around him.

And then the second he opened his eyes he broke into giggles and his face flushed pink. Could you imagine that? Your sitting in a chair knowing you’re gonna end up being tickled, and you look up to see 5 people smirking at you and ready to strike.

Tommy and Ranboo had more ‘evil’ looks than anyone else in the room—they know Tubbo’s spots better than anybody, which made Tubbo even more giddy. Everyone teased him for being so giggly without them even doing anything, and when Tubbo least expected, everyone started tickling him. Techno at his knees, Wilbur on his neck/ears, Karl at his hips, Tommy at his sides, and Ranboo at his stomach.

My man SCREECHED and his anticipatory giggles turned into high-pitched laughter. He would be saying things like “NOHOHAHA!“ “STOHOHAHAP” “OHOH SHIHIHIT!” “TOHOHOMMY!” “RAHAHAN— FUHUHUCK KAHAHARL!”

Tubbo lasted about 5 minutes before making everyone stop. And next up, was Wilbur.

Now we all know from a certain clip from one of Ash’s vlogs that Wilbur can hide his reactions very easily, unless he doesn’t expect it and unless you get a certain spot. So this was going to be pretty embarrassing for Tubbo, as for he absolutely lost his shit the second everyone was just looking at him, and Wilbur is gonna show basically no reactions.

So Wilbur sits down exactly where Tubbo had sat, not preparing himself because he thinks he wont show any reactions. But the rest of the group is planning. It was more just Tommy warning everyone that Wilbur will probably be hiding his reactions and not to worry about it, because Tommy knows how to break him.

So they all surround Wilbur, and Wilbur just has a confident smirk on his face. So everyone, except Tommy, starts tickling him, and he barely even fucking giggles.

Tommy was behind the chair, waiting for the exact moment to strike, which was when Wilbur would say something about how he wont break.

“You guys won’t get me, i’m not tickliHIHISH- WHAHAT-? TOHOHOHOMMY!”

Tommy dug his fingers into Wilbur’s ribs, wiggling his fingers between each bone, pinching his top and bottom ribs. Tommy knew EXACTLY what to do to Wilbur, he’s his younger brother! Why wouldn’t he?

Techno was cheering and laughing at wilbur. He’d say stuff like “YEAH TOMMY GET HIM!”

Wilbur lasted two minutes longer than Tubbo.

Next was Karl. This should be less embarrassing for Tubbo! Karl is fucking insanely ticklish, and everyone knows it, even the mcyt / dsmp fandom.

When Jimmy announced it was Karl’s turn and gave Karl a knowing smile, Karl just fucking booked it for a hiding spot. But his hiding rendered useless as he was giggling like mad, so everyone found him pretty quickly.

Jimmy took him out from the hiding spot and set him in the chair. Karl prepared himself exactly how Tubbo did, but he just kept looking at the ground.

I think you know the drill at this point. Except Karl was a really big squirmer and kicker, so everyone had to fuckin dodge his legs and basically his entire body to avoid getting hurt.

As this was going on, Jimmy suddenly announced— “If your name starts with R, your going after Karl!” And he immediately looked at Ranboo. Soon after everyone was looking at Ranboo. Why did he agree to this?

But Tommy got nervous too— he might be going last.

Karl was being tickled for three minutes before he made everyone stop.

“Oh Ranboo!” Wilbur called with a playful smirk. (do you get that reference? a reference of my own fic was in my dream. Wow.)

Ranboo took Karl’s spot in the seat, his cheeks were a bright rosy red. He was thankful for the mask.

Tommy, Tubbo, and Wilbur all gave Ranboo that look that he and Tommy had given Tubbo when it was his turn. Again, WHY DID HE AGREE TO THIS?

Wilbur was crouched beside Ranboo, Tommy on his left, Tubbo on his right, Karl behind him, and Techno on the other side of Wilbur.

Once they started, Ranboo burst into loud cackles. He had three death spots being targeted at once— can you guess who was at each one?

Ranboo lasted a solid 8 minutes, mans has stamina.

Alright now for Tommy and Techno. These two, are just how i think their turns wouldve gone👍

Jimmy span a wheel on his phone(that’s how he’s been choosing who’s turn it is), and when the wheel stopped, he announced, “Techno!”

Techno took Ranboo’s spot on the chair, he was pretty calm about this. So they all took their places around Techno and without warning they started. But Techno had only let out light giggles.

Until Wilbur got to the sides of his back. Techno screamed and tried to lean forward to get away.

Safe to say he lasted 6 minutes.

Tommy skipped tickling Techno, as for he just wants more time to prepare himself. Everyone in the room knows how ticklish he is, they all know his spots. He has to beat Ranboo!

Tommy sat in the chair, he expected it so surely it won’t be as bad.

He infact was wrong, it took everything in him not to laugh. He definitely squirmed a lot more than he normally would, but anything to not laugh. Ranboo knew Tommy wanted to beat his time. And he was doing pretty well— 3 miniutes without laughing. So he did what any good evil person would do, and he drilled his thumbs into Tommy’s hips!

Which of course broke him, and he lasted seven minutes.

SEVEN. He spent another 10 minutes yelling at Ranboo

Woooo tickle dreams

[mitta-likes-moths]

Hey there, I was wondering if you have any miniforce headcanons? If not, that’s cool, happy Valentine’s Day btw

*in the distance you hear cheers and what sounds like screams of happiness, although you’re not very sure. It seems they’re circling back to you!*

any ways- *evil laughter*

-Out of all of them, Max and Lucy are the tallest, Sammy being the shortest

-Max is 0”10

-Lucy is 0”9

-Volt is 0”7

-Sammy is 0”6.5

-It’s not super noticeable but when Volt wants to agitate him he’ll make some short jokes, that usually gets him riled up enough to take whatever challenge or dare was mentioned

-They’re all really strong

-Like come on, academy training and the fact Sammy used to be able to fly gives obvious hints they’re all stronk

-At one point when Sammy was insulting someone he said something along the lines of their head being more hollow than his bones (that’s been in my head for too long)

-This is the exact reason he can jump so high

-When Volt gets spooked or something his tail gets really poofy

-The group regularly picks up Sammy because of how short and light he is, he doesn’t even fight it at this point, he has accepted it as part of his life

-Lucy is the queen at Mario Kart but she doesn’t play it often because it gets kind of boring when you win every time

-By herself at least, beating her is basically a flex and it’s fun to hear the other’s reactions while playing while somehow avoiding sabotage, irl and in game

-Though she is queen of Mario Kart, Sammy is the king of drifting, even when he has been affected by a mini mushroom he will still somehow drift like a god (teach me your ways)

-Despite obviously bad with fast vehicles Volt still chooses the fastest option thinking he’ll win this time

-He doesn’t, but at one point he actually chose a different vehicle and cried happy tears when he got 4th place

-Max is pretty good at it but he and Lucy are the best at accepting defeat, it’s just a never ending competition with the everyone else

-Owl pellets

-Sammy will pull out a bucket at any given moment and puke out an owl pellet and set it off to the side

-Speaking of, he puts any food with bones into his mouth whole and puke out said owl pellet later on, but this doesn’t happen THAT often

-Max is a closeted vocaloid fan

-He can also do a perfect Peppy impression and Volt will occasionally ask him to say “Do a barrel roll!”

-He subconsciously says this out loud at any given moment

-He once saw a small stream and was just in his head, absolutely not, and chucked dirt on the spot

-He came home with a dirty tail and a dirty tail only

-He also has a big fear of spiders, the spider mechon only sort of resembled one which is why he wasn’t scared

-Leo, Lucy, and Sammy are the bug handlers of the group

-Pascal would make an amazing dad and I will fight you on this, it doesn’t matter whether he kidnapped the child or not

-This is canon, but they will all throw hands with a stranger for each other

-Gender is irrelevant and dorms at the miniforce training academy were based purely off of personality and such

-What birds lack in as much endurance as other animals due to hollow bones, they make up for exponentially in speed, agility, and etc.

-The group has physically asked Susie what a gender was and were confused at the fact they wear clothes 24/7

-Animals have non anthro forms as well as their anthro forms that we commonly see in the show, it’s just an ability that not many animals know about anymore

-There are animals that do live with humans and we just don’t see it in the show except for the main four

-Sammy is multilingual, he knows Cambodian, Spanish, asl, etc.

-Susie’s last name is Agnello

-Sammy is insecure about his laugh and dancing skills, part of the reason he doesn’t do either very often

-Even though they’re both awesome

-The crew on tv is the equivalent to Elmo on rove

-Once when Volt was aggressively bargaining, again, Sammy said something along the lines of, “ah yes bargaining, the third stage of grief”

-Sammy walks really quietly, he’s scared a lot of people on accident and maybe on purpose but you didn’t hear that from me

[felassan]

Thoughts on Dark Fortress #2

(This post is under a cut due to spoilers.)

So late with this one! some stuff irl was keeping me really busy and hyper-distracting me lately, but it’s finally over now so I’m back on my bioware bullshit. :D

Overall there were a lot of beautiful or awe-inspiring scenes in this issue, and a lot of great, meaningful / poignant character interactions and moments between characters. It’s pretty impressive actually how much was able to be packed in. I posted some of my favorite panels here. also omg! the action sequences! the big reveal! the ending!! woww

cool scene-setting, panned out shot of Neromenian and behind it, the Dark Fortress, to immediately pull you back into the world and ‘where we left off’. the combination of ruined dead trees, red lights, lightning and fire/smoke is very atmospheric and hints at what’s ahead

“From this... city, if we can call it that” is a sick burn and reminds you that the Qunari are technologically more advanced than most of the rest of Thedas, from their cannons to their aqueducts

more individually distinct Qunari soldiers, sth I again appreciate

! last issue there were big ‘You haven’t seen the last of Tractus!’ vibes, naturally, but I didn’t expect him to escape by stabbing and killing the Qunari using a chair-leg..!!

the last panel on the first page of Karasten is really good. the way it’s colored, the way it’s lit, the light and shadow, the fiery backdrop, cinders floating, the details of his expression.. 👌 it also makes me think to the possible future, to DA4 when mainland Thedas may be continuing to face the entirety of the Antaam

in Vaea’s acrobatics scene on the bridge, I know rationally that she’ll be fine but couldn’t help but worry for her. again I like how they don’t shy away from showcasing Vaea’s specific abilities. also the attention to detail - you’d think some rocks are just some rocks, but it highlights the risk she’s undertaking that if she falls it’s into rough seas which could dash her against the jagged rocks :’S. Vaea, gooooo!

Fenris’ “Enterprising girl” line has big “Clever girl” meme energy :D

my heart can’t take Fran and Autumn leaning over the edge after Vaea in worry ;; or Aaron looking back in concern over his shoulder ;; or Fran’s tender reassurance ;; or Autumn’s Worried expression ;; the care and bonds which have grown between this group of characters ;;

notice Aaron starts drinking when Vaea’s away from them and they’re beginning to grow worried about her safety. the poor man’s nerves and stress levels

Fran touching the vegetation while she’s considering if she could use her magic to open the entrance from the outside is a nice touch

did Marius leap in front of Fenris and Fran there when the entrance opened?? damn, he’s quick. and the three of them look all scary and formidable here ready for combat. notice how the curve of the door and the spikes that go into the ground, and the composition of this panel, make it look like they’re standing in front of an opened dragon’s maw? ‘teeth’, a rumbling ‘roar’.. some nice foreshadowing here.

the reunion panels are so cute. Autumn’s lil tum as she jumps and Fran and Fenris’ lil smiles of relief and at Autumn’s reaction to seeing Vaea, then a rare happy beam from Aaron.. feel.. the love ;__;

red lighting in the tunnel sets a dangerous, dramatic build-up mood

👀 more info on Fenris’ past, on the specifics of the process which gave him his markings. in the panel where he says that it took a long time, his shadow on the wall behind him reminds me of the shadow of his past that has dogged him for so long :(

Fenris and Marius height difference

discussion of the process shows the power difference between blue and red lyrium. blue lyrium took a long time, red lyrium is almost instant

Autumn is such an intrepid little explorer and alert scout, tail and ears up, head forward. good girl!

“I just... worry about you, my girl”  ‧º·(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )‧º·˚  I’ll be so sad if these are death flags for Aaron and he doesn’t make it out of here. also note Fran in this panel, who recently had to kill her own father and is still dealing with that, watching the strongly paternal moment between Aaron and Vaea :(

love Vaea’s faith in Aaron and her sense of humor. also I don’t know why, maybe it’s because Vaea met Sebastian, but her “Maker, no!”, although in a completely different and light-hearted context, reminds me of Sebastian’s “Maker nooo!” at the end of DA2 hh

the reference again to Hawke, who Fenris saw haunted by what they tried to do - save their mother - and couldn’t :’(. also with the shadow in this panel, here’s another person struggling with the shadow of his past qq. this is later emphasized again in Aaron when he continues to talk about his past and in the panel is a chain and manacle. smart visual metaphors, a must in the comic medium with limited space

mushroom skull 💀🍄

“It isn’t about what I’ve done. It isn’t about my failures. Or my choices. It’s about their impact” - he’s misty-eyed here as he thinks back to Ostagar.. does this line btw seem almost meta to anyone else btw? :D it feels like a meta reference to the experience of DA players and PCs, who are always having to deal with the impacts of their choices

I wanna point out that I was right on reading issue #1, when I said “I’m positive that in panel 2 here, it’s the exact moment when he sees Cailan die” ;;

So Aaron is also a veteran of the Battle of Denerim

reference to the Hero of Ferelden - “Those were someone else’s battles”. I’m being captain obvious here but I can’t help but [heart pitter-patter] at any and all references to the HoF

I like the.. parallel? is that the word? Aaron’s stories were him trying to inspire people to make a change, or him trying to convince himself of that. and now here’s Vaea, inspiring Aaron with her words in these panels. the little guys can make a difference! in the world of Thedas, you don’t need to be a big bombastic hero or a Player Character to have an impact 

lmao Fenris right on cue. the moments of humor/light-heartedness are nice because they break up the tension and are sprinkled throughout without derailing build-up or taking away from dramatic story impact. yknow?

yeah Aaron!! leave it behind. leave it to rot with mr mushroom skull (and hey the mushroom skull was there for a reason). again tho if this is a death flag i 

Fenris straight down to business with the tactics

its cute how close Autumn has been sticking to Fran

Tessa checking in on Fran again, as she did in issue 1

Could Vaea’s “Well, shit” be an homage to Varric? :D they have met

I also wanna point out that I was right on reading issue #1, when I said “My guess is that the thing Tractus shows Marquette and Nenealeus is probably a chained up dragon or similar”

the poor dragon :’( big dragon the Qunari had in Trespasser vibes

the sword has a really cool design, kind of reminds me of something a samurai might be depicted wielding

👀 lore-drop! so ancient elven arcane warriors used lyrium-infused swords. this seems to confirm the sarcophagus is an ancient elven artifact, no? makes sense, wasn’t it said that the sarcophagus’ design was based on the architecture/outfit-design type elements of a specific faction, and that this was done intentionally? it looks kinda ancient elfy in make, right? also about the lyrium-infused swords of the arcane warriors, well well well.. remember that the Evanuris and the ancient elves mined the bodies of Titans for lyrium, for power and to use as a resource. here’s an example of that use

as I read through this portion I became increasingly concerned for my boy Shirallas.. we really are in it now aren’t we 😭

the Qunari are launching STRAIGHT-UP ROCKETS ohhhh

pretty ‘lightshow’ over the wall in the “Let’s hope the fortress is as secure as Danarius boasted” panel hh

protective older brother Fenris, impish younger sister Vaea. love that dynamic, we love to see it. sheepish and exasperated Fenris is so cute

the Bone Pit dragon fight with Hawke and co reference!

I wonder how long the dragon has been captive here, and how Danarius/Tractus was able to capture it

lore-wise what are the implications here? when Fenris’ ritual was being undertaken, the sword and the sarcophagus were bombarded with magic, fire spells. in this one they aim to have the dragon bombard it with fire-breathing. is it just fire that makes it work/powers it, or is there magic in dragonfire, in dragons? it reminds me of “Your heart beats with the old blood, as well. Where do you think it comes from? It sings of a time when dragons ruled the skies. A time before the Veil, before the mysteries were forgotten. Can you hear it?”

purple color for the dragon’s growling sounds/typeset is a great idea

lets.. goooo!!!!

Marquette is such a nerd. later on when he activates the sarcophagus he has mad scientist vibes

the dramatic reunion face-offs begin!! as the prophecy foretold!!!!1

true to form, Marius DOES have nothing to say ahahaha, even at this, his personal climax. maybe Marius dies in the next issue, but Tessa lives and gets to go back to Charter

these Venatori look almost Star Wars

Shirallas my boyy.. nooo... don’t do it 😭

ah ah ah! try casting magic with no ARMS

Francesca a beacon of blue light and goodness

the splash combat page is masterful. everyone playing a part, so much going on, everything happening at once. a thing that sticks out to me about it is Aaron’s outstretched hand and alarm as he watches Fran fall 

Autumn with her lil hackles raised

“The Venatori have returned” dun dun dunn

goodbye Shirallas 😭😭😭

the composition of the second to last page with triangle/diamond-shaped panels and the framing of dragon wings is awesome

the Dread Wolf rises, “the Tevinter Imperium will rise again”.. on-point on-point cohesion

there he is, the red wraith

Super Saiyan Shirallas

what a note to end an issue on

wow wow wow!!

and separate to the above, some speculation based on the cover of Issue 3: the piece of metal looks like a broken collar coming off Shirallas, like the one there was on the cover of Issue 2 coming off the dragon. also he’s all bulky now with draconic talons/claws (reminds me of in-world legends of Reavers who dug too deep of their own power after drinking dragon blood and whose bodies consequently began to manifest subtle reptilian traits actually). I’ll be interested to see what results of this allusion between Shirallas and the dragon!!

[ashes-in-a-jar]

Tma relisten Episodes 11-15

So this round already has two other posts out of it about Oliver because he Bae.

These have alot of ideas regarding entities changing around reality, controlling non victims to set the stage, and turning around what people love most to their worst fear. Also insane abilities of the crew to obtain hard to access info and evidence! And some more Jon sass. Enjoy!

11 dreamer

Wow this episode had alot. I made a separate post with a theory about Oliver's statement here and a realization regarding him and Jane Prentiss here. They are alot to unpack

Oliver is so. Freaking. Relatable! Learned economics and hated it. Nearly had a breakdown like him because of it. "going to stay with some of the few friends that had survived my year of stress-fuelled outbursts and constantly cancelled plans." yep. That.

Boyfriend Graham ey? You notebook eating Graham?? Wow that guy is full of surprises.

I love the dream sequences and their descriptions it's a really beautiful thing to try and picture.

Its interesting how he went from passive to desparate to passive again about death. He tries but can't help. I wonder when the dreams started to bother him so much he sought after the silence of point Nemo. Was it when they became so full of red because of the apocalypse coming closer? Hmmm

Another person named John. I guess that makes sense it's a common name. But I forgot how many people are fully named in this podcast. Hundreds of names to come up with! Jonny I'm quite impressed!

He worked with Jane Prentiss in the magic shop! I can't believe I forgot about that! Wow small avatar world indeed.

"It led me to a room, the label of which was still visible, and read “Archive”. I entered to see walls covered with shelves and cabinets stretching off into the distance. These shelves were coated in a sticky black tar, which I knew at that moment was the thickened, pulpy blood that pumped through each and every one of those veins." everything that has to do with the Fears I bet. Full of death and destruction and stolen from the veins to be out on display for the Eye's pleasure.

Yo Jon is scared of this he's seriously considering going to Elias for advice

" I had Tim look into it, as I don’t entirely trust the others not to have written it as a practical joke" wait. He trusts TIM? Not to do a practical joke? How. Why. Eh?

"died in the line of duty" fuck you Jonah.

Now Jon will get every new statement immediately when it's made. Perhaps this was Elias' intention all along. To scare him into making sure he does not miss any paranormal activity recorded by the institute.

12 first aid

I'm not immune to more Gerry badassery, hell yeah

And we get polish Martin which hell yeah! Even if Jon doesn't believe it. I'm sure he's repressing the fact that he's thoroughly impressed.

I think it's really interesting the effect entities have on people who are decidedly not their victims. Everyone leaving no questions so the entity can set the scene for the scare. Like with Gillespie how no one lived in the apartment building he was in etc. Alot of work into a handful of people being genuinely scared.

Gerry's burns stopped at the neck? How did he manage that. Also it's hilarious to imagine that he's like "yes burn all of me but please. not my goth makeup"

Zippo lighter with eye design!! And Jon has web design! They are brothers (joke but still really interesting)

Liquids were boiling around her and she didn't feel the heat. Also an interesting effect just for the scare.

Gerry got eye superpowers like Jon if he can function while injure and filled with painkillers.

“Yes. For you, better beholding than the lightless flame.” Gerry knew she'd be haunted by a Fear from that day on and realised that perhaps being watched would be easier for her specifically to deal with than the Desolation. I guess that's a way of assessing people. Which fear would least bother you.

Jon is already enamoured with Gerry you can tell. He can't wait to hear more from him. Just you wait Jon.

They really can access alot of information huh. CCTV Interviews files. Pretty impressive for a non-research team. They're so good at it they'd rather do that than actual archiving.

13 alone

The sound editing in this episode is not that great it was a bit to get used to.

We get a glimpse at the Lukases which is... Ugh

Jon is actually trying to be nice. Granted it's not working and she is a bit of a standoffish person herself who just went through a bad time but alot of her reactions are not his fault. He was trying to be considerate giving her space to record but he did stay when she asked.

She had already leaned into the Lonely before the incident it's interesting to see how some of these statements start with a person actually liking the aspect that later turns to fear. Same happens in lost johns' cave.

Evan Lukas sounds like an avatar of the exact opposite of the Lonely. At least to her. That's a really interesting effect from someone, especially a Lukas.

But maybe dying wasn't his family killing him but him not feeding his patron which he tried to leave. Really tragic.

She was in Martin's domain eyyy!

It's got a bit of buried aspects to it with the grave stuff and all.

"My fingers dug into the soft cemetery dirt as I looked around desperately for anything I could use to save myself, and my hand closed upon that heavy piece of headstone. It took all my self-control to keep a grip on that anchor, as I slowly dragged myself away from the edge of my lonely grave." The headstone was her anchor? But it said forgotten. I wonder how it helped her pull away. It probably had to go together with Evan's voice. Like the rib and the tape recorders having to work together! I just wonder what meaning the stone had for her.

"I’d be tempted to chalk this one up to a hallucination from stress and trauma, if it wasn’t for the fact... " God he does believe her heavens. He's not a skeptic!

This is when Jon's dreams start which... Good luck Jon.

14 piecemeal

Rentoul is terrifying sonofabitch and I would never want to meet him irl

I remembered them talking about how he was supposed to be a person who cursed alot and they couldn't do it because of sensor and I have to agree this could have been much better for the story. I tried imagining curses in some places.

LOL Jon reading this is funny. Trying to voice act the bad boy. Doesn't sound right on his voice.

With these kinds of statements happening alot where the person does something bad, the institute has to be in touch with police over them. The nda has to include that.

Hello Angela! I really wonder what her deal is. She scared the bid bully so she gotta have creepy vibes to the extreme.

Another lighter! Hmm do I have to start following the lighter motiff in this podcast. This one has a topless woman on it. Flesh lighter?

Salesa's also appearing that's cool! Noriega was probably looking for an artifact to reverse the curse. Didn't work tho since they left with the crate. The buried crate perhaps?

I'm wondering. Was this written? Because the statement sounds like he's talking. If so, Where's the recording?

Oh Jon your attitude towards Martin is so bad. He works so hard and it's not even in what he's good at, sorting and filing like he knows how to do from the library. God.

What's the deal with all the furniture gone? Did he think it'll help not get injured? He's not that smart if he thought that would help him.

15 lost Johns' cave

Ack a bad statement she was not a good person all around

Another example of the entities setting the stage by controlling others not to interfere with the victim's experience.

Also another example of the person liking the subject (cave exploration in this case. And the dark for that matter) only for it to turn against them.

Not much to say about this one other than its one of the scarier ones for sure. And her recording in the end is really the cherry on top. There is alot of discrepancy between what she believed happened and what actually did which shows how much the fear plays with and changes around reality. That's also how she manages to lie in a statement to Beholding. It wasn't a lie. It was her version of reality and she did not remember saying those awful words.

Taught me alot about cave diving and how much I will never do it in my life.

The Dark was mixed into this as well so it wasn't purely Buried.

Btw Where did she get the candles she was found with?

It feels like she made a choice. Didn't want to spend her last moments with her sister and then didn't want to die. She chose her sister to be taken over her. Her sister called for help and the candle coming closer might have been her! But she just shut her eyes.

How did Tim gain access to the recording?? Wow that's some prime evidence.

Martin is claustrophobic amongst other things huh? Live how Jon just dismisses this as an excuse not to work. At least he didn't push it.

[softbunnywonho]

My monsta x experienced(fanaccount) in #MONSTAXINSYDNEY:

First of all i apologize for not being active in here as im buzy with work and preparing for the upcoming tours and travels for monsta x! Anyway~

this if for my Ultimate reserved seating experienced (i did plan on getting a reserved seating in Sydney simply because i would love to experience the whole concert and promising to myself not to record as much)

Here's a photo of how far my seat is to the stage: honestly the photo doesnt do it justice but its pretty close to the stage plus im in the front row along with lovely monbebes which is a plus.

Here's a photo of how my banner looks like I made this banner smaller and ensuring the letters can still be read from afar~ smaller: because i know a lot of venues doesnt allow banner size more than A3 or A4 so i went for a purse size led banner which i made for 3 1/2 hrs?? its small but my gosh the amount of effort you have to do to make them~

Ok so for WONHO interaction MOSTLY (very bias i know, but I love MX equally~) take note my led banner is always on(lit) at this time so he can see!! AKA im attention seeking butt! and these are only few reactions i remember on top of my head:

I was literally digging (and still am for wonho fancams that i have my interactions with him)

i found THIS  fancam: at that exact moment i think is the first interaction with him~ i wont explain further so its clear in the video BUt my reaction: waved at him back and smiled at him!! *on the inside im dead and want to scream my butt off xD*

Then another ment: He looked at my way again; i then said "SARANGHAE" to him while i throw heart with my right holding the lightstick. His reaction: he cutely smiled, and waved ( like a cute waved where its speaks yes I get you thanks) ;;;;;

This is when during their last goodbye (tho im not 100% sure if its during this moment but im certain i have this interaction with him) with monbebes where they have to bow and wave bye to each side of the stage: while MX was on the right side of the stage ( right side for me, left for them) Wonho scanned through our area and he looked at me again because this time I was full forced showing him the led banner i make (telling him i made this for you!!) He nod cutely and was smiling! (as you can tell his reaction was all smiles ;;;; aka i love him thank you for recognizing me few times)

- i feel like most performance~ he def keep glancing at my general direction! ofc Im also happy with interaction he have with other WONbebes and Monbebes too!!!!! because im glad i wasnt the only one having this time of my life!!

HI Touch:

-  Jooheon was first!! and my gosh his dimple smile was the most precious one!! i mean every one of them are precious and irl they literally sculpted to perfection!! - this is the moment where I yolod~ When its my turn to Hi touch, Wonho was the 2nd one right? im glad he was, at least im few seconds prepared, i had the led banner (not lit up, im not going to blind them if i have it lit) on my right hand ready to show him: I high five him for a bit longer than usual~ i high fived him said "I love you" in korean and slide my hand back for few seconds he was smiling  (hes probably like: this fool trying to steal another few seconds from me), until its the next members turn(minhyuk next? or shownu or hyungwon, changkyun??) i do not remember as I pass wonho i was literally in blank state at that time @__@ the most embarrassing thing i did was: my led banner was still showing on my right hand: It was hyungwon WHO looked at my led banner when i realized i had it up xDD so i literally put it down, Kihyun was the last and he was like "HI WASSUP" to me, he was so cute xDD also I said "saranghae" to all of them btw since thats the only word i planned on saying for now lol. Overall: they are literal angels, they are so beautiful!!! irl! inside and out~

With monsta x you really feel the love!! they do everything and they show it well!! <33 aside from that wonho: you can tell he just loves monbebe so much that he literally scan every audience, top to bottom:his eyes is full of love for monbebe!!! ;;;

Thank you for reading!! This is my first con of them by the way! so it was very memorable for me! But i look forward seeing them again in the next stops! (i apologize again, this is a wonho bias fanacc, as I was solely focused on him that time, but on the next one Ill put more attention to other members and maybe more fancams/photos from me but i can not promise because im bad at taking them).

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 115: Hard-Boiled Villain Antics

Previously on BnHA: The provisional license exam concluded. Everyone from class 1-A passed except Todoroki and Bakugou. The exam committee announced there would be a special training course for the ones who failed, and they would then receive their licenses as well. They want all the students who made it to phase two of the exam to ultimately succeed because with All Might gone, the world needs as many quality heroes as it can get. The U.A. kids said their farewells to the other schools and prepared to board the bus home. Deku inquired about the weird girl from Shiketsu Academy and was told she had already left, and that furthermore she’d been acting strange for the last few days. We then learned that the girl, Camie, had actually been Toga in disguise, and that she has a shapeshifting quirk which allows her to take on others’ appearances once she drinks their blood. Oh, and. Now she has Deku’s.

Today on BnHA: We take a break from our intrepid hero hatchlings to check in with Twice from the League of Villains. He stares broodingly out the window like a noir character, listens to the news talk shit about Endeavor, watches a group of Tarantino tribute villains rob a store, and gets a phone call from the villain broker Giran. We learn that the League has temporarily split up and are recruiting to expand their organization. We also learn that Twice has more than a few screws loose, the reason being that when he was younger he used his duplication quirk to clone himself, only to have the clones all murder each other one by one until he was the last one standing. If that isn’t fucked up enough for you, perhaps I can interest you in the new villain introduced in this chapter, who goes by “Overhaul” and has a penchant for dismembering peeps. Or perhaps you’re more a fan of the classic villain, in which case the chapter ends with All Might meeting up with our old friend All for One, so, you know. Enjoy that.

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 151 now, so any ETAs will reflect that.)

who the fuck is this

he’s staring darkly out of his window and hating all the people he sees walking past

but also there’s a black speech bubble thinking the exact opposite. “I think it’s fantastic”

is this that Twice guy, maybe

I was wondering what you were up to, yes. good catch there

“THIS MAN STARTS HIS MORNINGS A LITTLE MORE HARD-BOILED THAN MOST.” yes, the really hardcore way to start your day is to hate people from windows

holy shit this ominous fucking chapter! right from the get go!

“unleashed.” and the text underneath: “a world where All Might is not coming”

I’m thinking it’s safe to say the villains are winding down from their little break

I’m so curious how Tomura is doing. prediction: still crazy

the narration is saying that the news networks and Internet are constantly buzzing with “idle chatter fanning the flames of anxiety”

jesus christ this is so similar to the real-world climate in the last few years. anxiety and fear-mongering

oh shit the newspeople are talking about Endeavor

depends on whether you’re the type who can accept assholes who beat their wife and kid

(I personally am not)

they’re being really polite about it, but they’re saying that you can’t help but contrast him against All Might

he’s “coarse”

“he just looks like an ordinary person pretending to be a superhuman” I’ll take it a step further; he looks like an asshole not even trying particularly hard to pretend he’s a nice guy. and yeah, he’s strong, but not even in the same realm that All Might was

oh my god it’s a list of top “Moogle” searches for Endeavor. this is the most 2010s shit I’ve ever seen in a manga omggggg

yeahhhh, public opinion is just not on this guy’s side. and good riddance

basically he’s become “the symbol of weakening heroes.” exactly. I feel like all these people must just be like, “is this really the best we can do now omg”

is Endeavor Donald fucking Trump

this is one of the best chapter openers I can recall reading in a long time. there’s something fascinating about watching a well-established fictional world get shaken up and seeing how the people of that world respond. it’s reminding me a little of the post-Goblet of Fire Harry Potter universe. and why do I have a feeling that by the time this series ends, we’ll have progressed all the way to Deathly Hallows in terms of grittiness

the narration is continuing and saying that just as All Might brought hope to everyday citizens, his presence was a curse to villains

and now that curse has been lifted, so “it’s no surprise at all that it’d turn out this way”

and it’s showing some guy robbing an ATM or something. not sure what he’s carrying, but anyways he’s busting through a wall looking happy and deranged

now a pro hero is showing up to stop him

but another villain is cracking the back of the hero’s head with a huge metal pipe

and two more villains are waiting over by their getaway truck

nice Tarantino reference there. bold and unsubtle and in-your-face

and the narration is talking about how villains are feeling more emboldened and more free to run around without fear of consequence. and that the more daring they get, the more villains they inspire in turn, and it goes on and on. “running a red light isn’t scary if everyone does it with you”

we’re seeing the exact same thing happen irl nowadays with racists and nazis and the alt-right and such, aren’t we. my escapist manga is really starting to hit close to home here

now Twice is getting a call from someone

isn’t this the guy who introduced Toga and Dabi to Tomura

damn, manga, you’re really going to make me go all the way back to like chapter sixty-something to check this. fine

yep, it is. chapter 68

he says that in the past two weeks there’s been a surge of black market requests for things like suits and related items

he says it’s all thanks to the League of Villains

really it’s thanks to one specific villain that did all the work and is now imprisoned though. just saying. though no doubt he won’t mind Tomura getting the credit

anyway so Twice is asking why the broker guy called him

probably cuz Toga got Deku’s blood, so now the gang is getting back together to hatch some more schemes

yep

so Twice is like yeah of course I heard, and the broker dude is like okay catch you later then

gotta say, I was already fond of Twice just as a funny and eccentric (you have no idea how much my brain struggled to find an adjective to use in place of “quirky” there, but needless to say I wouldn’t have been able to keep a straight face otherwise) character. but it’s pretty damn fascinating to witness his psyche on display now as well

apparently the League has been separated and scattered for a little while, both to lie low and to scout for more people to join the group

and now we’re cutting to Dabi and he’s just roasting some poor dudes alive

damn son

oh shit what’s happening to Twice

this guy is soooo weird

he says his quirk is “doubling.” “I make one into two”

okay. I don’t get it at all, but

-- WHOA

IS THIS THE FUCKING PRESTIGE OR WHAT. AND WASN’T THIS ALSO A PLOTLINE IN FUCKING CALVIN AND HOBBES

he says each of the clones claimed to be the real one (by “real” I assume “original”) and they started arguing and eventually they all killed each other

and he’s not sure even now whether he’s actually the “real” him

holy shit I would read an entire book about this guy. I want David Fincher to direct a movie about him

it seems like he’s not even really that evil, it’s just that he’s so crazy that the league was the only place he could find that would accept him. “what I was searching for were others who are just as crazy as I am”

I would read a spinoff manga about Twice and his existential nightmare of an existence, trufax. this is so compelling I almost forgot about the fact that we’re thirteen pages into this chapter and so far it’s been all villains and no U.A. kids

-- what the fuck

IS THAT THE GUY FROM EARLIER?? WHO ROBBED THE ATM???

(answer: yes, I just went back and looked)

WHY IS HIS FUCKING HEAD HERE?? IS THIS HIS QUIRK OR SOMETHING MORE HORRIFYING THAN THAT

farewell Reservoir Dogs. you had a brief and uneventful run culminating in THE MOST HORRIFYINGLY GRUESOME SCENE I’VE EVER SEEN SHOUNEN JUMP ALLOW IN THEIR FUCKING MAGAZINE. NOT ONLY WAS IT INDEED HIS FUCKING HEAD, I COUNT LIKE SEVEN OF HIS AND HIS FRIENDS’ OTHER BODY PARTS MORBIDLY STREWN ABOUT AND ROASTING ON THIS OPEN FUCKING FLAME. dude what the fuck

oh boy here we go

now his buddy in a raincoat -- and they all have the same plague doctor masks on btw -- is saying he took the money and let’s get out of here

he’s calling the “YOU GUYS HAVE AN ILLNESS” dude “Overhaul.” okay I’ll admit that’s a pretty badass villain name

and Twice is watching them all like, “oh. more maniacs”

so I’m guessing he’s going to recruit these guys lol

the narration says that both the heroes and villains’ sides have begun to undergo changes in appearance. well, we’ve seen a lot of the heroes’ side of things so far so I guess it’s nice to take a break from that and see what the villains have been up to

is this the prison??

OH SHIT!!!!!

WHAT IS HE DOING COMING OVER THERE TO TALK TO HIM OH MY GOD

“THE DISCUSSION WITH THE BIG BOSS IS ABOUT TO BEGIN” [FRANTICALLY CLICKS TO THE NEXT CHAPTER!!!]

-- except no, damn it, because I gotta check out the bonus page first :/

 bonus

...actually the bonus page is just Horikoshi being excited that there are now two spinoff series. apparently he’s a fan of Illegals. I do want to check that out (especially since he just said Eraserhead has a cameo in it omgggg), but like hell if you think I’m clicking away from this main story just yet. I still have 85 chapters to go and it’s not like things are exactly getting boring omg

[sarasa-cat]

Yet more Persona 5 nonsense behind the cut. Omfg this game. My feels. And that scene that is still making me laugh and laugh and laugh. Protagonist & Morgana things behind the read more, along with various speculations and thoughts regarding writing and possible characterizations :

The first time the protagonist goes to the gym in Shibuya on his own, with only his cat. Protagonist on the treadmill. RUNNNNNNNNNING. LIKE DUDE, THIS IS NOT HOW YOU RUN ON A TREADMILL YOU LOOK LIKE A COMPLETE DORK YOU ARE GOING TO HURT YOURSELF. And there is his cat running on the treadmill beside him thinking/saying the exact same thing. And what happens? WHAT HAPPENS?  OMFG JUST REMEMBERING IT I AM LAUGHING SO HARD I CANNNNNOT BREATHHHHHHHEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE. OH POOR DEAR YOU DO NOT --- LAUGHCRYING AND DYING CANNOT BRREATHHEHEHEHEHE --- OH SWEEETIE, PROTAG, YOU UNCOORDINATED NERDY THING. T____T   BWAHAHAHAHAHHAAA.   XDDDDDDDDD

This kid and his cat are so cute I want to take them home, wrap the kid up in warm blankets (assuming the weather wasn’t so damn hot both IRL and in game), make him all the coffee and curry he wants while letting him marathon in my media room with stacks of video games, streaming movies, DVDs/BluRay disks, and epic piles of books that he can escape into. His cat can hang out with my cats and eat fancy pants food. I’ll even buy sashimi for his cat because we all know very well EXACTLY WHAT MORGANA WANTS, even though that will end up spoiling my two cats even more b/c they’ll get all sorts of terrible demanding ideas from Morgana but, really, I’ll just accept that and pay that price.

There are so many moments in Tokyo (note: not the metaverse) when this boy feels like a stray cat in need of a home. I have been heart warmed by the ways in which Sojiro has been warming up to the boy and realizing that he is not a troublesome kid. 

Even now everything is just

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I am very much looking forward to where that story goes and how the mysterious yet to be seen Futaba Sakura fits into all of this. She’ll appear eventually. (trying not to count the days).

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Also, I am actually starting to worry about who and what Morgana actually is because:

(1)  This cat has made it clear we need to go to the deepest depths of Mementos to find out who he(?) is so he(?) can regain his true self in the real world.

(2)  There are moments when Morgana feels so lost and displaced, like during one of the recent confidant level-up talks that Morgana and Protag had while Protag was lying in bed (around the time of starting the 3rd palace), and the poor cat really felt so lost ... and the Protag fell asleep and the cat was such a cat (Morgana, you are a cat, sorry). 

No matter how you play the game, Protag x Morgana is the purest human-cat best buddies who snuggle together friendship. Is2g it is the canonical OTP.  ;)

The cute factor between those two is ... aawwwwwwwwwwwww.

Protagonist x Morgana fan art is the best, btw.

...

As for the kid -- the Protag -- and how to portray him in various alternate P5Tokyoverses corresponding to various different playthroughs, 

So. Many. Thoughts.

I am enjoying the space that the game creates in both defining the Protagonist as a character in his own right while giving the player wiggle room to define how he is feeling in the moment. I love how some of the dialogue choices suggest a lot of barely contained anger vs genuine maturity (rising above it all). Same for the dialogue choices that allow him to play it tough and confident vs express fear/nervousness or caution.

That said, the game’s narrative put a solid stamp on certain reactions the Protagonist has, particularly whenever he has sweat drops or “?!” moments. Some of those moments define his youth and inexperience, his caution, his imagination, etc.

... I have more to say about the lady characters so far but I need to run so saving that for later.