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auphelia · 3 days ago

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#tw vent #ah yes logging back into tumblr to yeet this and then going #i will persevere i will persevere i will persevere i will persevere #i've never felt this much like an alien in my entire fucking life and that's saying something from someone who was excluded in primary #school and has been since (regularly called devil spawn as well isn't it lovely)#i'm sick and tired of this #i never planned to make it past 18 but i did it regardless out of sheer fucking spite and will and wanting it to get better #and here i am six years later and just as miserable #except this time i won't have to spend weeks discreetly hoarding a stash because i never threw it out #and i know that's not the thing to do and that i should continue to press on and all that and believe it will get better but like #at this point i'm not sure if; even if things do get better that i'll even be in a position to appreciate it?#i feel fucking broken and i have been so utterly numb for most of my life #i don't know how to make friends and even less about how to keep them #i've spent my entire life trying to fit in and getting mocked and bullied for being weird #i adapt personality traits of everyone around me for the sake of never risking upsetting anyone or putting myself at chance of ridicule #i don't even know who i am at this point- i don't think i've ever known myself because by the time i became a teen #i was already hurting myself just so i could get some of my frustration out without making a scene or trouble anyone #it took six years for anyone to notice; six fucking years and even then all i was met with was anger #i hate being excluded and i hate being left out and people keep doing it and i keep doing it to myself #because i don't want to be here anymore but i don't want to hurt anyone so i remove myself from social relations so no one will miss me #i feel so fucking alone and it's all my own fault and i'm so scared to do anything about it #how can anyone want to spend time with someone who doesn't even know themselves? i'm a mess i'm sorry i needed to process my thoughts #but i guess i'll persevere #my cat needs me to #tw suicidal ideation #tw self harm

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kensatou · 3 months ago

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"we know how to move our bodies, but i didn't know how to manage my heart, so you need help for this"

hi we need to talk more about judo gold medallist christa deguchi.

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myrkulitescourge · 1 year ago

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the way that one line from the new epilogue in an astarion romance is going to HAUNT me

just. what a profoundly intense thing to confess to someone.

like, just these six months of newfound happiness with you exerts a force on his heart equal and in direct opposition to two centuries of endless torment, the gnawing hunger and exploitation. this flashbulb-bright fraction of his long life holds the same gravity to him as years upon years of darkness and suffering.

in all likelihood, he hasn’t even known his lover for as long as his worst memory lasted, that year sealed away to go mad from starvation and sensory deprivation, yet he still tells them this brief time has been so fundamentally and powerfully important that the weight of even that unimaginable hell is vanishingly small compared to this present he has now and the future ahead of them both.

how am i supposed to act normal about this.

#i need to lay down #just drop this in there right at the beginning why not!#that’s INTENSE. and completely sincere considering his demeanor at the party. god #he’s so… nice. in the romanced epilogue. i expected him to be a little smug and jokey #if tav told him the others weren’t doing so hot without the two of them around #but he takes it so genuinely and with visible disappointment?? literally shocked me #i thought he would say oh of course their lives have taken a turn without our impressive leadership lol!#and then redirect into something a little less flippant #but man. he just gets sad. astarion six months into a loving relationship is like a stray cat that instantly gets cuddly when you adopt it #dude went cotton candy marshmallow saccharine sweet in a HEARTBEAT #bless the others with your presence he says. i’ll always be here he says. we have forever after all he says.#head in my hands. how could they do this to me #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #astarion #bg3 epilogue spoilers #bg3 spoilers #baldur’s gate 3 spoilers #bg3

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heartorbit · 5 months ago

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searching for a star that's still unknown to anyone!

#for finncakes.arts dtiys on instagram... i missed you wxs #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #proseka #emu otori #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #wonderlands x showtime #wxs #polysho #my ipad did not survive this one its at 3% after like 5 procreate crashes #and sending me visions of it being put down like a dog. Not happening #kirapipi album release im FREE #wxs getting 1 another wanopo comm and 2 a traditional japanese style song. ive been saying they need it. emu deep voice can save the world #I drew emus recent card the untrained but i dont KNOW HOW TO RENDER SNYMORE IDK HOW TO DO IT. SO SHES TRAPPED #in my wip art timeloop for eternity.#tsukasa is pissing me off so bad in this no matter how many times i drew and redrew his head imhe just completely breaks the illusion of #depth i think i actually did alright on rui and emu. i love how theynlook. Went hard rendering tsukasas outfit i guess which.#pisses me off MORE. its NOT THE FOCAL POINT. TSUKASA INHOPE YOUR NEXT LIM HAIRCUT IS EVEN MORE STUPID. YOURE RUINING MY LIFE.#whats supposed to be his hand is so fucked up with the perspective too helppp me just pretend its nenes.#the tonal difference from my ladt post is so funny. fuck you siffrin you stupud cat

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spoopup · 8 months ago

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yay

#they make me crazy somebody help me HEEELP HEEELP #cat grabbing its head gif #klapollo #klavier gavin #apollo justice #klavier gavin x apollo justice #ace attorney #my art #I NEED TO EXPLODE THEM WITH MY MIND #RIGHT NEOW

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obsob · 10 months ago

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oooooooooough i love you i love you i love you!!!! hand in loving hand !!!!!!

#mine #cats #i was like losing it over th colouring yesterday like this SUCKS and then looked at it 2day n was like. anyway #ive been unstoppable since ive figured out how 2 do glowy things #me n my partner went ice skating this evening !! so so fun #i love how girls will just peacefully hang out in the centre ice doing spins n boys will fast and furious skate around at 100mph #like we dont need to be doing all that #as soon as i see a boy w hockey skates enter the ice i am now leaving the ice #anyway....i got a slightly dubious fantasy audiobook 2day we will....see...how it is #whenever i read a fantasy book written by a man my hackles are up i am scenting the air i am growling #have i finished assassins fate u ask.....no :3 #its been sitting at 30% for like 4 months i cant bring myself 2 read more KJBDSSK #there is like so much book left. so much that can go wrong #i will finish it soon i prommy i prommy...n then listen 2 th tawny man audiobooks :3 #ngl this fitz n fool trilogy isnt super doing it 4 me im not finding it as Invigorating for sm reason #still good !! but def my least fave of th three trilogies #anyway. i am going 2 bed

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kkoct-ik · 5 months ago

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its out! my completed piece for the summer portion of the @boatemvillagezine !!!

#now if youll excuse me i need my feet in a river Now #kostik draws #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #goodtimeswithscar #grian #pearlescentmoon #impulsesv #mumbo jumbo #fanart #gtws #gtwscar #jellie the cat #what a doozy this background and layout and colour and everything was #i learned a lot and i think i did well. yaay #i really do really like the look of this one. mostly in vertical crops though #which does suggest something about the layout might be off #but this is basically one of the first times ive ever tried to compose like this and it was a very good first shot

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kimeoshi · 5 months ago

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new pfp woo

#need me a catcake aven to watch over my work as well #(...they aren't getting any work done)#caturine shall keep eating his hair like there's no tomorrow #dr ratio #veritas ratio #hsr aventurine #aventurine #ratiorine #aventio #hsr fanart #honkai star rail #cat cake

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iwritenarrativesandstuff · 5 months ago

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I always have a soft spot for characters who have a protective streak for another out of gratitude for their kindness towards them, but Charles’ protectiveness towards Edwin really hits a particular way because it’s so so apparent that it’s specifically about wanting Edwin to feel as safe and as comfortable around him as Edwin made Charles feel in his dying moments. I’m going to shatter like glass.

#and this is exactly why I think the cat king thing bothered Charles so much #‘why isn’t he talking to me? doesn’t he know ive got his back? what could be so bad that he wouldn’t tell me?’#and the devlin house completely uproots his sense of ‘goodness’ and makes it all compound into #‘maybe I’m not a good person and maybe that’s why I can’t help my friends properly’#:(#no further proof is needed that Edwin feels safest with Charles over anyone else #when his first reaction after finally figuring out his feelings for Charles is to immediately want to confess to him #even though he’s scared. he trusts Charles that much that he has to try and tell him right away.#gah. they’re so sweet.#dead boy detectives #charles rowland #edwin payne #storyrambles #dbda spoilers

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samerpal · 4 months ago

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Eleen, a beautiful and beloved little girl, loves life and fills it with joy. Despite her young age, she finds happiness in caring for small kittens, 🐱 feeling safe with these gentle creatures. Eileen lives in difficult conditions due to the ongoing war in her country, which has forced her family to flee multiple times from one place to another. Despite all the challenges, Eileen keeps her smile and continues to care for her kittens, giving her hope for a better tomorrow. She is a symbol of strength and resilience in the face of adversity, teaching everyone that life goes on despite the hardships.

@intersectionalpraxis 🌹 @schoolhater

@victoriawhimsey 🌹 @turtletoria

@pocketsizedquasar-2 🌹 @vakarians-babe

@aces-and-angels 🌹 @sayruq

@riding-with-the-wild-hunt 🌹 @palipunk

@aria-ashryver 🌹 @kyra45

@palestinegenocide 🌹 @palestines-posts

@heritageposts 🌹 @maoistyuri

@determinate-negation 🌹

Eleen before and after 🥲

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skateboardtotheheart · 5 months ago

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there is just something about the difference between edwin's love interests and having the cat king's reaction to edwin in hell being "i'll be waiting when he gets back" vs charles "no version of this where i don't come get you" rowland convincing a powerful trans-dimensional being to open a door to hell just so he could get him back

i am insane

#like YES i know there is obviously so much more history between the boys than edwin and the cat king #and for everyone who's like “well how would the cat king have gotten to hell”#yall charles got LUCKY that the night nurse was there to open a door for him #you can bet your ass that if she hadn't been there he still would've figured out how to get there no matter what it took #but the cat king calling himself a romantic because he'll wait vs charles GOING TO HELL TO GET HIM BACK????#absolutely insane #i cannot handle these two #like i can vibe with the cat king #but charles x edwin for the WIN #obviously the circumstances between the characters are a lot different #but to me that changes absolutely nothing about the fact that charles who only thinks of edwin as a friend would do literally anything #vs the cat king who claims to have fallen for edwin doing literally nothing and just sulking about it #i don't even care if you dont ship charles and edwin #the love they have for each other will forever outweigh anything else #(ps if you ship catwin you simply do not need to interact with this post. you will not change my mind)#(you do not have to interact with posts you don't agree with)#dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #charles rowland #edwin payne #the cat king #painland #payneland #dbd netflix

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souporsaladnatural · 6 months ago

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Not to be a Jackles defender bc I am not going to be a keyboard warrior for the rich actor man or claim to know what goes on in his head, but I truly don't understand people being actually mad about jackles dodging talking about Dean's feelings regarding Cas' confession. Like yes, you can read it as "Jackles doesn't think Dean reciprocates and is just trying to fence ride about it and not make anyone mad" but also like. guys. the man so OBVIOUSLY wants another season of supernatural to continue deans story. and there's been so much talk about it recently.

If he really does think Dean reciprocates, why the fuck would he spoil it at a random con?? Why would he spoil what could be a major plot point in the revival? Or make a promise about it that he may not be able to keep due to network interference? He told us that Dean KNOWS what Cas' confession was, and that his love for Dean was TEXT not subtext. He told us that CAS' feelings don't need to be resolved. Idk about you guys but this... it's not a nothing answer to me. It's carefully worded and thought out. To me, these are some pretty big pieces of what, for Jackles, a continuation of their story would look like. He's not closing the door, he's keeping it open

#idk idk maybe im wrong #but i just rly needed to get my feelings on this out #and it rly does confuse me how little i see ppl bring up that it doesnt make sense to spoil deans feelings if a revivals gonna happen #spn #supernatural #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #jensen ackles #spn revival #s16 clowning #cat spirals tag

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almondpiglet · 7 months ago

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