#my beloved fuchs

[meister-s]

I love embarrassing my cute little Fuchs.

[meister-s]

@ren-pilled 💚💚

[phoneycam]

Codywan but Hanahaki disease

I just remembered that i challenged myself to write shit and the randomiser just made me angstie with this one.

Y’all know how the disease work right? If not, here is the fanlore page to explain a little.

Resume: Obi-Wan is painfully remainded that he loves too much... in multiple ocasions.

1. Quinlan Vos

2. Satine

3. Cody

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So!

There is this disease that is just kinda normalized by the galaxie. It’s normal to fall in love with someone you shouldn’t, everyone is beautiful and gorgeous in their own way you know? So there are clinics, doctors, specialized post-surgery treatments and things like that.

But for the Jedi it’s a delicate topic. For a jedi to have the hanahaki disease is rare and not always well recived. It’s a bit of a taboo subject let’s say. 

A good amount of people think that they are incapable of getting this disease. Those who know are divided. Some think it shouldn’t be treated any different than any other medical condition, other that it’s a test from the force to prove padawans or to redirect them to the light side, and the most extreme think it’s a sign of the force that they are not destined to be part of the order. 

So imagine the shitshow that unfolded when Obi-Wan, not even a padawan yet, was rushed to the healing halls after spitting a flower mide training.

This unruly and loud 11 year old youngling was having a harsh time with some rather rude bullies when he got to know a chaotic young padawan that kicked their asses. Quinlan Vos was with who he would get like house on fire. It didn’t took long for both of them to become an inseparable and terrifying duo. 

Obi-Wan was a goner before even knowing what that meant. So after some time, Quinlan is gone on a mission with his master and Obi is missing him crazy while trying to train (and failing) and in one of his moments of like, recalibrating his breathing he hears some classmate.

“Surely he’s missing his boyfriend” 

And it is like a whiplash of emotion just colliding. The frustration from the failing training session, shock from realizing something he didn’t wanted, shame and the rage directed to the other younglings, homesickness from Quinlans absense and just plain and suffocating fear. 

He felt horrible, like he’d being punched in the stomach multiple times... 

He wanted to vomit...

and he did.

It would take time for everything to go back to normal. After the surgery, Obi-Wan would start being more quiet and fearful, but when everybody kept avoiding him and yet the looks and whispers still followed him, that fearfullness became anger. Anger he would lash out at anyone who was close enough to make him snap and then escape. 

He wouldn’t even get close to Quinlan for years. Only when he was back from certain kriffed up planet overbeaten by a useless civil-war did he brakedown to finally get a hug from a friend. 

((I will explain Qui-Gon later if someone is interested ùwu7))

The second time it happens he was 16 and in another war infested planet. 

Satine was insufferable. After getting separeted from his master, Obi-Wan was condemned to protect this blonde girl that seemed to enjoy getting in his nerves at any given moment, even when they were on a clear danger scene, calling him by several... innovative names, laughing when he tripped or just hitting him when she thought he said or did something stupid.

He was honestly starting to question if this misssion was worth his sanity when a bad encounter gets them to bond while hiding. They where both badly hurt and without any other option, were forced to truly depend on each other.

Over the rest of the year it would grow to become something more, but it wasn’t the time nor the place to let it flourish.

They had become important for the other in that certain way that would meet the needs of both of them at the moment. But they never got to become friends in the first place. So when the moment to split came, they both knew it wasn’t meant no matter how much it hurt. And it hurt.

Qui-Gon was silent during all the farewell. He wasn’t stupid, he knew something was up as soon as they had been reunited, so he wasn’t too surprised when the flowers came. They had barely left land when the cough started and by the time they where hitting lightspeed, Obi-Wan got send to the back of the ship where his master performed a highly clandestine surgery with the help of the medical droid.

When he wakes up after the surgery, Obi-Wan proceeds to pass the 5 stages of grief. Qui-Gon is nothing but patient through the hole process. 

When his padawan tries to play dumb to himself, he just remaind him of the flowers. When he gets defensive, he just projects calm and serenity through the force. When the anxiety grows to much to the point to ask to please not to tell to the counsil about it, Qui-Gon promises to never tell a soul and when the inevitable brakedown comes in, he comms Quinlan to wait for them in the landing pad.

the fifth stage would take a long time to come. In fact, Qui-Gon wouldn’t even be alive to see it happen. It would be almost two decades and it would come in the form of a person. 

It would be the start of the second year of war. Obi-Wan was putting an unhealthy amount of sugar on a cup of caff when he stopped himself at a realization. He didn’t like sugar on his caff, hell, he didn’t even licked caff! So why in the name of the force did he had it in his personal space??

“General?”

His commanders voice startles him. He turns around to be comfronted with a familiar sight. Cody was only using the bottom part of his armor, one hand resting on the bed he was currently sitting on and the other holding the datapad he was previusly compiling. A worried look acompagning his slowly not so relaxed position.

“Is everything ok sir?”

Oh.

Oh dear...

The realization would come... peacefully. Of course it would be Cody. His wonderfull commander had crowled into his heart slowly and deliberately without knowing. With the reasuring presence, strategic mind and dry humor, it was just logical that Obi-Wan would fall for him... Also because he couldn’t do anything about it. They are at war, he is his superior and he had a duty to fulfil.

The jedi took a deep breath when the familiar sensation starts to fill in, only this time, he doesn’t panic and run to the madical hall. No, this time is different. This time he isn’t overcome with anything if not acceptance. 

This is his commander, who he loves dearly and can’t do anything about it.

So, with a reassuring tone and adoring smile, he responds.

“It’s nothing my dear, just questioning myself about the amount of sugar I see you consume”

Cody watches him closely for a couple seconds before smirking. They both know he is lying but this is not the time to talk about it.

“Sure sir, don’t you worry about it. It’s what keeps my sweet personality alive, other wise it would be crush by tha amount of useless paperwork we are given”

Obi-Wan just chuckles covering a discrete cough and turns to finish their drinks. 

[scintillatingshortgirl19]

Barry's little wave is everything to me

[spiritpraiseandbeautifulhumanity]

Not sure if I’ll even really use this account anymore but just wanted to say no one can have what me and my beloved have and they can never be us :)

[closetdbisexual]

if fuches isnt in this one ill blow up this entire building

[bekaterrier]

Happy Audio Drama Sunday! And happy International Asexuality Day!! 🖤🩶🤍💜

@hughesandmincks - Ghost Detectives: I had a lot of cooking and baking (and then cleaning) to do at the beginning of the week and I wanted to try a new show from my list. I ended up just blowing through H&M:GD. It's so fun! You can absolutely tell the creators (and main voice actors) were having a blast as well. And I have to say...I KNEW IT!!! I absolutely called it!!! I was so suspicious from that first episode and I. Was. Right. 👻

@hinaypod Episode 53 - Hilaga (North) Part 1: We've been hearing so much about the Long Winter, so it's so fun to finally get a peek at what that means. And it means The Pitt!!! With some truly creepy mouth sounds, and an overly confident Sauvard, we hear how the magic of the land is not a force to be reckoned with. ✨

@vestaclinicpod Episode 21 - Mucilaginous: I am still thinking about this episode, days later. I posted my live reaction on my other blog, but here's a more coherent commentary. I am so glad we got to hear a Prof episode, after all the small details we've gleaned over the last season. I love how enthusiastic they are about their cases! The expression, "Don't hesitate to call if you need anything," coming from the Prof, and now Xael using it all the time legit made me tear up. Something about the way we carry the people we love with us... What exactly was the Prof's plan??? And how would that end up with Sec being able to sleep and dream?? Then we got Sec's laugh!! The most adorable sound!! Also Prof and Sec are so sweet together. All of this talk about the Oogaroob and their goo being able to hold consciousness...was the Prof able to make that work for them? We know there is mention of sentient goo in the lab, though based on the context (see S1E5) it may just be the bit of the other Oogaroob that was excised from Bomoo. Is Sec going to have to put up with some ooze to reunite with their beloved Prof? ⚕️

@monkeymanproductions Waiting For October S1 Episode 6.5 - Enoch: Mothman!! God, I could listen to David S. Dear talk forever. Such a fantastic voice. The way he says, "‘cause it coulda been anyone, but…" when talking about Leland? You can FEEL the incredible fondness, the love, the wistfulness, beneath the words. Actually the whole time he was talking about Leland. The whole talk was absolutely lovely, and hopefully what Karo needed to hear. 🎃

@goodmorningevildoers E1-12: I've been seeing GME pop up in my feed and mentioned in the podcast bookclub discord for a while now, and their recent post about their first season almost being complete was the kick in the butt I needed to take a listen. The episodes are short and fun, giving a window into life working for possibly the most evil company in the world. Winifred from HR sounds absolutely lovely and I am so terrified of her. The comedy is gold and I love that there is an overarching storyline that gets teased out along the way. I'm looking forward to hearing the season finale! 💀

@kingmakerpod Chapter Thirty - Wo Sich Fuchs und Rabe gute Nacht Sagen: They said we were getting a lore drop and we sure did get a lore drop! Our trio have been off galavanting around Europe and now things are catching up to them again. We haven't seen a lot of other Good Neighbour interactions (and this episode even referenced the last major one we saw) so it's fun hearing Telesphore on the back foot this way. I'm looking forward to even more lore drop in the next episode, the season finale!! 💎

[hussyknee]

From the blog of K. J. Charles dated 19th April 2024, copy-pasted for Tumblr history nerds and historical fiction writers.

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Eponymosity!

A quickie blog post today, inspired by Benjamin Dreyer’s entertaining rant on the distinction between eponymous and titular (it’s in footnote 1 for a clearer explanation than I am inclined/able to provide), and also by the fact that one of these sneaky little bastards nearly got me in a recent book.

So. An eponym is simply a word taken from a person’s name. Obamacare is an eponym, so is Reaganomics. If you hoover your carpets, the verb comes from the eponymous brand of vacuum cleaner. (We do not use the capital letter, no matter what the Hoover corporation may think: that ship has sailed, as demonstrated by the fact that I hoover with a Dyson.)

If you write historical novels, eponyms are one of those damn things. They tend to be extremely and usefully specific in meaning, but they are also extremely specific in dates, meaning you can’t rely on the old “well it was probably around for decades before it made it into the dictionary” line.

Here for your advisory is an incomplete list of eponyms that may trip you up, depending on period.

Boycott: The name comes from 1880 (Ireland, Charles Boycott, a shitty land agent who was socially and economically ostracised). The practice is older: there was a widespread boycott in the UK of slavery-produced sugar starting in 1791, during which sales plummeted by something like 40%. It is totally historically plausible to have a consumer or personal boycott in your Georgian or Regency novel, but you can’t call it a boycott for several decades more.

Chauvinist: Named for a French vaudeville character. Meaning ‘blinkered nationalist’ it dates from 1840; you can’t use it for a male pig until 1960.

Fedora: The hat beloved of men who spend too long on the internet getting angry about Star Wars sequels actually used to be a symbol of female liberation and cross dressing. Comes from the 1887 play Fédora starring Sarah Bernhardt.

Fuchsia: You will be able to spell this if you remember it’s an eponym for Mr Fuchs. The flowers are so named in the UK in the 1750s, the colour not till the 1920s. Do not put your Regency heroine in fuchsia, is what I mean.

Maverick: Supposedly from a US cattle owner, Samuel Maverick, who let his calves run wild. 1880s US at the very earliest, more probably 1930s. Yes, that is irritating.

Mesmeric: He may have compelling eyes but they ain’t mesmeric before the 1860s. The hypnotist Mesmer flourished in the late 1700s, giving us mesmerism (hypnosis); mesmerise wasn’t a verb till the end of the Regency, and even then it still meant ‘to put into a hypnotic trance’.

Sadistic: Marquis de Sade, as you already know, but NB that sadist/sadistic aren’t in general use till the 1890s or so when sexology got going, along with masochism (also an eponym).

Sandwich: 1762 since you ask.

Silhouette: The outline picture is named for French finance minister Etienne de Silhouette. Used in France from 1760. However, despite there being a craze for silhouettes in England, the actual word didn’t come here till the mid 1820s, which is sodding annoying if your novel about a silhouette cutter happens to be set in 1819 I’M JUST SAYING.

Sweet Fanny Adams: This UK usage originally referring to something no good, now often used as an alternative to ‘sweet FA/fuck all’, came in from 1869 and cannot be used before 1867. You really don’t want to know where it comes from but here if you must (be warned, it’s genuinely grim). (My note: tw for CSA and child murder.)

Thug: Originally from India. Used to describe the Thuggee (as Brits then called it) sect from 1810. Didn’t become generalised to all violent lowlifes till 1839. You can’t be assaulted by thugs in a Regency unless they are actually Thugs.

Trilby: Another hat your Regency gentleman can’t wear. Comes from George du Maurier’s mega hit Trilby published 1894, which also gave us svengali (the name of the baddie in the book).

Feel free to add to this in the comments, there’s always something!

Death in the Spires, my Oxford-set historical murder mystery, is out now. The silhouette book, The Duke at Hazard, publishes in July.

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KJ Charles is one of my absolute favourite writers in the world and the contemporary star in the crown of the MM historical romance genre. Her blog is also worthy of following because she reads incredibly widely and diversely and posts book recommendations as well as good advice about writing.

Re: Dreyer's rant, I am absolutely a prescriptivist, and if you use the word "nonplussed" in that unholy way I'm blocking you. We colonized folk of the former Raj didn't learn the intricacies of this cussed language for you to change meanings on a dime because you couldn't be bothered to crack open a dictionary.

[meister-s]

@ren-pilled 💚💚💚💚💚

[meister-s]

I love my beloved little Fuchs, but i do miss holding him. It's like he was made for me with the way he perfectly fit in my arms. The way his head rested comfortably on my chest or in between my legs was wonderful.

I will forever miss the way his wrists felt in my hands, how soft his tail was when wrapped around my leg, quivering.

I very much crave the sound of his shakey voice when he asks me what i'm doing when i tower over him, knife in hand.

I know you're going to read this, Ren. I want to hear you scream.

@ren-pilled 💚

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Thirty, fifty, sixty, and seventy for the Spotify Wrapped game? <3

Nice round numbers <3 Thank you for your ask!

My number 30 is...

The eternal classic! This one song is on SO many of my OC playlists. But picking just one, I'd give this to Kit Kelley in both universes and their relationship with and/or crush on Face.

My number 50 is...

A beautiful, timeless song. One of the true vintage ones in contrast to the dozens of PMJ bangers on my playlists. As such, I'll give this song to my darling Vicky Brandt for her relationship with Peter Newkirk.

My number 60 is...

About time we got to a VoicePlay song! One of my favourite songs ever tbh. Not in the way that I'm unwell about it, I just really vibe with it. There's no better way to describe it, it just has the right mood for me. Because this song is so close to my heart, I bestow it upon Eevee, my beloved self-insert <3

My number 70 is...

We had this song as part of a "musical" at my primary school and I've liked it ever since, so I practically grew up with this song. I'd say this is a song for Jelena Charkova, but I don't know if I should fully count her towards OCs, so I'll also say this is a Sisi Fuchs song <3

[engine-oil-or-strawberry-filling]

First art of the year. Fuchs is my beloved character, despite what the image may indicate.

[cosmic-navel-gazin]

How about MacReady for the blorbo bingo?

" Stupid sexy 1980's Kurt Russell !!! "

🤠❄️🥶🥃♞🧨🔥 🩸

The FREE SPACE is for his stupid comically large cowboy hat (affectionate)!

He has it all:

I love his floofy hair, the beard, I love his drunk ass, I love the weary tired eyes! I understand The Thing's gender envy, I wanna be him too! would assimilate if given the chance

I love his beloved J&B bottle, it's what keeping him from going mad

I love that he's kinda an unusual hero, he's a bit of a cold bastard and how ironically that's great for the situation they're all in! If they need someone to quickly, no hesitations, just burn a former friend and colleague for everyone's safety, he's the guy for it^^ (Look at his exchange with Gary about Bennings, Gary is struck with horror and grief for the loss of a good friend and MacReady is like: "brb Gary, gotta go burn the rest of him"). I wish I could make rapid tough decisions like him, if it were me in Antarctica I would've been a complete utter nervous wreck of a person like, a mix between Gary, Blair and Fuchs, even if I miraculously survived the whole ordeal I would've never been able to sleep again

he look great in freezing temperatures and bi lighting

I love you "Then Clark was human, huh? Which makes you a murderer"

The way Mac grabs Windows by the scruff like a cat

I love you "First goddamn week of winter." can't get shit in Antarctica, he's just so done and tired you really get the sense that shit was bad enough without an alien life form to deal with

I love you "Nobody trusts anybody now. And we're all very tired" - UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE FUCKING CENTURY, he's such a sad dog here

I love you "Windows! Blast him!"-face

I love the way he clutches his lil dynamite sticks

I love his plastic left hand responsible for the blood test jumpscare (I wonder if it's the same plastic hand in John Carpenter's Starman (1984) ). *rant on jumpscares ensues* The Thing has a couple of jumpscares that are well used, scarce and spread throughout (another thing that makes them great is that they're not cheap, they're not just there to shake you up for no reason and then movies continues as normal (maybe not the one with Fuchs but I forgive the movie this one because it's a good fucking movie)). But almost all of them are the beginning of something horrible about to happen, they signal that SHIT'S ABOUT TO HIT THE FAN SON! The Blood Test jumpscare is an example:

I love how he's responsible for the first kill in the movie and not the titular Thing? Love it. RIP Chess Wizard, gone but never forgotten.

Actually that moment is great not only as early characterization for him (a bit of a bastard who does not take well to losing), but also as great foreshadowing. MacReady thinks he has everything figured out and is going to win against the Chess Wizard, only to just say basically fuck it and destroy it when the computer calls checkmate... it's the exact same response he has during his big showdown with Thing at the end, he thinks he's got the upper hand, Thing pulls a fast one on him, he says : "Yeah fuck you too!" and blows everything up. Things didn't go my way? I'm blowing it up then, I love it. And I just love how the Thing and MacReady are playing this little chess game with each other, both willing to discard pieces (the lads of outpost 31) to get the other.

Love how in spite of MacReady being "THE FLAMETHROWER GUY" of the group he's not just that, under all that amazing hair there's a huge beautiful brain! He's actually the one who comes up with the incredible Blood Test and I love him for that it's and incredible scene!

I'm sure I could go on and on, I just love him

[naughtydogg]

for the send me a character thing - you know i gotta do barry berkman 😌

barry my beloved (he can do a little murder ✨as a treat✨) so real for sending this

favorite thing about them

how desperately he wants to keep sally safe (toxic situations set aside) “you feel safe with me? is that what you said? sally that’s beautiful” 🥺🥺 also his love for acting really is just adorable

least favorite thing about them

man’s knack for hurting hank’s feelings (especially the last season) 😔😡

favorite canon relationship

like I said, he and sally make me 🥰

favorite non-canon relationship

it’s canon as far as like, platonic relationship but fuches and barry’s dynamic drive me WILD like !!! I could talk about the two of them for hours

what I’d do if I could spend the day with them

honestly? food + video games + alcohol in any order

random fact about them I like

ok not a random fact about barry (more a fact about the barry writing/filming process) but bill said a writer/director for GOT sat in and was so shocked by one of the murder scenes and bill was like “😏😏 when u scare game of thrones writers you know you’re winning” or something to that affect lmfao

[lina-loves-chocolate]

Barry finale predictions (just random thoughts no Emmy winning writing here):

- there will be a showdown between Hank and Barry but Fuches will show up and take over

- Hank gets murdered by Sally

- Little John survives (I think this one is a given cause there is no way Bill Hader will kill a child on TV)

- Barry will 10000% die

- little John will continue the circle of violence as he grows older as he will never get over his beloved and idolized father's death

- I give Sally a 50% survival chance... maybe she will get murdered or she will walk out with little John... either way... it will be a sad ending for her (I lover her with all my heart tho)

- Fuches... idk... if Sally dies he will take John with him, if Sally survives he has to die I think

- Gene will survive and make a podcast about everything