#my autism is so bad rn bro

[ifucanthang]

I JUST HIT MY HEAF WHYBWOULD HE DO THSI

[devotedlystrangewizard]

the corpse of king minos is very fucking big and Scary but you can parry his punches pretty easily and thats the easiest way i can explain how good ultrakill feels

[izzy-fishy]

IT HAPPENED

OML IT HAPPENED

IM SORRY CAL YOURE GETTING SOLD

i’m sorry he looks so stupid 😭 (testing out a new brush)

[plinfaaa]

STRANGER THINGS SEXUALITY HEADCANONS BECAUSE ITS MY GOOD RIGHT 🗣️🗣️🗣️ + YAPPING!

I am so tired rn. I'm having a German exam on Friday and my ass is sitting here writing down shit for yall because WDYM I ACTUALLY HAVE PPL READING MY SHIT? TYSM FOR THAT BTW 🫶🫶🫶 THIS WILL ALSO BE A SHIT TON OF YAPPING BTW!

~~☆

Mike: Okay, so I guess atp we all know that this guy is just a closeted Homosexual. He tries so hard to hide the fact he's gay, he's failing miserably. And he is VERY confused by his feelings thorwards Will.

Will: Openly gay. I don't have to say anything else. We all know he is yearning for Mike. We all know he always had been.

Lucas: Bi. As a preteen he was kind of simping for a random basketball player. Later in life he realized that might've been a little more than just that.

Dustin: Straight Ally to bi-curious. He is pretty sure he is into girls but he prolly wouldn't say no to trying. ALSO CAN WE PLS APPRECIATE HIS AND SUZIES RELATIONSHIP? Bros live SO FAR away and try EVERYTHING to communicate with each other.

Eleven: I am actually SO TORN. I am 100% she is Asexual. Kissing, cuddling, holding hands, being cheesy is a 100% yes for her. But anything more is gross. Also I am a Lesbian El truther. Cuz Lesbian and Gay pairings are ALWAYS fun (Syd and Stan IANOWT). But also just because I personally think that she was just so incredibly attached to Mike, she didn't even rlly knew what love even means. Mike was the first boy her age she got to know. Ofc she had to be with him. Now the hard part. I am unsure wether Aromantic or Demiromantic El. I do belive in independent partnered El. BUT ELMAX. God they got me going FERAL. Either way she's on the spectrum!

Max: 100% Bi too. I love Lumax and Elmax, both is PERFECT. Max never thought about her sexuality much. She fell for Lucas, realized girls where cute too and just vibed with it. She and Robin probably had a talk about that when Robin outs herself. And they are very casual about it!

Suzie: Straight Ally! The sweetest and kindest soul. She will listen to everyone's pains and relationship struggles, sit there akwardly and then yap to cheer them up. She is probably bad with comforting. (Actually I just realized as I'm writing this that Autism makes sense for her! And now I'm HAPPY about that.)

Nancy: Bi panic in person. Her relationship with Steve was merely to fuck around (haha literally.) and be rebellious. Her relationship with Jonathan wad more and really serious. But you are on my blog and therefore you KNOW what I'm gonna scream for. RONANCE. After sorting things out with Jonathan, they both decided to part. She was akward around Steve but only because she started falling for his bestie. And god she loves Robin sm. She was so afraid of getting attached but SUPRISE SUPRISE. She did.

Jonathan: Straight Ally(???) I actually never thought much about him even tho from season 1-3 he was one of my ultimate favs. He just decided to be single for some time after Nancy and him broke up and he's happy about it. He goes back to California (after thinking about it for a long time because he wanted to be there for Will. But after Byler sorted it out he could leave peacefully.) Anyways, he and Argyle just keep vibin, he gets a photography job and maybe eventually after a break another girl.

Argyle: Pan. Oh GOD I LOVE HIM. I just know he and Jonathan did things when they were high. (Jonathan actually told Nancy and apologized like 500 times but she didn't mind a lot). He hooks up with random at times. Not in a bad way. He is a mindful person and makes sure everything is safe and protected. He has a few girlfriends from time to time. Some boyfriends here and there. Just happy to be there! He just wants someone who doesn't care about him being a stoner.

Steve: Bi panic in person #2. This man was convinced he was straight until he met Robin. She talked to much about herself that Steve probably realized at some point that guys are actually kind of hot. And some of his 'idols' where maybe small crushes. I am not OBSESSED with Steddie. But I don't hate them. I don't really care about them. But Steve will be happy, doesn't matter if a girl or guy!

Robin: Canon Lesbian. God I love the way she found out in rebel Robin. And over the time, when she grows closer with all of the party she eventually gets less closed up and pretty loose with the topic of her being a Lesbian. The second person she outed herself to was Nancy (under tears and sobs because she's so in love with her.) And then strangely enough Mike because she noticed the akward pining for Will and decided to talk some sense into him. Her first real crush and gay awakening was Tammy, which is canon. She liked Vicky in a way. It was a complicated in between after she met Nancy. But since she was with Jonathan, she tried to get rid off her thoughts with focusing on Vicky, But as the upside down got worse and she spend much more time with Nancy she was convinced she wanted her more. And luckily these feelings where mutual. Also rip Robin, you would love Chapell Roan and Billie Eillish.

Eddie: I think we all are convinced that he is gay. He cared about Chrissy but didn't know her close enough. He always liked boys and was okay with it. He immediately knew what Robin is and was honestly just vibing. He had a girlfriend (which made him realize he likes boys) and a secret boyfriend before. And once the party is so comfortable and Robin outed herself to all of them he followed to make her feel less akward which leads into everyone outing themselves. Because fruity people attract fruity people.

Vicky: I honestly don't know enough about her atp. I think she's Bi. Or maybe a little confused about all this esp when she met Robin? I like Rovicky. Not more than Ronance, but it's cute and I honestly only want Robin to be happy ):

Joyce: Straight Ally but like the biggest in history. She kissed Karen before (cuz I say so.) She always knew that Will was gay because of the way he interacted with Mike. She is so gentle and careful about it. Educating herself, asking questions if confortable. She just wants to protect. That's why she is also do incredibly nice to Robin, because she knew her parents won't give her unconditional love so someone has to.

Hopper: Straight Ally but very confused about everything. He doesn't get the whole lgbtq thing. But as soon as Will officially outed himself, Hopper made such an effort into educating himself to not say anything wrong. And when El outed herself he spit out a very smart sounding scientific definition and El giggled.

Murray: Gayest character in this show. Bro is like gayer than Will atp. He wanted Alexei. He loved him and sobbed for months straight. Thats it. A miserable sad gay man.

Special Guest: KAREN!!: I am very deep in this fandom since August 2023. ADHD does fun things and made me read too many things. And from all these times on Ao3, Tumblr, Pinterest or the part in Rebel Robin where Robin realized that everyone is just trying to fit into society and be perfect in a way, I've been growing VERY fond of the closeted Lesbian Karen headcanons. She liked girls so much, she know she did. And she decided to not embrace it or even try to. She just adapted into that sad tradwife life and decided to make everyone satisfied. She was very happy when Nancy brought home Robin and Mike brought Will. She is so proud of her children expressing themselves unlike her. Also how tf did she pick Ted? The laziest, stupidest and most gross mf ever???

So uhhh- Robin is projecting... If you have anything you want to see from me. If you want moodboards, drabbles, OS, headcanons or whatever, PLEASE REQUEST THEM. I'm so desperate. I do all Finn Wolfhard and Maya Hawke fandoms cuz that's my thing >:)

[petewentzsvaginabones]

Proper Introduction

Sup i’m Max

About me: i’m the #1 mike fuentes hater, and extremely socially awkward. i’ve been told that i’m pretty odd :) /ref

‼️‼️‼️I AM A MINOR‼️‼️‼️

important dates and shit:

Deftones- March 29th 2025

MCR- August 15th 2025

People/groups i’ve seen in concert!!

PTV

the lumineers

beach bunny

james bay

duran duran

indigo girls

cavetown

mother mother

plays/musicals/ballets i’ve seen live!

hairspray x3

wicked x2

beetlejuice

hamiton

hair

newsies x4

sound of music

the nutcracker x7

jesus christ superstar

SIX

fiddler on the roof

the little mermaid

you’re a good man charlie brown

Dorothy and the prince of oz

emojiland

addams family

status: on n off

Current Vibe: down so bad for this mf

Lyric that i’m feelin rn: “You’re a fuckin angel ” —-Emergency Contact , PTV

song that fits the vibe:

DNI- Racists, Homophobes, Bigots generally unpleasant people, anyone younger than 13, DSMP fans, Tx2 fans. I block freely lol

more shit under the cut cuz this is long

any random blurbs abt life or fandom/bandom shit go under #petewentzsvaginabones rambles

my mom is @whats-a-girl-to-do

my beloved is @randomslinky

Sexuality: Homoflexible, aro-flux, ace-flux

Gender: FtM Dude (or as i like to put it, “lightly boy flavored” but not necessarily Demi-boy)

my silly little issues: Chronic joint pain, autism, depression, anxiety, anger issues

current hyperfixations:

dan and phil

P!ATD (pre-split ofc)

FNAF‼️‼️

past hyperfixations:

the grinch

monster high

anime (mha demon slayer ect)

cavetown

hamilton

greek and norse mythology

satanism

catholicism

cults

ghosts

sewing

crust punk fashion

scene fashion

scene music

It (2017, 2019)

SFX makeup

Gorillaz

stranger things

gravity falls

cirque du freak

asl

Harry Potter (i was 8)

beetle juice the musical

heart stopper

the little mermaid

SIX the musical

FOB

Queen (band)

The Beatles

Goth music and culture

favorite media:

Will Trent (books and show)

BBC Sherlock

Heartstopper

Dan and Phil (DanAndPhilGAMES, DanAndPhilCRAFTS, Daniel Howell, AmazingPhil)

Kaos

Cirque Du Freak

the Saw franchise (i’ve watched all of them at least three times)

Childs Play/the Chucky movies

Coraline

Nightmare Before Christmas

The Black Parade Is Dead!

Heathers (musical and movie)

The Crow (1993)

Bohemian Rhapsody

A Hard Days Night

Beetlejuice (musical and first movie)

Hamilton

Six The Musical

Shrek (1, 2, 3, and the musical, 4 is bs and unhappiness)

Flatliners (the one with Kiefer Sutherland)

RHPS

Bodies (netflix show)

special interest: Music (playing and listening)

bands/artists I listen to:

MCR, PTV, SWS, Paramore, Blink-182, Green Day, Misfits, Ramones, The Cramps, Radiohead, Pixies, FOB, FIR, Weezer, Nirvana, Deftones, Frank Iero, The Beatles, Queen, David Bowie, Roger Taylor, George Harrison, Paul McCartney, John Lennon, Jimi Hendrix, The Rolling Stones, Eric Clapton, Elton John, Wings, Pink Floyd, Gorillaz, Dolly Parton, SOAD, Tame Impala, Peter Gundry, Lil Darkie, Rob Zombie, McCafferty, The Cure, TV Girl, Dead Original, Grateful Dead

Instruments I play: Piano, guitar

fun fact: idk bro i’m actually boring asf

me lolz

[lumothespadesman]

Rabbitdragon got me so bad I cant even make fanart cause I'll giggle myself to death. God please help me I have like 10 episodes left of build and so many unexpressed emotions over these two Im going insane.

Sento and Kasumi parallels so often presented that Im starting to think Its an intentional hinting at this point

Blowing Ryuuga up with my mind rn why are yuo so bisexual

Why does Sento have Ryuuga flashbacks every 5 seconds like. Ok bro. Okay. Keep it up fruitboy. Not like I dont know what you are.

Episode 34 being called "the best match, separated" LIKE WHAT A WAY TO DRIVE IT HOME

Build is my fabourite brainworm and all the rabbitdragon fanart I've found thus far just makes it more powerful... I will join soon I promise.... I just need time for the autism to settle....

Sowwy for rambling.. like I said, cant do fanart or I'll explode and die so take some banger lumo words instead

Also Im a sento kinnie . Probably. 🫡

Also also what THE FUCK IS THE PHOTOBOOK. ITS ALWAYS THE PHOTOBOOKS BRO

[columbiastapshoes]

hello twin peaks fandom. i just finished the og 2 seasons and for the later half of season 2 i put live reactions in my notes app. here are the highlights <3 (lmk if u want the full version it’s so much longer)

‼️spoiler warning‼️ ALSO if you read me saying ‘evil cooper’ i am talking about windom earle. i did not know there would be a literal evil cooper. at the end of the reactions ‘evil cooper #2’ is referring to cooper’s doppelgänger <3 also also!! the double return means it’s a new collection of notes that i wrote down in the same moment if that makes sense? i wanted to do screenshots instead of the actual text but alas i can only upload ten </3

- "psychological evaluation" he already has an autism diagnosis leave bro alone

- ok hang on. if josie dies and harry couldn't protect her. then. parallels with caroline dying and cooper couldn't protect her. Hm :3 (update! david lynch the man that you are.)

- "what is the greatest gift one human being can give to another?" and bobby and i make the same 🤨 face

- weasel. right. yes. i am following this conversation

- sksksksksk save the weasels

- sorry

- im really sorry

- this is the worst possible person to be helping rn. unfortunately he is incredibly smart.

- earle is dale if he used his autism for evil

- i certainly hate you james fwiw!!

- you guys have started over again like 30473938 times stop it

- "please come home with me" "actually you should go" GUYS

- done with y'all where are the queers

- cooper appears from a bush and goes "you never loved her anywayyyyy"

- christ this is rough where are my boys

- MY BOYS??? oh no it's you :/

- haha you're not gonna tell him right

- ohhhh dear :3

- im going to kms :3

- hello bri ish man would you like a bo'ol of wo'uh

- chess? great! sheriff to fbi agent. they kiss. they both win

- "have someone keep an eye on him" CUDDLE WIFH HIM COWARD HE CLEARLY NEEDS YOU. YOU ARE THE FIRST AND ONLY PERSON TO CALM HIM DOWN AND ALLOW HIM TO CRY INSTEAD OF YELL. WHAT THENFUCK DALE COOPER DO U REALIZE HOW MUCH HE LOVES U. sigh

- I DONT CARE ABOUT THE FUCKING WEASELS THIS IS SO FUCKING. RGH

- no way they have roblox dress to impress in twin peaks

- OH NO HE EVIL WHITTLES HES LIFERALLY RVIL COOPER

- i wanna kiss this sad sad man very desperately

- break it with a hammer ??? dumdum

- WOWEEBOB !! !!

- "not all men" ur right pete martell would never

- my boys have not been together as much and it's making me STBERE THEY ARE WITH A HOMOSEXUAL ARM AROUND THE SHOULDER

- oh there's a bomb! ok!

- HARRY HAS A GRANDPA SWEATERRRRR I LOVE HIMMM

- they touched hands they wanna make out sooooo bad

- the bomb can wait you guys are in love

- cooper so preeeeetttyyyyyy :333

- andy i love you very dearly

- i love how harry is so gentle and kind and patient with lucy and then he's like ANDY SHUT THE FUCK UP

- girls night (cooper interrogating audrey donna and shelly)

- wow thats comforting if i was told this i would burst into tears or flames

- i love it when cooper is in front of a whiteboard

- "for instance?" i KNEW thats how u would approach dirty talk u fancy motherfucker

- THEY ARE NOT MAKING EYE CONTACT IN AN IMPORTANT CONVERSATION. AUTISM.

- why is bro goth what happened

- evil cooper you need to either do normal foundation or all white WHY ARE HIS TEETH BLAAACK

- bro is NOT siouxsie 😭😭😭

- yeah no shit. is this. news. i knew this before u fbi fuckers did

- URETHRA! ☝️

- you could KISS him? okay evil cooper..

- finished my brownie. crave death

- who is bro talking to

- oh leo hi leo

- it hasn't panned to leo yet i think he's like dead and they'll reveal it in a sec

- oh nom worse than dead ow ow ow ow

- OW OW OW OW OWWWWIEEEEEE

- WHERE DID HE FIND THE TARANTULAS

- dw leo i can take them home. they are my friends

- giggling a lil. about. cooper.

- BY HEAVENS oh my god

- i'm still giggling about cooper but it has turned from "i want him" giggling to "BY HEAVENS!!" giggling

- ok sorry what's the issue i got distracted

- sorry had to rewind two more times BY HEAVENS is taking me out

- i always said this show needed a dance sequence (i never said that)

- jeez u guys suck not u lucy ur eating

- I ALWAYS SAID TWIN PEAKS NEEDED A KICKLINE AND TOP HATS (i never said that)

- closeup on harry's face pls don't i need GRAND THEFT AUTO.

- sorry pete just said grand theft auto.

- can my cats stop beefing i have a show to watch

- WHERE ARE HER DRAPE RUNNERS!!!!

- you don't fucking say things got out of hand Michael.

- most useless side plot i do not care

- CAN MY CATS STOP BEEEEFINGGG

- HOLY SHIT ITS EVIL COOPER TO ME AND EVIL COOPER LITERALLY!!!!!

- how is he not crying and screaming in a fetal position that would be my plan

- why is evil cooper #2 kinda.

- why do i lowkey want evil cooper #2

- TBIS FUCKING KID WITH THE FLASHLIGHT

- bobs camera angle looks like a ring doorbell

thank you!

[fairycorewalterwhite]

omfg Idk how to feel rn because my friend with auhd said he thinks im autistic and I had to tell them I only had adhd but it got me thinking but there's so much overlap wtfffff I don't want to self diagnose but now idk what to do because I felt bad saying no but at the same time it would make sense???? idk bro also my sister uses autism as a word for stupid so that makes things way worse also its her birthday today and I haven't gotten her a gift and she might also be neurodivergent which would makes things way weirder also my cousin has auhd too so there might be genetic links so idk what to do helppp meeeeee

[milimeters-morales]

quick disorder / disability hcs under da cut for my own hyperspecific chatfic (💔). they all need glasses by default bc of the spider bites but the teens won’t truly need them until their late twenties

miles: autism + gad (always downplaying it) + ptsd (unaware) though he is like. cptsd can be developing just from the shit he’s doing as spider-man.? does that make sense hold on. okay yes. he is making it worse for himself.

gwen: adhd (denying) + cptsd (unaware) + dyslexia + chronic wrist and ankle pain (reason she gave up ballet but still tries it)

margo: autism + depression (denying) + some sort of anxiety issues from her sheltered upbringing and spider stuff

hobie: bpd + autism + cptsd (unaware of all) (unrelated but he’s intersex as well but not entirely aware of this, i was considering PAIS but i might just leave it up to reader so they can project)

pavitr: autism + adhd + cptsd (unaware of all, last will also cause insomnia to a degree i haven’t decided but will become a huge problem for him) (this mostly relies on my made up backstory for him)

ganke: adhd + already has pretty bad eyesight (extremely nearsighted) + i’m thinking anemia ? maybe only during his period? also look into that thing where taking T just makes you produce more blood or whatever, i could probably connect all this

comics miguel: ocd + autism + reactive hypoglycemia + cptsd (unaware of first three rn, wont do much diving into his traumas bc he thinks “acknowledged = done with it”?)

peter b: autism (not entirely convinced) + depression (recovering) + chronic back/feet pain. maybe during the pregnancy he had gestational diabetes? not sure i’m even gonna focus that much on the adults in this fic that much to the point where this comes up. besides “haha comic miguel is going to burn the building down if he has to send more emails” moments

SHITTT WAIT. is that bad to make the character i hc to have ocd the “fixer” of the spider society and turning it into like a true volunteer / community space. no right. i’m overthinking that. if that was the case the i would be making it his whole personality and making everyone involved in like general maintenance of the place have ocd. yeah okay it’s fine you aren’t an awful dude. 🙏🏾🎊 WELL IDK. JUST BE CAREFUL BRO

other characters that show up (like comic miles) aren’t gonna get hcs besides what i briefly mention… like being polyamorous or disliking a food .. peni is a special case bc i truly don’t get her no matter what . like she feels just out of reach and i have no idea why so i won’t have her in the gc but will still be present in the story #realism

[tmntismdoodls]

what are your hcs for 87 raph?

a lot of my hcs involve the other turtles so they’ll probs be mentioned too!!

- he’s very sentimental (this is literally just canon actually but i digress)

- cries during movies probably but just pretends like it’s allergies or some dumb shit like that (he honestly just seems like a crier in general tbh)

- paranormal stuff freaks him out but he’ll never tell a soul

- has “idk what the hells going on so im just gonna joke around and hope it works out” flavor of autism

- tying into the autism hc he mirrors his brothers a lot!!! (this actually happens a lot in the cartoon, he’ll mimic their expressions and poses a lot.)

- he shows affection through physical touch but will also 100% gripe (non seriously) abt it if his bros want a hug or something because being a drama queen is His Entire Thing

- raphs a shithead, donnie’s a bitch. therefore, they are either just… such little rapscallions when paired up together or fiercely protective. or both. depends on the day.

- uses the just most vulgar language to annoy the shit out of leonardo when he’s feeling especially evil (they have a swear jar bcs of his dumb ass.)

- raph is the youngest

- him and mikey are twins and they fight over who is older every week. despite the weekly attempts at fratricide those two are best buds. (alternatively: “well I was mutated TWO MINUTES BEFORE YOU!” *is such a little shit abt it he ends up seeming younger*)

- he helps mikey when he has anxiety attacks or meltdowns (side eyes this)

- raph is a good singer but it is a secret he will take to his grave (this is also generally hilarious to me because literally every other raph is such a bad singer but does it anyways)

- he knows how to do makeup and he’s very good at it!

- he’s transmasc but has no idea because he was raised as a guy (splinter literally just guessed w/ all of them and it ended up working out)

- diversity win hes also bi

- this is actually a hc i have for them all, i like to think that they have retractable claws because it’s fun.

i know i probs have more but i can’t think of any rn soooo there ya go!

[maepersonal]

ok new requirements for me liking you just dropped bc like why did I just come to the realization that I don’t want to spend time with any of my family members (except maybe my cousins)?

like my aunt on my mom’s side has always been my favorite family member but she came up to surprise me and I’m just… not having a good time????

like literally all she does is enable my fucking mother

*talking about how we have autism on all sides of the family* - “all your grandparents and great grandparents-“

shut tf up no the fuck we do not!!!!!! autism is more than just the social fucking awkwardness you are using as evidence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*literally yelling my name until I take my headphones out* “I know you have a positive opinion of your grandma but when we were younger she would yell at your aunt for what we now call stimming”

1. literally where???? 2. what was the reason for telling me this??????? like bro I was READING!!!!!! 3. if that actually fucking happened then why would you do the EXACT SAME SHIT WITH ME?!?!? and have talked about her with glowing compliments until right this fucking moment??????? YOU HAVE YOUR OWN TRAUMA DO NOT TRY TO CO-OPT MINE

*reading aloud passages from books about the experience of having autism and adhd (every five fucking minutes!! while I’m trying to show my aunt something!!)* “this is exactly how my brain works! this explains so much!!!!!”

NO TF IT IS NOT!!!!!!! do you remember when you wasted 2000 fucking dollars trying to get yourself diagnosed with ANYTHING NEURODIVERGENT and you came back with NOTHING?!?!?!? HUH???? CUZ I DO!!!! YOU COULDNT LOOK ME IN THE EYE FOR A FUCKING WEEK

and also *asking me to read the books she’s reading about peoples experience and struggles living with autism and/or adhd*

like bitch?????? I fucking live that shit!!!! AND, as you very well know, my depression and burnout is so fucking bad rn that I can’t even read books for myself WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I’D READ THE BOOKS YOU BUY TO MAKE YOURSELF FEEL BETTER?!?!?!?

“can we take a break, my brain is getting overstimulated”

no no go ahead tell me more about your experience with overstimulation as you’re LITERALLY ACTIVELY BREAKING MY NO TOUCHY TOUCH BOUNDARY WHILE I’M IN THE MIDDLE OF A SHUTDOWN???????

*literally just starts reading a fucking news story about how trump released his lgbtq policies and how it left social justice orgs speechless*

WOW!!! this must affect you SO MUCH for you to be cheerily bringing it up when we’re watching tv!!!!!

[chipsonthemenu]

tell me about your headcanons!!

EHEWHEEHHE HI AURORA THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME YELL

okay so basic list stuff:

chip: he/him transmasc greyaroace bi and has. some sort of back problems. also his pinkie that i keep forgetting about! also adhd too bro has 0 attention span /pos

jay: she/they transfem bisexual and BBBAD KNEE....thought she had this in canon but i might be mixing them up with mari omori.....occasional mobility aids that ollie helped her decorate :3

gil: any pronouns agender aroace but is very down for qprs. autism as hell <3 also probably other stuff i cant think of rn OH GLASSES GIL FR

ollie: THEY/THEM GENDERQUEER UNLABELLED SCREAMING IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS THE LITTLE BOY THE KEEP ONNTHE SHIP IS A GENDERNEUTRAL TERM DO YOU SEE MY VISION. also probably needs glasses. to me. and heavily adhd n autism

drey: they/them nb unlebelled nblm. gots their arms yk 👍 also kinda strikes me at nd in some way fight me on this

gryffon: okay. hear me out. they/he/she nb panromantic asexual. please. do you see my vision. also their arm and autism. gryffon is autism do you hear me.

finn: he/she genderfluid pansexual bro is a whore. also love the idea of fully mute finn and she is autism as FUCK DO YOU HEAR MEEEE

earl: nobody escapes from my queerness beam not even earl. he/him cismasc bisexual. bad back bad knees uses a cane. old man shit but also he hits people with the cane and uses it when making juice sometimes. ollie put fruit stickers all over it once and he actually kinda likes it but will never say that

queen: MY LOVE. MY ONE AND ONLY. ANY PRONOUNS PANGENDER AROACE. THEY HAVE AUTISM AND TICS (IM BLANKING ON WHAT THATS CALLED) AND STRIKES ME AS SOMEONE WHO NEEDS MOBILITY AIDS BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT FOR. XE ARE JUST LIKE ME FR AND I LOVE HER WITH EVERYTHING IN MY BEING

lizzie: she/her transfem lesbian. shit vision not jusy due to her eye but just in general. refuses to wear glasses

caspian: they/he libramasc achillean demisexual :) sssooooo many jrwi characters strike me as mobility aid users despite me not being one and caspian is no exceptionnnnnnn to this

john: sorry bee but. he/him cismasc VERY VERY GAY. MARSHALL JOHN IS A MAN LIKER. ALSO VERY AUTISM AND ADHD

niklaus: throwing in motherfucker too because i do have stuff. she/they/lun/he transfem genderfluid bisexual. thats it

i thibk thats everyone i wanted to yell about lmk OH FUCK ALPHONSE

alphonse: dont care. doing the silly. it/they/he agender aroace i do not care if they are the boat now it deserved better and he gets my headcanons

okay thats everyone i think thank you for letting me scream <3

LIED. LIED SO BAD.

jaz: JASMINE DRAAAAKE <3 he/they transmasc gay with autism and why do i see him having a prosthetic arm. no idea why okay i think thats ACTUALLY everyone now

edyn: she/e cisfem sapphic HOW DID I ALMOST FORGET HERRRRR

ensa: omg her. they/she transfem nb lesbain asexual. got her prosthetic leg and probably adhd

kira: SHE/THEY TRANSFEM SAPPHIC KIRA IS A WOMAN KISSER mwa love her

okay. goodbye fr this time i promise

wait no i wanna do the apoth crew too as an apotheosis enjoyer

peter: they/he transmasc demiboy with so much autism that likes men. also probably post-campaign cane user the shit they went through can fuck someone up

rumi: any pronouns genderfluid pansexual. there is some sort of thing i think they have (i dont think its imposter syndrome) but its something about never actually seeing herself because changeling shit yk idk

thanatos: it/they unlabelled :) doesnt need labels doesnt want em :)

OKAY. I THINK THATS IT FUCK EXANDROTH RESPECTFULLY OKAY WAHOO HOPE YOU ENJOYED MY UNGODLY LONG POST

[sol-draws-sometimes]

Disc World Book Club Thoughts- Monstrous Regiment

Pages 28-32

Hey @anna-neko! Hi…. I’m not dead! Look! I- Finales week happened, and then I went on a road-trip… could I have read on the road-trip… yes. Did I… no. BUT- just cause you fuck up doesn’t mean you just throw everything away. I’M BACK ON THE READING… Did I read much this week, NO! But, I DID read sooo yah, look I told you it’s hard for me read. Which like it’s so weird cause when I’m reading, I’m having so much fun. It’s just actually picking up the book (or opening the app) that my brain has so much resistance too. Anyways, yah here are my thoughts on what I read!

NOT PAUL! MY FUCKING HEART

Paul would’ve loved to learn birds are dinos.(totally protecting this rn cause I learned this recently and it’s mine boggling to me. I mean this IS fantasy so evolution shit may different but yah, now I’m just talking birds)

Also yah, very autism coded. Also something something people using religion to for harm and coming up with shit that isn’t even backed up in the religion, but then everyone else agrees that these is the new rule. AAAAAAAAAH.

AAH POLLY CAUGHT SOMEONE

BRO SHE’S ONLY SAYING THAT NOW. Like yah I do get what she means but it’s that thing of like transphobes who claim “they can tell.” Like NAAAAH. But yah interesting commentary on how society views gender and what not

Also, either Lofty and Tonkers are dating(gay), or they are NOT dating. Imagin they’re siblings 🧍. Or maybe they’re JUST friends. Anyways I know tonker’s also a girl so like GIRLY YOU’RE SO WRONG. SAYING YOU CAN TELL. NAH, YOU’RE JUST SCARED CAUSE YOU ALSO GOT CAUGHT, SO YOU’RE SAYING THAT LOFTY IS BAD A HIDING IT CAUSE YOU’RE PROJECTING. (Not mad a polly, just calling her out.)

Fuck this book is good

Also yah, mystery dude is definitely Jackrum. It has to be him.

I love maladict so much

Okay no more screenshots for these next few bullet points, just thoughts in order of book.

Fucking hate Strappi, he’s almost like TOO dislikable to the point that I was tempted to say unrealistic so… but nah, some people really ARE just THAT nationalistic and sadistic. Plus, he totally loves that he has a position of power that he gets to abuse with the regeiment.

NOT SEKTOBOR!!! HE DIDN’T EVEN TRY WITH THAT ONE 😭😭😭 *cut to someone explaining the lore behind the month naming conventions in disc world*

Polly read the news paper, and started to create chaos. Love her. Also I’m so conflicted, cause it’s not like they got drafted or anything. Yah Polly wants to find Paul, but like, Boragravia is like so obviously the bad guys. I mean, I know making broad statements like that is bad, and like this is supposed to make a statment about how on both sides of war, the individuals are people. But like, I don’t know if I’m making myself clear. I mean I guess this is a war book so like, obviously things aren’t gonna be black and white(almost nothing is). But yah.

SEE NOW SARGENT TRIED TO ARREST TONKER(even tho Polly started it but whatever) LIKE HE’S SO POWER HUNGRY

BRO THE DOUBLE MEANING. AAAAAAAH. *everyone collectively shitting their pants*

Also I’ve been meaning to bring it up but

Dicks(or I guess penises is the more accurate term) are SUPPER tied to masculinity and what it means to be a man

Polly got told to pack to pass a guy

So like, it’s this interesting thing of Polly so focused on the sock since it’s the thing that got her caught as a woman, but also she’s SO focused on trying to be a man. So it makes sense for the book to come back to Polly thinking about her sock and tying the sock to masculinity. I mean in this scene she’s in her head telling Strappi that’s she passing and he doesn’t even realize she’s a girl, but like yah. Maybe when I’m not writing these super deliriously could I make a more eloquently/ better expressed observation on sock=masculinity symbolism but yah.

Anyways very tired

I PROMISE TO READ MORE NEXT WEEK

BACK ON THAT GRIND

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HAI ID LIKE TO DISCUSS UR BAND AU. how does kobra as the vocalist work with his semi-verbalness?? or is he not semiverbal in this au?? tell me all about it pls!! /nf

HII YES YES my wifis acting up rn so I havent been able to post about this au but as soon as its back up I'll be band au posting soo much. Okay so in this au I write his autism and semiverbalness a lot like my own and I'm still figuring out like. The vocalistisms. But it's basically like, hes nonverbal until hes comfortable around people and as long as he isnt overstimulated you can't shut him the fuck up. And once he joins the band and starts playing more and gets experience being a frontman the comfortable around people part kind of goes away because he gets really confident and cocky. Like as long as he isnt overstimulated or his voice just decided to turn off for no reason- because sometimes theres just really no reason or predicting it and its annoying- most of the time he doesn't shut up. But also he has his thing where like if he's really pissed off, in this case at bli because this au starts off based within battery city, and theyre trying to 'fix' him and poisons a bit of an asshole sometimes with trying to get him to be like, following the rules and staying safe because theyre in no way loyal to bli but they havent been bitten by the rebellion bug yet ya'know? Kobra kind of drags them into the band and becoming killjoy stuff later on lmao. But anyway hes very pent up and full of rage all the time and theres a fine line between going nonverbal or screaming about it. And once he joins the band- because he finds Ghoul and Sandman jamming out on the street like with buckets and a homemade guitar just to stir up trouble and is like. Wow. And then crows come and everyone scatters and he ends up running with them, then they become friends and once hes comfortable around them and hes just hanging out while theyre practicing or something or just listening to old music and he starts singing along and theyre like. Damn boy you can sing what the hell??!? And hes like oh i dunno at first when they're like bro you should play with us you're good but he ends up going like fuck it and becomes the vocalist and its just like. He discovers he kinda loves it. Its an outlet for everything and the thrill of directly doing something illegal(because music, especially this kind, is outlawed) and dangerous just gives him an adrenaline/seratonin high and he can just let the fuck loose and screams their shitty punk songs.

Then Poison and Jet join the band and they all leave the city(not sandman, hes just there as a jam buddy for ghoul and kobra in the beginning, the suitehearts have their own thing going on that I'll expand on in their own post later). Anyway once the shows over and the adrenaline like wears off usually all the stimulation hits at once and he goes nonverbal like when I'm like hanging out with friends or performing and having a lot of fun but then we all go home and i sit down on the couch and am just like. Oh i had fun but i cant move or talk or anything now. Spoons zapped. Worth it tho. Its like that for Kobra. Shows usually go off without a hitch unless hes had like. A really bad day sometimes he cant sing so he sits aside on an amp like bundled up in a comfort jacket and cheers his band on silently and someone else screams in his place lol. Practices, since they're just chill, sometimes come when he isnt verbal, it just depends on the day yknow, so its like. When he is verbal sometimes he'll randomly start singing if hes working on his bike or not really doing anything like. Oh better get the practice in while i can. Because like i said earlier he isnt self conscious at all, hes a frontman hes a shameless bastard lol.

Anyway uhh I think I explained that pretty well feel free to ask about anything else I Need to talk about this au fhsjnd <3

[kazumahashimoto]

my xander review 2

he's just. lackluster. i kinda can't unhear hairo in his performance but the thing is hairo is still played with more energy than this 😭 like he sounds Fine. it's not Bad. but ooooo girl you do not want to give me access to the same scene played by different people. there was a flashback scene to what i believe was s2 and man. the way new guy screams is just so. like it's not quite as guttural? and like i said before i think the lack of texture in his voice is what's throwing it off more than anything like. he's got a Little bit. sometimes it comes out more than others. but it's just not quite enough. and so far the Bro factor in his performance hasn't really been all the way there. like i don't even know how to describe to you what Bro sounds like but you understand don't you. you listen to that man speak and it's like ah yes. cowabunga. i think new guy lacks a level of dude whimsy. at least rn. he's Close. though i fear he's gonna get written out and we'll never see him again so he won't have the opportunity to really bloom into his performance the way howard wang was able to since wakiya was a reoccuring character. but i spose we'll see! on another note i fucking love ken's new voice oh my godddddd 😭 i love ken just in general here it's so sweet. i was a little worried they were gonna make him talk to people without his puppets more but that's not the case at all!!!! i love his whole arc it's soooooooo autism i love it i love it. and his new voice suits him perfectly. so at least we have that<3

[lycheecreature]

hrhnghgggg vent 👎 don't read this unless ur ready for giant block of whining. tldr:

I literally feel soooo guilty complaining abt this esp cause I've def done it already in different terms but it's been boiling for so long idk I need to like :/ break it down a little I guess. same shit different day etc etc

I feel like its really fucking with me that as I make larger steps to actually,,, have coherent story content I keep getting excited to share stuff and then I end up super disappointed and fucking embarrassed when it totally flops 💀 esp when I was gonna try and share more of my writing and?? I know I'm not entitled to anyone's time or interest but even friends never got back to me on it and it's like,, yeah realistically I didn't expect everyone to give detailed feedback or even read it necessarily bc yeah ppl are busy I get it and i dont wanna blame anyone,, it's just the fact that I struck out every. single. time!?? Couldnt even get a single one? Even if it was negative feedback, at least I'd have some idea of what I might need to work on.

Now I'm even more self concious about sharing it than I was before, and I don't even know what it is that I'm embarrassed about other than a nebulous sense of "bro nobody cares." And yea i probably *should* try to promote it more! Except now i feel awkward and shameful and concieted for it! But again I don't want to guilt anyone bc its not like,, the fault of any specific person. On an individual level I get stuff slips by and ppl have plenty of their own shit going on, I've def done the same. Plus, if someone was gonna read my stuff, I'd want it to be bc they wanted to and not bc I heckled them into it yknow :/ just makes me sad

Then of course I get super fucking jealous of everyone else who does actually does get praise and attention which also makes me feel like a horrible person. I know part of it is just that I don't have the best social skills (to put it lightly) but mannn. The more this happens to me over and over again the less motivated I feel to try and start conversations. I'm getting real weird and paranoid over it, and it's getting worse the longer I don't talk about it while simultaneously reaffirming my belief that there is no one for me to talk to. Regardless of if that's even fucking true. And because I am Too Sad, I hardly even have the energy to hold a normal fucking conversation.

Idk, I felt like I had a similar dumb angst during artfight. And artfight wasn't even bad for me, esp compared to like the first year i did it when hardly anyone I attacked even acknowledged that I'd done so 🫠 ofc this is 100% *not* the fault of the ppl I attacked!! I had fun interacting w everyone and seeing their stuff! But I was kinda sad that I initiated everything except for an attack from one random person who doesn't follow me. Its like,, I absolutely do not ever expect to be first on anyone's list, but damn I was hoping I could at least be like... eighth or something??( <- petty ass baby complaint. )

Literally the only conclusion I can come to is that I need to train myself better to Never Expect Anything. I'm actually so terrified that I must obviously be an entitled egocentric asshole for getting crazy over this. God. Idk my real life is already very pathetic and lonely rn and I am constantly deeply ashamed of myself for not being better. Can't even blame The Autism for this shit bc apparently so many of the people who are actually able to foster communities also have The Autism. It's literally just a Me problem.

To be clear, I still very much enjoy making things and my little story and I'd be making the things regardless of if I posted them or not so I might as well try to share them. And I'm wellllll past expecting to ever be majorly successful as an artist or anything. Everything's just been making me feel bad lately. Been writing a bit again and I'm glad for that, but then whenever I'm getting too excited about it I have to stop myself and be like "hey man don't get your hopes up. no one's gonna be that into it." I have to remind myself like yeah I knowww it's not marketable it doesn't have everyone's favorite tropes and character archetypes. Even if *i* constantly seek out unusual content I am definitely *not* representative of the general media consuming populace or the art community or the oc community. And i will not fucking change anything just to be more palatable for Consumers. Just wish I wasn't soooo lonelyyyyyyy. Or that I could at least get an idea of what I'm missing here.

Uhhh on the off chance you did read this whole thing PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT FEEL BAD OR GUILTY FOR ANYTHING ABOUT ME I am very mentally ill. idk maybe its the daylight savings. sad ant with bindle dot jpeg.