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the urge to read a dust x reader fic is strong but like...
I get frustrated by the interpretations. it's like... they did dust so dirty man.
bro is NOT a friking... idunno. feral beast or an egotistical maniac that only uses others as tools like your avrage charismatic bad guy. he's a fucking depressed mess of a man scrambling for any sense of control. an asshole at best and a killer at worst but he won't care enough to ... uh... you know...uhm... erm...
look the guy does mercy killing. he doesn't drag things out. he would NOT FUCKING DO THAT.
no I'm not calling him a saint or saying he's above it. he would do it IN THE RIGHT CONTEXT and not just out on a whim.
like he's still horrible but it's a different flavor of evil. he's like a minty vanilla flavoured kinda bad guy that won't cross some lines such as [REDACTED].
like I'd expect that from fanon [REDACTED] sans but like COME ON.
he's not a fucking [REDACTED]
heck he wouldn't even bother doing that to crimson who he's WANTS TO KILL with all his being.
it's weird but like... crimson and dust... they're weirdly in sync? like they've been fighting toghter for so long they already have memorized each other's micro expressions body language fidgets lil perks... they're FAMILIAR with how the other ticks. and like...
after so long I don't THINK dust actually wants to BREAK crimson. if they leave he's going to just be alone with his voices...
crimson IS head over heels for the guy but they respect his boundaries. THEY'RE not just gonna go there and like idunno. KISS him out of nowhere. not without a build up or him being open to the idea.
it's HARD to even call it romance. they've been stuck toghter for so long that some personal boundaries sorta... washed away? like they're both used to invading each other's personal space as pranks. but not to the extent that it'd actually TRIGGER either of them.
like he doesn't really mind it. he's used to them flirting.
as for crimson...
they're up for anything he give a green light for and if not? they're ok with it. they don't really wanna put a name to this codependency. friends enemies soul mates lovers they're just words and labels.
they prefer companion or... murder buddy.
so like I FEEL like dust yk... wouldn't really uhm... you know JUMP on the opportunity to link his soul to them to kill them both at once? even for the sake of resets.
specially cuz souls don't just... work like that. you can't FORCE a soul link in most fanfic interpretations...
unless that's not the case then that's just my thornbound souls au which it's LITERALLY a forced bond formed from spite...
that aside sometimes they kiss mid fight either to gain the upper hand and stab the other person... or not and just yk. make out n shit. it's not even really a commitment or a sign of trust or anything.
it's like... they know each other so we'll that the mental barriers. the shame. the stuff you have when you're with someone who doesn't know you and everything you ARE?
they don't really do anything without reading the other's vibe. like. it's not a HEALTHY relationship by any means but they WON'T cross some lines.
and if they do cross it it's likely because crimson or dust allowed it so because they felt playful or just feeling adventurous. they're BOTH STRONG. they can justake seperate choices.
they're both unstable individuals and crimson doesn't want to break his fragile mind even further.
also the fact that crimson can't actually feel any pain.
that also creeps dust out lmao.
#potentially suggestive#suggestive#most dust fanfics suck#must i do everything myself...#crimsondust
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deeply disappointed in the lack of actual proper borderlands fanon. where's the 10k word made up lore where's the custom manufacturers where's the element charts and complex DeviantArt esque diagrams
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was shocked to see that I couldn't find a sexyman design for multilevel mark. Back In My Day the gravity falls fanbase made sexymen out of thin air by overanalyzing a joke in a reddit ama. My God How We Have Fallen
#sigh. must i do everything myself#this is all very jokey and nonserious btw. i also may not have looked hard enough frankly#anyways i like his design. its Neat#currently i am too exhausted to do an id so hopefully i can do one tomorrow#doc talks#my art#undescribed#gravity falls#bill cipher#the book of bill#thisisnotawebsitedotcom
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Something so ineffable about exhaustion that comes not from a lack of sleep but from a lack of rest
#neeed a day where I’m doing nothing but I don’t think that’s forthcoming#I was out all day + forced myself to hit the gym before coming home and I am TIRED#it took a hot shower to feel my bones. and now I have to study. and then I have somewhere to be tomorrow#and then I go back to the neuro clinic on Monday. which is FUN I love it#but I don’t think I can be fully present in anything if I’m so divided between everything#multitasking is an absolute must but I think downsizing just a little bit will probably mean I get to be a healthier vessel#I just need time to chill in bed and watch silly movies and read books and chart stars and count rocks idk
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something something First AU? pose ref
#ffxiv#Ninira Nira#Estinien#Estinien Wyrmblood#Estinien Varlineau#wolstinien#what is first AU? idk everything about SHB is the same but I get to make Estinien be there too#for angst and pining#and dressup like neo ishgard fit bc he would also need an outfit :)c#I saw this pose and was like oh cute!! BUT what if I made it ghimlyt? and then was like but what if.. for fun... post mt gulg???#continuing to owe my life to twitter user emtfira#I need them to slow down I'm lady unable to hold limes with all their poses#I have 1 more on my to-do list that is a MUST and then I am forcing myself to take a break and do original stuff#and try and shift into writing mode... xiv write is around the corner after all and ive been feeling the writing itch?? Hopeful??#anyway posts art at midnight and leaves enjoy#art: mine
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Doomed Prince
Sonic x Shadow Generations X Metaphor: ReFantazio
if you thought you were done with me shilling Metaphor boy were you wrong ! here comes a crossover !
so in the upcoming Atlus fantasy rpg Metaphor, the protagonist goes on a quest to save their childhood friend : the prince of Euchronia, from a deadly curse. with twists and turns along the way, starting with the assassination of the King !
this is a redraw of this visual !
do you see how beautiful this art is i mean DAMN
anyway i'm extremely excited for this to come out and if you're a fan of games like Persona, SMT, Fire Emblem, Xenoblade or FF, you might like it too !
#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#sonic x shadow generations#shadow generations#metaphor refantazio#atlus games#teka art#shadow generations spoilers#kinda ?#sucks that we can't tag the prince because we don't know his name yet#ah well.#also remind me to NEVER draw those wings with that level of detail again#only the sketch is mirrored. everything beyond was drawn individually#it was pain but i think it was worth it#i want to do a companion piece of sonic as the metaphor protag to go with this but i am scared of having to match this level of detail...#man. what a hole i've dug myself into#BUT. ANYTHING FOR METAPHOR.#must... bring in... new fans...#i know this may seem weird but i really want this new ip to be a smash hit. show sega it's worth it y'know ?#so here i am shilling !#sorry about the long tags i always do this
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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pretty & cute witch men
#witch hat tag#orufrey#i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do#but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls#and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen'#and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH#i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to#'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments..#really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy#but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming#I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow#ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but#like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever..#just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow*#btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3
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I wanted to share this informative little comic for International (Working) Women's Day:
#international working women's day#international women's day#eleri harris#herstory#worker's rights#herstory blogging#lesfem blogging#women's art#i couldn't find any good posts in a brief tag search.. apparently must do everything myself on women's day smh#i hate seeing lame corporate meaningless soundbytes when this is actually us working women's labor rights day#some of the dates in the comic may be a bit off... will have to check again later
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I’m sorry. But Toji loves eating pussy from the back. It’s his favorite position. He loves seeing on your knees, ass up for him. Getting to spread you up bury his face in your cunt. Hearing your muffled cries as your face is squished into the bed. The way you press back and try wiggle against him for more. And he loves how easy it is to spank you/slip a finger in your ass while he’s doing it
#we as a society have forgotten about this position#it’s always on laying down or sitting on faces#where are the eating pussy from the back fics#must I do everything myself#kidding#toji smut#toji headcanons
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is no one gonna gif my lady jane
#must i do everything myself#i dont want to bc i know i'll regret it after the -5 notes#my lady jane
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this scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
#fanart#dragon age#solas#solas dragon age#solavellan#i need more dav solavellan content from a lavellan who will never ever forgive him!!!!!!! i must do everything myself#emathenan bellanathe#love a forgiving solavellan but it is wild 2 me how i see so few lavellans who are like no actually i do not forgive my bf for using and#lying 2 me for the duration of our relationship. particularly for using me as part of his plan 2 destroy the world that i love
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which one of you is gonna mash up those audios from the finale so that i can have homelander saying 'you're a good girl, and i'm coming for you' huh???? how about 'come here, good girl'??? which one of you???
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I'm thinking of Nijimura and how the rest of the Teiko gang would have reacted if they ever saw old pictures of him from his delinquent days. Surely they would've clowned his ass...
#i think the only way theyd find old photos is if the other upperclassmen showed them for funsies#nijimura tries to stop them but its too late#aomine and kise would be laughing the most#momoi would be trying to scold them for laughing at their senior#(kuroko is also laughing but his low presence means he gets away with it)#murasakibara would probably furrow his eyebrows in confusion#midorima is just shaken to his core because the duality is throwing him tf off#and akashi is also finding it extremely funny but is trying so hard not to laugh#he eventually loses the battle and has to hide his face behind his clipboard#and nijimura is just standing there seeing the respect his juniors had for him vanish before his very eyes#why couldnt we have a moment like this in canon#must i do everything myself around here#kuroko no basket#knb headcanons#i guess#kuroko tetsuya#kise ryouta#midorima shintarou#aomine daiki#momoi satsuki#murasakibara atsushi#akashi seijuro#nijimura shuuzou
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hava from seasparrow: finally characters whose personalities are as unpalatable as their upbringing
#graceling realm#seasparrow#hava#kristin cashore#graceling#the fact that there are still graceling realm books coming out is such a gift to my teenage self. it is healing my inner child#the fact i have not found any hava art is criminal. must i do everything myself#in other news i still can't remember how to draw. anything working here is mostly by accident#i wish the color of her eyes were a bit clearer but i couldn't give up the dramatic lighting. it suits her
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it is a really gorgeous morning out—crisp and sunny and totally clear—and that feels weird when everything online is so, so dark. but also I am weirdly grateful for the beautiful day and for my baby, who is as usual delighted to be alive and is currently in his crib having an animated little conversation with himself and trying to grab his toes. I think what was hardest about those first four years, especially the first couple years, was swimming every day in the horrible toxic sludge of darkness and anger and betrayal and despair. I can’t go back there. I can’t live in that perpetually heightened state of constant doomscrolling and emotional spiraling. I don’t want or plan to disconnect/disengage but I know I will have to find ways to find balance. bad things are going to happen. people whose hearts are rotten through with hate will exult publicly and shamelessly in the suffering they cause. my baby will grow up in a world that feels darker and more uncertain than the one I grew up in. but I just can’t do the thing where I wake up every single morning and let the full grief and horror of it flood my body. I am sure this means that I have a weak character or I am avoiding the reckoning or I am so insulated by privilege I can afford to turn the noise off for a bit. that is what it is. but I just gotta like. I gotta figure out how to still feel happy that it’s a beautiful day out and my baby is chatting joyfully to himself about how nice it is to be a warm cozy little baby in a warm cozy little bed.
#I think I am just going to filter a lot of stuff for right now#and maybe get off instagram for a while#and try to really keep my spaces of joy/pleasure as spaces of pure joy and pure pleasure#and then I think I want to sit down and come up with a plan for what I can do#in terms of civic engagement and community based stuff#I remember last time around I used to say to myself a lot#you are not and cannot be responsible for everything. but you must still be responsible.#and that was weirdly helpful#what is my sphere of influence what are my skills and capacities#how can I be responsible without taking it all on emotionally#and fortunately I have a job that involves a lot of community work and feels purposeful#so it doesn’t feel so abstract
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