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Double scan

so today was scan day 

any just like always i know nothing. no answers not even a clue as to what is going on with my cervix and uterus just more waiting and hoping to find out answers.

i have to wait a week which is going to take an eternity to find out what the report says from my scans. 

i think the highlight of the whole thing was watching my partners jaw drop to the floor when he saw the women put a condom on the probe that goes internally which was hilarious who knew mens faces could scrunch up that much. 

i loved how she started with the normal scan first then saved the horrible probe scan to last. 

safe to say i am now in pain, well even more pain and just want ice cream and a hot water bottle. 

eurgh. forever wishing this pain would stooooop. 

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This is a 100% me, with ollie he had to have fruit and veg at nearly every meal time and his snacks had to be organic, now with having two i’m just like here have some wotsits etc i still make sure they have their 5 a day and exercise but now i’m just like you want chocolate cake ? have it 

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This is 100000000% me.

everyday.

the minute he walks in that door i run to my bedroom to have five minutes to myself. 

don’t get me wrong i love being a mum and i know i’m blessed to have two beautiful babies but my god when they have been giving me crap all day from the minute they wake up, screaming, fighting, using me as a teething toy and climbing frame its nice to just lay down without having a mini me dangling off me.

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Post Natal Depression Full Throttle

recently i’ve been struggling. 

every day tasks have become next to impossible again, i don’t want to brush my hair, i can’t be bothered with make up, getting dressed is effort.

i’m snappy and irritable, everything is overwhelming, if a toy isn’t in it’s place i lose my mind. 

i try and find excuses to not have to go out but with ollie having nursery i’m forcing myself to go but i’m on edge.

today my fridge freezer broke and i was ready to give up on life.

just as i thought i had it under control this happens, i’m back to square one. no matter what i try i seem to go back to square one. 

just wish that i didn’t have my depression. 

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Lack of Sleep

so little lady was not about to get to sleep for anything or anyone last night.

she was up all hours crying her little eyes out, no matter what we tried little lady was still upset and fidgety. 

the only time she would stop crying for a few minutes was when mummy snag nursery rhymes to her whilst she laid on my chest as i stroked her back. 

it wasn’t until 5 am that she went to sleep but then awoke again at 7 but was exactly the same as she was a few hours before, back to bed she went and had a 3 hour sleep and then woke up a completely different child, i know she has a bit of the old sniffles on the go but last night was a weird night as she’s never been like that before. 

hoping tonight is a better night so little lady gets the rest she needs. 

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i swear i am going to get this printed on to a t-shirt.

doesn’t matter how much i try my home is turned up side down daily, i think im slowing coming to terms that my home will never be spotless. 

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that cheeky little smile i get every time i pick little man up from nursery.

it’s taken four weeks but he’s finally finding his feet in nursery, he’s managed to part ways with his comfort blanket and dummy during his nursery sessions, which completely shocked myself and the nursery staff. 

he’s eating well at nursery and is slowing finding the confidence to go off and play with the other children now, he still makes sure his key worker is near but he isn’t gluing himself to her anymore which is good to hear. 

i am so proud of how well he is doing and how far he has come, i love how he is now trying to say more words and is humming the tunes to his nursery rhymes. 

one thing that has really put me at ease with little man being at nursery is that they upload photos to the parenting app on his profile for me to see and knowing that if i want to phone up and check on him they are more than happy to do that. 

definitely the right nursery for my little boy, he is showing his true colors and i love it 

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Depression: nope we don’t like today let’s just stay in bed and sleep and wait for tomorrow

Anxiety: if you don’t get up who will feed the kids you’ll be a bad mum you’ll get your kids taken from you, you’ve got this, this and this to do today let’s go go go go

Depression : see to the kids but do minimal house work we are way tooo tired for that today

Anxiety : what if someone shows up, what if you have to go out and then come back to the messy flat, you can’t go out looking like this you look a mess people will stare. What if the kids kick off and you can’t calm them down.

This is me 99.9% of the time I’m constantly battling anxiety and depression. I can get so worked up over the thought of going not even five minuets down the road to a shop 🤦🏻‍♀️

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Nightmare baby group

Sooooo I officially hate stuck up mothers that attend the Friday baby group near me.

One thing that really grinds my gears is when people speak and look at you like you are beneath them. Like piss off 👌🏻

Friday morning I took olliver to a baby group ( he misses two of his Tuesday groups due to being ill this group specialises with dealing with children with suspected additional needs)

From the moment I walked in I knew this was going to suck balls.

You could already tell which where the clicky mums that you just want to punch in the face. The way they look at you and your child. Moving their child away, like who the fuck do you think you are, he isn’t going to attack your kid. This is what puts me off letting olliver around anyone, what if they reject him like this all the time, it was fucking heart breaking to watch.

Not only where there bitchy mothers but one of the women running the group had the nerve to tell me to go watch my child outside after she forced him outside !!! ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS WOMEN!!!! Then another turned around and told me my child wasn’t allowed his dummy, his dummy is his comfort in uncomfortable situations it stops him biting his hands and pinching himself. So I just turned around after she said he wouldn’t be allowed his dummy in THIS group I simply turned around and said that’s fine my son won’t come here anymore and walked off ... so here is a massive FUCK YOU to those women at that group who made my little boy sad and made him feel uncomfortable around others.

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Love these skirts on her 😍

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Terrible two's

Okay I was expecting Ollie's behaviour to get a tad worse but my god I was not prepared for this.

The tantrums aren't just at home oh no no no it's crossing the road and Ollie decided to launch him self in the middle of the road leaving me no choice but to hoist him up by his trousers and rush across the road with him looking as if he's reenacting a scene from James bond 🤦

Food throwing

Constant glaring at anyone and everyone

The constant fighting with cousins and his sister etc

On the bright side I now know what to expect when noaleigh hits terrible two's 🤦😂

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Ngl today my child pushed my buttons and yet when all I wanted to do was scream the little bundle of crazy made me laugh ... from plastering himself in my foundation to sitting on his sister and them both giggling, covering my entire floor in crisps and then jumping on them because why not ? Jumping from the sofa continuously climbing on my window frame .... I just look at him and his mischievous little face and I just laugh.

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she loves her new doll

happy little princess 

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And so it begins ... time to go out and buy some locks me thinks before mummy ends up with no dvds 🤦🏻‍♀️

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Olliver's dietician appointment

Yesterday was ollivers dietician appointment, he has now been put on a high calorie diet which consists of fatty foods and him having to eat 9 times a day 😌 poor kid is now spending 90% of his day eating. Also his juice intake has had to be reduced so he doesn't get full up on that. Only weighing a stone at almost two years old I'm hoping this diet works. Find out in December if all this eating has paid off.