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Pairing:Â Warren (oc) x Reader
Summary:Â The day after his fiancee left him, Warren is still to be marriedâjust not to her. To a woman he has never met.
Word count:Â ~800
Warnings:Â Arranged marriage
a/n:Â I literally have no idea what's going on but please enjoy whatever I'm on right now. I don't even know what to tag this lol?? Love you thanks for the inspo everyone <3
Read the original Azriel x reader fic here
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Warren pulled at his collar. The material of his jacket was itchy and stiff along his neck, but honestly, he was just nervous. The hall was packed with eyes trained on his nerves and he knew only half of them.Â
The other half was your family, who had somehow all been prepared for a grand wedding on such short notice. Long dresses and tailored suits sat in the seats before him, expecting something from him, and he didnât even know what you looked like. Â
He would be lying if he said he wasnât disappointed. He knew very little about his previous fiancee, but she was nothing if not kind and pretty and devoted. Not devoted to him, but he supposed it was a good quality to have.Â
He regretted, for the fourth time since last nightâheâd been countingânot making more of an effort to win her over before she left. Maybe if heâd tried harder he wouldnât be meeting someone new today. Maybe if she had felt something for him before she leftâŠÂ
No, that wouldnât have worked either.Â
As much as Warren liked her, he had seen the longing and pain in her eyes at the rehearsal dinner last night. He would have lost her to whoever she loved in the Night Court regardless of previous efforts. Still, he wished it was her.Â
His mother was speaking to him, her smile just as bright as the night before. She had known a wedding would take place today and had cared little about the bride. That was fine, he supposed, but this suit was choking him and he felt a headache blooming.Â
âHave you decided on the honeymoon?â his mother prompted in his ear, elation buzzing in her tone.Â
âNo, mother. I told you I want my wife to decide.âÂ
âHow silly. What if she wants to go somewhere terrible?âÂ
âI suppose that would be my plight in life,â Warren sighed through a smile that didnât reach his eyes. âPlease remind me ofââÂ
âHer name?âÂ
He almost scoffed. âGods, no. I remember her name. Remind me of the flowers she chose.â
His mother shot him an odd lookâone that had become increasingly commonplace with his impending marriage. His mother found it strange that he had wanted to know so much about his previous fiancee, allowing her to take liberties husbands apparently should not. She questioned his desire to be attuned to her, to have a proper partnership when it was all arranged. Warrenâs mother had obviously assumed his pairing would be lucrative for the family at best.Â
And it would be lucrative, even with you now as his motherâs second choice. But Warren wanted to be in love. He wanted to take care of someone and feel the warmth of reciprocation. He hadnât seen much love in his life with so many arranged marriages and carefully planned relationships, but that did little to impact his view.Â
Warren wanted to feel the way his fianceeâformer fianceeâhad looked last night.Â
âDaffodils,â his mother shared.Â
With such short notice, you had only been able to request a few things for your participation in the wedding. Your wedding, Warren regrettably thought, and you could only pick a bouquet.Â
Heâd have daffodils sent to whichever house you chose for the honeymoon.Â
Warren nodded to his mother, and then notes were plucked from the harp across the room and he was left alone at the altar.
His palms were sweating. He couldnât hold your hand for the first time with sweaty palms. He discreetly positioned his hands behind his back and attempted to remedy the issue.Â
This would be fine.Â
Maybe you were even lovelier than his last fiancee. Maybe you would enjoy all of the same things he did and would be interested in his idiotic sailing hobby. Maybe you would want to fall in love.Â
The double doors swung open at the end of the aisle.Â
For some reason, Warrenâs eyes fluttered shutâonly for a moment, but long enough for a strange form of fear to grip him.Â
What if you werenât interested in the kind of relationship he so desperately wanted? What if you saw this as a joining of families and nothing else? What if you were mean, ill-heartedâwhat if you hated him for what this marriage meant?Â
Warren did not have time to contemplate any longer. He looked up from his turmoil and found daffodils in his eyeline. And then he found you, and suddenly, Warren wasnât so concerned about anything anymore.Â
A soft veil trailed down from the softness of your hair, gathering on the floor until it was lost in your dress. His examination stopped there. Warren was aware that there were several other beautiful things he could have noticed about you, but his world was shifting. Warren stepped back to support himself.Â
He had found his mate.
#azriel x reader#i guess??#acotar#acotar fanfiction#acotar fanfic#a court of thorns and roses#thats all i will do
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THANOS RELATHIONSHIP HEADCANONS
-He would buy cheap purple hair dye and dye your hair, so that you would match. Your clothes of the day will probably end up very stained but his satisfied smile is enough to forget itÂ
-He likes when you do your nails together, even if he doesn't do it perfectly . He will wait for the moment when you are focused to flirt with you, just to annoy you :
Senorita ? You're sexy today, you know it ?
Thanks you , but shut up if you want you nails done right .Â
-Nam-Gyu called you often to pick him up after a concert, when he was too high to Come Home . Thanos will yap during the whole way home, switching from love raps to you to complaining about Nam-GyuÂ
-He is very touchy . Like extremly touchy . He likes to hold you on his laps and just burry his face in the crook of your neck, to breath your scent . He will sometimes grap your butt in public
-He had definitly tried to get you to do drugs with him and pouted when you said no . But he wasn't very angry, because a part of him knew you were to kind for this .Â
-He was quite scared to introduce you to his mom, because he had already disappointed her so many times. He really wanted her to like you , his reason of not messing up totally. So , he was happy to see you both talking, like his mother just found the daughter she never got the chance to have.Â
-He can't stop moving during his sleep , one hour, he would take all the place and covers of the bed, and the other, he would be curled up against your chest like a little kid.Â
-When he is high, he could be really harsh and would immediatly regret it, holding you and trying to (really ) apologize :
Listen , y'a know i'm sorry ? I didn't mean of this bullshit, my beautiful girl .Â
-He didn't talk to you about his problems, because you had already done so much for him . Though your gentle touch was what kept him from going on that bridge earlier.Â
-During Squidgame, he would keep playing for him, and for you too . To give you the life you deserve, and the pet you want so much.Â
-Everyone in the Thanos team knew everithing about you, Se-Mi is just done but Gyeong-su would be the most eager one to know about you . Thanos almost felt your sad gaze when he pushed Gyeong-su in mingle
-During the bathroom fight, after Myung-Gi killed him, his last thoughs were for you . He needed to stay alive, right ? To buy you a little golden retriever, to see you smile at him , to say the thanks he always kept in his mouth . He told himself he was just resting for a while, and the darkness will became brightness again .Â
  BUT IT NEVER DID . Â
(It's my first time writing in a while so i hope it's not to ooc ! English is not my first language)
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How James made friends
This is a snippet of a fic / One Shot I started months ago and probably won't finish, (about James being obsessed with his parents' love story and determined to find a wife on his first day of hogwarts, he then spends years trying to woo Lily, while Regulus tries to get his attention in turn. Ending: Jegulus or Jegulily) but I really love the characterization of Sirius and Regulus in this, so I thought I'd share.
A few weeks later, James started Hogwarts. He was shaking with nerves and excitement when he got on the train. He wandered through the narrow way between compartments until he found an almost empty one. One boy around his age sat in there. He was scowling out of the window, arms crossed in front of his chest. He wore very fine clothing, not fit for a long train ride but for a family portrait or a Christmas party.
âHey, can I sit here?â James asked, popping his head into the compartment.
The boy looked up, still scowling. He looked him up and down and shrugged. âSure.â Then he turned back to the window.
âIâm James Potter,â James announced and held his hand out to him.
The boy peeled his eyes away from the people outside and looked at him and his hand. âSirius Black,â he said and shakes his hand. Well, that explained it then. James has heard of the Black family. They were a very proud and old family, of course their son was dressed like that.
âWhat are you looking at out there?â
âMy brother.â Sirius pointed outside to a group of similarly overdressed people, a tall, thin woman, a heavy-set man whose only memorable feature was his large moustache, and a small boy with black hair, looking much like Sirius, but thinner and timid. He was holding on to a book, pressing it to his chest with all his might.
âAre you sad to go without him? You look unhappy.â
Sirus shrugged, eyes still on his brother. The boy was looking right back. James wasnât sure what emotion either of them was displaying.
Finally, a loud whistling noise signalled the departure of the Hogwarts Express. The boy outside raised his hand to a shy wave. Sirius waved back. The tall woman next to his brother reached out, grabbed the young boyâs wrist and pushed it down. Then she seized the book he was holding, ripping it from his little fingers. Sirius stood. The boy looked up at his mother, James couldnât tell whether he was saying something, but for a moment, he was sure either of the brothers was about to cry.
The train set into motion. The family shifted out of view. Sirius sat down again. He took a deep breath and then looked at James.
He was rather handsome without the scowl on his face.
âJames Potter, you said?â he asked, âThatâs a pureblood family, isnât it?â
âYes.â
Sirius nodded. âWell, that means I am allowed to be friends with you. It also means, I donât want to be your friend.â
âOh,â James chewed on his lip, âWhatâs so bad about me being pureblood?â
âNothing. Itâs very good. Itâs the elite, actually. Pureblood and Slytherins are the only people Iâm allowed to converse with, my mother said. Well, she isnât here. So, I have no desire to follow her instructions.â
This boy used a lot of big words. What a fascinating child. James didnât understand him and his thinking at all. And suddenly, James realised he needed to be his friend.
âMy family are all Gryffindor, not Slytherin.â
Siriusâ face lit up. âOh, thatâs bad! Absolutely horrific even! Itâs settled: We shall be friends. I will be a Gryffindor, too, I presume. All my family are Slytherin. Not me, though. I will be a terrible disappointment to my parents.â
James frowned. Sirius didnât make any sense at all. He was so happy they were friends now. He may be the first person James met, but he was already the most interesting person at this school, he knew it. âWhy would you want to disappoint your parents?â
Sirius bit down on his lip, then let go of it and licked over it, squinting, as if he remembered a rule placed on him. Like when James wanted to touch his mumâs favourite vase but then remembered he wasnât allowed and she put an alarm spell on it.
âAs long as my mother loses her head about me, she wonât pay attention to the little one,â he said and then made that same face again.
âYour brother, you mean?â
âYes.â
âWhen will he come to Hogwarts?â
âNext year. Now, stop. We are friends now, we shall talk about us not our families.â
James nodded. He thought of something to say, when the door to the compartment opened. A tall, thin boy with scars all over his face stood in front of them.
âUhm, sorry, is there still space here?â
âOf course,â James said in a heartbeat. âIâm James Potter, this is Sirius Black.â
âRemus,â he said and sat down, âLupin, if we need to introduce ourselves with our full names.â
âLupin?â Sirius perked up, âThat name is unfamiliar to me. Youâre not a pureblood.â
âUhm, no?â
âBrilliant! Weâre friends now.â
Remus looked at him confused, then looked at James, who simply smiled at him. Remus must be as confused by Sirius as James, but he seemed to lack the fascination â for now.
Soon they were joined by a fourth boy, a nervous looking blond named Peter Pettigrew. Sirius quickly accepted him as a friend, too. Peter looked almost frightened by Siriusâ approach.
James had friends now. What a great achievement â all that before even reaching the school! Now that he had friends, he could concentrate on his next big goal: Finding his wife!
They reached Hogwarts castle. James could finally cast a look around the other students. He saw her when they were sorted.
Lily Evans.
She was definitely the prettiest girl among them. Though Marlene McKinnon with her long blond hair she kept pushing out of her face with increasing annoyance, was a close second.
Lily was sorted into Gryffindor after him. They were all together â James, Sirius, Remus, Peter, and Lily in one house! His luck was unfathomable! Marlene joined them too, happily accepting a hairtie from Lily. Then there was Mary MacDonald joining them, a quiet, black girl with colourful clips in her coily hair. She was also very pretty, prettier than Marlene, probably.
James quickly learned the most important things about his new friends:
Sirius loved to test peopleâs boundaries. The first time he was repremendet for misbehaving he seemed to brace himself for something bad, and then, when his punishment was simply sitting in a classroom for an hour, he laughed. He laughed every time he got a howler from his mum, which happened about once a week. He didnât laugh when he got a letter from his brother. He didnât share their content with his friends, but kept all of them tucked away in a journal he was always writing in. It reminded James of the one he saw with the brother at the platform.
Remus was shy. He sought validation from about everybody. A âgoody-two-shoesâ as his dad would say. All of these things James found out in the first two weeks of knowing Remus and sharing a dorm with him and Sirius, who liked to rile him up. Then he found out, Remus was funny. He was a scheming bastard who loved pranks. His first victim? Sirius, after he pissed him off one too many times.
Then there was Peter. Peter was quiet. People forgot about him easily. But Peter was observant, and the perfect spy because people paid so little attention to him. He always knew all the gossip and had intel on the other houses. He knew a person for everything and was friends with the ghosts. In the comfort of their dorm, he was funny, too.
The girls of his year were nice. James didnât have a lot to do with them. They were still at that age where boys and girls arenât friends often. Sirius tried to befriend them right away â two muggleborns and a halfblood? He needed them in his arsenal of mother-annoying-friends! James began to understand Sirius.
Lily was smart. She always did her homework, always knew her stuff in their lessons and was the first one to master new spells. But she wasnât smug about it! James was very smug about it when he mastered something quickly. He was proud of himself and liked to tell everyone how quickly he did it. Lily wasnât like that.
Lily was also kind. She had friends across all houses, even that unfriendly bloke no one liked, Severus. She always talked about her sister with a smile, and lamented about how much she missed and loved her parents (to which Sirius always rolled his eyes). She became everyoneâs friend in a matter of seconds. She made everyone laugh and she had an infectious smile.
Yes, James was in love with her! And he was sure: She would be his wife.
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Now, he boarded the train to Hogwarts for his second year. There were no nerves this time, he was beaming with excitement at the thought of seeing his friends again.
Remus was already in the compartment when James joined. Peter came as well, he was bringing snacks from his mum for all of them. Mrs Pettigrew was a godsent.
Sirius was late. Remusâ face was glued to the window, looking for him. There was a rather fresh cut on his arm, soaking white bandages in red. James knew not to ask. Remus got cranky when he was asked about the scars and the wounds. In their first year, it had prompted Sirius to ask a lot of questions about Remusâ family â James didnât understand why. But now, they were all rather sure they knew the truth behind Remusâ injuries. It started as a joke, but then Peter shared his observations about the timing of Remusâ moods, wounds and sicknesses. Remus may be a werewolf.
While James was still contemplating this, the door to the compartment was pushed open.
Sirius smiled widely at them. âGentlemen,â he nodded, âMay I present: my little brother Regulus Black.â
He pushes his brother in front of him. He looked very much like Sirius, just missing the effortless confidence and entitlement that was oozing from the older one. Regulus had eyes too big for his face, thin lips and pale freckles on his milk-white skin. Has he ever seen the sun? He didnât look it. His hair was a little wavier than Siriusâs, but equally as black. Both of them were severely overdressed, wearing expensive robes that might have been fashionable in the late 19th century. It made Regulus look like an angel of death. A small Victorian child coming to haunt them from the past. The fact that he didnât say anything but just stared at his brotherâs friends, made it worse. He was creepy.
âSay hello, Regulus.â
Regulus scowled â the resemblance between the brothers was uncanny â âHello.â
Sirius grinned and directed Regulus to sit between him and James. âThis will be grand! Regulus could join us in Gryffindor tower and be the fifth marauder! Weâll have so much fun!â
Regulus didnât say anything for the entire duration of the train ride. He was shy, and stayed in the shadow of his brother. He seemed comfortable there.
âIâm considering getting into less trouble this year,â Sirius announced after Regulus had to leave them to enter the castle with the other first years.
âWhat?â Remus half-laughed, âAre you even capable of that?â
âI could try. Now that Reggie is here instead of home, thereâs no need to keep the attention on me. Although⊠getting into trouble was so much fun last year. Maybe we could do a few pranks⊠just a few. Iâd rather not agitate my mother too much for when I go back for the holidays.â
By now, James has understood that Siriusâ mother must be rather strict. Jamesâ parents werenât strict at all. The worst punishment he has ever got was having to stay in the house for an entire weekend. He could imagine, Siriusâ mother doing that all the time. Maybe that was why Sirius and Regulus were so pale.
James didnât pay attention to the sorting ceremony for the most part until â
âRegulus Black.â
Sirius inhaled sharply.
âSlytherin!â
Eight, nine, ten, eleven â Sirius still hadnât exhaled. James touched his shoulder. Sirius started and turned, frowning at him.
âAre you alright?â James whispered.
He shrugged and looked back at Regulus, whose eyes were on their group while walking over to the Slytherin table.
#regulus black#jegulus#marauders#james potter#james x regulus#sirius black#black brothers#jegulus fanfic#wolfstar#ao3#remus lupin#lily evans#the valkyries#gay dead wizards#dead gay wizards from the 70s#dead gay wizards#peter pettigrew
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"Exactly, growth." Giving a sharp nod, even if it was growth in the form of sharing her food in the tiniest ways. Because she definitely hadn't been good at it back in the day when they had gone to the diner and Cage had simply tried to get a fry from her plate and she'd slap his hand away while giving him daggers. Of course, she wasn't sure if he ever really understood -- at that time -- the pressure her mother put on her in regards to food and her body, he probably did as they got older. "I can do that, when I get home I'll run down to the place I get my planner and pick one up, they have undated ones that you can put in the dates yourself so that we're not wasting the last couple of months we haven't used one. Plus I have a feeling I'll be needing another one for after I finish up my course work and licensing and am working." Of course she had ideas but she hadn't really broached the topic with Cage of what she was thinking because well, it had been one thing after another and it never felt like the right time. Once they figured out if it was possible, the logistics, that would definitely need it's own planner, so you know, carrying around three would be perfectly normal for someone who was practically a type-A personality. "No, I agree if we're serious about getting pregnant, having a baby, think not over extending ourselves too much is the best idea. After all I don't think me being out doing a ton of things when I first get pregnant is the best idea, and obviously can't do anything once I'm heavily pregnant." she pointed out, but she would always help out in anyway that she could given the fact that this was both their home and the animals they were raising, but she also knew if/when she got pregnant it would matter what things she could be around for her health. "Oh please, as if she could have ever been competition to me." she rolled her eyes, "And the fact that she thought she could be, she was dreaming, I love Twix, and the fact that she's warmed up to me, but there was never any competition between her and I." And she didn't care that she was basically saying she won in this aspect, because she was the love of his life, but she knew that he was much more glad that they got along than didn't.
"I would say play it smart and keep baked goods ready in the house, I can't promise the ones I'm going to want are going to be the ones you have in the house, but something is better than nothing. I know you really tried with the cupcakes you made though and I appreciate that more than you know." she really had that he had baked her their own version of oreo cupcakes because she had wanted some so badly that it had practically broken her down to tears when he had said there was no way even with later hours he was going to be able to get them. "But every pregnancy is different so who knows what I may or may not want so basically who knows, but you better how some of the few places that stay open really later are the things I end up craving, or maybe we should plan better grocery to be prepared for everything just in case -- if it happens." Cordelia was being a bit more cautious saying if because she just didn't want to jinx it, which maybe was silly but after all the first pregnancy hadn't worked out had it? "I know I guess I just don't want to see disappointed faces and be told we have enough kids in the house because I would feel so bad." she admitted, and she already felt kind of selfish wanting to continue growing their family. But she really didn't think those were the kind of kids they had raised at all. "Maybe you know, if it happens, when I'm further along, with people I really trust." she admitted. It wasn't like she was going to go out and tell average everyday people she had had a chemical pregnancy but maybe a close friend she relied on, siblings that she loved, but either way it wasn't something she was ready to tell anyone other than the person she shared her life with. "I know how lucky we are, we still have a family, we still have four kids that love us." Cienna and Shawn had become pieces of their family that they hadn't realized they needed as much as they needed them. They fit in perfectly, they had taken so well, despite the pain and had become such an important part to the Newman family and she could never see herself not seeing them as her children. She'd never turn her back on the two that meant the world to her as much as Colton and Rosalyn did. Maybe it wasn't conventional, but sometimes that isn't what mattered. "Well we need to bring gifts back for all the kids, they'd never forgive us. The boys would be happy with some really nice sweatshirts and sweatpants." They lived in those things. "The girls though, we better make sure to get them something good or you know they'll show it right on their faces." she laughed. "I will admit I maaaay be looking for something a little sparkly. But I don't expect it."
"Growth," he said with a laugh, but Cordelia had experienced a lot of growth from those years as an ornery teenaged girl, bossing around the cheerleading team, fending her boyfriend off from her fries, stiff upper lipping it when she walked into her house and had to deal with her parents. She was strong, she was confident, but he still sometimes caught glimpses of that girl that he fell in love with so long ago, and he was grateful that those would always be there, too. "Why don't we do something like that, then? That way you have your planner, I have my work planner, and we can have something for the house, notes about the animals or improvements that need done," stuff that would make their lives a lot easier if it was all in one place, easier to flip through. "You being all type A does come in handy sometimes," he agreed with a laugh and a nod, "during the warm months, I have a few people who buy eggs off of us, too, so it'll be good to record what we have, who we owe." He couldn't help but to let out a laugh as she 'compromised' with him by promising a full-sized horse before any other animals came to the farm, even though both of them knew that if Cage found a horse that he wanted, it was just going to end up in their yard, but he did appreciate her offer, none the less. "I want to wait. If we're serious about bringing a baby into this world, I don't want to overwhelm ourselves with animals and responsibilities, right?" What they had now, plus the little mini donkeys, that was a good start. It would be a good way to teach the kids a lot more about responsibility, see how they handled farm life before bringing in big animals. "Oh, she was using your heating pad," he nodded, "remember when I fucked up my arm and back and⊠all of me a couple of years back, falling off that ladder? She loved me when I had heat on. But she also does like you. I don't even think she views you as competition anymore," given that she was in love with Cage. It was good to see his girls getting along. "We'll see," he concurred with a small smirk.
Although it hadn't worked out -- for obvious reasons -- Cage had tried to be there for Colton's mother, had done his best to be a good partner for the couple of months that she was in town before everything had gone awry, but he knew that he could do better this time, that he could be there for whatever she needed. "I'd say that the only thing I ask for in return is for you to not make me go out at three in the morning to find baked goods, but I think we already established that's going to be a thing," and as much as he might want to whine and complain⊠he'd do it. She didn't even have to be pregnant for that. "You don't have to be scared," he promised her with another squeeze of her hand, "it's not going to change how I feel, but I think you and I would both feel better knowing that they understood that this is a decision that we're making for our family, and that we want them to be okay with it, we want to give them time to be okay with it," not to mention the fact that he was fairly certain they would be god awful at hiding a pregnancy from two teenage boys, if it were to happen. Morning sickness, Cordelia's cravings, mood swings in general⊠starting to put together a nursery. "That's fine," he assured her with an eager nod, "it's ⊠different, it's your body, it's something that happened to you, I don't think we have to tell people right now. Maybe when⊠things are different, you know?" When they got a positive test and knew that a pregnancy was going to happen, when they felt ready to talk about what happened before alongside what was happening now. And if not, then never. That was okay, too. As she looked up at him, he felt a tiny bit of relief when she responded that she understood, that she knew it wasn't a decision that he had taken lightly, bringing her hands up to his mouth to press a kiss to her knuckles. "If we didn't have the girls, if we weren't putting two teenagers through college soon⊠if, if, if, you know? But we still got our dream, just a little different than how we imagined it." It might not have been three or four Cage and Cordelias running around; it might only be one. But it was a little Rosalyn full of sass and giggles, a Cienna with a heart of gold. A Colton with his father's old soul, and a Shawn with a dream that loved them. And a baby that would be made with and brought into so much love. "Yeah," he laughed, squeezing her hands a final time before turning to open the door, holding it open for her to enter first. "We can shop. What should we be looking for?"
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someone was cutting onions during the lantern rite cutscene
#i am emotional#gaming is literally my son#i felt proud of him as if i had birthed him myself#seeing everyone having a good time just warms my heart#i love how the theme was familial love and how we get little moments with each family#zhongli telling xiao to visit the funeral parlor more was very 'son come home to have lunch with me and your sister on sundays' of him#i hope we get to meet xiao as we planned on the last day of quests because i miss my boy#and i was a little disappointed he didn't appear in the cutscene at all#but it was still such a cute event <3#xianyun is the mother of all time#i'm so freaking happy to see so much of shenhe!!! she's the character of all time#i like how she casually said she threatens her clients đ#shehe not understanding social rules and how to properly socialise is so comforting to me#the fact she's beautiful and men have tried to approach her but she just doesn't get it and doesn't show interest in any of that#is chef's kiss#and cloud retainer telling shenhe her pure personality is what made her special even if she technically embarassed them was so cute#love them so much aaaa
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In my household growing up scaring each other was like an Olympic level sport. Weâd wait around corners, weâd hide under things. We took it seriously.
My mom started it. She loved scaring us. She has a cherished photo of me screaming that she took one Halloween night after jumping out of a dark bush at me. But my quickly brother latched onto the game with abandon. Mom quickly regretted teaching us to do this as turnabout did not seek like fair play to her.
At one point my sister was given a life size cardboard cutout of Legolas and the second we realized that thing was an instant jump scare weâd move it all over the house. The scream from the bathroom at 2am was my crowning achievement but Legolas tragically went missing shortly after. Read: my mom burned him.
Now, as the youngest I was at a severe disadvantage. I spooked the easiest after my mom. I was exceptionally sneaky and patient so I typically got my revenge but I quickly learned that if you didnât jump then it was less fun. Thus began my campaign for nonreaction. Every time someone jumped out at me I startled a little less as I stamped down on the reflex.
After a year or so I would just blink at my brother when he popped out from a closet. Donât get me wrong, I was still scared. The spike of adrenaline and panic still happened internally but I didnât react anymore. My brother soon gave up on me and the game died to our mothers intense relief.
I largely forgot about that period of my life but every so often someone tries to scare me and is extremely disappointed.
My favorite of these attempts was at Red Robin. Servers loved to spook the hosts when they could, it was a fun pastime when they didnât have enough to do.
The hosts were meant to open the doors for people when it was slow. The door we opened had a single seat beside it on the left, then a blind hallway that led to the bathroom.
One evening I was on door duty. I was facing slightly away from the seat on my left. A server buddy of mine snuck out of the bathroom quiet as could be. He waited for the perfect moment, then leapt over the seat to land in front of me with a huge, âRAH!!!!!â It was a feat of fear and athleticism.
Panic shot through me like a lightning bolt but grounded itself quickly. I didnât outwardly so much as blink in surprise, and after a quick beat I turned to look at him calmly and said, âHey, Joe.â
He deflated and all the other hosts jaws dropped. âHow did you see me?!â
âI didnât,â I assured him.
He scoffed in disbelief and slunk away defeated.
He hounded me for a week about how coolly Iâd greeted him, asking if Iâd heard him coming or if another host had tipped me off. âNo, you scared me,â I told him. He never believed it and no further attempts were ever made on me.
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how i met your mother  â gojo satoru
contents. fluff, meet ugly, established relationship, highschool!gojo in flashback, gojo just loves his wife and everyone is sick of it
notes. this is apart of my indulge me series but everything can be read as a standalone!
âyou forgot to give me a kiss this morning,â your husband pouts from your lap before puckering his lips out, âiâll need a thousand more to compensate!âÂ
just a couple meters away from you, paper crinkles harshly as nanami, your fellow colleague, flips the page on the newspaper heâs reading. you hear a heavy sigh leave his lips. âi missed it when you both hated each other,â he readjusts his glasses with one hand tiredly. heâs disappointed, but not surprised with satoruâs behavior.
this comment causes itadori, who happened to be hanging out in the teacherâs lounge to perk up.
âgojo-sensei and gojo-san hated each other?â he sits up straight on the couch. the pink haired boy looks between you and satoru, who is purring happily as you play with his hair. âi canât imagine that..â he mumbles quietly. he was, unfortunately, a first hand witness of gojoâs love for you.
the white haired male that was comfortably nestled in your lap looks up at you, âah! she tried so hard to resist my charms, but this handsome face won in the end!â his loud boast leads you to cover his mouth with the palm of your hand.
âthat couldnât be farther from the truth,â you press your palm harder against his mouth, determined to silence his protests.Â
nanami easily ignores his seniorâs muffled whines while itadori looks at his sensei in pity. marriage must be tough, he thinks.
you only lift your hand off of his mouth with a shriek when satoru decides to lick your palm. he smirks proudly at himself causing the other two males in the room to grimace at the strange display of affection.Â
âdarling, you hated me?â his eyes blink up at you innocently, blue eyes on full display. you purse your lips together, resisting whatever game he was playing at. from the moment you stepped into the lounge with him, he insisted on taking his blindfold off. he argues that he has to see you with his own eyes or heâll die. you argue that heâs dramatic. nonetheless, satoru was cute so youâll let him get away with it.Â
âhate is a strong wordâ i just didnât like you very much. we got off on the wrong foot, might i remind you.âÂ
2005 â year one at tokyo jujutsu tech
meet at 1 chome-1-1 dogenzaka, shibuya city, tokyo
that was written in the letter addressed to you from yaga. the bustling streets of tokyo, filled with the cacophony of hundreds of conversations and the rush of oncoming traffic, were a stark contrast to the serene country life you had enjoyed.Â
the sheer mass of people in the street made it nearly impossible for you to spot your teacher and future classmates, but the heavens above must be on your side because you spot a dark uniform in the corner of your eye, similar to the one youâre wearing.
a jujutsu tech uniform! without wasting a second, you weave your way through the crowd to the tall figure. upon closer inspection, you find that it was a boy with snow hair, a juxtaposition to the dark fabric of his uniform.
âexcuse me, but are you by any chance fromââ you tap on the abnormally tall frame from behind.
ânot interested.â he doesnât spare you a glance before walking away. it takes you a minute to process what had just happened. did he justâ? that must have been a figment of your imagination. you feel as though you were shell shocked.
another voice joins the conversation, âoh, gojo, you found her.â it was another guy with a uniform just like the white haired boy and yours. he has notable bangs, you think.Â
âdid i? she must be a real weakling. i couldnât even sense her cursed energy,â gojo now turns back to look at you.
a surge of irritation courses through you, your grip on your skirt tightening. this guy must be some spoiled brat that came from a special lineage. you shoot him a sharp glare from the corner of your eyes, only to find out that he too had a sharp gaze on you.
a low whistle comes out of his mouth.Â
 âoh,â there is a noticeable change in the tone of his voice. from your peripheral vision, you notice him take off his round sunglasses. âhey.â you want to laugh.
out of pure pettiness, you recycle his previous comment, ânot interested.â
thankfully, another student arrived, this time it was a girl with short brown hair. she waved at you politely, to which you happily smiled. it was nice to know that there were some people left in this world with manners.
soon after her arrival, yaga comes.
âhello, iâm [last name] [first name] from kyoto. please take care of me!â you bow before everyone but gojo or whatever his name is. you come to find out that mr. bangs is actually geto and the pretty girl is ieiri.
âyou didnât tell me she was hot,â gojo not-so-quietly whispers to geto. the hand over his mouth is in vain because you can still hear him clearly. both ieiri and geto make a distasteful face.Â
you look around confused. itâs not everyday you receive such a brash compliment, â...thank you?âÂ
thereâs a slightly horrified look on gojoâs face when he realizes that you had heard him, but he recovers quickly, replacing it with a cheshire grin.
âsay, have you been to shinjuku? iâm sure a country bumpkin like you wouldnât know, so allow me toââÂ
thereâs only so much patience in your body. with a deep breath and your best passive aggressive smile, you utter, âno thanks.âÂ
he blinks. once. twice. you assume he is not used to rejection with the way he has yet to process it.Â
a soft chuckle leaves his mouth, âplaying hard to get, i see. i like a challenge.â
âthatâs not really the case.â
âone date,â he announces with a playful smirk, raising a single finger in emphasis.
youâre on the verge of shaking your head in rejection, but before you can, yaga intervenes, swiftly and unceremoniously slapping the back of gojoâs head.
âkids these days,â he mutters under his breath while gojo rubs the wound painfully. you snicker.
gojo straightens up when the sound of your laughs reaches his ears. his eyes track the sound waves back to your face, only to be disappointed when he sees that your attention is on geto.Â
unlike gojo, geto was trying to salvage what was left of a good first impression. the black haired male smiles awkwardly, leading you away from his strange friend, âso youâre from kyoto? why didnât you attend the jujutsu tech there?â
from behind you, thereâs an incredulous, âeh? and lose a beauty like that to the kyoto guys?âÂ
youâre nearly certain that a blood vessel is about to pop. but you swallow your frustration, choosing to answer the only sensible boy youâve met today.
âiâm trying to avoid clan matters, so kyoto is the last place i want to be,â you explain to geto who nods understandingly.Â
what you donât see is the sneaky wink he sends back at a fuming satoru.
2018 â present day
your recollection must not have been accurate, because your husband is sulking by the end of your story.Â
âhmph. thatâs not how i remember it.â he crosses his arm with a huff.
âhow do you remember it? do tell.â you look down at him. thereâs a cheeky glint in his eyes, like youâve just walked into his trap.
thereâs a cheeky glint in his eyes, like youâve just walked into his trap. âi remembered cherry blossoms falling and more hearts floating around,â
you smack his shoulder.
âbe serious!â
he waves his hand in the air to stop your playful attacks, âfine, fine!âÂ
you know that heâs secretly enjoying the attention.
âwell, iâm quite the looker so it was common for girls to constantly gush over me yâknow?â he grins. you did not find that amusing, retracting your hands from his hair. he immediately grabs your hand and places it back on his head.
âlet me finish!â
you resume your handiwork on his head reluctantly. âgo on.â
thereâs a content smile on his face, âi thought you were just trying to hit on me! it was only after i took a good look at you, i realized that you were totally hot.â
âi canât believe i married you.â you roll your eyes, but there is no malice behind the action.
âhahââ his mouth is wide open. âiâm a total catch, yaâ know?!âÂ
âmhm, yeah. you are a catch toru,â you coo while pinching his cheek and he blushed furiously.Â
the two of you are too engrossed with each other to notice the horrified look that has settled on nanamiâs face. one peaceful afternoon, he thinks. one peaceful afternoon is all he asks for.
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yuji respects gojo as his teacher, but he still canât believe that gojo was able to pull you.
there have been multiple occasions where you had forgotten to give satoru a goodmorning kiss, each time he finds you and forces you to actually give him a dozen to compensate. it doesnât matter if he was on a mission or teaching (heâs annoying like that).
gojoâs the pride of the gojo clan so he was spoiled rotten, hence the reason why he was so sure you were into him.
this is only the start, as your high school years go by, he only falls harder.
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Aristocats? Aristocats!

#maybe one of my favorite disney movies#besides my disney princess movies bc i was 100% all pink barbie taylor swift girly girl#much to my mother's disappointment but she tried#so we alternated from taylor swift to sublime to one direction to eminem so she didn't go insane#but i love aristocats#Thomas O'Malley my love#fantastic movie#giving my cats lysine in their food and calling it creme de la creme de la ******#idk why im nervous to put my name on here but okay#SACRE BLEU!! *cats hissing brakes squealing upset man speaking french*#this movie forever lives in my head#delightful drunk goose? check#beautiful cat mom Madame obsessed with her cats? check#paint covered piano playing kittens? check#the butler did it? check#jazzy cats? check#wonderful insane lawyer who's like 80 and still doesn't understand stairs? check! i love that man#awful butler getting his ass kicked by cats he hates AND their new friends AND a horse? AND the mouse he also drugged?? check check check!!#i adore that movie with my whole heart and apparently i have a lot to say about it#maybe partially bc im already a cat mom with 4 cats? idk i love it tho
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â pairing. oscar piastri x wife!leclerc!reader
â summary. christmas is never calm, when the piastris are involved, or one would think.
â notes. another part of dad!oscar series đđđ its honestly one of my favorites ever. this is a small christmas fic, but i might write another part of christmas at the piastris đ not proofread (i will do that one day i promise)
BEFORE YOUR DAUGHTER WAS BORN, you and oscar never spent christmas together. it was pretty understandable, he went back to australia to see his family, while you ended up in monaco, spending the festive moments along your family and your brothersâ girlfriends. however, youâd always spend new yearâs together â whether it was australia or monaco, no one could make you leave each otherâs side. nevertheless, as suspected, the problems started occurring as soon chloeâs second christmas came up.
her first christmas happened just after she was born, so there was really no conversation about going anywhere with a newborn baby, while pandemic was still going crazy. christmas in the following year was putting more and more stress on top of your shoulders. you barely seen your family all year, so the need to fly home was even stronger than ever, you couldnât though. beside his dad, oscar hasnât seen his family much either and asking him to go see yours for holidays seemed unfair, you were not the only one, who missed the warm embraces of their mothers.
âwhy donât we all just come to your place, love?â nicole, oscarâs mum, suggested on one afternoon, making the tension in your shoulders loosen a bit. âthereâs no point in stressing yourself out about flying with chloe, when we can just come to you.â
it almost seemed like a plan put together beforehand, because a few hours later your mum has called you, suggesting the exact same thing. even if it was a plan, you really appreciated trying to ease your nerves about christmas.
and it became a tradition, one you held dearly to your heart.
itâs been still a few days left till the twenty-fifth, so it was only nicole, who flew to monaco, her daughters would arrive near twenty-fourth to have a day to recharge. you were bundled up in a blanket, a small girl sitting on your lap, not wanting to be away from you as her tiny fists had tightened their grip on your shirt.
âi get puppy?â chloe asked, tipping her chin upwards to have a look at you before turning her head â so fast you thought it would snap in seconds â to look between your husband and his mom. âplease, please puppy?â she repeated, jutting her bottom lip and flashed her brown eyes at oscar.
you raised an eyebrow at the aussie, awaiting his response. the possibility of him cracking and accepting your daughterâs pleas was high, considering that chloe had him wrapped around her little finger, or rather around her wrist like a leash she could tug on, and at first thought her dad would do whatever she wanted him to. his gaze shifted towards you as he let out a sigh, his heart breaking as heâs about to disappoint his only daughter.
âah, squish, but you have a dog already, donât you?â nicole started, catching her daughterâs attention. chloeâs eyebrows knitted in confusion. she has a dog already? is he invisible? âbasil and rosie are yours too, arenât they?â she asked in a gentle tone, the four years old perking up at this revelation.
âi do!â she exclaimed happily, letting go of your shirt to clap her hands, a big beam creeping up on her lips. âbasie and rosie!â she said, her head bobbing up and down ecstatically. âmy doggies.â
âand leo.â you chimed in, gently rubbing your hand against chloeâs back. the mention of your brotherâs daschmund made the beam falter. âyou donât like leo anymore, squish?â you asked, a bit taken aback at the sudden change.
a pout appeared on your daughterâs face, her tone slightly bashful as she tried to explain. âleo pee-ed on me.â oscarâs lips were pulled into a tight line as he tried to suppress a chuckle. âsâno funny!â she frowned at her dadâs antics.
âhe was just excited to see you, baby.â you tried your best reasoning with your daughter. âleoâs still just a baby, you know? babies pee when they get excited, it means he reaaaally likes you.â
âdaddyâs baby, too anâ he donât pee on me.â she scrunched her nose, unmoved by your explanation. âdaddy donât like chloe?â
baby. thatâs how youâve been referring to oscar for as long as you could remember, making chloe think that her dad is as much of a baby as she is. in different circumstances, youâd just start laughing â some guys, your friendsâ boyfriend or fathers, random people on the street, probably acted like babies towards their partners or maternal figures, but not your oscar. he was the eptiome of a great partner, friend, and a parent, despite being a bit messy and leaving socks on your bedroom floor a few times, if you wished for someone better, youâd still get your oscar, because there couldnât be anyone better than him, not for you and your daughter.
âwell⊠daddy loves you so, so much, squish.â he began coyly, kneeling in front of the couch, to brush his nose against chloeâs, as an act of affection. âbut iâm not a doggie, am i?â he asked, and while your reasoning seemed completely off to chloe, she bought oscarâs within seconds.
âno, silly.â the four years old giggled, putting both of her hands on oscarâs cheeks, leaving a small, sloppy kiss on the tip of his nose. âyou papa.â a beam stretched across her mouth. âno doggie.â
THE CHRISTMAS CAME QUICKLY, which you were profoundly content with. it was one of the rare moments, when you could spend the time with your entire family, both sides. there wasnât enough words to describe the amount of love you held in your heart for oscarâs relatives. you spent lots of hours, talking to your in-laws on the phone, when you couldnât see them in person. it was natural that you wanted them in your daughterâs life as much as possible.
usually, the apartment was as quiet as it could be with a preschooler, although with almost twenty people inside, it was a mess. a positive one, one you would cherish every time it happened. your mum chatting away with nicole, tim, and chris, your brothers engrossed in conversations with oscar, while you talked to alex, and oscarâs sisters as your soon to be sister-in-law played with your daughter on the carpet, leo sleeping on his usual spot on the couch.
when you all sat down to open gifts, chloe was no longer playing with charlotte as she occupied the spot on arthurâs lap, giggling quietly, when he tickled her once in a while just to pretend he didnât as she tried to pat his hands away.
âi give gifts, too!â she suddenly spoke up, her voice filled with excitement, pointing to a dozen of tiny boxes standing neatly next to (or on top of) one another.
it was small figurines made out of modelling clay that your husband has bought for your daughter. it wasnât much, but it made your daughter feel involved in the gift-giving tradition. of course, you helped her throughout the process, so the figurines wouldnât be just colours mixed together with no shape.
âoh, mon Ă©toile. did you make them yourself?â your mum asked, a warm smile stretching across her lips as she unpacked the tiny star made out of modelling clay. thatâs what pascale always called chloe, Ă©toile, which meant a star, because she was the brightest star in your momâs universe.
chloe nodded proudly in response, puffing her chest as she unpacked arthurâs box for him. ââs me!â she giggled in happiness, placing the figurine in her uncleâs hand. ânow, you âill âlways remember me!â
âi could never forget you, squish.â arthur whispered into her ear, though loud enough for you all to hear, making the girl laugh from the sensation of his face in such close proximity to her ear. âiâll always have it with me, okay?â
in the end, everyone was enamoured with the small gifts made by your daughter, which made her feel super proud of herself. she got a few toys (that youâd previously accepted, because if you had one more loud toy, youâd shred yourself into pieces) and⊠a racing helmet.
âwe are not doing a project piastri, or whatever youâd call that.â you announced, giving your older brother a judgemental look. was it a surprise that charles gifted your daughter a racing helmet? not really, as heâs been talking about taking chloe karting. âsheâs four.â
âi was four, when i started too.â he argued, a bit playfully.
âlook what that made you. crazy.â you shook your head, taking a glimpse of the mesmerised look in your daughterâs eyes. âsheâs too small for a go-kart. youâd have to put velco strips on her back and the seat, so she wouldnât fell out of the thing.â
âthatâs doable.â the ferrari driver shrugged, as he helped chloe put on the purple helmet. âuncle charlie wouldnât let his squishy face get hurt.â he cooed at the girl, making you roll your eyes in exasperation.
cheering and stressing over your husbandâs career was a thing you could live with, but having both oscar, and your daughter racing and karting? your poor heart wouldnât handle it.
âi drive like daddy soon?â the four years old in question said, her voice slightly muffled by the helmet. once again, she clapped her hands happily.
and somehow, after a nice meal and gift openings, you were stuck in a conversation with your brother about taking chloe karting, while she quietly asked one of your sisters in law what karting exactly was.
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my depression has led me down this road soâŠ
c/w: stepdad!john x lowselfesteem!reader, step-cest, dead dove, slight mention of reader taking a prescribed medication for unspecified medical condition
john and his âloserâ step-daughter, whoâs riddled with a winning combination of mommy and daddy issues. john steps up as much as he can to fill the gaps left by your deadbeat dad but your mother digs her claws in deep to rip that warm feeling away from you whenever she can
youâre a sweet thing, havenât really found your path in life yet. no further education because youâre ânot really passionate about anything, I guessâ. no job, no close friends and no boyfriend, not even a first date
your mother makes no attempts to hide her disappointment in you, shoving your medications to the back of the cabinet when she catches john looking in curiosity. so he tries his hardest to keep her out the house. busy with work, and spa trips, weekends away with her friends. far away so she canât bother youâŠ
poor thing who just needs a loving, guiding hand. and john is more than happy to provide that. more than happy to pay your way for you. youâre a good girl despite what your mother says. always washing his clothes for him, giving him a portion of whatever you cook yourself, a kiss on his cheek every time you head off to bed
your mother doesnât like that he offers his jacket to you instead of her, that sickly-sweet âsheâs shivering, love. look at herâ every time. or the way you sleep in his old t-shirts from his recruitment days. you hear them argue about it every once in a while, before your mum storms out and like clockwork, john comes into your room and asks if you want to have a movie night with him
your mum doesnât need to know how you snuggle up to him on his lap, drooling into his neck when you doze off after the third movie. or the way he sits next to you for a while after heâs carried you off to bed, stroking your hair and thinking about youâll thrive when itâs just you and him <3
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velvet lies
pairing: gojo x fem reader synopsis: crippling debt and possible evictions have ruined you. working two jobs with no downtime, and a five-year-old son, you really don't know the meaning of taking a break. after continuous questions about his father, you have decided to finally let your son meet his dad. only thing is, he has no idea said son exists. and to top it off, you have not a single clue about what kinds of things will transpire from this sudden revelation. tags/warnings: 18+ MDNI, smut, fluff, romance, alcohol, classism, mom! reader, lying, abuse, MAJOR angst, slow burn, exes to lovers, (mentions of) cheating, scandals, death, blood, drugs, drama, family drama, miscommunication, blackmail, unhealthy coping mechanisms , depression, manipulation wc: 17k spotify playlist series masterlist < previous chapter < next chapter

âWhat do you mean youâre just âgiving upâ?â
âSatoru, calm down.â
âOh, calm down? You expect me to calm down when youâre just letting whoever threw all this shit on Y/N, my son justâŠfree? Youâre really not going to look harder?â
Satoru huffs in a frustrated manner, rubbing his hands through his hair, and messing up the silver locks. When he was called by his parents so early in the morning to come to their place, he thought he wouldâve been greeted with good news. Any news. Not this. He not only feels immensely annoyed, but also thrown under the bus. But what else was supposed to expect from them? Heâs pacing the living room, his parents standing off to the side and watching their only child try not to lose his shit.Â
âSatoru, weâve all looked into this. But whoever took that picture was smart, they knew how to stay hidden. Weâve done everything in power, son.â His mother tries to placate him, holding her hand out in an attempt to gently plant it on his forearm.Â
He promptly pulls away before she makes contact, fixing his mother with an icy look, lip curled up slightly.
âHow convenient,â Satoru snaps, his voice dripping with sarcasm. âThe all-powerful Gojo family, with all its influence, resources, and connections, suddenly canât find one person? Spare me.â His pacing becomes more erratic, his steps heavy as if each one is an outlet for his frustration.Â
His father finally speaks, his tone sharp and commanding, âEnough, Satoru. Youâre not the only one affected by this. Weâve handled the situation as best as we could without escalating it further. Do you even understand the damage control weâve had to do?âÂ
âDamage control?â Satoru lets out a bitter laugh, stopping dead in his tracks to glare at his father. âYouâre more worried about your reputation than your grandsonâs safety, arenât you? Or Y/Nâs for that matter?âÂ
His father narrows his eyes, his voice lowering dangerously. âWatch your tone. You think we donât care? Everything weâve done has been to protect this family.âÂ
âFamily?â Satoru scoffs, gesturing wildly. âIf you cared so much about family, you wouldnât just let this slide. Youâd help me hunt them down, no matter what. But no, youâre just sweeping it under the rug like everything else, arenât you?âÂ
His motherâs voice trembles slightly, though she tries to keep her composure. âSatoru, please try to understandâthereâs only so much we can do without creating more chaos. We canât act recklessly.â
âYou mean I canât act recklessly,â he mutters darkly, taking a step back from both of them. His jaw tightens as he looks between his parents, disgust and disappointment etched into his face. âYou donât get it. None of this is just about me anymore. Itâs about Y/N and Koji. They didnât ask for any of this, and now theyâre the ones dealing with it.âÂ
His father sighs heavily, pinching the bridge of his nose. âWhat do you want us to do, Satoru? Tell me, what more can be done that hasnât already been tried?âÂ
âIâll handle it myself,â Satoru growls, the fire in his eyes blazing. âYou wonât. Fine. But I will.â Without waiting for a response, he turns on his heel and storms toward the door.Â
Yamatoâs hand shoots out, gripping his son by the elbow and effectively holding him in place. Satoru turns his head over his shoulder, matching his fatherâs death glare with one of his ownâonly it looksâŠscarier.Â
The silence is palpableâdisturbing. Akane stands half way in the middle, unsure if she should stop this now or let Yamato deal with itâdeal with their son. She worries her lip between her teeth, brows furrowed together.Â
âSatoru,â Yamatoâs voice is low, firm, but the underlying tension cuts through the room like a blade. âDonât forget who youâre talking to.â
Satoruâs lips curl into a cold smirk, one that doesnât reach his eyes. He doesnât pull away, but his entire posture radiates defiance. âOh, I know exactly who Iâm talking to. The man who taught me that family comes second to pride. Let me go, Dad, before this gets uglier than it already is.â
Akane takes a hesitant step forward, her hands trembling slightly as she reaches out. âYamato, please. Let him go. This isnât the time toââ
âStay out of this, Akane,â Yamato interrupts sharply, his focus never wavering from Satoru.
Satoru scoffs, the sound filled with disdain. âOf course. Canât let Mom get in the way of the big, bad Gojo men, can we?â His tone drips with mockery, but his glare burns with genuine anger.
Yamatoâs grip tightens, his knuckles white. âYou think this is about me? About my pride? This is about youâyour recklessness, your inability to see the bigger picture. You canât solve everything with brute force, Satoru.â
Satoruâs smirk fades, replaced by a steely resolve. âAnd you canât solve anything by sitting back and doing nothing.â He yanks his arm free with a sharp motion, the force of it making Yamato take a half-step back. âYouâve made it clear where your priorities lie. Donât worryâI wonât let this âfamily legacyâ get in the way of protecting my family.â
Yamatoâs jaw tightens, his expression unreadable. âSatoru, the boy is your family but not that womaââ
âAddress her by name, Yamato.â Satoru steps closer to his father, the two at towering heights. Truly a frightening sight to an outsiderâs perspective. âOr you and I are going to start having some serious problems.â
Yamatoâs lips press into a thin line, his stoic demeanor cracking just enough to reveal a flicker of irritation. âYou think threats will get you anywhere with me, boy?â His voice is sharp, controlled, but thereâs a distinct edge that betrays his frustration. âSheâs the reason this mess even exists. Sheâsââ
âEnough.â Satoruâs tone drops to something cold, lethal. His cerulean eyes blaze with an intensity that could freeze anyone in their tracks. âYou donât get to disrespect her. Not when youâve done nothing to fix this so-called âmess.â Not when sheâs been doing everything she can to protect my sonâyour grandson.â
Yamato stiffens, his brows furrowing. âWatch your tone.â
âIâve been watching my tone my whole damn life,â Satoru snaps, his composure finally breaking. âBut not anymore. You donât get to sit on your throne and act like you care about this family when all you care about is the Gojo name. Koji and Y/N are my family now. Whether you like it or not.â
âYou two arenât married,â Yamato reminds his son, for what must be the thousandth time now.Â
Really, Satoruâs losing his mind here. He knows that. He knows you two arenât married. But he still feels an obligation towards youâthe magnetic pull to protect you from outside scrutiny that could potentially harm you and Koji. So sure, you guys arenât married. But that doesnât change the matter of fact here. âAnd what if we were?â
Akane gasps, Yamatoâs eyes visibly widening in surprise before lowering down to their normal state. His jaw ticks. âStop, donât make jokes like that. Youâve been promised to Himari for a while now.â
Satoruâs laugh is sharp, humorless, slicing through the tense air. âPromised? What century are you living in? Iâm not some pawn for you to move around, Yamato.â His tone drips with disdain as he steps closer, his towering frame casting a shadow over his father. âYou think a promise to Himari means a damn thing to me? Iâll marry who I want, when I want.â
Yamatoâs composure wavers for the briefest moment before he narrows his eyes. âYou donât understand the importance of this arrangement, Satoru. Itâs not just about youâitâs about securing alliances, protecting the legacyââ
âLegacy, legacy, legacy,â Satoru mocks, rolling his eyes. âIs that all you care about? Your âlegacyâ? Not your grandson, not the fact that your son is trying to do what you never couldâactually be there for his family?â
Akaneâs hands tremble at her sides as she steps forward, voice tentative but pleading. âSatoru, please. We only want whatâs best for youââ
âNo,â Satoru interrupts sharply, turning his icy gaze to his mother. âYou want whatâs best for you. Donât twist it.â He shakes his head, running a hand through his hair as if trying to physically shake off their words. âKoji doesnât need your âlegacy.â He doesnât need your politics or your alliances. He needs a father who puts him first.â
âAnd Y/N?â Yamato retorts, his tone scathing. âDo you think sheâs above this? She could be using you, Satoru. Sheâs a liability, dragging youâus into scandal after scandal. And now, with the boyââ
âEnough!â Satoruâs voice booms, cutting through the room like a clap of thunder. He steps even closer to his father, their faces mere inches apart. âYou donât get to talk about her like that. Sheâs the mother of my child. Sheâs family. And Iâll defend her with everything Iâve got.â His voice drops, low and cold. âSo go ahead. Keep pushing me. See what happens when I stop giving a damn about your âlegacy.ââ
Akaneâs quiet, labored breathing breaks the tension, her hand fluttering to her mouth as she looks between the two men. The silence that follows feels deafening, and for a moment, Yamato looks like he might lash outâbut then he takes a breath, regaining his composure.
âFine, youâve made your point clear,â Yamato finally says, his voice low and measured. âBut donât expect me to clean up the fallout when this all collapses around you.â
Satoru huffs a bitter laugh, shaking his head. âI wonât. Iâve learned not to expect much from you anyway. A man who cares more about sealing business deals than the own well-being of his family.â
Yamato glares, his jaw tightening once more, but he doesnât respond. The tension in the room is suffocating, a silent battle of wills playing out between father and son.
Satoru doesnât wait for his father to break. Instead, he turns sharply, heading for the door. Before he leaves, he glances over his shoulder, his eyes steely. âYou can take your promises, your alliances, and your legacyâand shove them. Iâll protect my family, with or without you.â
And with that, he slams the door behind him, leaving Akane and Yamato in stunned silence. The house rattles with Satoruâs exit. Akane slowly turns her head towards her husband, who is still staring at the spot their son once stood in. Her jaw clenches, French-tipped nails digging into her aged palms. âYouâŠyouâre breaking this family apart, Yamato.â
âIt was already apart.â
Thatâs it. Nostrils flaring as she hastily stomps up to her husband and delivers a slap to his right cheek. His head shoots toward his left, unflinching. He doesnât face his wife, even after he hears the sniffling come from her.Â
The room hangs heavy with silence after the sharp crack of Akaneâs hand meeting Yamatoâs cheek. She stands there, trembling, her chest rising and falling with each labored breath. Tears well in her eyes, blurring the sight of her husbandâunmoved, unshaken, and cold as stone.Â
âYouâre so blind,â Akane whispers, her voice quivering. âBlind to what really matters. SatoruâŠheâs slipping away from us, and you canât see it because youâre too damn proud to admit youâve failed him.â
Yamato remains still, his head turned, staring at nothing. âIâve done what I had to do,â he replies, his voice devoid of emotion. âFor this family. For its survival.â
âNo,â Akane counters, her voice growing louder, cutting through the tense air like a blade. âYou did it for yourself. Youâve always done it for yourself. The name, the power, the controlâitâs all you care about. You donât care about Satoru. You donât care about Koji. And nowâŠâ Her voice cracks, and tears spill over her cheeks. âNow, you donât even care about me.â
Finally, Yamato turns to face her. His expression is unreadable, a mask of stoicism, but thereâs a flickerâjust a flickerâof something in his eyes. Regret? Doubt? Itâs gone before she can be sure.
âI care about this family,â he says, the words sounding rehearsed, hollow. âIâve always cared.â
âDonât lie to me,â Akane snaps, taking a step closer, her fists clenching at her sides. âIf you cared, youâd see what youâre doing. Youâd see that youâre driving Satoru away, driving us all away. Youâd see that the âlegacyâ youâre so desperate to protect isnât worth a damn if thereâs no one left to carry it. Arenât you tired of this all?â
Yamato opens his mouth to respond, but the words die on his tongue. For a moment, he simply stands there, his towering frame somehow diminished by the weight of her words.
âYouâve lost him,â Akane whispers, her voice breaking. âAnd if you keep this upâŠyouâll lose me too.â
She turns and walks away, her heels clicking against the polished floor as she retreats, leaving Yamato alone in the echoing silence of the living room. He doesnât call after her. Instead, he stands there, the faint sting of her slap lingering on his cheek, and for the first time in a long time, Yamato feels the weight of his choices pressing down on him.
Satoruâs driving faster than he should back home, inhaling deeply then letting it go. He stops at a red light, too close to the white line of pedestrians. His phone sits in the cup holder before being picked up once more, eyes narrowing at the article he was looking at before he stormed on the pedal home.Â
âSatoru Gojo and girlfriend Himari Nakamura spotted with Y/N L/N! Trouble in Paradise? Is this an end to Hitoru?!â
He bitterly scoffs once more when he sees the idiotic title to the even more idiotic article. Once again, an intrusive element to his already asphyxiating life. He knew meeting up with you to drop off Kojiâs jacket might have been pushing it already, but for some reasonâŠhe found himself wanting to see your face and hear your voice. Even if it was just for a few short minutes. He hadnât expected Himari to find him so soon, which was why he knew he needed to cut it short and keep his cool before anything unsavory happened.Â
Because of shit like this.Â
Satoruâs grip tightens on the wheel as he glares at the screen, the words blurring as his anger mounts. His chest feels tight, like the very air around him is too thick to breathe. The headline taunts himâHitoruâthe mockery of it all, the never-ending reminders of the mess heâs in. Himariâs name keeps appearing in connection with his, like some knot he canât untangle.
Hitoruâthe name they gave him and Himari when they were pushed together by their families, the perfect picture of a relationship built on top of strict obligation, not love. His fingers tighten around his phone, the familiar buzzing of frustration building in his throat.
He snaps the phone shut with a sharp motion, tossing it back into the cupholder. But the damage is done. The images of you, of Himari, of the scrutiny that surrounds them, keep circling his mind. Itâs suffocating. He doesnât even want to think about it anymoreâabout how youâve been dragged into this mess.
The light changes, and he slams his foot down on the accelerator, the engine roaring as he speeds toward home. But even as he drives, his mind racesâfaster than the car, faster than his thoughts can keep up. He canât shake the image of his parents, the look in their eyes, the silence that followed his exit. And now thisâthis new intrusion. Itâs like heâs always on the edge of losing something, something he canât even define anymore.
He turns off the road onto a quieter street, his heart hammering in his chest as he parks in front of the familiar house. The world feels too loud, the air too thick, and all he wants is for it to stopâfor it all to just stop.
He grabs his phone again, his thumb hovering over your name in his contacts. He pauses, staring at it, then pulls his hand away, staring at the water in front of him instead.
âDamn it,â he mutters to himself. Thereâs so much to fix, so many wrongs to right, but he doesnât know where to start anymore. Throwing the phone onto the passenger seat, he knocks his forehead into the leather wheel.Â
He wonders if you saw it already. Maybe you did, but maybe you didnât. Thereâs a part of him that wants to text you to ask, and maybe even apologize. However, heâs not sure if that would be a good choice right now. He recognizes every little bit of you so easily, itâs startling. Maybe concerning?
The small downturn to your lips as you held back a frown and formed a smile, the pitch of your voice lowering in disappointment. The look in your eyes that glazed over with nothing butâŠbetrayal? He cursed himself, eyes squeezing shut.Â
You probably hate him even more now for not standing up for you as you wouldâve likedâas he wouldâve liked. Heâs starting to feel like his older self again, and he absolutely despises that. Fucking up and knowing it, but not fixing it up afterwards. He shouldâve followed you back into your workplace and apologized for what Himari said to you, but he didnât. He froze like a fucking idiot and in the endâchose another woman.Â
Satoruâs forehead remains pressed against the steering wheel, the heat of it grounding him in the overwhelming rush of guilt and frustration. His thoughts swirl in chaos, a vortex of what-ifs and should-haves. Every moment heâd spent ignoring your pain, every opportunity to protect you he let slip byâit feels like heâs suffocating on the weight of it all. The truth is, he knows you too well. Better than anyone else ever could. And that makes it worse.
He can picture it so clearly: the way your lips had almost quivered before you plastered that smile, the way your eyes shifted, too tired to pretend anymore. Heâs seen that look before, way more times than heâd like to admit. And it terrifies him now. Betrayal. Is that what heâd done? It was almost like he had carved a bigger wedge between you without realizing it, all because he couldnât act fast enough, couldnât be the man you needed.Â
Did you still need him?
He slams his hand against the wheel in frustration, the sharp sound echoing in the otherwise quiet car.Â
His phone buzzes on the seat beside him with a random notification, and instinctively, he grabs it, his thumb hovering over your name again. But noâhe canât. Not like this. Not when heâs this tangled up in his own mess.
What could he possibly say?Â
He drags his hand over his face, muttering to himself. "God, what are you doing to yourself?"
Every time he tries to piece it together, another fragment of reality shatters in his mind. Youâve always been strong. You never asked for him to do more than what he could handle. But youâd been forced to handle so much already, and he... heâd let it all slip away.
Maybe you actually do hate me now.
He leans back against the seat, closing his eyes again, hoping for a moment of clarity. But the only thing he can hear now is the ringing silence in his head.
âDo you still love me?â
ââŠof course I do. Iâd never stop.â
âThen whyâŠwhy donât I feel like you do anymore?â
âIâm sorry.â
âI know you are.â
âNo, really. Iâmââ
âLetâs go to sleep now.â
He actually feels like heâs going crazy. Snapping his eyes open. Heâd never thought heâd be the person to hear voices from the past in his head, but now heâs starting to understand. His heart is beating faster than it should, mouth drying like the Sahara desert and his fingers are starting to feel fidgety. With a shaky, labored breath inward, he reaches for his glove compartment. Opening it and bringing out the picture frame you gifted him.Â
Itâs only been a few days, but Satoru has discovered that not just staring at his son, but at you, has calmed him down in his hardest of moments.Â
Satoruâs fingers tremble as he holds the picture frame, his eyes drawn to the image of you. Itâs a moment frozen in time, a snapshot of a time when everything was different. Your smile, your eyes full of a younger warmth and something moreâsomething he wishes he couldâve seen in person. That smile, the one that always made his heart flutter despite the chaos surrounding them.Â
It was just a small moment, a simple gestureâno grand speeches or dramatic declarationsâbut to him, it meant the world. And now, in the silence of his car, surrounded by the weight of everything heâd failed to protect, itâs the only thing that feels real.
He runs his thumb along the edge of the glass, his mind replaying the words from beforeâyour words. His chest tightens.
âWhy donât I feel like you do anymore?â
Itâs a question he still canât answer. How could he? He was so far from being the man you needed him to be. He thought the love you shared was enough, but maybe it wasnât. Maybe heâd let it wither, neglected it in favor of his own responsibilities, his own distractions, until it had slipped through his fingers like sand. But in a way, he saw the neglect. And again, he froze. And again, he chose to turn away from you, letting you walk away.Â
âSatoru... I know you are.â
He flinches at the memory of your voice, still so clear, still so piercing in its sadness. He'd heard the pain in your words that night. The resignation. He shouldâve comforted you moreâshouldâve tried harder to. It was your own understanding that whatever you two had left, he wasnât offering it in a way that could keep you whole.
The picture frame shakes slightly in his grasp. The noise of it is almost deafening, drowning out the chaotic swirl of his thoughts. He closes his eyes, feeling the weight of guilt settle deep within his chest, heavier than anything heâs ever felt before.
I never wanted to hurt you. Iâm so sorry.
His breath hitches. Maybe he wasnât entirely lost. Maybe he could still fix this.Â
With a shaky exhale, he sets the frame back on the seat, staring at it for just a second longer before slowly closing his eyes, and leaning back against the headrest, allowing the overwhelming weight of it all to settle over him. His heart rate evens out, his hands no longer jittering. His sweat has dried down and his shoulders feel lighter.Â
Maybe he should apologize. For anything at this point, so long you know heâs regretful.Â
He gets a ping at his phone again, one that has him reaching for it and unlocking it with quick ease. Heâs set up a different notification sound for whenever you text him or call himâit separates you from the rest of the contacts. Also, it lets him know that your message or phone call is actually worth replying to.Â
Y/N:
Can you watch Koji tonight, please? Iâm going out with a friend.Â
He hesitates, a wave of curiosity passing through him. What friend? Going where? He wants to ask, and he almost does. But logic wins over and he finds himself having better restraint than he wouldâve expected. So, with a big inhale, he types back a simple âsureâ.Â
He blames it on the fact that he hasnât seen you dressed up in a while. Thatâs why his mind has suddenly gone foggy, lips parted and eyebrows raised as if heâs on the very verge of saying something. âYou lookâŠâ Edible.Â
Clearing your throat, you stuff your hands into the pockets of the small black jacket you adorn to keep you semi-warm throughout the night. But it probably wonât do much considering your legs are on full display for everyone to see. Your white-painted toes peeking out from the black heels you wear. And not to mention, the red dress youâre wearing thatâs almost too tight and short for his liking. Youâre wearing a glossy red lip to match, hair down, and jewelry that stands out perfectly against your skin. If he inhales hard enough, heâll smell the sweet scent of your floral, strawberry fragrance that always leaves him wantingâfeining for more.Â
ââŠnice.â
Nice? Thatâs all he could come up with? He mentally berates himself, though heâs not entirely sure if he wants to give you the satisfaction of knowing just how good you look. Itâs not just the dress or the heelsâitâs your unknowing confidence in your stance, the way you carry yourself. Itâs infuriatingly captivating.Â
âThanks,â you reply, not meeting his gaze as you adjust the strap of your small purse. Youâre not oblivious to the way his eyes linger, but you refuse to let it affect you. Not tonight, not anymore. âKojiâs already asleep, so you shouldnât have any trouble.â
Satoru nods, leaning against the doorframe, his hands shoved into the pockets of his sweatpants. âWhoâs the lucky guy?â he finally asks, his tone deliberately casual.
You pause mid-motion, glancing back at him with a raised brow. âWhy does it matter?â
He shrugs, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. âJust curious. I mean, you haven't gone out much, soâŠâ
âItâs a friend,â you say firmly, cutting him off before he can push further. âThatâs all you need to know.â
His lips thin, looking briefly at his sonâs closed door before back at your figure; watching you grab your keys. âWellâŠhow are you getting there?â He asks, a hint of concern in his voice.Â
âMy friend and the guy sheâs talking to are picking me up. We were going to meet him there, but he said he could pick us up instead.â
âWhat guy?â He canât help but ask. âIs he a good driver? Do you know him well? Do Iââ
âTheyâre picking me up,â you reiterate, cutting him off. Looking back at him, a plain emotion on your face. âI have it situated. Just worry about watching Koji, okay?â
The words sting more than he expects them to. He watches as you step out the door, your heels clicking against the pavement. âPlease be safe,â he calls after you, his voice softer this time, almost hesitant.
You turn briefly, offering a small, polite smile. âI will.â
And just like that, youâre gone, leaving Satoru standing in the apartment, staring after you with a sinking feeling in his chest. The thought of you out there, dressed like that, with someone elseâsome other guyâmakes his blood simmer. He knows he has no right to feel this way, but it doesnât stop the jealousy from gnawing at him.
A few minutes and he decides to be nosy. Peeking out the window, looking down at the parking lot of the complex. He sees you getting into a car. Now, itâs not the fact that the entire car is blacked out so he canât even see whoâs in the car with you, or the fact that it has obnoxious lights on the rims. But solely the fact that itâs a Maybach.Â
Since when do you know anyone who drives a Maybach?
Not that heâs trying to diss you or anything, but so far, he has no knowledge of you coming across any people who could afford that kind of car. Up until now. And that thought alone has him on edge.Â
Or maybe itâs the signature, golden âZâ emblem above the back license plate that he spots as the car drives off. His stomach turns. No. No. No. That couldnât be. Heâs just imagining that.Â
No way youâre in a car with a Zenin right now.Â
Thereâs just no way.Â
âYou look cute,â Hana comments, turning around in her seat. Smiling as she gives you a once-over. âIs that the dress we bought together that one time at the mall?â
âYeah. You look great too,â you chuckle, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. You glance over at Naoya whoâs currently fixated on the road. âThanks for the ride, by the way. I appreciate it.â
âNo problem,â Naoya replies without taking his eyes off the road, his tone neutral but polite. âHana insisted we pick you up anyway.â Â
Hana grins, turning her attention back to you. âOf course I did! Itâs been forever since we had a proper night out. Youâve been cooped up for too long, Y/N.â She gestures dramatically, earning a small laugh from you. Â
âI guess I have,â you admit, glancing out the window as the city lights blur past. âItâs just been⊠a lot lately.â Â
Hanaâs smile softens, and she reaches back to give your hand a comforting squeeze. âWell, tonightâs about letting go of all that. Weâll have fun, I promise.â Â
Naoya glances at you in the rearview mirror, his sharp gaze lingering for a moment before he focuses back on the road. âJust make sure you donât let loose too much,â he says, his lips curving into a faint smirk. Â
You look over, seeing the corner of his lips upturned into what must be his permanent grin. You catch his eyes meeting you through the rearview mirror for a minute and it makes you feel naked. Clearing your throat and looking back at your window with an awkward chuckle.Â
âNaoya, the overprotective chauffeur,â Hana jokes, earning a laugh from Naoya as he puts his hand on her thigh. Â
âSomeoneâs gotta keep an eye on you two,â Naoya quips, his smirk widening as his fingers give Hanaâs leg a light squeeze. âEspecially when youâre dragging her along into whatever chaos youâve planned.â
Hana rolls her eyes, brushing his hand off playfully. âRelax, Dad. Weâre just going out for a few drinks and some dancing. Nothing too wild.â She winks at you. âRight, Y/N?â
You nod. âRight. Iâm not exactly a party animal.â
Naoya hums, clearly unconvinced. âWeâll see about that.â
Hana waves him off. He chortles a low, smooth sound that vibrates through the car. âDonât flatter yourself. Iâm just here to make sure my ladies get home in one piece.â
Your lips part in confusion, brows knitting together. You glance at him, but he doesnât elaborate. Hana, ever the chatterbox, quickly fills the silence. âWell, lucky us, then! Who else gets a chauffeur who also cares about their well-being?â She leans over and plants a dramatic kiss on his cheek. âThanks, honey.â
Naoya laughs, but he subtly turns his head to the side and grimaces, wiping his cheek as if offended. You notice.Â
The dynamic between them is easy and light, and though you try to relax, you canât shake the feeling of Naoyaâs lingering gaze every time he catches your eye in the mirror. Thereâs something unnerving about the way he looks at youâlike he knows something you donât.Â
For now, though, you push it aside. Tonight isnât about overthinkingâitâs about having a moment to breathe.
But you shake it off, plastering a smile on your face as the car pulls up to the club. Hana claps her hands excitedly, unbuckling her seatbelt. âAlright, letâs get this night started!â
Naoya puts it in park and rounds over to the other side of the car, opening Hanaâs far and surprisingly yours as well. Giving him a small nod in thanks, you go to loop arms with Hana, but sheâs already doing that with Naoya.Â
You falter for a moment, your arm awkwardly dropping back to your side. Hana is too busy chatting animatedly with Naoya to notice, her laugh ringing out as they start walking ahead. You follow a step behind, trying not to feel out of place.
The entrance to the club glows with neon lights, and the steady thrum of bass greets you as you approach. Hana bounces on her heels, her excitement contagious as she tugs on Naoyaâs arm. âHurry up! We donât want to miss the good music!â
Naoya glances back at you, his sharp eyes flickering with something unreadable. âYou good back there?â
âYeah,â you reply quickly, forcing a smile. âIâm fine.â
Hana beams at you over her shoulder, oblivious to the moment. âDonât let us leave you behind, Y/N! Tonightâs about you having fun too!â
âRight,â you murmur, falling into step beside them as the bouncer waves you three in instantly as soon as he sees Naoyaâs with you.Â
Inside, the club is alive with energyâflashing lights, pulsing music, and a crowd already losing themselves on the dance floor.Â
In other words, itâs a sensory overload. The air is thick with the smell of perfume, sweat, and alcohol, and the floor vibrates underfoot with the heavy bass of the music that pulses from every corner. The dim, moody lighting casts long shadows across the room, but flashes of neon blues, purples, and pinks blink and fade in time with the beats, giving the space an electric, otherworldly glow.
To your left, a long, sleek bar stretches the length of the room, illuminated by LED lights embedded beneath the counter, giving it a cool, almost ethereal glow. Behind the bar, bartenders move with practiced efficiency, mixing colorful drinks, occasionally tossing bottles into the air as part of a flashy show to catch the attention of the crowd. The shelves of liquor gleam under the shifting lights, every bottle begging to be chosen.
The dance floor is alive with movementâa sea of people in various states of abandon, swaying, grinding, and throwing themselves into the beat. The DJ booth is elevated at the far end of the room, with an impressive setup of turntables, flashing screens, and a bright spotlight that shines down on the DJ as they command the crowd. Their hands are a blur as they adjust the controls, sending waves of sound crashing through the speakers, making the room feel alive with every drop.
Above, the ceiling is dark but dotted with small, moving lights that give the illusion of stars or distant galaxies, adding to the clubâs otherworldly atmosphere. A few scattered tables sit around the edges of the room, reserved for VIP guests, and each one is surrounded by plush, velvet chairs and bottles of expensive liquor.
As you move through the crowd, you catch glimpses of people laughing, chatting, and flirting, but it all feels distantâlike youâre part of the scene but not entirely involved. The club is packed, but thereâs a strange sense of intimacy in the chaos as if everyone is trying to escape their real lives, if only for a few hours. The energy is intoxicating, but beneath it all, you can feel the weight of your own thoughts creeping back in, no matter how hard you try to let the music wash them away.
Naoya guides you two upstairs, which shocks you because you werenât aware this spot has more than one floor. âCâmon, upstairs is where all the important people stay.â He says, his head tilting in the direction of where heâs referring.Â
Hana giggles and practically bubbles with excitement. You on the other hand, not so much. Maybe itâs just the fact that youâre a very analytical person at heart, constantly checking and being sure of your surroundings. Of course, a few men pass you and Hana lingering stares, but none of them approach you.Â
Naoya walks over to a small VIP booth thatâs been blocked off, sitting leisurely down on the couch and bringing Hana down to his lap; her arms around his neck. You sit beside them, hands in your lap. Looking around, and yep, it definitely is a different vibe than downstairs.Â
As you settle into the plush, velvet booth, the vibe upstairs feels even more exclusive. The lighting here is more subdued, with golden accents and low-hanging chandeliers casting a warm, luxurious glow over the space. The music from downstairs is muffled, replaced by a mix of smooth beats and more chill, electronic sounds, making the atmosphere feel like a blend of relaxation and quiet intensity. The view from the booth offers a perfect vantage point, allowing you to overlook the main floor, but with a sense of separation from the chaos. The air smells richer up here tooâexpensive cologne and the faint scent of cigars from the few people who seem to want a more private retreat from the crowd below. Glasses of wine and crystal-clear cocktails sit on the tables, adding to the upscale feel.
âAll rounds on me. Letâs enjoy the night,â Naoya announces.Â
âThank you, babe!â Hana exclaims, nuzzling into his neck. Â
Your eyes flicker to the other patrons in the booth with you. Some are laughing softly, holding drinks, while others sit in hushed conversations, the dim lighting making everything feel secretive and intimate. You canât help but wonder if this is how the elite live all the timeâan almost curated existence, designed for maximum enjoyment and minimal disruption.
A waitress arrives with a tray of drinksâvarious cocktails with elaborate garnishes, the scent of alcohol mingling with the floral air in the room. Naoya takes one without hesitation, handing it to Hana, who beams in delight. He looks over as if waiting for you to take one as well. You glance down at the assortment of drinks before finally picking up a glass, the amber liquid gleaming in the dim light. You take a small sip, the sharpness of the alcohol hitting your tongue as you try to keep your focus on the present moment, not letting your mind wander too far.
Naoya watches you with a raised brow, then leans back in his seat, his arm casually draped around Hanaâs waist. He seems to enjoy the fact that youâre more reserved than the others. He chuckles lowly. âI wasnât sure youâd be the type to go for the fancy drinks,â he remarks, his voice light but piercing as he studies your expression.
You give him a dry smile, shifting your attention toward the music pulsing through the speakers. âIâm not, but I figured itâs a good way to blend in,â you reply, trying to keep the conversation flowing without delving into anything personal.
Hana, always the life of the group, doesnât seem to notice the tension hanging in the air. Sheâs already lost in the rhythm of the night, swaying her body slightly as she sips her drink. You, on the other hand, are a stranger in it all, unsure of your place here.
Youâre donât know how much time has passed, but itâs probably sooner than later when youâre nudging Hana over as Naoya is engaged in conversation with another man. âHey, I thought we were going for the moreâŠyou know. Lively kind of night. Not a sit down and whiskey type.â You lace your words with a chuckle, though you speak the truth. Youâd much rather be on the first floor, drinking expensive, but poorly made drinks and shaking your ass off on the dance floor with a bunch of strangers.Â
âWhatâs wrong with being up here? Naoya said all the important people stay here.â She tilts her head, sipping from what must be her fifth drink already. Sheâs drunk, obviously.Â
Youâre teetering the line of tipsy and drunk.Â
âWell, yeah, sure. But donât you want to dance or something?â You ask back.Â
Hana looks at you for a moment, her eyes softening with a thoughtful expression. She tilts her head, the buzz of the alcohol making her seem a little more carefree. âI mean, I guess, but I like the vibe up here more. You donât have to do anything you donât want to do.â Her words are a little slow.
You glance down at your feet for a moment, debating your options. The temptation to be more carefree is there, gnawing at the edges of your mind. But as the music and voices continue to swirl around you, you feel more and more out of place in this sterile, high-class VIP area. You can practically feel the weight of the high-heeled shoes digging into your feet, the tightness of your dress thatâs become slightly uncomfortable as the night wears on.
You shoot a glance toward Naoya, who's deep in conversation with some well-dressed man. His posture is perfect, the kind of poised confidence only someone like him could exude, while you and Hana are caught up in your own corner of the booth, the alcohol clouding your judgment but not your awareness. Itâs strange to be so close to people who are so at home here but yet feel so far away.
âI think Iâm gonna go dance,â you say, suddenly making up your mind. âYou donât have to join me if youâre not feeling it.â You stand, brushing your dress down as you do. Your legs feel a little unsteady, but itâs manageable. Youâre not a newbie to drinking, after all.Â
Hana looks at you, her gaze blurry but her smile still wide. âGo for it, girl! Iâm fine here.â She gives you a thumbs up, though she seems too drunk to be fully aware of whatâs going on around her.
You nod, and make your way down the stairs back toward the first floor. The music is louder here, the bass thumping through your chest as you walk toward the crowd of people already dancing. Normally, Hana would never shy away from dancing with youâor straying away from you during a night out. So the fact that sheâs suddenly willing to tonight makes you feel weird. But itâs probably just the alcohol.Â
You shake off the momentary discomfort, the need to blend into this world of expensive drinks and quiet conversations. This is what you came for.
The crowd is exactly as you expectedâa mixture of sweaty bodies, neon lights, and the pulsating energy of a hundred people trying to escape their realities, if only for a few hours. You take a deep breath, letting the beat of the music invade your senses. For a second, you feel a bit more free.
You grab a drink from one of the servers, not caring much about what it is, and make your way into the center of the dance floor. The drink is cool in your hand as you take a sip, feeling the sharp burn of the alcohol before you set it aside, letting yourself be carried away by the rhythm.
The night is finally starting to feel a bit more like it should.
As you lose yourself in the music, the bass vibrating through your bones, you feel the tension in your body start to melt away. For the first time tonight, you're not thinking about the drama, the men, or the uncomfortable constraints of the VIP booth. The club is full of people, all dancing, laughing, and letting go of whatever worries they might have had earlier. You let yourself blend into the crowd, moving fluidly to the beat, forgetting about everything except the thrum of the music and the freedom in the space around you.
It feels nice. Very nice, in fact. You canât remember the last time youâve been to a club, let alone go dancing. You forgot how freeing it feels. Of course, the alcohol plays a role in the freeing sensation, but itâs also the fact that you can let loose. You donât have to think of anyone else but yourself at this moment. That realization makes your lips upturn, hips swaying and eyes closing in a euphoric blissfulness.Â
You can tell itâs been a while since youâve been down here by the way sweat beads at your forehead and the back of your neck. You donât wipe it off, however. Thatâs the whole point.Â
But as you move, you can suddenly feel eyes on you. At first, it's easy to dismiss the sensation, assuming itâs just the way the lights play across the room, making everyone appear to be watching. But the longer you dance, the more you realize that someone is actually watching, their gaze sharp and unwavering. You donât need to turn around to know itâs Naoya.
His presence is unmistakable. Even amidst the blur of strangers, you can feel him like a weight in the air, his energy standing out amongst the crowd. Heâs standing at the edge of the dance floor, his arms folded, his expression unreadable but clearly intent on you. You hesitate for a moment, unsure of what to do. Something about the way heâs staring makes your stomach flip, though you canât quite tell whether itâs from excitement or unease.
You try to ignore it, but the discomfort lingers. You dance a little harder, moving to the rhythm, hoping the feeling will pass. But Naoya doesnât look away. In fact, his posture shifts slightly, and the subtle smirk that plays on his lips only deepens.Â
At that moment, you feel an unexpected shift in the crowd around you. You glance over, expecting to see some stranger encroaching on your space, but instead, itâs just the pulse of the music getting more intense. Still, you canât shake the feeling that Naoya is watching you with something more than curiosity. His gaze is intense, too intense for a simple night out.Â
The realization starts to gnaw at you. Heâs waiting for something. And itâs not just the usual flirtatious attention. Thereâs a deliberate energy in the air, a challenge almost.Â
You swallow thickly, trying to push the tension away. But itâs getting harder to pretend like youâre not aware of him, especially as you move.
âHaving fun?â Naoyaâs voice cuts through the noise as he approaches you, standing dangerously close, almost too close. You freeze momentarily, caught off guard by his forced proximity. He towers over you, the heat from his body radiating towards you, his gaze locked onto yours like heâs studying you, dissecting you.Â
You open your mouth to respond but nothing comes out, your mind scrambling for something to say, anything to break the intensity of the moment. Instead, your eyes dart toward the exit of the dance floor. You need space. But Naoya doesnât give you the chance to retreat.
âYou seem a little distracted tonight,â he murmurs, his voice low as if theyâre the only two people in the room.
You know heâs not just talking about the music. A part of you wants to pull away, to tell him youâre fine, but another part feels caught in his web.Â
He leans in slightly, his voice nearly lost in the music. âI thought youâd be enjoying yourself up there. Why the sudden change of heart?â
You tilt your head, forcing yourself to stay grounded. âI just needed a change of pace, thatâs all.â
Naoya looks you over with a raised eyebrow, his posture leaning just a bit closer. âI see.â His voice drops to a teasing whisper. âYouâre not trying to forget anything, are you?â
You glance at him, eyebrows furrowed in confusion. âWhat do you mean?â
He doesnât answer right away, letting the question hang in the air for a second. Instead, he moves closer, his hand brushing against the small of your back. His touch is light, but thereâs an intensity behind it, a pull that almost makes you lose focus. The air around you thickens, the moment stretching out longer than necessary.
âIâm just wondering how long youâre going to keep running away from whatâs really bothering you,â Naoya murmurs, his smirk never faltering.
You can feel the hairs on the back of your neck stand up. His wordsâcasual, yet somehow pointedâcut through the haze of alcohol in your mind. Itâs strange how Naoya can make you feel uncomfortably exposed even when heâs doing the least. Thatâs not normal.Â
âIâm not running from anything,â you say, your voice steady but your heart suddenly a little heavier. âJust enjoying the night, like you said.â
Naoya chuckles softly, though thereâs a sharpness to it now. âSure, just enjoying the night. You do that.â He leans in closer, almost too close now, his breath brushing your ear. âBut you should know, sometimes the thing youâre trying to forget ends up finding you, no matter how far you run.â
You tense, your pulse racing, and for a moment, you wonder if he knows somethingâsomething about you, about Satoru, or maybe even about your own deepest fears. His hands are on your hips before you know it, moving your body in a swaying motion to the beat of the music.Â
And for some reason, you let him. Feeling the weight of his ominous words stay heavy on your mind, fixating on a random tile of the floor. You feel his lips brushing against the shell of your ear, unmoving. For a second, you feel yourself give in. Placing your hands atop his in a hesitant mannerâtesting out the waters.Â
And instantly, youâre met with your answer, a nauseating pit forming in your gut. Lip curling into a tiny sneer.Â
âW-whereïżœïżœïżœs Hana?â You blurt out, pushing his hands away from you and turning around to face him.Â
Thereâs a momentary look of shock on his face before he pulls it back down into his usual Cheshire grin, though you can tell it looks more forced than usual this time. His eyes narrowed. âOh, Hana? Sheâs still upstairs.â
âAnd you left her there?â You huff with disbelief, your head shaking. You attempt to side-step past him, but heâs putting an arm around your shoulder before you can go.Â
âDonât worry, pretty. I can lead you to her.â
Youâre not sure if itâs the alcohol clouding your judgment or the lingering discomfort from his presence, but you find yourself stopping. His touch, warm but unnerving, keeps you in place as his arm wraps around you. His grip feels possessive in a way that makes your skin crawl, and for the briefest second, you almost feel trapped.
You glance up at him, his grin too wide, too knowing. Thereâs something in his eyesâsomething that doesnât sit right with you. His words float in your mind like smoke: âThe thing youâre trying to forget ends up finding you.â
Forcing a tight-lipped smile, you tilt your head toward the stairs, where you know Hana must be waiting. âI think Iâll find her myself,â you say, trying to keep your voice calm, and detached, though your pulse quickens.
Naoyaâs eyes glint with something unreadable, but he doesnât let go. Instead, he tightens his arm around your shoulder, his touch more possessive than before, making it hard to breathe. âIâm just trying to help, sweetheart. Whatâs the harm in me escorting you?â His voice is low, almost coaxing like heâs trying to pull you into his orbit.
Before you know it, heâs taking you upstairs. All the while keeping his arm around you. You gulp down the lump in your throat, unsure if you should push him off and let him take you to your friend. Maybe youâre overthinkingâoverreacting. Once you two are upstairs, heâs walking past the booths. You glance at the booth you were once at, seeing no sight of your friend.Â
Panic trickles in slowly as he takes you down a small hallway, turning to his right and opening the last door.Â
Youâre taking in everything. Women, men, glasses of alcohol. Some make out and others getting frisky with each other. The room feels even more suffocating than the second floor itself. But your eyes donât just widen at what the others are doing, but what your friend is doing.Â
Sheâs sitting beside some guys you donât even know, white snowy lines laid out in front of them on the glass table. Sheâs leaning down, holding a finger to her nostril and just about to partake in the activity when you snatch her up by her arm. âHana! W-what the hell are you doing?!â
Hana looks up at you, her face slightly flushed and her eyes glazed over, an uncharacteristic haze of confusion settling over her expression as she blinks a few times. The room is full of murmurs, laughter, and the sharp scent of something far stronger than alcohol. For a moment, Hana doesnât seem to recognize you at all, or perhaps sheâs just too far gone to care. The men around her donât react immediately, their attention is divided between each other and whatever else is happening in the room.
âHana!â you repeat, voice rising in panic, shaking her arm a little more forcefully. Your grip is tight, and you can feel the tremor in your hand as the weight of the situation starts to sink in.
She blinks again, then her gaze clears just enough to focus on you. âY/N?â she slurs, a small frown forming as she rubs her nose absentmindedly. âWhatâs up? I was just⊠having fun.â
âThis isnât fun, Hana!â You pull her up from her seat, your voice trembling as you yank her away from the men. âThis is dangerousâwhat are you thinking?â
Hana stumbles a little, her movements sluggish, and she doesnât seem to fully grasp the seriousness of the moment. She laughs softly, her words laced with a slur that makes it hard for you to hear her clearly. âCome on, Y/N, chill out. Itâs just a little fun. Youâve been so uptight lately... you need to loosen up, too.â
Your heart races as you glance back at Naoya, still standing in the doorway, his hand resting casually on the frame. His grin is gone, replaced by a coldness that seems to make the room feel even more stifling. Youâre left standing there, breath shallow, with Hana still swaying slightly in your grip. You donât know how long it takes for the fog of confusion to lift from her eyes, but when it does, her face falls.
Your stomach twists, both from the overwhelming sense of protectiveness and the lingering disgust at what sheâd been about to do. You take a deep breath, trying to steady yourself. Youâve been friends for too long to just let this go. You canât leave her here like thisânot with those people, not in this situation.
You pull her closer, your voice softening. âWeâre leaving, Hana. Now.â
A beat of silence hangs between you, and for a moment, you think she might actually listen, but then she looks at you with frustration, and then back at Naoya, who hasnât moved an inch.
âWhy are you always trying to control everything, Y/N?â she snaps, and it feels like a slap to the face. âIâm fine. Just let me do what I want for once.â
Itâs the final straw. You canât stand it anymore. Youâre about to pull her out of the room, about to drag her away from this mess, but Naoya steps forward, a hand on your shoulder, forcing you to stop. âMaybe you should let her be, Y/N,â he says, voice calm but his grip tightening on you. âSheâs not your responsibility tonight.â
Your anger flares, but your mind is spinning too fast to catch up. You want to scream. You want to slap him across the face, but you know better. You can feel the weight of the situation settling in, and something about being in this room with him, watching everything around you spiral out of control, is making you lose your footing.
And Hanaâsheâs still there, looking so lost, so far gone.
You feel the pressure of Naoyaâs touch on your shoulder, almost like an invisible barrier, stopping you from moving. The walls feel like theyâre closing in, the air heavy and thick with tension.
âDid you bring her in here? Did you force her to do things she couldnât consent to?â You ask, forcing your drunken mess away for just a moment to deal with the situation at hand.Â
His head tilts in faux innocence. âWhat? No. She said she wanted to meet my friends so I let her. I said Iâd be back in a few minutes, I didnât know sheâd be doing anything like that.â
âBut you still left her alone.â You grit.Â
âSo? Sheâs a grown woman. Besides, sheâs not alone.â He gestures to the people inside.Â
You can feel your heart racing, each word hanging in the air like a heavy weight, suffocating you more than the dense atmosphere of the room. Your chest tightens with anger and concern for your friend. The nerve of himâstanding there, acting like he didnât know what was happening. He knows exactly whatâs going on, and now heâs just playing it off like itâs nothing.
âYou still left her alone,â you repeat, voice sharper this time, forcing yourself to meet his eyes even though every instinct tells you to look away. âIf you had any decency at all, you wouldnât have let her get to this point.âÂ
Naoya shrugs, an almost bored expression on his face, like heâs done this too many times to count and knows exactly how to make people like you back down. âDecency? You want me to babysit her?â His lips curl into that smirk again, the one that sends a chill down your spine. âIâm not her keeper, Y/N. She made her own choices.â
Your hands shake, but you force them to remain steady. You glance at Hana again, whoâs swaying, her mind clearly lost in whatever she was about to do, her gaze vacant. The sight makes your stomach churn, the reality of how deep sheâs gotten into all this hitting you like a punch to the gut.
âThen why did you bring her here?â you ask, struggling to keep your voice from breaking. âWhy even let her near this place if you knew what was going on?â
Naoyaâs eyes narrow, and for a second, you think you might have actually caught him off guard. But then his expression hardens, and the slight tension in his jaw gives way to a shrug. âBecause she wanted to be here. She asked to come. I didnât make her.â His tone is colder now, more dismissive. âYou know, Y/N, sometimes people just want to let loose. You canât control everything. Maybe you should try it sometime.â
You flinch at his words, and thatâs when you knowâyouâre not going to get anything else from him. Heâs already too far gone into his own ego, into this sick game heâs playing. But you wonât stop. Not when Hanaâs here, not when sheâs clearly in over her head.
Taking a deep breath, you step forward, putting yourself between Naoya and Hana, your voice unwavering. âWeâre leaving. Now.â
Naoya opens his mouth as if to argue, but you donât give him the chance. You grab Hanaâs arm again, more forcefully this time, pulling her away from the table. She resists at first, confused, but your grip is unyielding.
âCome on, Hana. Weâre going.â You almost want to shout it, to get her out of there before anything else can happen, but instead, you keep your voice steady, calm, for her.
She blinks at you, her vision blurry. âBut... Y/N... I... Iâm fine, I just... I just wanted to try it...â
âNo, Hana,â you snap, cutting her off before she can finish her sentence. âThis is not you. Youâre not fine.âÂ
The words hit her hard. You can see it in her eyesâthe brief flash of clarity before the fog comes back over them. She sways, but you manage to keep her steady as you drag her out of the room, ignoring the stares and whispers of the people inside.
Naoya doesnât try to stop you. He stands there, arms crossed, watching you leave with that same smirk plastered across his face.
You can hear him mutter under his breath. And you find that being your final straw again.Â
You stop in your tracks, holding your friend to your side by her waist. Debating. âHey.â
He barely has time to look over his shoulder before your fist makes contact with his cheek. He audibly yelps in a feminine manner, instantly holding the injured area. âOw! Wâhey!âÂ
His mouth is agape, eyebrows furrowed and glaring at you with looks to kill. You wring out your fist, glad you wore your favorite ring today. You canât punch for shit, yet heâs acting likeâŠ
âYou crazy woman!â He huffs out, the room going silent as he has his breakdown. Rushing over and pushing a couple of women out of the way to cheek his face in the mirror. He sees the red area, and his lip is busted. Whipping his head back over to you. âHow dare you?! Iâll fucking sue you for this, you know?â
âGo ahead, I have nothing to give you.â You reply back, turning on your heel and walking out. Footsteps quick from the sheer adrenaline and small amount of fear that heâll try to grab you from behind. He doesnât, luckily.Â
All that matters now is getting Hana out of this hellhole. As you make your way to the exit, you finally feel like you can breathe again. But just barely.
Once youâre outside, the cold air hits your skin, grounding you. Hana stumbles beside you, still out of it, but youâve done what you came to do. Youâve pulled her from the edge.
But as you both stand there, the reality of what just happened settles in. Youâve confronted Naoya, punched him, and youâve dragged your friend out of a situation she was too far gone to see. But now, as the adrenaline begins to fade, you canât shake the feeling that youâre not done yet.
You look down at your shaky fist, seeing the red knuckles. ââŠshitâŠâ you mumble under your breath, chest heaving up and down. You gasp and catch yourself on a light pole when Hana suddenly goes dead weight and almost brings you down to the concrete with her. It takes everything in you to hold her up.
Your vision feels wavy, feeling your feet stumble a bit to the right from your own inebriation before catching yourself mid-haze. âOkay, okay.âÂ
Youâre bear-hugging her to your chest, holding your bodies up against the light pole. Breathing in and out heavily, eyes closing as you try to figure out a situation for this all. Your ride, gone. You didnât even bring money for a taxi. And your friend is passed out drunk. You do a mental checklist of people who can haul you and Hanaâs drunk asses back home. Only coming out with two viable options. And one of those is currently watching your son at home.Â
Leaving only one other person.Â
Satoru has been lounging around your place for a few hours now, bored out of his mind. He switches from laying on the couch, to rummaging through your cabinets and reading the expiration date on everything, to checking on his son.Â
He sighs heavily, staring down at the familiar key he had gifted you that lies on the kitchen counter. Untouched. He still hasnât asked about your confirmation of the place he bought for you two, he figures he can do that tomorrow. But the fact that you havenât seemed to put much regard into it feels like a small dig to him, his frown deepening. Did you not care for it? Do you not like it? The fact that he went out of his way to buy you and his son a better place to live??
He needs to clear his mind.Â
Walking over to Kojiâs room, peeking in once more, everything is the same. His son still sleeps peacefully, snoring lightly and holding his Spider-Man close to his chest with his blankets thrown over him. The Spider-Man makes Satoru scowl again, forcing his eyes away and to the small hamper in the corner.Â
He might as well do something productive now.Â
Carefully, he walks in and grabs the hamper, walking back out with effortless silence. Going over to your washer and dryer, opening the two doors to reveal them. He already sees a full hamper on top of the washer and sighs. âCâmon, Y/N,â he mutters under his breath, shaking his head.Â
Flipping the light switch on, he puts both hampers on the ground and it takes him a while to figure out how to work your washer. Afterward, he opens the lid and tosses on Kojiâs small load, then yours. He tries not to hold onto your panties and bras for too long, not trying to be a perv. But heâs a man, after all. A man who may still have feelings for his ex.Â
So when he sees a pair of blue, lace panties, he thinks he might get a hard on right then and there. You creep! Heâs holding it in front of his face, admiring the dangling fabric. Heâs surprised you still have this. He remembers theâŠday you got it, after all. Yep, he feels his pants tighten.Â
The sick, twisted part of him tells him to give the panties a small sniff. What you donât know wonât hurt you, right?
No, no. Thatâs disgusting of you, Satoru.Â
He shakes his head, reminding himself that he canât do this and that he has a girlfriend. And by the gods above, he quickly tosses it into the washer before he loses control. The rest of your clothes consist of pants, sweats, a jacket, a few shirts, and aâŠ.wait.Â
âŠwhatâs this?
Getting to the bottom of your hamper, he comes across a shirt. One thatâs too oversized to fit you. One thatâs cotton. One that smells faintly like someone else he knows. One that he bought for his best friend two Christmases ago.Â
Satoru stares at the shirt in his hands, his eyes narrowing as the realization hits him like a cold slap to the face. The fabric feels heavier in his grip than it should, and the faint scent clings to itâthe unmistakable scent of someone else. Someone he knows. Someone who's apparently been a part of your life in ways that make him uncomfortable to even consider.
His stomach twists, a mix of anger and confusion flooding his thoughts. The shirt feels like a thread unraveling everything heâs been trying to convince himself of. He knows itâs irrational to feel the way he does, but in that moment, all he can think of is him. His best friend. The one whoâs always been there. The one who seems too close to you. His grip tightens around the fabric, his stomach dropping. Gulping hard and forcing himself not to jump to conclusions.Â
But thatâs pretty fucking hard.Â
Why the fuck do you have Suguruâs shirt? Why is it in your dirty clothes? Did he just put it there? Did he spend the night? Did you and himâ
He tosses the shirt back into the hamper with more force than necessary, but it doesnât change the fact that itâs there. Itâs his. Â
Satoru runs a hand through his hair, exhaling sharply. What is he supposed to do with this? He doesnât want to jump to conclusions, but everything about this feels wrong. He glances over at the pile of clothesâyour clothes. He sees everything but that damn shirt. But it's there now, in his mind, looming like a specter.Â
Satoru grabs the rest of the clothes, hastily tossing them into the washer, but itâs hard to focus. His mind keeps returning to that one question. That one shirt. And the nagging thought that maybe, just maybe, there's something he's been missing.
He almost feels like gagging as he closes the two doors and turns the light off, head spinning. He places a hand to his forehead, blinking hard.Â
His head whips over to the front door when he hears muffled chatter from outside.Â
âThank you for coming on short notice,â you mumble in embarrassment, focusing your eyes on your fiddling hands in your lap.Â
âDonât thank me, Y/N. I wouldâve come either way.â Suguru responds, smiling briefly at you before focusing back on the road.Â
Youâre just dropped Hana off. The trip felt way easier since Suguru opted to carry her in and to her bed, with you grabbing her keys and unlocking her door. When you left, you made sure everything else was locked. He didnât even question anything, simply doing as you asked.Â
Of course his gaze is riddled with concern, confusion, and skepticism. You donât miss the way he keeps looking down at your red knuckles that you hide, but with the way you havenât mentioned anything about the night, he figures you wonât talk about it.Â
âHow much did you drink? I brought some water, itâs on the door.â He juts his head in your direction.Â
You glance down and grab the bottle, thanking him as you down it. âUmâŠjust a few drinks. Iâm not entirely sober right now, still.â
Suguru nods slowly, not saying anything for a moment as the car hums along the quiet road. He doesnât push you to talk, but he knows somethingâs off. Youâve been quieter than usual, and the tension in the air is palpable. Heâs been around you long enough to sense when something isnât right, but heâs trying not to pryâespecially when youâre clearly trying to avoid the topic.
When you finish the water, he glances over at you, eyes softening. âI know youâre not ready to talk, Y/N. But you know Iâm here, right? If you ever want toââ
You nod quickly, cutting him off, but not in a way thatâs dismissive. Itâs more like youâre trying to assure him. âI know. Thanks, Suguru.â The words hang between you both, neither of you fully comfortable in the silence. Guilt hits you, so you continue. âI justâŠtonight didnât go as planned.â
He nods, stopping at a red light. Finally taking the chance to look at you fully once more. His lips thin in displeasure when he sees your current state. Shivering, flushed cheeks, hazy eyes, hair messy. He sighs and reaches in the backseat and brings out a warm, thick black jacket. Putting it over your shoulders. âPut that on, okay? Keep yourself warm and hydrated.â
Your lips part, but you nod and smile slightly. ââŠthank you,â you murmur, holding the jacket closer.Â
âAnd donât thank me anymore, okay?â He replies, hints of playfulness in his voice like heâs trying to ease the mood. When the light turns green, the car moves forward again and gets closer to your apartment complex.Â
You let out a quiet breath, the warmth of his jacket enveloping you as you pull it tighter around your shoulders. The night feels like a blur now, too many conflicting emotions tangled together. Suguruâs steady presence is a welcome relief, but you canât help but feel like youâve lost control in some way. Tonight wasnât just a messâit was a wake-up call.
As he makes the final turn toward your apartment, you glance at him, still holding the jacket close. His eyes are on the road, but you can tell heâs trying to read you without being too obvious. Thereâs concern in the way his brows are furrowed, even though heâs doing his best to keep things light.
âI didnât expect the night to turn out like this,â you admit, voice quieter than before. âI thought itâd just be a fun time with Hana, but⊠everything kind of spiraled.â
Suguruâs expression softens, though his gaze doesnât stray from the road. âI know you wanted to have a good time, Y/N. Sometimes things just⊠happen. Doesnât mean you canât recover from it.â
You glance out the window, trying to focus on the passing scenery. The bright lights of the city feel like a distant memory compared to the emotional chaos inside your head. You force your stomach not to start twisting. âI know. Itâs just hard. I never thought Iâd have to deal with something like this.â
Suguru reaches for the wheel a bit tighter, but his voice is gentle as ever. âYou donât have to carry all of it alone, you know? Not everything is on your shoulders. Let yourself breathe a little.â
You bite your lip. I tried doing that tonight, look where that got me. You stay silent as he finds a space and parks, deciding heâs dealt with enough of your burdens.Â
âIâll walk you up,â he mutters, unbuckling and getting out of the car to come to your side. He helps you out wordlessly, closing the door behind you and locking his car.Â
Your footsteps falter for a moment. âI-is it okay if I leanââ
âOf course,â he cuts you off, holding a steady arm around your waist and allowing you to use him as grounding for your leaning weight. Heâs practically leading you, but you have no problem with it. Even as you two enter the elevator, the silence doesnât feel bad. It doesnât feel uncomfortable. If anything, youâre leaning more into him, the side of your head against his chest.Â
He glances down at the top of your head, pulling you just a tad bit closer and twisting the urge to plant a kiss to your hair. His thumb rubs small, soothing circles around your hip, feeling you lean more and more against him.Â
The doors open and heâs slowing his movements for you. âStill with me?â
You nod. âYeah.â
He smiles and looks forward. âGood, donât go falling asleep. Get some water in you, maybe some bread.â
You canât help but softly chuckle. âYou know, youâve been really nice to me, Suguru. Nicer than anyone else.â
Your words are getting quiet and more mumbledâslurred. But he can still faintly piece your words together. You feel the rumble in his chest from his coaxing laugh. âYeah? I think Iâm just acting how any other man would.â
âNot any other man.â You reply.
He pokes the inside of his cheek with his tongue, getting a tiny idea of who you may be referring to. But he doesnât want to ruin your night even more by saying his name.Â
The quiet hum of the building is a comfort, a stark contrast to the chaos of earlier. Youâre not sure how much of your surroundings youâre taking in; your thoughts are still clouded from the nightâs events. The warmth of Suguruâs presence, his steady support, makes it easier to keep going. When you reach your door, he stops, giving you the space to find your keys in your pocket. You fumble a little, but Suguru doesnât rush you. He stands patiently, his thumb still grazing the side of your hip. Heâs careful not to crowd you too much, but thereâs an undeniable sense of protectiveness in the way he stands close.
Finally, you manage to find your key. You glance up at Suguru, your eyes a little foggy. âThank you⊠for everything.â
He smiles down at you, the warmth in his expression making your chest tighten a little. âItâs nothing, really. Just doing whatâs right.â
You hesitate for a moment, not sure if you should say anything else, but the words slip out before you can stop them. âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â
Suguruâs eyes widen slightly but his smile softenn. His hand traveling up to gently tuck a stray piece of hair behind your ear. âYou donât have to worry about that. Iâll always be around when you need me.â
Thereâs a quiet beat between you two, the silence saying more than words ever could. You swallow down the lump in your throat, trying to keep the emotions from overwhelming you. You gently bite your bottom lip, the action causing his eyes to flicker down towards it. âI justâŠI feel like I havenât been having anyone on my side lately. IâmâŠIâm glad I have you.âÂ
His insides practically melt at your soft, drunken tone of voice and the way youâre gazing up at him. Suguru feels his heart shift, warmth pooling in his chest at your vulnerability. Heâs never seen you quite like this, so open and raw, and it makes him want to protect you in a way thatâs deeper than he expected. The softness in your voice, the way you lean into himâit all pulls him in closer, making his resolve weaken just a bit. He swallows hard, stepping a little closer to you, but trying to keep his distance, knowing that youâre vulnerable right now, not fully in control of your emotions.
âY/N,â he says gently, his voice low but steady. He reaches for your hands, lifting them from where you were gripping the door, and holds them softly in his. âI'm not the only one, I promise. But Iâm always going to have your back. You never have to feel alone, okay? We all go through tough times, but youâre not carrying it on your own.â
You nod slowly, eyes glimmering with a mix of gratitude and something else he canât quite place. Your fingers curl around his as if youâre grounding yourself in his touch, a small comfort in the sea of uncertainty.
âYouâre not like the others, Suguru,â you murmur, barely above a whisper. âYou make me feel⊠safe.â
The words hang in the air, delicate and full of meaning. Suguruâs chest tightens again, but this time itâs not from concern or pityâitâs from something else. Something warm, something that feels a little dangerous, but right. He tilts his head slightly, eyes narrowing, as he registers the way youâre looking at him.
âYouâre safe with me,â he says softly, his voice almost a promise. âYou always will be.â
You both stand there in the quiet, the weight of everything between youâeverything unsaidâlingering. Suguruâs hand reaches up, brushing your hair away from your face again, his fingers lingering a little longer than necessary, like heâs trying to convey something in that simple touch.Â
You blink, breaking the moment just enough to step back. âI should go inside.â
Suguru nods, not forcing anything further. He understands. âYeah, go get some rest. Drink that water, and donât forget about the bread.â
You tiredly smile, looking back at your door and putting the key in its hole. But, you find yourself hesitating. Movements stilling as thoughts overwhelmed your already vulnerable brain. Youâre looking back at him before you know it.Â
His eyebrows raise. âWhatâs wrong?â
You shake your head in response, your heart beating faster. He says nothing, just allowing the little staring contest to continue on. For some reason, itâs making you not want to face your reality. God, itâs the fact that you have no idea what youâre doing to him. How stuck he feels, how guilty he feels and how perfect it all feels at the same time. Itâs almost not fair.
Maybe itâs just the fact that youâve experienced more shit than you wouldâve wanted to tonightâand of course, youâre a lightweight. Hence why you donât really like drinking in the first place. But youâve needed one recently.Â
So yeah, your balance is not very steady, your head feels light but heavy at the same time, your lips are curved up into a smile on their own and your calculations are a little miscalculated.Â
Because you could swear that with the way heâs looking at you now, his lids the slightest bit hooded that one could miss it, his tilted head, and the way heâs leaned in close enough that you can smell his intoxicating cologneâŠheâs looking tempted.Â
And to be honest, so are you.Â
The night air is suddenly quiet, youâve been staring into his eyes for who knows how long now and your breathing feels shallower. It feels like a sappy romance movie you watched when you were a tween and wished upon a star that one day it would happen to you. Except itâs not the person you wouldâve exactly wanted. But your body is still reacting all the same.Â
What does that mean for you?
Your key is still lodged in the hole of your door, seemingly frozenâbut awaiting. He leans in and your eyelids flutter. âIâm sorry.â
âF-for whatâŠ?â
âFor being such a selfish man right now.â He places a steady hand to your waist as your body swayed backwards again.Â
Itâs just the alcohol talking. âI-itâs okayâŠâ
âIs it?â He mutters, breath fanning your face.Â
This time, you lean closer, practically moving up to your tip-toes. You notice the way his eyes have darkened, glancing down at your pink, parted lips. âYeah, I thinkâŠI want to be selfish too.â
He smiles, matching your drunken one. Your right hand raises to his cheek, admiring the heat that wavers off of it. You think you want more of his magnetic heat. He doesnât move, allowing you to do the work. Maneuvering your head up to close the rest of the distance. And youâre so close, so very close that you could practically lick his lips if you wanted.
His lips part, making space for your own to slot between them. Just when youâre about toâ
Your door yanks open from the inside, jolting you back to reality. Eyes wide and looking over at the culprit.
Oh, fuck.
Satoru stands in your doorway, hair poking up at all different angles, jaw clenched and saccharine eyes darting around at the sight in front of him, of what he just interrupted. And it feels like youâve just been burned, pulling back and away from Suguru like youâve been caught cheating. Suguru matches your actions, stuffing his hands in his pockets. âS-SatoruâŠâ you mutter, swallowing.Â
âWhatâs this?â He asks, looking between you and his best friend. âHe brought you home?â
âIââ
âShe called me to pick her and her friend up, Satoru.â Suguru interrupts, meeting his friend with undeterred eye contact.Â
However, that seems to be just the icing on top for Satoru. Turning his gaze towards you, looking up and down quickly. ââŠSoâŠIâm watching our son while you go ahead and get yourself shitfaced, youâre gone for hours without any call or text to let me know youâre okay, and when you come back⊠youâre about toâŠkiss my fucking best friend?â
âSatoââ
âShut the fuck up, Suguru.â He gives his friend a death glare, taking a step outside and forcing you to take a wobbly one back. Suguru doesnât move. âTell me, huh. You think Iâm an idiot?â
âSatoru,â you reach out for his arm, but promptly pull back when he looks back at you.Â
âAnd to think,â he scoffs, regarding you with an icy coldness that feels completely foreign to you. âI thought we had it okay for once. And now youâre fucking my best friend behind my back?â
âNo! N-no, Suguru and I arenât doing that.â You quickly protest.Â
He simply scoffs and Suguru steps back in between you two. âSatoru, calm down, okay? We werenât doing anything. Y/Nâs been having a tough time and Iâm just here to help her through that.â
âBy what? Forcing yourself into her life? Into my sonâs life? Who the hell do you think you are, Suguru?â He pushes the other man by his shoulder, to which Suguru does not fight back.Â
You grimace, pulling back on his shirt. âSatoru, stop it, please. We arenât doing anything like that.â
âBullshit!â He snaps, throwing his arms up. âHe gives you and Koji a present. I find his fucking shirt in your hamper, and now I just caught you two about to kiss. Did you fucking forget I was inside? Were you going to bring him inside and let him fuck you?â
Your mouth is agape, eyes blown wide at the accusations. The words hit you like a punch to the gut, leaving you breathless and unable to form a coherent thought. Satoruâs accusations sting, each one harsher than the last. His anger is palpable, the venom in his voice making it hard to breathe, and yet all you can do is stand there in stunned silence, feeling the weight of the situation crash down on you.
âNo... Satoru, IâI didnâtââ You struggle to find the words, but nothing seems to come out right. How do you explain something thatâs so far from the truth but also so complicated in its own way?Â
Suguru, his expression tight with frustration, steps forward, clearly trying to keep the situation from spiraling even further. "Satoru, this isnât the way to handle it. Y/Nâs been through a lot, and I'm just trying to be there for her. Thatâs all it is."
âYou think that makes a difference?â Satoru spits, turning back to Suguru with a glare that could burn. âYou think you can just waltz in, playing hero, and itâs all fine? You donât get to play the martyr here. Not with my family.â
You flinch at the mention of Koji, feeling the sting of his words even more sharply now. "Satoru, please," you whisper, your voice barely audible. "Donât talk about him like that. You know I would neverâ"Â
But Satoru cuts you off with a sharp gesture, his eyes dark with fury. "No, you donât get to explain yourself anymore. I saw it. I know what was happening."
Your heart races as the silence hangs heavy between you, Suguru and Satoru locked in a tense standoff. You can feel the weight of the accusations pressing down on you, suffocating you.
âIâm sorry, okay?â you manage, the words coming out in a broken whisper. âIâm so sorry. But I swear, nothing was going to happen. Nothing. I just... I didnât know what else to do.â
Satoru doesnât respond, but you can see the tension in his shoulders, the way his jaw clenches. Suguru looks between you both, his eyes softening just a fraction, but thereâs nothing left to say. Youâre standing at the edge of everything, and you donât know how to fix this, how to make Satoru believe you.
âSatoru, Y/Nâa a grown woman.â Suguru says.Â
âYeah? And what, that makes you a grown man?âÂ
Once more, Suguru is pushed by Satoru. You can see the growing irritability in Suguruâs expression, the way heâs doing his best to not give in and fight with his best friend. Youâre torn, unsure of how you can stop this. Sure, you punched a man today, but he was a bitch. That doesnât mean you can stop a possible fight between two other men. âPlease, donât raise your voice, Satoru. I donât want to wake Koji.â
âOh, now you fucking care?â He huffs out. And that sentence alone puts a halt to you. Your mind momentarily freezes, going silent. He almost looks like he regrets the words as soon as theyâre uttered, but itâs drowned out by his look of anger.Â
SoonâŠyouâre mirroring his fury.Â
âWhat?â You quietly ask, letting out a deep huff. âWhat? What the fuck did you just say to me?â
This time, itâs you who pushes the pusher. He stumbles back barely, caught off guard by your suddenness before heâs planting himself in place. âDonât touch me, Y/N.â
âThen donât you ever say something like that! Iâve done everything I could for Koji and more. You had no idea what kind of shit I went through alone.â You grit out.Â
âBecause of you! Because of your own stupid decision to not let me in, let me help you!â He argues back. He's right. He's always right. And thatâs why you two could never work together because while Satoru was always right, you were always wrong. They say opposites attract, when actually, opposites do nothing prove what the other could never be.
And after the events of tonight, youâre growing tired of holding back your explosion. Your drunken brain is telling you to fight fire with fire.Â
âBecause you were a fucking shitty person!â You shout back, aware of the fact that your loud voice may cause some of your neighbors to wake up. Koji to wake up. âAnd now youâre getting mad at me for trying to move on? For trying to live my life? Fuck you! You have a fucking girlfriend who treats me like shit and you let it happen!â
âYou want to play that game, Y/N? Really?â Satoru replies, a dead firmness in his tone.Â
Before you can respond, Suguru, ever the peacemaker, is cutting in again. âY/N, stop it, okay? Go inside, youâre drunk. Satoru, donâtââ
Heâs cut off by another push from Satoru. âDonât tell me what to fucking do, Suguru. Youâre trying to get with my ex behind my back, is that how low youâve become?â
âSatoru,â he slowly exhales out, trying to calm himself. âIâm not doing that. Y/N and I arenât getting together. Iâm just being here for her.â
âBy trying to get in bed with her?â
Suguru has begun to have enough. âStop speaking like that, Satoru.â He gruffs out.
The atmosphere crackles with tension, and your pulse races as Satoruâs words hit harder than before, each one a slap in the face. You can feel the anger bubbling up inside you, pushing you past the point of control, past the point of regret. This argument feels like itâs never going to endâlike itâs been building for years, simmering beneath the surface, only now itâs boiling over in a mess of accusations and past hurts.
Satoruâs sneer deepens as he stares you down. âYou think I donât know whatâs going on? Iâm not stupid, Y/N. Donât think you can pull the wool over my eyes now. You think youâre going to move on with him after everything?â
You step closer to him, barely noticing the way your hands are trembling, your heart pounding in your chest and tears prickling at your eyes. âIâm not moving on with anyone. Not like you think. But youââ You pause, trying to steady your breath. âYouâve had no idea what Iâve been through. Youâve walked away at times when I needed you the most, Satoru. Donât fucking act like I owe you anything now.â
Satoruâs expression darkens, his hands balling into fists, but you donât flinch. âIâm sorry if you think I donât care, but Iâve been in the fucking trenches with you, Y/N. Do you think it was easy for me too? To watch you shut me out? To watch you fucking struggle with everything while Iâwhile Iâtried to be there for you? But I was never enough, was I?â His voice cracks with a mix of frustration and disbelief, but itâs too much. Itâs too late for apologies and explanations. You feel your vision blur with tears, and for a brief moment, you almost crumble under the weight of the argument, the hurt, the feeling of being misunderstood.
âYou knew you couldâve tried hard enough. You knew that, you know that.â You argue, despite your shaky voice.Â
His eyes narrow, and he opens his mouth to say something, but Suguru steps forward, intervening again, his voice low and firm, but thereâs a warning in it. âEnough, Satoru. Youâre not hearing her. This isnât about you anymore.â
Satoruâs fists clench at his sides, his jaw tight with frustration. âItâs always been about me, Suguru. Itâs always been about what I need, what I want. And now you want to play the hero? To take my place in my own fucking life?â
Suguru shakes his head, his expression hardening. âNo, Iâm not trying to take your place. But youâre blind if you donât see how much sheâs suffered. How much sheâs going through. And how much youâre still hurting her by dragging all this up now.â
âShut up,â Satoru snaps, and his voice is harsh enough to make you flinch. âI donât need a lecture from you, not now.â
Suguru doesnât back down, his eyes never leaving Satoruâs. âThen maybe you should take a fucking look at yourself first.â
For a moment, the three of you stand there in silence, the tension thick enough to slice through. Your heart is racing, your mind spinning with a mix of anger, hurt, and confusion. The words youâve been holding back for so long feel too much to bear, too raw to say out loud, but now theyâre there, sitting on your tongue, threatening to spill.
You take a shaky breath, trying to steady yourself, but the weight of everything is overwhelming. Your hands tremble as you press them against your sides, eyes focusing on the ground to keep from breaking down. But the words, the truth youâve been holding inside for so long, feel like theyâre going to suffocate you if you donât let them out.
âI didnât mean for this, Satoru. I didnât mean for any of it,â you finally say, your voice thick with emotion. Your chest tightens, your breath shaky as you look at him, the tears threatening to fall. âBut now youâre standing here, making it worse, blaming me for everything. Iâm always getting blamed, no matter what. For trying to find happiness. For surviving.â You swallow hard, your voice quieter but still filled with the weight of everything youâve been holding back. âBut you donât get to make me feel bad about trying to heal, Satoru. You donât get to make me feel like Iâm the one who ruined everything when you were the one who stopped trying.â
Suguruâs gaze flickers to you, a flicker of concern flashing across his face, but itâs Satoru who you focus on. The silence stretches, suffocating, before he speaks again, his tone hard, bitter, but with a hint of something deeperâsomething vulnerable. âI never wanted to leave you,â he mutters, almost too quietly. âBut you shut me out. You kept pushing me away like I didnât matter.â
âYou didnât try hard enough to matter,â you shoot back, your voice a little stronger now. âYou didnât try to understand. You didnât try to see me. You only saw what you wanted, what fit into your world. And I couldnât do that anymore. I couldnât just keep being this thing that existed to meet your needs, while I fell apart. I couldnât.â
Satoruâs eyes flicker, and for a moment, you swear you see something break in him. But itâs gone just as quickly as it appears, replaced by the cold, hardened exterior heâs been wearing for so long. âYou think this is easy for me?â he spits, voice laced with something that could be self-loathing. âYou think itâs easy watching youâwatching himâtake over everything I thought was mine? Thatâs not fair either, Y/N.â
âYou donât own me, Satoru,â you whisper, the words coming out stronger than you expect. âYou never did.â
Suguru steps forward again, his voice steady but firm. âEnough. This isnât going anywhere. Itâs just going to keep hurting both of you.â
But Satoru isnât listening. His fists clench again, his jaw tight as he shakes his head, the hurt flashing in his eyes. âI donât know how to fix this, Y/N. I donât know if I can. I donât know if I ever could.â
The rawness in his voice catches you off guard, leaving you momentarily speechless. The anger and resentment still burn in your chest, but beneath it all, you realize that maybe, just maybe, thereâs still something left. Something that isnât as broken as you thought.
But itâs too late for that. Itâs too late for him.
With a shaky breath, you look away, your heart heavy in your chest, and turn toward the door. âIt doesnât matter anymore, Satoru. Itâs done.â
Suguruâs hand rests gently on your shoulder as you walk past, his silent support a comfort, even though the pain doesnât fade. And Satoru stays there, his fists trembling at his sides, caught between regret and anger, as you step back into your home and shut the door behind you.
The tears overcoming your being once youâre locked inside, taking the jackets off haphazardly and tossing your purse onto the sofa. Holding a hand to your mouth to muffle your cries as you walk past Kojiâs door and to your own room, silently shutting and locking it.Â
You crumble into your bed, holding your pillow close, and making you feel like a little girl all over again. Letting your warm tears wash your makeup away and stain your white pillow. Feeling your body trembling from every sensation flowing through it right now. You feel your heart pick up way too fast for your liking and youâre almost sure youâre breathing at an erratic pace right now.Â
You feel like no matter what, you can never do good in your life. You fucked up tonight by trying to kiss Suguru, you fucked up by keeping Koji a secret, you fucked up by even going out in the first place.Â
Everything is crumbling down at you all at once and you think itâs about time you toss the rag in. Because everyone has their breaking point, youâre not sure if you hit yours yet, but it damn well feels like you have. And now youâve probably broken up a years long friendship due to your own selfishness, to your own stupid intoxication. Youâre wrong in every aspect. Everything is eating you alive right now, leaving just a hollow suit in its place.Â
You wonder how things will look going forward.Â
And you wonder if youâve ruined any little chance at possibly having Satoru in your grasp again.Â
A small knock pulls your attention, shifting your eyes open and looking over to the small head that peeks through. Oh god, this is the last thing you wanted.Â
âMamaâŠâ Kojiâs small voice utters, slipping inside and coming over to your curled up form on the bed. âMama, whatâs wrong?â
You wish you had it in you to put on a poker face and dry your tears, giving him the usual lie. But tonight, you canât. ââŠmamaâs sad.â You whisper.Â
His eyes widen, lip quivering down into a pout. Eyes glistening with his own onset of tears and heâs diving into your bed, scrambling up to your chest. Wrapping his tiny arms around your neck in such a fast way that it leaves you momentarily speechless. When he looks at you, you almost feel yourself wanting to cry harder at the sole fact that your son is seeing you like this, that heâs almost crying now too. âPlease donât cry, Mama. I donât like you being sad.â
âIâŠI know.â You croak out, holding him close. âI know, Koji. And IâmâŠIâm so sorry. I canât be strong today.â
He shakes his head furiously. âItâs okay! Because Papa told me that when I grow up, Iâll protect you. Iâll be strong and big like him. SoâŠso maybe I can be strong today for you, Mama.â
Your heart shatters at his words, and despite the weight of everything thatâs been crushing you, you hold him even tighter. The fragile little boy whoâs trying so desperately to comfort you when he should be the one youâre protectingâitâs too much. You canât hold back the flood of emotions anymore. You pull him into you, your arms trembling, but all you can do is let him in, letting his warmth and innocence wrap around your heart like a fragile balm.
âOh, baby,â you whisper, your voice breaking. âYou donât have to be strong for me. Youâre so strong already just by being you.â You bury your face in his hair, feeling his small body pressing against yours, his little heartbeat steady and comforting in a way nothing else can be. âIâm sorry you had to see me like this, Koji. I promise Iâll be okay.â
Kojiâs small hands rub at your back, and his voice, though still a little quivery, carries the same hope and determination he always carries. âIâm gonna help you, Mama. Iâll make you smile again, okay? I promise.â His words, simple as they are, strike a chord deep inside, reminding you of everything youâve fought for. Youâve fought to protect him, to give him a better life, to shield him from all the pain and hurt that came with being tied to Satoru, and now youâre breaking down in front of him. It feels so pathetic.Â
But maybe you need to be broken in order to rebuild. Maybe itâs okay to let him see your fragility, so he knows itâs okay to feel and not bottle everything up.Â
You breathe out a shaky laugh, lifting him slightly to kiss his forehead. âYouâre my little hero, Koji. Iâm so proud of you. I donât deserve you.â
Koji, however, just shakes his head again, his small face scrunching up in determination. âNo, Mama. Iâm not a hero. Youâre my hero. You always are.â
And somehow, in the midst of the mess youâve found yourself in, his innocent words are the only thing grounding you. Youâre not alone. Youâre not broken beyond repair. You still have him. You still have him to fight for, to love, and to protect.
And right now, thatâs all that matters.Â
You hold him close, sinking deeper into your bed, feeling his small body curl up against you. The weight of the world still feels heavy on your shoulders, but for a brief moment, with Kojiâs warmth surrounding you, you feel the tiniest flicker of hope. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe youâll figure things out.Â
But for now, you let yourself cry. You let yourself grieve. Because tomorrow is another day.
a/n: soo many things happeneddddd. hoped u all enjoyed :)
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đŹđČđ§đšđ©đŹđąđŹ à§č you and megumi have been dating for nine months. you're happy. he's happy. you're perfect for each other. the only issue? he craves affection and he's not sure how to ask for it.
đđšđ§đđđ§đđŹ à§č megumi x fem!reader, shy megumi, fluff, very very slight angst, cuddling, yuji and nobara mention (they share one braincell).
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đ/đ§ à§č sorry I haven't written in a while, i'm currently on vacation and haven't been writing. this was in my drafts so I figured I'd post it. I'll be back soon with some more. I hope you enjoy! hearts divider by @/s-h-o-w-y
You and Megumi had been dating for quite a while now. Just two weeks ago, you had your nine-month anniversary together and you were the happiest you had ever been.
The relationship was very low-key. PDA was almost non-existentâthe most heâd ever do in public was hold your hand and even then, he kept his hands to himself most days.
Affection was present in your relationship but you mostly had to ask for it. Heâd give it to you without a second thought but he rarely initiated any form of affection besides a few hugs or kisses here and there.
To be honestâit bothered you at first as you believed it was something about you that made him not want to be affectionate but then you realized it was just hard for him to show physical affection because he never really knew how. He was an amazing boyfriendâhe just had some struggles.
You were fine with this now and it didnât bother you, knowing that he still loved you very much.
But what you didnât know was how badly this affected Megumi. His fear of initiating physical affection was eating him alive from the inside out.
Megumi had a lot of emotionsâbelieve it or notâbut he didnât know how to handle all of it so he just shoved it all down where nobody could find it. He never learned how to deal with any of it so it seemed like the only quick solution.
His mother passed away at a young age and affection or even emotion (besides anger, disappointment, or his father being unamused) was not common from his father and stepmother. Growing up he got the occasional pat on the head or a hug from Gojo and his older sister Tsumiki tried her best to show her love for him when she couldâbut that had ended all too soon.
He would never admit it but he absolutely craved affectionâspecifically from you. The poor boy was so touch-starved. His heart soared whenever you asked for a hug or to lay down together. And it tore away at his heart how badly he wanted to ask you for love but for some reason, he was scared to do so.
But one thing about Megumi was that he was persistent and he was going to get through this and overcome his anxiety one way or another. After all, you were already his girlfriend. What could possibly go wrong?
Right now, you were on a walk with him, Nobara, and Yuji. Shoko had insisted on the four of you going out and getting some sun and none of you were about to argue with the intimidating school doctor so you all quickly got out there.
You walked alongside Megumi while Nobara and Yuji goofed off a couple of feet ahead of the two of you, not paying attention to either of you at all. Megumi quietly walked with a stoic expression, keeping his hands in his pockets. He had barely said anything but thatâs because his mind was racing.
You didnât mind it at all as long as you were with him. Megumiâs gaze kept flickering down to your hand, which was at your side as you walked. He wanted to just reach down and grab your hand tightly but something stopped him. Why? He had no idea.
You were his girlfriend, he had held your hand before and nothing happened. So why would it be any different now? Anxiety over simple things never made anyone think sensible thoughts. But it was enough to make him nervous to simply reach out and grab your hand.
And the worst part? You had no idea. You simply kept walking with a big smile on your face as the two of you walked together.
Before he could stop himself, he just took his hand out of his pocket and grabbed your hand rather abruptly, not saying a single thing as if trying to ignore what just happened.
You were a little stunnedâjust because it was so sudden. And he had just grabbed your hand rather than lacing his fingers together with yours or something like that so you looked at him with a little bit of confusion. âMegumi?â You asked.
Noticing your eyes on him, he just avoided eye contact, feeling his cheeks heat up for some reason. All he was doing was holding your hand! Well, more like gripping it at this point.
âYou donât have to grip my hand like that, Iâm not going anywhere.â You chuckled, trying to make him loosen up a bit so you could intertwine your fingers with his. Really, you were just glad that he was holding your hand and had done it himself.
Megumi didnât reply but his grip loosened up so you could intertwine your fingers with his, properly holding hands now. You gave his hand a little squeeze and a reassuring smile. To be honest, it was really cute to see him like this but you werenât going to say anything about it and just decided to leave it as it was.
Holding handsâit was such a simple thing but Megumiâs heart felt like it was racing. He was proud of himself for initiating things but boy was his heart pounding.
But feeling his skin against yours was so nice; feeling the warmth of your hand against his, it was so comforting. Goodness, he loved you so much. He just didnât know how to say it sometimes.
The two of you held hands until you got back to the school. Nobara and Yuji rushed inside, not wanting to be out in the heat anymore while you and Megumi took your time getting inside. Sometimes you believed Nobara and Yuji shared one brain cell between each otherâand they probably did, to be honest.
Megumiâs hand fell from yours when you got inside, which was okay, you were going to sit down to cool off anyway.
You made your way inside and to one of the rooms, walking over to one of the couches. Thankfully you had nothing else going on for the rest of the day so you could just practically pass out on the couch for a little while.
Before you sat down, you looked at Megumi, who was just standing there looking at you. âYou okay, sweetheart?â You asked, slightly confused. He had been acting odd all day and it confused you. What was going on?
Again, no reply. Instead, you felt his hands suddenly grab your waist and pull you close to him, his arms enveloping you in a big hug. You stood there stunned for a moment before wrapping your arms around him tightly. It was clear that he really needed this hug.
âMegumiâ,â You spoke but he cut you off.
âDonât say anything.â He said softly, âJust donât say anything.â He breathed out, not wanting to be asked any questions right now. All he wanted to do was hold you.
With you still in his arms, he moved and sat down on the couch, putting you on his lap and burying his face into the crook of your neck. It was so comforting, so nice. He just wanted to stay like this forever, in the safety and comfort of your arms.
You were still stunned that he was doing this but you didnât question a thing, continuing to keep your arms locked tightly around him. Eventually, your hand made its way up to his scalp, gently raking your nails through his hair. You could feel him practically melt into your touch and you let out a little chuckle.
âCute,â You mumbled, your voice could barely be heard.
Megumi let out a little huff and just kept his arms around you, his cheeks warm from embarrassment.
You werenât sure how long you two were like that and eventually, you had somehow shifted to where the both of you were laying down, still holding each other in your arms. Megumi had practically fallen asleep, comfortably cuddled up right in your arms.
And he wouldâve fallen asleepâhad Yuji not walked into the room and seen the two of you lying together on the couch. Poor, innocent Yuji who could physically never bring himself to be quiet. âOoh, Fushiguro! Getting comfortable with [name] there huh?â He said lightheartedly, thinking nothing of it. He really was just teasing.
Within an instant, Megumi was sitting up with an unamused expression, reaching to grab the nearest thing he could, his face pink and flushed âShut up!â
Yuji was out of that room within seconds, just barely dodging the magazine Megumi had thrown at him.
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FIRST DATE ETIQUETTE (p.sh)
Park Sunghoon is not dull, nor is he the clean cut neighbor your mother thinks he is. Oh, the horrors of if she found out that the man she set you up on this date with immediately took you home and rendered you unable to walk...he'd never be able to defend himself without a swift slap to the head.
ážážáž minors do not interact!Â
ážážáž PARING: Â park sunghoon x afab reader
ážážážWC: 9.3k
ážážáž TAGS: mentions of food (meat), strangers to fucking immediately to the possibility of dating later, brat taming, mocking and making fun of each other, sneaky sex, flirting and bullying in the same instance, cocky sunghoon, umâŠtheyâre kind of competitive in bed
ážážáž A/N: whatâs that? youâve read this before? thatâs bc i wrote it! Iâve revised the original now to fit sunghoon because I am insatiable in my lust for him. (original title: the bore next door)
smut tags under cut::âââ
SMUT TAGS: dom sunghoon, bratty/sub reader, huge cock agenda (again), he gets the best head heâs ever had, he calls you messy a lot (he likes it messy), face fucking, pussy eating, nipple biting, finger fucking, squirting, dirty talk, wow i canât believe I actually wrote a condom being used this time!!!!, sunghoon tries to make you moan because his horny brain wants your parents to know, dirty talk, praise, hair pulling.
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23rd street. The restaurant is on 23rd street, and you can honestly say youâve managed to hit every street but this one. From 13th to 35th, does the street in question even truly exist? Were you set up by your parents?
In short, you have been single since high school. Maybe a few flings here or there throughout college but you never truly settled on one man or woman in a relationship. Youâre almost shocked that your parents are pushing so hard for you to find love. They want you to somehow feel the love from the movies, something like they had felt when they met. In this century, unfortunately, love isnât quite as predictable.
 You canât just pick a person who has a good job and a decent face and assume love will settle in someday.Â
Not only is it not predictable but it isnât a priority in your life. You have no interest in meeting the standard a man could hold for you, nor a woman, or family member. Youâre here to exist in your own way, work your way up through the corporate food chain, and live in a home with over thirteen cats before dying a peaceful death in your late eighties. Why do you need a man to do any of this? Why do you need to settle for one cock, one set of hands, and one personality?
Right, because mom wants you to at least try to experience what love is. Surely, itâs just because she desperately wants a grandchild from her one and only daughter. Sorry to disappoint, but that will not happen any time soon. Children were never a thought in your mind, nor was marriage, a honeymoon, or a burial plot next to another person. Your mother knows this, but the least you can do is show some effort to please her, right? To prove that relationships just arenât your thing, and youâd much rather have the funds to live a comfortable life all on your own.
23rd street is the small thumb tack on a map where there is a restaurant that holds a very, very, annoying arrangement.Â
Your mother had really sold the idea to you. She says the nice neighbor boy next to her seems to be around your age, he brings her the mail sometimes. He seems to have a job, his own car, his own home that sits in a plot next to theirs. His lawn stays mowed, the siding on his house stays clean, and apparently he seems quite lonely considering your mother appears to have watched him enough to know he doesnât bring any girls home.
At least that sheâs aware of.
She doesnât mention what he looks like and of course, when youâd asked because, in all honesty, thatâs the most important thing to you if youâre going to get anything out of this, she simply states that he dresses well, is handsome, and has dark hair.
For all you know, she just set you up on a date with Antonio Banderas.Â
What you werenât expecting though, is to find this restaurant almost an hour late and walk in to find an already half-eaten meal in front of a man who looked at you as if you were any stranger on the street.
 A stranger you were, and so was he, but honestly, he is attractive. That alone made you feel a bit guilty for not having found this place sooner. The idea that the man in front of you did not wait for you shows that he also has priorities that arenât you. This is probably a huge inconvenience for him too, if anything.Â
Imagine your nice neighbor lady telling you to go to a restaurant to meet her daughter? God. The first words out of your mouth are an apology. Not for being late, and not for not even wanting to be here, but for your mother for even trying.
âSorry about my mom,â you mutter, plopping down into the booth with a sigh. You eye over his food, already knowing that the check will likely be split. âLetâs just get this over with.â
âWhy the rush?â The man immediately says, pushing an untouched glass of water your way. âI donât mind that you were late, I was just really hungry.â
You hum at him, waiting for the waitress to come over so you can place the most obnoxious order in the world because youâre really not in the mood to even look at the menu or the prices. Chicken strips and fries, obviously.
âSo, what did you order?â You state, eyeing his plate.Â
âSteak?â He says it like a question, as if it is the most obvious thing in the world and it definitely is. Clearly there is a half-eaten steak that probably costs over twenty dollars on his plate. Still, you were just trying to make small talk.
The man says nothing after this, offering nothing but an awkward atmosphere. It doesnât take long at all for you to stop caring about the entire arrangement, as if you cared in the first place.
âLookââ You try to offer, and the handsome man in front of you doesnât even quirk a brow as he sips his own drink. âI donât even remember your name, and I know my mom is trying to set us up butââ
âYouâre not interested, and you have better places to be?â The man finishes for you as he sits his drink down with a gulp that makes much less sound than your own. âThatâs fair. My name is Sunghoon, by the way.â
You nod at him, already deciding that youâll get chicken strips somewhere else on your own so that you can eat them in the comfort of your own home, alone, without a stupidly handsome man in front of you that has, probably, less interest than you do.
âWell, Iâm interested, and I donât have anywhere better to be,â Sunghoon says, shooting his eyes up at you. âAnd to be quite honest with you, your mother was right. You are pretty.âÂ
Taken aback, youâre somehow comforted by his forwardness towards you. He acts just as uninterested as you do but counters that demeanor with his words. You canât imagine that this is how the man picks up women, thereâs honestly no way he would win that way. No wonder he is single. Then again, you kind of do the same thing. You see an attractive person and you act much the same as Sunghoon right now. Uninterested in anything long-term but clearly interested in something.Â
âIâm pretty, huh?â You laugh, sipping the water and internally giving this man an extra three minutes to fully sell the idea of this date to you. âImagine my surprise to walk in and find that I was set up on a date with someone that is actually attractive.â
âOh?â Sunghoon quirks a brow. âIs this how you return a compliment?âÂ
You shrug.Â
âIs this how a date normally goes for youâyou know, where youâve already eaten your food and would probably rather pay and leave before she even gets a chance to order?â
âNo,â he responds pointedly. âWould you rather me throw a tantrum that you were late?â
âYouâd be a lot less dull if you did.â You throw back, eyeing a waitress as she heads over.Â
Sunghoon watches as you place your order and watches a bit harder at the way you smirk at yourself through nearly everything you say. You must think youâre clever, you must think heâs willing to chase you or something.
âIâm dull?â He questions, staring you down with narrowed eyes when the waitress walks away. âYou just ordered chicken strips at one of the most expensive restaurants in town.â
Youâre taken aback a bit, shaking off his little insults and sitting straight up. Interesting date, truly.
âOkay then, Sunghoonââ You say his name as if itâs a joke or something, but you donât really let him react to it. âWhat do you do for a living?â
âIâm a systems software developer,â he deadpans, swirling his very nonalcoholic water in his hand. âNot that youâd know what that is or anything. And you?â
In all honesty, you donât really know what that means, but it isnât hard to figure it out. Assuming he must make programs or something, assuming he probably flew through college in order to do it in the way he seems proud of what he does. In all honesty, it still sounds like such a bore. He must talk in code or something in his free time.Â
âIâmâuhâIâm a teacher.â You try to laugh, realizing that youâre kind of putting him down when he very clearly must make more money than you do.Â
Only now does it set in that your mother stated he has his own home. One that sits directly beside theirs in a neighborhood that you grew up in. One that you tried to find your own home in but ended up in a shitty apartment in the city because it is all you could afford. Sunghoon must make good money.Â
âOh yeah? What do you teach?â He perks up in interest, no longer acting as if he is trying to insult you and instead offering conversation to you with such ease that you almost forget youâre supposed to be getting through the date in discomfort.Â
âI teach everything, I guess. Itâs just first grade. I swear, I teach them how to pull up their pants properly more than how to spell words.â You smile to yourself thinking of the loud and obnoxious children you teach five days a week.Â
Your job is why you donât want children though. Your job is why youâd rather stay single. All you hear about is how the third-grade english teacher is fucking the fifth-grade science teacher even though he has a wife who is pregnant with their second child. Sometimes you hear gossip about the students themselves. Who in their right mind as an adult would gossip about elementary school kids? Itâs no wonder youâre not a favored teacher. Youâre sure theyâve said something about you for not having a significant other or a child on the way too.Â
Sunghoon smiles through your endearment towards your class, eyes perking up at the plate of chicken strips on their way to you. He doesnât say much when you thank the waitress and doesnât really pay attention to the way you devour the first strip in nearly one bite.Â
âSeems like a lively job. I just sit around all day staring at a computer screenâŠâ He begins to drone on about his own job, sounding more like background noise in your head if youâre being honest. You can barely hear him over the crunching of your chicken and youâre a bit thankful for that.
âAnd I think that it was really worth theââ You interrupt his long string of sentences with a call of his name. âSunghoon, do you have any other interests?â You ask, sipping your water.
He deadpans at your rudeness of interrupting him. Sunghoon doesnât often go out on dates, nor does he often get asked about these types of things so, he goes quiet, flicking his eyes down to his hands and then back up to you.
âI like to go hiking, I guess? Watching movies? Sometimes I like to cookââ
Ah. Heâs one of those guys.Â
âThose are like, the most common interests a person can have. You donât have any special hobbies or weird quirky things you like to do?â You question, trying to see something in him past the fact that heâs nice to look at and has a decent paycheck.Â
âI donât really have the time to put into other things. When Iâm not working, Iâm busy cleaning my house or doing yard work since Iâm usually too tired during the week to do it.â
âGod, you are such a bore.âÂ
Sunghoon realizes now that maybe youâre not just throwing around banter. Sure, neither of you really wanted to come on this date but he could have used the time away from a computer screen to look at his neighborâs daughter. If anything, it was an interesting offer, and those donât come by him too often. He had seen photos of you. He knew you were pretty, and he also should have known you were a bit stubborn with the way your mother warned him before the date.
âIf I was so boring, would I be sitting here on a date with a woman I donât know?â He glares over at you.Â
âI donât know, probably. It isnât the riskiest thing in the world. What? You donât have tinder?â
Sunghoon looks down again, because no, he doesnât have fucking tinder and he doesnât understand why that matters. âWhy does that matter?ïżœïżœÂ
âAh, so we are similar.â You smile to yourself in a small win, and youâre not even sure if itâs even an argument at this point. âNo time for hobbies, so no time for dating either?âÂ
He nods slowly at you, completely confused by the way you go from picking his personality apart to finding some way to connect with him.Â
âWe can wrap this up then if you want?â You offer, still picking at the food on your plate. âI can pay for mine, so I release you from this arrangement.âÂ
He just sits there staring at you. What a peculiar woman. Do you really assume he isnât somehow finding the fun in all of this? In all honesty, this date is going off without a hitch compared to many other dates heâs been on. He has never been on a date where he is criticized, nor has he ever criticized a date himself before.
 Itâs almost kind of nice, like a breath of fresh air being able to meet someone who isnât trying to show their best aspects. Someone who is sitting in front of him being as real as they possibly can be. Sure, youâre attractive, but your lack of interest in this date is somehowâflooring.
âWhat if I want to stay?â He makes eye contact with you. âWhat if I want to pay for your overcooked chicken?âÂ
âIâd be letting you win if you pay for me, but youâre free to stay.â You wave him off with your hand, realizing that the chicken is very dry and wasnât hitting the spot like youâd been pretending. âSo, what now then?â You add with a tilt of the head.Â
âAdmitting Iâm interested in you?â He says it with so much confidence that youâre a little bit surprised, because this entire time youâve been trying to act as uninterested as possible, despite finding some amount of attraction to Sunghoon.
âPoor you,â You coo, pushing your plate away from you and pulling your almost-empty water closer. âOkay, letâs try and make this worth something then.âÂ
Sunghoon prepares himself to listen, but honestly, he couldnât have prepared for what youâre about to say to him.
âNeither of us are looking for anything serious right?â You ask, continuing after he nods. âSo,â you pause briefly, thinking a bit too hard on how to word it. âWhy donât we just treat it like a tinder date?â
Youâre definitely implying that the night could continue together, only to never speak of or see each other again after the sun rises.Â
âAre you suggesting I bring you home with me?â He looks at you with a face you canât really read.Â
âIsnât that what people do when theyâre on a date, find each other attractive, but want nothing more?â You reiterate for him, because he seems to have trouble processing what youâre trying to get across to him. âUnless this isnât your thing?â
Sunghoon pulls his hand up and pushes his hair out of his face for a moment. Heâs thinking about it, barely even realizing that youâve known each other for less than an hour.
âI didnât take you for the type of fuck on the first date.â He cocks his head, looking at you in a lazy way.
It feels a little painful that the first curse word he says out loud is describing something that involves you and your offer.Â
âIâm not, usually, but it has been a while for me and I canât help but think we could have fun with it.â
He nods, eyeing you down. âDo you want to drive to my house then? Or do I need to bring you back to get your car?â
âNah, I can drive. I know where you live, considering I grew up next door and all. I can just crash at my parentâs house once we are done.â
Sunghoon kind of shifts his eyes nervously, looking down at the table and then back at you with a lick against his bottom lip. âSpeaking of, your parentsââ He pauses, fiddling with his hands. âLook, they probably wouldnât expect me to be the type to uh, get intimate with their daughter on the first date.â
âOnly date,â you correct him, amused. âWhat, you thought we would meet again after this?â
Sunghoon waves you off dismissively. âThatâs not the point. I donât want my neighbors thinking Iâm some fuckboy, and Iâd rather them not find out because Iâm sure your mom would slap the shit out of me the next time I bring her the mail.â
âSunghoonââ You snort in a mocking tone. âMy mom set you up on a date with me, youâre gonna take me home and show me a good time within an hour of meeting me. Imagine if she found out youâre not as sweet and innocent as she thinksââ
His face goes warm, but his eyes darken a bit as he looks at you. âListen, I donât usually do this.âÂ
âWell yeah, you seem too boring to actually have some fun.âÂ
Offense taken.Â
And when he says nothing else to that, you speak up again, this time a bit more gentle.Â
âDonât feel like you have to. I can go home and we can pretend this never happened.â
âNo, no,â Sunghoon assures, making eye contact with the waitress as if to silently ask for the check. âI could use the distraction.âÂ
He was slim when he stood up, obnoxiously attractive getting into his stupidly expensive car, and even the way he drove in front of you pissed you off. He drove the speed limit all the way to the familiar street of your childhood. What a boring, boring man.
When he pulls into his driveway, you arenât sure if you should park at his house or your own. You realize if you park at either your parents will wonder why youâre parking in their driveway but not in their living room, or wonder why youâre parked in the clean-cut Sunghoonâs driveway because he would never fuck their daughter on the first date.Â
You opt to park a block away, walking to Sunghoonâs house and feeling a bit silly for hiding.Â
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âFitting,â you say as you step into his living room and scan the way he is entirely boring.
âWhat?â He asks from behind you, watching you judge his space.
âVery monotonous, very you.â
Sunghoon sighs at your constant critiques of him, but heâs smiling through it because youâre still here, and youâre the one who suggested coming home with him.
âIâve gotta say, Iâve never brought a woman home just to have her insult me,â he laughs, stepping around you and placing his jacket on the end of the couch. âI can imagine that your place hasnât been cleaned since you moved in.â
You glare at him, slipping your own jacket off and throwing it on his floor out of spite.
âI am a comfortable mess, Sunghoon, and youââ you scan the room once more, âare very clearly uncomfortable.â
He shifts his eyes for a second because, yeah. Itâs not that he wouldnât enjoy having colorful photos on the walls or a couple of knick-knacks lying around. Arguing about it isnât your purpose for being here though, and heâd much rather skip the banter at this point.
âI can admit that your jacket looks good on my floor,â he takes a step forward, attempting to be as bold as he typically would be with a woman who knows how he is in bed. Heâs never had to play off of his own cleanliness though. âIâm willing to make a mess of this house if you take more off.â
Oh, okay.
âOh, so you can be interesting?â You mock him once again, reaching for the hem of your dress (yes, dress.) and looking at him. âYou want to see my clothes on your floor?â
Sunghoon watches you intently, seeing your thighs being exposed more and more as the dress raises. His body is already reacting, becoming more attracted to your witty sense of displeasure toward his entire personality and lifestyle. After all, heâs a computer whizz and you deal with screaming children all day. He wonders why he expected anything less. Little do you know though, he fully intends to have you praising him before the night is up.
âIâd like to see you on my floor,â he answers, reaching for your dress and pulling it up further and above your head. âIf Iâm being honest, anyway.â
You were trying to go slow with the removal of your dress, mostly to see how he reacts to seeing a woman nearly naked in front of him but damn. You werenât quite expecting how forward heâs being about it. Here you were expecting to be fucked missionary without any foreplay in a bed with all white sheets, right next to a washer and dryer, socks on, lights off.Â
âOh,â you gasp, slightly out of character in his opinion but his body reacts even more to that. Heâs already allowing himself to get aroused so, naturally, his confidence is also bubbling up through each thought and word he decides to say to you.Â
âWhat, youâre shocked?â He laughs, dropping your dress to the floor and scanning your body. âI can admit that Iâm a little shocked too.âÂ
You look at him in confusion, moving your arms over your chest and wondering what the fuck heâs talking about.Â
âYou wore a matching set for a first date? With a complete stranger?â He mocks you this time, stepping even closer and running his fingers along the hem of your bra. You can feel the warmth from his thumb gently rubbing the skin as he does it and instantly your body tells on you in the form of goosebumps.Â
âIâll have you know,â youâre the one stepping closer this time, âI always wear matching sets, because I like to feel sexy.âÂ
Youâre a liar. You definitely wore them just in case.
He hums, mere inches from your face as he looks down at you. It feels like heâs fucking looming, it feels like he must have his heat set too high or something.
 It gets even worse when his eyes donât leave yours, but you feel his hand drop from your chest only to hear the familiar sound of a belt being unbuckled. He stares at you while he does it, his hair falling in his face at the movement of what heâs doing waist down. For some reason, that does it for you, and youâre already rubbing your legs together as you stare right back at him.Â
âI think thatâs bullshit,â he smirks, slipping his belt from the loops of his pants and tossing that to the floor as well, and then he brings his face another inch closer, âand donât think I canât tell that youâre turned on.âÂ
You donât back down, nor do you admit that heâs absolutely right. You just look at him, watching a strand of his hair fall in front of his eyes that are beginning to darken by the second.Â
âIâm not turned on, believe me, itâll take a lot more thanââ Youâre cut off by him planting his hand directly between your legs, two fingers pressing your panties slightly into you.Â
âHm?â He encourages you to say that again, but youâve got your breath caught in your throat at his extreme change in demeanor.
Still, heâs looking directly at your face, watching the way you try to think of a lie.Â
âYou wanna keep pretending that Iâm boring?â He asks, sliding his fingers up and pressing against your clit.Â
You shake your head, finally dropping the act and blinking at him with empty thoughts.Â
âThatâs what I thought,â He ticks his tongue at you, now pulling his fingers away and showing you that even through your panties, his fingers are already soaked. âNow take the rest off.â
You do as he says, watching him step away with his shirt untucked and his pants undone. You note that he grabs a condom, which for some reason reminds you that youâre definitely about to get railed into the next dimension if that bulge behind those pants implies anything.Â
Standing there with all of your clothes thrown around his living room, you watch him harder than you already had been. Heâs slow when he sets the condom down on the table, and even slower when he walks up to you and places a hand on the top of your head before guiding you to sink down.
âWhaâright here?â You ask, feeling the clean carpet offer relief for your knees rather than the hard wood floors of the room over.Â
âI said I wanted to see you on my floor, didnât I?â He smiles, already admiring how shameful youâd appear to be if your parents saw you naked and on your knees for him.Â
You nod, looking up at him. When you reach forward to actually lower his pants though, he steps back and continues to create distance between the two of you as he backs himself up to the wall and lounges against it.Â
âCrawl to me,â he instructs, wondering if itâs too much for you but letting out a pleased sound of relief when you instantly do it.
Would you normally let a man tell you to do that? No. Would you ever actually listen to a man who speaks to you like this? Fuck no. You canât defend your actions when you do it and you also canât lie that youâre absolutely fucking dripping over it. Like, honestly, heâs going to have to deep clean this fucking carpet by the time you leave this house.Â
When you reach him, you can feel the heat in your cheeks at the very idea of him from this angle. You sit on your knees, lifting your hands to his pants and lowering them before he can try to draw the process out even longer. You can hear him let out a short chuckle at the way you try to be quick with it, and you already know heâs about to say some shit.
âI didnât expect you to be this eager.â He talks down to you with a deep and raspy voice, one that sounds entirely sensual. In terms of what he says though, honestly, you shouldnât expect much more considering how the two of you practically roasted each other before this very instant.Â
You ignore his words, letting his pants drop to the floor and now reaching to pull his briefs down. You were incredibly unprepared for his size as you watched it stand stiff and raging in front of your face. Not a single hint of precum is seen, and it makes you feel kind of pathetic for how wet youâve already gotten. It almost feels like a challenge now, to make him feel just as desperate as you do now.Â
Thankfully, your throat is fairly trained for sucking men until theyâre trembling. Hopefully, all those dudes youâve fucked around with before come in handy and donât let you down this time around.Â
Sunghoon watches you from above, smiling over the way you stare at his length before finally touching it. He keeps his cool though, wondering how just over an hour ago you were ordering the worst food a restaurant has to offer, scoffing at his job, his hobbies, and now look at you. What a sight.Â
âGo on,â he encourages you, pressing his hips forward so that the head of his cock hits your cheek, âlet me see how messy you are.â
You roll your eyes at him, gripping the base before closing your eyes and breathing in through your nose. The very second you wrap your lips around him, he has both hands on your head, not moving it, not pushing you down or anything, just resting there. Youâd think it was sweet if it werenât for the fact that he pushes his hips forward after four whole seconds.
So, heâs not going to guide your mouth, heâs going to hold it there? Okay, you guess. Thankfully, heâs not being super rough with it like you anticipated. If anything, heâs sliding himself into your mouth much as youâd do on your own.Â
He hums out at the feeling of your inner cheeks hugging against his length, pressing in more and more with each thrust of his hips until he finally gets the majority of his length past your lips. He can see you breathe through your nose, but he doesnât feel resistance at all so he presses his hips in even more, essentially until heâs blocking your airways and your throat is restricted around him in a gag.Â
Instead of pulling your head back though, he feels your fingers grip the back of his legs, youâre trying. He holds your head there in place, feeling your throat massage his cock in probably one of the best ways heâs ever felt.Â
âShit,â he seethes out between a bite of his lip, âyouâve done this before?âÂ
The very thought of you letting your throat be used is enough for him to want to keep doing it, but hearing your response as a half-moaned gag vibrating around his length is a whole other story.Â
He releases his hands from behind your head just to see if what he thinks youâre implying with those vibrations of sounds is right, and god is he thrown for a loop. You stay there, and even when he pulls his hips back before fucking into your throat once more, you still stay there.
Heâs going to lose his goddamn mind because never has a woman been able to withstand this amount in their throat for this long for him. Enough to actually have him a little worried that youâre essentially suffocating on him.Â
Sunghoon snaps his hips back, pulling out of your mouth and leaning down just a bit to grab your chin and guide your eyes up to him.Â
âBreathe,â he says, watching the way you smirk at him as if youâve won some sort of award. He narrows his eyes at you, âYou can choke all you want babe, but youâre gonna have to not be this cock drunk if you want to pretend that youâve got the upper hand.â
That motherfucker. Youâre trying to make him show just a hint of desperation for you and he completely flips the tables on you?Â
Before you can even argue again, heâs guiding your lips back on him. You decide that itâs not over yet, he can talk down to you all he wants, but youâre going to be the one laughing at him by the end of the night.Â
You allow him to place his hands back on your head, and you kind of like the weight of his cock on your tongue if youâre being honest, but god damn does he have a harsh rhythm. His hips snap languidly but he buries himself deep. Even when you try to look up at him as your nose presses against his pubic bone, heâs looking down at you so casually. Like he feels okay. Just okay.Â
This time, when he pulls his hips back, he doesnât have to hold your head steady. You chase his length even as it tries to slide from your mouth, and you start to move your head back and forth in time with his hips. You finally receive a moan from him when you reach a hand up and cup his balls, massaging them in one hand as your saliva bubbles out from around your lips.
âSo fucking messyââ he chokes out in a surprised moan, praising you for somehow making this feel even better than it already did.Â
You hum around him again, feeling the weight of his cock pulse against your tongue and you start to taste more of his precum. Shamefully, youâre starting to want this more and more. You want him to call you messy, you want him to bruise your throat. You donât mind, now that youâve seen a snippet of what heâs like when he shows his pleasure.
Just a moment goes by when you feel his hands grip your hair, pulling slightly and following the rhythm of your movements, just putting a bit more force behind them until he finally presses you one last time against his pelvic bone, swirling his hips and stretching out your throat impossibly more around him.Â
âJust like that, yeah,â his moans echo throughout his empty walls and it causes your eyes to flutter as you try to breathe in through your nose. When you gag, he moans again. âFuck, you know exactly what youâre doing.â
Then, he releases you and watches with a smirk at the way you pull back in a deep breath before wiping your mouth.Â
Youâre not sure why, but the way heâs looking at you makes you feel proud. Maybe itâs because heâs managed to pull out this weird, needy side of you, or maybe itâs because he looks incredibly good looking at you like this after the two of you spit insults at each other all night.Â
âDo you want me to return the favor?â He asks, finally unbuttoning and removing his shirt.
Seeing him now, you stare at his chest and toned arms, wanting to grab onto them and feel him do whatever it is he wants to do to you. He, on the other hand, canât tell if youâre nodding to his question or looking him up and down slowly.Â
âYou were so talkative earlier, what happened?â He smiles, stepping forward and falling to his knees himself, nudging your legs open in one go as he presses you back against his floor. âDo you want to fuck my tongue, or no?â
He continues to smile at your silence, eyes trained between your legs as he spreads them and then looks up at your face. âNo?âÂ
You shake your head, leaning back on your elbows to watch him and take a breath in.
âItâs hard to talk when youâre like,â you motions towards him, âthat.â
He chuckles, taking it as a compliment before snatching a pillow off of his couch and tapping your thigh to get you to lift up. You do so, allowing him to place the pillow under your ass before he settles himself there.
His eyes stay locked on yours as his fingers start to trail to your core, slipping through your folds with such ease that your embarrassment shows plainly on your face.Â
âMessy,â he compliments, lightly tapping against your clit before lowering his head and blowing softly against the glistening heat you offer to him. âKeep your legs spread for me, darling.â
You still watch him, his eyes glaring up from between your spread thighs as he lets his tongue fall from his mouth and lick one long and languid stripe up your slit, stopping just before your clit and pulling back as if heâs tasting. Youâre not sure what it is about him but goddamn, he must know he looks good when heâs pleasuring a woman.Â
Despite him asking you to keep your legs spread for him, it appears that he doesnât trust you to do it because heâs still got one hand prying one of your legs apart and his head moving in all sorts of ways as he allows his tongue to lap every part of you besides your clit. Even his other hand, exploring and gently placing pressure against your entranceâ the way heâs doing this makes you want to press forward, it makes you want to do exactly as he asked.Â
You roll your hips forward, and he instantly attaches his lips to your clit. You stop, and he trails back down and flicks his tongue against your folds in a teasing way. You grind forward, heâs right back on your clit, flicking his muscle the same way and eliciting a whine from you.Â
This time though, when you roll your hips back, he takes both hands and presses your legs open as far as he can get them, spreading your pussy out across his lips for him to take full control of. He nips at your clit before licking down, pressing the pointed muscle into you and only then does he release your legs. Now, heâs sliding both hands under your ass and rocking you against his face, angling his head so that he can lick inside to taste your plush and wet walls.
God, youâre gonna lose it. Even if you didnât want to, youâd think the way heâs moving his mouth is enough to get anyone to take advantage of it. You moan, pressing forward and back against his mouth as your own fingers fall to your clit. You rub when you press forward, feeling his warm and wet saliva drip from your slit and down to your ass, and you rub harder when you pull back, watching his eyes flutter open and still somehow manage to glare at you.
And just as soon as it started, you blink and his face is right there. You would have let out a shocked sound, because jumpscare much? But you moan instead, because he hovers over you with a smirk and an arm between the two of you, his fingers instantly sliding into you as he attaches his lips to yours with little more than a moan of his own.Â
âHave you ever tasted yourself?â He asks, licking against your lips and scissoring his fingers open inside of you.
You have, but for some reason it tasted better this time when he prods his tongue against yours. Perhaps itâs because itâs from him, or maybe itâs because you are a little obsessed with the way he navigates sex.Â
When he pulls back from your mouth, now losing himself a little bit in the heat of the faces you make when you feel good, he canât help but give you a moan along with your own. You sound so fucking good when youâre not talking your shit, and god he knew that mouth could do more than be annoying.Â
âOpen up,â he whispers against your lips, licking your bottom lip as he thrusts his fingers deeper into you, âlet me hear you.â
You canât really help it. When you open your mouth, youâre practically panting for him. His arm is moving harshly as he fucks his fingers into you and causing you to nearly lose balance on your elbows, but he holds you there with his other arm wrapped around your waist, still licking against your lip and smirking when you still canât say anything.Â
âLouder,â He instructs, at least wanting you to moan louder for him if youâre going to act like this when heâs touching you. âLet your momma hear how good it feels, babe, go on.âÂ
Your eyes shoot open after that, and god, he is the fucking worst. Or maybe not, you can tell he does it on purpose. His fingers curling up inside of you and putting intense pressure against a spot that takes every man ages to find if they manage to even remember it.
âSunghoon,â you groan, rolling your eyes back while rolling your hips forward, hand shooting to his and holding it there, âcanât you just fuck me already?â
He chuckles, dipping his head down to give a sharp bite against your nipple, his fingers still curling up into that spot.Â
âSoak my fingers first.â He says, floored by how good your voice sounds when you want to get fucked.Â
He continues to suck and bite against your nipple, and that sends shocks of pleasure straight down to where his fingers meet your g-spot. You could come right now if heâd justâ
You roll your hips forward harder, grinding your clit against his wrist and essentially fucking yourself on his fingers now. He moans against your nipple at the movement, biting down harder as he hears you just above him holding your breath. It seems like you like not being able to breath, which is just fucking great for him. Your mom would be so heartbroken, honestly.Â
âYou think you can ride my cock like this?â He asks, popping your nipple out of his mouth and moving those bites up your neck and to your ear, âThink you can take it?â
You nod with heat rushing through your body, feeling his wrist stiffen up for your pleasure to grind against.Â
Fuck, he can feel your cunt gripping his fingers as you work yourself up and it takes everything in him not to pull his fingers from you and absolutely bury himself into the tight heat youâre offering, but he holds back, pulling from your neck and watching the way your brows furrow and your mouth falls slack.
âYeah, thatâs it babe, ride it.â he encourages, hearing your wet slide against his fingers with each movement of your body.
You shake as it washes through you, feeling his fingers remain in their spot against your little bundle of pleasure inside of you. You feel like you can explode from this alone and he practically forces it out of you, pulling his fingers out and immediately rubbing circles on your clit.Â
âLet it go for me,â he encourages in a pleasured sigh, watching your body tremble involuntarily as your face contorts to what anyone else would assume is pain. He moves further back and watches your body soak both him and his floor. âFuck, yes, such a fucking mess.â
Well, thatâs never happened before and the fact that youâre still orgasming is also new. You feel so sensitive, releasing in waves that offer little in terms of self control. Your hands shoot to his arm, gripping him so tightly as you try to hear his moans for you, but to be honest, you canât hear a fucking thing through this wall of arousal in your head.Â
Finally, you open your eyes and heâs just looking at you, smirking at the dripping against his legs and the wet spot on the floor.Â
âMessy, messy girl.â He says with a chuckle. âDirtying up my living room like this? Come on, get up.â
This is the first time Sunghoon has ever had a woman squirt for him, and honestly heâs been trying for ages to let someone experience this through him, goddamn was it sexy to see. You look absolutely fucking gone at this moment, and he might be fucking in love with the image. So badly does he want to see those shaking legs try to stand for him, so badly, does he want to see you fucking buckle.
âCome on,â he says again, not giving you enough time to even think about standing before heâs pulling you up on wobbling legs and pressing your toward the couch.
He watches how you wobble over, shuffling your feet with your knees turned inward with each step. He canât help but lick his lips, seeing how your arousal drips down both of your legs in a shameless show of how much his fingers alone could do for you.Â
âSorry,â You rasp out as you make your way over, brain fogged from the orgasm and unable to feel much at all outside of the pulsing inside of you. âIâve neverââ
âDonât worry, I like the mess.â He smiles, snatching up the condom and tearing the wrapper open with ease before rolling it down his length, staring at you.
Oh, right, he still hasnât even fucked you yet. Fuck, heâs good.
He sits himself next to you, pulling an arm around your waist and guiding you on top of him. He doesnât even think twice at your shaking legs, soothing them as you follow his hand and position yourself against his long neglected cock being held up with his other hand.Â
âGonna keep that promise?â he asks, still smoothing his hands over your legs and looking up at you. âGonna take my cock better than you did my fingers?âÂ
You nod, feeling a pulse of electricity inside of you. Willing you to take more, wanting to be stretched further.
Besides, you know that once youâre seated with his length fucking impaling you, youâll at least have his broad shoulders to hold onto if you need to stay steady. Â
And when you sink down, you hear the sound youâve been trying to pull from him all night. He lets out a soft moan, almost a whimper if you think hard enough about it, and it ignites a brand new fire in you as you take him in inch by inch. Feeling the searing stretch offer a bit of pain despite the sheer amount of wet you have collected between your legs.Â
He can feel you clench around him in the attempt to adjust, and your legs shaking only offer even more in terms of pleasure as you envelope him entirely with your heat. He canât help but moan, almost unable to keep up his dominant persona with a pussy so sweet wrapped around him. God, he loves blind dates, honestly.Â
âMhm,â he hums, rubbing both of his hands now against your thighs as you sit yourself flush against him and wait to adjust to his size, âI definitely like you.â
You fall forward with a small laugh, the irony of the situation a bit too much on top of your mind falling helplessly and embarrassingly fast at how lucky you are to have a mother to set you up with such a man.Â
Heâs a bit soft at this moment, wrapping both arms around your waist and listening to your breathless laughs against his neck. Loving the way each inhaled chuckle forces your body to squeeze his cock delightfully tight.Â
God, Youâre pretty, and so fucking annoying. Just his type.Â
âIâm still going to fuck you senseless though.â he finally says, feeling your body still at his words as you lift a bit, just to slide back down on him.
âIs that a promise?â You ask weakly, pretending that he didnât already manage to do it with his hands alone.Â
He nods, the softness in his eyes disappearing instantly when he feels the drag of your cunt hug his length. He doesnât hold back his moaning for you this time though, and he shows no shame in slapping your ass, and guiding you even closer to his chest.Â
You stand on your knees a bit on top of him, watching his eyes zone in on your tits in his face. Hopefully, heâs going to keep that promise too.
His hips snap up harshly as his hands grope your ass and spread you apart. He snaps his hips again and again, nearly pulling his entire length out of you each time just to fill you up once again. Stretching you open and loosening you up, the pleasure of it hitting him right in the throat each time with small grunts against your nipple when you bounce at the movement.Â
You whimper out, the sounds still echoing throughout his house along with the sounds of your thighs slapping against his. His grunts are deeper, and all of the sounds together sound like a desperate soundtrack of what youâve always wished sex was like. He fucks you good, despite your legs still shaking, and despite the pain of his teeth biting against your skin now.Â
You canât help it when you fall forward again, hugging around his head as he starts to relentlessly fuck into you at a faster pace, the thrusts going from slow and deep to tight and pointed. His thick cock easily pressing against that same spot his fingers had been teasing earlier. You choke out at the feeling, legs jolting and causing you to sit again out of sensitivity.
He doesnât falter at your failure to stay in position for him, and instead he gropes your ass harder, swirling your hips around him. You can feel how hard he is inside of you, splitting you open and pulsing at a near constant pace.Â
âRide it,â he instructs, much like he did with his fingers and you follow suit, lifting just slightly and sliding back down again. âHarder,â he demands, pulling his head from your grasp and looking up at you with a wild smirk.Â
You look down at him, wondering how pitiful you must look up here. He appears to be loving it though, absolutely in love with the way you struggle to do what you swore youâd be able to.Â
Trying again, you begin to bounce on him and he grants you his fingers on your clit for that, moaning at your own choice of rhythm and leaning forward yet again to pop his presumed favorite nipple back into his mouth.
The ministrations of his fingers paired with his mouth sends you spiraling once again into a world of pleasure. The shaking in your legs become more of a driving factor than anything as you ride him better than youâve ever ridden anyone.
Finally, heâs the one moaning out and trying to string together choked words of praise.
âYour grip is so tight,â he mutters out, kissing up your chest and to your neck, âi can fucking feel you dripping down my legs.â He adds in a moan, losing himself in the way you move your hands through his hair and scratch at the nape of his neck. He wants to ruin you so badly, and heâs already drenched in you. He wants more.Â
You knew youâd have him just as desperate as you by the end of the night. Now look at him, muttering out strings of curse words as you do nothing but ride and pet him. Heâs melting under you, and youâll be damned if he comes before you get that second orgasm.Â
Shooting your hand to your clit to replace his lazy movements, you work yourself up to your second orgasm and he just watches you, taking in the image of you practically riding him into oblivion until youâre clenching even tighter around him, throwing your head back and shooting your hands to his shoulders as you harshly roll your hips into his. Youâre working yourself through it when he starts pumping into you again, short and tight thrusts pushing you through your orgasm until heâs gripping you equally as hard, holding you down on him as he spills out and into the condom in more of a purr than a moan.
You watch him, dazed out of your fucking mind as he bites against his bottom lip and slowly blinks through his orgasm as you. Part of you wishes he just did it raw, wanting so badly for him to make a mess of you like you did to him.
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You find yourself with him at your parentâs house just a week later, eating lunch in the chaotic mess of your motherâs kitchen. Itâs funny, really, how heâs trying to be polite to her as if heâs not about to take you next door and probably fuck you against an open window just to blow his own cover.
âI told you he was a keeper,â your mother compliments him as she lays a plate of croissants on the table. âJust yesterday he offered to mow our lawn when we head off for vacation this weekend!â
Sheâs praising him much like you wouldnât, and you kick him under the table for trying to suck up to her even more now that heâs fucked you several times already.Â
âDid he now?â You ask, glaring over at him and then smiling sweetly at your mother. âGuess he is kind of a keeper, maybe.â
His eyes shoot to you and he smiles around his bite of croissant at you.Â
âYou were right though,â he counters you towards your mother, âsheâs definitely a handful.â
Your mother crosses her arms as she leans against the counter, looking between the both of you.Â
âHow many dates have you been on without telling me?â She asks, looking at you.
âA fewâŠâ If she considers it a date to meet up and fuck every other day this week.
âWe had lunch a few days ago.â he adds, backing you up. Itâs just that the lunch wasnât exactly likeâyou know, at a restaurant, and if she knew that cum was on the menu, perhaps you both would be slapped shitless.Â
âSo, are you guys going to be exclusive, or?â
Sunghoon looks at you curiously, and you look back at him.Â
âI dunno, itâs only been a week, Mom.â
She nods, clapping once before pushing off of the counter and leaving the kitchen.Â
Itâs silent between you and Sunghoon for a few moments before he speaks up.
âI wouldnât be against it.â
âAgainst what?â You ask, looking at him with a raised brow.Â
âYou know, like, dating. I canât imagine anyone actually putting up with you besides me, anyway.â
You kick him again from under the table, causing him to wince out in pain before glaring at you. You smile in return though, giving him a shrug and now rubbing your foot against the bruise you probably just caused.Â
âI find myself agreeing with that statement,â You laugh thinking hard about your next words. âBut for some reason, agreeing with you pisses me off more.â
Sunghoon nods, smiling through the pain of the bruise forming on his shin.Â
âGood thing I know how to fix that, huh?â He finishes the conversation, fully aware that he knows how to shut you up and make you love it.Â
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LIKE A LITTLE PIECE OF HEAVEN
â Sneaking around with your grandparentsâ ranch hand during the summer!
CW: x Fem!reader with she/her pronouns, starts with fluff and turns into smut, switch!Leon, dry humping, cowgirl, butterfly (i think thatâs the position name?), fingering, short hold the moan snippet, reader wears a sundress at one point, mention of a palm injury via a cut
WC: 1.8k
NOTE: written just for fun to entertain myself during an excruciatingly long car ride, sorry that itâs fast paced </3 title lyric is from âtulsa jesus freakâ also i tried my best at a southern accent for him okay
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You always complained whenever your parents sent you on your annual trip to your grandparentsâ place. Mosquitoes ran rampant and a prayer whilst holding hands was mandatory before every meal. Summer was supposed to be a break so you could be lazy in bed all day, but now you had to go help tend to the animals.
Sure, farm animals are cute and allâŠbut gushing over how adorable they are is much different from actually taking care of them. So much for that âCharlotteâs Webâ childhood dream of yours, none of the pigs are like Wilbur!
But you had a change of attitude when you went the summer after your freshman year of college. Upon your arrival, your suitcase was hauled by strong skin-kissed hands, like if your packed belongings weighed a mere pound.
Looking up, your eyes met irises that rivaled the beauty of the ocean.
Oh.
You almost had to physically lift your jaw back up to introduce yourself. Then you ran upstairs to bury your face into your pillow.
Leon Kennedy. Would his last name suit your first name? Or vice versa? Jesus.
That first summer was full of fleeting glances and flirtatious conversation. There was something romantic about being in a space far away from civilization. Like you were in your own little universe with him whenever the two of you snuck around. During dinners, you always nudged at his leg with your boot to mess with him, liking the way he cleared his throat to ward off a smile.
And maybe you relied on silly methods to see if your feelings for him were reciprocated.
Pluck.
He likes me.
Pluck.
He likes me not.
Pluck.
He likes me.
Pluck.
He likes me not.
Pluck. Last one.
He likes me!!!
Childish excitement coursed through you, an instantaneous smile on your face. You thanked Mother Nature for giving you the answer you wanted.
You also thanked the Sun every day for gifting freckles to Leon. One day, you held onto his face and tried to count them all. Squinting your eyes, you counted aloud, missing the way he looked at you with nothing but sweetness in his gaze.
The world around you was muted, as if the cows standing behind the fence had stopped mooing just for the sake of your concentration.
âSure this is gonna work? Listen, Iâve always been an optimistic fella butââ
âShh, youâre distracting me.â After a beat, you groaned. âFuck I lost count. Okay, hold still for real this time.â
âSure, doll.â Sheâs real cute, he thought to himself.
Or that one time when the Sunâs beams were too hot and made Leon take his hat off so he could pour a fresh bucket of water on his head. You felt so betrayed at the sight.
âYouâre shitting me!â
âWhat?â
âYour rootsâŠâ Not very polite, but you pointed at his hair. âI thought you were blonde. Like, born blonde.â
âSorry to disappoint.â He hid his amusement with a shrug, lowering his head to give you a better look. âHavenât had time to dye it.â
And of course, you owed the Moon some gratitude for being an audience member to a memory you cherished. If said memory could be physically stored, youâd keep it on a frame so you could rewatch the moment your relationship blossomed.
The confession came when two heartbeats aligned, two bodies snuggled against each other on top of the roof. Leon gazed at you as if you hung up the stars and moon that were beautifully assorted in the sky, the same ones he had admired all alone prior to you coming here. He never thought heâd have a pretty woman wanting to get to know him.
âThis is crazyâŠI can actually see the constellations out here.â Your words were a murmur, the glimmering dots above reflecting in your pupils.
âAnd ya couldnât back at home?â
âPfft. With all the pollution in the city? Not a chance.â
âYeah? Musâ be a special night for ya, then.â
It was. But not because of the view, rather, because of the handsome guy holding you close like you were his girlfriend.
âYeah, it is.â
A hat was placed onto your head. His hat.
You broke your admiration of the stars, turning to look at him instead. The tip of his nose brushed against yours, suddenly his hand was cupping the side of your face. His skin was scarred and calloused against yours, a physical manifestation of how different his lifestyle was from yours.
Books always made it seem like butterflies would be swarming in your stomach at moments like these. But you felt calm. This was fate, it was supposed to happen. And who were you to deny the universeâs pull and Cupidâs arrow?
Leon was a gentleman first and foremost. âCan IâŠ?â
âMhm.â
Your first kiss was witnessed by the moon.
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You kept in touch through letters. Leon was old fashioned, and very rarely did he pick up his cheap flip phone when you tried giving him a call. Something about his phone always being stored away, he hardly used the thing anyway. He already had the task of picking up the mail, so it wasnât like your grandpa or grandma would get it.
You didnât mind much. There was something endearing about sending letters, running to the mail like you were a dog fetching the weekly newspaper. It was hard to imagine his voice sometimes when reading his letters because he wrote all properly, it didnât match his accent.
âIâm sorry it took so long for me to send another letter. I accidentally cut my hand when fixing up a fence and it took a while to heal, it left a scar. Iâm okay though, promise. Just donât want you to think I forgot about you or anything like that. Your grandpa was real nice about it, he gave me some time off, heâs got a kind heart. And your grandma kept cooking up some soupâŠsaid it would help me heal quicker. Not sure if itâs true, but it left my stomach happy and that counts for something.
The entire time I was resting, I found myself thinking of you. Would you have patched my hand up if you were here? Kissed my pain away?
Every time I look at the moon, I wonder if you are too.â
You always traced over his handwriting with an unclicked pen before proceeding to leave a kiss mark on the corner of the page and putting it in your stored pile.
Summer became the highlight of your years. You actually packed cute clothes now, flowy sundresses and some matching undergarments you wouldnât mind Leon seeing. Of course, you also bought some riding gear, wanting to partake in his hobbies too.
The instant you were back at the farm and the two of you were alone, Leon grabbed you by the hips and pressed you up against the outdoor wall of the house, smiling at you all coyly.
âMissed ya. Shoulda jusâ stayed here with me.â
âThought you liked me for pursuing a higher education?â Your grin matched his. Maybe after you got your degree youâd join him more often.
âMhm.â God, that intellect of yours was sexy. He could listen to you ramble about your ambitions for ages. âWish that college of yers was nearby, though.â
âThat makes two of usâŠI missed you too, by the way.â Your lips inched closer to his. âA lot.â
His cheeks turned roseate, his heart thumping as fast as the hooves of a bronco at a rodeo. ââŠYeah?â
âDonât sound so unsure! Need me to show you?â
âIâd appreciate that, yâknow how I am.â Leon wasnât the most self assured, having been worried youâd find some college guy to get with.
All it took was some more sweet talking and daring touches on your end before he hoisted one of your legs up with your permission, the fabric of your dress lifting and bunching around your hips, the plush of your ass pressed against the weathered down paint of the walls.
He let you set the pace, keeping you steady as you bucked your hips against him, your panties soaking from the friction of his rough denim jeans. Your mouths clashed messily out of pent up desperation.
It didnât go farther than dry humping, though.
Leon made sure your first time with him was more planned out, not wanting it to be in some confined space or rushed. You rode him until dawn, your knees meeting the soft blanket he laid down against the grass with each roll of your hips.
âAh ah ah. Slow, sweetheart, slow.â He pleaded in a throaty voice, you were killing him, milking him over and over.
âFuckâŠokay.â You slowed your pace, your breaths mingling when you rested your forehead against his.
âThatâs it. Like that.â
And after that, there were more spontaneous times.
You wanted to get dicked down on your mattress so thatâs what Leon gave you, if only your bed wasnât so fucking squeaky. He had to put pillows behind your headboard.
âShhâŠgotta be quiet fâme.â His hand covered your mouth, muting the moans that almost spilled from your mouth.
Leon wouldnât live to see another day if his boss found his sweet granddaughterâs ankles hugging his neck and her toes all curled.
You ran your nails against his scalp, turning his hair into a mess, taking advantage of the fact he didnât have a hat indoors. He bit down on his lip harshly to prevent himself from groaning aloud. Yeah, he had to climb out your window after that.
You almost got caught once inside one of the rundown abandoned stalls that was in need of some fixing. You were sitting betweens Leonâs spread legs, his hand down your pants. His palm gently smacked your clit with every push of his fingers inside your cunt. Open-mouthed kisses grazed your neck, making you loll your head to the side.
If only your granddaddy hadnât interrupted.
âSon, ya in here?â Some incoherent grumbles before he got to the point, thankfully giving you some time to smack Leonâs hand away, snickering at the expression on his face â like he was about to be put six feet under. âNeed yer help with the pipe I was tellinâ ya about earlier.â
ââm on it.â Leon called out after pecking your lips, but there was a crack in his voice that left you silently giggling as he got up and wiped his fingers on his pants. He seemed so embarrassed, sparing you an apologetic glance and then tipping his hat down to hide his flustered expression from his boss.
But who knows, your grandparents adored Leon. One day heâd muster up the courage to tell them he was sweet on you, or maybe theyâd catch the two of you holding hands under the dinner table.
Either way, you were no mere summer fling, and he let that be known by adorning your finger with a shiny promise ring.
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Pairing: Ghost x Reader, Price x Reader, Soap x Reader, Gaz x Reader
Summary: Your child gets in trouble
a/n: This one is a little different from my usual ones, but I just felt like writing for all four of them. I'm not sure how accurate you'll all find them as I've deliberately exaggerated them, but I do believe that Gaz is a sassy man after seeing how he didn't want to shake Graves' hand. I've also named the children of the TF141, I hope that's okay with you all.

Scenario:
The moment you both heard that your child got in trouble, the first thing you two did was rush into the principal's office in fear that something happened.
And now you were both sitting in the principal's office with your child, while another child was there with his parents.

Ghost:
Your eyes widened as you heard the principal say that Daisy and another girl in her class had gotten into a physical fight.
"There was also something your daughter said that is completely unacceptable," Mr. Smith said, looking disappointed at Daisy, even though the girl apparently started the fight and your daughter was just defending herself.
"It wasn't even that bad..." Daisy muttered underneath her breath as she crossed her arms.
Simon was very quiet, but his stoic expression spoke for itself.
"Daisy, I want you to quote what you said," Mr. Smith continued, not wanting to hear another word from her unless she quoted exactly what she said to the girl.
Your daughter looked at you, a pleading look on her face but you just shook your head at her in disappointment, wanting to hear what she said.
She sighed and quoted what she had said before, "You have a face that only a mother could love."
Without missing a single beat, Simon started wheezing in his seat the moment he heard his daughter's insult to the girl.
You glared at him, "Simon!"
Trying to calm down, he put his palm on his mouth as he continued, completely ignoring the angry looks of the principal and the other family.
"Mr. Riley, I want you to calm down. This is highly inappropriate," Mr. Smith said as Simon calmed down.
A few seconds of silence passed between you all before your beloved husband opened his mouth.
"Did you win?"
"Simon!?"

Price:
It felt like hours as the girl's parents and the girl herself ranted and raved about the fact that your daughter Sophie punched her.
At first you had both been shocked, completely angry at your daughter until the parents opened their mouths to speak.
You almost fell asleep listening to the mother go on and on about how her daughter's nose was bleeding because of Sophie.
Price, on the other hand, sat still in his seat, listening to the whole thing, not having said a word since he walked into the principal's office.
"Your daughter should be suspended!" The father said, glaring at Sophie.
Mr. Smith didn't even get a single chance to say anything, as they continued.
Slowly, Price seemed to lose his patience and turned his head towards you and your daughter.
He whispered, "Punch her harder next time."
"What?" The principal asks.
"Nothing."
Price says as Sophie giggles at her dad.
You tried to stifle your grin by putting a hand over your mouth, just hoping that the parents would shut up soon.

Soap:
Your son sat between the two of you, his nose bleeding and his face bruised as he frowned at the boy and his parents.
You were extremely worried as you put a hand on your son, Callum's arm, and quietly asked him if he was hurt anywhere else.
Callum just shook his head, not wanting to speak while Soap was already getting bored listening to all of the talking the principal was doing.
"It doesn't matter if he started insulting him because Callum was the one who got violent," Mr. Smith said as you tried to defend your son.
The boy obviously looked much worse than Callum. His hair was disheveled and his face was bruised. His nose was also bleeding, as was his lower lip.
It looked like your son had done some damage.
"What exactly did he do?" Soap asked, wanting to know exactly how Callum had hit the boy.
As Mr. Smith explained what your son had done, Soap's eyes lit up and a smile appeared on his face.
"I'm so proud of you, you used the punch I taught you," Soap said, extremely pleased that Callum had listened and actually used the things he had taught him.
Callum grinned at his dad's antics as you put your face in your hands, sighing and muttering "Why did I marry this idiot..."

Gaz:
You were shocked to hear what your son, Ethan, had done to the boy.
Mr. Smith was obviously upset and angry that Ethan had acted so childishly, and immediately got into a physical fight the moment the boy wouldn't stop insulting him.
You felt the headache already pounding in your head as you rubbed your temple, completely out of it.
Ethan didn't really say anything, he just listened to everything that was said.
The boy's parents glared at the three of you, never once looking away.
The boy that insulted your son, looked angry, obviously still being pissed at the fact that Ethan punched him, even though he himself started with the insults.
Gaz was not even shocked, sitting there with his hand holding up his head up as he looked extremely uninterested in the principal's endless speech.
Rolling his eyes, Gaz moved closer to you and Ethan as he whispered.
"Did you break any of his bones?"
"No."
"Good, because I'm not paying anything in this economy."
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ch4 something borrowed something blue (mafia!price x simon's sister!reader)
tw: some mild dubcon groping but reader is into it she just hates him. (or does she????)
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Your mother doesnât come to your wedding, understandably so. Her lack of presence makes the day seem less real. However, one Johnny MacTavish decides to become the Scottish mother hen youâve been missing.
âEveryone decent in âere?â A chorus of yeses ring out. Johnny opens the door to the bridal dressing room with a smile, looking suave in his tuxedo. âShite, was hopinâ to sneak a look.â He winks at your nearest cousin and she flutters her eyes. Even as a married man, Johnny likes to flirt and fluster women. It helps hide his marriage to Simon and provides you with much entertainment.
âHowâs the blushinâ bride?â
He walks over to your vanity, taking in your bridal makeup and hairdo. Johnny whistles low, reaching out to ruffle your hair, which you stop by smacking him. âThe bride is hungover and not in the mood.â He shrugs, then takes a sip of your champagne on the vanity desk. âYâr fault fer doinâ a hen do the night before. Nice job slippinâ the hag, though.â Itâs your codename for Aunt Riley. Sheâs always been suspicious of him and Simon, making little comments here and there that have put her on his shitlist over the years.
âThanks. I can say, the London nightlife didnât disappoint. I might throw up at the altar though.â He snorts and takes a seat in the empty chair next to you. âPrice was pissed last night. Called Simon while we were mid-â You cover his mouth with your hand. âDonât finish that sentence. As far as Iâm concerned, you guys havenât even kissed.â Johnny licks your hand, making you squeal. âCanât believe he called Simon like Iâm a little kid and not a grown woman.â
Johnny doesnât answer, instead popping a chocolate-covered strawberry offered by a passing waitress into his mouth. Sheâs been the one supplying you with Gatorade until you switched the champagne half an hour ago. Canât believe the bridal suite has a waitress. John Price is too rich for his own good.
âThe Shepherd familyâs gettinâ bolder. Canât blame âim fer not wantinâ ya to die before the weddinâ. Would be bad publicity.â You scoff. It might be true, but John has never seemed too concerned about your health. Except that night in the park, when- never mind.
âYa nervous?â Johnny asks. You shake your head. âTrying not to think about it. Iâm more focused on not tripping in front of multiple mafia families. Iâd never live it down.â He smiles, then squeezes your knee over your white dressing gown. The look he gives you is too knowing and you hate it. Instead of holding his gaze, you turn to the mirror and will any stray tears away. âYou probably need to go soon. I think theyâre putting me in my dress in a few minutes.â He nods, dark eyes full of understanding.
âYa look real bonnie, doe. Gonna make a beautiful bride.â You nod, swallowing down the thickness in your throat. âThanks, Johnny. You look handsome in your pink bowtie.â Itâs the same color as the bridesmaid dresses, a horrid shade your aunt insisted on. He winks, then rises out of his chair. Johnny squeezes your shoulder, then kisses the crown of your hair like Tommy used to do. âSimonâll walk ya down the aisle. Iâll see ya on the other side.â And just like that, heâs gone.
-
âYou know youâve turned my life upside down in only a week, right?â
âI know.â
âAnd you know a small part of me will always blame you for it?â
âI know.â Simon sighs.
Itâs five minutes before the ceremony. Youâre all dolled up in your poofy dress with perfect makeup and a bouquet in hand. A phantom weight is heavy on your left finger, waiting for the ring you tried on only a few days ago.
âYa know Iâll always be sorry yer father is mine.â Simon murmurs. You nod stiffly, swallowing down any emotion as you look at the closed church doors in front of you. The ones that will open in a few minutes, leading your path down the aisle and to your new husband.
âI didnât have to come back. I could have hung up on you all those years ago.â
âI know.â
âI think a small part of me wishes I had.â You whisper, like a confession. He takes your free hand and wraps it in his own. âBut I think a bigger part would do it all over again.â Simon squeezes your interlaced fingers.
âBest thing thaâ ever happened tâ me, ya know that?â Your smile is weak, eyes watery as you catch his gaze. âWhat about Johnny?â He smiles under the mask. âThaâs a different category, love.â You laugh, small and hollow.Â
This feels like goodbye. You know itâs not, youâll only be 200 miles away, but youâre both aware of the new boundaries around this marriage. London will be your home now, and any visit to Manchester will have to be approved, and probably accompanied, by John. Thatâs all itâll be - a visit. A few days at most, doing the rounds and seeing friends and family. Youâll never live there again, never run your bookshop, never chat with regulars, never- you stop that line of thinking before you ruin your makeup.
âIf he hurts ya, you call me.â You nod, but thatâs not enough for Simon. A gloved hand tips your chin in his direction, forcing you to meet his gaze. âYouâll call me. Anâ Johnny if I donât answer.â You nod again, firmly, which finally satisfies Simon.
âCâmere.â You hug your big brother with all your might. Heâs careful, turning your face to the side so you donât ruin your makeup. His hands tighten around your shoulders while yours can barely wrap around his torso. Heâs always wearing suits but this one feels different, more structured and finely woven.
âSimon, are you wearing designer?â He stiffens, pushing you off him as you start laughing. ââM alway wearinâ designer, comes with the job.â You shake your head vehemently. âNo, youâre always wearing Fred Perry. This fabric is fancy, itâs like Dolce and Gabbana.â Your brother decidedly does not answer.
âSimon! Are you wearing Dolce to my wedding? Are you trying to upstage the bride?!â Only you, his all-knowing sister, would be able to tell heâs blushing under his mask. In an uncharacteristic move, he scratches the nape of his neck, looking off to the side like heâs suddenly interested in church architecture. âJohnny picked it out.â You slap his arm and he moves to ruffle your hair, before remembering itâs in a fancy wedding do. âYouâre an absolute git, this is completely unfair. I demand you go to the nearest mall and pick something off the rack.â That comment finally dismisses the dark cloud thatâs been hanging over you, sending you two into a laughing fit.Â
âI wish Tommy was here. Heâdve torched that suit.â His eyes crinkle in a sad smile. âI know, love. I know.â Simon kisses your forehead and you lean into his shoulder, wishing the moment would never end.
But all good things must.
A frazzled assistant, one of your Aunt Rileyâs minions, practically sprints over to you. âDoors,â he wheezes, âdoors opening in thirty seconds.â And just like that, heâs gone. Probably a cake emergency or something of the sort.
âDo I look okay?â You take one last glimpse in a nearby mirror. Youâre wearing a traditional veil, something Simon turns up over your head to hide your face. Despite the hideous dress, the rest of your look turned out quite nice. The flowers are decent, your makeup looks great, and you were even allowed to pick out your own jewelry. A win is a win.
âMost beautiful bride thâ churchâs ever seen.â Simon puts out his arm like a gentleman, letting you wrap your own around it. âI love you, Si.â He takes a second, and you swear heâs holding back tears. âLove ya too, kid.â
-
Most of the ceremony passes in a blur.
Lots of flowery words, preaching about commitments youâd rather not think about. Some scripture or Latin thrown in there, but youâre really not paying attention. Youâre more concerned with the man in front of you.
Your veil is a little sheer, allowing you to see him in all his groom glory. His eyes are dark, fixated on yours, and youâd be an idiot not to notice how handsome he looks. His tuxedo is sharp, and heâs got a flower tucked into the pocket. A heliotrope, a purple that matches well with the pink bridesmaid dresses. A half memory comes to you, something about heliotropes and eternal devotion, but you tuck that away under your might be mad box.
Finally, it comes to the vows. You havenât written any and neither has John, instead deciding to use the olden ones. It frightens you, to have this surly man swear you such promises.
âWith this ring I thee wed, with my body I thee worship, and with all my worldly goods I thee endow.â
He takes off your veil and you swear his breath hitches. Itâs just a split second, but the muscle of his throat freezes and youâre captivated by how manly he looks. All bitter thoughts of enemies can be paused for a moment, you reason.
âYou may now kiss the bride.â And he does.
It is not a polite kiss. You donât know why you thought it would be.
Heâs hungry. He catches the small of your back in one hand and your waist in the other, dipping you back in a picture perfect moment. His lips devour yours, delivering small bites and licks before pulling back so suddenly you think youâve imagined it. You blink and youâre standing, your hand wrapped in Johnâs, as you look out at the cheering crowd. Mr. and Mrs. John Price.
-
You try to avoid John during the reception, which takes place in the backyard of the local country club. Itâs hard to do when youâre supposed to thank everyone as a couple. You greet mafia and community leaders and business owners and politicians, all with the same sweet smile and Johnâs hand on your back. Do they know this was arranged? Itâs hard to tell from the venomous sincerity dripping from their foaming mouths, eyes scanning the four-carat rock on your hand like itâs a prize to be won.
At least youâve been allowed to change into a lighter dress. The reception dress is shorter, falling respectably right above your knees with long sleeves and a low back. Not low enough to show off the temporary tramp stamp smudged on your back. You keep the veil in, a cute detail that the inner little girl in you adores. If only this was a wedding you wanted.
Thankfully, champagne is in constant supply. You must have drunk at least four flutes now. That, plus your lack of food due to your hangover, makes you sway. John, who has not spoken to you directly at all since maiming your lips at the altar, notices. He tugs you away from the crowd, finding a secluded bench tucked away behind a tree. It reminds you of the garden you met him in a few nights ago.
âThank god. One more sweaty handshake and I would have keeled over.â You murmur, mostly to yourself. He grunts, taking a seat next to you on the bench and loosening his tie.
âWho said you could sit next to me?â Uh oh. Drunk you is talking.
ââS gonna be like that? Weâre barely five minutes in, sweetheart.â He drags a hand down his face in an exhausted and adorable manner. No. This is the enemy. You must remind the both of you of that fact.
âYouâre the enemy.â You poke him sternly in the shoulder, which sort of ruins the effortless effect you were going for. âYou finally gonna tell me whaâ I did tâ you? Or is this our next ten years?â You frown at his words, crossing your hands over your chest. Heâs acting like you did something wrong, not him. Out of the corner of your eye, you see John avert his gaze as you inevitably (and accidentally) push up your tits. Interesting.
âYou ruined my life.â He barks out a laugh. ââVe ruined a lot of peopleâs lives. Need ya tâ be more specific.â Instead of answering, you slide down awkwardly into the grass beneath you, leaning your head back on the bench. Itâs nighttime now and the only thing in the sky is the North Star. Johnâs star.
âYou told my father I was a weakness and,â you hiccup, âand you told him to send me away. And lookwherethatgotmeâŠâ You trail off, eyes fluttering. Your eyes feel a thousand times heavier than normal, and everything hits you at once. Your lack of sleep from your night out, the stress of the day, the emotional conversations - they all boil over like a pot on the stove. âThink Iâm gonna sleep nowâŠâ John hums, still next to you, and you drift off to the sound.
-
When you wake up, your head is throbbing. Why are you sitting on grass? Thereâs a suit jacket covering your front, keeping you warm from the nightâs chill. Your neck throbs from laying back on the stone bench. Thereâs a stink in the air, a nasty smell, and when you turn to your right, you see your new husband smoking. Jacketless.
âNice nap?â You nod, embarrassment coursing through your veins like a drug. âHow long was I out?â He flicks the ash of his cigar onto the grass. âLong ânough people thought we were consummatinâ the marriage.â Oh. That wasâŠnot something you needed to think about.
âYou feelinâ sober? Remember anythinâ you said?â You shake your head. Unbeknownst to you, John is frowning. The last few hours are a blur, a black spot in your memory. Thereâs still alcohol in your body, but a headache is starting to form as well.Â
âLetâs get some food in ya. Canât have my new wife droppinâ dead at the weddinâ.â You let him help you up, slipping on his jacket to cover the grass stains on your dress. Thatâs the only reason you donât take it off.
-
The rest of the night gets easier. Dinner saves you, but then Johnnyâs putting drinks in your hands and your cousins are pulling you to the dance floor. You have an emotional dance with Simon, a not-so emotional one with John, and then youâre passed to a slew of people to make nice with.Â
Itâs 2am when the party finally settles down. People have gone home, thankfully including your aunt, and you say your goodbyes. John takes you back to the Ritz, a silent, quick car ride. Youâre thankful for the quiet but confused all the same. The air is charged, like you just had an argument and lost. Is he mad? Regretting this? You donât know him enough to tell, and that irks you.
The elevator takes you to the penthouse this time. Only the best for the king of London. John stands beside you, no hand on your back. Itâs entirely businesslike: the walk to the room, shutting yourself in the bathroom, donning pajamas and a dressing gown. You would shower, but you need to finish your routine at the vanity.
If this were a real wedding, maybe he would have carried you in his arms over the threshold. Maybe he wouldnât have been able to keep his hands off you, ravishing you in the entryway. Maybe heâd whisper in your ear, âMrs. Priceâ.
Instead of that fantasy, youâre tipsy and angry about the fact that you are now Mrs. Price. Maybe thatâs why you say it.
âIâm not a virgin.â Youâre at the vanity, taking out the mountains of jewelry that pour out of every crevice of your body. Itâs the last thing to remove before the weight of your wedding is off your shoulders. The mirror is giant, big enough so you can see John stop unbuttoning his shirt when you say the words. âYouâre not?â You shake your head. He frowns. âMight as well send ya back now, get my money, and-,â he stops. Maybe itâs because youâre staring hard at his reflection. You donât even like him, but the champagne and sting of rejection cut deep.
âWas jokinâ, sweetheart. Didnât expect you tâ be a virgin. Too much pressure, honestly.â Oh. Oh. Heâs always called you sweetheart, spit it out like poison designed to kill. This is the first time heâs said it kindly and your heart curls around the word like a sleepy cat. Which will absolutely not do.
âWill make it easier, I reckon. âS a tight fit.â He winks jokingly and you scoff at his insinuation. Heâs being oddly jovial, a 180 from the car ride, and you need to ruin this truce before it becomes permanent.Â
âSure, thatâs probably what your exes have said. It was probably a âtight fitâ because they werenât wet, John. Ever heard of foreplay? F-o-r-e-p-l-a-y, look it up. I expect-â, except you donât get to tell him your expectations because heâs shut you up with a calloused hand around your throat. Itâs not violent and you know he wouldnât hurt you, but the shock factor hits its target.
âYer used tâ yer brother anâ his men, crude jokes anâ the like. I get it. But I demand respect anâ youâll respect your husband now. Got it?â He isnât blocking your airway, just holding your throat with his hand like a collar around it. He stands behind you with his unbuttoned shirt, giving you a glimpse of his hairy torso, hard with muscle. âThe same way you respect me?â You mutter. He straightens in the mirror, his hand loose. A thumb caresses your jawbone, one stroke then two, before he pulls it away completely like it never happened. âIâm tryinâ to. Letâs agree on that, yeah?â You nod stiffly, sobered and treading with cautious feet. Is this how heâll be? Acting like a military captain, an all-consuming force?
âAnd, sweetheart.â He grabs your free hand, the one lying on the desk. His large paw engulfs your own, bringing it to the outline of his cock in his boxers. You can feel the weight of him and, against your will, you squeeze. Heâs thick, no, girthy. The fabric is thin, allowing you to feel the ridges of his cock, the veins, and its shape. Your hand acts of its own accord, sliding down until your thumb brushes the mushroomed tip. His cock twitches in your hand and you jump in your seat, snatching your hand away like itâs on fire. His chuckle is low and bruising, a damning caress.Â
âThought so.â And your new husband walks away.Â
When you toss your silk dressing gown into the hamper for housekeeping, neither of you comment on the wet spot thatâs soaked through. Thatâs the closest you get to consummating your marriage tonight.
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