#ms4

[emgoesmed]

10/9/2023

Scenes from a café date over the weekend 🥰

[redbleedingrose]

Hi all,

I’m sorry I haven’t been writing as much as I would’ve liked to. Honestly, I’m going through one of the most difficult times in my life. I’m about to start applying to residency programs AND I’m studying for step 2 CK which is part of the United States Medical Licensing Exam to get my medical degree. It’s my last year of med school and it’s just not going well right now. I think these next 6 months are probably going to be the worst 6 months of my life. I’ve been working hard studying and just not seeing much pay off. I’m not sure where to go from here. I dunno. It’s been a lot. I’m currently in my bed tears streaming down my face with no where else to go or anyone else to talk to as it is 5AM LOL.

Anyway, I think I won’t be as active for now and will be taking a hiatus indefinitely. At least until I’m done with step 2. Requests are closed for now. I’m sorry for disappointing you all.

Please yall, send me positive vibes and thoughts and prayers. I really really need them.

And if any of yall are doctors or psychiatrists (bc I’m applying psych) lemme know any advice yall have or just ur own experiences bc it’s hella lonely out here. And the suffering is real.

Best,

Rose

[amystarrstuff]

trik or treet :]

treet!!

is that blood fake or real? who knows with samuel.

[this-is-mdness]

03.13.2023

I MATCHED!!!!

I MATCHED I MATCHED I MATCHED.

Thank you NRMP for sending me my email 2 minutes early. Thank you to whoever brought in cupcakes to clinic so I could immediately snarf one in celebration.

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[posebox-guide]

Magister SCENE 4 by Nevarrah

Idle Clap

[lifeandtimesmed]

Light at the end of the tunnel

I know Tumblr isn't really a thing anymore, #medtwitter has taken over but it is really crazy to think that I am applying for residency now and that I will be done in a couple months. 

I am thankful for how far I have come, idk how excited I am about residency (b/c I am lazy lol) and we essentially work for pennies but if you a are pre-med or still in med school keep pushing

[md222b]

from MS4 to MD

hi! i’m a current 4th year medical student that failed step 2 the first time i tried to take it. i went through the whole eras application process and had several interviews, which was so fun, btw. but now that the NRMP rank lists are open, and i still haven’t retaken step 2, i am scrambling to figure out my options. i started this blog to hopefully get some of the noise out of my head. my #medtwitter was no longer an option cuz it was getting to non-anon. 

if anybody is or was going through a similar situation, i’d like to hear more! 

[losjavis]

gifs del último programa de MS3 que no había subido ❤️

[nocturnal-ds]

Oh my god, why are the presets for some of the synthesizers in MuseScore 4 fucking different.

[emgoesmed]

12/22/2023

Pictures from a few weeks ago when I drove up to campus and spent the afternoon walking around the little town nearby.

Currently cramming all of my assignments for my online class (3/4 of which are overdue) and constantly feeling exhausted, out of sorts, and unable to get myself together. 🙃

[roseverdict]

So Um. Idk Who All Is Aware But There Has Recently Been A Major Update To Musescore. For The Most Part, Everything Is So Much Better. The Instruments Used Are Higher Quality, Or At Least Sound Like It.

However, I Think I Went A Little Too Hard In Musescore 3, Because This Part Gives Musescore 4 A Seizure.

[amystarrstuff]

Trick or treat :D

treat!!

[this-is-mdness]

02.19.2023

tw patient death

30 minutes asytole

my first intubation during active compressions

i get that we had to try, but it felt so pointless

she was already dead

i didn’t “feel like a baddie,” i felt like a useless cog in a pointlessly spinning machine

this is medicine, i suppose

[posebox-guide]

Magister SCENE 4 by Nevarrah

Think Moses

[leothelilpotato]

(fuck me I just realized I could put both audios on the same post. Whatever)

From this mess came... this! I also attempted a remaster on MS4 (this was on MS3) but it did not Sound Right. Hella proud of the evolution!

[md222b]

Reality Checks

as of today I got two emails from residency programs asking for updates on my Step 2 score. I don’t know what to say. obviously the answer is I won’t have my score by March 1, the deadline to match and even apply to SOAP, so I won’t be verified by my school and cannot be ranked by programs. I don’t really know if I even want to re-apply next year, but it’s just so scary to think about emailing all the programs I interviewed with and have to tell them “for personal reasons” I won’t be part of the Match this year. my advisor told me that I should say I’ll reapply next year because I’m still interested, but I feel like I’d rather say that I will stay in touch for possible opportunities in the future.

withdrawing my application is going to feel so scary and a super reality check. I’m disappointed in myself I didn’t get this worked out earlier. my therapist tells me “there is no universe where you could have done something differently” and I disagree.. but whatever.