#ms4

[emgoesmed]

10/9/2023

Scenes from a café date over the weekend 🥰

[redbleedingrose]

Hi all,

I’m sorry I haven’t been writing as much as I would’ve liked to. Honestly, I’m going through one of the most difficult times in my life. I’m about to start applying to residency programs AND I’m studying for step 2 CK which is part of the United States Medical Licensing Exam to get my medical degree. It’s my last year of med school and it’s just not going well right now. I think these next 6 months are probably going to be the worst 6 months of my life. I’ve been working hard studying and just not seeing much pay off. I’m not sure where to go from here. I dunno. It’s been a lot. I’m currently in my bed tears streaming down my face with no where else to go or anyone else to talk to as it is 5AM LOL.

Anyway, I think I won’t be as active for now and will be taking a hiatus indefinitely. At least until I’m done with step 2. Requests are closed for now. I’m sorry for disappointing you all.

Please yall, send me positive vibes and thoughts and prayers. I really really need them.

And if any of yall are doctors or psychiatrists (bc I’m applying psych) lemme know any advice yall have or just ur own experiences bc it’s hella lonely out here. And the suffering is real.

Best,

Rose

[amystarrstuff]

trik or treet :]

treet!!

is that blood fake or real? who knows with samuel.

[this-is-mdness]

03.13.2023

I MATCHED!!!!

I MATCHED I MATCHED I MATCHED.

Thank you NRMP for sending me my email 2 minutes early. Thank you to whoever brought in cupcakes to clinic so I could immediately snarf one in celebration.

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[posebox-guide]

Magister SCENE 4 by Nevarrah

Idle Clap

[losjavis]

gifs del último programa de MS3 que no había subido ❤️

[nocturnal-ds]

Oh my god, why are the presets for some of the synthesizers in MuseScore 4 fucking different.

[verystressedcollegestudent]

getting real sick of one of my groupmates going on about how things would have been better if we "planned ahead" and "tested earlier" and how our group (not him of course) has "issues with procrastination" as if he didn't leave me to do like 90% of the building for our system? like sir we could have tested earlier if you hadn't gotten me your single contribution on FUCKING FRIDAY and had shown up to the lab even ONCE outside of class time

[atlasssssssssss]

my absolutely out of pocket take: the social network is within the dark academia realm of storytelling

[betajams]

the one thing i love(lying) abt musescore4 is when my measures play no sound whatsoever for seemingly no reason so i constantly have to cut and paste the measures back into the score so i can hear them again :3!!!

[emgoesmed]

12/22/2023

Pictures from a few weeks ago when I drove up to campus and spent the afternoon walking around the little town nearby.

Currently cramming all of my assignments for my online class (3/4 of which are overdue) and constantly feeling exhausted, out of sorts, and unable to get myself together. 🙃

[amystarrstuff]

Trick or treat :D

treat!!

[this-is-mdness]

05.07.2023

I GRADUATE TOMORROW???? WTF

not ready to be doctor

[posebox-guide]

Magister SCENE 4 by Nevarrah

Think Moses

[janmisali]

"you can't love an alphanumeric designation"

maybe YOU can't. I'm built different

I think most people just don’t like how “dwarf planet” is a separate categorization from planets instead of a subtype like Gas Giants, Rogue Planets, etc etc

this is demonstrably not what people are saying they dislike most of the time. it is mostly people saying they think pluto shouldn't be considered a dwarf planet, or that dwarf planet shouldn't be a category at all

[baronessblixen]

Saw your tags:

I'M NOT CRAZY THEN. I was watching the broader Revival and My Struggles in particular and thought: Mulder has very little agency but Scully has no characterization. It's so... interesting. Because I've labored under the thought that Scully was stripped of her agency and Mulder was given all of it... and yet, no, it's the reverse. Mulder is more himself in most moments than Scully (especially CC episodes) but Scully is more active in the Struggle episodes even though she gets lesser screen time. 

It's almost like... CC saw Mulder as a time waster, and used him a lot to deviate from the plot. Scully always forwarded it in some way and therefore had lesser screen time. Which is such  lazy writing and it seems to hold true for all CC's episodes except maybe MSI. There, at least, Mulder was an active participant (even though Scully brings the case to him, he chooses to pursue it.) 

As a side note: MSII and MSIII are "through the looking glass" episodes: completely contradictory, from completely opposite angles. The pivot is so pronounced it's a little staggering. 

I will say: EWW completely with CSM's addiction to Scully. And EWW to rewriting En Ami. But strangely... there isn't any current-day damage to Scully's agency-- she's just so lazily written (back to this XDDD) that she seems chaotic, unhinged, and rudderless. She becomes pregnant in MSIV but outside of the Consortium's tampering (if one wants-- for whatever reason-- to take CSM's word as law.) It's so... strange. 

It's making clearer sense why CC resents the fans so much: it seems, from his perspective, like he went out of his way to give Scully the spotlight-- MSII-- then got backlash. And he gave fans more romantic moments in S11 but that didn't stop them from criticizing MSIV and the miraculous pregnancy. But instead of thinking, "huh, why did they get so mad at my writing?" he chalks it up to us not getting "the vision." 

After I finish MSIV, I need to go through and mark each time Scully or Mulder made an active choice in the Revival series and which time they seemed muted or character-less. I'm sure there is nuance to that discussion, but I'm also pretty sure the damage will be equally 50/50. That... will be interesting.

Well, she doesn't have that much agency, does she? Or maybe I'm just thinking ahead and of My Struggle IV. She's on screen for two minutes. I wish I was exaggerating that but I'm pretty sure someone counted and it was like 4 minutes tops, if that.

She's active in MS2 - which makes sense cause that's "her" episode. In reality, though, she isn't actually active cause it's just a vision she has. It's not even real. I've already forgotten all of MS1 but I feel like everyone had some kind of monologue and she was mostly just sitting around. Sorry. As much as I dislike CC episodes, his revival episodes are ten times worse.

In MS3, she doesn't get to do anything either. She's comatose in the hospital for most of the episode. When she wakes, she's like "we need William". It's not about her; it's about William and Mulder. My Struggle 4 is way worse in that regard.

But yes, it's written lazily. I'm not even sure if it's lazy or just plain bad. I mean maybe he really thought this was great. Oh, I don't think he took it all back in MS3 because he got backlash. He knew what he was doing in MS2. There's a scene where the camera pans in on her face and on her eye. That's when the vision starts. What he did in MS3 had nothing to do with how MS2 was received.

What romantic moments did he give Mulder and Scully? Plus One? He alluded at them having sex - we don't even get a single kiss - so that he can have his big pregnancy reveal in MS4. God forbid they have sex just because they want to have sex. According to him, they had sex twice, both times resulting in pregnancy.

CC is always so mad we don't get his "vision". Sorry for being so anti, but the more I rewatch, the angrier I get with his writing choices and his reluctance to listen and maybe reconsider a few things.

The non-CC episodes are much better in that regard! They have more character and are more actively involved - at least to me. The revival isn't all bad. The CC episodes, though... I cannot with them anymore.