#morning meltdown

[themaxterian]

Christopher Keith Horowitz Taitague 4th

[emacrow]

First, It was Barb was doing night checks on wayne manor cameras surveillance pt 2

Previous post pt 1

She was in a bit of awe when she saw the newest very rare exotic flower Alfred got bloom under the light of the full moon, revealing beautiful crystallized like petals blossom, only for her widening eyes to take noticed of a tiny little pixie like child to pop his little head out of the center of the flower.

His hair was unnatural white fluff like a dandelion in her opinion, eyes glowing an otherworldly green, freckles that sparkle like the stars themselves, ears a bit long and pointy, wearing a odd clothing with a needles strapped to his back, that she could barely catch in camera, the static buzzing sound from her cameras was making it a bit difficult to hear what sound the tiny little fairy boy made as he floated above zooming around the garden a bit like he was excited.

It made barb's inner child squeals, screaming, flipping her tiny princess table at the possibly of Nederland being possible.

Curious little bug, floating around like the fairies in Disney like except of the Glow pixie dust like she seen on the movies, he left a trail of blueish green light that faded away rather quickly with the way he was flying into the slightly opened kitchen's window...

Wait a goddamm minutes..

Barb immediately switch cameras to the kitchen, looking around, only to see it went through the hallway already, switching cameras again, checking the living room, the hallways, only to catch a glimpse of trail glow zooming around.

Crap crap. OK, no need to panic Barb. What do curious pixie like fairies out in the human world.. bring the season right?!, play with children like that Bell fairy did? Finds and take lost things and secretly repair lost things?..! Fairies are weak without pixie dust, they don't live long without it, each fairies has a different part of the seasons, and if you don't believe in them then they immediately die and that cause imbalance in the world without their influence unless you truly believe in fairies to bring back one fairy.(she went through a whole fairy obsession phase as a kid, she still mourns the lost of the create your fairy open world game)

The fairy must've Found a new type of pixie dust to fly without wings if she could recall that one sequel with the new pixie dusts colors thing..?

It was like a game of Where Waldo except where the little mythical fairy boy that couldn't possibly- no no barb don't think about the taboo words, if you think about it and this poor mythical being dies due to your words then the guilt will haunt you Forever.

3 hours in the catch the glimpse of the fairy boy, flying back at to his little flower holding a tiny cube of sugar, a shiny tiny object that she can't get a clear of, and a plump blueberry the size of his little hesr as he lands in the petals that were closing around him. Crystallized back close as if to guard this little fairy being with its own life.

Right when the full moon glimpse was gone out of the sight of the garden from the sky when the smog cloud from the city covering once more.. Barb is writing that down in her notes..

[no-oneknowsmyname]

Months later and I'm still thinking about Etho saying he would have changed his skin for MCC if his teammates had asked him to. it's probably a good thing he didn't, clearly we as a fandom don't handle unexpected surprises from him very well

[titan-god-helios]

ahAh and the disability disabled me again !!

[adragonprinceswhore]

What happened to longing, huh? WHAT HAPPENED TO LONGING?

Alicole doesn’t work because there’s no longing, they just start fucking as soon as Viserys is dead EVEN THOUGH they’re both incredibly sexually repressed survivors of sexual assault/coercion.

Rhaenicent doesn’t work because there’s no longing, they can just jump on the Westeros bullet train and visit each other after the murder of their son/grandson and beg for “peace”

LONGING IS WHAT MAKES THESE SHIPS WORK. The ‘what ifs’, the ‘I wish the gods weren’t so cruel’, the ‘I long to be close to you but we cannot’

LONGING is the essence of tragic love

[ceasarslegion]

No i dont think its a good thing to make hating children your entire personality but can i please just say that i dont like them and dont want to deal with screaming temper tantrums and meltdowns from other peoples kids (especially, ESPECIALLY when the parents are absolutely useless in dealing with them) without 30,000 people crawling out of the woodwork to assume that i think all kids should die

[polydamnory]

Could really use a “listener wants to quit their job comfort audio" right about now

Or maybe just a new David video I'm not picky

[cillixn]

There’s a new pic of Paul floating around twitter!

paul sighting paul sighting paul sighting wake UP DANONATION

[quaft-delicates]

I need people who still mask (against covid) to interact with. I'm one of the very last hold outs I know and it's getting to me. It's not going to make me stop but it is making me so mentally unwell(er).

[i-never-forgot]

JUST SAW THAT YOU GOT YOUR ACCOUNT (and hopefully the others) BACK!!! so glad to find out that you managed to get through tumblr's nasty biz to get it back. i was legitimately worried when i saw that this blog deactivated because i thought something bad happened.

I literally just now noticed this, tbh. I am very wary of it all right now because I only got the confirmation email of the support email having been received, but no actual communication like “hey we messed up” or why this would have happened? It has been utterly bizarre. I got really upset and anxious about it when it happened, so I’m trying to keep my feelings suspended just in case something else happens.

The only thing I can think of that might have caused this is perhaps the AMV got flagged as copyright? I don’t know whether to take it down or not. I also reorganized the tags on my main (the Dragon Age blog…which is why a couple of those posts accidentally ended up here oops) and had to login a few times for some reason, and those are the only two things out of the ordinary I’ve done lately. I’m certainly not trying to break rules on purpose?

But yes, it appears I am back (for now I guess lol)??? Hello everyone🥹

(And just in case something else weird happens, you can always reach me through Ao3 under ASimpleArchivist.)

[strawberrryangel]

today was a good day! *collapses into bed and sobs uncontrollably*

[skinnycrochet]

You didn’t gain a pound overnight it’s just bloating

You didn’t gain a pound overnight it’s just bloating

You didn’t gain a pound overnight it’s just bloating

[mooshrems]

// mild blood

injured cadets again .. and crosshair helps tech navigate around kamino while he cant use his goggles

[coriander-candlesticks]

Note to self: word prayers better when doing divinatory sessions

I think I've mentioned this before, but I do yes/no stone pulls on Sundays to ask for guidance about maintaining my health re: my commute because it's 2-2.5 hours each way via public transit if everything runs on time. It's rough on me in multiple ways and can lead to even more migraines than usual or being too fatigued to work at all, and it can be difficult to tell whether I'll have the spoons to go in person.

This past Sunday I was exhausted & stressed because of, you know, the horrors, and said my initial prayer a little differently than I usually do. I still invoked Apollo and Hermes as always, as both of them cover divination by lots, Apollo's domain covers health & disease, and he's the one I turn to for divination by default.

Now, the vast majority of the guidance and lessons Apollo has given have had to do with recognizing my physical & mental limits, especially around this issue. The answers I was getting this time around were...odd but not quite in the way they have been with just dud pulls, so I started asking clarifying questions to figure out what was going on. After a few - establishing that there was a reason for the answers but it wasn't a test or punishment or Apollo messing with me (which would have been. odd) - I realized that while I'd invoked Hermes as a god of divination by lots alongside Apollo, I had not explicitly asked him to act as a messenger and aid in communication this time around, nor had I asked Apollo to guide the divination session with the wording I usually use.

I think you can see where I'm going with this.

I re-said the prayer (correctly this time) and confirmed that it was, in fact, Hermes at first while re-doing the initial set of questions (which were much more consistent in the usual way), as well as confirming that the issue was the prayer wording. Lesson learned lol

[freebooter4ever]

One thing i am learning:

so leading up to this from the end of my stomach virus on July 1st till July 27th I was having huge gas issues with my stomach. Lots of bloating, lots of farts, just so much fun. But then around July 25 the farts slowly stopped happening but thats when instead the gas seemed to be getting trapped in my gut and just not coming out. And i suspect that's what was triggering the panic, heartrate, breathlessness, etc. So after this last monday while with my friends my goal was to get the farts to come back, which probably sounds insane but keep in mind my brain has not been fully functional lately. So on wednesday, the best day this week and when i felt the most normal, oxygen levels back to 99, when i took the probiotic and experienced the most farts/gas/etc i thought that was what i was now aiming for.

But the interesting thing now is that after completely overhauling my died and only eating bland foods / high fiber foods / vegetables, both friday and this morning i have not had much gas at all....but i also am not having that intense difficulty breathing reaction despite eating more calories than i have in days. Tldr i think a combination of being on the probiotics plus eating foods that are easy to digest has stopped the bloating rather than just let me fart more to release the bloating. So i guess thats my new goal: to get to a base stable point where im eating a healthy bloat free diet. And not feeling like im starving all the time. Yay.

Ngl im gonna really fucking miss my terrible eating habits but i think i knew that one day they would come to bite me in the ass. Im hoping eventually i will be able to eat things like pasta and cheese and stuff again, but thanks to that terrible virus i had i think i have to be extra careful with my gut now. Ethan kindly spent like an hour of his lunch break talking to me on friday and that was one of the things he joked about - that as sad as it is at some point in the aging process our bodies change and cant handle stuff we used to. He's been helping me out with easy food to start introducing into my diet thats significantly healthier than like...pasta...and cheese. (ethan also had some scary health issues related to oxygen levels and has an aunt who is a doctor so he was able to put my mind at ease a lot about what's been happening, and make me feel less insane)

[tomatoluvr69]

Do you think the 22 year old army medic here at the fema/Red Cross disaster relief station is qualified to tell me that no the irregular and newly puffy mole on my back is not cancer and it’s ok to be going through a tough time and the way my father treated me as a child wasn’t my fault and something in me is not rotten and inherently repellent to love and that it’s going to be ok and yeah no that alarming mole isn’t cancer. Or are they mostly like cleaning up cuts and stuff