#mod prophet

[proselfshipsafespace]

Paranoid selfshippers, your f/o(s) wanted me to tell you that it'll all be okay, that you're perfectly safe and they'll protect you from whatever you think might get you or whatever is troubling your mind.

I promise you, you're f/o(s) want to keep you safe and protected and want to make sure you feel comfortable and calm.

[ask-spiderpool]

Hey mod, are you okay? It’s been a while since you posted (no judgement!) and I just wanted to see if something was wrong. Love you and I hope you stay strong🫶🏼

Bless you anon! I appreciate you checking in! I don't post a lot of personal updates here, but I have been going through the wringer lately... hough.

Lately I've been battling with anxiety, you know, same as everyone. It's kind of made things that I used to enjoy kind of stressful for me. Everything becomes stressful for me. Even not having things to stress about makes me stressed. I'm at my most Peter Parkeriest, in the worst sort of a way.

I thought it was a brain thing – that it was all in my head. I have a new, stressful job, and a stressful living situation, and some family issues I'm dealing with. It'll pass. So I kind of tried to power through, until my body shut down on me last year. And as it turns out, when I got checked out by the doc, it's not just a brain thing. I have a tumor (her name is Lamar, and she's benign, buuut...) she's producing 5x the normal amount of stress hormone in my body. The doctors think it's insane. I think it's hilarious. I feel like it's some kind of joke.

I've been battling this ridiculous chronic stress for years, thinking it was all in my head, but actually, biologically, I'm an overflowing reservoir of stress, and it's something that can be measured in my bloodstream. And it's been going on for years!

So, lately I've been devoting a lot of time to forcing myself to relax. Doctors orders. I can't get stressed about things. Every day I have to effectively diffuse a bomb. And the bomb is me. I'm so pumped up with involuntary stress, and I have to devote my time to keeping it at a manageable level. And so there are a lot of backflips I have to do to keep myself human right now, and not turn into a bomb.

See... posting to the blog doesn't exactly calm me down. It makes me anxious, most of the time. So I've been telling myself it's okay. Only post when you feel good. You have enough things to worry about, and the blog can't be one another thing to worry about. It can only be for fun. If it doesn't feel like fun, don't do it.

I need to do a million little calming activities to function. The blog used to calm me. But it doesn't, anymore. I still love it, and I still have so many scripts I'm excited to do, but... I just have to be patient with myself, right now. I can't bug my head over something that can wait. It can wait. Right now isn't the time. My health is the most important thing. I can't get that back, if I lose it.

Right now I'm about keeping my head above water. Keeping calm. Doing meditative things, that aren't necessarily productive... (trust me, I am SO upset about not being productive. I miss it a lot) but they force me to take it slow and force me to not worry. I'm learning the banjo (she calms me), and I spend a lot more time in nature, having staring contests with ducks and pigeons, and befriending beetles and bugs.

I'm a very positive person, and I know I'll make it through, and I love myself for all the effort I'm making to keep myself from breaking. Because I know if I didn't force myself to calm down, I could snap like an elastic band. I – I don't want to break, like I did last year. I need to be good to myself. And relaxing is an effort. It takes a lot for me. And certain calming routines work for a little while, and then stop working, and I need to make the effort all over again to find something new. It's kind of insane how much time I need to calm back down again. I remember, once upon a time, it being baseline.

Luckily there's a surgical solution, so hopefully I'll be normal again soon, and there won't be any more bees buzzing in my brain!

I hope you'll all be patient with me! And hopefully I'll make it out alive and stronger than ever, soon.

[milton-chamberlain]

And I'm playing Enderal again

Now I'm plaing for a phasmalist again, this is my third prophet

They are from left to right: a psychologically unstable young scientist, a widow-huntress with the character of a caring mom and a rabid werewolf pirate

It's funny that I'm writing a little fan fiction on Enderal not about Tarael and the prophet-scientist, whom I ship, but with a huntress, because who but a wonderful woman with a big heart will help rehabilitate after such a shit

it's clearly not worth waiting for help from a dude with addictions and depression:/

[lordmaddie]

Many things are horrible. Still, they happen. I've been replaying Enderal recently (my most favourite game). I last played before the Forgotten Memories edition, so there's stuff I haven't seen before. The Rhalâta questline fucked me up... Tharaêl left such an impression on me that I've been quite frankly possessed and feverish until I was able to draw this 😅

[keqingprophet]

hey. . your request has been accepted !

FAINEANT GIRL from THE POST TRAUMATIC MANIFESTO stamps!

REQUESTED BY ? : anonymous ! ART BY ? : FERALJAYCE, WEEVILDOING AND MNK_MND CREDITS ? : NOT NEEDED!

AN: i dont really have alot to say here... other than this has been in our gallery for maybe a month or so?.. we absolutely started on it when the request was recieved, but some technical issues prevented us from posting.. thank you for your patience, anonymous, and i hope this post finds you in good health... :^) - MOD ASTRO..

[incorrect-hs-quotes]

ROXY: i think u should be able to absorb bathroom graffiti to learn new powers like with those walls in the tombs in skyrim

[beck-nightengale]

When Dijaam motherfucking Onêlys leaves you behind at the end of the Golden Sickle questline:

[howdy-folks-its-showtime]

The lovers cried and the poets dreamed But not a word was spoken The church bells all were broken

Happy birthday to Sammy and the chapter that introduced him!

[amanrafromveranda]

I just wanted to clean the house, but soon I found some photo frames - and the next thing I remember I was trying to handle watercolors again...

[thedeafprophet]

anxiety about appointment tomorrow morning forgotten, someone asked me if i wanted to help work on a stardew mod for the transphobe wizard franchise

[video-game-jams]

Final Fantasy VII Remake - Hollow

[proselfshipsafespace]

I love you fictosexuals

I love you fictoromantics

I love you fictoplatonics

I love you animesexuals

I love you mangasexuals

I love you fictophiles

I love you if you identify with any sort of fictituous attraction

I love you if you identify with any sort of fictituous microlabel

I love you if you only want to date fictional characters

I love you if you don't mind a real partner while dating a fictional character

I love you if you do have a real partner and a fictional partner

I love you fictoaromantics

I love you fictoasexuals

I love you fictohets

I love you aroacefictohets

I love you if you only have romantic f/os

I love you if you only have platonic f/os

I love you if you only have familial f/os

I love you even if you're a selfshipper who doesn't identify with any ficto labels or doesn't feel fictituous attraction

I love you people with oc x canons who only do it for fun and don't feel fictituous attraction

I love you animesexuals who got bullied by the internet and got called a troll by others

I love you guys and we all deserve better. No one should be excluded, even animesexuals that aren't trolls and are genuine about their attraction. We deserve to exist, because we always have existed and we'll always stay.

(This post was written in a platonic tone and the phrase "I love you" is used platonically here)

[luciasatalina]

Prophetess. My baby

[milton-chamberlain]

Mama's boy

[mars-ipan]

what is lovemaol

i do not know how to even begin to explain something that i can barely comprehend

[keqingprophet]

HARU 'NOIR' OKUMURA from PERSONA 5 rentry graphic!

REQUESTED BY ? : NOBODY / SELF INDULGENT ART BY ? : OFFICIAL MEDIA CREDITS ? : NOT NEEDED BUT PREFERRED

AN: barely anybody knows we started as a persona edit blog originally..... so uh yea going back to our roots a lil as a break from requests ^_^ - MOD SCRAPS!