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chipistrate · 11 months

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Scheduling this for the usual time I schedule challenge art just to say iiii didn’t get it done in time today ^^; I’m still doing it and am still gonna post it today ofc!! Just a bit later than usual is all

Anywho here’s a sneak peak for anyone interested- what an innocent face :)

#Chip Chatter #I dunno if anyone even noticed I posted these at a certain time every day lmao #just felt like I should say smthn since I’ve been posting at the same time every day for over a month now #missing it today feels so weird..

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randomminty · 1 year

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Honk shoo mimimimi

#pokemon #art tag #pokemon fennel #scientist fennel #musharna #pokemon black and white #pokemon bw #reading all of pokespe bc im so behind remembered i like fennel #i miss lacktwo and whitwo i want them baaaaaaaaack #i actually have no rambles today #feels weird. okay bye bye

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breezypunk · 1 month

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some outtakes of vaughn that I never got around to posting. <3

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk 2077 photomode #cyberpunk screenshots #cyberpunkedit #cyberpunk aesthetic #cp77 #cp77edit #gamingedit #dailygaming #virtual photography #gaming photography #oc: vaughn leblanc #male v #my screenshots #I had no intentions on posting today but than I remembered I took these when I was feeling really sad #cos I missed him terribly and it reminded me how much he helps me through tough times #and I've been feeling really weird about being in this fandom lately but I don't wanna give up on my boy ever #so I will show his pretty face and continue to love him cos it sure heckin' makes me happy <3

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stargirl230 · 1 year

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First (official) day of college!

super nervous haha, wish me luck

(no reposts!)

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bisexualrapline · 2 years

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100 days of kim seokjin (78/100)

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 2 days

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I have hope that mayhaps I have beaten The Germs

#I was feeling kind of sick last night and took the max dose of activated charcoal (it won't hurt you if you take too much but #it can make you constipated) and ended up being fine.. but idk if that was just anxiety.....#I feel fine today I think..... so maybe all the Supplements just got me past the worst of it???#got called in to work bc my manager who was scheduled today had a last minute appointment she couldn't miss #the store owner came in and talked to me about taking on a bit more administrative responsibilities #since the manager has such serious health issues #and that includes a potential raise so like....#it's a weird day

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holland-vosijk-antari · 19 days

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i was just reading kell's pov in acol where he goes down to see holland in the cells, how he feels hollands eyes scraping against his own, and back in adsom where its described as two stones sparking together. not only does that make me want to go insane, it also makes me wonder if holland feels that too or if its just kell? its not mentioned as far as i can remember in any of hollands pov and not even in their first meeting flashback. the absence of it from holland's pov is a bit of a shame really though it does suggest that its just kell and the effect holland has on him... its also mentioned briefly when lila gets her antari prosthetic eye (in the sense that kell feels glad that he can look her in the eyes without that friction) which makes me wonder, if lila had both eyes would there be that sparking sensation between her and kell? would it not as their black eyes are on the same side? why would that sensation be only due to the presence of the marked eye? it's clear that kell and lila DO have a connection but then again so would most people who went through what they did together (especially as kell is quite dramatic about what he cares about). it would just be a shame to have this connection between antari be a real thing and it not be developed past a couple of brief mentions one of which to enhance a ship. the antari could be endlessly more strange so it's a shame that, even when bonded with the rings, they are essentially just very powerful magic users and not something altogether else...

#give me some STRANGE #also actually i was thinking about if there was an actual bond between antari whether they like it or not #and how lila and holland would navigate that #i tried to write a lila pov fic about this that was mainly just a stream of consciousness actually #about when holland is torturing lila in adsom to get kell to come back #and despite the fear and hatred she felt like she could lean back and through into him like ink into water #meeting something made from the same stuff as her and that feeling of connection being new and utterly terrifying #but alas i cannot write and also don't have the patience to get better at it so it is not somethig i can post #i just really wanted them all to be more weird about it lmao #i can imagine holland turning up to deliver letters and people being like “ah theres holland. he and kell have something weird going on”#or kell being consumed with grief about having to kill one of his own kind but not being able to express it to anyone especially rhy #and feeling this overwhelming wrongness thinking its just that he killed holland #not knowing its actually holland having osaron in his head thats causing the inexplicable wrongness #or just lila hating that she has any kind of bond with holland wishing she could seperate the two of them #but if she were to take a knife to remove him from her she wouldn't know where to start cutting #wow thats a lot of words today #adsom ramble #adsom #shades of magic #holland vosijk #lila bard #kell maresh #anyway i do love and adore these books but it doesnt mean i can't be sad about missed opportunities

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moonchild-in-blue · 1 month

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Girlie pop you know aegon and Aemond are brother, right?

Cuz I know that. I just wanna make sure you know that

I have 0 interest in that whole franchise, but the artwork is hot. What is a little incest when they both look so pretty 😌 We support all kinds of dark fiction in this household 💙

(but yeah i did notice the last names and figured a normal married couple would be too outlandish for the got universe 💀)

#if i had a nickel for everytime i supported FICTIONAL (!!!!) incest between siblings today on tumblr #i would have two. which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened twice #(or however the Dr Doofenshmirtz quote goes)#there's a lot of tropes i tend to avoid or just flat-out block on fiction (FICTION. I FEEL LIKE THIS IS IMPORTANT TO HIGHLIGHT)#and incest ain't one of them. i wish i could blame Vampire Knight for it but. it was actually a selling point for me :/#AGAIN! FICTION ONLY!#(the other time today was about Crimson Peak btw. in case you missed it)#i'm not sure what should i tag this with cus i'm afraid of getting weird reccs so ->#nsft #<- i hope that covers it #darya answers

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cryolyst · 2 months

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#they speak!#it's probably just the illness that's making me extra irritable but like.#roommate kept coming up to me this morning going oh did i wake you up? i'm sorry if i did. did i do that or no? i'm really sorry.#and i kept telling him to stop saying sorry because i didn't have the brain power to phrase #'you could've been more considerate of your volume but you also have the right to use the common space so it's whatever'#but he said it to me again before i went to my room just now and it's like. ok. shut up.#if you actually cared that much u would've just been quieter in the first place actually.#anyways. annoyed. there were some annoying customers in the store today but it was whatever.#i feel like my fucks to give had already worn out with all the ppl in my social circle/my parents and the recent ongoings of that #[redacted] was being passive aggressive to me in the group chat and it's like. ok! idk what u want from me.#and i'm grateful for them for coming over and helping me with cleaning last week #and it's those sorts of actions that let me know they care and want good things for me #but like. i haaaate telling them anything because even innocuous non-private things get turned into judgement with them.#also. more and more i can feel how i'm drifting away from h and now with retrospect i can see how we mutually hurt each other :)#i keep coming back to this one period where i really wanted to take them to try dimsum and they kept saying they were too scared to try it #and in their new friend group they regularly go out n get dimsum together. which on the surface is like. why didn't you want to go with /me #i told you i wanted to share what i liked and i would explain what things were and i could do the talking and you still said no #but it's also very much a reflection of how i always rolled over and enabled them. i never challenged them. i was always passive.#i also feel like i'm heavily neglecting e and a recently and i can tell how the physical distance is affecting us and idk. it's weird.#anyways. another post that should've been a journal entry! lol!#when [redacted] helped with cleaning they also buried my journal under my like #300 packets of sesame candies and i can't be bothered to dig it out. also my bandaids are missing now. <3 #ik this also sounds passive aggressive but genuinely appreciate the help i just kinda hate how they think hidin everything in boxes is good #'we need to get you some more storage boxes and containers!!' actually i think that will be the opposite of helpful.#i need everything visible and on open surfaces so i can 1) remember they exist for me to use and 2) not have barriers for me to get to them

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lavampira · 7 months

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you know the day is going to be a doozy when you wake up with anxiety already eating you alive 🫠

#sorry not to once again vent about The Horrors #i’ve just been having an absolute weird one today lolol #and idek why this is where my brain has chosen to latch this time #somewhere between feeling too clingy for wanting to casually tell friends i love them or miss them or want to spend time with them #and being sensitive about slight changes with ones who withdraw from doing the same as often too #or changes in some routines i guess #like what if i’m just unaware that i’m the annoying person clinging to a friendship that’s fading #i don’t want to be too needy for reassurance or too pushy with being so sappy :o)#which is irrational of my brain but i can’t help feeling the way i do either #because i did lose touch with a former close friend recently and just. not realize that closeness wasn’t there anymore. lmao #but also ‘hi do you still love me. do you miss me if i’m not available. you haven’t said so in a while’ feels insane to ask shdghsd #ANYWAY that’s enough vulnerability for today. bye.#the life and times

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floral-hex · 7 months

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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hyunjinz · 2 months

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#okay I'm gonna get a bit personal here lmao #so i used to have a childhood best friend whom I've known basically since he was born lmao (he's 4 years younger)#he's always been like a little brother to me and we used to be inseparable until like 11 years ago #and then the friendship stopped sooo abruptly basically from one day to another #and i literally have no idea to this day why #i mean idk at that point those 4 years were a BIG gap me being 15 and him 11 #but I'm not sure if that was it or if his parents didn't like it or some completely different reason #we're actually neighbors and it's crazy to me that we haven't had any in person interaction since then #we say hello if we see each other and wish each other a happy birthday online but that's it #and today me and my dad went over to the neighbors because..#(well I'm not gonna elaborate here because there was some police action in the neighborhood and i felt like i was in an action movie #and that's what brought the neighbors together whatever it's a long story)#and he was there and i realized i miss him lmao #i mean I've always missed him i never stopped missing our friendship #and i really really wanna reach out and say “hey you wanna grab coffee some time?” and just catch up #but I'm scared lol #like what if he says no #what if he doesn't wanna do anything with me #idk the rejection would feel awful a second time #am i being irrational here am i overthinking #maaaan idk #i never share anything too personal here so this feels weird lol #personal

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fortunatelyenchantingtaco · 4 months

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It feels so insane how my dad’s biggest complain about me was always the fact that im lazy and way too soft and not ready for harsh reality but when grandma dies he writes to me first cause we all know my mum is going to cry and i wont

#it was needed to go home for a while #cause i saw him last in august #but also there are power shortages at home and everything #and missing ffxiv raiding would be saf #LISTEN #i know i have bigger problems #but like #i refuse to think about serious shit #im like #damn im gonna miss raiding and dont have that much time to wrte :(#i was doing arr blm relic today instead of therapy #tiring but at least takes your mind off shit #raiding doesnt require small talk or much thinking #so i dont have to confront my thoughts ya know #but yeah #its a weird situation i dont feel much affected #but also i havent been affected the last time until like a month later #but i cant go around just not being affected at all #its weird for people around #but also no one said anything #when last time i was laughing in the middle of cremation #so whatever who cares am i right fellas

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learn-and-accept · 2 months

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I can't be depressed, I ate vegetables two days in a row

#my mental health is in shambles lol #I haven't left my house in 4 days #i slept in until 1pm today which I haven't done in a while #the earliest i fall asleep is 2am #im fucking exhausted #it's so fucking hard to get myself to do anything #my brain won't even let me watch the Olympics even though ive been looking forward to the skateboarding competition #this shit is annoying #and it's annoying because i was so confused why this bout of depression happened #but i just got my first normal period after stopping birth control and that shit always fucks me up mentally #and my grandma just fucking died #so yeah not that surprising lol #also my girlfriend is out of town and i was supposed to go with her and it didn't work out so im sure that's not helping my brain feel okay #its just so fucking annoying because i just want to be okay with everything and not break #at least it's not the 'my brain is telling me to kill myself at all hours of the day' type of depression #but this shit still sucks and i hate it #and i don't want to talk with my girlfriend about it because i don't want her worrying about me and i want her to enjoy her time away #and i dont want to talk to my mom about it because actually i dont really know why i dont want to talk to her about it #im gonna be going back to therapy soon so hopefully that shit helps but who knows #anyway brains sucks and grief is weird and hormones are dumb and i miss my girlfriend #but hey at least my brain is letting me eat vegetables again lol #personal

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absolutelyzoned · 22 days

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i am actually going to throw up i feel so fucking awful today but i cant miss another day of school They will come after me. why do i get sick literally every other week. what the fuck is wrong with me

#HHWLP #MY HEAD HURTS MY NECK IS SORE MY EARS FEEL WEIRD IT HURTS TO SWALLOW ICAN BARELY BREATHE #I CANT GO TO SCHOOL LIKE THIS #I CANT MISS SCHOOL EITHER I HAVE LIKE 4 TESTS TODAY AND ID RATHER KILL MYSELF THAN HAVE TO MAKE EM UP #BECAUSE I ALREADY MISSED A FEW OTHER ONES #AND WE DO LIKE 30 BILLION THINGS A DAY IN ENGLISH AND IM ALREADY SO FAR BEHIND #there is no way in hell im making it through the day #maybe geometry at the latest. thats my 4tg class of the day #i cant focus on my work like this dude #i feel like I need to cry but thats making my head so much worse

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derpinette · 9 months

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english used to be the normie filter & how you could tell someone was a Trve Internethead but after the DAMNED 2020 quarantine for obvious reasons EveryBody & They Momma is acceptably fluent so now i have to learn swedish or something. -_-

#already been spending time this past year & a half i only need someone to actually speak it with IRL for maximum efficiency #technically i want to say 2019 people were already turning to english at least in my city. 7 year old me would be so happy but #ARRRRRRGHHHHHHH #YOU ARE POSERS I HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON WITH YOU & I NEVER WILL. has me feeling so ♯DECEIVED #native english speakers will probably never understand this feel #speaking english now is just as cringe as i thought being francophone was a decade ago Yes even as a child i was against normies #i was forcibly taught.by my millennial older brother i had no choice but to abide by that line of thought & so here i am today #well he was right. not anymore he ain't but he used to be #but technically you can say this new wave of self taught anglophones are going against the current & remnants of colonialism so well #it is a good thing objectively i just miss the ease of recognizing Real back in the day TT_TT like you just KNEW they shared your interests #& weirdness they knew your references it said something about what their social status likely was too ETC ETC. But not anymore...#i enjoyed it tho i had a bestfriend whom i mostly spoke english with & we were known for it we were outcasts #i distinctly remember this fag who got so mad at us & harassed us for it during middle school recess. like fluency was a bad thing #we were not even gossiping about him Altho we should have been. & that was the best part is that it was a barrier #so you could talk about anything out loud & nobody would be able to understand you & at the time it was just us & our older siblings #+their friends

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