#might delete l8r

[theseusgodkid]

oh dear, runt. where the hell are you going. im not worried at all

[potatomountain]

Got lost in my head and came to a lil realization-

Tumblr is NOT a safe space for people on the spectrum. Not unless you're in specific communities on Tumblr that are about the spectrum.

Honestly the internet isn't a safe place for us because the amount of masking and effort we go through to look over out messages and posts before sending them out is exhausting. Having to go over our own thoughts in a little post like this just so we aren't dismissed, ostracized, or frowned upon for our 'odd thinking' or 'wrong words' is so freaking stressful.

Especially in a creative space for those on the spectrum. There are so many things our brain does in that apartment people would normally find offensive or wrong and that I've been shamed for it's surreal.

So again: Tumblr is NOT a safe space for those on the spectrum.

Edit- [11-08, 3pm cst]

I didn't think this would get any views or anything cuz it was legit just midnight ramblings but I woke up to so many notifications.

I'm glad that there are many who do feel safe on Tumblr and it stays that way for you. However there are some that understand where I personally come from. I have found friends, communities, and the like on the internet [and on Tumblr] that have become safe spaces for me.

Tumblr was one as a whole where I could share my creative side and relish in some acceptance until- like I'm sure a lot on the spectrum have experienced- I did something that was seen as morally wrong in a way I didn't understand and seemed to become a social pariah because of it. People I considered safe blocked me, or soft blocked me and we went from sharing moments daily to never speaking or acknowledging each other. I was harassed and told that 'not understanding how what I did was considered wrong' was an excuse to avoid accountability. Attempting to explain how my brain worked was seen as 'attention/pity seeking'.

It's not the first time I encountered situations like this just because of the way I think, things I say or do, that go against societal norms and was met in harsh ways. Just the first time in a space I thought safe so soon after my own diagnosis so perhaps it's my personal feelings that make Tumblr no longer safe. Maybe I just got unlucky.

Either way- thank you all for your input, thoughts and stories and I really really hope that should any of you find yourself in a situation like mine you are met with acceptance and understanding and people who will stand by you.

[cautiously0ptimistic]

Been on a trip down memory lane, looking through my all the posts from my old blog. The shots on the left are Sabrina from the original Homesick era, circa 2017 vs. on the right, her now in The Journey Forward. It's insane to consider how much this story has evolved, and how different the same characters and game look now. (also, if the fact that I'm still stuck on these fkers all these years later ain't a testament to autistic hyperfixation, I don't know what is~)

Some days, I feel so frustrated with this hobby. I'll take 20 shots, and only be satisfied with one, IF that. I see the absolute masterpieces people create with this game rolling down my dashboard and the imposter syndrome sets in. I often feel in over my head trying to revisit this story through this medium, and unfortunately, find myself devolving into the dangerous pattern of relying on external validation for motivation. (which I'm actively trying to break, but easier said than done, yanno)

Over the years, my sim style has changed so very much (thank you alpha cc creators for getting me to where I am, my 130 gb salutes you), my reshade, blender, and photoshop knowledge has expanded, and even my original vision for this entire series has developed into something different entirely. However, I feel like I'm the closest I've ever been to truly bringing that vision to life in this medium, and I'm so proud that all that time and effort is visible, and I guess...tangible? in the grand scheme. That as I've grown and changed and improved as a human being, it's reflected in my art.

I think I needed this reminder today. So here's your reminder—we all gotta start somewhere, to get to where we need to be.

[pamesjatterson]

finally applied to college and nobody in my family seems to care. somebody please hold my hand

[artdonalldson]

I wanna talk with so many of you but the shy always wins 🥲

[glassghoul]

my favourite dreamers

[hmaikan]

This my firs fanfic so don jidge 2 harsh kaykay?

Story call H. Sunflower Save Lazytown

One day H. Sunflower new in town, but soon she and Steffy r bessfrend. Sunflower created when a miracle from on high allow Robvy Rotten and Sporticud to have baby together and since it was miracle they became like angle and debil so baby is half hangle and half devil. She basically look like beauty hamster with pink hair just like steffy but horn and black angle wings. She has all of sporticud amazing talent for sport but she constantly tempted to path of laziness and evil. It very difficult to be curse with part of you that always want to be evil and so selfish things like impersonate your brother to steal all of your mummys love but sunflower dont have mummy just two daddys (I never even had a daddy before so character is actually very different from H. Mikan when you think about since I only have three mymmys)

Anyway one day Ziggy so sad n lonely and no one knows what to do but then he sees H Sunflower and it made him so happy he cry like happy cry and everyone hugged her and they cheered and robby and Sporticud put assis e their different because they both love h Maikan and each other

The ene

...?? Or is???

(H. Sunflower will return!)

[hightlacuache]

I'm still in love with Wilson Percival btw.

[scrybe-of-death]

dude my grandma told me i was depressed (i am actually not depressed right now! im pretty happy and have been pretty happy ever since winter ended!)

because i wanted 1. ONE day to myself and my room after like 5 consecutive days of hanging out around a ton of people without rest. What the Fuck is Wrong with You??????

[idiot-mushroom]

me: I’m actually rlly happy hyperfixating on tmnt and look at all this stuff i know *info dumps* mom: that’s great and all but why don’t u branch out and actually just stop researching abt tmnt and just be more social

me: but i’m happy like this

mom: be happy another way, bc this ‘obsession’ is weird and i don’t like it

me: *starts sobbing*

[punaviinimarja]

:D voi elämän kevät miten vaikeaa on saada vakiduunia mistään, terveisin: jo kaks kertaa peräkkäin yt:den takia menopassit saanut vastavalmistunut

[happystarzarchive]

i tried 2 edit that one reaction image of the person with blue eyes 2 have argos’ fucked up eyes ………

i regret it deeply

[artdonalldson]

Local woman gets a tshirt and won't shut up about it (me)

[bitch-we-have-a-hulk]

Does it look good? No.

Did I waste almost an hour and a half of my life in this? Yes.

[king-paimon]

Hello again. To those who've been waiting for my HnK post, I think you so much for your patience. I'm sorry that it's taken me so long. I promise, I have the majority of it written down. There are now just a few more things I want to write, but haven't had the time to do so thanks to real life being... chaotic, to say the least.

But I promise it is coming; I don't know how receptive it will be now that it's been nearly a year since the series ended and my thoughts have changed since then, but I still plan to post it. I'm aiming to have it posted before the end of this month. I'm really hoping I'll be able to do it despite how things are currently with my life.

Again, to those who are following me because of my posts and/or are waiting for my final thoughts of this series, thank you so much. I truly appreciate you all.

I hope you all are doing alright and trying to stay safe out there.

[pamesjatterson]

why is being an adult so stressful. I just want to think about my special interest but noooo I have to get a job and go to college