#men are so disgusting ughhh

[aalexan]

saw a shirt today that said “working harder than an ugly stripper”. they might as well start carrying around signs that say “I hate women”

[senorafionaderenjun]

I’m so exhausted and disgusted right now, honestly I try not to generalize but I HATE MEN SO FUCKING MUCH please leave us alone for thor’s sake

[genderqueerdykes]

thank you so much for talking about the whole "i hate men except for you" thing. i'm friends with a cis girl (that i don't really want to be friends with anymore for obvious reasons) who loves saying stuff like "i hate boys" "all boys are the same and they never change" "i'm starting to hate boys more and more" "except for you of course!!" but it's not like she shows any respect towards my identity. she's the only friend of mine that uses she/her for me, says stuff like "mommy and daughter bonding 😊" when i mention i'm spending time with my mom, and deadnames me when i don't immediately respond to a text she sent me 2 seconds ago (and in that text she'll call me by the right name). i used to think that she's just doing this on accident but i've noticed that she only deadnames me and calls me a girl when i'm the only person listening. she's been messing up my pronouns around my friends more often and thankfully one of them noticed and is starting to talk to me about it but UGHHH. i already stopped liking her the second she started saying man hating stuff but the fact that i'm supposed to be the one exception yet she treats me this way... am i the exception because i'm your friend or am i the exception because you're trying to make me feel special when you don't even see me as a boy to begin with?

of course, anon, that's what i'm here for! thank you for taking the time to send in your story, it's important that you be heard

this is absolutely disgusting behavior, but you are not alone in going through this in the slightest. i have seen this behavior play out so many times. that is absolutely sickening that this girl will deadname you just to get you to respond to texts quicker. that is some seriously malicious behavior and you are 100% in the right for not wanting to be her friend anymore.

it's not flattering to be seen as a Special Man. the trans acceptance basics are not treating trans boys/men and trans girls/women like "Special" boys/men/girls/women. we for the most part do not want to be seen as "Different" from other guys. that isolation and singling us out makes us feel alienated and unwelcome everywhere.

honest to god i think the more people who stand up and go. yeah i don't want to be your friend anymore. the bigger of an impact we will have on this kind of behavior. you're not the first anon i've gotten who has wanted to/ended a friendship over this behavior. i have gotten so much feedback from people who have completely terminated friendships over this and GOOD.

people need to understand that trans men don't constantly want to be otherized, infantilized, mocked, scrutinized, deadnamed and fucking harassed for the sake of """""FITTING IN""""""". this isn't fitting in, this girl has made herself into your own personal antagonist. you are right in realizing this is not on accident. this is malicious behavior on purpose. she knows what she's doing. she sees you as a girl and wants you to know that and fuck her for doing all this.

you deserve way better. i hope you're able to get her out of your life and find friends who *actually* support you. that is utterly disgusting behavior and she deserves to lose a friend over it. you're not there to listen to her hate on your siblings and friends. nothing good ever comes of "oh well i don't mean YOU i hate all men BUT you :)" yeah that's not making you safer to be around. YOU are the dangerous person in this scenario. wise up.

take care of yourself anon you deserve so much better than that. if you need any help feel free to stop by again any time

[kevinsdsy]

Lucas and Thea both made me so mad in TSC

Thea seeing Jean all beat up and in shock and asking if he was back to his old habits?! Like idk how anyone could see Jean’s attitude, body language and age (16 at the time all that stuff happened) and assume he likes sleeping around with older men who then ridicule him.

And the fucking Lucas literally seeing Grayson go for Jean and fucking bite him and then asking if it was a bad breakup???

TRIGGER WARNING: SA // SPOILERS: GRAYSON’S CHAPTER

the fact he was so young and people would rather assume it was his own habits than SA makes me so sick……. especially with the rumours going around that he slept his way to the top…. genuinely makes me feel sick whenever i think about it

ALSO LUCAS SEEING JEAN GO INTO FULL PANIC MODE AND TRYING TO FIGHT GRAYSON OFF OF HIMSELF AND ASKING IF IT WAS A BAD BREAKUP…. like even if it was a bad breakup the way grayson attacked him and forced himself on jean would still be disgusting and wrong and i know he was most likely in denial and feeling desperate but ughhh it made me feel so sick actually

just that whole chapter in general made me feel SO SICK and cry icl

[transfemme-shelterdog]

the only thing more annoying than a non-queer woman who comes into LGBT spaces to avoid non-queer men and then gets angry when she sees, gasp, queerness, is the LGBT people who try to appease her by demonising all sexuality and masculinity and trying to paint themselves as Basically Normal Women™️

You can see the pandering so much. When people act lile gay men have to be effeminate or they're sexually aggressive? Radfem pandering.

When people pretend lesbians are inherently less sexual than straights? Radfem pandering.

When people fetishise the anxiety and self-hatred a lot of trans women experience as a "counter" to transmisogyny (rather than pointing out that trans women shouldn't have to feel this way)? Radfem pandering.

When people call trans men traitors or say it's actually inclusive to be horrific to them because technically it's not misgendering? Radfem pandering. (To that microcelebrity who said all men should be forcibly impregnated, including trans men... Think before you fucking speak holy shit.)

When they erase intersex people and their oh-so-scary bodies? Radfem pandering!

The fear of masculine enbies? More goddamn radfem pandering ughhh

Of course, the rebuttals some people resort to like insulting fujoshis, calling bisexual women basically straight and using the basically-a-slur "theyFAB" are not OK. but it's not hard to see why queer people are sick and tired of "the girls and the gays" rhetoric or being seen as cute little pins for someone's bag.

Anyway, all that word-salad to say that I really appreciate this blog being a place that doesn't fall down into the blind vilification of queer masculinity while also not using that as an excuse to turn around and be misogynist. Your insights are great and I know for a fact that a lot of trans men appreciate you <3

Yeah it's disgusting. Newsflash - around half of all trans and queer people are gonna be masc. Quit shitting on them, grow the fuck up, and start respecting people who are masculine.

I personally am tired of trans women and transfems acting like trans guys and transmascs are the worst thing to ever happen to the trans community. Transmascs and trans men should be celebrated, and loved for who they are, full stop.

Trans men who choose to be hyper masculine, gym bros, who could easily kill me are just as valid, deserving of love, and respect as the "uwu softbois" that the queer community at large so much wants to shove transmascs and men towards.

[clawsofakiller]

Wolverine #50 spoiler alert and trigger warning I'm gooooing nuts. Poor grammar alert!

How how how can you say that, buddy? As an astral walker I thought you have seen enough to make you less prejudiced? Yes I admit Sabretooth deserves to die after what he had done to the mutant kids and Logan's family and all his victims, but this?

POV: I believe Victor is irredeemable he had done so many damages he can never fix or pay for the price, but this is bullshit.

Have you ever tried to save him or change him? I mean all of you, not just the Exiles, all of you including the X-Men. Have any of you, and anyone else in the rest of the world, except for Victor's own mother who almost died to protect him, tried to save him when he was a kid? When his father treated him like an animal, chained him in a cold basement and fed him nothing but disgusting ughhh leftovers and live animals, and pulled out his teeth every day, DID ANYBODY TRY TO SAVE HIM? When he grew older and ended up a white glove of CIA, he experienced numerous brainwashes and memories implants and was kidnapped and abused and experimented, did anyone try to save him?

When he was tired of his killing urge and looked for change, he forced Birdy to calmed him using the Glow, and she died so was his mental stability, he went deranged and asked the X-Men for help. They did took him away, they did and they put him in a fucking basement again. Did the X-Men try to help him? Assuming they did. But what exactly did they do? They didn't get him to talk therapy they didn't use the glow to calm him they did not even want to spend any time with him they just left him in a basement and Logan came, put a claw into his brain, the brain damage erased his ability of empathy once and for all. Begone compassion, begone control! Sabretooth looked for change. Sabretooth, at least once upon a time, wanted to be saved, wanted to be helped. And what did they do?

No one helped him when he was a boy and no one even gave him a try when he looked for help. And now you're telling me some people just can't be saved or changed, that some people don't worth a damn. No. NO ONE FUCKING TRIED TO SAVE HIM OR CHANGE HIM OKAY??? I'm literally going mad how can you say that bitch

[pillarsalt]

Seconding that last ask about pretending that gendies' straight relationships are gay ughhh one of my best friends is non binary and getting more aggressive about it lately (meaning that i have to bend over backwards every two seconds to use the correct pronouns, since our language literally doesnt have a neutral one) and i have to hear her rants about how MUCH she hates her disgusting female body and how shes different from a woman bc she doesnt align with feminity and that all her boyfriends have been actually gay for dating her AND pretend 1) that i dont take all that harmful discourse regarding being a woman at heart and 2) that i dont hurt from seeing her like this because i really love her. Its. Exhausting. SORRY this got long i just dk what to do 😭

oh my goddd the whole thing with nonbinary women and the fixation on the men they sleep with being gay because gender... it's crazy, the desire to control the sexual orientations of others seems like a pattern in the trans community, although obviously some are worse than others. I mean it matches the fixation on controlling how others perceive them in their private minds, ie. "we can tell when you're just using our pronouns to be polite and you don't actually SEE us as our stated gender" like anyone's private thoughts are your business? Controlling what we can say out loud isn't enough?

(Kind of a tangent: but a while ago I remember jeffrey marsh making a video with his male partner ((idr if they're married)), talking about how when jeffrey's identity changed from man to nonbinary, the partner's had as well, because he wasn't identifying as gay anymore. He had always perceived himself to be gay, it was a big part of his identity through his life, but he loves Jeffrey, and Jeffrey is no longer a man, and gay men love men, therefore he can't be gay. The guy looked so dejected and jeffrey kept having to persuade him to talk. Does anyone else remember this? I wonder if I can find the video. ((Obviously the straight girls with their gay boyfriends are a very different scenario.)) )

Anyway, I feel your pain, the thing with the pronouns I can't even imagine. The pure narcissism of complicating the simple act of speaking for everyone around you, making sure everyone expends a little extra brain power when talking to or about you... simply because you say so! Boggling.

Unfortunately, as I said on the last ask, not much you can do. It is very very hard to convince someone so entrenched in it to hear you out, and obviously you don't want to lose her, there's no great solution. The best thing you can do is to be there for her if and when she comes around to reality. It might be good if you guys could do some kind of activities together that have nothing to do with gender shit, ideally outdoors. The less time spent scrolling and ruminating, the better. But most importantly, take care of yourself, and don't take any shit either. You seem like a good friend, I hope things work out eventually.

[therealslimshakespeare]

https://www.tumblr.com/precious-little-scoundrel/759858362056916992/they-make-me-so-emotional-marina-you-dont

I’ve never sent an ask before but I will confess that something that intrigued me about all of this is that John and Gale are valid in their reactions. In being disgusted and shocked and just in being unable to imagine how Ida was able to go through that because they don’t think they could. And you could think that that means nothing other than the fact that they feel very strongly about Lu, which we know already. Like we know they adore her. And so all that, and there reactions, make sense. But I can’t help but think about Ida. Because what does that say about her? For Bucky and Gale to be so horrified at the mere notion of that? At just hearing about it? And behaving in a way that suggests they couldn’t go through the same? How would that make her feel about her humanity and her love for Lu?

Hi welcome to the inbox!!

I do agree, I think Ida is already so traumatized by it and how she was forced to harden herself in the moment and that’s something she’s scared of and ashamed of even if she is is not that she didn’t break. But she’s so sensitive about that herself and then to feel that the men are thinking the same —that’s she’s cold or broken or somehow just less. That any woman who must be strong is somehow made less human than her male counterpart. Ughhh the angst of it all. Love this point and it’s something I do want incorporated into that fic 💯

[vickyvicarious]

The bracing breath Jack takes before beginning his entry.

also, starting with Jack? I'm quite curious what the reasons for the various reorderings are throughout re: Dracula. Sometimes it seems to try and more accurately reflect timing or for dramatic effect, but not always. here seems to be pretty neatly divided by timing but it just reminded me

"I fear that in some mysterious way poor Mrs. Harker's tongue is tied. I know that she forms conclusions of her own, and from all that has been I can guess how brilliant and how true they must be; but she will not, or cannot, give them utterance." MINAAAAA

oooh the dual voices on "vampire's baptism of blood" is great

"The same power that compels her silence may compel her speech." my brain is rotted by too many memes, I pictured among us and Jack and van Helsing agreeing that Mina seems 'sus'

the slow music as van Helsing talks about Mina changing...

I hate Mina being left out again ughhh

the ominous music fading out into the lighthearted music as Quincey talks of wolf-hunting, and then back into ominous as

"We four?" this delivery is SO GOOOOOOOD. and the way Jack says "Harker was silent for a while" gave me chills imagining him. ohohohoho I love it

he sounds so clipped when he says they'll talk in the morning as well. he's going to talk privately with Mina first and foremost, and they will both decide what to do after that.

Jonathan's great upset at Mina being left out and people being somehow fine with that??? after how it turned out last time?!?! ...it's so good

I love van Helsing being the one to describe all this. Quincey and Art and Jack were all there too. They could perhaps correct some stuff, like Quincey saying he gave him tobacco or money or whatever, or explaining what "much blood and bloom" mean, but... nah

van Helsing's accent makes it sound like he keeps saying "the sin man" and I'm like, yeah, fair enough

the captain assuming Dracula is French is so interesting/weird

god I love the music

"for we have seen the owner of the ship, who have shown us invoices and all papers that can be." ~document supremacy~

the way Mina says "oh! I dread Jonathan leaving me" :(

And the delivery of those three "necessary"s is soooo good.

Man, the building energy of van Helsing's speech leading to "And now this is what he is to us!" and "shall make you like him! This must not be! We have sworn together that it must not!" also how he sounds like he is choking back tears when he says "to live in your own old, sweet way" and "men for whom His Son die"

His laugh is so wounded sounding

the drum as van Helsing describe what Dracula did to prepare

I love the sigh and refocusing in "But we are pledged to set the world free."

god, the way Mina says "unclean" with such disgust

"How strange it all is" Jonathan sounds so miserable

the music as Mina asks for his promise <3

Jonathan's hesitation to promise to deny Mina in the future.

How gentle their voices are

"I promise!" and as I said it I felt that from that instant a door had been shut between us." god this line. this delivery. agonizing...

the plea for a dreamless sleep is so sad. he sounds almost on the edge of choking up on the last word

[youremyheaven]

That happens to me too oh GOSH I HATE THAT FEELING SO MUCH! I mean is it my fault that I have a big chest? And let's not even talk about clothes. Whatever you wear either makes you look slutty or like you're pregnant (at least with me cause my family is VERY conservative when it comes to clothing so even an oversized tee can be illegal to wear outside sometimes)

And why are they even talking about you in that way?! That's so creepy and disgusting. I wish I could personally go and punch them in the face.

im one of the youngest employees there and a woman in a predominantly male office 🙃🙃🙃 and to have men stare and leer at me like that makes me sooo uncomfy like BROTHER THESE "MELONS" are ATTACHED TO A PERSON AKA ME AND I HAVE FEELINGS

if i wear anything even remotely "fitted" then my ladies reveal themselves (Lady Ramona & Lady Rowena) and i dont want to look like a pumpkin and wear oversized clothes all the time??? if ur a curvy type YOU KNOW how unflattering and UGLY oversized clothes look on u

this is Sofia Vergara in loosely fitted clothes. shes THEE sofia vergara so she does not look ugly but she also does not look like a bombshell

and compare it to this outfi

she's literally still wearing jeans and a top and isnt showing ANY skin but when the clothes are more fitted, her curves are more apparent

im not comparing myself to sofia vergara but im just CLARIFYING that IM NOT dressing like a thot to the office, its just that no matter what i wear, my tits make themselves known and people fatshame them???UGHHH

[fizzywashere87]

is it bad that the main reason i'm excited for my next birthday is bc then the age gap between me and the guy i like won't seem so bad lol

it's not like he's crazy older than me though, he did literally just turn seventeen a week ago but still

my sweet sixteen is in like 3 more months which tbf is still a little while but it's catching up to me the realization has dawned upon me

but i am also excited to be able to get my drivers licence! i have to wait like 9 months before officially getting it though??? it's stupid but whatever 😒

you know what's insane though??? today at church, my mom was talking to this other mom, and her son just got his licence, and apparently the teacher was like super creepy???? what's even scarier is that she said that there was one girl in that class with 10 other boys I'M PRETTY SURE THAT THAT ONE GIRL IS MY BESTFRIEND

fortunately i think she's almost done w/ that class but still it is just so,,,, idk how else to explain it other than scary eugh some men are just so disgusting

anyways,,,,, yeah back to the other mom, she is such a sweet lady! i briefly thought her son was cute, he's my age and plays the drums at church and blah blah but then i found out he had a gf so i was like nvm but i did bake his mom some cookies bc they're new to the church and i wanted to welcome them

i was really nervous and awkward when giving them to her last week i swear my voice was literally shaking but she said that the way i speak is etiquette??? i really try my best so it makes my heart happy that she said that<3

but yeah an older gentleman that i know at church (i actually call him my adopted grandfather in Christ lol) really wanted me to end up with that boy i think he was more disappointed than i was to learn that he had a gf 😭 honestly i don't really care bc i already have my man <333 (let's just call him j. bc first letter of his name yk)

he is so my type much to my dismay, he's like so pretty i want to cry whenever i think of him. that tan skin and those lovely brown eyes, his voice is so deep too like it's so???? ahshdgdgdbdb and it's so endearing whenever he plays basketball w/ my little brothers, they love him it's so cute lol he is so shy though like i wanna talk to him so so bad but i'm shy too what am i suppose to do??? i'm scared why do i have to make the first move???

unfortunately i haven’t even been able to see him lately because of his basketball practice and new job. which is sad but oh well what can i do

sigh i miss my man 😔 he's in a different state rn for his sister's baby shower, actually he should be home by now? anyway his sister is having a girl and they're naming her lily 🫶 i'm mentioning that bc that's my irl name!!! so cutteeee i'm so happy for them!!!

i wrote so much omg my bad

HELP IM GOING FOR THE OPPOSITE

THE GUY I LIKE IS A GRADE BELOW ME AND IM SCARED IM GONNA SEEM WAY TOO OLD WHEN I TURN 16 LMFAO

OMG WHAT THATS SCARY ( :0

(genuinely^)

i hope those yucky men get in trouble because omg :((((

ohhh ik those types of like "crushes" they're so hard to explain bc you dont obsess but it's like 'if he liked me id go for him'

i think im js rlly single

LMAO

AWWW THATS SO SWEET

i wanna bite you because you seem so adorableeeee ughhh

AWWWW i love ur like

idk how to explain

ur life ig

LMAO

OMGIE WHAT THE BOY I LIKE STARTS WITH J TOO

WHATATATATTTT

OMGIEEEEE UGHHHHHHH THATS SO ADORABLE

yo

he's getting a job for you so he can provide for you

what a man

*dreamy sigh*

AND HOW CUTE YOU GUYS ARE GONNA BE TWIINING WITH NAMES WHEN THE BABY IS BORN

OMGIE

ur such a cutie kat <3

[easterndaylighttime]

ughhh having drinks with people after rehearsal the pianist is on her phone one of the older men says "who are you texting?" she says "my husband" he says "oh, he doesn't trust you, eh?" she says "...no, he just asked if I'm eating out, because he's making dinner" he's like "wow what a guy" it was just so... Disgusting idk why would you ever say that

[pinksugardollz]

ughhh that weirdo was so disrespectful & annoying. you handled that gracefully. your blog is sososo cute, gorg 🎀 you're a literal pretty princess!! 💅🏼

omg i love you you’re literally the sweetest girl ever, thank you so so so much pretty!! and ugh i know i am so sick of men. i honestly find them disgusting (aside from my husband) but anyway i hope you’re having the most fabulous day, you deserve it 🎀🧁

[scalamore]

Lehan and Lari

I just love how consistent the characterization of these two are.

During the Bellua vacation, Lari admitted that "memories are always more beautiful then they really were". Early in the series, Lari admitted that she never knew Lehan at all in TL1. They were as good as strangers. She stayed home all the time and minded her own business, while he left at age 11 for the military academy, and for the most part stayed there until age 17. He acted distant with her, and she didn't bother closing the gap. It wasn't until he died then she realized she should have put more effort into knowing him, because she can't even remember his face. So in TL2 she put a tremendous amount of effort into getting to know him this time, and spending more time with him. Yes, Lari does act very close and chummy with him, with grabbing his arm, hugging him etc, but this is all in the context of how she's just super happy she's getting along with her PRECIOUS YOUNGER BROTHER this time. She's getting to see him grow and mature and become successful as a military cadet. Yes, she does blush and her heart skips beats occasionally, but it's all in the context of "OMG! Im so happy! my PRECIOUS YOUNGER BROTHER is so thoughtful! and kind! he's so nice to me he's such a good guy ~~!". All the affection Lari has for him, is all familial. Lehan knows this. When Lari was betrayed by them, it was clear: Lehan never thought of her as his sister, because he thought of her as a future wife. She doesn't like him in that way. Again she realized, she never knew Lehan at all. She was clinging one-sidedly to the illusion they were a close family.... she was the only one who thought that.

So enough is enough, and she severed their bond. They aren't siblings anymore, they aren't family. THEY. ARE. STRANGERS. But it's upsetting that despite this, Lehan is taking advantage of her goodwill and trying to get closer and court her. UGHHH But I think it's SO SATISFYING that Lari is responding with disgust at Lehan in the recent chapters. She's flinching and moving away when he tries to touch her - as she should be. Novel Lari mentioned that she doesn't like it when strangers, especially men touch her. Rupert knows she doesn't like to be touched, and tries his best to be hands off. Lehan doesnt' care what Lari wants, and keeps on trying to be touchy and not getting the hint. UGH. So far so good... I have an irrational fear that Hyeyong-nim (the adaptation writer) will suddenly introduce drama for the sake of drama with Lehan as the 2nd male lead... ... I hope this stays as an irrational fear ahaha.

[thelasttime]

About Timmy x Kylie, sorry to dump this on you but the way the Internet talks bout women makes me sick. I was reading comments and people were like 'why would a guy his age be with a mom of 2?' 'who wants a women with children?' and then other people responding 'well she a billionare single mom' and i'm sorrY WHAT?

I'm not a Kardashian/Jenner fan AT ALL but this is not just about them, i see comments like this all the time. I remember the Harry started dating Olivia, similar comments. Like 'your body count makes you worth less' 'being a single mom is red flag'. As if the only thing Kylie or any woman with children can offer is their bank account!

When a man marries a single mom there are so many men saying 'he so dumb' and very offensive shit about the woman and the child.

And these podcasts with aLpHa males talking down at women is getting so popular and ughhh. Saying 'thats why a 30 year old prefers a 19/20 cause they have less experience and are not used up'. It's just so disgusting.

"being a single mom is a red flag" like . what . a child is a red flag ???????????????????????????????????????????????? A WOMAN CAN BE USED UP AS THOUGH SHE'S A TOY AND NOT A HUMAN BEING ?!?!?????

[m00nj3w3l]

VERY long rant sorry

Ever since I came out to myself as a lesbian life has made sure I'm as miserable as ever. I costantly hear stories of people actually coming to terms with their identity being such a freeing and wonderful thing while for me it has been the exact opposite.

I've gone through it all, I identified as bi first, then lesbian for some time but it didn't stick cus I had insane comphet in 2020, then bisexual nonbinary/agender for some time in 2021, then sapphic, up until I realised I'm legit just a fucking lesbian again and decided to stick to it, and yet I've never felt SO fucking tired even when going through all the different phases.

My mom doesn't even wanna say the word cus to her it sounds "bad/dirty". My dad, who I'm not out to, is the most classic cishet white dude on Earth who doesn't even know the difference between being gay and being trans and I know that if I ever made clear that I'm not interested in men he'd go on a rant about how I'm probably just scared of them, that I'm doing this for the trend.

Last close friend I had, bisexual dude who SEEMED to respect it, rambled about how unfortunate it is that I won't have sex with him because of this and then got offended that I didn't forgive him. Ok.

I hate to say this cus it makes me sound self-centered too, but men in general have started to hit on me more and it scares me when any of them stop me to ask me anything cus Idk when they're ACTUALLY asking for something or just looking for an excuse to try and get me. When I told my friend (bi girl) that this is a legit concern of mine, she said "well, you can just say you're gay and leave it at that" and I didn't reply cus I knew she meant well, but I don't think she understands that that doesn't work. Men either see it as an excuse from you cus you find them "ugly" and so you need convincing, OR you are to be fixed.

Around three weeks ago I hung out with said friend, she presented me two of her gay friends and when I said I'm lesbian one of them went "oh I couldn't tell, you really don't look the part" (UGHHH) while the other, older dude, went on a rant about how he used to make fun of lesbians and call them disgusting 20 years ago and how I'm "too cool" to be one. When I addressed it to my friend, she said he probably felt comfortable saying that cus he has found a community with that friend group, but how tf is it a community if I'm treated as a punchline and invalidated cus I don't fit the stereotype enough?

I keep on being told to find community but I, quite frankly, don't know where to go. I already live in a country that hates our guts, but if even the small amount of other queer people I know don't care or see me as valid atp I'd say I'm better off pretending I never came to accept my sexuality and just go play the role of cishet girl for the rest of my life.