#mel’s musings

[relicsongmel]

Wait. WAIT.

Dahlia’s alias being “Melissa Foster” also lowkey foreshadows that she’s a Fey because it gives her the SAME INITIALS MOST OF THE FEYS HAVE!!!! INCLUDING HER OWN MOM

IM GONNA EAT A CEILING FAN HOW DOES THIS GAME CONTINUE TO BLOW MY FUCKING MIND

[kinardsevan]

Can I say they really tore Tommy down in the break up scene? He looked so bad, the clothing and the haircut made him seem so much older than he is, they really did a number on him for no reason at all. Don't choose a good looking actor if you want to make him uglier LOL

You wanna know something funny? You’re in the smaller camp on this 😂😂😂 I’ve had SO many comments said to me about how hot he looks in that scene. And I don’t think it’s about aging him, I think it’s just the natural progression of Lou. I didn’t mind the haircut and we’ve called his outfit straight up slutty (in the “take me to bed” vein).

Everyone’s entitled to their opinions, though.

[kinardsevan]

So I’m split 50/50 on this at this point. Because we don’t have crystal clear answers on ANYTHING, and there is a part of me that’s like “leaning into the trope actually makes sense for everything else they’ve done with this story”. But then obviously the interviews are so ass backwards, and and and…

Lou’s answers also aren’t crystal. He said he was back at SWAT, which he quite literally is right now, so it’s not like he said it and he went back weeks later to shoot SWAT. His answers about “opportunities” isn’t clear either because working actors by nature, always have opportunities. We have no idea if 911 includes those opportunities (based on my theory of this being a fake out, I mean).

I will say though. When rewatching the breakup from the understanding that Buck is very starry-eyed and “look at you, you magnificent Gay Man”, the breakup is easily understood for me. I vibe with @spectres-fulcrum’s theory. It actually makes a SHIT ton of sense. Further, I’m not gonna lie… if someone told me they wanted to take the next step in a relationship (and that step was moving in together), but I Love You hadn’t even been said… I’d be checking for a fever. It unfortunately comes across as not understanding the seriousness of the suggestion. Like obvs our little shipper hearts were smashed when Tommy was like “not only can I not live with you, but it’s unlikely that I’m the person you’ll choose to stay with”. When you couple the fear with the reasonability of what he’s actually saying, it makes sense.

This is why I’ve said that at its core, if the people writing the story have a brain and didn’t just throw shit at the wall (which will remain to be seen), there has to be a come to Jesus moment about their feelings for one another. Buck has to address whether he actually loves Tommy or if he was just along for the ride because Tommy made everything so easy. (I feel like we as the viewers know they’re in love, but it has to be expressed. And then there needs to be some level of effort in the story where Tommy is pulled into the fold.

I say all that (again) to point out that if this is NOT what the show is doing, and they just split them up because they thought it would make good drama (or some other shitty excuse)… that’s not just dropping the ball. That’s proverbially shitting the bed. And if that’s actually the case… imma see my way out (probably).

So yes, I hold out hope that everything we’ve been told over the past week is to keep us distracted. But I also know that when I reread those same quotes and rewatched the breakup with a clear head (and not from my shipper standpoint), things felt clearer.

In closing…. They did still massively fumble the way they were trying to communicate the issues in the relationship. This was not done well by any stretch of the imagination. But we’ll see what they settle on doing next.

ngl if it turns out that Tommy was coming back all along and that this was all part of the romcom ‘breaking up then making up’ trope i’m gonna be so embarrassed for getting this sad 💀 but that’s what i get for catching up with a series for once ig

[fazedlight]

Sapphics are always telling their girlfriends to jump

[pinkysberg]

some pre canon mel sketches (and not an excuse to play dress up!!!)

[melverie]

Lesson 10 and 11 were great btw

tbh I wouldn't mind if the rest of the season continues on like this

[kinardsevan]

Honestly just to piss that group off, (and as someone this has happened to before), you know what the best blow off to that would be? Buck having a moment at some point with Eddie where he goes “come to think of it, I did have feelings for you… like five years ago. And then it died, and we’re just friends and that’s all we’ll ever be”. Because that would be far more real to the narrative.

i kind of hate that bddie has become part of the never ending "why can't men just be friends?" discourse, because I'll be the first to point out that media is hardly running short of fictional straight men with close platonic bonds.

but my problem with bddie post s7 is not that it demeans the value of male friendship or whatever, it's that the analysis went from thoughtful (if sometimes outlandish) interpretations of stuff actually happening on screen (the well collapse, the shooting, the will, 3min 17secs etc.) to "oh my god, they expressed an emotion in the same scene! bddie canon!" with the added icky implications of suggesting that the newly out queer man simply must be in love with his best friend.

never mind how many of the "queer readings" that cropped up after buck's bi awakening seemed motivated, more than anything else, by the desire to demean or dismiss the canon representation actually happening on screen.

[rayroseu]

from this post asset credit

idea where Knight of Dawn is chosen to be in Pomefiore, i think he fits the dorm outfit so well🥹✨💖

[relicsongmel]

AU where N kills his shitty dad via vehicular homicide. the Down With G-Cis bus who’s with me

[kinardsevan]

not me reading this scene in the drive-thru as “on my way to you” plays. no, not at all 😭😭😭

-

“Hey,” Evan says softly, reaching up for Tommy’s shirt. He wraps his hand gently around the collar, pulling him down lightly until Tommy is hovering just above him.

“Hmm?” He can’t help the smile that crosses his face, being that close to Evan’s face. So fucking gone on you, he thinks as he brushes his hand through Evan’s hair again. “What, baby?”

“I love you,” Evan responds. “Marry you, spend decades with you, try desperately to have your babies even though that’s not genetically possible, love you.”

Tommy laughs as Maddie and Chimney make disgusted comments, and then leans down and kisses Evan, barely getting more than sliding his tongue against his bottom lip because of the exhaustion of the day, but that’s okay. He leans over into Evan’s ear so that the other two can’t hear him.

“Marry you, spend decades with you, keep working on making that baby happen anyway, love you,” he whispers back before kissing Evan’s cheek and then standing back up.

[kinardsevan]

The other thing that confuses me about how people are confused about this is, 808 aired ~Nov 19th? And I believe they went on hiatus the same week bc thanksgiving was the following week. As in, this show had ONE week to throw together a promo edit for the spring. It’s why the teaser itself was so lackluster compared to what we got in February. So the logic that they had gotten so much filming done before break had always been lost on me. They might’ve gotten through some stuff for 810, but I doubt it was much, given that I’m fairly positive the original promo was all out of 809.

Granted, I’m also someone who doesn’t put a whole lot on the rewrites/shoots, and assumed it was due to the wildfires. But regardless, I’ve never understood the confusion on it all.

https://www.tumblr.com/tacobout911/777779474646417408/hello-the-photos-of-the-next-episode-have-already?source=share

huh. this is making me wonder if 8x09 and the UHaul scene weren't entirely rewrites but that they focused on shooting all of Maddie's 8x09-10 stuff before the break so JLH could go shoot the IKWYDLS reboot. or has she done that already?

She's done with shooting IKWYDLS

[vaguelyaperson]

melvika but mel deciding she needs to utilize sevika's strength and/or connections in some way, so she immediately looks to figure out sevika's angle, how to approach her enticingly enough, make it worth her while... and thus becomes one of the first people to figure out that sevika's more than just some scary hired thug. that moment she first encounters the woman she's been told is/was silco's hired muscle and immediately sees how calculated sevika's entire hedonistic intimidation act is, but at the same time not even mel can see exactly what's behind the act. maybe cause for a long time, not even sevika knows. maybe cause to be a zaunite and survive is to become what sevika is presenting - she's just better at keeping it put together than most.

[blood-starved-beast]

I love how the Warsong update made Eris even more down atrocious and desperate. Like girl seriously wants to jump Mel's bones

[mercutio-the-velaryon]

Meljayvik art world AU with painter Mel, sculptor Jayce, and photographer Viktor... yeah!

[fazedlight]

Supergirl the show poses a question: Who is the real Kara?

Kara Zor-El, Kara Danvers, Supergirl. Who's the mask?

In the beginning, Kara doesn't even know. In the aftermath of Krypton's and Kenny's deaths, she did everything she could to appear as normal as possible - there was little room for her own innate traits to shine through when she was being as nondescript and people-pleasing as possible.

But that's not who Kara is.

We get the first glimpse of who Kara really is during Flight 237.

This is not about her being Supergirl or her powers (though both are relevant). Kara has suppressed herself for over a decade. She's not going to make waves - until she has to. Our first real insight into who Kara is now is as a devoted sister. It wasn't until Alex's life was at risk that Kara started breaking out of her shell (and then there was no holding back).

Our protagonist is a mid-20s adult - this isn't a coming-of-age story in the traditional sense. But it is a story of finding oneself and what it takes to get there.

And it starts with defending found family after a lifetime of loss.

So Kara creates the Supergirl persona. I think the cape is a crutch.

People say "a crutch" like it's a bad thing. But crutches are actually pretty fucking useful. They support you when you need it, whether it be short-term or long-term. They help you get around when you otherwise may not be able to.

Kara was deeply traumatized by losing everyone and everything she ever knew, being thrown into a world that overwhelmed her senses and made even her most casual movements into dangerous ones, and was told she needed to suppress everything - who she used to be, what she was going through now - to survive.

To find herself again, maybe she'd need a tool to get past what she had been through! The cape became that tool. She was able to unbury the heritage she had been hiding, she was able to embrace the powers that had burdened her, she was able to find her own bravery (and reactivity, she's got flaws in there too).

Keep in mind, in the scene above, Kara isn't "human for a day". Kara is powerless... just like she spent the first 13 years of her life. Her bravery isn't about her powers or Supergirl; they just help her get started.

That's not where her growth ends.

Kara's instincts for helping people start getting unburied in season 1, and she is excited to tag along someone else's quest to figure out where future threats may lie, or figure out how she can use her powers in service to the DEO.

But it's not until this moment that she realizes that Kara Danvers can be more, too. Lena unintentionally launches Kara's career - a second pathway for Kara's desire to help people, growing into a passion she is going to pursue (even if she gets fired). Her worth is no longer just about her sun-granted powers or being Superman's "younger" cousin.

In season 4, we even see her realization that Kara Danvers can be more powerful than Supergirl, because some fights can't be won by fists. That's a real discovery for herself.

Which I think, looking back, might becoming especially baffling for her... because Kara Danvers was originally an identity imposed on her when she needed to hide.

It's important to note that, while Kara Danvers was originally a facade that Kara gets at thirteen, she doesn't stay a facade - even in the suppression era.

We don't see enough of who Kara is when she's on Earth, left to her own devices. But we see glimpses - we know she likes baking (and we know we shouldn't try what she makes), we know she paints, we know she listens to NSync and Britney Spears. She's a goofball (even when she puts on the cape). Kara Danvers starts as a facade, but becomes a vehicle for Kara to continue developing her personality, now in her new context.

Would she have the same interests on Krypton? Maybe some and not others, maybe some new ones that don't exist on Earth. We're all products of our environments, after all. Her interests as Kara Danvers aren't necessarily fake just because they're different than what she expected.

Though she'll never know who she would've become on Krypton.

Which brings us to Kara Zor-El - the identity that is frozen.

Most people aren't the same person as an adult that they were as a child. Interests, tastes, personality, world outlook, philosophy - all of these shift over time, sometimes dramatically.

Parts of her are going to be deeply rooted in Krypton, and she's going to have ties to a culture that no one else on Earth has. It's not an aspect of herself that she can erase. But it's also not an aspect of herself that was able to develop for the remainder of her childhood and early adulthood.

She, like all of us, was destined to lose pieces of herself. But some of her loss was very sudden, and the pieces she lost probably weren't going to be the same on Krypton. Of course, she has no way to know.

And I think that frustrates her.

I guess my answer to "Who is Kara?" is that the three personalities clash with and harmonize with each other. None of them are truly her. All of them inform who she is.

There's a young Kara Zor-El as her root that was torn from the ground before she could ever grow.

There's a Kara Danvers who formed the bulk of her life - a mask that was given to her, the only vehicle for her personality, who ultimately became someone she could embrace as worthwhile in her own right.

There's a Supergirl who distinctly separates from those around her, but lets her move past her numbness and reclaim her heritage.

And it's that clash that makes her a particularly compelling character.

Maybe that's a cheating answer to the original question.

But there's still a missing piece to the puzzle - because it's not just about Who is Kara? but also about Who does Kara want to be?

I think Supergirl is something that could fade if needed. If Kara lost her powers, she would find a new normal, so long as she was able to pursue her desire to help the world in some capacity.

But the truth of her is somewhere between Kara Danvers and Kara Zor-El. The truth of her is in what Supergirl allowed her to unbury, even if not directly tied to Supergirl herself. But Danvers and Zor-El are burdens, in a way. Lena is one of the few people who sees the person in between, who understands Kara on her own terms. Which is why Kara is terrified of Lena's rejection.

I think it's one of the most telling lines in the show - to be just Kara is to be free of her own baggage, to be able to embrace herself despite the pain in her history. Something I think we all want, that is never entirely possible.

But the pursuit is still a worthwhile one.

[spineless-lobster]

I think my favourite headcanon that I have is that zag loves I’m gonna claw out your eyes (and drown you to death) and mel loves hymn to zagreus, and sometimes they annoy each other by trying to sing their respective songs louder than the other