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baphomet-media · 2 years ago

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2022 Games of the Year

Hello everyone! 2022 is officially in the can, so it's time for me to rank my top 10 favorite games that I played this year. Here are the groundrules:

Any game I played and finished (whatever that means for each game) this year for the first time. Games that I have played before but only finished this year for the first time are eligible.

If I don't finish a game during the year, as long as I finish it before the end of January and a majority of the playtime was in the last year, it counts.

Ports, remasters, and alternate editions of a game count as the same game, but full remakes do not.

Only one game per series. Same franchise but different series is okay.

Without further ado, let's take a look at my favorites this year!

10. Resident Evil Village (2021)

Genre: Survival Horror Developer: Capcom Publisher: Capcom System Played On: PS5

Everyone's favorite giant undead mommy makes 2021's followup to Resident Evil VII a chilling adventure. Unfortunately, I wish Lady Dimitrescu and her mansion comprised more of the game, instead of being relegated to merely the first third. However, we did get the genuinely horrifying basement area immediately after. All in all, a fun survival horror romp that brings Ethan Winters's story to a close. I'm excited to see what the Resi franchise does next, as it's clear they've got their mojo back.

9. Catherine Fullbody (2019)

Genre: Puzzle Developer: Atlus Publisher: SEGA System Played On: PS5

In this enhanced port of 2011's romantic survival puzzle game from Atlus (the creators of the Shin Megami Tensei franchise and the Persona series), you guide the hapless Vincent as he navigates the perilous waters of romance in the waking world and a devious climb up a wall of blocks each night in the dream world. While I hated Vincent at first, I liked that he can be redeemed by the end, based on your choices. The puzzle gameplay is also incredibly deep and punishing on harder difficulties. Unfortunately the game waits way too long to actually teach you proper strategies, but it's still fun nonetheless. The story has many more twists and turns than you would expect from the premise, too, and even includes some not-horrible queer representation, to my utter astonishment.

8. Final Fantasy VII Remake (2020)

Genre: Action RPG Developer: Square Enix Business Division 1 Publisher: Square Enix System Played On: PS5

I've been a casual fan of FFVII for years now, and this year I finally got around to playing the remake after a replay of the original. While there are a few rough edges (unnamed NPCs all have the exact same face, for example), it's a really fun take on the FFVII story that really digs deep on some of the plot points that went by a little quick in the original. Of course, this only covers the events in Midgar in the beginning of the original game, and a sequel is due to follow someday. Most notably, Remake makes changes to the story that has me eager to see where it will lead. The action combat is fun as well, and I enjoyed being able to control and customize all the main characters.

7. Eastward (2021)

Genre: Adventure Developer: Pixpil Publisher: Chucklefish System Played On: Xbox Series X

Eastward is an incredibly moving adventure game starring John, the silent-but-reliable protagonist, and Sam, his mysterious child sidekick, as they make their way inexorably eastward across a land ravaged by a mysterious Miasma, meeting all sorts of wacky people who are doing their best to survive. The game features a Zelda-like play style, but with an art style and melancholy tone that occasionally can be quite humorous reminiscent of Mother 3. The game is gorgeous, charming, and often heartbreaking. Unfortunately, I found the story was a tad on the obtuse side, and I wished the ending and some of the behind-the-scenes events had been explained a bit more clearly.

6. Pokémon Violet (2022)

Genre: Monster RPG Developer: Gamefreak Publisher: Nintendo System Played On: Switch

While I also finally played the previous generation's Sword version this year, I thought Violet (my choice of the two versions) edged it out. I want to say up-front, yes, it definitely has its faults. The game looks and runs like hot garbage, especially compared to other games on this list, and is sorely lacking post-game content, being the first Pokémon game in recent memory without a Battle Tower or equivalent. However, the open-world format, while a bit clumsy, fits the franchise well, and there are some honest-to-Arceus good story moments in these games, especially in the endgame. While the game could have benefited from an extra year of development and a more powerful console, I think it's still worth playing and beating.

5. Persona 4 Golden (2012)

Genre: JRPG Developer: Atlus Publisher: SEGA System Played On: PC/Steam Deck

While I had played the original Vita version of P4G, I'm ashamed to say that I never actually finished! This year, I spent a ton of time getting to 100% completion across three playthroughs. While the game's abysmal handling of multiple queer characters is just as if not more painful today, I found the game to be a ton of fun, as protagonist Yu must investigate a series of paranormal murders in the small fictional Japanese pastoral town of Inaba, recruiting the help of eccentric classmates to infiltrate a bizarre TV world and rescue potential victims. Along the way you learn to use the various small-town amenities to aid you in your quest and become friends (and maybe even lovers) with various townsfolk. Compared to the later Persona 5, and especially Persona 5 Royal, I found P4G to be less hand-holding, trusting me more as a player to plan my limited time and resources. If you're a fan of JRPGs, Persona, or Shin Megami Tensei, this is a must-play.

4. Lost Judgment (2021)

Genre: Action Developer: Ryu Ga Gotoku Studio Publisher: SEGA System Played On: PS5

2021's sequel to the Yakuza/Like A Dragon spinoff Judgment sees us once more follow loose cannon detective Yagami as he investigates a series of murders with strange connections to both a high school in Yokohama as well as a bizarre sexual harassment case in Shinjuku. As before, Yagami investigates by interviewing witnesses, following targets, and using a host of high-tech detective tools to find the truth. Of course, his fists and feet are also just as valuable, with the Yakuza franchise's staple brawling combat across multiple fighting styles in huge open cities. Also as expected of the Yakuza franchise, there is a king's ransom of side content both serious and lighthearted, particularly in the new school clubs which Yagami can participate in, from a skateboarding club where Yagami does his best Tony Hawk impression, to a robotics club where you take place in a strategic battle of the bots. My only gripe is that this sequel feels a bit less personal to the main characters, leaving Yagami feeling a bit like an outsider through the whole story, but still a great game that innovates on the Yakuza franchise.

3. Super Lesbian Animal RPG (2022)

Genre: RPG Developer: Ponett (@slarpg) Publisher: Ponett System Played On: PC/Steam Deck

You ever have a story that comes out of nowhere and jaw-punches you with just how made-for-you it feels? While SLARPG may seem like just a cutesy RPG-maker game at first blush, this indie darling full of strong, complex, queer female characters really had me feeling seen as a queer female gamer, myself. The story is a heartwarming modern fantasy that focuses a ton on flawed characters learning to grow emotionally under the pressure of having to save the world. In addition, the combat system has a ton of unexpected depth with unique character abilities plus interchangeable spellbooks that each have their own abilities. Also, finally a game that will let the lesbians kiss! Ye gods that was so satisfying. My only complaints with the game are some inevitable RPG Maker jank (as a recovering RPG Maker veteran, myself), and the fact that the short-but-sweet runtime has left me rabid for more!

2. Digimon Survive (2022)

Genre: Tactical RPG/Visual Novel Developer: Hyde Publisher: Bandai Namco System Played On: PC/Steam Deck

Digimon fans (of which I include myself) have been clamoring for a really good game for decades now, and I personally think Survive is it. The game features a cast of middle schoolers (notably older than Digimon's normal heroes) who find themselves stuck in a strange alternate world inhabited by spiritual monsters called Kemonogami (the titular Digimon), and must fight for their very survival and a chance to return home. The game's dark tone and moments of character growth were extremely moving and refreshing for Digimon, which usually caters to a much younger audience. Some may not care for the extensive Visual Novel content for the story or the tactics-lite combat system, but I found them both to be engaging, and I enjoyed both befriending all the characters and recruiting all monster species. The game has multiple endings to explore as well, the true ending only available on NG+. However I kind of felt like it made the alignment-based endings feel a bit moot. Still, this game is a triumph for the Digimon franchise and I really hope we'll see a Survive 2 someday.

Honorable Mentions

Before we get to the #1 spot, I'd like to take a moment to highlight some other games I played this year, from smaller indies to larger games that didn't quite make the cut, but still are worthy of your time:

Grapple Dog (PC) - Fun GBA-style action platformer with cute characters.

Echo Generation (Xbox) - Stranger Things-esque voxel RPG with tons of lo-fi 80s vibe.

Elec Head (PC) - Indie puzzle platformer where you toss around your battery-powered head to solve electricity puzzles.

Shin Megami Tensei IV (3DS) - Main-series SMT monster RPG with mind-bending story and world where you're forced to choose between law and chaos, but neither choice is truly right.

Persona 4 Arena Ultimax (PC) - Arcade fighter sequel to both Persona 3 and Persona 4 with a surprisingly deep and emotional story.

Shantae and the Seven Sirens (PC) - Indie darling Shantae is back on another adventure platformer on a sprawling island home to seven titular sirens who have gone missing.

Super Kiwi 64 (PC) - Tiny retro 3D collect-a-thon featuring a zippy little kiwi bird.

Rainy Season (PC) - Tiny story based game about being stuck inside your small Japanese house as a kid during a rainy day and using your imagination.

Lunistice (PC) - Retro 3D platformer with tons of PS1-era charm.

Crisis Core Reunion (PS5) - Remake of Final Fantasy VII's PSP prequel Crisis Core on modern consoles. Looking very smooth, but the new voice acting is a toss-up at best and still relies too heavily on the same grindy missions as the handheld original.

Civilization VI (PC) - I finally got into CivVI this year and may have developed an unhealthy addiction to this turn-based civilization building strategy icon.

The Complex: Found Footage (PC) - This creepy short walk through the infamous Backrooms is sure to send a chill down your spine.

And at last, here's the (probably unsurprising) game of the year!

1. Elden Ring (2022)

Genre: Action RPG Developer: FromSoftware Publisher: Bandai Namco System Played On: Xbox Series X

As someone who is already a die-hard Souls fan, this is really a no-brainer. Elden Ring takes the legendary Souls formula and blasts it open to a massive open world. Somehow, eleven years after Skyrim started the open world craze, in an era where such games are passé, Elden Ring manages to create a triumph of tough-but-fair combat, deeply detailed vertical level design, and a subtle-but-deep world and lore. I've sunk hundreds of hours into this masterpiece of a game across multiple different playthroughs, each somehow still fresh and fun. This game will be a huge icon for many years to come, especially if From decides to create some DLC down the line.

So what do you think? Do you agree with my picks? Think some other games should be on the list? What were your favorite games this year? Let me know~!

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finch · 2 years ago

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well girls we’re back again with another year of me doing mediocre. if you’re new to this televisual programme i like to write down the videogames i’ve played during the year and i give them scores and such because this is my life, and that’s fine. 🔁 denotes a repeat playthrough.

– Completed –

⭐ Final Fantasy: The 4 Heroes of Light (PC) - 5.5/10 + ᴜɴᴅᴇʀʀᴀᴛᴇᴅ! ⭐ The Last Remnant (PC) - 6/10 + sᴇǫᴜᴇʟ ᴘʟᴢ! ⭐ Divinity: Original Sin (PC) - 4/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Earth Defense Force 5 (PC) - 6/10 + ᴠᴇʀʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Tyranny (PC) - 4/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Divinity: Original Sin 2 (PC) - 6/10 + ᴠᴇʀʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ GreedFall (PC) - 5/10 + ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Baldur’s Gate: Enhanced Edition (PC) - 7.5/10 + sᴛɪʟʟ ʜᴏʟᴅs ᴜᴘ! ⭐ Baldur’s Gate: Siege of Dragonspear (PC) - 4.5/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Baldur’s Gate II: Enhanced Edition (PC) - 7/10 + sᴛɪʟʟ ʜᴏʟᴅs ᴜᴘ! ⭐ Tell Me Why (PC) - 4/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga (PS2) - 4.5/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga 2 (PS2) - 3.5/10 + sᴜʙᴘᴀʀ! ⭐ Xenogears (PSX) - 6/10 + ᴅɪsᴄ 2 ʜᴀᴛᴇ ɪs ᴏᴠᴇʀʙʟᴏᴡɴ! ⭐ Pokémon Legends: Arceus (Switch) - 5.5/10 + ᴡᴛғ ᴛʜɪs ɪs ɢᴏᴏᴅ!? ⭐ Xenoblade Chronicles: Definitive Edition (Switch) - 6/10 + ᴠᴇʀʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Xenoblade Chronicles X (Wii U) - 4.5/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Detroit: Become Human (PS4) - 6/10 + ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴜᴛʜᴇʀ! ⭐ Fire Emblem: Three Houses (Switch) - 6.5/10 + ᴠᴇʀʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Fire Emblem: New Mystery of the Emblem (DS) - 3/10 + s'ᴀʟʀɪɢʜᴛ! ⭐ Fire Emblem Fates: Birthright (3DS) - 3.5/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Armored Core VI: Fires of Rubicon (PC) - 7/10 + ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ! ⭐ Summoner 2 (PS2) - 7.5/10 + ʜɪᴅᴅᴇɴ ɢᴇᴍ! ⭐ The Alliance Alive (3DS) - 6/10 + ᴠᴇʀʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Fire Emblem Engage (Switch) - 7/10 + ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ! ⭐ Fire Emblem Fates: Conquest (3DS) - 4.5/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Super Mario RPG (2023) (Switch) - 5.5/10 + ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ Final Fantasy VIII Remastered (2019) (PC) - 5/10 + ɢᴏᴏᴅ! ⭐ God Eater 3 (PC) - 4/10 + ᴘʀᴇᴛᴛʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ! 🔁 Final Fantasy IX (PSX) - 7.5/10 + ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ! ⭐ Star Ocean: The Divine Force (PC) - 7/10 + ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ! --

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tetrix-anime · 5 years ago

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Megami Magazine October 2019 Issue (#233) - Tsuujou Kougeki ga Zentai Kougeki de Ni-kai Kougeki no Okaasan wa Suki Desu ka?

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satoshi-mochida · 4 years ago

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Publisher Phoenixx and developer Team Ladybug will release Touhou Luna Nights in 2020, the publisher announced.

The Touhou Project Metroidvania game first launched for PC via Steam Early Access in August 2018, before exiting Early Access with its version 1.0 release in February 2019. An Xbox One version was released on September 3.

Here is an overview of the game, via its Steam page:

About

Touhou Luna Nights is a Metroidvania title with a heavy emphasis on exploration and action. Developed by Team Ladybug, creators of multiple fantastic action games thus far.

Story

“…Now, let’s begin my world.”

Remilia Scarlet, head vampire of the Scarlet Devil Mansion sends her maid Sakuya Izayoi with no warning to a world much like Gensokyo, but not quite.

A world full of strange places, filled with strange youkai and her time manipulation sealed.

What could Remilia’s end game be…?

Key Features

Time stop system from character’s Ability and Gimmick maps that use special abilities like time stop.

Adapt the “graze” system of the Touhou Project into a 2D game, giving you a sense of tension in approaching to the enemy.

Graphics that bring out the appeal of Touhou world, such as attractive dot graphics.

A Word from the Publisher

Team Ladybug began with Pharaoh Rebirth, continuing with other enjoyable games including Resurrection of Beldia and Shin Megami Tensei Synchronicity Prologue. Since, I have been waiting in anticipation for their next project.

This time, they have created a fan fiction game based off the world-renowned Touhou Project. From the background to the character’s movements and various skills, one can feel the creator’s passion for games and love of Touhou Project.

While it has a Metroidvania style, the game can easily progress without the insistence of repeat elements or collecting items. This has resulted in a spectacular game born from the game production skills cultivated by Team Ladybug.

And I personally want to highlight the beauty of the anime sprite. You can see the attention to detail the creator put into not only the leading character’s movements, but the effects and enemy characters.

Touhou Luna Nights is not only for Touhou fans but one that can be enjoyed by anyone who loves 2D action games.

#Touhou Luna Nights #Phoenixx #Team Ladybug #Touhou #Touhou Project #Gematsu

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emilsan · 3 years ago

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Game List - Nintendo Switch

Below is the list and overview of my Nintendo Switch games.

Completed – finished the story or played enough to consider the game completed. For example, if it’s an action-heavy and not a very story-oriented game, I may or may not play it to the end credits. If it's something without an explicit ending, I'll consider it beaten when I get tired playing it and if the game is very story-driven, I’d need to see the entire story.

Mastered – achieved something that grants a “mastered” status. For example, spent more than 100 hours, played at numerous points of my life, collected all trophies or achievements, et cetera.

Dropped – I tend to avoid dropping games but there might be some which I will want to keep for one reason or another despite having negative views or just not willing to complete them properly. They will have a “Dropped” status.

No status – yet to play or haven’t finished yet but intend to.

Ratings

10 out of 10 - very important to me on a personal level.

9 out of 10 - this game excels at what it’s trying to be, impressed me a lot.

8 out of 10 - just a very good game.

7 out of 10 - good, though could have been better.

6 out of 10 - decent experience but I expected a lot more.

Nintendo Switch

Animal Crossing: New Horizons Digital, completed, 30 hours in March-April 2020. 8/10

While there are some things I thought could have been better or had been better in the previous entries (New Leaf and Wild World), none of it really matters. New Horizons is a very relaxing and peaceful experience to log into every other day to see how the animals are doing or to improve your island.

Bayonetta 2

Cartridge, completed, 15 hours, 2018-2019. 9/10

Ah, to be a demon under the heal of Bayonetta... Might change the score to 10 or 8, depending on how I like Bayonetta 3.

Bayonetta 3

The Binding of Isaac: Afterbirth+ Digital, completed, under 10 hours, before 2015 (not Rebirth version), 7/10

Fun roguelike with a nice subtle story about a certain baby who gets to visit.. Hell?

Captain Toad: Treasure Tracker Digital, completed, 10 hours, 2018-2019. 8/10

Captain Toad is a spin-off of the Mario franchise that focuses more on puzzles rather than platforming. I always liked Toads, so it’s nice to see them get their own game.

The entire game was a very refreshing take on Mario and I’m hoping this would eventually get a sequel. All of the puzzles were fun to solve, the secrets were interesting to find and I particularly liked how much thought was put into every level and its design.

I’d recommend this to everyone who likes Mario games.

Catherine: Full Body Digital, completed (on PS4), 7 hours, 2019. 10/10 Chose Katherine as partner, chosen voice of Catherine was Nana Mizuki.

Catherine: Full Body is essentially a “Director’s Cut” of the 2011’s Catherine released for PS3 and Xbox 360. At that time, I didn’t know much about games, so I missed its initial release. Full Body adds a lot of content with the most interesting being an option to not only switch to the original Japanese voice-acting but to also choose the voice-actress you prefer for one of the characters… and there’s quite a few options to choose from, all being famous Japanese seiyuu (voice-actors), so everyone could find their perfect “heart-stealer”.

In many ways this game is an absolute miracle – it goes against all the cliché and tendencies of the market; it mixes up the unique atmosphere of Shin Megami Tensei games with a more mundane, simplistic story of a certain person’s issues with a relationship. At first I didn’t think I would be able to relate to the main character but the choice system makes it much easier and essentially lets you choose your own story, tilt the protagonist into a more relatable side.

Catherine Full Body is one of my favorite video games of all time. It is not afraid of being a niche title or providing less than 10 hours of play time. The story of Catherine is very personal, moving and keeps the player on edge all the time. And if that wasn’t enough, there are many complicated puzzles, which can be skipped if you just want to focus on the story.

The biggest strength of Catherine Full Body is just how well it’s executed. I would recommend this game to everyone.

Chocobo’s Mystery Dungeon: Every Buddy! Digital

Chocobo GP Lite Digital, completed, ~5 hours, 2022, 6/10

Not as good as Mario Kart, unfortunately, but overall a very nice game for the fans of Final Fantasy. Intend to get the full version eventually.

Digimon Story: Cyber Sleuth - Complete Edition

Disgaea 4: A Promise Unforgotten Digital

Disgaea 5: Alliance of Vengeance Digital

Dragon Quest Builders 2 (prefer the PS4 version for performance but keeping Switch for portability)

World of Final Fantasy Maxima Digital

FINAL FANTASY VIII - Remastered Digital

FINAL FANTASY IX Digital

FINAL FANTASY: Crystal Chronicles - Remastered Digital, completed, 5+ hours, 2021. 6/10

Made primarily for multiplayer and co-op, it’s hard to judge FF Crystal Chronicles as a single-player experience... what kept me playing then? The game has a brilliant atmospere and music of a classic Final Fantasy. It also features this unique system of interaction with the game’s world which was quite unique back then and even now - random events that can end with different outcomes.

FF CC is just a very comfy experience, worth seeing for the fans of this franchise. I only wish it had been more fun (and easier, as later dungeons get difficult) without multiplayer.

I have not finished the story properly but marking it as “Complete” since it isn’t necessarily a story-heavy experience.

Grim Fandango Remastered Digital

KINGDOM HEARTS: Melody of Memory Digital

Legend of Mana Digital

The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild (+ DLC) Cartridge, completed, 50 hours, 2018-2019. 10/10

Excellent new take on The Legend of Zelda series. The game is masterful in everything it does with a story that’s told in an interesting, similar to Dark Souls way, that encourages you to understand it on your own rather than overwhelm with exposition. The gameplay is fantastic, character design and dialogue are unlike any other game and all the puzzles, dungeons are clever. One of the best games ever made.

I’ve completed the story and a lot of dungeons, though not all of them. Also haven’t played the DLC content.

The Legend of Zelda: Link’s Awakening No license, completed, 2021, 10 hours. 8/10

Link’s Awakening is the remake of a 1993 TLOZ game. It’s very telling that the remake of the game released in 1993 doesn’t need to change anything to still be very engaging to play from start to finish.

I liked the toy-like graphics a lot and for the most part I’ve had no issue with progressing through the game. It really felt like playing a smaller scale new game rather than a remake of a game from the early 90s.

The Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword HD Digital

Luigi’s Mansion 3 Digital

Mario + Rabbids Kingdom Battle Gold Edition Digital, completed, 20-30 hours, 2021. 8/10

Inspired by the X-Com and Fire Emblem, Mario+Rabbids genuinely feels like a Mario game, even though it was developed (mostly?) by Ubisoft.

The battle system manages to stay reasonably challenging, authentic to Mario and Rabbids franchises. I did feel like the game lacked some variety and perhaps some kind of overworld, secrets and new enemy types somewhere near the end but I may have just needed a break.

I’d absolutely recommend this game to any fan of the Mario franchise or if you just like tactical experiences similar to X-Com and Fire Emblem.

Mario Kart 8 Deluxe No cartridge, completed, 5-10 hours, 2018-2019. 8/10

Though it would have been better to get a brand new entry in Mario Kart franchise (since MK8 is a port of the Wii U game of the same name), the game is still a lot of fun to play and Nintendo finally has decided to add more tracks from previous entries.

I love all the attention to detail and just how different each race can feel, this global feel of playing online matches or having fun solo. Highly recommended.

Mega Man 11 Digital, completed, 10-15 hours, 2019. 8/10

Capcom has been on a roll since the start of the eighth console generation and they haven’t disappointed me with this new entry in Mega Man franchise. I’ve played some Mega Man prior to 11 but none of them really stood out to me much. With this 11th entry they’ve added a few unique mechanics which complete the experience and make the game a lot more satisfying and varied.

Mega Man 11 is cute but don’t let the looks deceive you, the platforming here can be as upsetting as failing to progress through the area in Dark Souls. The difficulty does get a little uncomfortable at times, though thankfully there are difficulty options at least. I do feel like the game could have used more balancing to even out some truly unfair moments but perhaps that would have been contrary to the game’s design.

If you like platformers with some challenge, Mega Man 11 is for you.

Minecraft Digital, mastered, before 2014, 100+ hours (PC beta version). 10/10

I’ve spent one of my high-school Summer breaks just playing this game online and offline. Online experience was… something else. Since I couldn’t afford an official copy at that time, I had to play on (Jack Sparrow) servers and that’s with my very slow modem Internet in my village. Most of the servers I’d join were toxic and had these “griefers” who would destroy people’s creations on purpose. This would happen on other servers, too, but they’ve had protection against that. Minecraft is one of the best games ever made, its unique gameplay, masterful game-design are still as impressive as they were back when the game launched for beta-testing. Despite being limited by the “blocky” graphics, the game manages to look beautiful while in motion and offer an endless amount of creativity.

This game doesn’t have a heart-wrenching story but it doesn’t really need one. The story of Minecraft is what you make of it and the memories of complete creative freedom and melancholic exploration.

Monster Hunter Generations Ultimate Digital

Monster Boy and the Cursed Kingdom Digital

NEW Pokemon Snap Digital

New Super Mario Bros. U Deluxe Digital, completed, 2019, 5-10 hours. 7/10

I see NSMBros. U Deluxe as a soft remake of the old Mario games (SNES-GBA etc.). It has a simple aesthetic, levels and gameplay reminiscent of those old titles. Ultimately this hurts the game because the things that were the top of the line just a few years ago don’t really work that well after some time had passed. Let alone the game design of pre-2000. However, this doesn’t mean NSMBros U is a bad game, it is just lacking inspiration and complexity that one expects from Mario and Nintendo.

If you don’t expect it to be the next Super Mario Odyssey, Mario Bros U Deluxe is a fun game for a few evenings.

No More Heroes

Octopath Traveler Digital

Okami HD Digital

Overcooked Special Edition Digital

If like a lot, add back the Overcooked collection game on PS5.

Panzer Dragoon Remake Digital

Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney Trilogy Digital

Pikmin 3 Deluxe Digital, completed, 6-7 hours, 2021. 8/10

The third entry in the franchise of the intergalactic adventures, cute alien-flowers, giant fruit, bridges and... canned food? o_O

Pikmin 3 is an real-time strategy game at its heart, minus the clunkiness you’d expect to see in a regular RTS. The experience is just so finely tuned that you quickly forget you’re playing a strategy game.

If the cute alien-flowers and giant fruit weren’t enough, I can say that the strategic elements of the game are also quite fun. Pikmin 3 has a lot of optional content for extended replayability, so rest assured there is plenty to do other than just the main story.

It’ll be interesting to see how this franchise evolves in the upcoming fourth entry.

PixelJunk Monsters 2 Deluxe Edition (keeping the Steam version for performance) Digital

Pokemon Shield Digital, completed, 10-15 hours, 2019. 8/10

The Internet debate of whether “GameFreak lied or not” is something everyone was aware of, including people at the studio. Despite all the drama, I think Pokemon Shield did enough to take the franchise further to the experience of Pokemon. But what exactly is this “Pokemon Experience” anyway?

I’ve seen the first few seasons of the anime, played numerous games in the franchise and in my opinion, Pokemon had always been a simplistic game with one goal - collect Pokemon. The battles, story and visuals are important but they’re more of a side piece that lets players interact with their favorite creature more, after the initial “I want this cute Pokemon!”.

Speaking of battles and graphics, I thought all of these were fine. Yes, it doesn’t look comparable to a Sony exclusive technically but the visuals are pretty enough. The main issue is the reusage of models and oldschool gamedesign, something that has been with Pokemon since the first game and all the way to the 3DS.

Shield and Sword leave a lot of room for future improvements, however I think it is one of the best entries in this franchise. The game had finally managed to achieve the cutscenes that feel very close to the anime, the battles are simple but engaging and the monster collecting is as fun as it was in the previous entries.

Shin Megami Tensei V Cartridge

Star Ocean: First Departure R Digital

STEINS;GATE Elite Digital

Super Mario 3D All-Stars Digital

Super Mario 3D World + Bowser’s Fury No cartridge, completed (original on Wii U), 10-15 hours. 8/10

I do feel like Mario 3D World didn’t take enough of a leap forward compared to Super Mario Galaxy or Odyssey... however, this doesn’t seem like the right thing to say. The game is very fun, going beyond the expected quality of a Nintendo game and numerous hours of joy.

Super Mario Maker 2 No cartridge, completed, 2019, 15 hours. 8/10

Unlike its predecessor (Super Mario Maker 1), the second game has its own story-mode with a set of 100 levels designed by the developers of the game. On top of that, there is an endless amount of content made by players from all over the world... which sadly is going to be lost whenever Nintendo decides to stop supporting this game. But that’s a story for another post...

Super Mario Maker 2 doesn’t just pay tribute to the old Mario games, it encourages players to be creative and to appreciate creativity, which I think is what makes Nintendo so unique. The levels created by the community are truly amazing and it feels like there is an endless amount of content here.

My only issues with Mario Maker 2 is that the multiplayer lags a lot almost always (which is important for a platformer) and that the offline non-community single-player content could have been a little more extensive.

If you like to experience other people’s ideas and visions, Mario Maker 2 is an excellent choice.

Super Mario Odyssey Cartridge, completed, 2018, 15-25 hours. 9/10

Super Mario Odyssey was my first game on Switch. I feel like it’s one of the best if not the best Mario game to date. Excellence of game systems, the feeling of adventure, never-ending surprises and things to see and discover. All of that and more can be found in Super Mario Odyssey.

Super Smash Bros. Ultimate (+ Joker, Hero, Pyra/Mythra, Sephiroth, Sora) Digital, completed, 2019-2021, 15-30 hours. 9/10

Smash may not be my favorite fighting game, but it is definitely one of the best fighting experiences in the genre. Sadly, a lot of fighting games just don’t get that atmosphere of a tournament right or focus too much on gameplay mechanics (especially 2D anime fighters), completely skipping the “fun” factor and little things that tie everything together into one complete experience. I’d make an example with 2D anime fighting games, a lot of which turn me off simply because they feel too raw, they may have good mechanics but if the game doesn’t let you learn itself or if it doesn’t ensure that the experience of playing it feels grandiose, then what is the point?

Super Smash Bros. is relatively simple, however the level of detail and care put into every little bit of the game, every stage and character is what ties things together and creates a unique game which goes beyond the limits of a fighting genre. Smash is a “celebration of gaming” , quoting its director, Masahiro Sakurai.

The main reason why I got into Smash were the DLC characters - Hero from Dragon Quest XI and Joker from Persona 5. While Joker wasn’t to my liking (gameplay-wise), Hero exceeded my expectations and is still one of my favorite characters to play as. Next would be Sephiroth and Sora.

All the iconic music, atmosphere and the Smash experience is something no gamer should miss out on. I do wish Ultimate had a little more single-player content, thoug, but the game is truly excellent even without it.

Taiko no Tatsujin: Drum 'n' Fun! (+ a few song packs) Digital, completed, 10-20 hours, 2019. 8/10

Taiko no Tatsujin: Drum `n` Fun was my first Taiko and I liked how diverse the track-list was, especially compared to some other rhythm games I’ve played in the past. There’s every genre: from pop to classical and even some gaming soundtracks or anime songs. The gameplay is simple yet fun., the characters are charming.

A lot of people seem to have disliked the Joy-Con controls but I actually enjoyed the game more with Joy-Con on. Of course, the most “authentic’ experience of Taiko is to play it with a drum controller and with Hard difficulty settings but it’s fun regardless of if you’re playing it with stationary joy-cons, undocked joy-cons with gyro or the drums.

Valkyria Chronicles Remastered (Switch - portable, Steam - performance)

Valkyria Chronicles 4: Complete Edition (Switch - portable, Steam - performance)

Wuppo Digital

Xenoblade Chronicles 2 Digital, completed, 50+ hours, 2018. 10/10

Along with Super Mario Odyssey, Xenoblade Chronicles 2 was one of the first games I played on Switch. It managed to become one of my favorite JRPG of all time. The scope of the story, unique fighting mechanics, genuine characters and drama, music score, the level of care and detail put into its world and lore of the game are some of the best in gaming.

Xenoblade pushes the limits of Switch as a gaming console and delivers an emotional, thought-provoking narrative.

Xenoblade Chronicles 2: Torna - The Golden Country Digital, completed, 20-30 hours, 2020. 9/10

Torna – The Golden Country is a prequel to Xenoblade Chronicles 2 which has enough content to be considered a separate game. It’s not as impressive as the original XC2 but still manages to have a very moving story and provide an experience like no other.

I see Torna as the part of XC2, “second disc” or perhaps the “0.5 disc Intermission” if this was titled by Tetsuya Nomura.

Yoku’s Island Express Digital, completed, 2020, 5 hours. 6/10

Yoku’s Island Express is a mix of a platformer and pinball game. In order to progress through the areas, you need to collect enough points and you do that by performing pinball jumps. The visual style is unique, the game has a distinct atmosphere and the pinball inspiration is executed well.

It didn’t hold my attention enough to go through the entirety of it or want to before I marked it as “complete” but it’s still a good game nonetheless.

Yoshi’s Crafted World No cartridge, completed, 2020, 10-15 hours. 9/10

A delightful platformer with a fantastic “crafted hobby” visual style and fun platformer mechanics. It was fun to finish from start to end and I find it to be perfectly balanced: the game wasn’t too difficult or too easy. One of the best Nintendo platformers and Poochy-Yoshi duo is so adorable!

Yu-Gi-Oh! Legacy of the Duelist: Link Evolution Digital

YU-NO: A Girl Who Chants Love at the Bound of this World Digital

#list #video games #nintendo #switch #game library

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2020 Backlog Progress in Retrospect

2020 was the year of finally finishing the backlog. The final game ended up being Disco Elysium back on July 1st but in the months since I’ve built up a list again. Going forward I’m hoping to keep the backlog at 10 games or less since I’ve found I do like having a wider list of games to choose from after finishing something. After finishing over 100 games in 2020 there were a ton of classics that I finished for the first time, so many so that making a top 20 list was very difficult. I’ve always made this end of year breakdowns for my own archives but I thought it would be fun to share it this year alongside the full list of what I finished!

Top 20 of 2020 First Time Finished

1 Sakura Wars (Sega Saturn) 2 Skies of Arcadia (Dreamcast) 3 Dragon Quest XI S (Switch) 4 Shiren the Wanderer: The Tower of Fortune & the Dice of Fate (Switch) 5 Ultima Underworld: The Stygian Abyss (PC) 6 Red Dead Redemption 2 (PC) 7 Mega Man Legends 2 (PS1) 8 Shining Force II (Genesis) 9 Xenoblade Chronicles X (Wii U) 10 Super Mario Odyssey (Switch) 11 Sea of Thieves (PC) 12 Phantasy Star IV (Genesis) 13 Yooka-Laylee and the Impossible Lair (Switch) 14 Shenmue (Dreamcast) 15 Last Window: The Secret of Cape West (DS) 16 killer7 (PC) 17 Moon: Remix RPG Adventure (Switch) 18 Maniac Mansion (PC) 19 ZeroRanger (PC) 20 VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action (PC)

Favorite game of 2020: Sakura Wars

When I was looking back at this year, the game that stuck the most with me was easily the original Sakura Wars for the Sega Saturn. Back in December of 2019 the english patch released online and I was so excited to finally be able to play the first entry in one of Sega’s biggest franchises for the first time. I had yet to play any games in the series beyond just fumbling around an import copy of various games on Saturn and Dreamcast and I was glad to be able to experience it with such a well-made fan patch. It’s a very simple strategy game mixed in with lite RPG and Dating mechanics but there’s such a great charm to how well everything mixes together. The way they mix in the animated cutscenes throughout each chapter make it feel like you’re playing a classic mid 90′s anime and it was just a nice cozy experience the whole way. I managed to play through it twice this year and tinkered around with later entrees in the series but I’m hopeful that the sequel will get picked up as a fan translation project soon, otherwise I’ll probably be going through those games the old fashioned way with a printed out GameFAQS guide at my side.

Date breakdown of everything new or finished in the backlog this year:

12-13-20 Started: Cadence of Hyrule: Crypt of the NecroDancer ��(Switch)

12-12-20 Beat: Shiren the Wanderer: The Tower of Fortune and the Dice of Fate (Switch)

12-06-20 New: Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon and the Blade of Light (Switch)

12-05-20 New: Shiren the Wanderer: The Tower of Fortune and the Dice of Fate (Switch)

12-02-20 Beat: Super Mario Sunshine (Switch)

11-30-20 Beat: Dragon Quest Builders (Switch)

11-27-20 New: Steins;Gate (PC)

11-26-20 Beat: Shantae and the Seven Sirens (Switch)

11-25-20 Started: Shantae and the Seven Sirens (Switch) Beat: Travis Strikes Again: No More Heroes (Switch)

11-21-20 New: Cadence of Hyrule: Crypt of the NecroDancer (Switch) New: Vitamin Connection (Switch) New: Paper Mario: The Origami King (Switch) Beat: killer7 (PC)

11-18-20 Beat: Metal Slug 6 (ARC)

11-14-20 Started: Travis Strikes Again: No More Heroes (Switch)

11-13-20 Beat: ESP Ra.De. Psi (Switch)

11-12-20 New: Travis Strikes Again: No More Heroes (Switch) New: ESP Ra.De. Psi (Switch)

11-11-20 Completed: No More Heroes (Switch)

11-08-20 New (Null): Cave Story 3D (3DS)

11-07-20 Completed: Gate of Thunder (TGCD)

11-06-20 New (Null): No More Heroes (Switch) Beat: No More Heroes 2: Desperate Struggle (Switch)

11-01-20 Beat: Danmaku Unlimited 2 (PC) Beat: Triggerheart Exelica (DC) Completed: Gradius II (NES)

10-28-20 Completed: Costume Quest (PC) New (Null): No More Heroes 2: Desperate Struggle (Switch)

10-25-20 Started: Murder By Numbers (Switch) Beat: Blue Wish Resurrection (PC) New: Blue Wish Resurrection (PC)

10-22-20 Beat: A Hat in Time (PC) New: A Hat in Time (PC)

10-17-20 Beat: Thunder Force AC (Switch)

10-16-20 New: Thunder Force AC (Switch)

10-14-20 New (Null): Slime Mori Mori Dragon Quest 3: Daikaizoku to Shippo Dan (3DS)

10-13-20 New: Shantae and the Seven Sirens (Switch)

10-12-20 Beat: Chex Quest (PC) Completed: Mega Man 5 (Switch)

10-07-20 Beat: Mega Man Zero 3 (Switch)

10-05-20 Beat: Cave Story+ (Switch)

10-04-20 Completed: DELTARUNE Chapter 1 (Switch) Started: DELTARUNE Chapter 1 (Switch)

10-03-20 Completed: Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney − Trials and Tribulations (3DSDL)

10-01-20 Started: Dragon Quest Builders (Switch)

09-27-20 Beat: Star Ocean: First Departure R (Switch)

09-25-20 New: Murder By Numbers (Switch)

09-20-20 New: DELTARUNE Chapter 1 (Switch) New: Dragon Quest Builders (Switch) New: Romancing SaGa 3 (Switch)

09-19-20 Beat: VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action (PC) New (Null): Super Mario Galaxy (Switch) New (Null): Super Mario Sunshine (Switch) New (Null): Super Mario 64 (Switch)

09-16-20 New: Star Ocean: First Departure R (Switch)

09-14-20 Beat: Armed Police Batrider (ARC)

09-13-20 Beat: Moon: Remix RPG Adventure (Switch)

09-10-20 New: Arcanum: Of Steamworks and Magick Obscura (PC)

09-07-20 Beat: Disgaea 5 Complete (Switch) New: VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action (PC)

09-05-20 Beat: King's Quest: Quest for the Crown (PC)

09-02-20 Completed: Ultima Underworld: The Stygian Abyss (PC)

08-27-20 Started: Moon: Remix RPG Adventure (Switch) New: Moon: Remix RPG Adventure (Switch)

08-23-20 Beat: Wario Land III (GBC)

08-19-20 Started: Wario Land III (GBC) Completed: Broken Age (PC) Beat: Bomb Monkey (3DS)

08-17-20 New: Chicken Wiggle (3DS) New: Mutant Mudds Super Challenge (3DS) New: Xeodrifter (3DS) New: Bomb Monkey (3DS) New: Mutant Mudds (3DS)

08-16-20 New: Ultima Underworld: The Stygian Abyss (PC)

08-15-20 Beat: Maniac Mansion (PC)

08-14-20 Beat: Devil May Cry 3 Special Edition (Switch)

08-10-20 New: Wario Land III (GBC)

08-09-20 New: Maniac Mansion (PC) Beat: Red Dead Redemption 2 (PC)

08-03-20 New: Disgaea 5 Complete (Switch)

08-02-20 Beat: Star Wars: Dark Forces (PC)

08-01-20 Beat: Donkey Kong Country 2 (GBA)

07-31-20 New: Star Wars: Dark Forces (PC)

07-25-20 New (Null): Devil May Cry 3 Special Edition (Switch)

07-24-20 New (Null): Cave Story (Switch)

07-20-20 New: Shin Megami Tensei (SNES) Beat: Mega Man X4 (Saturn)

07-17-20 New: Donkey Kong Country 2 (GBA)

07-16-20 Beat: The Wonderful 101: Remastered (Switch)

07-12-20 Completed: Chip 'n Dale: Rescue Rangers (NES) Completed: Rockman 8 FC (PC)

07-11-20 Completed: Mega Man 8 (Saturn)

07-09-20 New (Null): The Wonderful 101: Remastered (Switch)

07-06-20 Completed: Darkwing Duck (NES) New: Red Dead Redemption 2 (PC)

07-04-20 New (Beat): Streets of Rage 4 (Switch)

07-01-20 Beat: Disco Elysium (PC)

06-30-20 Beat: ZeroRanger (PC) New: ZeroRanger (PC)

06-25-20 New (Beat): Super Puzzle Fighter II X (Saturn) Beat: Resident Evil (Switch)

06-20-20 Beat: Xenoblade Chronicles X (WiiU)

06-17-20 Started: Resident Evil (Switch)

06-16-20 Completed: G-LOC: Air Battle (Switch) New: Resident Evil (Switch) New: G-LOC: Air Battle (Switch)

06-08-20 Started: Disco Elysium (PC)

06-06-20 Completed: Time Bokan Series: Bokan to Ippatsu! Doronboo Kanpekiban (Saturn)

06-05-20 New: Disco Elysium (PC) Completed: Mega Man X3 (SNES)

06-04-20 New (Null): Xenoblade Chronicles: Definitive Edition (Switch)

06-01-20 Completed: Super Mario Odyssey (Switch)

05-28-20 Beat: Mega Man Zero 2 (Switch)

05-25-20 Completed: Diablo (PC)

05-15-20 Completed: Aladdin (Switch)

05-13-20 Beat: Bayonetta 2 (Switch)

05-10-20 Completed: Seaman (DC) Beat: Shining Force III (Saturn)

05-02-20 Completed: Spider-Man vs. The Kingpin (GEN)

05-01-20 Beat: Etrian Odyssey II: Heroes of Lagaard (NDS)

04-29-20 Beat: Phantasy Star IV (GEN) New: Spider-Man (GEN) Beat: Mega Man Legends 2 (PS)

04-25-20 Started: Phantasy Star IV (GEN) Started: Seaman (DC)

04-24-20 Beat: Shenmue (DC)

04-20-20 Completed: Last Window: The Secret of Cape West (NDS)

04-19-20 Beat: Sea of Thieves (PC)

04-14-20 Started: Last Window: The Secret of Cape West (NDS)

04-13-20 Beat: Shining the Holy Ark (Saturn)

04-10-20 Completed: Professor Layton and the Unwound Future (NDS) Beat: Professor Layton and the Unwound Future (NDS)

04-02-20 Beat: Boktai: The Sun Is in Your Hand (GBA)

04-01-20 Started: Professor Layton and the Unwound Future (NDS) Completed: Mega Man Legends (PS)

03-29-20 Completed: Phantasy Star II (GEN)

03-27-20 Beat: Panzer Dragoon: Remake (Switch) New: Panzer Dragoon: Remake (Switch)

03-26-20 Beat: Skies of Arcadia (DC)

03-22-20 New (Null): Animal Crossing: New Horizons (Switch)

03-17-20 Beat: Goldeneye 007 (N64)

03-14-20 Completed: Yooka-Laylee and the Impossible Lair (Switch)

03-09-20 Beat: Kirby and the Rainbow Curse (WiiU)

03-07-20 Completed: Popful Mail (SCD) Completed: Retro Game Challenge (NDS)

03-06-20 Beat: Mega Man Zero (Switch)

03-05-20 Beat: Yooka-Laylee and the Impossible Lair (Switch)

03-03-20 Beat: Bangai-O Spirits (NDS)

03-02-20 Beat: Super Monkey Ball 2 (GCN)

03-01-20 Beat: Shining Force II (GEN)

02-29-20 Started: Yooka-Laylee and the Impossible Lair (Switch)

02-26-20 Completed: Aliens Infestation (NDS) Beat: Banjo Tooie (N64)

02-21-20 Completed: Ecco: The Tides of Time (SCD) Beat: Kirby & the Amazing Mirror (GBA)

02-18-20 Completed: Shinobi Legions (Saturn) Beat: Phantasy Star Online Ver. 2 (DC)

02-16-20 Beat: Super Mario Odyssey (Switch)

02-14-20 Started: Super Mario Odyssey (Switch)

02-13-20 Beat: Blazing Chrome (Switch)

02-12-20 Beat: Dragon Quest XI S: Echoes of an Elusive Age - Definitive Edition (Switch)

02-08-20 Completed: Alex Kidd in the Enchanted Castle (GEN) New: Shinobi Legions (Saturn)

02-04-20 Beat: Shinobi (Switch) New: Shinobi (Switch)

01-30-20 Beat: Sakura Wars (Saturn) New: Blazing Chrome (Switch)

01-23-20 Beat: Fatal Fury: Mark of the Wolves (DC)

01-21-20 Beat: River City Girls (Switch)

01-20-20 Completed: Charge 'n Blast (DC) Beat: Gunvolt Chronicles: Luminous Avenger iX (Switch)

01-17-20 New: Sakura Wars (Saturn) Beat: Iconoclasts (Switch)

01-16-20 Beat: Guilty Gear X (DC)

01-14-20 Beat: Daytona USA: Championship Circuit Edition (Saturn)

01-12-20 Beat: Power Stone 2 (DC) Completed: AI: The Somnium Files (Switch)

01-11-20 Completed: Azure Striker Gunvolt 2 (3DS) Beat: Azure Striker Gunvolt 2 (3DS)

01-09-20 Completed: Super Return of the Jedi (SNES)

01-08-20 Beat: Mega Man ZX Advent (NDS)

01-06-20 Beat: Disgaea PC (PC) Started: Mega Man ZX Advent (NDS)

#backlog #backloggery #sega #saturn #end of year

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httplovecraft1890 · 5 years ago

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The Theme of Free Will in Yandere Simulator

So in the past, I’ve speculated at length about what some broad story points might be for Yandere Simulator and while I’ve revised my opinion on the significance of a character like Fun Girl (her statement of “YOU BELIEVE EVERYTHING I SAY. I WONDER WHAT ELSE I CAN TRICK YOU INTO BELIEVING?” feels a bit embarrassing in hindsight) I do think there are broad strokes that can be taken from what I wrote and applied to newer story points that’ve been shared with us since. You can consider everything below a refinement of those original ideas, I suppose. Let’s start by going back and revisiting Saikou Corp. Note: some of this information doesn’t have a specific source other than vague recollections aside from what YandereDev has said on Twitter, Reddit, etc. so apologies in advance.

What, exactly, do we know about Saisho Saikou? If we’re taking Fun Girl less as an actual plot point herself and more as a vehicle to deliver exposition to the audience then we can summarize a fair few things:

He was drafted into the service of the Imperial Japanese Army at age 17 in the closing days of the war. This retroactively confirms his date of birth was some time in 1928, meaning Saisho is 91 in 2019.

Saisho was confined to kitchen duty after being transferred to Okinawa at first. This changed after a bomb tore his dorm apart and he was trapped with the corpses of his friends for hours until he was rescued by other troops. During the attempted retreat after their rescue operation he called them cowards for wanting to fall back in the face of American forces. The memories of being stuck there with his dead friends still haunts him.

After being moved to a bunker, he was under constant stress from air raids and a chronic lack of sleep as well as malnourishment. When the U.S. finally found their hiding spot he tried to pull a pin on a grenade but it failed to detonate; he was promptly captured afterwards.

- From the June 1, 2018 Fun Girl text files We know little of his life after the war at the moment other than in 1946 he was reduced to running the company that would become Saikou Corporation out of his family’s garage (much like the company it parodies, Sony, was forced to do at first in our world by its creators). Given his later characterization I suspect that he probably ruthlessly took advantage of the breaking of up so many of the zaibatsu (large financial or industrial conglomerates owned by specific families; Mitsubishi is an example) by the American occupying forces following the war. In the decades following his country’s defeat Saisho created an enormous megacorporation that makes most of the consumer products seen in Yandere Simulator’s universe. As Headmaster Shuyona later relates to us, once he puts his mind to something he never takes no for an answer. Aside from the obvious wealth aspect that it grants him, though, what else is at work in his mind?

Like so many others, the defeat of Japan in the war simply unimaginable to him and, as far as he’s concerned, even if everyone else surrendered he never did.

The brainwashing and propaganda of the early Showa period never left him; as more and more Western influence began to creep into Japan, the more he began to freak out about it. Progressive politics and democracy are things he utterly despises.

Unsurprisingly, his reactionary politics have a racial component to them. For Saisho, the only people fit to rule the world are the Japanese and that if only everyone else realized it, there’d be a worldwide utopia. Though not outright confirmed, this also goes some way to explaining the almost eugenics-like obsession with ‘purity’ in the modern Saikou clan.

Even so, probably through careful PR stunts and knowing when to keep his mouth shut, Saisho’s worst beliefs aren’t known to the public.

- From the December 1, 2018 build’s Fun Girl files

It’s with some surprise then we know for a fact that Saisho wanted his firstborn daughter to inherit the company after he was ready to retire and only kept his son, Megami’s dad, as a backup. Despite the grueling and inhuman training that each Saikou generation seems to be put through, it seems that Saisho did genuinely love his daughter based on what Headmaster Shuyona confirms in Headmaster’s Tape #1. While this seems incongruous at first with his far right politics I think it’s helpful to see it less as a belief in equality between men and women, but instead that since she was a Saikou, she was inherently a cut above others because of that. Not many fathers would have schools built for their children in their honor if something wasn’t genuine, I think.

Megami’s aunt is a very interesting character at the moment. We know nothing about her other than the fact that she was first in line for the proverbial throne and hasn’t spoken to Saisho in 30 years because of him disowning her after they got into an argument. Fun Girl seems to hint that the conversation revolved around her trying to remember a supposed sister of hers (i.e., her) but this might just be her trolling us all. I think there’s something else very important given that time frame we also need to keep in mind: the date. What’s 30 minus 2019? 1989.

If we assume for a moment that Akademi opening its doors in 1985 was her first year, then following traditional Japanese high school length, it stands to reason her graduation occurred in 1988. The following year, Ryoba’s murder of the girl who was almost certainly Headmaster Shuyona’s daughter must’ve sent serious shock waves through Buraza Town. Megami’s aunt would’ve probably followed the proceedings with a lot of interest and I think a reason she parted ways with Saisho is because Saikou almost certainly tipped the scales in favor of Ryoba during her trial against the journalist. Why? Because of the country’s insanely high conviction rate. It’s greater than 99%. You’d practically need a miracle to get through it all and make the person who tried to take you to court look like a monster for doing so - something we know she pulled off. It’s not something that she could’ve done on her own without money changing hands or judges being properly blackmailed and flipping the media circus around. Headmaster’s Tape #6 also confirms that by 1999 Ryoba had seemingly regular contact with Saisho and Megami’s dad but it’s easy to extrapolate that they must’ve been speaking with one another prior to then; after all, just because Shuyona didn’t know about it doesn’t mean it didn’t happen (it doesn’t help him either that Saisho almost certainly sees him as a useful idiot). Learning a dark secret like this about your own family, coupled with the hell they put you through growing up, would break anyone and I think it’s a good explanation of why she left. If we accept that Saikou Corporation are Ryoba’s and Mr. Aishi’s employers then several things fall into place - why they haven’t ever had to move, why they live in a well off neighborhood, how they can simply up and leave for 10 weeks at a time to a foreign country - and the picture comes into focus. One of the things that Fun Girl seems to confirm is that Saisho’s love for Japan is equally as strong as what Ayano feels for Senpai. Knowing what we know about how the Aishi family curse seems to work, that’s pretty bone chilling. Coupled with every other horrible thing he thinks, combined with his vast wealth and influence, and it’s a recipe for disaster. The question becomes, however, what the point of all of this is. What could a murderous young woman possibly offer one of the most powerful companies in the world? Her body and mind. Stick with me here. Pretend you’re a scientist working for Saikou Corporation and you’re tasked with finding out what makes Ryoba tick; we’ll ignore for the moment any possible supernatural angle that the story might develop to explain their condition. The Aishi ‘curse’ seems to be a psychological condition, effecting the maternal line, that results in its carriers possessing severely stunted emotional growth, antisocial personality traits, flat affects, monotone voices, etc. This begins to alter in the host, however, an intermittent time after puberty in their late teens when, through various circumstances, meeting an individual causes an unknown psychological trigger to occur, acting as a kind of drug that for a time rewires the brain to enter a euphoria-like state wherein they begin to function on a neurotypical level, but only in contact with the source of this change (19 being the median age when an Aishi woman typically marries their victim). What if you could isolate the factors that cause such a thing to occur? 30 years is a long time to study something, after all, and decades’ worth of research must’ve meant some kind of breakthrough. Assuming that Saikou Corporation is like any other megacorporation in fiction then they’re sure to have their hands in medical technology. Imagine taking the research you’ve done on a so-called ‘yandere’ and began to try recreating it. After all, the idea of being able to use certain external symbols or things as stimuli is practically dystopian in its usefulness. Like, say, introducing a corporate symbol and ensuring its customers only felt a sense of satisfaction when buying a certain product.

Let’s go further than that. What if you could engender the same feelings of emptiness, followed by unbridled joy, when looking at something as simple as a flag? Not only could you brainwash an entire nation, but any other place on earth that allows the services you provide as a global company...

From this perspective, the “why?” of Saikou Corporation involving themselves with Ryoba becomes evident. After coming to this piece of speculation, if it is the case, something else also really clicked for me. Two things, actually. The first is that it’d give new meaning to the speech Megami tells you on the Skype chat you can have with her at school:

Is someone there?...Ah! It's you...Why have you come here? Have you come here to taunt me? Do you even know who I am? I know who you are. I know WHAT you are. My father won't allow me to attend school while you are..."active". He has a reason for tolerating your presence at this school. I don't. You are a vulgar creature that is only allowed to exist because you serve a purpose. If it was my decision, then every last one of you would be exterminated. Have fun while you can. If you and I ever cross paths...you're going to have a bad time.

The purpose is to further Saikou Corporation’s knowledge of the yandere condition and to find further ways to exploit it. Megami’s dad is in on this scheme and has purposefully kept Megami off campus while Ayano is on her murder spree as a way to keep her safe. What’s more, Ayano isn’t the only yandere that’s active either. Such a statement is more revealing than you might imagine it to be too. I think it’s pretty accepted at this point that the journalist’s wife was a yandere herself. He tells us as much in Mysterious Tape #6

But as soon as we met, she wanted to spend every waking moment with me. She wouldn't let me out of her sight, and got possessive if another woman so much as looked at me.

I quickly began to depend on her for everything. It wasn't long before I couldn't live without her. I certainly wasn't in any state to take care of myself... I was like an adult-sized baby. Helpless and vulnerable. Who knows...maybe that's what she was attracted to. Maybe she just wanted to experience the sensation of owning a person. Maybe she wanted to keep a human pet.

Isn’t it odd how she showed up in his life only a year after his ordeal with Ryoba in court? How his marriage to her didn’t involve them leaving the town at all? If I were him, I would’ve probably left it behind a long time ago, especially if it brought up memories as traumatic as what he’d experienced (and the fact he was directly threatened by Ryoba too). But instead his marriage and alcoholism caused him to never get out until it was too late. The timing seems... convenient, doesn’t it? Almost as if it were planned.

It wouldn’t be hard, I think, to sic some girl afflicted with the condition on someone either in hopes they’d ‘imprint’ on them or alternatively try to induce that very same response in them somehow. It’s a safe bet, again, considering how long Saikou Corp. would’ve had to pour over the data they’d collected. There surely would’ve been theories on how it happened and they’d be unethical enough to try it on human test subjects. So if they could do that, who might it happen to?

I think that an overarching narrative theme in-game is going to be that of free will. Let’s consider for a moment both Megami and Ayano as parallels to one another. Both are incredibly driven women who will stop at nothing to get what they desire - order for Megami, Senpai for Ayano - with familial histories of treachery and abuse. If Megami’s life has been lain down before her without her having much say in the matter, how does this similar struggle reflect in Ayano? Arguably, Megami could have everything she ever materially wanted in life just as Ayano has in the form of the feelings Senpai gives her but the issue goes deeper. If the price for Megami was having every moment planned out for her, is it not possible that the feelings Ayano has are just as manufactured? I don’t mean that in the ‘love at first sight’ kind of way; I’m questioning if the meeting with Senpai was something that was set up for her to go through, a test to see if this poor schmuck could be the thing that would let them begin to move onto a new test subject to put them through their glorified obstacle course (Akademi). Not to mention the fact that it essentially occurs right after Ryoba and Mr. Aishi leave for America is an immediate red flag. If Megami is trying to stop Ayano, though, then it must mean that she’s rebelling against the wishes of Saikou Corporation itself. After all, they don’t want something that they’ve put years of investment into slipping through the fingers if they can help it. The end game she has in mind is anyone’s guess at this point but I suspect it will be the purge of anything related to the above secret project. As such, there’s going to have to be someone to offer us an alternative to bringing down the current iteration of Saikou - and I think we also have an inkling of who’s going to aid us in bringing her down.

Kencho is emblematic of the status quo. He desperately desires his father’s approval (the one who’s likely continuing his father’s wishes and pursuing this whole endeavor to begin with) and will do anything to gain it. If Megami steps out of line too much, he’s certain to know that means she’ll fall from grace. He’s only been prevented from doing anything about his current situation because he’s only second best and hurting Megami would upset his dad. However, if she were to have an unfortunate accident... well, it isn’t as if he could be ignored anymore. In exchange, I imagine he’ll give Ayano exactly what her mother had: a nice house, a life untouched by anyone who’d take Taro or Taeko away from her, and a way for the two of them to have children if you go the latter route. All Ayano has to do is just give in to being a pawn like her mother did, like Kencho did, and like his father did. Or she can, at last, have the first real choice she’s ever had in her life by siding with Megami and tearing it all down (with Senpai still the promised reward in exchange for her help, certainly...).

#yandere chan #yandere sim #yan sim #lovesick #megami saikou #taro yamada #speculation #long posts #theory #kencho saikou #ayano aishi #ryoba aishi

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kollapsar · 5 years ago

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Long post and late to the 10-year meme party, but here we are- 10 years, a time I spent between ages 14 and 24, moved countries, graduated twice and changed so much.

Timeline: 2010-2012 - 15-17, high school to very, very early college in Malaysia. Lots of discovering I can do the painting thing instead of coloring under lineart all the time! But also, I’m a goshdarn weeb that likes Hakuoki, Shin Megami Tensei and steampunk. 2013-2014 - 18-10, early college. Lots of steampunk and fantasy worldbuilding around personal stories, and an obsession with Sengoku Basara lol. I moved to America at 18, so the Medusa smoking a joint picture is post-move. This was a busy period, honestly, but I was still getting a lot of drawing in edgewise, though most of it wasn’t terribly experimental or study-oriented. 2015-2016 - 20-21, a kind of weird time for me. I actually neglected art a lot and got really serious about my studies, but did a lot of video game fanart when I did draw. 2016 was also my ‘worst summer ever’ where I spent a long time in a basement with a broken A/C unit, oil painting, and there isn’t a lot of actual stuff left over from then because I was using cheap materials lol. You can, however, see that I was making an active effort to get more vivid colors and more interesting anatomy. I did start challenging myself each of those summers. 2017-2018 - 22-23, oh boy. This one is pretty vivid in the mind. I graduated college and started freelance painting in 2017, so the changes got pretty dramatic. I emphasized speed and did about 100-200 finished pieces in this period alone, 90% professionally and 10% in studies, with a weird overlap of studies as commissions somewhere in there. I studied so much, moved from Nebraska to Colorado, and just had one hell of a not-great year psychologically, healthily and financially, but amazing art-wise. 2019 - 24. Late 2018 I moved to Oregon, got another job and got my shit together. The break’s been good for me but better for my art- I keep coming back with new things and ideas, and I am now doing so much Final Fantasy and DnD stuff.

If I’ve learned anything, it’s that I love this doodling thing I do sometimes. Here’s to more as we go (and not being afraid of backgrounds lmfao)

#10 year meme #my art stuff #progress meme #long post

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tentacletherapissed · 5 years ago

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Public Callout: Paradox, Blue, Jay, Bird

This is a public callout post for users Paradox (@rushifaas -- previously @mournins ; @beliisms), Blue (@divinebetrayed ; @halcyonfought), Jay (@loyalbetrayed) and Bird (@soulsbetrayed). They are active in the fandoms Persona, Fire Emblem, Pokemon, Yu-Gi-Oh, Danganronpa, Shin Megami Tensei: Devil Survivor, Sentai, Power Rangers, and Kamen Rider.

Never in my 15 years of roleplaying have I met a group of abusers and enablers so toxic, and this post is a PSA so that I can hopefully keep others from falling into their hands. Please blacklist them ALL for your own safety, however, DO NOT ENGAGE THEM WITH HARASSMENT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES.

Keep in mind, Paradox’s actions are so egregious, he is already getting charges pressed against him by two different people he abused so far, and more may be on the horizon. The rest all enable this behavior and defend him despite all that he’s done to harm them and people they previously called friends. While this callout has snapshots of receipts proving our claims sprinkled in at the mention of them, for full transparency, the full comment chains will be uploaded at the end so that context for everything will be supplied, with censoring only provided for those who have nothing to do with the conflict and wish to be left out of it.

Strong trigger warning for mob mentality, mental and emotional manipulation, emotional abuse, emotional neglect, transphobia, pedophilia, ableism, and a lot more. Details under the cut. (7,300+ words, be mindful)

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Note: Paradox claims to have Dissociative Identity Disorder, and claims to have many alters which are sometimes go by the names of Abel, Vic, Nikki, Hebel, Cain, and Ana in some of these screencaps. I will not be arguing the veracity of such claims in this callout, but for simplicity’s sake, I will be referring to everyone in his system solely by the name of “Paradox” since there is a considerable amount of confusion based on who said what and it’s not entirely clear who’s supposed to be talking in a lot of these screenshots. He also claims to have several other mental disorders like depression, anxiety, and BPD, but regardless of anyone’s mental illness, they should treat those around them with respect and kindness, which is why this callout has been made.

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MAIN EVENT - Early September 2018 / June 10th

Paradox is the ringleader of this little cult. A few months ago, he was dating my friend Nael (occasionally called Arin, Ciel, Naoya or Hevel in some of these screens). I first got alarmed about the health of their relationship during an incident in early September 2018 where Paradox threatened to commit suicide over a conflict having to do with RPing and prioritizing one blog over one he liked. [September Break Up: Singles] They broke up, but after a lot of guilt tripping from Paradox and others in his group, my friend Nael decided to get back together with him. Even though I had a lot of misgivings about the situation, I told Nael that I respected their decision and wouldn’t pressure them either way. [Scout and Nael: 12, 13]

Months went by, and I didn’t hear much due to specifically asking Nael not to tell me about their significant other and that group of friends, but things were going downhill. There were many more fights over roleplaying and shipping, some of which Blue and Jay expressed concern about privately, especially since it seemed Paradox himself was ignoring his other lover Kieran for Nael. [For Me: 13, 15, 16]

Paradox’s behavior continued worsening until it came to a head in mid March 2019. Blue and Nael were getting invested in an rp campaign I was running on a private server. When Nael showed off a picture they drew portraying their character, Paradox became extremely upset at them. After a solid week of enduring abuse from their lover [Abel Suicide: 1, 2, 6], it eventually culminated in Paradox apparently trying to take his own life after Nael attempted to break off their relationship. [Abel Suicide: 22, 23, 24] Nael was able to contact their mutual partner Kieran (sometimes called Kie or Vampy in screens) so that he could send the police to Paradox’s home and he would be rushed to the hospital. [Nael: 11]

Nael has multiple health issues that include heart disease and problems with their brain, and was so traumatized by the experience, they had to go to the hospital themselves [Nael: 19, 20 ; Before / After Suicide: 43]. Because I was terrified at the possibility of Nael dying from the escalating nature of their toxic relationship, I urged them to go through with the breakup. Nael decided to take my advice and broke up with Paradox and Kieran on a group chat while on a screenshared call with me and another friend who wishes to remain nameless. [Before / After Suicide: 46]

Blue was at first on board for the breakup and supportive of Nael’s decision [Blue Agrees: Singles] but at the persuasion of Jay decided to believe Paradox’s story when he said Nael had misrepresented what he said when he told Nael he would probably drop Blue due to the breakup. [Copy of Group DM: Full] Keep in mind, we have the FULL attempted suicide dropbox [Abel Suicide: Full], and the breakup conversation including Paradox’s abusive behavior before the attempted suicide attempt. [Before/After Suicide: Full] Much of what Paradox says are blatant falsehoods. In addition, Kieran (Vampy) no longer agrees with the things he has said to support Paradox’s argument and says he was pressured to agree with everything, even if it didn’t feel right.

So instead of making it clear to either of us that Blue no longer considered us friends, she instead gave us the silent treatment and leaked what I vented to her in confidence to Paradox behind my back. She only admitted to doing this when I confronted her after finding a vague post Paradox made that used the exact same wording. [Scout vs Blue: 1, 3, 4] I was extra furious with her because Paradox was making it sound as if it was Nael saying those words when in fact they had no idea what I said to her and was highly distraught when they found out about the vague post. Her excuse was that she didn’t think we would find out. [Scout vs Blue: 7, 9]

This is a common theme with their relationship that shows the extent of how complicit Blue is with Paradox’s abusive behavior. Due to her once close relationship with Nael, she often served as the “bait” to bring Nael back, agreeing that the relationship is unhealthy at first [With Blue: 12] only to go back to heaping abuse on Nael for leaving and trying to persuade them to come back [Nael’s Last Conversation with Blue: Full].

By then, Nael had already blocked everyone else in the cult-like group except Blue due to a promise they’d made to her, and she abused this trust right away by pulling Nael into a group chat so that everyone could yell at them. [Scout vs Blue: 10, 11] IF YOU BECOME A PART OF THIS GROUP, THIS IS WHAT YOU CAN LOOK FORWARD TO. If you do anything to provoke Paradox’s ire, you will be subjected to a firing squad full of people yelling at you for whatever you did. You will not have a chance to defend yourself, only grovel for forgiveness until they decide they’re through with you. Nael and other members of the group have been subjected to it many times.

Unfortunately, there are no surviving screencaps of this particular dispute, but I do have the one I was involved with. More on that later.

Eventually Nael left and blocked Blue so that they couldn’t be added back to get yelled at more. For the sake of our RP, we agreed upon a peaceable way to continue the server RP [Scout vs Blue: 12, 13, 14, 15, 16] but Blue eventually exited that too [Scout vs Blue: 17]. During the three or so weeks they were split apart, Paradox vagued continuously about us, copied our behavior and prior ships he had with Nael with others currently in his cult, and sent Nael threatening and unstable messages [“Goodbye, Nael”: Single]. While behind their back, he was privately making light of the situation and even made bets with his stooges about when Nael would return [Betting: Singles].

Here’s where I have to put an important disclaimer: During Nael’s time away from the main cult, we both would snoop on his and Blue’s blogs to see if they had mentioned us. Also, during the period immediately after Blue sold me out to Paradox, I became enraged and sent him a pretty angry message [Scout Loses Their Mind: Single], commented on one of his posts, and indirectly threatened them with my popularity compared to theirs in the community I was in. All of those things were the direct result of piss poor decision making and I apologize for my behavior, because it was simply not right to do, no matter who I thought I was defending. Though the blog snooping continued, I thankfully sent no more harassing messages to anyone from the group once Blue indicated she wanted a clean break from us, and no vaguing messages were made on either of our blogs.

Worse still, I privately speculated if this latest suicide attempt Paradox had gone through was “real” or not, which is totally unacceptable. Though I was just concerned about my friend and worried that this might have been another attempt to manipulate them, all threats of suicide should be treated seriously and the proper authorities contacted, PERIOD, regardless of how “serious” the threat might seem. I definitely agree with Nael’s decision to contact the authorities as it was happening, and I’m relieved to know another life wasn’t tragically lost, no matter what my situation is with Paradox after the fact.

Now, with that out of the way… Eventually, Paradox was able to get through to Nael by convincing them that I had lied about a certain mental disorder he was assumed to have. This is all despite me never having said he didn’t have it as I do NOT have the medical condition described and am NOT a medical professional. Paradox willingly passed medical records through a mutual friend [Consent: Single] that Nael initially found convincing but has recently come to doubt. Note: PLEASE NEVER DO THIS, OBVIOUSLY.

Paradox then convinced Nael to pretend to be my friend for a little longer so that he could lure me into a groupchat under the impression that I was defending him from all his former friends. Here is the entire chat almost in its entirety (a few glitches in captures results in a few repeats and nearly 4 minutes straight of lost content), with screenshots proudly taken by BLUE [Her Discord Drop: Single], who played an instrumental role in helping it happen. While I would encourage everyone to read it in its entirety, please be warned that the amount of abuse I endured is very troubling. [Scout Trap: Full]

Please note that Nael (Hevel), Kieran (Ghostie), and Dave have all come to me and personally apologized to me for their role participating in that group chat and we are friends now. But at the time due to this traumatic experience, my friendship with Nael was officially ended. Even though I was worried sick about them, I knew they couldn’t be saved until they saw Paradox’s abusive behavior for what it was on their own. And of course, after a brief honeymoon period, the abuse started again. (Keep in mind, I wasn’t in contact with Nael or anyone else for most of these, so I’m not as familiar about what happened and when.)

The first sign of trouble started on April 16th, not even two full weeks after I had been "defeated". Once again, it was over RP drama, where Paradox became upset at his two lovers Nael and Kieran for shipping with anyone besides him [Initial Ship Drama: 6], even though he usually continues multishipping on his blog with certain people when he pleases. [With Blue: 2] He complained about this endlessly. [Random Paradox Screen]

He continuously gaslit Kieran for about a week, cycling between saying he was going to leave forever [Initial Ship Drama: 9], telling the Kieran to take care of Nael [Initial Ship Drama: 10, 27], giving conflicting directions [Initial Ship Drama: 22, 38], putting himself down so Kieran would feel compelled to console him [Initial Ship Drama: 30, 41, 58], and asking them not to try to pursue romance with him [Initial Ship Drama: 12, 13, 32, 63], only to flip around and say that the idea of romancing them makes him feel “happy”, so he will [Initial Ship Drama: 45, 46], then become upset when either one of them indicated they might need space to either think or just live life like normal. [Initial Ship Drama: 53] Really, the entire thing has to be seen to be believed. [Initial Ship Drama: Full]

Eventually, Paradox’s behavior got so bad that once again, Blue expressed dissatisfaction with his behavior [With Blue: 4], but apparently it wasn’t enough to dissuade her from luring Nael into yet another trap to be yelled at barely a month later on May 17th. [May 17th: Full]

Confusingly, the reason behind this collective thrashing was that Nael actually overcorrected too much and tried to do more stuff with Paradox, only to be called clingy and possessive when they did. Then, when Paradox told Nael he didn’t want to RP with them anymore, Nael tried to respect his decision and not get involved with group RPs that Paradox was involved with so there would be no pressure either way. This was then held up as an example as to why they were “isolating” themselves from the group. Paradox showed the screencaps to others in the group with very little context to get them riled up and angry at Nael so that they’d be on board to yell at them, again showing his willingness to twist someone’s words to make them a convenient villain, no matter what they do to try to appease him.

Then on May 24th, there was the supposed “death” of the alter “Abel”, (who has since returned yet again). [Paradox: 2] The source of all this drama was that Blue simply mentioned a ship that she was continuing with Nael during a period of time Paradox wasn’t at all receptive to the idea of them interacting. Blue freely admitted to being the source of this conflict in private [With Blue: 21], but had no problem letting Nael take the brunt of the abuse. Once again, she is complicit for enabling actions she knows are wrong and hurtful, judging by the way she expresses concern about them, as long as she’s not the one in the eye of the storm.

Following this conflict, Nael started having serious second thoughts. After getting yelled at yet again about something they didn’t even cause, they had to go to the hospital for a near suicide attempt due to all the stress of being repeatedly attacked by someone they thought they could trust.

After they got out again, they were pulled into a smaller group chat with the newly formed “Paradox” alter as well as Jay, where it was demanded he answer for the wrongful death of an alter that has since returned. Multiple times, Paradox held up the incident from September, (which was over 9 months prior!) as to why Nael was to blame for Blue’s actions this time. [Paradox: 8, 10] Paradox even told Nael, someone who had been in the hospital just a few short hours ago [Paradox: 5], that their “suicide held no meaning to him”. [Paradox: 32] All of this despite the fact that they had talked about the very same ship on May 6th! [Proof Abel Knew: 10 total]

This was also supposed to serve as yet another “My heart is telling me not to get in a relationship with you” conversation -- a breakup convo, and one their third lover, Kieran, hadn’t even initially been invited to. [Paradox: 59] It was mostly just Paradox yelling at Nael with Jay usually only chiming in to agree with or heap praise on Paradox. [Paradox: 67] Several times, Paradox made confusing reversals, at one point musing “another alter might come and love you again” [Paradox: 49] to going back to insisting they could never be together again [Paradox: 70], then accusing Nael of saying they don’t love him [Paradox: 45, 46]. You might remember this erratic pattern from his conversation with Kieran back in April. This is gaslighting in its purest and ugliest form.

Clearly after this, Nael was rattled and eventually decided to leave. Instead of making any sort of formal goodbye, they just decided to delete their old Discord and make a clean break so there was no way they could be dragged into another group chat and yelled at. The group quickly fell into chaos once again. Paradox quickly began pumping out venting vague posts on his personal and RP blogs, sometimes pitying himself over the way Nael had apparently treated him [Single: Singles], and sometimes outright wishing death on them. [Paradox die: Single] Before long, he cracked and started sending desperate messages to Nael directly despite Nael obviously not wanting to talk. [Paradox Desperation: Singles] And when that didn’t work, of course Blue was deployed to try to persuade them to come back. [Last Convo w/ Blue: 22 pages] Luckily Dave warned them beforehand. [Thanks, Dave!: Single]

To try to convince others in the group that Nael was the bad guy and needed to be stopped, Paradox began feeding lies to his followers about bad stuff Nael was apparently doing. Paradox told Dave that Nael had been badmouthing him behind his back. But when Dave went to confront Nael about their behavior, Nael provided proof that was in fact Blue saying bad things about Dave. That’s when Dave decided to leave, too.

More chaos happened within the group. Soon after, Kieran the supposed third in their relationship got tired of Paradox constantly saying how Nael was “the only person he could ever love” as well as the constant torrent of irrational behavior and abuse. [Paradox Flipping Out: Single] So he left, as well. Aside from many, many more aggressive venting and vague posts, nothing much new has happened as far as group dynamics.

So far Paradox has been mostly fixated on Nael’s absence, but without the contributions of everyone who left, this callout wouldn’t be possible, and they should all be commended for their efforts and their courage for coming to me to apologize personally for their part in the abuse I and others have suffered.

As terrible as Paradox’s behavior has been in this retelling of events, mostly centered around Nael’s situation, it’s really only scratching the surface of how toxic this group is. There are many smaller details and other people he’s hurt that couldn’t fit in this brief recap, so here are a few more things you should know about that will hopefully keep you from this toxic group of friends.

First I’ll talk about the accounts of people who used to be in the group and go into detail about all the people who are still backing Paradox up despite everything he’s done.

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PARTIES INVOLVED

- Other victims -

Kieran:

While Nael took the lion’s share of the abuse from Paradox, it’s important to remember that he was involved with two different people and treated them both badly. Paradox is an outstanding example of what NOT to do when in a polyamorous relationship.

While there was a brief month long period where everything seemed fine after they started dating on October 23rd, Paradox began heavily playing favorites towards Nael, a pattern that only seemed to get worse over time. Kieran was subjected to long periods of neglect from his lover with Paradox only seeming to remember he existed when he was trying to use Kieran against Nael. Even Blue and Jay noticed this when the relationship was just starting out and rightfully called it out, though only in the safety of a private chat. [For Me: 13, 15, 16]

Several times during their relationship, when Nael would mess up or try to leave, Paradox would say that Nael was “the only person he could love” (he even wrote a diary about it!) [Copy of Journal: 2 pages] and break things off with Kieran as well. Most of the time without even telling him. However whenever he was trying to condemn Nael about something, he would hold up Kieran to say “What you’re doing is hurting US”, often without Kieran’s consent.

Of course, Kieran was still subjected to the same amount of lies, gaslighting, emotional blackmail, and mental instability from Paradox that Nael had to endure, but the fact is that he was also basically used as a weapon against someone he cared about by someone who was supposed to care about them both EQUALLY.

Ruby:

Ruby is someone who’s been fighting a personal battle with Paradox for years, starting with a dispute that happened, of course, because of an argument about a fictional character. For the past year and a half as of writing this (the harassment started Nov 2017, it is currently July 2019), Paradox has been stalking her blogs and harassing her over this perceived slight. He lied about her to all her friends in an attempt to alienate her from the public, and we have a confession from Nael that says not only was Paradox guilty of sending tons of anon hate towards Ruby even after they had each other blocked, he would send other people (Nael included) to send anon hate after her.

I briefly intervened during this dispute on Nael’s behalf in November 2018 because during that time we were both lead to believe that Ruby was targeting both Paradox and Nael. This is despite the fact that the post Paradox was upset about wasn’t even about him and she barely even knew Nael even existed. Thanks to my help, I was able to negotiate a brief ceasefire that lasted a few months up until Nael’s separation from Paradox in March.

The stalking and harassment started up again as soon as I had been branded an enemy, and eventually it got so bad that Ruby was the first (but not the only) one to announce she is going to try to press charges against everyone still remaining in the group. Although we don’t see eye to eye on a lot of things, and she’s done and said things that were unintentionally hurtful, she has been very receptive to feedback and has made great pains to change for the better. I support Ruby wholeheartedly in her endeavors to make the ones abusing her pay for what they’ve done. If you want to know a little more about her conflict with Paradox from her perspective, visit her page. [Ruby’s page of Receipts: Full]

- Part of Paradox’s group -

Blue:

Out of all the people on this list, Blue is the most disappointing aspect of all this, seeing as I considered her my friend even before Nael came along. We’d been friends for more than a year by the time the March Madness started, meeting somewhere around February 2018. She was the one who introduced me to Nael in the first place, and Nael was so close to her they called each other their long lost siblings.

Unfortunately for all of us, Blue can’t stand up to a bully who insults and abuses her friends, even if she knows what he’s doing is wrong. We have multiple screenshots showing instances where she admits that Paradox is in the wrong or being annoying or excessively guilt tripping others based on trivial matters. However, whenever she’s personally on the hook for getting targeted by the ones she calls her “friends”, she quickly falls into line.

The second Paradox asks her to jump, she asks “How high?” She’s been willingly used as bait to rope Nael back into situations she knows and has even admitted are super unhealthy for them, all because she’s too afraid of being the next one everyone turns on. The only time she shows any semblance of “courage” is when she’s backed up by the rest of the hivemind. She’s too afraid to speak for herself, often parroting what others have already written in a desperate attempt to show external strength and total fealty for her master.

I have to wonder what exactly it is that keeps bringing Blue back to him, even though we have an entire folder showing times where she has come to her own conclusions that Paradox is unhealthy to be around [With Blue: 24 total] and has a penchant for blaming her whenever his relationship with his two lovers ever took a downwards turn. [Paradox blaming Blue: Singles] It’s not my place to speculate, but it’s safe to say that with all the times she’s personally let me, Nael, and others in our group down, there’s no way in hell we’re giving her another chance. She has made her choice to stay with someone she knew to be an abuser and emotional manipulator -- someone who hurt her and her friends -- and she will have to live with that decision.

Bird:

Ruby’s situation with Bird is very much like my situation with Blue, made all the worse by the fact that they were actually dating at the time. Bird purposefully sold Ruby out to Paradox while claiming they weren’t in contact, all the while she was feeding all of Ruby’s words and private thoughts to him. This is a common theme with this group and why you can’t be friends with just one of them if you don’t want to be involved with the cult as a whole.

Eventually she was found out and hasn’t really bothered to hide the fact that she’s on Paradox’s team ever since. We also have screenshots of her calling Nael a brat and useless during conflicts Paradox started, like the shipping drama in September. [Misc Bird Folder: 9 total] [Ruby and Bird’s Breakup: 16 total]

Jay:

Now we get to the biggest sycophant of the entire group, Jay. She’s been the one by his side the longest -- for a whopping 4 years -- and one of his most ardent supporters and biggest enablers. While I didn’t know much about her at first, seeing as she was largely absent from what I affectionately call the “six-person beat down”, she’s an invaluable member of Paradox’s cult and basically functions as his right arm and messenger.

If you have a problem with Paradox and want to talk things over with him, he’ll usually insist upon bringing Jay as an “impartial judge”. Not surprisingly, she usually just ends up agreeing with whatever he says and pushing his narrative, all the while insisting she’s being unbiased. She will lie for him, rope cult members attempting to leave back with excuses for his inexcusable behavior, and always swallows whatever lie he has to say wholeheartedly. If he needs a message from Abel passed on to someone trying to persuade them to come back, she’ll deliver it gladly. But if you need her to send a message to him, she’ll curtly tell you not to have her “fight your battles.”

She tried to send an entire drop box of “evidence” to Dave attempting to prove Nael was manipulative and evidence of the alter “Hebel's” existence. In it, Paradox (or rather, his alter Hebel) admitted to trying to spur Nael to kill themselves so that “Hebel” could apparently take over and get Kieran all to himself. [Potential Manslaughter: Singles] All of this was sent as proof that NAEL was the bad guy BY Jay, which is truly mind boggling and shows how far gone she is with regards to him.

There is a woman in prison the very moment that I’m writing this for spurring her suicidal boyfriend to take his own life [Article], and yet Jay thinks this behavior is okay? And before anyone tries to say that Hebel is “technically” to blame for attempting to push Nael to suicide, this argument hasn’t worked in the courtroom since the 1970s! [Article] IF PARADOX’S ALTER IS A DANGER TO NAEL AND CAN’T BE CONTROLLED, PARADOX HIMSELF IS ALSO DANGEROUS. PERIOD.

This isn’t even mentioning the multiple times she’s seen Paradox himself or his other various "good" alters (everyone in the group has seen, in fact) tell Nael outright that he “wishes [they] would die” [Abel Vent: Single] and that their suicide “holds no meaning to him” [Paradox: 32]. Jay was supposed to be “mediating” the very conversation where Paradox -- not “Hebel” or anyone else -- said that to Nael! And she said NOTHING. Her silence is complicity and she should take the blame for being such an ardent supporter of his abusive behavior.

Amazingly, there’s even MORE awful things that this group (particularly, but not exclusively Paradox) that I didn’t have any space to discuss in the callout itself, but they can’t go unmentioned. I know this is already super long, so I’ll try to run through them all as quickly as possible, and then we can get to the large wealth of screenshots we have linked at the end, where everything is in context for you to browse at your convenience.

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OTHER OCCURENCES

Transphobia: Paradox is a terf, and there’s not much else to say. [For Me: 2] Ironically he said this in a group chat with one of the only two people who identify as trans in their group, his then-boyfriend Kieran. Here’s him heavily fetishizing a failed attempted Corrin muse that he described as intersex, too. [FE Abel Problems: 5 pages] (In parenthesis is a user attempting to check their work. He makes a bit of an error concerning outrealms and dragon gates and whatnot, but please forgive him for those small errors considering how much he had on his hands.)

Abuse victim blaming: Paradox would often tell his two lovers, who are survivors of various types of abuse, ranging from mental, physical, and even sexual, how it’s their fault for letting their past traumas affect them. [Victim Blaming: Singles] Please note that these screenshots were taken in May, nearly a month before they separated from him fully, so they would have no reason to lie to each other about the things he said or needlessly malign his character before they left.

Promoting infighting: Paradox enjoyed watching his underlings tear each other apart for his amusement or to influence their behavior by saying their actions affected “everyone” despite him using false pretenses to get them to fight in the first place. He lied to Dave about Nael comparing him to a user that he wasn’t fond of when it was really Paradox and Blue that had done it. He also lied to Kieran and the entire group to get them all to yell at Nael in a group chat about Nael trying to isolate themselves from everyone when it was really done to please Paradox.

Ableism: Nael is unwell and has brain conditions they don’t feel comfortable with sharing. Instead of being understanding and supportive of them occasionally not understanding things or forgetting things, Paradox would immediately use it as a weapon against them. When “Paradox” first surfaced, Nael claimed that it wasn’t fair to them that the “Abel” alter yelled at them for forgetting about their ship with Blue. Paradox immediately countered that he Nael would no longer be allowed to use the excuse that they forgot things to AVOID being yelled at for minor things. [Paradox: 21, 22] He would constantly do things like this while they were together.

Copying and stealing OCs: Besides stalking the people that left and that he’s grown to hate, Paradox also has a peculiar habit of copying their activities on his blog with the few remaining people in his circle. For example, back in March when Nael’s Grima muse began interacting with a Reyson rper I introduced them to, Paradox made Kieran pick up his abandoned Reyson muse so that he could ship him with his Robin. (This hasn’t been linked to protect the identity of the second Reyson.) Worse still, Paradox has even outright stolen characters and backstories from those that leave. Here Kieran tries to ask Jay to tell Paradox to stop using some of his stolen OCs and she questions why it “would matter” to Kieran before promptly telling him to basically take a hike and blocking him. [Jay: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

Racism: This group seems to relish in their own ignorance when it comes to matters of race. Here are screenshots Dave took where he discussed Paradox saying that Japanese people are white. [No, seriously: Singles] (Please note the dates -- it was back in December, so he has no reason to lie.) Here’s Nael recounting a time Paradox told them that, because they were partially North African, they had to distance themselves from people of their race because other people would only see them as a terrorist. (No caps of that since it was in a call, so feel free to take it with a grain of salt.) Here’s Blue telling me, a black fan, that unintentional racism in a game I enjoyed but was put off by “didn’t matter” and that there was no need for me to “get so salty about it”. [Scout vs Blue: 19, 20] While I don’t think they’re going to any Klan meetings over the weekend, it’s still a bit concerning and something POC muns should be aware of because they can be startlingly insensitive at times.

Pedophilia: Probably the hardest one to talk about for me personally, but definitely one of the most serious. While I must stress that we haven’t noticed any sort of untoward behavior with underaged USERS thus far, Paradox shows an almost unhealthy fascination with underage MUSES that might be off putting to some people and may spell danger. This actually isn’t the first callout someone has made about his behavior. In 2018 while he went by the name “Vic” and was in the Pokemon fandom, he wrote a disturbing post where a 14 year old girl was killed by a literal penis monster that was saying “penetrate” as it ran her through the middle.

Though the mun was fine with their muse dying, the obvious sexual connotations of the post left them feeling uneasy. When they went to approach him about this, instead of apologizing, he got defensive and said that because it was fictional, it didn’t matter. Later he made a bizarre case arguing that because the girl was 14 and thus had presumably experienced puberty, it couldn’t TECHNICALLY be considered pedophilia. [WTF: Single] Which, while correct on only the most technical of terms, flies in the face of all reason. Here’s the full PSA about him back then [Paradox PSA], and screenshots he was booted out of for his terrible behavior. [Paradox Booted: Singles] (His then-lover initially tried to defend him, but his abusive behavior eventually drove them away as well, so care was taken to keep them anonymous.)

Most disturbing of all, though, is a smut drabble that he made this year concerning one of his newer muses, Momo. On his blog, he describes Momo as someone who is “physically” 18 but “actually” seven due to the circumstances of his creation. That would be fine, except he will often portray Momo as also being mentally seven years old even though he continues to write him lewdly. In the smut drabble, he even goes a step further and constantly refers to him as a “child” and constantly fixates on his underdeveloped genitals.

DUE TO THE HIGHLY GRAPHIC AND POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING NATURE OF THIS DRABBLE, DO NO CLICK UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED. It’s honestly not for the faint of the heart and makes me queasy from the first sentence, but there’s no other way to describe the severity of his awful nature unless you experience it for yourself. [To Endure a Fiend’s Heat: full 6 page drabble]

While some would say it’s okay to experience triggering material in a safe environment to potentially help ease the pain of past trauma, Paradox has already shown himself to be unreliable when it comes to respecting the mental health and safety of others, and though we don’t have any screenshots of this, Nael has recounted several times where Paradox said he was sexually excited by RPing his childlike muses having sex with the adult muses of others in the cult. Here's him once again emphasizing the child like element with one and then drawing them in a suggestive "pin up" pose immediately after. [Vector: Singles]

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Finally we are at our end. Once again, my purpose behind this callout is not to shame anyone with a particular mental illness or unique set of challenges. Paradox is dangerous to any community he’s in because of his view of other people as simple playthings that he can use and throw away as he pleases. He treats life as an RP, living people as muses, and his apparent mental illnesses as an excuse to do away with any sort of accountability for his actions, and it is simply NOT ACCEPTABLE. Please protect yourself and others by reblogging this -- I feel as though Nael is very lucky to have escaped this situation with his life. Informing others might save another’s.

Complete, unedited list of references, roughly in the order of mention:

(Please note that anything labeled “Single(s)” will not have an entry here, as those are the only screenshots we have about them. We got better about capping things as time went on.)

[Scout and Nael Convo: 13 total] When Nael decided to get back together with Paradox the first time in September 2018, I let them know my concerns, but told them I respected their decision, no matter if I agreed with it or not. Looking back, parts of this conversation feel almost prophetic.

[Didn’t Feel Like…: 9 total] One of Kieran’s first conversations with Paradox. Watch closely how he characterizes the incident in September. He also mentions that his trauma and BPD makes him a sexual fiend, which… idk how others in the community would feel about that.

[For me: 16 total] A loose collection of screenshots Kieran took that shows quite a few odd moments during his time in the cult. That includes Paradox being a terf, Paradox insisting that Kieran to stay with Nael if they broke up (which is something he criticized Nael for suggesting in the March break up, even though Nael only said it once), and Jay and Blue expressing concern for Kieran when Paradox was starting to neglect him back in January. PLEASE MIND THE DATES! They vary page to page sometimes!

[Before/After Suicide: 88 total] A few screenshots showing the tumultuous times immediately before and after the Paradox suicide attempt in March 2019. Afterwards, Nael breaks up with both Paradox and Kieran in no uncertain terms due to the trauma he faced.

[Abel Suicide: 33 total] Paradox’s infamous suicide attempt.

[Nael: 34 total] Nael and Kieran talk as Paradox’s suicide attempt is in progress, and Nael tells Kieran to get the police. Sensitive information blotted out for obvious reasons.

[Scout vs Blue: 25 total] A collection of the conflicts I’ve dealt with in regards to Blue since the incident in March. Also includes her racial insensitivity and back when she agreed with me and Nael before Paradox lied to her.

[Initial Ship Drama: 93 total] Kieran endures like 5 days of nonstop gaslighting from Paradox. At the end (Around page 88) he manipulates Kieran into sparking a confrontation with Nael, telling him to “be assertive” about fixing a problem Paradox caused with his erratic behavior.

[Proof Abel Knew: 10 total] On May 6th, Nael discussed with Paradox or one of his alters about the ship that triggered the May 24th meltdown. Paradox also says that having any ships, including ones that he doesn’t even have to see is unacceptable simply because they exist. He then blames Nael for something Blue brought up. Again. While asking Nael not to blame him for something Blue has done.

[With Blue: 24 total] Kieran talks with Blue about the aforementioned shipping drama, and she immediately expresses frustration and anger with Paradox blowing the whole thing out of proportion. Later she also expresses annoyance with the May 24th incident of the alter “Abel” “dying” due to even more ship drama.

[May 17th: 13 total] Once again, Paradox whips his followers up into a frenzy over Nael, who’s really just trying to do what they were told and prioritize their lover. When they’re told the amount of attention Paradox literally asked for is stifling, they back off, only to be yelled at for it once again. It’s not shown here, but Blue once again acted as a lure to bring Nael into a public flogging.

[Paradox: 72 total] Nael is blamed for the “death” of an alter that has since returned because the alter “wasn’t around” for something they discussed on the 6th of May. This is the introduction to the “Paradox” alter, that I’m assuming now has assumed a fronting role. I don’t really care if that situation has changed since I started writing this.

[Jay: 12 total] Just some screens of Jay kind of being a jerk (mostly in the first set). She won’t tell Paradox to stop stealing someone else’s OCs and stop improperly using Nael’s last name, which is considered legitimate identity theft in France, where he lives! Mind the dates.

[Last Convo w/ Blue: 22 pages] Blue reprises her role as the bait to try to drag Nael back, but they’ve wised up to her game by now. It’s not going to ever work again.

[Jay’s “Evidence” Folder: 122 total] All of the things Jay sent to Dave in order to convince him that Nael was the bad guy. None of it accomplishes that goal. In it there’s a lot of doting between Nael’s alter “Naoya” and Paradox’s alter “Abel”, before Paradox showed the exact same abusive behavior and drove Naoya away as well. Then Paradox’s alter “Hebel” tries to explain his existence. He also admits to attempted manslaughter. So. (Please note: some of these are out of order, and we’re very sorry about this, but it’s not our doing, sorry!)

[Ruby and Bird’s Breakup: 16 total] Ruby tried to get Bird to intervene on her behalf to get Paradox to stop harassing her after she tried making an apology post. Bird totally flaked out, probably due to her dual loyalties to Paradox himself. This spurred a messy breakup between them both.

[Misc Bird Folder: 9 total] Some more random stuff showing Bird and Ruby’s relationship, including her take on Paradox and Nael’s September breakup, where she calls him a “brat”. The entire time during these screenshots, Bird was secretly feeding information to Paradox against Ruby’s will, breaking her trust when she found out. She even told Paradox, Ruby’s abuser, about the new blog Ruby made in order to escape him. That’s why she’s on this callout.

[Discord Server Chat with Blue: 23 pages] The complete chat about the Fire Emblem Heroes event that left me feeling upset about the handling of race in Book 2. While the rest in the server try to be respectful or change the subject, Blue insisted on devaluing my feelings and saying I was accusing her of racism, which was, of course, untrue at the time. Currently, I’m not feeling so generous. (Note: My apologies to fans of Heroes’ Nifl -- I say some strongly worded things here which may be unflattering, but I felt it was important to get the entire conversation down.)

BONUS: [Paradox Guilt Tripping on his birthday: 16 total] In case you needed more evidence of Paradox’s gaslighting behavior, here is him guilt tripping them because Nael, who is not a native English speaker, didn’t understand one video he sent. If this is all it takes to trigger a breakdown, he is probably not ready for a relationship.

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