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[thecmaly]

adoptbduction

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more windbreaker comics

[waveoftheocean]

"i can see it in his eyes" 🥰

[valtsv]

i genuinely straight up dont really think about my own gender anymore it means fuck all to me. i just inhabit a body. its perceived gender at any given moment is irrelevant as long as im having fun doing my thing.

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

ive described my culinary diet like raccoons that live in a michelin starred restaurants' dumpster before but its just legit Like That.

Like for breakfast I ate baloney sandwiches with baloney and mayo I found on sale.... and bread that's a pullman's loaf recipe I modified to be both made from sourdough starter and half whole wheat that takes a full day to go from cold starter to piping fresh bread

[eddiegettingshot]

another thing re: nobody else is doing it like eddie. in a lot of ways buck's response to eddie in 2x01 is a warped, backwards version of the way buck always responds to people he finds cool and competent and skilled and charming. it's only because eddie stepped onto buck's territory that he postured; in another world, buck would have been all over eddie from the get-go. as it stands in 2x01 he's needling eddie over his war stories, he's watching eddie's Super Cool Workout, he's craning his head to see just how attractive eddie can be. 2x01 is buck's hero worship of eddie, just the ugly version.

to be honest, i don't think buck ever stopped seeing eddie like that. i mean, even in 7x04 he's gushing to tommy about him. the difference is that eddie's the first person buck has admired like that who's actually genuinely respected him as a fully-formed adult capable of making his own choices, not just some stupid, reckless tantrum-throwing kid who needed to be scolded. bobby tells buck he doesn't have to get in the ambulance. eddie just tells buck he'll see him in there. eddie's a stupid-hot competent skilled charming war hero who's inviting buck to stand with him and trusting buck and buck has literally never had that.

and then eddie! never! stops! buck thinks eddie's the best thing since sliced bread, his best friend. and eddie just... accepts all his love and gives it right back. eddie is never condescending or patronizing or paternalistic and he doesn't see buck as a nuisance. not only is eddie super cool and capable, he treats buck like he's capable too (not super cool)! so buck has spent the last six years like, being obsessed with this guy, and it's not the first time he's been obsessed with a shiny new someone, but eddie is... literally obsessed with him back. that's SPECIAL.

[amanitacurses]

Sparkler

[nicepersondisorder]

the

[kiivg]

.“S’alright, Lad.”.

[goleb]

I am a file

[gloriousmonsters]

ok listen. listen. hear me out. what if Angel was the one to propose the contract

like.... the intensification of heartbreak and guilt when Val tells him 'I own you, or have you forgotten that?' as Angel looks at his signature, the heart he drew next to it. the extra layer in 'what's the worst part of this hell? I can only blame myself'. and above all it plays well with my observation that their contract had to have been composed with some level of input from Angel, because... why on earth/in hell would Val have given him control of his life outside of the studio; and while Val invokes the contract to put Angel back in 'his place', Angel invokes it to remind Valentino that he can defy him. It's actually similar in composition to a kink contract/agreement--if I'm in this specific place, you hold all the power and call the shots; but outside of it, I don't give you that level of control. Angel can straight up tell Val to fuck off in front of a crowd and all Val can do is say he'll make Angel regret it next time he's in the studio (and isn't that an extremely dark variation of the classic kinky romance beat of 'sub misbehaves when they're in public and can get away with it, dom promises they'll pay for it later'?)

so like. all of that about the contract also works if Val proposed it, but I love headcanoning that their relationship was on the rocks around the time it was signed, and one of the factors was Vox coming onto the scene... and so now i'm just thinking about Angel in his peak era of both-sides-ing their relationship problems, knowing his 'commitment issues' (partly real, partly consisting of val's 'you know other men??' issues) are a major cause, furious and disconcerted at someone else drawing so much of Val's attention, wanting to make a stupid desperate Hail Mary pass to save their relationship but devoid of the usual options of 'have kid' or 'impulsively propose marriage' or 'move to a new house that's inevitably haunted' i watch too much horror, going for the option of '...hey do you want to make the kind of binding contract that is accessible to us?'

and surely it's not that stupid! he's only really giving Val a formal version of the power he gives him already, right? Val's his dom and his director and manager, and maybe there's... problems but it's mostly been great for Angel so far, so if having it on (magic eternally binding) paper would make Val happy and make him understand that Angel really wants him, wants them, the risk is toooootally worth it. just, best not to tell Cherri about it she'd definitely think it was insane.

(and when, much later, she learns about the contract and berates him for being an idiot and not telling her when Val brought it up, maybe don't correct her assumption. just keep it to yourself and feel even worse.)

[custom-emojis]

Drags my corpse in here.

Hi obviously, I’m not dead. Just insanely burnt out. My boyfriends gonna be visiting me and I’m on new meds so I think by the end of the year I’ll be more normal. I plan to just not even attempt emojis until next year. This has just been a hard year for me art wise okay.

Next year I’ll try to actually be filling the queue again, but some things regarding emoji style will change and I can’t promise I’ll ever be able to deliver daily new content again. My OCD likes to pick up on habits like that way too easily and 2023 was really bad for me with the emoji queue in terms of absolutely obsessing over needing one to be posted daily at exactly the same time Or Else to the point I was missing sleep and food to fulfill it etc. I just can’t let that shit happen again and honestly daily content is an insane expectation from one person anyways.

So yeah, just a little update. I’m still active on my server but the tumblr will be just used to promote my other art until next year when I can stand to try emojis again.

Thanks for the understanding and support!

[shima-draws]

Girls do you think it's cute when *erupts into a violent coughing fit*

[teeth-draws]

Ohhh but he used to think nothing of it…

Torturing my fav RO again from @shepherds-of-haven

[xoxo-ren-xoxo]

i feel like im always 100x happier when i straight up just block people who get negative about silly things i like. that being said im prepared to block a LOT of people after this wild life session 😭i dont care if u think it was bad/too brutal/not entertaining im killing u w my mind because i think it was lovely

[tangledinink]

that's right, gang, i'm trying something new and i'm officially booting up a patreon! think of it as a nice big pit i've dug in the ground where i can dump all my comics, illustrations, fics, and speedpaints... and for just three dollars, you can sit in that pit! whoa! enjoy fabulous pit perks such as:

getting early access to new comic updates for series such as swanatello, gemini, or stabilize and for fanfics like i'm sorry, teenage mutant what now?

exclusive content such as WIP shots, unpublished 'deleted scenes' or concept art, and speedpaints!

the chance to occasionally boss me around and tell me which project you want me to prioritize and work on next :3c

i've already got some content up that i'm not planning on publishing anywhere else, and moving forward i'll likely be uploading comic and fic updates here first! and if patreon isn't your scene, but you still wanna be supportive of the work i do, you can also check out my kofi or my commission info! thanks!

[azzandra]

The thing I'm discovering about being short and living alone now is that unless I acquiesce to living under the tyranny of a step stool, I will never again see such places as the fabled far-away kingdom of top shelf of the fridge.