#me: I’m on hiatus. also me: 👋

[buffythevampirelover]

Mine

And though I call you mine, I know you will never belong to me. I could never grab your light, hold it steadily in my palms, no matter how hard I tried. Nor does anyone grab their God and pin it in place. Mine in the sense that I worship you; chest beating, always bleeding, bruised knees and all. I live for you, and with you always on my mind, always right beside me— or at least not far behind. You cannot capture someone else but you can carry and hold and caress the love you have for them. And that, too, shines bright. It burns your fingertips. It tastes sweet on your lips. It is fully yours, when your heart is not. When there is nothing else to hold.

[faiirybread]

applause ︴aa23

🎤 in which.. a well known kpop idol meets a formula 1 driver

pt2!

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‘cold shoulder’ out in 24 hours. Enjoy, my blossoms🌷

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user1 HOLY SHIITTTT

user2 MOTHER

user3 HUHH?? GIRLIE IS FEEDING US

user4 I LOVE YOU YN

user5 PLS PLS PLS TELL ME THIS IS HER REPUTATION ERA

user6 I THINK ID DIE OMG

user7 NO ONE IS DOING IT LIKE HER

user8 we love you yn!!💗💗💗

user9 forever proud to be a blossom 💐

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Singa-poor luck luck.. Had some fun though! 🇸🇬👋

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user1 youll bounce back in japan albono!

user2 why is fernando looking at me like that..

user3 we love fernando shoe model

user4 WE LOVE YOU ALEX

user5 itll be better next race 💙

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First stage of Could You, Would You, and you guys were magical!! I love hearing your fanchants and cheers, thank you to everyone who watched! 💗 🌷

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user1 BREATHTAKING. AMAZING. GROUNDBREAKING

user2 love from france!

user3 you never fail to impress!!

user4 is it just me or did she seem really tired??

user5 its just you babes

user6 get off her mfking page if your gonna bring her down.. stupid hater

user4 im not hating, im a long time stan but im just worried about her.. going from a year and a half tour right back into a new album promotions is tough..

user5 WE LOVE YOU YN!

user6 😍😍😍

user7 COLD SHOULDER AOTY, COULD YOU WOULD YOU SOTY, YN ARTIST 👏 OF 👏 THE 👏 YEAR ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

user8 ALEX ALBON LIKE?? WHAT IS GOING ON?

user9 who the hell is that..

user8 hes a formula 1 driver!

user9 he needs to get the hell away from yn.. she doesnt need someone like him dragging her down

user10 girl what the hell are you on, all he did was like her post??

user9 i just want the best for her and he is clearly not it 😒

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yourusernameofficial Thank you so much for coming, I’m so glad you enjoyed it!

alex_albon I loved it! You are a master at performing 😆

user1 ALBONO A KPOP STAN??

user2 SINCE WHEN DID YOU LIKE YN

user3 GET AWAY FROM MY WIFE

user4 STOP. LET ME HAVE YN WHILE YOU DO YOUR LAPS AROUND THE TRACK

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YN YLN spotted at the paddock today! She seemed to be very confused as to where to go, but was pointed in the right direction by some of our drivers.

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user1 YN AT A RACE?

user2 i thought she was on a hiatus..

user3 shes on a hiatus from music, but she’ll still be out and around 😊

user3 her fashion sense is soo pretty!

user4 right?? i NEED her to meet lewis and zhou!

user3 sorry im not much of a f1 fan, who are they?

user4 lewis is lewis hamilton, a 7-time world champion and an icon in the sport, he has really cool outfits every week and drives for mercedes, and zhou is zhou guanyu, a driver for alpha romeo, and also has really cool outfits, he’s in his second year!

user3 awesome!! ill watch them and alex albon!

user5 so she cancels promos for cold shoulder then goes to a race??

user6 thats what im saying! i dont think that alex albon guy is a good influence on her..

user4 bro be so fr, alex albon did not tell her to go on a hiatus. her logical brain did after she was STALKED AND HARASSED BY HER “FANS”

user6 why is fans in quotes? they wanted to meet her, and shes not easy to meet so they did what they could, whats wrong with that?

user5 dude wtf are you on about, thats stalking and she has a right to be upset, im just wondering why she went to such a highly-publicized event after trying to get out of the public

user7 she looks so tired, i hope shes taking care of herself 😕

[beyondthepaper]

Distant Reunion {~BEYOND THE PAPER SEASON FINALE~}

MWAH! Goodnight everybody!🫶🩷

Artist here!👋 I’m going to go on a hiatus since school is coming up! Thank you for all the support and love that you guys have given me throughout the year as I have made this comic; especially to all the ones who have asked questions! I’ve always wanted to make an ask blog since I was younger so this comic receiving all the support that it did means so, SO much to me!🥰💖 See y’all in the next season, and thank you again! You are loved!🎀🫶

-@fresacake, 8/10/23

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[kanako-ketsukane111]

KANAKO’S BLOG!!!!!

(this blog is on HIATUS. i might respond to some asks still but they’ll be few and far between)

HI! i’m kanako!! welcome to my blog :3 my mom and dad both got one of these, so i figured i’d get one too. heelllloooo tumbler!!!!

[tag list + ooc under cut. this updates frequently so i recommend checking often!]

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TAGS

#asks - answered asks!

#interactions - interactions with other (usually uty) blogs

#ooc - stuff tagged with this are me, the mod, not kanako. this is also shown with //

#ooc rbs - out of character reblogs, tags and stuff on these are usually me, the mod, not kanako

#not canon - stuff thats kanako, but not really within the canon of this blog. this will include asks from non-uty characters (with some exceptions), or asks about stuff kanako shouldn’t/wouldn’t know

#my dad! - asks that talk about kanako’s dad, chujin

#my mom! - same as the above, with ceroba

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ASK INFO

asks are generally responded to within four hours, unless im busy/asleep (12 am to 10 am pst usually).

if i don’t respond to your ask, dont get too upset or anything; i probably just didn’t know what to say, or i forgot and i’ll respond later LMAO. please note i am not obligated to respond to anyone.

if you really want it answered, wait atleast 3 days before resending, and please don’t send the same ask more that 3 times

OTHER UTY CHAR BLOGS FEEL FREE TO INTERACT!!! please do, even! i get nervous so i probably won’t int first but i’d looove to do silly things. personally, i would prefer character blogs unrelated to uty don’t interact often, but they’re not completely banned.

i don’t know much about Japanese culture/kitsune symbolism/etc. i will try to research and portray things properly when it applies in asks but please let me know if i do/show something poorly. i would love to grow and learn more!

feel free to send ooc asks to the mod!

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OTHER

on this account, kanako is likely a bit older than in canon! 12-14, probably

@mo-the-best-salesman is my friend so there’ll probably be a lot of interactions with it even though it doesnt make a ton of sense LMAO

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i’d like to keep my main priv for now, but if we interact a lot i’ll probably be happy to share it with you! also, its not that hard to find because i like and follow from it GAHHAHAG

thanks for reading 👋

[secretcheesecakecowboy]

“ In those two events, did one of them appear to be shy? Did either of them walk behind like JK walked behind, Tae? "

I’m sorry but are you trying to say that Jk being shy was one of the reasons why that felt different? You cannot compare Jk attending calvin kleins event with him walking on a red carpet with thousands of fans attention on him with cameras. Those are two very different scenarios. When he attended the calvin klein event, it definitely wasn’t the same vibe. the was put on the spot plus it is possible that he also felt self concious because of his hair because we did see him touch his hair a few times like he was fixing his bangs.

I am not saying that this invalidates what you feel about taekook and whatever relationship you think they have but i feel like y’all are making the dream premier into something that it isn’t. To so many taekookers, the dream premiere was a statement of sorts because of how shy Jk was and because taekook wore queer friendly clothing but those are not things that are exclusive to taekook. Pay attention to all the bts members and you notice that literally all of them constantly wear queer friendly clothing. Plus so many times i see taekookers invalidating other ship outings because of the presence of company or staff so what is the difference with this one? Yes it wasn’t a company event but the company cars and company staff were still present true or false? Same as when they went to Harry styles concert in seoul. Tkkrs called that a taekook date but Jk was literally seated there with Nicole a bighit staff and after the concert, tae went back home in a company car and we saw Jk hopping behind with a few staff and nicole. Wasn’t this still chapter two? Their free time? Yet the same company that many taekookers claim usually keeps taekook apart were the ones driving them to and from their “dates”? Even during yoongi’s concert, taekook literally came together in a company car and left together in a company car. (You know the same company that has apparently been separating taekook for years and who taekook were finally free from in chapter two.)

My point is that, i think taekookers are being hypocritical because you dismiss everything that your rival ship does in the name of “the company was involved” but when the company is involved in things that your ship does, you don’t use the same logic. If the company being involved invalidates one pair, it should invalidate all. And you are saying that it doesn’t matter that taekook came in company cars and went back to their respective homes after but it does matter because that is what we do know. Everything else is pure speculation. You saying that Jk was probably shy because he was there was his boyfriend is pure speculation. In this case you are ignoring what we do know and are focusing on what you suspect or how you interpreted their actions.

Hello 👋

Didn't see this ask until recently. You said he was "self-conscious" about his hair when JK mentioned that he likes long hair. If he didn't like his hair long, then why did he grow it during their hiatus? Both events had thousands of people and cameras on them. You even said those two events are different. The CK event was JK doing business and promotion. The Dream event was them attending the event as guests of PJS, not an official schedule. Yes, BTS members have worn queer clothing in the past, but again, some of those were during photo shoots or during a schedule. The clothing by Taekook was during personal time, none schedule time.

Company cars, sometimes it's easier for them to get driven by company cars than them driving their own cars. For The Dream Premier, they were driven there. No, I didn't see staff from the company accompany them. The bodyguards were IUs bodyguards. Can someone correct me if I'm wrong? The same goes for Yoongi's concerts. All the members got driven there, but again, no staff or cameras followed them to and from the venue. They came together and left together. Company staff was present at the concert because the company and staff had to be there. Yoongi, not Taekook. The Harry Styles concert, yes, staff and bodyguards were there to protect them.

You say I'm hypocritical, and I'm speculating and invalidating other ships, but you're doing th exact thing. If you can't see the difference between company content vs. personal time while using a company car, then nothing I say will change your mind about my ship. You can see all these Taekook outings as nothing special than that's valid. But myself and other Taekookers we see the validation in their outings and their relationship.

I might miss some things in this ask, but I'm replying at the moment in a moving car, and the ask is long.

[lipglossanon]

hi lipgloss!!

this is 🫧 anon from ao3! I know you’re on hiatus but I still thought I’d send in an ask<3

how are you? Hope everything’s well and that you’re good! Don’t forget to take everything one day at a time and to take care of yourself first and foremost! sorry if I’m kinda corny hahaha! just wanna let you know there’s people that care about you and your wellbeing<3

I really wanted to share an idea with you, because I’ve recently seen a post here on tumblr about an analysis of Leon’s canon injuries.

So besides the numerous concussions (poor baby) he definitely has *scars*, on his thigh (RE4), on his shoulder (RE2) and more.

I was thinking of a scenario where, while making love, reader kisses all of his scars because he’s beautiful like that and he deserves it so so much… telling him sweet praises and whispers because he’s gone through so much… and I’m imagining older Leon because he’s literally lived through all of it lol

maybe I’m just a hopeless romantic but I’m imagining this as very emotional, like this man has never gotten the gentle love he deserves:( makes me want to cry.

it also makes me kinda sad because I really want capcom to give him a break and his happy ending, but now there’s rumors of resident evil 9 and how people are really expecting Leon to make an appearance. Like I would LOVE to see more of Leon, I really would, but capcom makes him suffer soo much PLEASE give my man a break. So I don’t know how I feel about him possibly being in re9, and all we can do is wait until 2025 probably :’)

Oh well! Thanks for taking the time to read and have a nice day lipgloss, take care<3

~ 🫧 anon

Hi 🫧 anon!! 👋

Before answering I wanna say, thank you so much for your kind review on ao3! It was super sweet and really made my day 🥹 💜

Anywho, I am doing very well! The break from tumblr was super helpful. 😌 And thank you! A lot of the negative was clouding the fun I was having on this platform (and it’s so nice to come back to such positive asks and messages 😭).

And that’s so heartbreakingly warm! 🥺 he definitely would just fall apart if reader kissed all of his scars and just showed him how much he’s cared for 😢 it would be intimacy on a level I think he’d denied himself before but now he can just be in the moment 🥺🥺

And I really have no clue what RE9 will bring (as much as I love Leon, I want my OG crew back! Let me play as Jill in a new game, Capcom!!).

Thank you again!! I hope you have a wonderful day as well!! 💜

[bi-dykes]

HEY GONUM!!!! HOW ARE YOU DOING GIRLIE?? ☺️💕💕💕💕 I HOPE UNIVERSITY IS GOING WELL FOR YOU SO FAR!!! APOLOGIES FOR THE INACTIVITY!!! IM ON A HIATUS AND ALSO BECAUSE HIGH SCHOOL IS TRYING TO KILL ME 😀 /J

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF MY FRIEND AND I WISH YOU NOTHING BUT LOVE AND HAPPINESS!!! 💌💌💌💌

HEYYY CLOVER 🥰 University is going sublime, I got a 90% on my assignment, I like my dorm room, I’ve been asked out three times (I said no each time lol none of them tickled me pink) my roommate and I are like besties, and I’ve made a few new friends!

I’VE ALREADY SAID THIS BEFORE TO YOU BUT DON’T APOLOGIZE FOR THAT, TUMBLR IS JUST AN APP, IT’S NOT A JOB 💕💕💕 YOU DO WHATEVER YOU NEED TO DO <3 and keep taking good care of yourself :)

I’m sorry to hear that high school has been brutal to you! You got this ✊ you can do it!

I WISH YOU LOVE AND HAPPINESS TOOOO 💝💝💝😊😊😊

Gonum signing off 👋

[dearweirdme]

Hi👋

This may sound a bit strange & sorry if it's a bit rambling. But I feel the western pop industry has traumatized so many BTS fans. And, I think that it may influence some of the (unfounded) fears about JK becoming arrogant. Like with the hysteria around the hiatus bc 1D; I think people see what happened to young talented Justin Bieber becoming somewhat of a muscular, tatted up ass hat or ultra-talented Justin Timberlake leaving his members behind & project that onto Jungkook. Though, they completely disregard all we know of him as a person & his experiences. For example, Bieber was thrown into the industry at about the same age as JK but as a soloist while JK has had his hyungs to support/direct him.

Hi anon!

Not strange at all, you might be right. When I came into this fandom (having had no experience with kpop at all) I hard a really hard time understanding how this fandom works. It’s different from what I was used to in other fandoms. For instance, the somewhat separation of K army and I army. You don’t find that in fandoms from western artists much. No matter which country you come from.. you’re all just fans. I can imagine to K army the addition of international fans was… tough? It’s not weird to feel kinda possessive of your artist (we all feel possessive of BTS kinda), so I think that and the wish of international fans to be part of army caused International army to adopt some of K armies standards, which are different from western standards when it comes to dealing with artists (note that I say different and not worse). To me that would explain why army as a whole has a somewhat negative view of western artists. And also.. to me it felt kinda fresh to see less ‘show’ and more bizz, because western artists do in general come with more ‘fakeness’ (though I’m not sure if that’s the right word for it). In general the bigger the artist the bigger the pr operations are. We don’t want that for BTS. And I can understand that army now sees Jk work with these American producers, who all talk about him like he’s some kind of k pop messiah who is going to conquer the world, and think… please let Jk stay our Jk. So you might have a point yeah.

Not all western artists are arrogant though and I think we can trust Jk in handling himself. He is not new to the industry. He’s met the bad and the manipulative people already. He’s going to be fine.

[sapphires-and-silver-linings]

Fellow The Betrayer lover here 👋 I’ve really gotta say that it’s such a piece of art. Absolutely no pressure, but purely out of curiosity, as I really cannot wait for more: any updates?

“Piece of art” omg thank you 😭

And yes I am working on chapter 10 of The Betrayer in tandem with chapter 4 of Half-Life! My goal is to finish Half-Life chapter 4 first and put it on hiatus so I can jump back into The Betrayer for a bit.

Summer is always difficult for me to write because although I’m out of school, I go to visit my family and I rarely have a moment to myself whereas I have a lot of alone time and privacy in my own home. I unfortunately struggle to write when I’m not in a certain headspace, on top of being in a very over-stimulating environment (surrounded by young, loud, and quite clingy kids lol).

I’m getting somewhere for both upcoming chapters, but they’re both gonna be long. My longest chapter I’ve ever written (chapter 9 of The Betrayer, I believe) is nearly 14k words, and I truly think chapter 4 of Half-Life may surpass that. Chapter 10 of The Betrayer is probably gonna be around 15k words if I could guess, cos I’m only a quarter into the plot of the chapter lol.

I know it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted any of my fics, but life has been insane for me lately (though if I’m honest, it always is in one way or another lol).

But I’m quite attached to both The Betrayer and Half-Life. I truly believe that they’re some of my best writing, and I am so proud of how they’re coming along despite the gaps between posting chapters.

For any of my Madness is The Color Green fans, I plan on editing it heavily and will hopefully work on it again too!

I wish I was more prolific than I am, but it’s hard for me to write a lot quickly, especially considering some personal life stuff going on. I also tend to go through times of writer’s block which sucks and is disheartening when many of my stories have very involved plots with lots of references to previous chapters, consistent and/or evolving themes/motifs and character development, and trying to maintain a specific tone throughout the whole story.

Sorry for the essay, I like to talk a lot 😂

Side note, though:

I was thinking of releasing some teasers for both The Betrayer and Half-Life to give y’all something while I slog through the rest of them!

Let me know if that’s something y’all are interested in!

And thank you so much for your kind words and patience! I appreciate it ❤️❤️❤️

[theloverscardtarot]

Since they love humor over there at Tea with Evan and Me. Let’s see what their hot topics have been since the man that the blog has been deciated has been on hiatus.

I’m going to keep it light but I see they are now taking about Marlon. You guys are welcome by the way. If it wasn’t for that topic you all would of still been on how toxic the Reddit community and Twitter are over Evan and Natalie’s relationship. Now before they put words in my mouth (TWEAM Anons). I’ve haven’t said one bad thing about Evan’s girlfriend present and past. I loved Haley Lu and still do. But I dislike when someone called the tarot readers and people who like tarot “mentally unwell freaks” wow for you to feel that way about a community is very sad.

Let’s thank the Anon or Anons who like to bring their Admin into this situation now. I also believe that spewing hate on a women is wrong. But also didn’t someone compare Fran’s lifestyle to Natalie’s mentioning that Fran makes low level quality videos she calls art. Welp so did a lot of YouTuber’s and some actually are making good money now.

Also that Natalie got the “upgraded girlfriend package covid-era fran was denied”. Sorry Fran, you probably should of traveled to the White House and demanded that they open back up restaurants and airlines while you were dating Evan.

Let’s not forget, when they said Fran has a low level data entry type job that requires her to work remotely even on vacation. Dangg, let me pour a drink out to the people that have a “low level data entry job” because apprently according to them Fran or even you readers could never ever in your life afford a prada outfit lol!

Just a little fyi to the “low level” job people. If you too would like to wear a Prada outfit, Visit renttherunway.com. Where you too can look good. Also guess what if you don’t want it to be sitting in your closet all day collect dust. You can just return the outfit. Just looking out for yall low level data entry people😘. Lol it’s crazy because it reminds me of when a president was calling certain jobs “black people jobs.” Sorry I’m done now.

Hi Anon 👋

Thank you for talking about Marlon! Because Marlon is king 🙏

I have noticed that for someone that says they don't tolerate hate on their blog, that they still let it fly. The hate they don't want seems to be directed at specific people, but the rest can all go fly a kite apparently. According to them we let the crazies through like Rosa and let her "spew hate". Well, no. Sometimes she falls through the cracks. But I delete stuff that even has a tinge of hate towards Natalie or whomever. I've gotten asks about the admin over there that is calling her some pretty bad names. Delete!. Like don't preach and then not practice. Know what I mean?

And about the "low level data entry" job. Well, she has one! So, leave her alone. She has the right to bitch on her Tumblr or wherever about having to work on vacation. Just like Admin has the right to bitch about us. It doesn't mean she needs to be raked over the coals. And it's also not her fault she had to stay inside and sleep with Evan instead of going to dinner. Oh darn, poor Fran 😂

And lastly, TWEAM is a community just like we are. So, she claims to have balls of steel when it comes to people sending her hateful things about her, but you can't tell me it doesn't affect her in some way. So, why let everyone rip us to shreds? She actually said she has her spies. Well, that's obvious cause at least one person is acting like her right hand man and going to report to her while she sits on her throne of entitlement. Sorry, had to say it. Tarot is a community like no other. We all stick up for and protect each other (that'll be their next topic, but it's true). And it's just because she doesn't believe in it and doesn't want to understand it that we are all coocoo for cocoa puffs, even the people following us. Well, we welcome everyone here. She can keep typing out not so nice answers to asks and calling people out on her blog. But I'm gonna continue to value people's opinions while politely deleting the toxic stuff.

[celerydays]

*ahem* hello. 🤓👋

tbh there’s no good way to segue back in after not having posted for like 9 months but eyyyy i’m back and i’ve missed u all SO SO MUCH 🥰 hope y’all have been doing well~❣️

I guess I kinda went on an unplanned hiatus, first due to a mental health break, then because we got to work on buying our first house (which, YES, we did succeed!) 😱

👆 that’s pretty much biggest update of what i’ve been up to this last 3/4 of year, but i’ve also been:

📒 spending time in my (very neglected) sketchbook

🔮 taking up tarot reading and journaling (i’ve finally embraced my destiny of becoming “that” astrology tarot ho lmao)

🏠 been working on setting up our house and learning how to be a functioning home owner (what is lawn work, i literally don’t know how to use a lawn mower, send help 😥)

🐞 I also FINALLY caught up with Miraculous Ladybug. my soul is calling for some season 4 fanart 💖

drawing has been hard, ngl. i don’t know if it’s because i burned out, or because i got too busy, or felt like i forgot how to draw after a while, or maybe didn’t feel inspired/motivated (maybe it was just all of the above) but picking up my tablet has filled me with this feeling of inexplicable fear and dread for the last couple of months especially.

i’ve finally managed to pick it back up a couple days ago to start sketching and doing warm-up drawings and i’m feeling a LOT more like myself now for the first time in months. i would love to come back to drawing and sharing art/chatting with you guys again 🥺

[techno-toister]

I’m leaving the minecraft ask blog community [kinda]

Soooooo.. uhh yeah, if u can guess from the title i’m leaving .w.”

it’s not forever but uhhh.... yeah

it’s for my mental health ^^;

i may come back at some point and i’m still gonna play and draw minecraft and stuff, but the ask blogs themselves are basically going on hiatus until i can get help 

it’ll also help me flesh out my newer characters like lad and maybe i can try to flesh out my character snook a bit more too 

i hope to comeback someday but for now...

bye y’all 👋

[vermillioncrown]

Just wanted to ask how long you think your hiatus is gonna be?? Hope you enjoy the break!! :) I love the fic, and I think you’re super talented!

O also I was wondering if you maybe had any advice for going into stem? I’m applying to universities soon and Im really thinking I’ll go stem for undergrad and I wanna know what’s it’s like of ur down to talk abt it 😄

direct answer: prob until mid sept, and then it's a rush to early nov. i have a conference, and i'm trying to beat up admin to let me propose my phd (also myself but that's perpetual)

corollary: what if i lied? what if my timelines slip? are you gonna hold me accountable??

(don't - not even as a joke please and thank you)

thanks for the well-wishes and compliments 👋👋👋

=

i don't like giving general advice dump. it bogs down the blog and idk if it's getting to the right person. nor do i know if i'm covering the information/experience you care about.

options:

ask pointed questions via anon at the risk of oversharing

ask with your actual account for efficiency but now i Know

if enough people pipe up (can be via anon) i have threatened a one-time stream of chat as i game, and this can be a topic of discussion (writing, my fics, general scuttlebutt also open as topics)

[aspidities]

It’s good to be back. 👋

So I did the whole ‘where I’ve been and how I’m doing’ post on Patreon a week or so back, and now it’s finally time for the Tumblr Version, in bullet points for your benefit!

1. Where have I been:

Well, like, still here. But just….I don’t know, not motivated. I moved in October (big yay!) and we got ourselves the puppy, both of which are great and also big life things. Do you know what no one tells you about raising a puppy? It’s like raising a baby. But WORSE. Babies can’t bite you or your furniture or destroy an entire $20 toy the second your back is turned—at least so I’m told.

And yes, I knew this going in and I still had much to learn, lol. Non stop sleep deprivation from nightly poop runs and lack of energy due to constant puppy supervision is a real drag on the old’ creative engine.

Is it worth it though?

Yes. Oh yes.

So 2. How is the puppy?

Great! Cloud took a long time to learn to sleep through the night but honestly he was otherwise an angel to deal with. Never had many accidents indoors, loves every dog and person he meets and is my girlfriend’s dog’s best friend. He’s now fully housebroken, sleeps through the night, knows about ten tricks, and mostly leaves the cats alone. He’s 6mos and a massive hunk at 54lbs and is the absolute best boy ever. Just the dumbest, sweetest, most obedient kid on the block. I love him and he’s my son, and I am his Dad.

So yeah, he’s doing great. You can even follow his Instagram @forecast_of_cloud where I am a huge Best in Show Dog Dad and post nearly every day.

3. Why haven’t I been posting here?

Well, aside from the puppy madness as described above, I have been going through several different creative and emotional journeys, and, as usual, have been totally unable to articulate any of them. Despite writing words being…y’know, the thing that I do.

First, Supergirl ended and that was kind of a wake up call in a way. I didn’t know what else to write once it had finished. I had existing ideas and I wanted to finish them but then….what next?

I’ve been writing fanfic for almost five years now, after a long hiatus from my teenage years, and it’s been wonderfully cathartic but ultimately I saw it originally as a means to an end: to get myself writing more original work. But that’s scary. Honestly, it is. Fanfic is so safe—you can rely on that framework of someone else’s plot, even a barely sketched out one, to hang your own design on. Writing your own work? Hard. Much harder. And no one cares as much as they do about your fanfic—with good reason! It’s harder to break into something you don’t know about.

But lately I have this feeling like I need to try. I’m not done writing fanfic (I still have to give Arcane and Yellowjackets a shot!), and i’m not done writing Supergirl—I just think my priorities have shifted in a big way. And it took me a long time to come to terms with that.

In addition, I found myself feeling more comfortable on the masc side of the non binary world than I ever expected, and the growth and change from that has been huge.

Luckily I have a lot of support and love in my life to help me along that way. ;)

Which brings me to 4. How are things in my relationship?

Awesome. 🥰

J is a wonderful partner and she’s been the main cheerleader for my original work. She is fierce wit, morbid humor, a devilishly good dress sense and a warm little weight on my chest all wrapped in a lacy package that smells of lavender and Yves St Laurent Black Opium. She cares so much about my well-being, both as a person and an artist, and she’s also supporting me in my masc journey by gleefully dressing me up every chance she gets. In return I make her breakfast almost every morning and rub her back every night. We make a beautiful pair of symbiotic creatures. I am a shrimp and she is my goby and we danced to Frank Sinatra while putting up our little Jewish Christmas tree and squeezed each other’s hands while singing along to Hedwig and the Angry Inch on our theatre Valentines date. It’s love, baby. What more is there to say?

So that’s the news from Asptown, where the women are beautiful and the men aren’t cis! I hope you all haven’t missed me too much. I’ll be posting more regularly and i’m STILL going through my messages so just hang in there with me if I haven’t got to you yet. It’s a good thing to be so well regarded, even if it can be overwhelming. I appreciate the heck out of you all. ❤️

[spdermen]

sooooo, i don’t have the energy to maintain this blog right now i don’t know if this is a goodbye or a see you soon but yeah i don’t even have the time to fill my queue :( i’ll maybe still post on my lit sideblog @userfayne​ bye love yall (august 8th, 2023)

the blogger - updated march 30th, 2023

hi 👋 i’m fayne, you can call me fay if you want to 💖

i’m a 26 yo architect from brazil and at the moment i’m on a gif making hiatus because my laptop broke and i don’t have money to buy a new one, most of my posts are queued because work has been taking all my time but i would still like to talk to anyone who feels like it, my askbox is always open :D

you can also find me on my litblr sideblog where i talk about the books i read

i track #userfayne and you can absolutely tag me in any of your creations 🥺 take a look at my favorites here

i tag #flashing gif, #blood tw, #nsfw and spoilers

my criteria for tagging spoilers is: if it’s a show with weekly episode releases (e.g., disney+ shows) i’ll tag it as #”show/movie” spoilers for a week until the next episode is released and then i tag the new episode as spoiler; if it’s a show that releases a whole season at a time (e.g. netflix shows) i’ll tag everything from said season as spoiler for at least a month; and if it is a movie, i’ll tag it for the time it is at theathers and when the bluray is released, for at least a month (but it can change and i end up not tagging it as spoiler when the bluray comes out, it all depends if the spoiler is something that is already out in the world bluray out or not)

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[sankyeom]

sf9? (also hi belle ^^ hope you're enjoying your writing hiatus!) - qiu

hi qiu!! 👋👋👋 thank you my love, i’m really enjoying travelling and taking a break!! hope you’re well 💗

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send me a group and i’ll tell you which member i find the most attractive