#me yapping once again about something

[sunny-honeytears]

Okay so my mom gave me the task of carving a pumpkin this year and i was like "oooh im making a gothic castle and vampires" and she was like "fine whatever-

*vine boom*

I..may have over did it? BUT- BUT IT HAS SARAH

And after the worst mental breakdown and meltdown i had in months, i added in the count too :D

Hes waiting for her <3

Apparently even though i started a blog about tdv so i bother them less with it, i still talk "too much" about it :)

But like..this is a fucking masterpiece and it only took me 1,5 hours!

The castle was inspired by the one in the og hungarian poster

So like Happy Halloween!!!

We watched The green mile as a horror film (realised later on that it was never marked as a horror film and it was soulcrushing but great watch, i recommend it to everyone!)

Yeah so i remembered this and honestly me and Koukol (?) twinning

[abstractfrog]

Happy 1 year anniversary to Mr Sherlock Holmes! Here's a litttleee celebratory comic from me

[gods-perfect-idiots]

❤️💛

[seventh-district]

“Why’s he call you Darlin’?”

on my knees begging my brain to stop trying to associate this song with Sam

[dykedvonte]

If Ulysses has a million haters, then I'm one of them. If Ulysses has one hater, then I'm THAT ONE. If Ulysses has no haters, that means I'm dead. If the world is with Ulysses than I’m against the world.

[emily-mooon]

I’m kicking my feet and giggling abt it w you btw I’m solidarity

I’m yapping about her over popcorn :3

[angelicdonuts]

Nene and girlfriend this time :3 !!

Grhghvhhg the girls... the shawty baes..

(Still more!! Next post is gonna be boyfriend focused [with a little bit of Pico too ^_^] !!)

[famewolf]

speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling

[cuteniaarts]

Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:

Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough

[gammija]

i keep constructing elaborate political speeches in my mind. as if somehow if i could just talk to pvv-voters compellingly enough, explain to all of em why this is moronic on every level, they'd all suddenly find out that they're actually leftists at heart who just heard a few facts wrong

[sunny-honeytears]

[toasteloo]

found something cool and exciting on twitter that i must scream about it somewhere

you might ask, what the hell is this?

well this is the current active public transport in the entire greater jakarta metropolitan area, seems a bit sad right?

recently they talked about the proposed plan for 2045 and beyond for the expansion of the public transport in that area and LOOK AT THIS

a LOT more crowded, with a lot more proposed stations coming (though they are not final as stated in the website but its exciting regardless) most notably here is the massive expansion of mrt and lrt, as for the commuter line trains there is a HUGE expansion going from the lower east to west with nambo line is expanded all the way to cikarang

why is this exciting for me at least? specifically for the commuter trains now its a lot more evenly distributed! with nambo line now goes all the way to the east people will rely less on bogor red line and start going to nambo to lessen their transfers! now instead of going only one line from the south and have a lot of people jammed in the transit, now its a lot more even!

and personally for me if you notice the green lines and dots on the most southern part, thats my hometown (hi yes i just doxxed myself) they are planning to make a bogor lrt loop line, loop line!! which means now the public transport in this city will be better than ever and getting around places will be stupid easy

for the bogor lrt i thought it will be only one station because its the one they mentioned before its cancelled because reasons but having multiple stops there and with most of them is in the more dense residential area, thats fantastic news

also i just realized the red line is gonna be the longest line holy shit, they might replace that with something else but damn

fingers crossed that all of these will be a reality in 20 years!

in case someone that somehow read all of this want even more details, they have a github link for the interactive proposed map (its the one that i use for the pictures)

[embers-burning-bright]

not to throw my hat into the discourse, but all this anti-doctor/therapist stuff i'm seeing around at the moment is genuinely a bit terrifying and also feels like a dangerous line of thinking

i saw some tags on a post recently saying that the poster would not go to the doctors even if they were severely ill, and would rather chance it being cared for by their own community

and i'm sorry but. this is anti-vaxxer logic, this is the same talk those culty essential oils mums spout

medical care systems are flawed around the world, yes, and they need to be reformed, yes. but i don't think this "all doctors/therapists are just like cops" narrative is a good one or even useful

demand better, but don't reinforce the all medical care is bad narrative, because you are shooting yourself in the foot and are like 2 steps away from cult thinking

[gentlethorns]

hmmm getting in my head a little bit about some issues i'm already seeing in my first draft that ik i'll need to confront in my second draft. but i genuinely just have to be like *sprays my overcritical mind w a spray bottle* no!!!!! let me finish the first draft first!!!!!!

[secondpersonpoetry]

hi! heard the released “Merry Christmas, Please Don’t Call” (which i’ve seen you’ve heard live, if i’m not mistaken!!) this morning and i don’t know if there’s really a particular vibe/dynamic/ship hrpf-wise (personally haven’t yet been able to put my finger on it) that quite relates but the lyrics have been rotating in my head all day and i was wondering if you had any thoughts? hope you have a good one! <3

OH ANON HAVE I EVER SEEN IT LIVE!!! and the second that song came out i zoomed it straight into my fic playlist and unfortunately there are so many guys this could be. right now the one that's resonating is, of course, the golden boy and his haunted ghost themselves: mcstrome.

i am thinking about connor, specifically, after the stanley cup final. that game seven. how angry he was, how loud the silence when they told him he won the conn smythe. how close he's come before and again and again lost. there's nobody else to blame but himself. he's in the empty room and he knows why (1)

at!! your best!!! you were magic!!! oh, golden boy. connor the anointed, of course. at the very beginning of his career we always knew he was something special and who wouldn't have fallen in love with him? weren't all of us a little bit dylan strome in awe of the generational talent? we were all bathed in radiant light just by being in the vicinity (2)

don't even tell 'em that you know me breaks my heart (3). in terms of building a narrative i think i've said before there is a universe where connor/dylan were together before the draft and to protect both of them, dylan breaks up with him. connor says i love you and dylan says i don't. because he doesn't, you know? he loved connor. he loved davo. he can't be in love with connor mcdavid, first overall pick of the edmonton oilers. i'd rather be hurt forever than have to watch us try to make this work and destroy us.

and after connor mcdavid left the otters, dylan strome captained them to a memorial cup win. what a haunted home, eh? to be captain of the team you and your best friend were on, only now he's left you? don't call me to tell me about your rookie season with the oilers--we both know about your broken collarbone. don't call me to tell about becoming the youngest captain in franchise history when i stepped into the shoes of your captaincy here. don't call me. (4)

narratively: dylan's the one who broke connor's heart and his own but by god it wasn't easy. we both know what happened, you went first overall. please don't make this harder on me. please don't call.

this verse can be about the weight of dylan having to live up to connor's standards and always being measured by him. i would just like to bring up the connor stepping stone chart for absolutely no reason as well (5)

we are, at long last, at the potential future of now: dylan strome, happy, smiling, thriving on the washington capitals. connor, on the oilers. i'm not yours, dylan can say. haven't been for a long time. it took some time but i made this. please don't call and ruin this for me, stay out of my life. i don't want you or need you (6)

[p.s. this took a while because when i received this ask i was a) immediately possessed to write this verse by verse breakdown i had never thought of before and then b) immediately plagued by the idea of making you a little graphic (above the read more) and finally got to do it after banging out all the actual lyric thoughts two (?) weeks ago. emerging two and a half hours later from the fugue state of GIMP with 37 layers in this bad boy hope you enjoy!!!]

[chqnified]

Sometimes I wonder if I'm asking too much to just have a thought spared about me.

Stop trauma dumping on me and expecting me to magic responses you'll like out of thin air. When I don't, you get upset. Do you not think it's inappropriate to dump something on me during my work shift when you know i have my own baggage too?

Do you seriously not see my point about centring things around yourself? Can you not take a second to see where I'm coming from instead of deflecting it and making it about you again?

And your friends. I despise the lot of them. And I can tell you for a fact, by the way they talk about me, the feeling is mutual.