#me when im so mentally ill over them

[heckthis-heckallofthis]

If you're seeing this post then that means I've officially lost it!!!!

3033/Cross relationship headcanons (I hate them)

3033 constantly acts like he isn't in love when in fact he is more obsessed with Cross than Cross is with him. He is unsalvageable

33 enjoys the taste of every part of him (phagocyte things), his skin, his spit, even the things I will not speak of here

Another phagocyte thing is he constantly bites him as affection (and marking him)

Marking him is more of a jealousy thing but it doesn't matter anyways because Cross is so hard to hit on it's insane, you need to bother him 24/7 just to reach the possible love interest status, much less have him constantly bicker with you on sight

This causes big awkward moment at the T cell station: "uh Cross? Are those bite marks??" "NO, UH, MOSQUITOES, BAD ALLERGIC REACTION" (they do not believe his ass!!!)

They both have no experience on actually doing it, maybe they've read fiction or watched it at some point but none of them have ever gotten that far with a partner.

Cross has definitely read the worst BL out there tho, that is his only knowledge on it. The second they try anything 3033 is about to be hit with this fact.

3033 uses the honorific "-chan" on him, at first as disrespect (he's so small and unintimidating, no other honorific fits), but eventually turned to affectionate (he's so cute, I enjoy calling him this)

Cross(-chan) always says he hates it but in actuality he is obsessed with it, everyone else calls him Cross-kun so he feels it's special when 3033 alone refers to him as Cross-chan

When they first started dating Cross kept getting 3033 food, learning from his Squad Leader, the problem is that Squad Leader has an insane void as a partner, and therefore is the outlier. (3033 just kept handing 2145 his gifted food, although he feels bad he cannot actually finish it all)

I think Cross would lose his mind anytime 3033 decides to let down his hair. 3033 does it whenever he's bored just to see his reaction

Even when they're dating they call each other names and say they're annoying, it's just another part of their day <3 (they don't get physical with it at least) sometimes it gets to the point they yell at each other "YKNOW WHAT? IM BREAKING UP WITH YOU" and then go their separate ways before coming right back the next day saying "Okay do you want to visit this restaurant I found with me?" "Yeah ok"

I think Cross would genuinely be into 3033 constantly calling him names, 3033 calls him an idiot and stupid halfway through making out and Cross instantly gets redder than before.

On the flip side I don't think Cross can seriously call 3033 insults when they aren't actively bickering, maybe he's too busy looking at how pretty 3033 is, maybe he just likes him too much to say those words seriously to him.

The second 3033 realized he preferred watching Cross break down into a flustered mess rather than get mad at him over nothing was when the flirting began. Terrible for Cross' blood pressure but great for 3033's amusement 👍

Much to 3033's dismay, 2145 enjoys wingmanning for him. Cross asked 2145 what 3033's code was because they got so far into the relationship yet 3033 had never told him his code, and it would be embarrassing to ask him now.

3033 doesn't normally tell 2145 about how his relationship is going, but 2145 (probably influenced by Squad Leader's nosy behavior) will sometimes ask about it, he is curious

Cross literally tells everything Abt 3033 to Squad Leader, Squad Leader doesn't know what to say so he's just nodding half the time. It would be so in-character and funny tho if he saw bruises on Cross (hickeys) and thought maybe 3033 was bullying him and messages 2145 Abt it.

2145 confronts 3033 about "Maybe be less rough on him" and 3033 is just ""??? I told him he can tell me if it hurts?????????"

Cross uses emoticons (canon) and he uses them when he's texting 3033

"Good morning ｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡" comes up on 3033's phone and his juniors are all thinking who is the person behind that message

3033 looks so menacing and grumpy at work and on the clock but in reality he's sooooo annoying and clingy. He has a reputation to keep up tho so he only does that at home. Aka with Cross.

Cross gets no time away from him at home, 3033 is burying his face into his chest, his hair, his back, doesn't even matter if he just came home from work.

Sometimes it's because he just wants to bother him, sometimes it's because he wants affection. Regardless Cross is not getting anywhere w his clingy ass.

[lovesickeros]

lord its so dark in here the sahara desert of tsaritsa content you are like a shining oasis. your characterisation of her compels me & mihoyo would be hard pressed to top it imo.!! caaaaan i humbly request yr thoughts on her first meeting w a reader of any kind, or maybe even multiple kinds (sagau, sagau god au, isekai, etc) if you so desire...

it really is like a desert here. being the fan of a character we aren't getting until the last damn nation is driving me up a wall but i will persevere bc if nothing else i support morally bankrupt women in media. we r in a severe drought over here but i do my best. unfortunately nothing i say is ever coherent so pull out your translation notes its abt 2 be messy

also this got out of hand but thats bc first meetings w the tsaritsa are tricky to write + a LOT of her characterization lies in deeper exploration then just surface level yknow...NOT A DIG AT YOU this is just my excuse for rambling. gently pats the tsaritsa she can hold so much complexity i do not have the word count to delve into it completely :]

gonna talk cult au for a bit here though because that's 99% of my content. and honestly? she thrives in sub au's of the cult au like villain au + imposter au. it's basically made for her. i mean, early days, the imposter au had been going around for a little while but one of the first few ideas was the Fatui taking reader in so like. it kinda technically actually was. pretty sure cult au Tsaritsa popped up because of the imposter au. a lot of it's writers kinda left though which. man am i getting old or.

anyway.

there isn't much of a chance her first impression is all that positive. at best it's usually neutral, imo, but rarely if ever positive. specifically because i view the Tsaritsa as someone who isn't as fanatical as most of the acolytes typically are towards the creator. she's not exactly going to worship the ground you walk on unlike a certain geo lizard. which is partially why i think she thrives in the sub au's i mentioned.

imposter au, for example. she meets you at your lowest. there's no gaudy extravagance or pampering from the acolytes waiting for you because your own acolytes have turned on you. for all intents and purposes you aren't a "god" at all. which is why i don't think she meshes well with normal cult au reader. the Fatui are made up of outcasts, basically, and imposter au slots right in just perfectly. you're weak, at your lowest, when you meet the Fatui in the imposter au. and the Fatui can help you, too.

a mutual exchange, really. the Tsaritsa sees a tool she can use to one up the rest of the nations and especially Archons, and she has no qualms about you using her and the Fatui in turn. you both want something out of it, after all. whether you just want to be safe from the rest of the acolytes, or you want revenge, or whatever else..she'll give you the power to fulfill it, and she gains the strongest piece on the chessboard when all is said and done.

the best way i can describe the first meeting is "practical", i suppose. she sees an opportunity in you. the ultimate gamble. because if she "saves" you, and you dont trust anyone else because they tried to kill you, well..she holds all the cards, doesn't she?

but the Tsaritsa, imo, is just as capable of being just as fanatical towards you as anyone else. she just won't worship you as the creator. but as yourself? clawing your way back to your divine power and taking back what belongs to you? the Tsaritsa is, to me, a character who's character flourishes in long-term fics more because she changes a LOT between "just met reader" and after having been with reader for some time. she's practically apathetic at the beginning but a lot of her character, in my characterization, shines through LONG after the first meeting.

[clowningaroundmars]

i still cannot get over The Twins like.

imagine.

you have another version of you out there arguably living a life just as difficult as yours, if not more, that you can talk to at literally Any Time! and they're You so you basically already have half a convo down anytime you decide to pop on over via a portal

1610 and 42 stepping out of their respective portals side-by-side just to stroll out of an alleyway like nothin happened just going:

1610: LOUD SIGH

42: rough day too huh?

1610, brushing debris off of his shoulder: yeeep. another run-in with the rhino. again.

42: you didn't lock his dumb ass up like, last month? how'd he get out?

1610: don't know, don't care. so done with this week, i just wanna... i dunno. hibernate til spring 😮‍💨

42: man, what a mood.

1610: what happened to you? you look like you had a rougher day than me!

42, covered in visible bruises and cuts along with his bandages: mannnn... rougher week more like. well... rougher life. but. anyways.

they both nod at each other in Understanding

[seagull-scribbles]

If I don’t survive the night,

If I make it to the morning-

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

[lycankeyy]

I think the Obvious Vent Art tmnt iterations I follow are rubbing off on how I write my fucking fnf au lol

[maudiemoods]

Ok not cool why am I hearing voices

[mwagneto]

i think what's really been getting to me the past few months is the realisation that i dont relate to literally any of the mental health stuff i see anywhere. like whenever there's some affirmation or motivation or just relatable-sounding posts in general they all seem like such common problems and it's like, damn i literally dont experience any of that. and yet im still crumpling. something uniquely wrong with me

[thelastsaiyanprincess]

the anger is now turning into resentment

[teethcake]

i know i say it a lot but formal apology for not posting creepypasta art recently T_T i had a huge artblock awhile ago and im just getting out of it. trying to draw stuff i want too and im busy with school also. thank you for being patient and at least taking a moment to look at what i post regardless of creepypasta or not <:'''] <3 it means a lot. dont care how it does as long as its enjoyed :'D

[widevibratobitch]

omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

[okieiforgot]

hello thank you for the support and love I've gotten ever since i started drawing trigun... T__T I've learned to love art more and have fun with it YIPPIE!!!!! anyway ty again hehe

[pilonciillo]

on another note

[fellhellion]

one of the most interesting dimensions to shiori and juri's relationship for me is the fact reciprocation isn't the point of tension between them. their feelings for one another aren't at ALL unrequited. the issue that plagues them beyond juri's arc about begining to unlearn her own self hatred, is the gaping maw that is shiori's lack of self worth <- the thing that drives her to hurt juri. in no world can shiori healthily reciprocate juri's feelings until she stops hating herself.

[end-orfino]

ahhhhhh i remember why i dont read comics & books and watch movies as much as I should. Because they make me lose it

[prettyfemmeprincess]

Drusilla femme seeking Spike butch