#since he was SO good thruout this whole mess

[haneys]

whenever i start wondering whether I really could have did i think of this one old memory that I can for some reason still t remember so clearly, it was the day of my first communion sacrament, my mom and dad were getting me ready in the upper floor of my grandparents house where I lived, and thruout that whole time i couldn't stop "thinking" (or rather hearing) swear words, threats and other awful things ring in my head. And I was so scared and stressed over it because you have to be pure for rhis sacrament as of course u can't take a communion if youve sinner, but i couldn't make it stop and i started crying because i thoight that now I can't attend. I told my mom what was happening, and to calm me down she told me it's okay, I'm just stressed and it's satan messing with me because he doesn't want me to get mt communion, and that it's not my fault and I'm good to go. And I went ok, satan, got it :) 👍 it did calm me down because I was like it's okay these bad thoughts don't define me, but also i like internalized this Satan thing because since then I thought there were demons possessing me or tempting me 😭