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diaryofaformerfratboy · 1 month ago

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*DRUNKENLY*

KISS KISS FALL IJN LOVE

i see you there, i watch you go

*teary eyed*

YANEVASEEMTOLEAVE ME THOUGHHHH

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tea-cat-arts · 7 months ago

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 2 - Psyche Skills

Part 1 - Part 3

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #disco elysium #MDZS disco elysium au #jiang cheng #jiang yanli #yu ziyuan #While it's more in vogue to draw a character's skill roster tailored to them -#One of the more subtle details I love in DE is how some of the skill portraits parallel character portraits of people hbd associates with.#Theres somethine rather poetic to be said about how other people shape out thoughts and sometimes act as a 'voice' in our head.#How we are in part a collection of impressions other people left behind on us.#I am a huge Skillhead (Those are my friends! My party members! They love me! They have their own agendas and alliances!)#so of course a healthy portion of this AU is dedicated to them <3 #the Int skills go basically unchanged from DE. Psy as well (with changes to a few quirks in voice).#Fys skills though...well...wwx is in a different body! Those voices belong to Someone Else.#Esp electrochem (MXY in this AU also partied to near death. WWX is withdrawing and craving substances he's never even heard of before)#While I personally don't fully subscribe to Volition Jean I *do* see Volition Jiang Cheng. The voice of your Not Brother keeping you afloat #All three of these parallels make me unbelievably sad. They are also both purple. Art is like that sometimes.#Empathy Jiang Yanli...oh man do I have a lot of thoughts about her. Disco fans Who Know....you can probably see what I'm cooking.#Authority is a really interesting skill in DE because *yes* its about power and intimidation - but it's also about finesse and respect #Titus Hardie and YZY both abuse *and* finesse how they establish their authority - in a way that leaves quite an impression.#2 more mdzs disco posts that I *need* to create and then I'm off to working on raffles <3

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threewordusername · 30 days ago

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in memory of the boy who died annually.

d.b.a

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my-name-is-apollo · 4 months ago

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Why is Hera so hostile to Leto in a manner that she isn't with the other lovers of Zeus? I can't think of any other woman who was targeted so much by Hera. One could say she didn't want Leto to give birth because her children would be a competition to Hera's children, but why bother her even after she had already given birth? Is it because Leto herself is also a threat to Hera?

Sort of I guess?

I don't think Leto would ever be a threat to Hera's role as the queen of the gods but Hera might see her as a competitor for Zeus' affection, even though I think Zeus would not marry someone else and replace Hera.

The twins are definitely a big reason why Hera begrudged Leto - it is outright stated in the Callimachus Hymn to Delos that the reason Hera especially targeted Leto was because she was told that Apollo would be dearer to Zeus than Ares is. Zeus is very proud of Artemis as well. As he himself puts it, he doesn't mind facing Hera's wrath for children like her.

But the continued hatred even after the birth of the twins (like sending Tityus to rape Leto) could have been for different reasons. This wasn't like one of those affairs Zeus would have with mortal women where he'd leave them behind once the child is conceived. Neither could Hera, despite her many attempts, get rid of Leto like she did with the other lovers. Not only did Leto give Zeus children that he loves dearly, she also stayed on Olympus despite Hera's hatred towards her (which isn't directed to any of Zeus' other divine mistresses, btw). It might have also been because Leto herself is dear to Zeus, if the way she's treated on Olympus is any proof. In the Homeric hymn to Apollo, Leto stands next to Zeus - in the Olympian assembly - to welcome their son. Hera is completely absent from the scene, as if Leto had taken her place even if temporarily. Now you could say this is because Apollo himself is such a powerful and glorious son in a way that no other son of Zeus is, so of course Leto would get such an honor (the hymn itself presents it this way).

But here's another instance - in the Iliad, when Hera goes to seduce Zeus, he is obviously very smitten but before getting into the action, he lists some of his lovers (I believe these were his favorite lovers, as a lot of others are not mentioned):

"for never has such desire for goddess or mortal woman so gripped and overwhelmed my heart, not even when I was seized by love for Ixion’s wife, who gave birth to Peirithous the gods’ rival in wisdom; or for Acrisius’ daughter, slim-ankled Danaë, who bore Perseus, greatest of warriors; or for the far-famed daughter of Phoenix, who gave me Minos and godlike Rhadamanthus; or for Semele mother of Dionysus, who brings men joy; or for Alcmene at Thebes, whose son was lion-hearted Heracles; or for Demeter of the lovely tresses; or for glorious Leto; or even for you yourself, as this love and sweet desire for you grips me now.’ (Book 14, trans. A. T. Murray)

Notice how when talking about most of them, he also mentions the children they bore to him but when Demeter and Leto are mentioned, he doesn't bring up their children at all despite them being some of the most accomplished kids of his. What's more, he takes Leto's name just before Hera's. I mean, this is an interpretation but it looks like not only did Zeus love Leto the most out of all his mistresses - giving her a place second to that of his wife, but also his love for her wasn't necessarily only because she gave him two amazing children.

Nonnus does something similar in the Dionysiaca (but this time Zeus is enamored with Persephone instead of Hera) but more notably, when Typhoeus attacks Olympus and Zeus is discouraged, Nike takes the form of Leto to encourage him and it's pretty telling of what Leto meant to Zeus.

One interesting similarity between Hera and Leto is that they both had a giant try to rape them. Porphyrion tried to violate Hera (Zeus inspired him to do this) and Tityus tried to violate Leto (upon Hera's order). Though both of them were killed, only Tityus got an eternal punishment in Tartarus of having his liver/heart eaten out by vultures so Zeus seems to have taken a greater offense at Tityus trying to assault Leto.

Again, I don't think Zeus would ever take anyone other than Hera as his permanent wife - she is irreplaceable to him. There's an entire myth about Hera leaving him and Zeus winning her back. Their relationship is obviously complex and involves all kinds of emotions including love and hate. But Leto is continually dear to him as well and that's something Hera can't do much about.

#Zeus #Hera #Leto #if you think about it Leto is like the opposite of Hera #she is a great mother #she bore children that Zeus is actually proud of #she never rebels and even begs for forgiveness when her son rebels against Zeus #she's generally mild natured and never lashes out #also if you look into this obscure myth of how Hera established an altar in the name of Leto #because Leto's name was used to cover up the secret relationship between Zeus and Hera #(which kinda sorta implies that Zeus was *maybe* courting or even married to Leto at that time)#it all gets even more complicated for both Hera and Leto #ALSO in the texts that record the syncretism bw Greek and Egyptian gods #Some authors make Hera the mother of Apollo #and Leto was Apollo's nurse #Those texts also mention that this Apollo defeated Typhoeus and became the king of Egypt #So he was like the ideal son of Zeus and Hera #And it's so interesting to me #how this Apollo - the perfect son of Hera - transitioned into a sort of rival figure to Hera in the greek myths #and Typhoeus who was defeated by Hera's son became the son of Hera in the Greek myths #on a different note #to this day I can't understand why Zeus would inspire Porphyrion to do such a thing #was it to get back at Hera for the Tityus incindent?#I shall headcanon it that way (even though I prefer to ignore this version)#well of course not that Zeus would have ever let Porphyrion actually have his way with Hera regardless of the reason #but yeah that was such move and it's wild that the mythographer didn't tell us that reason behind Zeus' action #I've also seen people hc that it was because Zeus wanted Heracles to save Hera so that she's accept him finally #which is also an interesting explanation #especially if you consider that Heracles was also given Hera's breast milk (without her consent)#anyway that's enough rambling ig

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revenantghost · 1 year ago

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Shout-out to Trigun fanfic writers for being some of the best creators in any fandom I’ve ever stumbled into; y’all are doing fantastic work and I send much love, gratitude, kudos, and comments your way

#Trigun #I can't sleep because my neighborhood sounds like a warzone #And fanfic is keeping me from getting me all upset #THANK YOU AUTHORS YOU'RE THE REAL MVPS #I'm so behind in my reading #But every time I hop into my tbr I'm BLOWN AWAY #I do my best to leave all the comments as I go #IT'S THE LEAST I CAN DO #THANK YOU

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avichor · 3 days ago

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“[insert animanga here] has more men than women so ofc ppl are gonna focus on the men!!!!” what if i kicked u. what if i pulled out each of ur eyebrow hairs individually. what if u shut up.

#ozawa being included in the epilogue was literally proof that a woman could get SOME hint of a focus #and she’d get a hate train purely bc the fujos (derogatory) perceived her as a threat #mind u we didn’t even get any context as to why she’d be there #u freaks just fixate on men and that’s that!!!! do not cower behind shonen (and most authors' misogyny) to hide ur intentions #just own up to it #also. the implication that ozawa being present would remove all of itsfhi development is CRAZY. UR ALL INSANE #ozawa my sweet princess get behind me

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inamagicalhallucination · 7 months ago

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i dont think bsd is poorly written at all

#i actually think its pretty well written all things considered #in general weekly/monthly publications have problems becuz the author cant really go back anymore like a published all at once novel or #something #but either way i think bsd is written pretty well #like yeah things dont make sense at times and there r parts that r brought up that we havent seen concluded but uh the manga is ongoing #im not mad at the “loose strings” becuz asagiri still is writing the manga so theres plenty of time for him to address everything #the only real complain i can get behind r all the fake outs (which tbh rlly dont bother me since we have several characters who think on a #level we dont rlly understand)#and honestly i dont think teruko's death was a missed opportunity its true i didnt expect her to be a child but tbh when u look back to her #moments in the manga it totally makes sense #although i do think asagiri could have played it out longer i dont think its bad the way it is #and i dont think it takes away from the tragic aspect of her character

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spark-circuit · 2 months ago

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me at my bookstore job to the 27th young adult straight edgy fantasy romance to come in this month

#full disclosure in case this blows up somehow because of booktok or something - IT'S NOT JUST BOOKTOK CRITICISM OR HET ROMANCE CRITICISM #this is me getting annoyed about the fact that the genre itself is oversaturated with too many of the same cookie cutter plot #girl in magic land meets guy and they hate each other but they don't really!!! but their love grows over the tides of the kingdom's war.....#<- THIS PLOT RIGHT HERE. I'VE SEEN FIVE SEPARATE AUTHORS DO THIS #and again - to clarify - it is NOT just booktok with this oversaturation issue #regular fiction is oversaturated with WW2/victorian era romance dramas - where the plot is good! but then A GUY SHOWS UP #AND THE WOMAN MUST MAKE A CHOICE..... TO SUPPORT HER CHILD OR LEAVE BEHIND HER OLD LIFE etc etc WE GET IT. FUCK.#and it's not just fiction too!!! the charts are oversaturated with crime novels in general right now #granted - most of them are good and try to be original - however there's just too many in the main chart #i won't list all of them to prevent drama - but in two past 'six new chart topper' deals - four were crime #and they haven't sold well. even bringing in popular authors didn't help them sell well #there needs to be a shake up. i don't want to be elitish or snobbish - PEOPLE CAN 100% WRITE WHAT THEY WANT #everyone's art is unique and beautiful because they did it #and they have the freedom to do so #but writers nowadays are falling too much into keeping with trends that it's actively tiring out consistent readers #write your fantasy novel - but lean into the worldbuilding. write your world war novel - but elaborate outside the characters.#write your fiction or crime - but try to vary up the beats of the plot to surprise readers more #stop trying to cater to what you l they want and what works - try and surprise them with something new and unexpected.#anyways rant over. i can talk about this for ages but i won't. but i could #spark talks about nothing of relevance #clip from the shadow the hedgehog rtfd 👍 thank you devil. from bible.

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yuwuta · 27 days ago

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something i think is absolutely bonkers is when fans of an anime/manga start publicly saying fuck you to the mangaka—who is still a very real person—just because the villainous character, who is not real at all, they wanted to fuck died

#like all for fun and games and wanting different outcomes for ur faves or whatever #but that’s what fics are for #idk i just feel like it takes so much hubris to get online and say fuck u to authors #like they aren’t real people with real emotions and like they didn’t spend time and sweat and tears #creating the story and characters you liked so much you created whole online accounts for #it’s not cute at all it pisses me off so bad #you couldn’t write a better ending for any character because you couldn’t write that character. if you could then you would have made him #but you didn’t. because you’re not the artist #it’s just. it’s the whole bigger thing of how people see artists and creatives as service workers instead of real people with actual #creative passions and genius that are NOT meant to serve you #and severely undervalue the work and talent they have #like okay sure u wanted a different ending…. it’s not their responsibility to give it to you #even the most popular anime/manga aren’t FOR fans??#u have to realize ur place as someone who is a fan of something u are NOT the drive behind the story no matter how much u think u are #u HAPPEN to like something someone else created but art is not an exchange of monetary goods ma #and even if/when it is just because u bought some merch or some manga doesn’t make u entitled to any part of the story or the work of the #creative who made it #y’all are so weird #some of u couldn’t write ur own name on a tag and wanna scream about bad endings #all because u wanted to fuck some villain bc u have daddy issues give it a REST

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duckiemimi · 4 months ago

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i would've loved to see more world politics commentary by gege actually.

#he can be funny sometimes #the american caricatures aren't caricatures at all wow #cheeky poke at western interventionism and necropolitics #'if we do not seize it we will fall behind'#also 'are you telling me to use my authority to abduct japanese citizens as research subjects?!' what a full circle moment #considering...well. considering.#historically speaking—interesting framing #but maybe he was going for irony here?#kenny you mad lad #jjk #kenjaku

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symphonyofsilence · 1 year ago

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Learning about the Yunmeng Shuangjie and the Nieyao drama through Wei Wuxian's and Nie Mingjue's points of view.

#'AITA for avoiding my brother like the plague after being back from the dead after learning he's been looking for me this whole time #And denying him an explanation about how & why I accidentally killed our BIL & started a massacre that resulted in our sister's death #And orphaned our nephew. And talking back to him and telling him off instead of even looking slightly apologetic #when he berates me for telling our nephew whom I accidentally orphaned he lacks maternal education?#And then without even saying so much as a hi to my brother when entering his home bringing a stranger #(that I've been spending all my time with instead of going home and giving an explanation to the brother that has suffered so much bc of me #Bc it was the easier thing to do)#To his ancestral shrine and then teaming up with my boyfriend to beat him up in his own ancestral shrine when he gets upset?#And then telling him that all I did for him (& kept from him) was bc I owed his family and then leaving him behind bleeding #metaphorically & literally (both bc of me) and not even asking him how he is before running to fuck in the bushes with my boyfriend?#*sigh* I thought Jiang Cheng would always be on my side and Lan Wangji opposite us.'#'AITA for making numerous attempts on the life of my marginalized sworn brother and ex-subordinate who has risked his life saving mine #& kicking him down the stairs & offending his mother & going to kill him again #after I told him why he won't just kill himself for the betterment of the world after he refused #To risk his life & safety doing something he had no authority to do after he tried to explain his situation to me?'#mdzs #cql #the untamed #mo dao zu shi #chen qing ling #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #nie mingjue #jin guangyao #wei wuxian #wei ying #jiang cheng #yunmeng shuangjie #jiang wanyin #yunmeng bros #twin heroes of yunmeng

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anthromimicry · 5 months ago

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the duality of misao being one of the few psychiatrists in arkham that has actually made progress with some of their patients and treats them like human beings, but also someone who does a complete 180° later + EATS her patients and gaslights people who ask about them into thinking they were never committed there is currently making me go feral. like girlll why are you like this JSJSJ

#ALL POWER DEMANDS POWER AND SACRIFICE: musings.#NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.#and whenever i say it's making me go feral i mean it both puzzling as well as intriguing to me that misao seems to not be on ANYONE'S-#side even when it may seem like she might just care about her patients bc she not only gaslights any of the staff and patients who ask abou #them into thinking that the person was never there BUT also destroys records of them ever having been there which would take quite a bit #of effort on her part to do and that is just. wow but like i said here misao is probably one of the only doctor's throughout the years who-#have treated their patients with empathy (even if most of it is faked on her part JSJSJ) and even does thing's like keep a cupboard-#full of snacks in her office for them so that they could have something better to eat than the cafeteria food...#and that is why i believe that it honestly wouldn't be too far-fetched for misao to end up having a redemption arc because-#she honestly doesn't like a LOT of the staff there because they still advocate for the use of barbaric practices like ECT on fully-#conscious people and as a regular treatment when it should be done under anesthesia / while the patient is asleep and be a 'last resort'#kind of thing you know? plus she has heard them talk about her behind her back before bc they think misao's 'weird' sooo yeah.#she isn't COMPLETELY evil but she still does thing's like eat people which is heinous in and of itself but even more so when there's-#a power imbalance between you + the other person because some people in there i could imagine would probably grow to trust her-#as an authority figure buttt misao would fully intend to take advantage of that so she could eat. and that is uhhh TERRIBLE to say the leas #tw: mentions of cannibalism.#tw: mentions of medical malpractice.#tw: manipulation.#tw: mentions of a power imbalance.

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ssreeder · 9 months ago

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oh my god. oh my goodness fucking gracious me.

so I just have to tell you that I found your fic this morning and I fucking SPEEDED through that shit (even though it was SO long--IM NOT COMPLAINING I LOVE LONG FICS) but oh my god. oh my god

you're so talented??? first of all, like I'm on my knees wondering where all this came from. like you came up with this?? it was in your head?? and you wrote it by yourself? oh my god reSPECT

also it's so beautifully written‼️‼️ I went back and looked at the character development and the everything because good lord it was so well paced. like I was on the edge of my bed seat during every single chapter. good lord

zukka + all of ATLA is my current hyperfixation and your fic has soothed me so completely

jesus christ on a cracker do you understand how talented you are?? do you *grabs you aggressively by the shoulders and stares deeply into your eyes* DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW INCREDIBLE AND SKILLFUL AND GORGEOUS THIS IS??? PLEASE

okay but in all seriousness, here are some of my favorite lines(mostly from the last chapter because jesus fuck I do nOT have time to scroll back through everything your wrote):

"And here he was, all these years later… not used to it. He knew he would never get used to the blood curdling scream a person made when the fire stripped their body clean and their bones were reduced to nothing but a pile of ash and a terrible smell.

No wonder the world referred to them as ash-makers."

Jesus fucking fuck. CHILLS BBY I HAD CHILLS

"Watch out for your little brother" OHOHOHO HEHEEEE

"'Your teacher will be someone who has mastered Neutral Jing. You need to find someone who waits and listens before striking. Do not worry about your old friend Aang, he isn’t buried in the ground yet!' Bumi cackled the way that he had since they were just kids.

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'The white lotus Pai Sho piece? I don’t have a set, no one else knows how to play.'"

AHAHAH THE TOPH AND UNCLE IROH DROP IM GOING TO BE SICK

"I'll go wherever you go." KILLING MYSELF WHY ARE THEY SO SWEET

anyway that's enough from me (I feel like you should know I typed all of this while either rolling around on the floor screaming or sitting very still with a DEEPLY disturbing (so I'm told) and very somber expression on my face).

i hope you have a lovely day you gorgeous beautiful perfect human being

This is me reading your ask… dude wtf this is so nice!!!!

I AM BEING SHOULDER GRABBED WITH LOVE AND I REALLY LIKE IT AHHHHH!!! its so funny because its been so long since i wrote the first book you sent me those quotes and im like uhhhuhhh ohhh yeah mhmmmm wait i wrote that?? Haha (except the “watch out for your little brother”) cause that was twisted in a way that made me smirk.. haha that sentence meant so much!!! (I do think the bumi quote was directly from canon though so I take zero credit for that just trying to keep it canon haha)

I’m glad you like my writing enough to come scream at me. I love when people scream kind words at me I WANT TO BE SHOULDER GRABBED WITH PRAISE MORE AHHHHH!!!

thanks for this epic ask you’re fucking amazing never change

#Unless you wanna change #Then fucking change I support you #But I love my shoulder grab thank uou #Funny story I feel like your ask has the same vibes as my authors notes haha #Sometimes I start writing those things and I seriously black the fuck out and then come back and it’s written #But damn it you made me smile so much #Thank you #Like seriously thank you #Some people don’t realize how much these asks and comments mean to people #Especially to me #I cherish each one and they inspire me so mucj #So seriously YOURE FUCKING AWESOME #Mythology-void #LIAB #Leaving it all behind #Ask

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sysig · 8 months ago

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