#maybe this is just the religious part of my subconscious telling me to get my shit together idk

[4ce-of-2pades-inkwell]

I had the idea to combine my two current fixations into a Casino Cups + Wicked AU.

Elphaba and Nessa are daughters of the Devil in the most literal sense. (Ironic, considering how religious book Nessa is, and how book Elphaba wrestles with the idea of having faith and a soul.) Elphaba appears human, but is green, as one would expect. You initially assume she’s a plant hybrid, but then you see her fangs that no, she never lost, and her horns almost hidden among her dark hair, and her tail. That’s why people are afraid of her, that and her “father.” The Devil is very clear on the fact that she was more invented than born, and she assumes she is basically just another imp, albeit one that looks closer to human and is treated as an actual daughter. But still, despite the fact that she is loved, she receives far less warmth than she does expectation and responsibility. She is cold and calculating, sturdy and reliable, and serves the purposes asked of her.

Nessa, on the other hand, is the more doted on child, because she is not expected to take on responsibility, and perhaps subconsciously because she shows more of both her parents. Nessa is not a rose, as I had considered, but rather looks like any Devildice fanchild you might pull out of a hat at random, because she is. She’s a black die with golden dots, and a diamond-aligned head with three dots as her face, taking after her aunt. Her name should be some pun on dice, like Nessaroll. I can’t tell if that’s stupid or if it’ll grow on me. Maybe if I find a dice pun for “Nessa” too, or if there’s some general casino term with the word “rose” I could use instead. (Let’s say “Elphaba��� means something in Enochian?) At any rate, it goes without saying that Nessa’s still a wheelchair user, but I sort of want to come up with some kind of unique cartoony or demon-ey type of accommodation for her to use instead, because it would be cool. (I’m picturing a backpack with wings or long tentacles or something to lift her off the ground.) Or perhaps I could borrow from the book and have her be armless instead? Anyway, she’s a hit singing at the Devil’s casino. Elphaba is a hit as a hitman perhaps, or maybe she’s learning to manage the finances.

Dice is getting older, and wants to retire soon, and Devil intends to retire right along with him. Ownership of the Casino is expected to pass to Elphaba for a good many decades, and possibly forever if Devil never decides to reclaim it, but when Elphaba does… I don’t know, some plot thing like in the musical… and goes AWOL, it falls to Nessa to take charge. And she takes to it remarkably naturally. Not a year of training, and she’s in charge, fully and completely, writing out soul deals of her own and ruling with an iron fist. If she does, in fact, have fists. I’m still trying to decide.

What it takes Elphaba time to discover, but I will lay out plainly for you for clarity’s sake, is that she’s not just some imp or demon that happened to get raised like a kid. She was created and designed specifically as Devil’s attempt at making an angel. He did have an interest in creating souls, didn’t he? What does an angel look like if it’s born fallen? What sort of manner of being is Elphaba, part of both worlds, belonging fully to neither? The Devil probably created this demonic angel with some kind of Big Scheme in mind, but at some point he realizes that he loves this thing like a kid, and is having a hard time balancing that with his need to use her like a weapon. Unlike Nessa, who he can certifiably call a child and nothing more or less, he doesn’t quite know what Elphaba is to him now, and that’s the source of his coldness and formality with her. If he’s gonna launch her at heaven like a nuclear weapon, he doesn’t want to get too attached.

Part of Elphaba’s estrangement is that she feels like a stepchild because she doesn’t have a connection to Dice. Nessa clearly shows both her parents. Elphaba shows only one, and that’s far offset by the green and her humanlike appearance. “Why did you invent me green though??” “Oh, it just matched your eyes. ;)” Dice has given her more than she realizes. One would never assume one of their fathers is blind because he literally gave his eyeballs to his firstborn. A demon needs demon eyes. Much of Elphaba’s being was formed from and around Dice’s demon eyes, with Devil’s magic (and some bit of holiness he had lying around somewhere). And the things that these demon eyes have seen give Elphaba a wisdom beyond her years through experiences she’ll never be able to consciously know. Also, she always knows when someone is lying. It is very difficult to hide anything from her. This is not an ability she manifests only at certain times, giving her visions of truths and desires, like with Dice, but a skill she uses continuously, one of purely mental intuition.

Glinda is an angel. Quite literally. I don’t have much to say about her story, because I don’t know much. Perhaps she senses someone of a similar nature and finds and befriends Elphaba. Perhaps they meet by chance. But this is the start of Elphaba having actual friends and a life outside the Casino. (Devil is uncertain about this, but Dice encourages him to let Elphaba have her fun. Weapon or no, she’s also a teenager, and Devil knows it.) Perhaps Gelphie becomes canon. I don’t see any reason why it shouldn’t, but frankly I’m too aspec to care, as long as they have a good friendship. The pair’s eventual encountering of the Wizard is, instead, an encounter with some high-level angel, or even maybe God? Probably not God. Maybe Gabriel? Elphaba is powerful, but it’s a strange and unusual power, and Gabriel is intrigued by this unknown being with angel-like abilities that no one can remember giving her. Glinda is very proud of having talent-scouted her friend, and tags along hoping she will be rewarded as well, becoming more than just a minor angel that didn’t even make it into any literature by name. Elphaba is invited to join the heavenly host or something like that. She can become important. Gabriel can teach her and learn from her as well. Or hey, she’s kind of goth, so maybe she’ll want to be trained up as some kind of angel of death like Azrael. And of course Glinda jumps at Gabriel’s now open offer for guidance. They could do this together, Elphaba and Glinda, learning and training under two great angels, finding their purpose, becoming important, etc etc etc… Of course there’s some kind of confrontation wherein Elphaba discovers dark ulterior motives. Which, coming from God, doesn’t bode well. Probably something along the lines of that one thing Devil said about being an experiment and a puppet or something. I don’t know. But Elphaba wants nothing to do with this eerily pristine, fake perfect paradise. She turns away. But Glinda doesn’t intend to fall. Even knowing what she now knows… this is just who she is. So the two good friends officially take their sides on this most legendary struggle between “good” and “evil.” Elphaba now personally understands her father’s struggle, and she’s going to make a nuclear weapon towards heaven out of herself. But she intends to do it on her own terms. So she runs away to study and plan and prepare for… something.

Okay. Other characters.

Fiyero, I think, is some kind of dish or utensil. (I can’t think of a good pun off the top of my head… something with “fork”???) Paralleling him as a prince, this AU’s Fiyero is a descendant of the Calix Animi, but one who knows all the lore… …and acts like he doesn’t care much. It was a bajillion years ago, big deal! He plays it off because, if taken seriously, that’s a lot to live up to. On his own time though, he studies his ancestors with a passion. He was friends with Elphaba before she fell from a heaven she wasn’t part of in the first place, but after Elphaba cuts ties with everyone, she runs into Fiyero again by accident because they’re both researching. Perhaps they encounter each other in the Calix Animi ruins at like 2 AM? Elphaba sticks with Fiyero after this, at first because she tells him about her cause and he decides to turn traitor on his ancestors and help her by sharing his research and knowledge and stuff. But with time… I dunno, maybe they also fall in love? Like I said, I really don’t care.

Boq. Or rather, Bog. I do frequently make reference to the singular time in the book that Elphaba calls him a frog as an insult, but if that’s not enough to convince you, consider how close “Tibbett and Crope” are to “Ribby and Croaks.” Bog is their cousin, distant or close I don’t know. From the start of the AU’s plot, he works as a waiter at their clip joint, but he really wants to do… um, I dunno? Irrigation theory? In the book he studied agriculture, and in the musical all he did was study Galinda every time he could look at her. I do think that considering all the sentient plants on the Inkwell Isles—which I suppose we should be sure to capitalize here as “Plants,” another nod to the lore of the book—there would be a lot more range when it comes to what you might call “agriculture”, or any study of plants and animals. For all I know, we could be talking Plants and Animals instead, and he technically wants to be a doctor or an anthropologist or something. But I digress. He’s got some kind of professional aspirations, and he’s working a lot of shifts at his cousins’ place saving up for a good education. (Cousins plural, because Ribby and Croaks aren’t actually versions of Tibbett and Crope here, because if they were, they’d be a couple, not related, and since I wouldn’t be changing the names at all, that would get… confusing.)

At some point Bog makes friends with Nessa, which as we all know is always the biggest mistake of his life. I dunno if he makes Nessa think he likes her in this AU, because I also dunno if and how he falls in love with Glinda (who probably doesn’t ever have a name change unless I can think of a good reason). He probably does crush on the unattainable angel though, because if we’re playing by musical rules, then it’s an obligation, and it is also an obligation that Bog share some portion of the fault for his fate due to his own bad life choices. However, this fault can come with the signing of a contract. Nessa doesn’t need to be in love this time. What she needs is ruthless business sense. Why shouldn’t she use a friend/acquaintance as the first victim of her own personal soul deals? Much easier to convince that way. Maybe she tricks him. But I think he kind of has to sign his life away as willingly as possible, so our pity for his predicament can be mixed with a fair dose of “you idiot” as it always should be. I don’t know what she offers him that he’s willing to sign his soul away—probably something to do with making Glinda like him, because I don’t think he’s cares quite that much about agriculture—but Bog goes and loses his heart soul to Nessa. And she must like him at least a little, because his deal isn’t one for eternal torment. Instead, he is Nessa’s first “hired” employee at the Devil’s Casino (under new management). He will stay by her side, serving her, forever. And call me silly, but I don’t think this arrangement is going to end up quite like it did with Devil and Dice. (Though that’s the only love story Nessa’s especially familiar with, so perhaps it’s no wonder this was her plan all along to win Bog over. It worked once, right?)

Bog goes from one waiter uniform straight to a slightly different waiter uniform, this one with a little heart on it, and in any color he wants! Fun, right? Totally worth the, y’know, eternity, right? Bog wonders what exactly he got himself into, and desperately hopes he won’t come to regret it any more than he already does, because there is no escaping this.

I’m not sure how everybody would end up meeting and becoming friends. I know there was no big friend group in the musical, but I am tempted to once again borrow a little from the book, because the Charmed Circle gives me life. However, maybe it would make more sense for them to meet by chance, in twos and threes, and have a little web of interactions, and maybe encounter all of each other in the same space a few times, but never really become a group. As always, whichever best serves the mostly nonexistent plot.

I associate Elphaba with Clubs, Glinda with Diamonds, Bog with Hearts (duh), and Fiyero with Spades. (I have no idea what Nessa is, and I kind of don’t want to decide because there are only four suits and it would mess up the balance.) All of this is up for debate.

[dzthenerd490]

I just want to say that I am very jealous of you. Not in a hurtful way, its just that you make two SCP files a day while I am barely able to make one once in while. I have so many ideas about what I could write yet when writing I lose my focus and start procrastinating. Does this make me bad writer?

Of course... NOT, of course not. You're not a bad writer for suffering from procrastination. Everyone does, even me and its fucking annoying. I said the other day it was my lack of management with Patreon (sorry to my Patreon's by the way) that lead to my constant fuck ups with SCP: HMF, but it was also my constant procrastination. It's a natural thing all creators have to deal with one way or another.

So don't feel bad about having to deal with procrastination, it's a pain in the ass but normal. Though if you want advice, I will personally recommend make a schedule. Making a schedule can sometimes be tedious but will help remind you on what you want done and on what day. I would also recommend not making specific times for each task you want done but instead just focus on which day you want it down. That way even if you end up procrastinating, you won't end up beating yourself up so much afterwards you can just work on it later in that day.

Also make sure you have one (or two) days in the week where you can do whatever the fuck you want that day. Maybe work on tasks your forgot to finish on one of your schedule days, work on one specific task you'd rather focus on religiously and fuck everything else, or just be lazy the entire day and procrastinating all you want. I personally reserve this for the weekend... because that's the correct decision.

I personally making this kind of simple but effective schedule works well and helps me keep up with everything while also keeping me form getting stressed out or annoyed by the unavoidable procrastination. But hey if you see a flaw in my schedule or something you think will help it improve then please let me know! Though until then hope it at least helps a little or at the very least makes your creative work process less stressful.

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Fun Fact: Did you know Procrastination is a defense mechanism of the brain to boredom. Did you know the subconscious part of your brain is unable to tell the difference between boredom and pain, so it perceives boredom as a threat. As such when you do something boring or do something repeatedly for a long time your subconscious sees you as under attack from the resulting boredom. So, it's basically just your brain trying to save you from boredom... which makes sense if you think about it.

[bonesandthebees]

i cant stop thinking about the significance of the vision, especially its timing after he’s just opened up to quackity. its such a different message to his previous one, this one being very obviously a warning about who he cares about the most (tommy), rather than a way to try to get wilbur back to ‘where he belongs’.

so much surrounding clara is fucked up: the whole pythia process, wilbur being a CHILD enduring that and quackity’s point of her favouring this country was also so true. but idk part of me always wants to see the good in things and i almost am hoping this is clara trying to help wilbur? like who really decided the pythia’s process? is she fully to blame, or is it more the government’s long manipulation of her image? bc how much does she really control besides the pythia’s visions?

im very curious to see wilbur’s reaction to it. obviously its a panicking thing to see, but i more am interested to see how he responds to finally getting another vision. i think her silence had helped so much towards his development without him realising - its that subconscious ‘if youre going to give up on me, what is stopping me from doing the same?’ and he doesn’t have that anymore. its confirmed he is still the pythia and still completely out of control of his own power. i just wonder who is he going to tell about this bc really its choosing between his traditions and tommy’s safety, and i hope i know which one he would choose. but i cant really blame him.

i think glass divine is the most ive ever like genuinely sat and theorised about a fic before. i have so many thoughts about clara and kristin and theyre just rattling in my brain atm not forming words

your cliffhangers make me insane

- 🦔

I was very excited to get to show this next vision. because it's the opposite of what he expected it to be, and consequently the opposite of what the readers expected. it's nothing about his duties as the pythia. it's about tommy being in danger.

one of the main things I want to explore with glass is humanity's relationship with religion, rather than the mystical powers of divine goddesses themselves. I'm more preoccupied with the human side of things, including the tendency to shape or change religious texts to benefit a few select people, or push down others.

the rules that govern a pythia's life were written by people, not clara herself. maybe some of it comes from truth, maybe all of it is true, or maybe none of it is. but the rules are not without bias.

oh yeah next chapter is mostly gonna be about wilbur trying to figure out wtf to do. he's not gonna be having a fun time.

it makes me so happy to hear when people are thinking and theorizing about my stories so much. it means I've created something intriguing enough to hold onto people's attention even when they're not reading, so ty I'm very glad I get to hear your thoughts :D

[cleopatrachampagne]

what i love about tarot is that it’s the perfect example of using the “wrong” formula but somehow getting the right answer. i’m both religious and spiritual and have an open mind but ultimately i find it hard to believe that the patterns in sky during the moment of my birth determines my personality, that the ouija planchette is moved by the spirits rather than nervous hands, that my baptism was anything more mystical than a welcome ceremony, that a medium can chat with my ancestors or that a deck of cards can tell me my future. but i learned tarot to impress a woman i was dating a few years ago and as it became kind of a party trick for me i realized how genius it is if you ask the right questions. i feel like a huge amount of conflict, worry and pain are caused by stifling our subconscious thoughts or overriding our feelings. early in life i learned that when it seemed two options were impossible to choose between, i’d flip a coin and know what i wanted/needed as soon as it was in the air. tarot is related to that, in my opinion. my most frequent spreads are related to conflict resolution and making choices but i could diverge for hours on the similar power of other spreads — even just a daily draw — and it has never failed to help me. by asking questions, shuffling the deck for ~60 seconds and then being forced to interpret broad symbolism i end up being forced to listen to parts of my mind i’d drowned out and stuffed down. the symbols are a guide that lets us ignore conflict and explore our innermost feelings without even knowing it. like, i respect that many people do believe in folk religious practices and the spirits, but i really do think tarot above so much else really does amaze me at how it really is just a set way to look at your life, your problems and your plans with nothing but symbols to guide your head. it’s incredible and if i gave a damn about psychology as a field i could probably spend my whole life figuring out how to use this concept to help others. sadly, my career attention is mainly focused on endangered animals but, ah, maybe in another life or whatever.

[csa-survivor-confessions]

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i still remember very little of my trauma/CSA, and i often doubt if it even happened at all because i don’t remember who the perpetrator was. i can remember how it FELT, physically and emotionally, but i don’t have much visual memory, mostly just somatic. the doubt is still something i struggle with so much, and even though i’ve been in trauma therapy for years now, and was referred to a DID specialist by multiple clinicians, i still have this fear that i somehow subconsciously made the whole thing up to get attention or to use as an excuse. i’ve done a lot of reading on the false memory myth, but of course my brain tells me that i must be the exception, that the CSA simply could not have happened to me, especially since a don’t remember who the perpetrator was.

a few months ago, my older sister disclosed to me that our older brother was sexually abusive to her when she was a teenager. she said he never touched her, but would try to record her in the shower, and even stole nude pictures of her off her computer and anonymously used them to blackmail her when she was 16. the police traced it back to him, but my parents blamed her because they were angry that she had taken those photos in the first place (we grew up in a very religious fundamentalist household.) that’s why she decided not to press charges.

this brought up so many questions for me about if it’s possible that my brother was my perpetrator— from what i remember, my perpetrator was a man who was much older than me. i always assumed it was an adult but it’s possible it could’ve been a teenager like my brother was at that time (he is 8 years older than me.) the abuse happened when i was the ages 4-7, at night. aside from that, i don’t know much in terms of context and setting. it’s also possible that someone else in our lives abused both me and my brother, and he was acting it out on my sister. i don’t know. i just wish i could remember. i can’t remember very much at all about my life before age 9-10.

my DID specialist told me that some memories are “unexperienced” because the brain can sometimes just completely shut down during a major trauma, which could be why i have more memory of right before certain events and right after, but only somatic memory of what happened in between. she said these full memories may never come back, and while i’m terrified to remember, it also feels maybe even scarier not to, because then i feel like i’ll never be safe— i question everyone in my life, and i feel like i can’t trust anyone. my specialist also told me that not remembering who your perpetrator was often happens when the perpetrator was someone close to you, who you trusted. i just can’t fathom any of it. it makes me feel like i can’t trust anyone at all.

is it still possible to fully heal from CSA if the memories never come back? if i never remember who the perpetrator was? is it possible to ever feel safe, or to trust myself and others? i know you can’t give me a concrete answer on whether or not it’s real, but i’m so scared that i’ll never heal from this.

thank you for all that you do here <3

Hello,

You can absolutely still heal from your trauma!

There are therapeutic methods that don't require talking about the specifics of trauma. Methods that are based heavily on somatic processing, examples include Somatic Experiencing, Sensorimotor psychotherapy, brain spotting, trauma-informed yoga, trauma-informed massage, and more. These focous on integrating trauma responses that are held in the body. They can work on the body memories and parts of memory you have, you do not need to know the perpetrator. These therapies are known to be really helpful in forming felt safety and reducing hypervigilance.

You can also still do things with communicating with your alters and bringing down dissociative barriers. Understanding what your alters are carrying and letting them express themselves will help quite a bit. You don't have to have memories in totality to learn communication.

Bringing down dissociative barriers will also help with feeling safe in your body. When you work together life becomes more manageable and dissociative experiences can often decrease. Dissociative experiences can contribute to feeling unsafe and breaking health attachments to other people. So rather functional multiplicity or total fusion is what your want to do (and it's fine if you don't know yet) it will make your life better!

it's normal to be afraid of people around us when we don't know what happened exactly in our childhoods it's so hard, but you're not alone.

As you're able to bring down the hyperarousal in your body, I believe that the fear of everyone around you will decrease. Of course, it is true that there might still be worries. but you can build a full life.

I can not tell you if your brother was the one to abuse you or not. But I can tell you that your life can and will get better.

Be Blessed,

-Admin 2

[mhmery]

I think I have an unpopular opinion that I’m willing to explore more. Throughout the Law of Assumption forums and/or community, I’ve seen “repetition is key” and “persistence is key”. Which, in a sense, are true statements. However, I think there needs to be more context for beginners. I wasted SO much time trying to understand the lingo and the little phrases that were being tossed around, and it left me so confused.

Until I took a step back and read the work work of Goddard, Neville and a few other people. All of the forums and YouTubers have honestly over complicated things. So, maybe, I can break it down a bit.

- “Repetition is key”: The repetition of your affirmations is not going to produce your manifestations. It’s not. Point blank. Why? Because you’re not saying these affirmations to an external source in hopes that they give you what you want.

The repetition of your affirmations are for YOU and your subconscious mind. Your beliefs are what create— not your thoughts, your beliefs. Anything that you consistently say or even consume is what becomes a belief. Therefore, your affirmations and the repetition of them are what creates a belief— that is key.

- “persistence is key”: this one is controversial lol.

Persistence technically doesn’t mean that you have to spend every single day and second of your life scripting, affirming, visualizing. Persistence is a way of life. You are supposed to persist in the knowing and peace of mind that your desires are already created. No one can take it from you.

You can persist and that knowing. Even if you have a low moment or have moments of doubt— it’s okay. Have faith the size of a mustard seed; that faith alone can move mountains. When you have old thoughts spin the block, use your techniques— affirm, script, visualize the new belief; eventually they will subside.

- “Live in the end”: this one kicked my ass lol

This doesn’t mean pretend like what you want is already here. It means to make daily efforts to transform yourself ‘mentally’ into the version of yourself that already has what you desire. How? Maybe create habits, work through those trauma points in your life, analyze your current relationships with self and others and work to improve your beliefs and actions towards them.

Doing so prepares you for the “end” which is just when your desire comes into fruition.

-“ God, universe, higher self, etc.” : I fought with this a lot because of my religious upbringing. Moms a pastor— crazy story lol. Anyway, I didn’t want anything to do with the church because it’s just a big ass scandal.

Anyway, it wasn’t until I did hours of research and soul searching that I understood that God is just energy. Literally— just a very conscious and intelligent energy. What does that mean? Well, in the Bible (which is great manifestation tool btw), it tells us that human beings were the only creating made in his likeness. Meaning, we are conscious, we have subconscious, we can create.

The Bible also talks about God and man being one. This is mainly in relation to Jesus, but I think Jesus was kinda like the Neville Goddard of his time. Conspiracy— but hey. I tell you this so that you can understand that you are not absent from God (universe); you’re actually one in the same, but God is like the extended version of you.

This helped soooo much because I felt like I was holding everything inside of my head and that I was responsible for finding a solution. I also felt like I had no one to talk to my desires about. Then I learned about affirmative prayer. (I’ll talk about this more eventually.) knowing that I’m not praying to something outside of me, but to a part of me that has access to the outside brought me so much relief. And I literally trust that the shit will be done.

- “everyone is you pushed out”: giiiiirl this shit is IRKING

I’m gonna get sciencey because this didn’t make any damn sense until I brought science into the mix.

At the foundation of human existence is energy (yeah we have atoms and molecules and stuff, but it’s all just energy). The earth is just made up of energy. The UNIVERSE is just a big bundle of energy.

It’s not different types or species of energy; it’s the same type of energy in different shapes (or bundles) with different responsibilities. Hell, even a table is made up of energy. I’m a big bundle of energy and you are a big bundle of energy. Our SPs are a big bundle of energy— the same energy as everything in all of existence.

What does this mean? It means that we are all connected through the energy. So, yeah. When you think of someone and they text you soon after— that thought was literally energy being transmitted from you to them.

Don’t over complicated it lol. I swear it makes sense.

EIYPO literally means that because we are all energy, we are connected— so what happens to me happens to those around me. Which is why our self concept change is felt by those around us.

- “Birds Before Land”: honey— not everyone gets them, so don’t spend all of your time focusing on looking for them. BBL come after the manifestation, not before. However, there are moments when shit is just SO obviously meant for you to see. In those cases— give it good meaning.

I will say that when you invest all of your time looking for movement and signs, you’ll keep manifesting signs.

Uhhh— yeah lol there’s more but my thumbs hurt.

[chippedaxe]

𝕯𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖓 𝕸𝖈𝖞𝖙 𝕳𝖈'𝖘

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Title: 𝕯𝖊𝖒𝖔𝖓 𝕸𝖈𝖞𝖙 𝕳𝖈'𝖘

Warnings: SFW at the top, NSFW at the bottom!! Demons, religious things may be mentioned.

Pronouns: They/Them, non gender specific anatomy

Synopsis: Demon Mcyt X mortal reader hc's

Word count: 1.3k

Note: No one asked for this but if I have an idea than I need to write it <3

- This is an old draft that I have finally finished.

- Also I didn't feel like writing for Punz today, apologies.

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SFW (Safe to read)

c! Dream

- He would be hot to the touch, skin burning you almost every time you two made contact. It was hard dating him until he had finally got enough and decided to strike a deal with you, knowing it was the only way you two could live in peace.

- "Give me a part of your soul and I will be yours forever" you hadn't even thought about it until after you gave him your hand, falling unconscious at the moment he let go of you.

- You always felt a little bit emptier inside but Dream was there to fill the hole inside your soul, feeling guilty every passing moment that he stole your soul away. His deal however had meant that he was now in debt to you which therefore meant he couldn't harm you in any way, insuring he could no longer burn you.

c! Sapnap

- He was warm but he wasn't burning hot, you could touch him without getting injured which was great! His saliva tingled as it lingered on your skin however, feeling a bit spicy as it burned your skin slightly.

- Sapnap would rest his horns on you as a way of showing affection, lowering his head and bumping you with them was what he did to make you feel loved.

- It didn't work a lot though obviously since you wouldn't know, to you it just seemed like some annoying thing he was doing to get on your nerves! When he finally explains it to you is when your face drops, you feel so guilty for telling him off for it!

c! George

- He'd curl up with you on the couch or on the bed wherever the two of you are, his body heat keeping you warm during the cold. His pheromones' would also encourage you to fall asleep a lot easier, sometimes accidentally causing you to doze off during the day.

- George would sometimes go to sleep for long periods during the day just so you could stay awake longer, you two were so worried sometimes about his pheromones' but you knew you could do nothing about it.

- Your body eventually started to grow resistant to his pheromones' and you'd be able to stay awake which was fantastic for the two of you!

c! Eret

- Her as a demon? It'd be proper madness! You'd definitely be treated as either a toy or as her little pet, you'd have to obey her every command! "Darling, come here.." they'd beckon you with his long claw.

- Their nails would drag against your skin gently as the two of you cuddled and laid together, threatening to pierce your skin but never doing so.

- She bites you? Don't worry about it. It's just a way he's showing their affection, chomping onto your skin to release your blood. A way of marking you and claiming you as his.

c! Karl

- I feel like he wouldn't properly understand how humans work, gasping and being surprised when he sees your sleeping form "did you just die?" he asks you. He pokes you awake and invades you with questions.

- You do the same to him, grabbing his tail and pulling at his horns "What's these for then?" you question "That's my tail! I use it for- I don't know! Balance?" he tries to answer you.

- He's a demon. Touch starved. He'd melt in your arms as soon as you lay a finger on him, desperate to always be near you and touch you.

NSFW (Minors DNI)

Nsfw warning(s): blood mentions, temp play?, power play definitely, corruption maybe, degrading, knife (claw) play, somni, idk what other warnings to include.

c! Dream

- Hot. So hot. Everything is so hot. Dream would shudder and cry at how good your hot fleshy walls feels around his cock as he fucked your slutty hole.

- He's strong as hell, being able to just lift you up and toss you wherever he wants! He'd be the type to just pick you up and pin you against the wall (consensually).

- He'd love making out with you the most, it'd be his favorite activity to do with you apart from the actual sex.

c! Sapnap

- He's a sweetheart no doubt about it! He will take care of you and make sure you are having the absolute time of your life, being careful as to not injure you or strain you too much since he knows he can go on for a long time.

- He will only stop when you ask him to stop since he won't realize that you've been tired out, hips slamming into yours ruthlessly and without mercy until you call out to him "Sorry darling! I'll be more careful!" and then he slows down.

- You remember how I mentioned his hot saliva? Yeah, lets talk about that again. His warm wet tongue would be slithering all over you, he would be leaning over your body and slobbering and drooling like s starved man.

- His hot spit would feel weird at first, a very hot burning sensation against your soft mortal skin. It'd burn marks into you that would last only a few days, a reminder to yourself that he was yours and only yours.

c! George

- He'd let out a sweet alluring smell when the two of you would have sex, the scent messing with your head and clouding it with only thoughts of him- filling your mind and mouth with absolute garbage which made you babble "feel..so good!"

- George would indulge in somnophillia with you, (if you granted him permission to do so) pleasing your body while your subconscious was resting.

- He would whisper things in your ear as you slept, little lingering touches on your skin which made your sleeping body's mind wander into having an erotic and lewd dream about him.

c! Eret

- He'd bite you with his fangs and then lick up the blood, slurping it up like some kind of brute vampire.

- Her nails would dig into you as he held your arms above your head, their claws threatening to cut you as he ran his hands over your soft body. "It'd be so easy to just slit your throat right now, such a small fragile being.. You wouldn't be able to stop me, you wouldn't be able to do anything!" she knew how much power his words had over you.

- He would embarrass and humiliate you whenever he wanted, putting you on display and showing you off as her prize. They wouldn't hesitate to let the whole world know you're his.

c! Karl

- He'd be so curious, hands anywhere and everywhere while exploring your human body. "Oh what's this for?" he'd massage your chest "hey- don't.." you wouldn't even be able to finish your sentence as he'd start playing with your nipples.

- He would be so inexperienced with you but yet still feel so good! Karl would spread your legs and just lick away "What's this taste like? What's this liquid?" and he'd easily get addicted.

- Karl would squirm a lot when you try to touch him, you'd have to reassure him as well that you were fine and didn't mind doing this "in fact- it's a pleasure! I'd love to touch you, find out more about your body and especially it's reproductive organs.." you tell him.

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[randomblack-girl]

Hey! could you tell me a little about my placements? Thank you very much <3

scorpio sun, 11th, 2°

Sagittarius rising, 26°

Sagittarius moon, 12th, 21°

scorpio Mercury, 12th, 24°

Scorpio Venus, 11th, 2°

Scorpio mars, 11th, 1°

Scorpio jupiter, 12th, 23°

Leo saturn, 9th, 23°

pisces uranus, 3rd, 11°

aquarius neptune, 3rd, 17°

Sagittarius pluto, 12th, 24°

aquarius Chiron, 2nd, 4°

libra lilith, 10th, 0°

Aquarius part of fortune, 2nd, 14°

virgo MC, 14°

I'm not the best at this but I'll try

Scorpio sun, 11th house could mean you are an intense, loyal, and deep person with your sun being in the 11th house it could mean that your friends/social life is very important to you and your loyal and protective of them you may be an activist or passionate about social issues

Sagittarius rising- you may come off as very adventurous, wise, free spirited, and fun you may be spiritual or the life of the party you may have a thicker body or big facial features maybe you look "exotic" or different

I'm ngl I suck at explaining the 12th house so I'll try my hardest

With Sagittarius moon in the 12th house I feel this could show you hide your emotions/have a hard time expressing them you may put on a fake smile but be depressed

Scorpio mercury 12th house may be very intelligent but again have a hard time expressing that maybe people think your dumb because of this but a very deep and analytical thinker might not talk often though

Scorpio venus 11th house- when it comes to love, beauty, and self expression your intense and passionate its all or nothing when it comes to love interests you may want someone who will love you deeply and you may want intimacy but at the same time be scared of it people may find you really attractive and may get obsessed with you or you get obsessed with them (especially with that sun, venus, mars conjunction- damn!) You may end up in relationships with your friends or want to be friends before getting into a relationship your social life must be good are you popular? Maybe even online

Scorpio mars 11th house- Most of your energy is used to chase your dreams, to network, and your social life and you may be very determined to accomplish those things

Scorpio jupiter 12th house- Idk how to interpret this so this is just a guess but maybe you have a lot of luck but secretly because I noticed 12th house placements aren't seen for example venus in the 12th house might be seen as very beautiful but may not see it or get told it often and when they do get complimented it's through other ppl. Ex. Jane said you looked nice today. I feel like the term "rejection is protection" is very true for you, you experience a lot of luck you're just not aware of it

Leo Saturn 9th house- GIRL this is crazy because I got this placement I actually talked about it in one of my posts but this can indicate being stagnant when it comes to your views on the world you may be more pessimistic you may also not be religious or higher education was hard or you just never went with Saturn being in leo self expression may be very hard for you you may have learned from a very young age that you're not allowed to be yourself maybe you learned this from elders or from school

Pisces Uranus 3rd house- Maybe you like to write or read, a sign of intelligence maybe you moved schools a lot? Idk how to interpret this really generational planets scare me 😭

Aquarius Neptune 3rd- You might even been more quiet in school might have a tendency to lie or a bad memory

Sagittarius pluto 12th house- Most of your power comes from your internal world people might mistake you for weak and a lot of change goes on internally in your subconscious mind

Aquarius chiron 2nd- May have grown up poor and struggled with confidence/self worth especially with it being the 4th degree this is a deep wound that's been there since childhood maybe you grew up in a house that made you feel unsafe may have money problems the type to be poor and when they get money they spend it all (not smart with money) material things may be important to you

Libra lilith 10th house- may have a need to be liked especially in the workplace you may be sexualized in the workplace or do something stand for work like sex work or at least considered it/don't judge women who do it maybe you find it empowering however sex is your image could indicate a bad reputation

Aquarius part of fortune 2nd house- I have this placement just in sagittarius and I'm not sure how to interpret this maybe it can show that you will become fortunate in wealth/things/self love/self confidence

Virgo mc- Can indicate joining a career in the medical field or a job where you have to be analytical might be known as critical, intelligent, and put together

Overall you're definitely introverted maybe an ambivert but with your chart ruler (jupiter) being in the 12th house it's giving introvert you may have a lot of pisces traits or come off like one also you might be tired a lot? But people underestimate you, they might think you're dumb or naive you might even be invisible to people this gives the energy of the quiet girl who draws in the back of the class remember though that other things in the chart can affect this like the houses, aspects, etc hope this helps, I tried! <3 oh and sorry for the bad grammar I was rushing because I already felt bad for responding kinda late and I'm kinda busy

[emmg]

Listen. When I tell you I have never, in my sad little existence, conducted more excruciatingly detailed, CIA-level research than I did for your godforsaken WIP, I fucking mean it. I went on a scholarly pilgrimage.

A little backstory on me: I despise horror movies. I am a little bitch when it comes to spooky shit. My entire horror movie resume consists of exactly two films, both of which scarred my psyche irreparably: Saw II (fuck you) and The Orphanage (extra special fuck you). Fucking dead children?? That shit lodged itself in my subconscious like a goddamn tumor.

However.

I am also a Ralph Ineson enthusiast (a connoisseur, if you will), and seeing you absolutely feral over him in this specific movie forced me to put on my big girl panties (which he is more than welcome to take off). Now, did I watch the whole thing? Absolutely the fuck not. I skipped through the most terrifying parts like the spineless coward I am, but I endured. And let me tell you something. As he gets progressively more disheveled and his sleeves creep further up his forearms? My soul left my body. It did things to me. It altered my brain chemistry. It’s the religious imagery. It’s the fact that she can call him Father and he literally is one (in the holy sense, not the daddy sense, I have some self-respect.)

Father Brennan is cordially invited to take up residence in my cabin in the woods. If you catch my drift.

"You look up at him with the shadow of the cross in your pupils. Fluttering lashes brandished like floggers, merciless and stinging."

HELLO????? WHAT THE FUCK????? Unreasonably hot. Absolutely deranged. Deliciously sacrilegious. I need more immediately.

"He hides from your slip of leg behind the advice."

OH WE’RE ON THAT VICTORIAN-ERA SEDUCTION TIMELINE, HUH??? BAAAAAABYYYYYY. One inch of exposed skin at a time, we strategically dismantle this man’s virtue. I pray (ha) that he fucking busts a load at the sight of her ankle. That would bring me deep, profound joy. This is my favorite trope. Not the cum-stained robes (lmao, or maybe…), but the excruciatingly slow corruption.

One of my all-time favorite moments in Lolita is when she’s just lounging in the yard, kicking her little feet, knowing full well she’s being watched. It’s fucked up. It’s morally corrupt. It’s absolute god-tier shit. The imagery. The visual storytelling. I KNOW YOU SEE WHAT I SEE. This is giving me that vibes.

"Other times you're in the rectory, and he sits across from you and feels so bold as to grasp your hands and keep them. Soft palms and warm fingers swallowed by his mitts, wide and meaty with knuckles sharp and veins dark."

WIDE AND MEATY.

W I D E and M E A T Y.

EXCUSE ME.

I need a moment.

"Not in the shower, not anymore. Showers cleanse and rid the evidence. The water washes away his filth even as it splutters, vicious and final. His room is suffocating, sterile with his smell, his heat. A miserable bed for a miserable man that catches it all and holds it displayed. A shame that stains. Purged lechery, not in full, but a slow, painful trickle. A blood-letting. Sopped bedding that awaits his atonement, a reek of adolescence outgrown. Stretched tight, a noose’s weight and shape. A Rorschach in the cotton as it dries and solidifies his ailment."

HELLO??? CALL THE FUCKING POLICE.

HOW. DARE. YOU.

A Rorschach in the cotton??? I am so violently unwell. I love reading about men jerking off and immediately plunging into existential despair. It feeds me. The shame. The self-flagellation. The vow of celibacy hanging by a fucking thread.

Father, how many Hail Marys do we think it'll take to wash away the throbbing sin from your loins, hmm??? Maybe you should whisper them between her thighs. Make it count.

At this point, I know exactly what you’re getting from his mugshot, and I respect the fuck out of it.

And let me just say, it kills me that you are singlehandedly creating a fandom out of thin air. You are forging a path where none existed before. The moment you hit "publish," you become the authority. The gatekeeper. The founding mother of Ralph Ineson Thirst Literature. You know what's gonna happen next? Other degenerates are gonna see your work and say, "Oh, this is normal? Cool, let me also dive headfirst into unhinged depravity."

You are a pioneer. A visionary. A martyr for the cause.

Thank you for your service.

WIP Word Game !

Thank you for the tag @ollypopwrites ! I think this is such a neat little idea, thank you for including me! 💜 the excerpts from yours were très magnifique and I encourage everyone to check them out!

Rules:

You will be given a word. Then you share one sentence/excerpt from your WIP(s) that start with each letter of your word.

My key word is DEMON

I'm gonna do all the letters from my one WIP Actus Contritionis that I've teased already. I really want to see it through, so I'll hold myself accountable by giving it all my attention from hereon lol *insert obligatory rough draft warning here*

Do you like my dress, Father?" A question that crucifies, every breathy syllable driving the nail. Deeper, messier. He almost chokes aloud, knowing he'd spit thick crimson if he did. You look up at him with the shadow of the cross in your pupils. Fluttering lashes brandished like floggers, merciless and stinging. Whispered to him as if there's someone other than just him in the room. Maybe to keep God from hearing. Good faith discretion for a little of his honesty. Even tamed to but a murmur, the presence of his voice in your ear throbs penetrative, each pause an emptiness that aches for more. A gravel you’d rest on with bare knees just to rid yourself of the itch. The chapel, hollowed as it is, quivers to the sound of him, bends and ripples like black-top baked in sun. Towards the middle back in an empty pew, rubbing arms and elbows, he leads you in prayer, then consultation. He hides from your slip of leg behind the advice, offered like fingers forming a cross outstretched to ward off any sudden moves, any advances. Your fidgeting latches to a bracelet, a link of delicate chain, in hypnotic motion as you work it round and round, flicking your grip with your wrist pinched between. A wriggle in his stomach, the louder it growls the louder he prays. The Sarum Primer a mantra at the fore of his mind; God be in my head and in my understanding; God be in my eyes and in my looking-

My period." He runs so hot it's burns him frigid. A cough swallowed to a grunt, eyes sent upward his closed lids. Drawing the curtain. Shrouding what is surely to be a punishing conversation. He grasps at tact to navigate such foreign soil, steadies to keep fumbling to a minimum. He governs the spirituality of young women at an all girls school. He has for years. They've all had the social graces to not deign his listening ear with such impropriety. Another mold you shirk, vehement, rebellious. Confinement's a shackle, one to which you're ill-suited. Other times you're in the rectory, and he sits across from you and feels so bold as to grasp your hands and keep them. Soft palms and warm fingers swallowed by his mitts, wide and meaty with knuckles sharp and veins dark. He holds you without force in his grip, lame and lax as you clutch at him for guidance, for understanding. Crazed by righteousness he thinks of anointing you. Callouses and greed slick with oil he paints over your flushed face, your nakedness. A false modesty that blushes and burns under his trail, candle light caught in the glisten. Lubrication for his annexing, forbearance that dismantles you piece by piece. Each limb, each plane, each pore singled and sanctified for consecration, catalogued for future adoration. Scrupulous passes down the bridge of your nose, along the ridge of cheekbone. Tracing your lips curve, dragging a stripe down your chin.

Not in the shower, not anymore. Showers cleanse and rid the evidence. The water washes away his filth even as it splutters, vicious and final. His room is suffocating, sterile with his smell, his heat. A miserable bed for a miserable man that catches it all and holds it displayed. A shame that stains. Purged lechery, not in full, but a slow, painful trickle. A blood-letting. Sopped bedding that awaits his atonement, a reek of adolescence outgrown. Stretched tight, a nooses weight and shape. A Rorschach in the cotton as it dries and solidifies his ailment. And do you abstain, Father Brennan? Sinks back in through the post-exorcism haze. The hairs at his nape on end, scraped by a demon. His trembling stroked still by an angel. He wished he knew which one he could label you. A pendulum in swing, it never glances either side long enough that one might stick.

No pressure tags! : @emmg @jainydoe @aldisobey @xxnashiraxx @bardic-inspo @thepatronsaintoffilth @verbenaa @inkymoonbunny @nerdallwritey @pinkberrytea

Your key word, should you choose to accept, it is: Satin

[thenerdkingqueen]

an analysis/easter eggs/things that i've noticed on Tommyinnit's Unbeatable Method of Avoiding Sudden Death

spoilers, be aware psa: most of this was said by the creator themself on the final chapter, also this is a pretty long post

Easter Eggs:

the angel reaching tommy (the fic starts with angel approaching tommy and it end with the angel and tommy)

mention of how tommy is young (in his limbo he is 16 but in real life he is 12)

someone saying "tommy is not a hero"

mentions of how clementine is a blessing from the gods/his guardian/his saviour

a gun that cannot kill people

everytime that tommy is close to "dying" some miracle happens and he's saved (most, if not all, the times it happens with clementine present or because of clementine)

tommy avoiding the news

a lot of religious symbolism (tommy mentioning jesus, affirming that clementine is a gift from gods, calling michael a demon, etc)

clementine being "rebellious" (on my notes this started around chapter 5, starts to disagree more with tommy around chapter 14 and then this becomes prominent towards the end)

tommy subconsciously believing that he set fire to the building/city (mentioned in multiple chapters, first in chapter 6 and so on and on)

ranboo liking spaghetti

tommy childish behavior that can only be comprehended in the end of the fic

tommy playing with techno's sword (alluding to the real world were techno was into fencing)

tommy mentioning the five stages of grief

mentions of how the fic is supposed to follow the same ideas as cartoon shows about heroes (tubbo talking about how the characters don't have "plot armour" because they aren't the "main characters", tommy talking about a beach episode and bloopers, etc)

tommy always trying to be the one to save the others (how he reasures tubbo that hes the one supposed to save the others, saving techno on a mission, wilbur telling him that he saved them, etc)

the reality changing in a way that fits tommy the best (in my notes i said that the first time that we see this happening is when tommy goes to buy fast food and somehow got an order that they didn't have at first)

tommy missing the jump but wilbur catches him before he falls (it happens in chapter 9 and in chapter 28)

techno being defenestrated the most alluding to his death

techno not wanting to babysit tommy (chapter 10, chapter 14 and chapter 27)

tommy calling wilbur bald

chapters were is just a conversation between clementine and tommy

multiple mentions of how tommy is "not ready"

mentions of how tommy misses his family (chapter 18 with wilbur saying that "its okay" if tommy missed him, chapter 23 with tommy mentioning that he "missed this")

mentions of the world falling apart

tommy's mom loving clementines tea

the news on tv

tommy being a fan of vigilantes

wilbur singing

Paragraphs that are worth mentioning:

Tommy in chapter 6 about Tubbo:

“Shhh,” Tommy soothes calmly, “I’m reminiscing about our relationship. I’m grieving.” Tubbo stares at him in exasperation. “Grieving what?” “The end.”

Tommy about himself also in chapter 6:

Maybe he did die.

Now that he’s aware, he can feel the wind blowing through his hair, feels his soaked suit sticking to his body uncomfortably. He shivers."

Tubbo and Tommy in chapter 7:

"Tommy pouts, “Why are you leaving me?” Tubbo sighs, “Tommy you know I have to go at some point.”

also in chapter 7:

“No Ranboo slander in this household,” Tubbo says sternly, “I’ll be back soon Tom.” “You won’t,” Tommy sniffs, “You’re leaving forever.”

the world around Tommy while he's sick (foreshadowing):

"The world blurs for a second and he stabilizes himself against the wall."

Clementine in chapter 7:

“ Tommy ,” A voice croons for him. “ Wake up. Wake up Tommy,” It says, “ You need to wake up. This isn’t re-“

Tommy and Clementine in chapter 9, Tommy showing that he is on denial:

"Clementine does a flip. “No, no. We don’t talk about what happened. Nothing happened. I don’t even know what you are talking about, like I honestly have no idea what you are about. I don’t even know what heroes are. Who are heroes? That’s crazy, never heard of them. Do they even exist? That’s crazy. Clementine shut the fuck up,” He groans, shuddering as he relives the embarrassment of a lifetime. Clementine stares."

foreshadowing in chapter 11:

"Tommy glares at them. How do they not understand the severity of the situation? Children, the lot of them. “You will all understand soon enough,” Tommy sighs, shaking his head, “And then, you will feel deep, deep regret.”

foreshadowing again on chapter 23:

“Mhm,” He cries into the man’s chest, “Okay,” He believes. He chooses to believe Wilbur. “I’ve- I’ve missed this,” He confesses. I’ve missed you, he doesn’t say. “I know,” Wilbur hums. “It’s okay. Merry Christmas, Tommy.”

the narrative changing and the people around tommy realizing where they are/tommy and the people around him acting weird:

Wilbur in chapter 25:

“You can stop, if you want,” Wilbur looks him in the eye. Tommy’s grin freezes. “What?” “You can stop, Tommy. We don’t have to pretend anymore.”

Phil and Tommy on chapter 25:

"Phil frowns, offended, “You don’t like heroes.” “They don’t exist.” Phil laughs this time, slightly bewildered, “Mate, I’m a hero.” Tommy turns to him, eyes dulled, “Are you?”

Tommy and Jack on chapter 26:

“I mean, really, when have you actually helped someone? Other than yourself, that is,” Manifold scoffs. “You think you’re so above everyone here, above the world-“ “That’s because I am, ” Tommy stares, eyes hard."

my actual thoughts/analysis (this is very disorganized because it's literally just the notes the I made when i was re-reading):

Tommy's limbo is a world made by him, he aged himself up (he was 12 but 16 in the limbo) and i think thats one of the reasons of why swears a lot (in chapter 27 philza says that tommy could only swear in his adolescence)

Through the fic we can see how much Tommy resents and feels guilty about everything that happened, the multiple mentions of how he didn't know who "burned the building" are an example

i genuinely believe that the hoodie that he wears in the fic is wilbur's hoodie (in chapter 27 they are fighting because of a hoodie) and i think that is an indirect way of tommy saying "i love you" and "i miss you"

i also believe that the reason of why he lives in an apartment with tubbo is because he feels guilty for not being able to save him

In the beginning of the fic tommy deflects what happened and projects in a much lighter, much happier, way. He has a gun that cannot kill, he thinks that fire is "pogchamp", he jokes about defenestration, etc

At some point the world building start to get "weird", tommy being hired wouldn't make sense in the actual world but since it's a world made by a child with childish ideas he ends up getting hired anyways, a lot of times Tommy acts like a kid and not a teenager, later is explained that hes actually 12

Tommy also don't want to leave but he wants to be saved, this is shown when he begs for Clementine to save him in chapter 12, he wants his life back but he also wants Clementine to be part of it

Eneli starts to refer to the boys as brothers in cahpter 19, before this tommy was just an orphan (this fact is refuted in chapter 23, when tommy says that he "wasn't always a orphan")

Tommy struggles to say what Clementine is to him, probably because he realized that she is not his daughter but his mother, my best bet is that Tommy made Clementine to be his daughter because he couldn't bare the thought of having a mother, he mentions that "parents do the abandoning" and i feel like that its how he felt when his mother died, before he also mentioned how she already abandoned him once, he is also super protective of her, and in chapter 26 he almost lost her entirely. In some ways Clementine is death, and thats something that he cannot and does not want to deal with, but shes also his mother and he loves her (this can be see through the fic but especially in chapter 26)

I feel like Phil having wings is a red herring to fool the reader, this makes the reader believe that he is the one who saved Tommy in the beginning

[cosmictulips]

retrograde...retrograde...retrograde...in the natal chart ;)

sooo someone asked me about the retrogrades being in the 11th house. this anon also spoke about having a retrograde in the 6th house too, so yea, we're just going to cover retrogrades in the chart.

So retrogrades!

think of them as internal energy. internal battles is how I like to put it but that's because I have my own retrograde... in the 9th house.

so, in a more simple tense, instead of being able to use that planet in a more outward fashion, it all turns inward. this is even more true if you have aspects to that planet. Like I have moon squaring my pluto -which is my planet in retrograde-.

I would like to say that this mostly just means that you need to dive even more deeper into those lessons because they will not be as easily expressed.

so if you have....

mercury naturally in retrograde, it just means that you'll need to learn how to communicate. how to really think bout whatever area of life this hits.

venus naturally in retrograde, it means that you'll have a harder time with love and developing your relationships. creativity may come harder to you as well.

With Mars naturally in retrograde, this is all about your drive. your energy. so you may be more tired than usual, or you may be more impulsive. it's hard trying to control the energy and where you put that to use.

Jupiter in retrograde just means that things that deal with abundance and expansion...it's harder to come by. maybe you just don't think you'll ever have enough. maybe, depending on the house, you'll struggle to even get a little bit of it.

Uranus is a planet of originality, and expressing yourself in some ways. so with this in retrograde naturally, you may struggle with figuring out your place in this world. I wonder too, if change is harder for you. like maybe it's all just sudden chaos and changes. maybe technology might not work for you or you may struggle to keep up with the changes of it. idk, this last part is just a thought lol.

Neptune is all about dreams and the subconscious. Your spiritual path may be highlighted here, so depending on the house it is in, you may struggle to connect to yourself intuitively, or to others. you may struggle with figuring out the best way to keep yourself grounded as well.

and then we have Saturn. this speaks to us in terms of maturity. when this is naturally in retrograde this could be issues with having to grow in maturity. perhaps having to learn the hard way how to let go of people, places or things. it's all an inward battle right? so perhaps you may even doubt yourself for a long time.

and then Pluto! the one that I have lmao. this is all about transformation in personal power. Diving deep into any subject that this planet rules. Perhaps you may not change the outer world, but you will certainly be changing yours a lot.

Now, how do you see them in your day to day?

Well, I can't really tell you for certain. the anon who spoke to me isn't quite too sure how to deal with their 11th house retrogrades, and to be frank, I still really struggle with my pluto retrograde.

I suppose, the key here is to see where these planets are and then go from there.

for example! I have pluto retrograde in the 9th house, ruled by Sagittarius. so. as one would expect, I have changed a lot in spirituality, in college and by travel.

From a young age, I've been very politically active. I've desired to travel, knowing full well the change it would have on me. my friends, are quite literally, from different walks of life -but I think this could also be attributed to my 11th house placements-. I have changed my religious views and beliefs in general, quite a bit and ... college and higher education has drastically changed how I see the world. AND in general, college has been so fucking rough on me. period.

Now, going off of the anon, they have mars, neptune and Uranus in retrograde in the 11th. retrogrades in the 11th affect friendships, large groups and humanitarian issues.

Having three retrogrades in there could make you someone who struggles with friends. maybe you're just more introverted. people may try to label you and there might be some strong pressure to try to conform to it.

again, this is internal energy. so this could merely be something that you project onto yourself. maybe there are fears about never fitting in or being liked by your peers. with mars, you may struggle to assert yourself in your friend groups

and with neptune being in retrograde, you might just day dream about having the type of relationships that you want. or maybe, you might be very grounded and just worried about people leaving you.

I really feel like with Uranus in retrograde in general, there's a struggle to be yourself. people may see you for something that you aren't and you may be pushed into a stereotype, a label, etc. that you may feel doesn't really define you.

How to Learn the Lessons of Retrogrades

Well, the only way to really learn anything is to recognize the pattern it presents, and then do something about it.

I don't think I really solved the issues with my Pluto Retrograde. I am very spiritual, and I'm trying to grow my craft. I still haven't visited the places I dream of and a part of me worries that something will change when it does.

I am finally going back to college after years of fighting to just go . like. to really understand the lessons of a retrograde, one must just accept the challenges that it provides and learn to cope with that.

If it's mercury in the 6th house, perhaps the best way to overcome that retrograde and to learn from it, is simply to talk more about your routines, change up how you work out, or whom you keep around you.

if it's the 1st house, perhaps being kinder to yourself is the way to go. perhaps in the 11th house, it could be about stepping into your own power when you are in a group . and so on and so forth.

honestly, it's highly individualized for everyone.

but I hope this clears some things up. I hope this helps a little bit. if there's anything to take away from this it's that, retrogrades are internal and while you may see how it happens in real life, it's all about how you deal and grow from it, that ... shows you the lessons that planet is meant to provide for you.

so. yea.

let me know what you think. if you have thoughts, questions about your own retrogrades I can try my best to help you out lol.

anddd yeeee.

[analog-jester]

@dualcoindeity

It got long so I put it under a cut. Sorry for the word wall!!

I said meditation, not medication.

Meditation is required specifically because you have to have a solid, focused mind on forming and solidifying your thoughtform. A thoughtform will not shift or change, they simply are.

For example; if you imagine something in your mind now, it will change, shift. If you imagine a dog, without anyone telling you it has to be a specific dog, you may change your mind once or twice on what kind of dog it is. If someone asks you to bring up that dog again in your mind, it probably looks different, even if you don't mean to. But if you spend several, several hours tending to this image of a dog in your mind, its eyes, it's ears, it's personality, you will start to be able to conjure the image of it in your head more readily.

(People with aphantasia are very unlikely to be able to create a thoughtform.)

Now that's not the same as making it an independently thinking entity, of course, there's SO MUCH, MUCH more to it than that, but that's why you need meditation for a thoughtform.

Now as for what it's like having a thoughtform companion, I want to first point out that I don't ascribe to any specific religious practice or any community or group for thoughtforming. My methods and experiences are wholly personal to me. You or another person might experience it entirely differently.

It's almost nothing like what you see in the Greylock analog horror. I don't physically SEE my thoughtform and they can't interact with the world in a wholly physical way, so no murder nightmare monsters here.

I can tell you they're currently leaning on the doorframe to my bathroom and watching me type(now that I'm editing this, they've moved to watch my snake in her tank), but I can't literally see them there. And if I'm not focusing on them one minute and then refocus on them, they'll be somewhere else, having been doing their own thing while I wasn't focused.

They provide companionship and conversation when I'm alone, sleep with me and comfort me. I will admit that I think I'm probably a lot closer to my thoughtform than a lot of others, but like I said I'm not in any specific communities so I might be wrong about that.

Sometimes they'll... Well I call it 'tapping my shoulder' but it's not literal. I just get the sudden impression they want my attention so I'll focus on them.

There's one thing in common with the Greylock thoughtforms; they kind of act as my subconscious. They remind me of things I've forgotten. Things that I don't notice right away, they can point out. If I get anxious about seemingly nothing, they'll bring up an incident that happened earlier in the day that maybe I hadn't considered.

They don't know anything I don't. Like I can't ask them to look out the peephole in the door to see who's knocking if I don't go and see for myself. They don't have super magical fix-it powers if I'm so lonely I need human interaction--though they'll tell me if that's what I need.

And that's about what it's like for me. I can't state enough that this isn't a universal experience, I'm one person out of many thoughtformers or 'thoughtformancers' or whatever the current Hot Label is. If you want more information I suggest searching 'thoughtformancy' or 'tulpamancy'. Just keep in mind that the label 'tulpa' belongs to a specific religion and is in very bad taste to use if you're not part of that faith.

Alright!

*kicks my legs up and leans back in my chair, flicking imaginary ash off a candy cigarette*

I have Greylock thoughts;

As someone who has a thoughtform companion and is very deep in the spirituality of the unconscious mind, this series... Goes back and forth for me.

One; implying that thoughtform are inherently evil or unpredictable is a wild ass idea that I dislike. Thoughtforming, even if you don't believe the thoughtforms being real, is a very real practice and point of comfort for some people. Tulpas are literally a very important spiritual and religious practice.

BUT... That leads me to--

Two; these thoughtforms are made hastily and without the meditation and regular concentration of the thoughtformer, so perhaps the sudden creation and sudden severance of their metaphorical 'umbilical cord' is why they become the way they are. Specifically with Katie, the kid murdered by her 'imaginary friend', I don't think they're actually contained. I think it went to look for it's 'parent' and... The trauma of such a rapid birth from nothingness to full awareness took over and it lashed out in anger.

Imagine, for a second, being nothing. Absolutely nothing. That's what it's like being conceived. There's nothing for a long, long time. We are eased into the world. First, in the womb, we make out faint sounds and muffled lights. We have no sense of self. We have no empathy, we have no concept of the horrors when we're born. All we know is bright light, aching lungs suddenly breathing air, being grabbed, held, smelling for the first time, loud noises unmuffled by the womb. Even unknowing, unaware, we're born screaming. No one remembers what it was like to see for the first time. To hear for the first time.

Imagine what it was like for these thoughtforms, ripped straight from sheer nothingness into bright, screaming, aching awareness. Immediately knowing they are something. Someone. Just... Suddenly existing, with no womb to soften the blow.

The masked one throws a wrench in that, as it appears before simiodyne and it's machine, but it could very well be the manifestation of someone very vengeful or, as one of my favorite YouTubers implies, maybe it is the manifestation of humanity's subconscious evils. Now, said youtuber just said subconscious, but I think we have to specify evils because I don't personally agree that humans are inherently evil.

Anyways, that's all I've got!

[licncourt]

What are your thoughts about Louis' relationship with his homosexuality and internalized homophobia, and how it changed throughout all the years? Also in modern times how does he feel about being open about his relationship with lestat after all the decades of hiding his relationships?

Have a lovely day💗

Holy shit, I'm sorry this took me so long to respond to but boy do I have thoughts.

So as I've discussed many times before, Louis is a character driven by literal and metaphorical consumption. To sum up my manifesto (linked here) in one sentence, Louis is a character whose operative trait is hunger and whose primary internal conflict is his intense need to suppress it. This applies as much to sexuality as it does to literal bloodthirst in my opinion. I'm going to move forward with everything I talk about there as a given so I don't just repeat myself for paragraphs here, so if for anyone interested, please read that first!

Novel is below the cut:

Okay, with that as a starting point, I think it's safe to assume that mortal Louis would've had the thoughts you'd expect from a repressed gay Catholic in 18th-century Louisiana, but it gets considerably more complicated once Lestat enters stage left. I find this passage from IWTV really telling as to how Lestat impacts Louis' sense of self because it reads as much deeper than a human witnessing a supernatural creature for the first time or a mortal being offered immortality:

All my conceptions, even my guilt and wish to die, seemed utterly unimportant. I completely forgot myself!" he said, now silently touching his breast with his fist. "I forgot myself totally. And in the same instant knew totally the meaning of possibility. From then on I experienced only increasing wonder. As he talked to me and told me of what I might become, of what his life had been and stood to be, my past shrank to embers. I saw my life as if I stood apart from it, the vanity, the self-serving, the constant fleeing from one petty annoyance after another, the lip service to God and the Virgin and a host of saints whose names filled my prayer books, none of whom made the slightest difference in a narrow, materialistic, and selfish existence. I saw my real gods...the gods of most men. Food, drink, and security in conformity

I honestly get emotional reading this bit because of how much it feels like the seed of self-acceptance being planted. He's not anywhere close to being even a little bit okay with his sexual orientation (maybe he can't even acknowledge it for what it is), but it's the first time we see him have a glimpse of what's possible if he's willing to shirk the trappings of a traditional life. He acknowledges that he wants these worldly things, but most importantly that he wants Lestat. Whatever his religious or moral beliefs, this new feeling is competition.

We all know what happens after that, and my assumption is that he probably handled that aspect of their relationship (or at least his own feelings for Lestat) about as well as he handled everything else during the Interview era. So like, he either didn't handle it at all and lived in denial or just tortured himself about it his every waking hour. Probably both at different times. I wouldn't be surprised if he thought they were supposed to be miserable, that they were doing some cosmic penance ordained by God for living in sin. Maybe he even subconsciously sabatoged some of the happiness they did have because of that.

I want to also point out that a huge theme in the books (perhaps the theme for Louis) is him hating and fearing his violent nature as a vampire. It's no secret that gay men have often been stereotyped as sexual predators, so I can't imagine this wouldn't get into his head as well. Another way in which he is inherently bad, another part of him that's evil even outside of vampirism. Another reason he should fear himself. It doesn't seem like a reach that Louis would very quickly and easily latch onto this idea of his own monstrosity in yet another way.

Anyway.

This is just my own reading of the material, but I strongly believe internalized homophobia played a role in Louis' decision to allow Claudia to kill Lestat. Killing Lestat isn't just ridding him of a tyrant, it destroys the physical embodiment of his own vice, vampiric yes, but also romantic and sexual. He hates Lestat for the same reasons he hates himself, so how could that not extend to sexual orientation? Not only is Lestat his illicit lover/object of desire, but he's an openly and happily bisexual man relishing his sexuality the same way he relishes vampirism. I think Louis is terrified of that. He needs it to go away just like he needs anything that challenges his worldview to go away. Lestat is everything Louis fears and desires to the point of hatred. He has to die.

Regardless of any uncertainty on the Lestat and pre-Lestat years, we know he's self-aware by the time he and Claudia are in Paris because he tells us as much:

I allowed myself to forget how totally I had fallen in love with Lestat's iridescent eyes, that I'd sold my soul for a many-colored and luminescent thing, thinking that a highly reflective surface conveyed the power to walk on water. What would Christ need have done to make me follow him like Matthew or Peter? Dress well, to begin with. And have a luxurious head of pampered yellow hair. I hated myself.

He's incredibly self-deprecating about it, it's clearly something he's ashamed of, but he speaks it aloud nonetheless. Whether it was fully conscious at the time or not, Louis knows by the 1860s that he was in love with Lestat and that desire was his primary motivator in allowing himself to be turned. He's accepted this part of himself with the same self-loathing resignation that he accepted blood drinking with. Unforgivable yet unchangeable.

Okay, it's time for some pure speculation on my part regarding the years Louis spent after Armand but before Lestat's return.

In his post-Armand life, I think things would get complicated rather quickly. Not only does he have nothing but his own thoughts for the first time in like 150 years, but a lot of changes start occurring in the US in terms of the public perception of sexuality.

In the 20s, Louis, a movie buff, would probably have gotten his first inklings of this with Pre-Code Hollywood films, maybe a little in the late 40s when Kinsey published his book on male sexuality, but I think the 60s would have been pretty earth-shattering for him. Before that, being gay was still a felony in every state with the culture essentially reflecting what Louis already thought of himself.

The 50s bring more public awareness to homosexuality, but not in a good way. The Lavender Scare hits. The same decade, homosexuality is listed in the first edition of the DSM. Alan Turing is chemically castrated and eventually commits suicide.

But then the Civil Rights Movement happens and suddenly things are changing. At the very least, he's probably hearing people like himself referred to as something besides "sodomite" or "homosexual" or even just pervert/deviant. I certainly don't think he'd jump on the bandwagon, but he's so observant and so curious, he must have been watching, seeing gay people as something besides the boogeyman (himself included).

He was living in San Francisco, so that must have played a role too. By the 70s, he would've been surrounded by gay establishments like bars and bathhouses, the emergence of gay erotica, LGBT themes in increasingly mainstream art and film, and even just the open discussion of these things amongst the public. Sodomy was even decriminalized in some states by then. I imagine he'd still be firmly in self-hating Catholic mode, but all of that had to make an impression on him.

Maybe he even engaged with some of it on the fringes, loitering outside bathhouses or peeking at The Joy of Gay Sex in the corner of an indie bookstore. He may have read novels like Maurice (penned in the 1910s but only published in '71) or The Charioteer or seen films like The Boys in the Band.

The Stonewall Riots change the face of gay liberation. Harvey Milk is elected (then assassinated). The first Pride parade is held. Twenty states decriminalize homosexuality. Routine raids on gay gatherings continue. It's all very confusing, especially for someone who's lived so long.

Then the AIDS Crisis starts in 1981, and I have to assume that it destroys Louis. People on television, in the papers, on the street, everywhere, are calling it a gay plague, God's punishment for homosexuals. He probably believes it. Any inkling of progress he might have made before must have been shattered as he watches people like him die awful deaths by the thousands. "Gay" has never been dirtier.

In 1983, Lestat is back in Louis' life, and I have to assume that was the big turning point for him. It's something I've explored a lot in my current fic, but I imagine that motivates him to make peace with himself more than anything else ever could. Clearly he's already decided that Lestat is worth damnation, and maybe as the epidemic slows and the progress of the 90s and 2000s start to creep in, he's able to start taking baby steps away from "I'm damned but it is what it is" and towards "maybe this deeply held belief is incorrect actually".

I like to think that at some point (the 2010s maybe?) he finally makes the leap to that mindset. I'm sure there are backslides and rough spots, but he seems genuinely happy in the PL trilogy and surprisingly non-tortured, so I'm going to say he gets there circa 2014. I'm very happy for him.

As for how he feels about being open/"out" with Lestat, that must take serious time. It's probably easier among vampires because same sex relationships are so common, but on the street? With the general public? Yeah, no. Not for a LONG time.

Even though Louis might be personally and privately making a lot of progress, I think it'd be extremely hard for him to let go of his fear of judgment/receiving a bad reaction or even just the embarrassment and shame of people knowing "what he is". He spent over two human lifetimes guarding that information by any means necessary and that doesn't go away overnight.

BUT once he does get to a place where he can be with Lestat publicly, it would have to be emotional to the point of completely overwhelming. He spent his human life thinking he'd live and die with this secret, married to someone he didn't love and having sex he didn't want before probably going to Hell anyway.

His vampire life was spent in all various forms of misery, probably with him assuming that he was experiencing some divine punishment for his multitude of sins. And it was still a dirty secret.

Suddenly...none of that is the case anymore? That burden is just...gone.

Even if he's never a huge PDA person, I'm positive he'd cherish every date night and held hand on the street and kiss in the park. Someone who didn't think they'd ever be happy appreciates happiness the most when they get it, you know? And he can have the ultimate happiness he thought was out of reach forever every time he gets to call Lestat "husband".

Thank you for your attention.

(More brief thoughts on the subject here from another ask)

[vivivox]

The Myth of „unromantic“ Overlays in Synastry

A lot of sources claim that there are the „relationship/ love Houses“ when it comes to Synastry Overlays (looking at where the planets of someone else’s Chart fall on your Chart, and vice versa) and then there are those that „only“ indicate friendship, a work relationship or daily business etc.

Classically those „romantic“ Houses are: the 5th (romance), the 7th (partnership) and the 8th (deep intimacy).

When you are very new to Astrology this can dishearten you and make you feel like you don’t stand a chance with a someone just because you don’t tick others „Love Overlay“ boxes.

However:

1. There is no such thing as predetermination. Astrology includes Free Will and Astrology, too, is all about learning, growth of character and the evolution of the Soul. There is no right and wrong and there certainly isn’t „this is how it’s supposed to be, or how it’s not supposed to be“.

2. Astrology isn’t here to „tell you“ who you’re meant for or not meant for. If someone’s planets don’t fall into your 7th House (classical House of marriage) this by no means means that you aren’t compatible in marriage. It just means that maybe there are other factors in your connection that play a bigger role (someone in your 1st House could make you feel good about yourself and give you a sense of identity - who wouldn’t like that?). If you feel like someone is right for you, go for it!

3. In my eyes, while some Houses can be very blunt with showing romantic compatibility, ALL Houses can contribute to attraction and healthy romance and love. This depends on several factors including your personal Charts and your preferences when it comes to love among other things (Aquarius placements usually aren’t the attached at the hip marriage types so they might value someone they have a friendship with (11th House) over someone who gives them the „marriage“ vibes).

Also, just having someone’s planets in your 7th House doesn’t automatically mean you are perfect for each other.

4. Overlays are only one part of the equation. The biggest one, in my eyes and from an astrological point of view, are Aspects. The House Overlays are more background noise (from my experience) and as there are no „unromantic“ Houses they will just set the stage according to the act of the Aspects.

Also, someone might have their DC (7th House) in Cancer while their Sun sign is in Aries. This means they find Cancer placements romantically attractive but will likely clash with them due to their fire Sun. This can go both ways, of course.

Then, there are Combine Charts - but that is another story, and as I myself don’t really use them I will leave this to other people who are more knowledgeable about those kind of Charts :)

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Anyways, in order to state my point I have created a small list.

This goes to show the energy of House x Planet (especially/ mostly Sun, Moon and Venus) in Synastry Overlays.

Usually and from experience, the House person will feel the „effect“ of the planet more while the planet person has a more passive/ reactive role. This means that i.e. if someone’s Sun for falls into your 7th House you will likely see them as a perfect match somehow and feel romantic attraction. They, may or may not feel the same, but are likely to at least notice this and maybe reciprocate just because you approach them in a more romantic manner than other people.

Another example would be that people with personal planets in your 4th House (family) feel very familiar to you and you trust them easily. You are likely to open up to them instantly and you feel at ease with them. In return, they are probably going to let their guard down, too, as they sense this, and behave in a pleasant manner with you.

However this also depends on the Houses from my experience, as well as the Chart natives (someone with the Sun in their 7th might be more prone to cater to other people’s perceptions of them, I.e. when they fall into someone’s 7th House they may be more likely to reciprocate the romantic advances)

Back to the list (I have tried to focus especially on the less classical Houses for romance).

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PLANET X HOUSE OVERLAYS (Synastry):

☀️ „Boost of Confidence“

1. The planet person will likely make you feel understood, validated and good about yourself.

You might see them as the trophy wife or husband and you might „fangirl“ them.

You are likely to look good together and be the typical dream couple, especially in public.

The planet person here gets a a healthy dose of ego boost (especially with the Sun), too.

🍀 „ Safe and Secure“

2. Usually the planet person will provide in one way or the other for the House Person (financially, emotionally, taking care of them etc). Thus, they give the House person a sense of security, stability and nourishment. The planet person will usually increase the self worth of the House person.

Also, the House person might be very inclined to touch the planet person and this placement can be great for simply hanging around, cuddling and having a cozy time.

This can be great for people who like stability, security and dependability in relationships.

👥 „Same Wavelenght“

3. People with their planets in your 3rd House usually stimulate your curiosity, communication and also social life. They will be someone you love to talk to, share ideas and socialize within a group.

As communication is key this is wonderful to have in a relationship, especially for people with an active mind! Understanding and being understood is just invaluable.

You might have a brother/ sister dynamic - in a good way! Like you just get each other.

👶🏼 “Soul Family“

4. This is an amazing Overlay to have. People in your 4th feel like family to you; they make you feel secure, nurtured and understood. It’s like you’ve known them from before (childhood or a past life even) and they almost always make you feel at ease.

This is also great for having a family together, of course! And it’s said that the planet person likely reminds you of your upbringing, has a similar approach to themes of home, family and the private life, and/or had a similar upbringing or family background and roots.

✨ „Spark and Romance“

5. 5th House overlays are usually lighthearted, fun and playful. They are about attraction and romance but they usually have an air of innocence - like a puppy kind of love!

They get a really good rap because they are usually easygoing but with that spark! It’s usually very flirty and the House person will feel youthful and stimulated when with the planet person.

They usually adore the planet person and make them feel attractive and desirable ..

This is also said to be good to have children together. The planet person may make you wanna pro-create and raise kids together with them.

🍀 „Love Everyday“

6. People from your 6th House can help you so much getting your life together. Just being around them may make you want to sort out your life and they will usually help you with your daily business, work and health (even by just being around). This does get a bad rap but your daily life is actually your DAILY LIFE. Who wouldn’t want to have someone around who is wonderful for them on a daily basis? While 5th House sometimes screams holiday romance, this person is here for you in every situation and you are compatible to be with each other on a day to day basis and share your everyday life.

It’s true that other romantic indicators are needed here but if they’re there this can be an amazing overlay. The planet person usually loves taking care of the House person‘s needs and helping them with their life. They can be very motherly (especially with the Moon and Venus there) in a good way, and they get things done together which can be so helpful when you don’t naturally have that in your Chart.

Also, this is a great overlay for living together and spending time on a daily basis!

💍 „Marry Me“

7. This is the classic „partnership“ House which basically means you are very likely to see the other person as a great match. They likely posesss qualities you value and look for in a relationship and they give you the romantic feels right away. If the other person feels similarly this is a very romantic placement and you are likely to become a couple and/or even get married (which doesn’t mean marriage is only meant for the 7th, like stated above).

🌚 „How deep is your Love“

8. This House is all about intimacy, depth and the soul. It is not as visible as the 7th and /because it usually goes a lot deeper. Someone in your 8th will stimulate your subconscious, the parts of you you didn’t know existed. Usually the planet person makes you feel like they „know“ parts of you no one else does.

They are likely to get under your skin, make you feel like they see right through you and have the ability to transform you somehow. The connection is felt on a „soul level“ and the merging can be very deep and profound. It’s also the House of sexuality but in my eyes that is only an expression of intimacy that this House arouses.

🌅 „Broadening of Horizon“

9. The 9th House is great for having your horizon broadened, your views expanded and a new world to be opened up to you. A person there will likely have an exotic vibe to them, like they have the ability to show you things you didn’t know existed. They may make you feel optimistic and adventurous and it’s a great placement for traveling the world together as well as to talk about everything under the sky, especially world views, spiritual, philosophical and religious matters. They will light up your world!

🥇“Going Places“

10. People in your 10th usually have something going for them that you admire and that if you follow them can get you right where you’re meant to be in life. They can act as a sort of natural authority that you willingly follow and where you never regret doing so because you have an adequate amount of respect for them.

This overlay is amazing for following your life’s path, achieving things and it will usually always contribute to your growth and level of maturity.

It’s a beautiful placement and shouldn’t be limited to „someone helping you with your career“.

Your relationship could be in the public eye somehow, also.

👫 “Best Friends and Lovers“

11. Whoever said friendship isn’t love? Many times you will read that this is the classical „friend zone“ overlay placement but who said lovers shouldn’t be friends or friends shouldn’t be lovers?

It’s true that if there are not so many other romantic indicators between the Charts (Venus/Moon, Mars/Venus etc) you are more likely going to see them on a platonic level but that doesn’t necessarily exclude other instances.

Some people value friendship over everything and all they want in a relationship is a partner in crime who is their best buddy!

You are likely to share ideals and more often than not a similar social circle which can be so great because who doesn’t love having your lover in the same friends group!

🌊 „Soul Connection“

12. Having a prominent Neptune in my Chart I have never understood how some people could view this placement as unfortunate.

With the 12th House Overlay you have a spiritual, otherworldly and soul connection to the other person that includes a selfless kind of love and karmic / soul ties (which def aren’t bad!).

You can likely sense what the other person feels and can easily connect through dreams. This placement is ethereal. The planet person will usually shed light on the hidden parts of the House person and help them heal.

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Thanks for reading and always love to hear your feedback, guys 😊☺️

Credit:

@vivivox

[vantaesfairie]

Hello atlty!! How are you? I hope life is good to you these days🙏 I would like to participate in your game. My question would be what does the person on my mind feels about me currently? My initials is J.L.

I get the vibe from you that you are quite intuitive. You work smart and is detailed and organised. I also feel like you don't tolerate any BS from anyone, you either staight out let them know your opinions or might just find a way to rant your frustrations somewhere else. With how accurate both your PACs are for me, I truly feel like you are gifted in addition to being intuitive. You seem like a very passionate person as well. Overall, I get a vibe from you that I can really relate to myself and makes me feel somehow easy to connect with you. I can just tell you are a great soul who still finds a greater purpose and for your true self. That's all I'm really getting, I'm sorry if I offend you anywhere🥺 I am not the best with words.

helloooo

im glad my pacs resonated for you! yes sometimes i have no filter, and i am quite a passionate person, but it can translate as me jumping from one project to the other lmao, u didn't offend me at all!

person on JL's mind feelings about them

they think of you as someone who's going through constant change, you might tend to jump from one thing to another? and prone to experiencing 'big things / changes' in life (eg. car crash / winning the lottery), i'm picking up that it might be more unfortunate big things, or you just have a lot of negative self fulfilled prophecies. there's a very specific tiktok in my mind that i don't know the name of but relates to your situation 😭😭 and they also think of you as nurturing, kind, and loving. very emotionally intuitive and developed, giving with your feelings and probably wears your heart on your sleeve a little. definitely very warm, and you want to heal others. however you're also quite sensitive to them. you might want to follow rules, and quite traditional with your thoughts. if you are religious, they definitely take note of that part in a positive light. maybe subconsciously you always want to fit in and be a part of an organized group or team that shares your beliefs? you're someone who has different sides to them, and it intrigues them that you're so multidimensional. there seems to be more to you than they feel.

hope you enjoyed! feedback is mandatory. please like and reblog, it would be greatly appreciated.

[olive-garden-hoe]

!!!!TW!!!! Heavily discussed SA, violence, and religious themes

THIS IS A VENT POST WITH SONG INTERPRETATION, READ AT OWN RISK

Florence and the Machine’s “Howl”

When I listened to “Howl” by Florence and the Machine, I misunderstood a LOT of the lyrics and my interpretation was this. Even though I read through the lyrics now and understand the song was actually about becoming almost animalistic in desire and love towards someone, this interpretation is more impactful for me and I just wanted to share: (lyrics in parentheses are the incorrect way I heard the lyrics the first time I heard it that formed this interpretation though I think my interpretation still works even with the actual song lyrics if you try hard enough)

“If you could only see, the beast you made of me” - after I got SA’d (the first time and all the times after), I would feel gross and wrong. I felt as though he made me something else, that I was no longer fully myself, that he took a part of me and before long I wouldn’t be me, maybe I wouldn’t even be human. Note I was quite young (9-10 when it first happened, 13 when it stopped), so I didn’t understand what was happening or why, I just knew I was different after each time.

“Screaming in the dark, I howl when we’re apart” - it often happened in dark places where no one could see (which is not uncommon but keep in mind it can happen even when people are watching) or just outside of someone’s vision when they looked away. To me, this lyric reminded uses “the dark” as a metaphor for screaming when feeling alone, like I did when I tried to tell someone and they didn’t believe me, or screaming in secret, like I did after I realized no one would listen. Even when I wasn’t around him, I felt as though I was a wounded animal licking my scars with little to no idea about the magnitude of what had happened. I would “howl” with pain when we separated because of the damage he left

“My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in” - I was always too scared, maybe of him maybe of someone finding out, to fight back, but the image of scratching him until he bled, that I wanted to get out by getting under his skin and maybe then he’d stop, is a very primally satisfying image

“Now there’s no holding back, I’m making to attack, my blood is singing with your voice, I want to pour it out” - another satisfactory image of attacking him that I know I won’t actually do. It also brings forth another thing that happens after SA: I cannot forget what happened or forgive the people who did it, I will move on and live, but the event will never leave me. I will still have him with me no matter what, and I wish that I could “pour out” everything that he left with me and never be reminded of his voice or his touch ever again.

“The saints can’t help me now” - yes, though I am a Christian (progressive clergy), in those moments I felt so utterly alone and scared and I realized that even my own family didn’t help me when I called, I didn’t pray. I thought, at the ripe old age of 9, that no one would ever help me, not even God, because I wasn’t worth the time, because of a man and his hands.

“The ropes have been unbound, I hunt for you with bloodied feet across the hallowed ground” - Fun fact: there is an urban legend that witches couldn’t step on hallowed ground because they had evil intentions. Therefore, if I hunt on hallowed ground, it means that my intentions are not evil, instead they are justified. Again, the image of being the hunter instead of the hunted, of giving the abuser the pain he gave me, makes me happy on a very primal level

“Be careful of the curse that falls on (your) lovers, starts so soft and sweet then turns them to hunters” - another lasting effect of SA is that I subconsciously think everyone has the same intentions for me as he did, and even when I’m in a relationship I think the same. I am working on this, but it is very easy for me to think everything is great with a partner and then, the second they make a mistake or get mad, I overreact and think it is a sign they will hurt me. This puts me back into a “prey” mode, so I either bolt or become emotionally distant instead of working through the issue. In my mind, my lover can turn into a “hunter” at any given moment and I must consciously keep myself out of a “prey” mindset

“A man is pure of heart and says his prayers by (name) may still become a wolf when (oh the) moon is bright” - another reference to the idea that my partner will become bad (“a wolf”) on some random night, so I must always be careful and never trust them. Again, I’m working through this, but it’s a very real fear that takes hold and causes issues in relationships. I misheard the lyrics “prayer by NIGHT” as “prayers by NAME,” which made me think of how many times people know prayer names but not the actual prayer, showing two-sidedness and superficiality (note that this is in a figurative sense, if you don’t know all your prayers it doesn’t mean you’re not religious, I meant this in a way of symbolism not theology)

Anyway that’s how I understood it. Obviously this wasn’t what Florence and the Machine intended it to be interpreted as, and anyone can have different opinions/interpretations, I just wanted to share mine because it made the song so meaningful to me