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#i am so upset rn#upset enough that my tummy is hurting and i'm not hungry even tho i haven't really eaten today#i'm working until 10 pm tonight#and my day started shitty#within 15 mins of waking up my dad starts freakin yelling at me#and then some people came and mowed the lawn#and in the process destroying all of the wildflowers#RIPPING A CHUNK OFF MY CACTUS#and a whole leaf of my monstera outside!!!#and they were basically weed whacking the sides of my house for like 30 minutes#i'm on my break rn but i have to go back in like 10 mins#and i'm so tired and stressed#because i made stupid bad choices and am now feeling the guilt#i have so much shit to do#and so little time#and i feel like crying BUT I HAVE A FULL FACE OF MAKEUP ON RN#AND LIKE 6 HOURS OF MY SHIFT LEFT#i'm so mad#i wanna throw up#maybe take a shit idk#stupid taxes stupid college#god i'm such a fucking idiot WHYYYYY do i do this to myself#urg#i hope no one is reading this rn#i'm venting sorry
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i wrote an interactive poem for my girlfriend in 3 parts. she said you need to read it.
go here: take only the final quiz or take all 3. i don't mind. it's sad, though. this is a poem about choice. about fate and mental illness and how love fits inside of all of it. this is a poem about a long dark hallway. mostly this is a poem about mango sushi rolls.
good luck. i love you. despite it all, i'm hopeful.
#uqiz#she said i need to put it up here lmafo#something something feel free to send me 5 dollars towards my next sushi roll run#poetry#experimental poetry#there's no specific like warning on this except that im not doing well n therefore it LEAKS into my writing lol#the realllll shit as an author is like ohhhh fuck i write so much better when im mentally unwell lol#:( why cant i be sane AND rational. why does my creativity gotta stem from suffering.#(bc when im not suffering im outside saying YIPPEE and kicking my heels lol)#IF YOU SAW THIS BEFORE I CLICKED THE RIGHT LINK NO YOU DIDNT#hey btw if you're experiencing an error idk what's up with that bc it still loads on my end.#i'll look into solutions but sorry :(#hi friends: i have no idea why sometimes the links break for random people.#it might be a chrome/firefox/etc thing but i will say that the links still work on my end AND i still have people taking each quiz.#so i know it works .... i have no idea what the exact solution is - maybe reload it if urs isn't working?#sorry im not good at coding :(
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personal happiness or what the fuck ever
bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#jeans here too but ssh#snap sketches#i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i#so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic#i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now#which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway š#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again#LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me#maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw#anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone#i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE
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meme redraw ft captain hunnicuck
the thing about hawkahy is i think it presents a wonderful character development opportunity for beej once he accepts that his waifish wifeable roommate picked a shorter, sweeter, quieter, poorer partner over the big man on campus who took him for granted enough to punch him in the face and then act like nothing happened, because it turns out hawkeye values honesty and empathy over whatever the hell is going on with bj. maybe eating his own heart out is the first step to getting over himself
#this one goes out to the Beejdunking Brigade#i want bj to get better but i know he's just going to keep fighting it forever. if a warzone can't kill his ego idk what possibly could#peg takes the house and kid and dog and bj goes to maine as his backup plan and is greeted by mulcahy looking happier than ever#maybe then-- MAYYYYBE-- he can finally realize that there are consequences to shitting where you eat#art#mash#m*a*s*h#hawkahy#hawkeye pierce#father mulcahy#meme redraw
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Am I too late to this trend
#orchid draws#does this meme even have a name. idk.#shadowcat#logan howlett#wolverine#kitty pryde#xmen evolution#Xmen evo#idk how to tag shit. take this.#tried to mimic the jagged lines vibe in the og but. idk.#technically has context of.. over 23k+ words between me and a friend on discord.#yāall may get draws or fics from that but. maybe not. who knows
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#this one is very easy to get strange angles with. because it's just got so many weird shapes on it#porygon#bald#even the original front-facing angle was strange and you could barely tell it's front-facing#hellā this angle you can at least tell what it's supposed to be#if you remember the realpokemon post. you remember#this thing also got like banned from the anime or some shit because of an episode that featured it giving kids seizures#fucking did i almost just type āseasuresā?? hello?? where am i#even though it was pikachu who initiated the explosion that caused the seizures. and iirc it wasn't even that many seizures#it was like the galaxy note7. where only like 20 or so phones actually exploded but it still got banned from planes#or maybe i'm remembering Every tidbit of information here incorrectly!#y'see folks. this is why i am not a reliable source of information#because i will not be fact checking any of this and instead i'll end off the post with ābut idk lolā#edit: it was a lot of seizures. and yes this justifies taking the episode off the air but i donāt feel like the pokĆ©mon itself#deserves to be banned from the anime is my point. plenty of folks still like this pokĆ©mon#hmm. i wonder if i maybe shouldnāt be spreading middle school rumors on the middle school rumors website
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arrives 15 min late with a latte
......sup
#yosuke hanamura#persona 4#cool now that its done i can ramble in the tags#fellas im surprised hes here and done#did not think that was gonna happen#fuck i forgot smth#eh ill fix it before i make my print#anywho i might make more i might not who knows not i#yukiko is the next one i have half an idea on but also i have some shining nikki designs rattling around with my sole braincell#i also made a shadow alt for the back but idk if i like the mouth so yall arent gonna see him#also i need to find a gold foil guy that does odd sizes and like moq of 1#bc i wanna do this in gold foil#and its tarot card size bc im dumb as hell#but i want a print for my wall and i know sure as shit no one else will want one hence the moq of 1#my heart wants to make the whole major arcana for p4 but my past completed works says Ā°āā.ą³ąæ*:ļ½„ šš Ā°āā.ą³ąæ*:ļ½„#so whatever gets done will get done#also im gonna reblog this a lot bc i put in too many hours to get a singular note by me so like if you dont wanna see it block me lmfao#if you have any hot takes for future cards please share with the class bc i only have ideas for yukiko and a full cast she does not make fr#so uh yeah yeehaw#idk what else to ramble about but like cannot believe yosuke fucking hanamura is the first chara to get a completed piece in 5 years#im not fucking kidding#the rest were all quick graphite or abandoned#hes not even my fave in p4- thats naoto protag chan kou and nanako#boys lucky to hit top 5#he just kinda crawled into my affection like some kind of sad pathetic creature idk how it happened either#maybe hes overprocessed now that im looking at it#nope i looked too long this is it this is how he is#ill do better by the women i promise
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they beat the shit out of each other, nothing more nothing less yk haha they're just exhausted after a fight and ready to go take a shower with their silly soap and dirty water huhu.
#artists on tumblr#art#illustration#digital art#fight club#fight club 1999#the narrator fight club#tyler durden#soapshipping#tyler durden x narrator#doodle#slightly suggestive#I am so scared of posting this#trembling#wtf was I on yesterday like before I draw the man anguished on the floor now this#going insane#full version will come in like never cause I'm already staining my digital footprint enough#but like#uhm#I like how it turned out#so yeah#don't stone me š#also the quality is really shit by its own cause it's a screenshot from a program I forgot I had on my tablet#there are also faith doodles in that file I may post them at some point#WELP#walks away with shame#oh also hope tumblr won't take it down#or maybe it would be better š¤Ø#IDK BYE NOW#martyryo
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uhh drew these a few days ago, don't really know what I was getting at here but these relate to a "turbo getting an undeserving second chance" au. just your average hypothetical redemption arc.
maaan idk I just like to draw them screwing around
okay I'm out
#okay realistically these two would fistfight hours on end#but maybe turbo might get his shit together idk man#dont take these seriously....tho im tempted to draw more perhaps#wreck it ralph#wir#wir vanellope von schweetz#wir turbo#doodles#coralscribs
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au where gabriel's forced to cooperate with v1 and v2 for whatever reason
#maybe the humanity never died and to ensure heaven's power the council decides to take the two most powerful machines of humanity and make>#>them work for them#idk#v1 and v2 for rent LMFAOOOOO#i like the idea how v1 doesnt give a shit and acts like a savage crow 80% of the time#and v2 tries to demonstrate itself to the angels as the 'smart one'#it fails miserably since it; as a matter of fact; too acts like a savage crow 80% of the time#gabriel only wishes god gave him more strength because another fuCKING RIPPED ARM AND I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL MAKE SURE YOUR VERY ATOMS WILL BE#ultrakill brainrot fase again. yay!#ultrakill#v1 ultrakill#v2#v2 ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill
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I THOUGHT that it was my stupid southern accent fucking up my pronouceation again and that normal people prounced it Bat-son like some Southern Californian generic fucks BUT NO Batsin is the correct pronunciation. So instead of joking about him being Batmanās son instead people should be joking about a guy named sin protecting the seven deadly sins!!
#IM SORRY THIS HAS BEEN BUGGING ME FOR A WHILE#I THOUGHT I WAS BEING STUPID AGAIN BUT NO I WAS RIGHT YāALL ARE WRONG THIS TIME#sorry I have insecurities about my accent sometimes if you canāt tell#leo says shit#billy batson#or batsin or batsen but not son that bitch is no oneās son ccā is dead and no oneās taking his place#(except maybe victor vasquez)#idk why I made fun of Southern Californians I was also from sal cal before I ca#me here and was infected with The South#south USA if that wasnāt clear#sorry.
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TG: yeah i mean it probably would have worked if i had used a recipe instead of just guessing
TT: You just guessed? It took humans thousands of years to make bread.
TG: it took me like an hour?
#submission#i could guess how to make bread . i could do it#flour egg butter uh. stir#stir it til goopy. um. take goopy out of the bowl beat the shit out of it on the counter.#knead that shit like you are a little creacher making biscuits. (you are making biscuits.)#rolling pin at some point#um. slap it on a pan and put it in the oven for like#uh. oh right preheat the oven before you do any of that. to like. maybe 350F. 400. is that normal#bake it for however long. um. idk just keep an eye on it til it looks normal#take it out. eat. try not to get sick. tada#bread šš¼#homestuck#incorrect homestuck quotes#incorrect quotes#mod dave#dave strider#rose lalonde
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Look I know Lucifer isn't the best dad ever but I feel like people who say he's a bad dad are purposely ignoring the context of the show. It is very much implied that he thought Charlie wanted nothing to do with him, and Charlie thought he wanted nothing to do with her. Luciferās still dealing with trauma from Heaven and his fall and probably will for the rest of time plus he's dealing with what would probably qualify as clinical depression, and simultaneously dealing with trauma, clinical depression, and autistic traits (which Lucifer absolutely has; I do not say, as an autistic person, that Lucifer is a massive autistic mood for no reason) is a fucking NIGHTMARE.
I'm not saying Lucifer shouldn't take responsibility. He should. But he's already doing better than my dad frankly. Lucifer hits me in the daddy issues, I wish my dad made an effort to be more active in my life. Lucifer is fucking trying, and that's better than a lot of people can say about their dads.
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel lucifer#like i said hes definitely not the best dad but hes also not the worst. hes trying#thats both better than he was doing and better than a lot of people get#(i do think stolas is a better dad but his and lucifers circumstances are also completely different)#if lucifer hadnt bothered helping charlie then yeah id say hes a bad dad#but he put his instinct to avoid the thing that gave him trauma (heaven) at all costs aside for charlie#he was able to acknowledge that yes hes been a shit dad and could be doing better#he made an active effort TO DO BETTER#he actively made a change about himself for the sake of being there for charlie and that alone is better than most people can do#he wasnt a bad dad on purpose. he thought charlie didnt want to see him and acted accordingly which made his mental health problems worse#and his mental health problems being worse made it harder for him to function let alone be charlies dad#again im not saying he shouldnt take accountability just that people dont acknowledge why he was absent for so long#(me being me i blame lilith for making lucifer think charlie didnt want to see him and making charlie think lucifer didnt want to see her)#maybe this is littered with bad takes and my perspective is clouded by daddy issues. idk lol
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"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"
OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.
"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"
OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it
"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"
OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.
"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"
I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.
I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.
Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.
So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.
#out of queue#ani rambles#punks and posers#i cant even call this a 4am hot take because its 7pm but like#idk i keep seeing posts about like 'how DARE people think I bought my punk clothes how DARE they not know the how-tos and DIYs'#or 'ugh people only care about the ~aesthetics~ of my movement if you don't know shit get out of here' and like#maybe I'm just a shy ass introverted nerd whos scared of social rejection! but I avoid that shit like the plague#so if someone were to reject me based on not knowing about something I'd never even heard about? something i was JUST getting into?#there's a high chance I'd just scram and never look back. i don't wanna be the one who causes that emotion in someone else#granted this is coming from someone who STILL doesn't know how to make her own patches or worked up the courage to do direct action praxis#outside of offering neighbors to my tomatoes and trying to talk to people about what I'm passionate about#but still imo unless someone's a malicious intentional bad actor i dont see the point in scaring newbies off#thats how movements die imo#i know this is my solarpunk blog but its not a solarpunk specific thing#i think the main post that inspired this was about store-bought versus self-made spiked leather jackets#which honestly just feels petty to me but who knows.#might delete later
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"Marchil? I guess I can see it on Chilchuckās end, but what about Marcilleās? What makes you think she could develop feelings for him?" Iām glad you asked!
The first thing to note is that she does think highly of him
In the page on the right, literally defending his virtues and literally comparing him to Dalclan. And ohā¦
She does love a brooding mysterious guy who closes himself to love. But surely, Chilchuck isnāt her type at all, right? Heās not princely or knightly at all. In apperances certainly not, both looks wise and demeanor wise, but then thatās why she seeks to know him on a deeper level, to not only look shallowly.
And hmm. Chilchuck really is quite selfless isnāt he? Always looking out for others, and saving specifically her often, always making sure himself and, staying in or even running towards danger for her sometimes. Modesty is often considered heroicā¦
And can we talk about that drowning oneā¦ You can definitely frame the special attention as him knowing she tends to hesitate or be clumsy, and then his insistance on pulling her out of danger that sheās the healer aka the most important to keep alive, but. From the one who says that he just keeps his ass out of fights and wonāt help this is a lot of risk to take, and he does die trying to pull her to safety in the dungeon rabbits chapter. And the drowning bit??? Thatās when the dungeon collapses. The only reason they DONāT die of drowning here is that the water then gives way to outside. There was NO hope of pulling her to safety here and resurrections would likely not work either, he truly preferred to die with her than try to survive himself.
Sit your ass back DOWN you are in no state, self-sacrifical hero much damn
And Marcille definitely noticed this imo, after all she loves learning all she can about him, remembering things like how he hates waiting on people too. She pays attention to him and what he does and what he says. This to say that itās notable, whatever reason for it you may think (though we know by this point at least she was already aware he was an adult though it wasnāt internalized), out of everyone itās Chilchuckās bed that she wants to sleep in during the Golden Kingdom stay. Heās safe and comforting to her: dependable, the defining trait in her view of him as is shown by the relationship chart in the Adventurerās Bible.
^ Lending handkerchiefs is a romance trope btw and handkerchiefs have irl history of being used for courting. Especially in old English literature and plays like Shakespeareās Othello, and personally I do see a lot of Shakespeare in Dalclan (nobility political drama with some romance). Thereās how his cowl is a dearly beloved souvenir from his family too, thereās a lot of aesthetic tropes you can apply to him.
All this to say you can 100% romanticize Chilchuck into a princely noble guy if you try and thatās exactly what Marcille does with the wife roleplay. She doesnāt need much in the first place, she latches onto crumbs and makes aesthetic narratives out of details, give her an inch sheāll take a mile.
But whatās interesting about the shift throughout the arc of her and his relationship is that she starts out idealizing him into a little angel of a kid (shapeshifter), and she ends it idealizing him as a virtuous husband and family man instead.
And whatās doubly interesting is that in the former, sheās actively warping who he is personality and demeanor wise to fit the aesthetic, he doesnāt have that bitter pride of not asking for help and the edges have been smoothened. But what she does during the wife roleplay is something else, she acknowledges the flaws and justā¦ Accepts them, rolls with them. Sheās aware of his flaws and implements them into the narrative, but the reason why his wife left doesnāt capitalize on them even, rather Chil is chilblivious and his wife loves him very much still, sheās just testing him after having had a night of feeling out of place at his side.
And this is what separates the idealization vs romanticization, sheās not twisting him into someone else sheās just uplifting what he is and focusing on the good sides.
Marcille: "he has a shitty personality sometimes but if he was my husband Iād still cherish him" "If I were your wife Iād be overjoyed to go out with you and would get myself prettied up while you complain about me taking a long time, your friends would tell me that Iām nice and thatād make me happy, but Iād also be sad because you wouldnāt tell me that you love me enough"
Heās angry and his wife left him, heās *flawed*, but heās still worth hyping up, still worth having his own romance story, still has a shot of winning back his beloved. She sees him for what he is, human and real and not a carefully scripted character that fits an aesthetic, and she thinks itās still worthy of love and admiration and fighting for
And whatās funny too is that you might expect her to cool down on him once she learns more about him but actually she only gets increasingly into his business. You tell her your age and next thing you know you promise to introduce her to your family. Give her an inch she takes a mile. And too the thing is, Senshi is equally mysterious but she doesnāt pester him like at all, asks him ONCE about his succubus and he doesnāt even answer and thatās likeā¦ It. With Chilchuck it starts off innocently enough with her wanting to know his age, hometown, the stuff she mentions having asked pre-canon. But it just keeps and keeps going and escalating. Think sheāll be satisfied now knowing you have a wife and kids, maybe sheās disillusioned now? Wrong! She wants to know their names and ages and occupations and hey how did you propose to your wife? Do you think sheāll stop after meeting them? Whatās next? What will she want to know next????
Sheāsā¦ Like itās not a reach that Marcille is all over him. Like it doesnāt mean itās romantic but she just is. She is not normal about him idk. Can you not ask him about what tongue technique he used when first kissing his wife, give the man breathing room
Marcille could literally go "if I was Chilchuckās wife" having deeply pondered and thought out the hypothetical and people would still ask where anyone sees any romantic potential between them. Oh wait
Thereās a platonic explanation for everything (almost?) in Dungeon Meshi donāt say Iām saying otherwise, but itās definitely not like thereās nothing here to read into lol
Going off a bit more under read bc itās my fave topic
Marcille has a whole theme with the charming prince trope with her idealization and storybook motif and Chil is kinda the "Well someone perfect like that isnāt very realistic and romance is usually more complex and thatās ok and good and flawed people can still be āØvirtuousāØ" catalyst
Do you see do you see she starts canon thinking the most romantic thing is a prince charming but her arc in the end has her romanticizing an average, flawed, real and realistic family man, whoās on the poorer side and is on the verge of divorce. And thatās what he needed, too, seeing the positive of himself and the situation instead of focusing on the negative is explicitly what inspires him to hope that he might be able to reconcile with his wife, gives him the courage and self-esteem to shoot his shot.
He IS a prince figure instead that now itās not about idealizing the grand and overt itās about romanticizing the small things in real life!! About finding joy and beauty in things that seem normal or mundane and uplifting them to make the world feel kinder!!!!
Heās the devoted virtuous man that she wantsss not the storybook prince thatās unrealistic and could crumble like a script at any time. Heās the perfect example of a flawed realistic but virtuous & devoted & loving man. Far from a prince charming, but not fully detached from it either. Something worth fighting for despite the flawed cracks. Like literally, flawed romance being worth fighting for is literally the finale of Chilchuck and Marcilleās arc on the matter, where their separate arcs and issues intersect at the most crucial moment.
Marcille is important to Chilās arc not only because of her optimism, but also because of her interest and knowledge in romance & matters of the heart, and thatās what he needs to both open his heart up to hope and to try to reconcile with his wife, like idk sounds gay
Their arc together is literally learning to 1) see each other for how they are and not undermining their qualities capacities etc etc while still not leaving flaws unchecked either and 2) opening up to people. Marcille LITERALLY makes Chil open his heart up to hope like idk man. What do you want from me. Heās literally the guy helping her through deconstructing novels and fantasy and rose tinted glasses and like. Deconstructing the prince charming figure into something more real but still romantically beautiful like KUI KUI STOOOOP STOP IāM ALREADY HOOKED IāM ALREADY-
Ā Ok fine thatās me reading into the tropes too much forgive me for being storybook brained but like. Speaking his heart out to a lone woman on a balcony, Romeo and Juliette shit, asking if she, too, doesnāt want to meet his family, madly blushing. And like sheās learned with Chilchuck itās all in the little things, all the implications he cannot speak aloud. She does reciprocate, does blush madly back, and the first thing she does is shower him in flowers and jewelry and what in her heart is coded as romantic gifts
A lady, stashed away in a high tower by her lonesome, waiting for someone to call out to her from belowā¦ Romeo courting type shit with an offer, a heartfelt spiel, implicit confession from underneath her balcony. Offering him flowers because he succeeded in calling out to her heartā¦ā¦.. And they have to climb to her tooā¦. Crazy
Doesnāt it sound like a proposal. One thatās both so storybook-like and not, contrastedly real and grounded, all about the implications rather than in your face grand gestures, "Donāt you want to meet my family?". They literally have an arc about the topic of romance and this is the climax/pinnacle of it like god?? This is @ the woman who said "Chilchuck is a shy/bashful man so I know he wouldnāt tell me he loves me, butā¦" btw
To quote a friend, truly the shiny secret unlockable dating sim capture target : THE DUNGEON LORD BIT WAS SO FUNNY BECAUSE HE KNEW SHE'D TAKE IT HOOK LINE AND SINKER HES THE ONE WHO GOT HER TO TURN AROUND COMPLETELY SHES LIKE. WIDE EYED FLAG RAISED???? FLAG RAISED WITH CHILCHUCKĀ šššā¼ļøššā¼ļøš
And the way that this is the culmination of their arc togetherā¦ Like people are not ready for the āChil calling out to dunlord Marcille on the balcony has Romeo and Juliette romance novels imageryā take. Or the ātheir arc is about growing to see beauty even in the non-idealized, in the flawed and in the realā take which makes it so so perfect if she were to lower her ideal from a charming elven prince to a virtuous halfling man (which she does end up romanticizing)
So there, you got to witness in real time what happens when I think about marchil for longer than 2 minutes, there are so many layers itās a deranged rabbithole. I saw the necronomicon of subtext and itās driving me to madness with forbidden knowledge that no one else sees
ā¦ā¦. Like what if I told you she implicitly picked Chilchuck over a "unrealistic prince charming whoās actually disingenuous" much earlier in the story already. If she was given the choice to think through going with a guy that seems perfect and chivalrous like her succubus sheād pick Chilchuck over the other actually. If I sound insane rn tune in for my full analysis on them coming this month hopefully thank youu. Interwoven arcs of fantasy vs reality and idealization vs pessimism I love youuu
So now you know the general thesis of my planned analysis about the importance of the prince charming figure in Marcille and Chilchuckās arc, where she romanticizes things to a sometimes worrying degree or idealize people into something easy and digestible and poetic (like Chil being a kid, and then him being a virtuous āØāØāØhusband), and how she needs to value aesthetics less and actual acts and facts more, be more grounded (like seeing people for what they are flaws and all, and accepting that people need money and not pulling through on principles of honor or unity shouldnāt get Namari shamed) and a part of that is accepting that Chilchuck is BOTH flawed and virtuous, a loving husband that still has shitty moods and fumbled his marriage so bad etc etc. So itās like, her image of perfect prince charming that will whisk you away on an ethereal romance -> realistic flawed middle aged dad with personality issues and a failing marriage but he still is worthy of love and having his cute grand romance story and his happy ending. Ik I keep repeating the same point through this but I need it to be burned into everyoneās brains it has its grip on me I canāt do this. They are so specialā¦ā¦
#Someone did ask (on discord) btw iām not just being a smartass though I do love being that too#This is stuff I cover in my upcoming marcille & chil arc analysis except here I can go full romo and donāt keep the strictly platonic angle#Itās at like 15k words rn I think. The 30 pics limit is killing me which is why I started asking my friend to do collages of panels for me#Sob#I keep alternating between it and the Falin analysis save me. Should be dropping soon idk i might test out having a beta reader for that on#Marchil foreplay is 2 years of being coworkers and slowly worming personal questions out of him until he blinks and she has#a key to his house#Dungeon meshi#marchil#marcille donato#chilchuck tims#like theyāre so so funny look at this shit. Nonconsensual romanticizing of you as a person. Obsessive interest in your personal life#Sheās latched so hard onto the āmysteryā of him theyāre deranged#MAYBE ITS ALL COMPROMISES MAYBE ITS ALL SWEET INBETWEENS <3#maybe we'll take our vision of what we thought we could be and make something new together. something for just us#Fumi rambles#Maaan Marcilleās āidealizing him into liking him even for all his flaws bc his personality is often kinda shittyā arcā#and Chilchuckās āprejudice against elves and mages and optimism into respect and trustā arc are everything to me#Meta#Spoilers#Dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Tagged this so late oops#Itās so funny. Sheās canonically wondered how Chil would be like as a lover#No no but like do u see. Fantasy is a key part of her chrcter and arc and heās the foil to that heās the thing that comes challenge it
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#natalie scatorccio#shauna shipman#shaunanat#jackienat#jackieshauna#jackieshaunanat#shauna x nat#jackie x nat#jackie x shauna#yellowjackets#*#iām obsessed with this moment. earlier in the episode we see nat sitting outside just staring at jackieās bones. sheās clearly been thinkin#this over. that they canāt just leave her there. a visual reminder of what they did. making them all feel sick#that jackie deserved better. that in death. even now that sheās just bones. she deserves a burial or something. and nat takes initiative.#comes up with a plan and shares it with the group. but even then she looks to shauna for permission or maybe reassurance? maybe itās out of#respect. they all remember how shauna reacted when it was initially suggested they get rid of jackieās body. this is hard on all of them#jackieās death and what they did. but they all know itās affecting shauna the most.#maybe nat is even hoping shauna will want to help or that someone else besides natalie is feeling the way she is. that she wonāt have to do#this alone. that someone else wants to honor jackie or feels as sick as she does about it. and they clearly do!! so many of them feel that.#i mean maybe only shauna and taissa are feeling it as strongly as she does? but shauna is kind of in shock and sick with guilt and grief an#in no place to meet nat half way here. sheās retreating into herself. and tai doesnāt even remember eating jackie. think sheās still#processing that it even happened. that they all arenāt lying to her. and also dealing with the knowledge that sheās having memory gaps.#dissociating. so nobody that is present there with natalie is feeling the way she is. lottie seems to think it was necessary for their#survival (probably true and nat even tells jackieās bones as much.) but lottie doesnāt seem to be feeling guilty and when she takes a mug#out to natalie while sheās wrapping the bones. nat seems angry at the way lottie is handling it. and travis offers to go with her but it#reads to me like he is worried about nat specifically and not that heās feeling that bad about what happened. i think nat is just feeling s#alone in this episode. and the one person that gets that is shauna but sheās just not in an actionable state. just tells nat to take the#lead. dismisses responsibility in a way. she just canāt handle thinking about it. that last look nat gives shauna just feels soooo loaded.#like maybe thereās a little bit of judgment there. also likely worry. maybe understanding. idk maybe i am extrapolating and making shit up#but i just found this scene so fascinating.
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