#maybe im just touchy?
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As someone who grew up partly in Northern Ireland, and has several family members that have been deeply affected by The Troubles, I'm really struggling to find Condal's comparison here? Simply because the Dance is not a generational conflict?
I don't know, maybe the fictional civil war between two royal factions of a singular house (that ends once the leaders of both factions die), should not be compared to decades of violent conflict that was born from years of British occupation, oppression and massacre....
#maybe im just touchy?#idk its weird#house of the dragon#hotd#also do not fucking speak on breaking bread yank#The Anarchy is right fucking there for your comparison...
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listen idk how many people can relate to this but i can't stop thinking abt. f/os that are touchy without even realizing it.
like !!! they always have an arm slung around your shoulder , or a hand placed on your back , or sometimes their fingers will barely graze over you because your presence is just so magnetizing to them. whenever you sit next to them there's a slow shift as they lean into you, gradually, maybe snaking a hand over yours or settling their head against your arm ...
... but then the moment anyone calls attention to it they're confused. maybe they'll be hanging out with a colleague or you'll just bring it up in random conversation , but when someone points it out they have to pause and self-reflect. me ? touchy ?? what are you talking about. when did this happen. (as if they haven't been non-stop holding your hand for the past 30 minutes)
#self ship#self shipping#fictional other#selfship#selfshipnet#━━━━━━━#| ☁️ posts#| 💭 imagines#| 💙 silly central#━━━━━━━#i think i talked about this in the tags of one of my reblogs but#i havent seen any imagines like this so i figured i'd share the love hebhbhbhebhehbehbe#because oh my god this keeps me up at night IN A GOOD WAY. BUT THIS KEEPS ME UP AT NIGHT#this is mostly abt h.utz because im Actually insane and also he's very casually touchy in the show so. it checks out bshehesehseghesehseheh#but i can't use his tag because im UNCREATIVE. AND HIS TAG IS JUST HIS NAME. but im not letting this appear when you search his name#maybe one day i'll revamp my f/o tags ...lol
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one benefit ive unexpectedly gained from lurking around nsfw tumblr is seeing how many people are really into the idea of their lovers being super handsy and touchy in public
#maybe ill elaborate on this a bit more in a rb but like#i think in retrospect my ex's utter inability to engage in pda really fucked me up#cause like that + some other behaviors of hers often made it seem like she was. well. embarassed of me#and youre telling me theres gorgeous dykes on tumblr dot com who want their s/os or whatnot to be handsy in public. holy shit#just like. i think only this past year have i fully come to terms with how im a touchy person and also my touch isnt? undesirable? and now!#amelia is also huge for this bc they specifically arent touchy like sensory issues around touch and all. except for meee :] im allowed#but anyways just. saw a couple posts along the lines of ohh handsy butch grabbing my waist in public [and hornier variants] recently#and jts like. woah. we want this? this is good actually? okay. awesome#my shit
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do you write fic on ao3?
unfortunately for everyone involved i do!
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#ask#and if youre wondering about my handle i write on anon so its doesnt particularly matter (shrugs)#and also i think its pretty easy to figure out which fics ive written because i want to makeout mad sloppy style with an em dash#anyways (waves offhandely) it doesnt really matter much because i have like posted an ss on here before so you know#its not like im trying to hide it like eh#but also because of my disposition that would put a tranced rabbit to shame i dont exactly yell it from the hilltops either#the moral of the story is if you ask me what im working on ill yap about it maybe like post an excerpt#and months later youll find something posted on anon and youll be like oh! so they finally posted it!#so to spare you all (lies on my tummy like we're at a sleepover and giggles) you wanna hear what im working on#haha of course you do youre a prisoner in my yap box#and i want an excuse to talk about it hidden in the tags so people skim over it and not read it <3#SO the earliest wip is from like early october about a magical realism au because i rewatched lwa as i usually do and well theres this one#ep about a magical animal if you will... and you can kinda guess what it is from that lol its sashaforsyekky#because the dreaded @/tungpin infected me with the brainworms about this trio specifically#and it really is ekky going 🥺 at whatever sashaforsy have (persumably) got going on woe is him its at 5k rn but uh ive stalled progress#because puppyekky has consumed my every thought which leads me to my second wip that ive been labouring over since the start of october#that also just broke 5k and not even remotely done lol whoops but its puppy ekky in a team environment with a heavy emphasis on the euros#rn there are scenes scrabbled out with sasha (multiple) mikksy luosty lundy and forsy. i know i have an idea for bobby.#and really lets see where the muse takes us i have vague ideas that are mmmhmm but we'll see when we get there!#the third one isnt the most likely to get finished but uh it is sashamaffhew global series stuff because it stemmed from#“it really is funny that sasha is treating the finland trip like he knocked up a girl#and is trying to make her meet his parents so it doesnt feel like a shotgun wedding when he you know marries her to take responsibility“#and i just think a maffhew pov with that thought in mind because of the whole touchy at e11even thing is funny to me like think mundane#slice of life oh i feel like im being wined and dined i hope i dont fuck it up jfc i think im fucking it up oh god this feels romantic#anyways it feels remotely ooc to me and it really was more of like a writing break from the wips stated above so (shrugs)#might not see the light of day but its 2k as of now so i do feel its a shame if i dont /try/ to finish it you know? its just low priority#anyways thats my writing check in and i am a prisoner to my own mind i will go insane haha these wont be published anytime soon#because i am slow and get distracted soooo easily so you know <3
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kinda spent the last 2 days in disbelief about how stupid I can be with flirting. ohhh my goddd. it's not even that I'm oblivious it's more like i notice some signs and still convince myself oh they're just being friendly :]. my head is in my hands
#txt#was at a friends hens night and this real cute gal. now stay with me here this sounds so obvious when i type it out#said i was attractive. mentioned she n her gf were in an open relationship. asked if the tongue piercing added to sex. was touchy w me#and somehow i managed to be like oh this seems like flirting but i dont want to assume! maybe shes just open and friendly#im perhaps. stupid.#listen its only properly this year ive had ppl being interested in me. w a couple outliers before then. so im. im not used to it okay#godddddddd. shes real cute too. think shes from outta town tho. waghh
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“you can just take guns to music concerts in the united states” some of these bitches need to never speak again and i’m so serious about that.
#SORRY??#if you think we’re pulling up to harry styles strapped#and you’re using that to back up some asinine argument ur making…every word that comes out of your mouth after that….#is laughable.#i swear to GOD.#no one is asking u 2 know the intricacies of state/federal laws in the usa i promise#but maybe be a little bit more informed before u speak on smth like gun violence like that. just a thought.#sorry but touchy subject!#the place i live in is devastated by the mass proliferation of firearms and ensuing violence#communities and CHILDREN and incalculable loss. and to see that being used for jokes or snarky comments or put downs??? it makes me irate#AND SPREADING INCORRECT INFORMATION TO MAKE THOSE SNARKY COMMENTS AT THAT!#vent post#so sorry im done now
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can't sleep. it's the 'I've now watched three whole entire episodes of twin peaks and a fourth one is starting' can't sleep
#there's a small house in my potential price range that i have my eye on but it IS small so ive been trying to figure out What Would Go Where#doesnt have laundry so ive been looking at combo units. stackable units. i want to be able to do a lot of laundry at once#it's how ive cut down the water bill the last month..........#but they're expensive so is it just better to maybe try and expand the price range to cut down on after purchase expenses?????#NOT THINGS TO THINK AT ONE IN THE MORNING.#I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT MY POTENTIAL PRICE RANGE WILL BE BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT HIGH!!!!!#i dont have to make a decision right now. (clearly. it's one in the morning.) something cute and affordable can occur!!#where i dont have to go 'well if there's no bathroom closet i can put towels in the.....hall..........on a cute shelf......'#also put a new glucose monitor on today and im trying not to sleep on that side (first 24 hours it's touchy as fuck) and#i cant always sleep on the other side :(
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when you discovered that the lore of your favorite game shit on your entire people and an entire region by effectively wipe you out of the map.
and you decided to fuck the lore and write your own lore.
fuck this man. we deserve to exist in this dystopian world too!
#cyberpunk 2077#idk man it just hurts me a lot#maybe im just too touchy today#but it hurts when you know you do not exist canonically anymore#your culture doesnt exist anymore#and you cannot build your character based on your own background and heritage anymore#that fucking sucks#it's not like we have any representation in global media to begin with#and this is usually how we are treated as well#it just really fucking sucks#we are not dispensable#we are proud and thriving people
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Just saw the video and commentary you posted around the poverty cosplaying and I just want to add that there used to be a different place in Arkansas that did a similar thing, sorta. It was through a charity organization that shifted focus so they no longer run the program, but they used to have a "global village" where people would get assigned different regions of the world to live in by lottery with a couple key differences. First, they used actual names of actual countries and provided actual information about the country/culture. Secondly, it wasn't for mission training but instead was meant to be an educational tool to help middle school and high school students to consider how existing in different global and socio-economic circumstances change your decision making etc. and in depth discussion and educational activities were facilitated frequently. I went there as part of an overnight high school trip and while in retrospect the "poverty cosplaying" does give me the ick I still feel like that particular program was informative. Mostly I'm shook that two distinct programs like this exist in AR? I've literally never heard of the Harding one from the video until now and went on a Google deep dive to see if they were connected in some way, but not that I can tell. Anyway, no deep thoughts really, just thought it was super interesting/weird.
There is something in the water over there in Arkansas man lol. I can never learn just some normal fact about AR, it's always something weird.
I totally understand wanting to create more empathy for those who live in poverty, especially in teenagers who are in a really formative years of their lives. And it's one thing to replicate conditions in your immediate area which you are intimately familiar with, but I just can't get on board with play-acting poverty in different areas of the world. I just think about how I'd feel if some religious group in another country tried to replicate my life experience for shock value.
Even replicating the conditions semi-well can't replicate the actual stakes faced by the people they're cosplaying. You can't replicate the stress of a single mother working 2 jobs and supporting 3 kids in a one-room house, you can't replicate the stress of food insecurity and legitimately being worried about when your next meal will be, etc etc. And something about pretending to do them when you can just go back to normal life at any time just feels disrespectful in a way I can't really articulate.
Idk if people get something from it that's great and I do get the thinking behind the one you described at least, I'm mostly still ranting about the first camp lol. I don't have any doubt that some of the people running the camp you went to had good intentions (the other one though I'm really not sure based on the town names) I just have a lot of mixed experience in Christian missionary culture where poverty is treated voyeuristically which is just definitely the vibe I got from the first camp.
#idk my dad grew up really really poor and i live in an area with a lot of poverty and so maybe i'm just overly touchy about it#but so much of the “philanthropic” culture i experienced in Christianity was making an other out of poor people#it's hard for me to really articulate well i feel but it was just this disconnect like we are different. we are the saviors.#we're on a different level. when in reality i mean everyone is an arm's length away from being in a bad situation in the right circumstance#i think the fact that a lot of the missionary work we did too was just classic surface level stuff like putting a bandaid on a gaping wound#kind of stuff that never addresses the root issues of poverty left a bad taste in my mouth for the community too#my church in particular has had this fundraising event every year for 80 years for the same area in africa building infrastructure and its#like....it's been damn near a century. how has this goal not been accomplished yet like where is this money going too??#why have the missionaries in question seemed to make so little progress#idk ok im done lol i havent ranted in the tags in so long
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No max u cannot do a juce mermaid au u cannot do a juce mermaid au u cannot-
#IT WOULD FIT THEIR CHARACTERS#cos like.. a lot of aus just do not fit bruce and Johns characters#BUT LIKE... JOHN AS A MERMAID#EXPLAINS WHY HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND SOCIAL NORMS. WHY HE MIGHT BE OVERLY TOUCHY#COS HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND HUMAN CUSTOMS#AND THEN BRUCE THINKS HES A LITTLE WEIRD BUT HE ALSO FEELS SO RELIEVED#COS HE CAN BE HIMSELF WITH JOHN WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT PAPARAZZI#AND ALSO STUDY A MERMAID ???#do u see the vision... cos i see it#im already working on a fic and i have my exams so i cant write this 😭😭😭#but i want to#max's writing rambles#maybe in the summer i shall write this 💔💔💔
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#tomgreg#THEYR E SO CUTE IM GONNA actually be sick.#i hate so much tom's fuckin. laugh here bc its so high pitched and heS NOT HOLDING BACK. AGAIN.#something something he's his true self around greg something something after years of repression he feels alive again something something#schoolboy tom makes another appearance. he's so playful!!!#AND TOUCHING GREG'S SUIT AGAIN. just like the tie before in fucking UHHH i cant remember the episode. but s2 i think.#he does it really quickly though. like he remembers they're in public and he's gotta stop treating greg like they really are spouses.#and abt the next part don't worry i'm gonna be. talking. about That. but this part gets its own bit bc!!!!!! man#OH AND DONT THINK I DIDNT NOTICE GREG TOUCHING TOM TOO. TOUCHING HIS ARM UNNECESSARILY. they're so touchy here. sigh. sigh.#yet not a hug. just light touches. a hug would be too friendly. if that makes sense? these touches are more. spousal.#like you'd hug your mate at a party right. and sure you might hug a partner or spouse. but idkkk idk it reads more.#just the touchings of the suits. oh you look nice tonight dear. don't wanna spoil your pretty outfit. that'll happen later at home. GODDDDDD#BECAAAAAUSE OF WHAT THEY SAY NEXT!!! THE WHOLE. PROVE IT THING! OH HH GODDHNWEW#my head cracks open. ok okok ig ot ta go i'm going i'm fucking. bye#im so fuckin pressed about the nero sporus thing IF TOM HADNT SAID THAT BULLSHIT I WOULDNT BE THINKING SHIT LIKE THIS#i mean maybe i would BUT I WOULDNT ACTUALLY PUT ANY STOCK IN IT BC HE WOULDNT HAVE SAID IT OUT RIGHT. god. i'm in pain#lord send the plagues. end my suffering
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#delete later#its one of those days where im just convinced everybody actually just hates me#just fuckin despises me#i hate it. good god i hate it. i wanna act like a normal individual#i just wanna talk to people#but man its like my brain finds every damn way to convince me im absolutely despised#man its killin me. i just want to CREATE#i wanna make art! i want it to be good enough for all of you! something worth or lasting!!#but ive abandoned three sketches#nothing is good enough. nothing is going to feel good enough rn#and im touchy. i dont like me when im sensitive#maybe i should just go back to bed n give up on today
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Your hair feels so good around my fingers. Can I touch it forever?
For the few silent moments he had felt that touch on his hair, aside from a strong flinch, Leonard had remained still, calm, and silent as he quite literally widdled away his time with what appeared to be some sort of stake he was making - could it have been for a tent? Some skewer for game? Regardless, the hermit had remained notably tense, yet otherwise unbothered as he continued his simple task. There was a frown on his face, but he didn't speak. He didn't move.
...So it had continued that way for the next few minutes, Leonard continuing his work with a gradual loss of tenseness as the feeling numbed off - The knife in his hand (Certainly not one for the purpose of widdling, but small and handled with enough care that it could have been) continued to snip patiently away as he felt the vague, nonchalant feeling of long locks wrap around the another's fingers. The sound of cutting wood filled the air as he worked, and if he were to be completely honest, even as little as he began to notice it, Leonard had almost begun to feel relaxed in a sense that he truly had nothing to fear...
...At least, until the sound of Popshi's voice had reached his ears.
"....!?"
At this the large shoulders of the hermit jerked upwards with a sudden start at the unexpectedly masculine sound of the other's voice, and immediately, a flustered hand had dropped the small knife he was using to cut the wood and waved blindly to shoo the other back.
"P...Please, that is enough..! What are you doing!?"
It had taken him a moment to find a solid standing in his voice, Leonard crying out with more firm insistence than roughness, though there was no denying his obvious shock that the past few minutes of peace had been spent with an unexpected stranger. Just who was this man? Had his heart been any calmer, Leonard would have otherwise been uncharacteristically bothered that just anyone felt they had a right to that in particular. It was a rare, finnicky spot for the hermit that he cared little for others to lay hand upon for the memories - and guilt - that it had brought him. That this man (Or at least, they sounded like one) had sounded lighter in his tone served little to ease his burden.
He didn't know this man... Did he? Now that the initial shock had passed enough for him to think, that voice did sound rather familiar.
...But whoever it was, it certainly seemed that it was no one the now-startled hermit had expected.
#||Reply||:Popshi#{/it was sent the day before but uh... happy birthday leonard? lmao}#{/but aaaa this isn't written too well and i apologise but thank you so much for the ask!!! i absolutely adored it khbkfbks i was cackling}#{/poor popshi.... its okay he can steal his coat as recompense lmao}#{/let him have his hair!!!!! he wasn't causing any harm :(}#{/.... maybe a LITTLE but thats just cause he was found out kjshffjkh}#{/I may have posted it once before??? im not sure but i DO have a headcanon on why lenny is so touchy about his hair specifically!!!}#{/ill have to post it sometime but in short his brothers (particularly riversal) were obsessed with it and given leonard's issues...}#{/...well}#{/there's that AND the fact that he simply hates having it in his face with how impractical it is lmao}#{/which sucks ass because im just saying.... he would be a fineass guy otherwise *cough*}#{/Ramblings aside; thank you again for the ask!! It's always a pleasure seeing you on the dash~}#{/Remind me to send more stuff in for these two <w<}
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i feel such an incredibly frustriating yearn
#when i went to ecuador everyone was so warm#like strangers to you probably not since its dangerous and crime rates and stuff but the general love and care dynamics are so different#like im super anxious and closed up and im not very touchy nor do i say a lot but it wasnt ALWAYS like this and i thought oh maybe i just#grew up but also maybe i just moved to canada#like yeah canadians are super nice but friendships are so strict and dynamics are so like. idk its different#I mean there's obviously the fact that i havent' met a lot of people and that i am closed off and stuff but at least in my old school in#Ecuador friendships are the same and theres boy/girl friendships and its not romantic and hugs are normal and#ive messed up so many guy friendships because of that like im “oh my god yes new guy friend unlocked” and sudenly ive been sending them#mixed signals all along even tho im like yeah we chillin and ahhhhh#like#if i got shit wasted drunk here id probably get filmed and posted on the gc#but in ecuador i did get terribly drunk and i was with a friend (guy) and it was a pool party#this party i did not KNOW it was a pool party so i got thrown in with jeans and all but i got super drunk and everyone was kinda drunk and#there was a point in which he like sat me down and kept giving me water and like its just that care that#ah in canada it could never#at least not at this age i dont think#not at my school at least lmao#like in everything theres no judgement and theres a general friendship thats really good#god i miss it#but i never really had it#yk#like im gonna talk a little more abt this party k#it was the whole graduating year bc we're seniors and they all knew each other#nobody knew we were getting in the pool but by the time i got there EVERYOEN was in#like in jeans and school uniform and all#and people were like DRAGGING YOU#like it was all laughs and skjfhjkdhjjhkdhjkdfsjkhdsjhkdsfkjdfjkhdfs#like physically throwing you in the pool#obv no harm bc it wasnt deep but like everyone was just#like bridal style and wrestling and there were drinks and music
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maybe i have a fear of abandonment but i think the answer to that might be not having anyone in my life i care about so no one can abandon me
#i knowwww i have trauma specific to this so i might be overreacting but i cant tell i am not living reality rn maybe#but literally since infancy my parents have drilled into my head that i’m unneeded unwanted and unimportant so#maybe im just being touchy. i dont know.#i am thinking about the time when i was like 6-8 somewhere in there#and i tried to come in from playing in the snow and my mom#yelled at me to get out because i got snow on the floor#and i spent a long time huddled against the door to the house freezing and crying and shivering#and when she found me there she was so upset and said she just meant i had to wipe my boots off#and i’m wondering if i’m doing this again.
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Ohh no.
#ignore#clownery ahead#i may be fucked. this concert and this whole trip has like solidified my feelings for my best friend.#like before they were like there and i knew and it was def growing bc of living together and stuff#but i was getting on top of it and being careful and smart about it. ive done it before and everything#but man this whole thing. the way we've interacted#its a level of comfortability we havent really done before.#idfk why maybe bc of like natural progression of friendship idk#i wrapped my arm around her shoulder more today than i probably have in my whole life#we were so touchy at the concert bc yknow we're having fun dancing and singing and stuff. sitting close to each other#but the way my insides go crazy at every touch. whether its her touching my arm with the back of her hand to get my attention and resting#it there for a moment. or the hug we had after the concert that was so fucking strong bc we were both emotional.#i go wild inside im like a fool. all butterflies and warmth and that shit#thats not good to feel about my best friend and roommate 😐 and i know and i gotta work on it and find some solution.#but bro if we keep being this touchy. like if this is just how our friendship is now.#it will be the best and worst thing to happen. because it feels amazing but it will never progress further and god do i want it to#and i gotta stop being jealous abt every dumb guy. its bc of insecurity and i know it. i instantly compare myself in the most painful way#every time she talks abt her crush it hurts so much and i gotta stop myself from thinking those thoughts or lamenting that she will never#talk that way about me or feel that way about me#fuck this is gonna be a rough one#but i am still choosing to not let that tarnish the amazing time i had seeing taylor swift. she was the first artist i ever wanted to see#in concert bc she was like the first artist i ever became a fan of as a lil 6 year old#and i finally got to see her and it was incredible and i wish it had never ended#(and it wouldnt have been as amazing as it was if she hadnt come with me)
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