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Moving Blogs :)

//Alright, some news for everyone!!

//I've finally buckled down and did it: I'm getting back into RP! ^^/🎉 I'm more than excited to be trying my hand at this after so much time spent mulling and waiting. I've wanted this for so long, this spike of motivation and that familiar feeling has felt like coming back to an old home after a long stay away. I've seriously missed and wanted this for so long aaaa :,) //I've decided to start fresh and try with a new blog to mark a new chapter and make a clean slate for myself (Not that there's anything I want to leave behind here! Just the opposite, I adore the interactions had on this blog and everyone I've had the honour of RPing with on it, it sounds overdramatic but getting to cross paths with people like that seriously is a blessing in itself... <3). //So as for this blog goes, I've decided to leave it an archive for now. I don't want to delete it, since I have more than enough sentimental memories of my times here as previously stated, and I'd never want to disrespect and take away the memories of all the people I've met who put their own time and dedication into this blog - or the people who've enjoyed it!

//As for the last couple of asks here that I have saved in my drafts (? I know I have at least one that's half-finished that I'd like to get to?), I don't know if I'll reply to them here or bring them to my new blog. I think I'll reply to them here, and then close asks for the forseeable future. //Moving on, I'd like to use this as a chance to start connections with everyone who followed me during my hiatus that I've been unable to reach out to because of it. I've been lurking and the muses and talent I've seen is genuinely really amazing.... 👀

//That said, whether you're new here or an old friend, always feel free to reach out on my new blog! It has the same username as last, I'll be excited to see you all there!!

// @blindedguilt

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Drakengard Cut Content Found - Leonard's intro scene

//So not too long ago, some cut Drakengard content was found and posted to the Drakengard subreddit by u/drakengarded (Their profile is linked under their user), it was a short cut clip from Leonard's intro scene! I immediately knew I had to share it with everyone here, so I asked them and they gave me permission to share the clip they made! They said they might be able to get back to me with a better clip, but as I see it, this is perfect as it is.

//In the original, when Leonard brings the knife up to his throat, the screen quickly cuts back to him collapsing to his hands and knees, unable to take his own life. But in the cut version, the tip of the knife is seen barely entering his throat before he falls, providing a clearer look into just how close he was before caving into his fear of death!! The aspect ratio is slightly changed to show the difference of the original scene from the cut content.

//Waaaaaa I'm really thankful to u/Drakengarded for sharing this huge discovery!! If anything, thankful wouldn't even begin to describe how I feel <3 I've been watching this nonstop, and have picked work back up on several projects specifically because of the inspiration this has given me!! I hope everyone else has found it as interesting as I have, and thanks so much to u/Drakengarded again for allowing me to share this with everyone here!! I'm so happy <3

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//Happy New Years all!! //Not much to share now either though I do have some small Leonard-related news I've picked up!! As for THIS Leonard, I'm hoping to slowly get back into RP through Discord but my muse is CERTAINLY back and I'm eager to start on something new!! Thanks so much for the support this year and not to jinx it, but I hope this will be the year I finally dive right back to the productivity I had back in 2021. I've got a lot of projects planned and while it can't be said for the future, I've got this feeling I'm just about ready to come back to my boy!! //Again, happy new years everyone, and thank you dearly to everyone I've had the pleasure to meet, the relationships I've made and those I've lost. I can't wait to see who I'll come to meet this coming year!!

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//Hey! Wanted to poke in and say Merry Christmas to everyone!! I hope it's a lot of fun. And if you don't have anyone to spend it with, please feel free to stop in and spend it with me!! As for this blog, I don't have any news to share right now. Hopefully I will in the coming months, though :) Let's see if we can make this last stretch into 2025 together!!

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Are you still working on Onaplus? We need leonard visual novel

//Funny you should ask this anon, I AM still working on Onaplus, so don't you worry!! us leonard fans will feast soon....... It's part of the reason i haven't been back to give many updates (I do have some news to share here!!! But I want to get everything around before I do), and I actually am just about halfway through the 3rd Chapter right now! :) I do sometimes post out-of-context references on my alt, though it's less to do with progress and more of me just kinda chuckling to myself as I go along... (So if you want to go in completely blind, which I recommend, I don't advise going to check it out!!)

//So far, I have the entire S-Route translated, and am about halfway through the N-Route, with the rest of Chapter 3, all of Chapter 4 (Which now that I think about it, I might be faced with a few challenges getting the proper characterization of Leonard done in that particular chapter.... *cough ;)*) and the endings for that route left to do. There's additionally a question I have about ONE of the endings, so I'll have to see about that before getting anything set in stone!

//Ohhhhh and one ending in particular i am REALLY looking forward to doing (I will say it: IT IS N-ROUTE SPECIFIC, I HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY RECOMMEND SAVING IT FOR LAST BECAUSE OOUUAUAAGAGAGHHHHH i kid you not i was like "Neat! <3 this is so fun and cool for me, a liker of Leonard Drakengard, 10/10 lol hahahah" for 99% of the VN UNTIL THAT ENDING WHICH HAD ME SPRAWLED OUT ON THE FLOOR WALKING AIMLESS LITTLE CIRCLES AROUND MY ROOM AND I STILL THINK ABOUT IT ON A DAILY BASIS IM NOT OKAY THAT ENDING REALLY MAKES IT GO FROM A SOLID 10/10 TO A 1000/10 WHICH I THOUGHT I ALREADY GAVE IT BUT I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT TILL IT HIT OUGHHHHH ITS SO FUCKING GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!)

//That said, it's really up to the author whether or not this gets a patch at all, so even if I finish, I don't wanna set your expectations too high for nothing 😭 It will still be available, just a bit blockier to read (You'll have to read the document to the side of the window, which isn't BAD but definitely a bit clunky lol)

//And additionally (perhaps most importantly), as per request of the author the release will unfortunately be extremely limited to a few people I know so as not to cause any issues with copyright. :( As much as I'd like to make it public, it's for the best, though assuming you're not someone I have on my list anon, I bet you could probably buy a copy off Booth and see about getting the (*Theoretical, TBD) English patch through there!!! ;0 Shipping costs and everything will make it a bit expensive (iirc the whole thing ended up being about $20 USD for me? Which isn't AWFUL by itself but insane given the game itself is like $3 USD), and shipping is a LONG wait (For me it was about a month through Buyee), but looking at it one way, it is considerably cheaper than some of the other imported DOD content that exists...

//Anyways, thanks so much for the ask!!! I always leap at the opportunity to yap about this game so I was thrilled to have received this QwQ♥️ I'll keep working hard!!! I've gotten a huge motivation boost thanks to this aaaa <3

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//So, I just found out Accord's Library is finally getting shut down.

//Okay so oiginally I was considering talking about this on my alt but given this is the account most frequently associated with my translation work: I actually am crying a bit right now. It's finally over. A bit of a personal rant ahead, but I hope you don't mind a small statement about it that also sort of serves as a double-explanation to this account's complete drop of activity since about mid-2022 (If I remember right). //There's no easy context to put it in, but for just about two years now I've been struggling to get my translations (1.3, Magnitude Negative, DOD1 & 2 Retrospectives + Interviews, Shinjuku Roundtable) off that site and even despite my requests, reaching out to the site's owner, they've still stayed up against my will for these past 2 years. Because of the actions of one admin, I ended up having to delete my old translation blog on Tumblr due to repeated harrassment, lost someone very dear to me, and ended up having to step away from the translation scene as a whole. //For the LONGEST time, I was EXTREMELY paranoid of having my works kept up so publicly to where I could be easily found and face more threats, accusations of being a child predator, and general harassment among other countless things. I just wanted to keep my works to myself for even a few months, just to lie low and come back when the dust had settled. That, and given the completely soul-shattering guilt I had felt over my friend who had ended up leaving their account entirely following a baseless callout one admin issued slewing VERY serious allegations towards them with an extremely ableist basis, I cannot tell you just how many nights I've just completely broken down into complete hysterics out of the blue, the random bouts of paranoia and guilt and all the friendships I completely destroyed as a result of my own disgust at myself and how completely stupid and worthless I felt having ever put my trust into them - or that anyone could ever put their trust in me - to begin with. I have no idea how or even if I should begin reaching out to some of the people I've hurt because of this as recent in the past few months, and hopefully this closure will be the start of me making these decisions with a clean slate and rational mind to finally address things the way they deserve to be addressed. I wish I could put into words just how bad it's been on my mental health these past couple years in regard to my own complicity in that situation and the regret I felt at so many things leading up to it. If only I hadn't spoken to this one person, if only I hadn't said this, if I hadn't done this, ALL this could have been avoided.

//I REALLY don't say this lightly, but joining Accord's Library had completely destroyed me. It was the worst experience I've ever had in this fanbase, and save a few who I know tried their best, its staff are among the most rude, immature pricks I've ever met, I really don't know how else to say it. I wish I never met them. I wish I never joined that damn site and I wish I just wasn't so naive at the time I could have actually thought things through instead of dealing with all this for the past two years. It had completely destroyed my will or motivation to do anything in regards to translation, roleplay, and at one point came close to destroying my passion for Drakenier as a whole. Admittedly, translating anything with Leonard is difficult even now because of the promise I had made with that friend to translate everything related to him, find out everything there is to know and how being unable to share that passion with them any longer makes it sort of... Meaningless? They were so incredibly talented and intelligent and passionate even for the short time we knew each other, and I wish I could have told them that and how much I wished my translations were half as good as theirs. This especially applies to the translation of Magnitude Negative, which I intended to share with them the day of its release. //I would give ANYTHING to apologise to them even now, if only just for them to know I'm sorry. Deleting my works off Accord's Library, the site that completely forced them off their account entirely, was the only way I form of apology I felt I was possible of giving after I completely lost contact following the callouts that I assume had lead to them completely diminishing their online presence to begin with. There literally hasn't been a day since my request to take them off was denied that I've tried sorting other viable options of taking them off out through my head, both as a way of doing justice to them and myself. I had considered everything, from simple repeated appeals to the downright shoddy. I just wanted my works off. //All that to say, from the lens of media preservation, it is a tragedy and I don't blame anyone who feels sad or upset over it. Half of the reason I've stayed so quiet is because of AL's popularity as a site and its mission being genuinely respectable. My anger had never been directed towards it as a site, just the people running it. So I hope people can also understand why the destruction of AL is such a moment of relief and joy for me, personally!!! //On one hand, I do feel slightly upset that there wasn't more I could have done myself to work towards getting my works off, I hope if they haven't already moved a long ways on from this that this will give them some closure as much as it's given me. I hope even if they don't know it, that they can accept it as a genuine apology from me for how deeply I had hurt them in my own complicity if the day doesn't come where I might get the opportunity to find and apologise to them personally. //I hope in the future, that maybe I can return to doing proper translation work and repairing all the damage I've caused myself and others because of this. I've been saying it for a while, but this time I can say it full-heartedly: Maybe I'll even be able to immerse myself fully into RP again!! //Finally, it's over. This is all I've ever wanted.

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//I never noticed this before!!! Been playing Drakengard tonight and while I've been toying around, I noticed a little detail with Leonard — While running (His default control) he stares straight ahead like the other characters, but while walking (Done by SLOWLY, just BARELY moving the joystick forward) he seems to tilt his head towards his weapon, which similar to all spears/polearms, is held straight ahead of him. I played around with it and will have to check the other allies ofc but after playing around a bit it doesn't seem like something Caim does 👀 at least not to the same extent/angle??? I'm unsure if I see his head tilt the same way but could DEFINITELY see it with Leonard lol

//sorry for the poor quality, here are a few other pictures I snapped of him walking for,, reference, maybe? Though they're slightly poor lol

//I've always wondered about Tower's Rebuke and it's practicality as a tool instead of a weapon. It always seemed odd for Leonard to have it with him, being as pacifistic and anti-war as he is... While a self-defense weapon I could understand, Tower's Rebuke in general is just a BIZARRE little half-whip-half-spear THING unlike anything else in the game (Hell, even the series for that matter lmao), and the question of how he even got his hands on it still sits there in itself, but...

//For a long time I could definitely see it's use — It's easily portable when coiled into it's whip form (My guess is that it may even be carried by that large sack on Leonard's hip), and seems to be made of a really sturdy kinda metal? I'm no expert so I won't even start lol, but it kinda reminds me of cast iron in a way that makes me think of it's uses for carrying and holding larger game (Like deer) and possibly even being used as a proper spit to roast it! I honestly question how it's even supposed to work as a spear because while it does make sense as a whip, from what I remember in the reference materials the front edge isn't pointed at ALL and is instead a kind of blunt square-shaped thing which seems... Counter-productive? Or at least extraordinarily brutal with the thought of ripping actual holes through people...

//All that's to say I always wondered and had a small headcanon that Leonard might have used it as a sort of "cane" to feel around and cover where even his heightened senses couldn't. I wonder if that little detail seems to confirm it... :0

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//A bit late, but happy belated Drakengard day!!! There's not much I can share, but re: my last post I am making progress towards getting things figured out! Hopefully lol I can't really speak with any certainty yet... That said, I'm also making progress towards returning to RP; I can't speak for this blog, but I can say I've started working (albeit slowly!) on a little RP server for DOD1, I miss my little hermit more and more everyday... I'm considering adding 1.3 and/or even 2, but time will tell. It's still a pretty large project, so I have no idea how long it will come about, but if anyone would like any updates or is interested in joining in the future or so, just let me know! If anything can be said, it's that this WILL be coming through, no matter what. <3

//Happy 21st anniversary, Drakengard. ♥️

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do you happen to have the rest of the translated original drakengard script? sorry, wasn't sure where else to message about this

//Hi, no worries! For future reference I'd recommemd going over to my personal blog for any TL inquiries (As awfully ironic as it is, I'd prefer not to link it directly here for privacy, but you should know it when you see it ;) ), since I usually just come back to this on whims to try and answer the one other ask that's been sitting in my inbox for ages now (If the anon who sent that thing about the pact partners sees this, I'm so sorry. I haven't forgotten you, I swear :')) but you're all good! I'm honestly surprised anyone's even managed to find me here, good work!! Please don't be mean lol

//But to answer your question, unfortunately not. If I remember correctly, I have Leonard's Hunger/Regret, Arioch's Madness and Ending E fully translated, but the other chapters only partially so or not at all... I had attempted to come back with it very briefly a while ago, but never got very far beyond the latter two chapters due to some drama with Accord's Library that still hasn't been resolved. It's for that reason and on a much smaller scale, others pertaining to the overall fanbase that I've been a bit hesitant to return to translation and older/discontinued projects in general.

//If you have any questions, I might be able to do a bit of research and give you whatever answers you might be looking for! But unfortunately, as long as my works remain posted up on AL I don't think I can muster up enough courage or motivation to step back out into translation again, as much as I'd like to... :(

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//I'll be honest, I've been missing Leonard a heartful lately... Not that this is any official declaration I'm returning to RPing him (At this point, I'm hardly even sure if I can write him correctly anymore) but I wanted to say, it's been on my mind so much more these days, and even if the energy isn't there, I've been missing y'all and this silly little man sorely lately </3 that's all to say I hope this is a sign I WILL be able to get myself to come back soon, but for now, I'll keep myself brooding in my little corner <3 Take care of yourselves!!

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//UPDATE TO THIS!!!! //I just finished playing (not translating, I'll start on that soon enough) the VN. ill never, never recover from this.

//genuinely, have you ever played a game that makes you want to stay alive and keep living

Omg there's gonna be a Leonard visual novel? Ahhh please link this id love to support it!

Also you have an alt account with Leonard art 👀👀👀👀

//No idea if that bit at the end is a solid "i know what you are" or a "this you?" bit but just in case, i do!! i will refrain from posting it here (For privacy, though when you find it you should be able to clock it like "THIS IS THE BITCH" immediately anyways lol) if you would like it i can give it to you through DMs (unfortunately tumblr doesnt allow private answering to anon asks :( if i could i would...) but please dont feel pressured at all to come out!!! i enjoy chatting with you, anon *pats*

//But to answer your question, yes!! Technically it's already out though its currently only available in Japanese. I will say I have spoken with the writer though, and I'm very happy to say they've expressed interest in helping me make an English patch :3<! Once I'm done with playing the game for myself (I'm about halfway at the moment, I think? ;0) I'll hopefully start work. I've been playing with a friend and already have a few scenes (roughly, more or less) translated.

//Anyways, I'll put the links to both the trial and full version at the end of the post so they're easier to find vs. just sandwiching between my rambles about the VN!! because BOY is it good, this was made for leonard fans BY leonard fans and its SHOWS AAAAAAAAAA

//More under the cut~ (I'll be rambling about this for a w h i l e)

So the game is called Onaplus, and lemme just post my TL of its official Booth description for you before i try summing it up myself:

Play Time: About 5 hours Routes: 2 Endings: 4~5 Stills: None This is a visual novel game where you can - or can not - enjoy a "Psuedo-Romance" with various versions of Leonard from before he formed his pact, DOD1, DOD2, and LoV. The game is mostly linear; only a few choices on your path outside of the 4~5 different endings. You are the protagonist, a woman who travels through four different "Times" with Seere at your side. You can enjoy the story as it's nature changes between two vastly different routes; choose to spend a sweet and heartfelt time with Leonard, or take part in a good measure of slapstick comedy instead. Includes a number headcanoned details, otakuisms, and out-of-character gags. A game for those who believe no man is beyond forgiveness...

That's pretty much it!! I dunno how much I'll spoil by saying it, but it was NOT KIDDING when it said the main two routes (The more serious N-Route, standing for "Not Shotacon Route" and the gag S-Route, standing for "Shotacon Jerking Off in the Backwoods Route") were different.

I'll keep what I know limited, but I've completely finished the S-Route (much to my dismay, IT WAS SO GOOODDDD I DIDNT WANT IT TO END) and have JUST started the N-Route, so I'm looking forward to what's in store!! I dunno what the "5" stands for though in five endings, unless the N-Route has one I'm unaware of... 👀 but a quick breakdown

Where the N-Route is a very genuine, heartfelt ""Love letter"" to Leonard from his fans being like "We care about you!!! youre such a lovable guy!!!! please take care of yourself!!!!" and essentially plays as an "I can fix him" game, the gag "S-Route" ramps Leonard's "Shotaconness" up to an ABSURD degree to the point one or two scenes were complete "had me completely red in the face, unable to look at the screen"-level wreckage. one scene in particular around the DOD2 mark also made my heart DROP but im not saying what happened or what it is :)))) S-Route Ending A was also extremely difficult to TL because i had to search a few things up and do........ research............ to find suitable english-audience alternatives. it had me GAGGED ngl, but i would never do it again........... i'm turning red just thinking about it now dsjfhkshvwkslahsdfhj (the endings are so good though, and there was ANOTHER thing in Ending A that had me "!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!" but that's another story.)

I've only finished the endings of the S-Route right now, but some of them were surprisingly (And welcomingly so!) heartfelt for what was 96% a gag route :0!

AND THEN THE PROTAGONISTSSSSSS okay so i was NOT expecting a little "heehee, we made leonard psuedo-dating sim" VN TO HAVE PROTAGONISTS THAT ARE LITERALLY LIKE A HYPERFIXATION FOR ME RIGHT NOW????? trust me when i say these are NOT typical "blank-slate-self-insert" protags their characterisation is so strong and entertaining i was HEARTBROKEN finishing the s-route because it meant saying goodbye to its protagonist more than anything, i literally have made ship fanart of them together i ADORE them so much and i need them in my life...... lately ive thinking about hdcing names for them i love them....

N-MC is so SWEEEEEEEETTT she's a lot more "Expectable" for a "Romantic" visual novel (At least for now... who knows, she might be hiding a dark secret of some kind though im like... more than half sure she's innocent? RIGHT????) and is just a little sweetheart whose dedicated her life to helping others as her parents always wished!!!! she has a ✨tragic anime backstory✨ and for leonard fans is THE embodiment of looking at this sad sack of shit and being like "Oh my god, he's so miserable, i just want him to be happy :((( i can fix him......." her relationship with seere is so SWEETTTT too it makes me melt, she's the one he NEEDS and im just aakshskhsdkvhsdkfh...... though honestly even if its 9/10 unintentional listening to the way she talks about seere sometimes has me like "hmmMMMMMM..... perhaps youre more of a shotacon than s-mc........" ("ara ara, seere-kun~" has become my new tagline for her, i admit..... you seem a bit too taken with him buddy...)

BUT THEN S-MC, I ADORE HERRRRRRRR me and a bud have been playing it together and their design for her has become like the unofficial one i literally use/WILL use no other for my own doodles and that is a FACT. how do i explain her... the game calls her "Caim-like", basically, but that's not enough. you see, S-MC is an over-exploited, sleep-deprived, brash, violent, porn-addicted shotacon (+possible femcel) otaku who's main goal in life is to find a decent person to get married to and whose only reason for living is to keep indulging in her PG (and not PG) fiction. she's more than eager to beat the shit out of anyone at the first opportunity (which she does) and wax poetic about her favourite games (which she does) and UNLIKE """N-MC oneesan""" and their (Unintentional) far-too-friendly comments towards seere S-MC spends makes it her GOAL to ensure nothing happens to the kid despite her annoyance with him, who is far too innocent for his own good dsfkvjhsfdkhvsdfj

The VN is written by the very talented Pixiv fanfic writer Kyon, whose works I would VERY much recommend checking out if you can read Japanese and are a fan of Leonard (They are my GO-TO for Leonard content, just talking with them was such an honour i was like "uUUWAUAaaaAUUGHhhHHhgaaghgH" they do his characterisation so good and they understand the tragedy and facets of what makes him compelling so well and im just UGHHHHHHH THEYRE SO GOOD ANON YOU ARE IN GOOD HANDS WITH THEM WRITING THIS, CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH!!!!!)

Interestingly enough, they did write a whole fucking novel on Leonard's past and life leading up Ending D and do reference part of that in this VN!! Albeit not heavily, though reading the preview on Pixiv I saw it was like "AYYYYYE" so I would recommend it if you can read it ;0 i hope to buy the full thing soon....

Also, I was actually skeptical of this going into it but Kyon is SO good with their writing they did write a Faerie x Leonard Modern AU smut fic I'm now also hoping to get the full version of well... do you know how good something has to be for me not ONLY to spend money on it, but to go from SKEPTICAL "this isn't my thing and i dunno why i'm even reading it" to "I need to read the rest of this NOW GET HIS ASS" i truly marvel at their talent and im so happy at the chance to work with them im.............

The illustrations were done by the also VERY popular Suiden, who you might recognise if you spend any time on Leonard's Pixiv tag in general!!! I admit, I kind of expected more as far as the quality of their contributions to the VN were concerned, but honestly, the character sprites are so charming in their own little VN way (Leonard's DOD2 sprite i ADORE) and i was so excited to see both recognisable artists i adore in there, I don't really have any major complaints so far outside the fact i sincerely wish there was a 1.3 leonard....... ONAPLUS 2 LETS MAKE IT HAPPEN‼️💥👏👏

Oh, and I also learned a LOT about LoV and its system through this game (and how much injustice they did leonard in the sequel, jesus fuck...) which was apparently all thanks to Haruoka's help advising everyone on the LoV bits (Though whether that stands for just gameplay or actual lore, i have no idea.... yet)!! You may also recognise some of the nice Leonard art they have on their Pixiv if you've dug through the tag as deep as I have lmao

it could happen

... Anyways, that SHOULD be enough rambling from me!! If you have anymore questions, do lemme know because this VN is my LIFE right now all I can ever think about is playing it and I'm literally going to be so sad when it's time to put it up......

If you think you'd like to check it out for yourself, please do check out the trial version!! You can get it free on Kyon's Booth and I think you SHOULD be able to just G-Translate your way through the N-Route with minimal confusion just based off of how clear I remember it, and the S-Route should be roughly understandable as well but uses a LOT more slang and "catechisms" with its spelling than N-Route, so you might have a couple more difficulties translating it if you use a machine.

The full version is a psychical disc copy that sells for 500 JPY (3.24 USD/3.05 EUR, i believe) and you CAN buy it through a proxy site like Buyee like I did!! Ofc that will include packing and shipping costs, so you might actually expect it to come up to around 20 USD as it did for me :,) perhaps the real pain though comes in how long you have to wait for it to actually arrive (just under a month for me)

But if you're a Leonard fan? Speaking as the self-proclaimed head of the church of ona, it is so worth it. ive never been so utterly enamoured and in love with a game, its kinda starting to concern me...

Either way!! It will still be a while till an English patch comes out since I've been very busy with work and unable to play it :(

I recommend you try it for yourself!!!

And please do refrain from posting screenshots of the game if you decide to play it (at request of the creators), you can quote it but if it's on a public platform like Tumblr or Twitter or anywhere outside of DMs, please no screenshots!!

Here's a link to the trial version (Free)

And if you like that enough...

Here's the full version!! (500 JPY)

...If you can, please give this your full support!! I very much don't think you'll be disappointed, especially as a Leonard fan~

As far as the English patch goes, I dunno how much I should share out of respect for the creators at the time other than

i plan to start working on it

But I am DETERMINED to finish this translation, i dunno how it might even be spread (Whether it will just stay a small-scale thing spread through the wings of tumblr dms or also posted on the authors booth) but either way!!!

This will be my first time working on a videogame, and if I'm allowed to say this in confidence, I'm 100% certain this will be my best translation yet. :3 perhaps better than even magnitude negative, im REALLY liking the way this is looking right now, even by the rough drafts.... i really only give my all for leonard i've realised, but that's not an issue for me <3

Anyways, anon, if you ever play it please do send some thoughts about it if you're willing (To either blog~)!!! and any questions, please ask!!! i'm so excited to see more people talking about this, thank you anon!!!!

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do you think leonard and 1.3 leonard would get along

//I JUST SAW THIS AND???? THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I'VE WONDERED ABOUT THIS THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME AN EXCUSE TO TALK ABOUT IT PLEASE BUCKLE IN BECAUSE???? OUGHHHH........

//To start off, I think DOD1 Leonard would be a neat(?) reflective novelty in the eyes of 1.3 - a look into what he could have been if things had gone only slightly differently, and maybe on some level, still kinda exists inside him. I think he'd feel a bit half-relatable, half-sympathetic type of pity for DOD1 Leonard, and 1.3 would get along with him just fine!! Maybe he can lend him some of his own wisdom to help him on his journey. :-) //...But as for DOD1 Leonard, I'll be honest: I don't think he would be as buddy-buddy as 1.3 is with him. I think he would at first be mildly put off/kinda???? ????? about 1.3? Because there he is, this seemingly NORMAL version of himself and he's faced with the uncanny sight of being a silly pathetic little forest hermit to himself, not just running a village but being one of the only sources of hope in said village with such a character gap it's like "he's fine???? I'M FINE????? what happened???? what changed what is this" //and when he finds out he STILL has the paedophilia, his brothers are STILL dead everything goes from "weird clone im sure is nice and am trying not to judge but am very confused by" to a more shaken, discomforted, upset sort of put-off because i think the thought of meeting a version of himself just... not caring or not seeming to feel a need to suffer and is comfortable just moving past that grief like nothing (at least outwardly) for these VERY wrong things he's internalised as his own fault and responsibility (even across times!!! no version of himself is allowed to step out of line! ESPECIALLY no version of himself!!!!!) //(particularly given that leonard's guilt and misery is the one thing he really has of himself, both in the sense he's formed his entire person around it and it is, in a way, the only thing he has left of his past, just in general i feel that he would be a bit uncomfortable seeing a glimpse of what he is without what makes him, in his eyes, him) //but would leonard actually act on any of his distaste for the "how can you be okay with this and just let that slide?" leonard? nah. //not if he doesn't find out just how many standards 1.3 has tossed aside. //it goes without saying that dod1 leonard isn't a very confrontational, much less violent person, though im VERY happy to state that i very much believe we might see a once-in-a-lifetime exception to that rule if he were to find out about the hijinks his other self were up to! DO YOU KNOW HOW BAD YOUVE GOTTA PUSH LEONARD FOR HIM TO WILLINGLY COMMIT VIOLENCE? //If DOD1 were to ever find out that he had become his own worst fear of an active predator in another life, I think it would be enough to just break something in him emotionally, and i doubt he could just let it slide. it begs the question....

//who do you think would win? drakengard 1.3 leonard, assumedly fucked up on dragon's blood and capable of crushing bones with his fists or a dod1 leonard who's decided to put down the pacificism for a moment of pure vitriol-induced murderous rage?

//it's a lot easier to kill others than it is yourself, after all.

[blindedguilt-archived]

//It's a thought that's been on my mind for what I'm sure may be teetering on a good while now given Tumbler's worsening state and I can't say I CAVED, but on a whim I took a step or two and am curious enough to ask around:

//For both OCs and canon characters, of course. Granted, there's a LOT that would have to be figured out before anything budges, as I highly doubt I could manage it by myself (and finding others who would be interested in modding would be a CHALLENGE), but the thought's been just prominent enough that I figured it would be worth it to gauge interest just to see how viable it might be.

//For anyone willing, do feel free to share this to spread the reach and get more opinions for a better "feel"! Thank you all very much, I hope some understanding will be able to come out from this poll. :)

//Either way, any honest answers are appreciated and feel free to ask or DM if there's any questions or other thoughts!!

[blindedguilt-archived]

//It's a thought that's been on my mind for what I'm sure may be teetering on a good while now given Tumbler's worsening state and I can't say I CAVED, but on a whim I took a step or two and am curious enough to ask around:

//For both OCs and canon characters, of course. Granted, there's a LOT that would have to be figured out before anything budges, as I highly doubt I could manage it by myself (and finding others who would be interested in modding would be a CHALLENGE), but the thought's been just prominent enough that I figured it would be worth it to gauge interest just to see how viable it might be.

//For anyone willing, do feel free to share this to spread the reach and get more opinions for a better "feel"! Thank you all very much, I hope some understanding will be able to come out from this poll. :)

//Either way, any honest answers are appreciated and feel free to ask or DM if there's any questions or other thoughts!!

[blindedguilt-archived]

//It's a thought that's been on my mind for what I'm sure may be teetering on a good while now given Tumbler's worsening state and I can't say I CAVED, but on a whim I took a step or two and am curious enough to ask around:

//For both OCs and canon characters, of course. Granted, there's a LOT that would have to be figured out before anything budges, as I highly doubt I could manage it by myself (and finding others who would be interested in modding would be a CHALLENGE), but the thought's been just prominent enough that I figured it would be worth it to gauge interest just to see how viable it might be.

//For anyone willing, do feel free to share this to spread the reach and get more opinions for a better "feel"! Thank you all very much, I hope some understanding will be able to come out from this poll. :)

//Either way, any honest answers are appreciated and feel free to ask or DM if there's any questions or other thoughts!!

[blindedguilt-archived]

//Was thinking about posting this on my alt, but since I figure I've spoken about this frequently enough on this blog and it's THE dedicated Leonard Space™️... //I'm throwing up and crying thinking about how leonard had never gotten to experience romantic or sexual attraction (or will ever GET to experience those things, unrequited or not) without complete dread and self-blame and guilt and how that must have been growing up with the hope and expectations of "Being in love must be so nice, I hope I'll be able feel that one day" and not ONLY having that hope gradually dwindle as he grew into the "expected marriageable age" watching those around him go on with their lives and attain those things in a way that seems so natural but is so foreign to him and the absolute sadness of the point the notion of "attraction" and "falling in love" turned to complete and abject horror and disgust when he realises that this is what his mind has decided is "Normal" for him, and all possibilities and aspirations he may have had of a child, teen, young adult, etc. up to that point of even the bare minimum is now a complete impossibility. //how it fully sets in he'll never experience love. never find his own family or someone to be interested in and care about in such a way or even feel attraction without that weight attached.... like idc, actual relationships are one thing but if ANYTHING you should at least be able to know the joy of falling in love if even for a SECOND without any strings (Disgust, guilt, self-hate, etc.) attached!!!! guys!!!!!!! //HE'S WAY TOO KIND AND GENTLE AND HANDSOME AND CARING AND HUMBLE AND A GENTLEMAN AND HANDSOME AND HIS VOICE IS WAY TOO SEXY FOR THIS SHIT, HE DOESN'T DESERVE THIS!!!!! LET HIM LOVE!!!!!!! HE'S SHOWN TO HAVE SO MUCH TO GIVE IN SO MANY DIFFERENT WAYS (Parental, familial, just being an empathetic person towards his "enemies" in general) AND YET HE DIES HAVING NEVER KNOWN IT...... WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO HIM........... ouuugughhh.........