#ive messed up so many guy friendships because of that like im “oh my god yes new guy friend unlocked” and sudenly ive been sending them

[woahajimes]

i feel such an incredibly frustriating yearn

[taliskermortem]

okay on to episode 9

again under the cut so as not to bore you all

MINSEONG AND HYEONGJOON DATE:

the cuddling. its back. i’m still not over it.

minseong not impressed he’s been abandoned

oh my god. he made a list. i’m in love with him.

hyeongjoon’s driving terrifies me and minseong willingly got back in the car with him behind the wheel that’s some serious bravery

ah my hyeongjoon he’s so shy and awkward

why are they the only ones doing a proper activity

also they did not wear warm enough coats for this… oh never mind they did bring better coats thank god

why is hyeongjoon like this, he’s such a mess and its adorable… at least its an excuse to hold hands i guess

HOT PACKS AS A LANGUAGE OF LOVE I GUESS

(side not again… okay i never used to understand why so many koreans hate cucumber because where im from its really not that strong of a taste but that was before i had a korean cumcumber and now i undersand completely i don’t know whats wrong with them )

COUPLE RINGS I'M DEAD MINSEONG-AH WHY ARE YOU SO CUTE THEY’RE HIDEOUS

i’ve just ealised this is minseong’s first proper date bless him (no that one with junseong did not count that was just friends hanging out)

also how does hyeongjoon make those slits in his eyebrow disappear so thoroughly

ah communication. we love it.

they’re so cute together

JEONGWOOK AND HYEONGJIN DATE:

aah jeongwook i wish you weren’t so hung up on yoonghee

glad he’s enjoying himself though and he seems more relaxed with hyeongjin than i expected

oh my god imagine if hyeongjin didn’t like dogs this would have been a disaster

i too would focus on the dog and not the date can’t really blame you for that one

no no if he’s going to serenade i’m out of here i can’t deal with that i’m sorry even if you have the best voice in the world i cant hack it

WHY A CHRISTMAS SONG WHAT IS GOING ON GET ME OUT OF HERE

okay i’m sure he has a lovely voice but i think i died of embarrassment hyeongjin you truly are stronger man than me

okay it’s nice that jeongwook is opening up and showing more of himself but this is not really feeling like a date at all and if i were hyeongjin i would feel so incredible awkward right now

ah jeongwook don’t cry noooo this poor guy, he seems to really be struggling i hope he’s okay

THE EVENING:

not the dates coming home in order of how successful they were (from least to most in my personal opinion)

minseong following hyeongjoon to his room even though they’ve spent all day together already

JUNSEONG AND SEONGHO FIRST TO LEAVE LAST TO RETURN TAKE FROM THAT WHAT YOU WILL

yoonghee and junseong’s friendship is important to me okay

seonwoo literally could not answer a question directly even if his life depended on it

oh wow he’s really just going to sit there and stare at junseong and seongho in the kitchen what the hell dude

wow this isn’t awkward at all what are you trying to achieve here other than making everyone uncomfortable

let’s be honest the real final couple from this show is hyeongjoon and food

they talked for SEVEN HOURS HAHAHA I’M FINE (also still sitting together at the table it’s the little things okay)

AH I'M WEAK – hyeongjin wanting to talk to junseong and junseong taking seongho with him with that soft arm on his shoulders yes hi ive died had to rewind like five times to catch what they were saying because i was too distracted watching them… oh my god seongho’s ‘im going with you’ look im totally fine

GREY SPORTSWEAR FAMILY

seongho abandoning them to all the dishes he created just to hang out with junseong some more

okay im glad they had the same reaction as me to taking him to his house

THE HEAD ON THE LAP/SHIN SEONGHO PLEASE

“a very personal song” it was a christmas song bro

sensible seongho – go talk to jeongwook not them

poor jeongwook i feel like he’s been totally confused this whole day and to be honest i cant blame him there was a much simpler and susinct way for hyeongjin to get his point across without sounding kind of like an asshole and hurting people’s feelings

hyeongjin, my dude, stop. he get’s it, you misunderstood. let’s just let it rest and say you had a good time but you don’t have feelings

i understand hyeongjin not wanting there to be a misunderstanding but also jeongwook is right why he’s saying it like this is weird and hurtful

right i knew this conversation was going to go down the toilet but i didn’t think it would be this bad

unnecessary drama is all im saying

VOICEMAIL AND PHONE CALL TIME:

ha seonwoo no message from seongho or yoonghee this is what happens when you act the nice guy and have no follow through

seonwoo to seongho – awkward phone call and the first thing he brings up is seongho’s date with junseong this guy is a joke he literally said the other day they should just focus on each other not on junseong but he cannot let it go

two messages for junseong i’m living for this he deserves it

his face when he heard yoonghee that was priceless oh my god he’s so sweet and yeah i just love their friendship

love the silent pause before the second message like junseong and literally everyone else is holding their breath in anticipation

JUNSEONG-AH DID YOU WAIT LONG I'M SOBBING

also i’m pretty sure junseong has his eyes closed like he can’t quite believe it

AND THE PREVIEW:

look i don’t really want to talk about this i’ve been mad about it all day and will be for the next week

but also

from the voice mails we now know:

junseong – seongho

seongho – junseong

yoonghee – junseong

seonwoo – seongho

hyeongjin – seonwoo

minseong – hyeongjin

so the only one we don’t know is jeongwook, which means he definitely doesn’t have any messages and unless he sent a message to hyeongjoon (which is definitely possible) hyeongjoon also won’t have any messages

i kind of wish minseong had told hyeongjoon beforehand that he hadn’t sent him a message just so hyeongjoon isn’t expecting it and it’s not going to ruin his evening after the date they had

ugh it’s still such a mess i’m just going to try and forget about everything that isn’t junseong and seongho being soft

[kariachi]

Oh look, responses to shit. Think some fans still follow me so, just in case, under a cut.

#YES. YES. YES. YES. YES.#FUCK. GOD YES. ALL OF THIS.#sometimes i feel fucking insane - like IM the insane one for saying i think theyre an awful ship#bc MOST OF THE FANDOM loves them to pieces and every time i try to say 'hey this is fucked right?' they come at me with torches and pitchfo#and there was a part that you didnt even mention - gwen blamed kevin for that time he was groomed by charmcaster!!! fuck!!!!#ben 10#but gwen is always right and never has to learn her lesson in the show bc theres no lesson to learn bc shes always right!!!#*eye twitching!* always! every feeling shes had is proven correct and she has never done anything wrong!#even the horrible fucked up shit shes done has just been funny you guys! its not her fault! shes just a silly guy!#she is always right! always right and never faces any consequences whatsoever! always!#wrt to storing cc in the bag - ive always viewed it as her sort of comparing herself to ben (and his friendship with kevin)#because kevin is in a lot of ways the golden reformed prisoner - ben gave him a chance and it has been rewarded time and again#kevin is a good guy with a bad past under bad situations but by continually believing in and trusting him it has always worked out#and gwen... wants that. she is always comparing herself to ben#we see it in os when she wants praise for her heroics. we see it in uaf when she wants the same#we see it in ov when ben goes to her campus for one single day and the attention is him!!!#she wants what ben has. and ben has a reformed prisoner bestie who was worth giving a chance to. and gwen doesnt have any other prisoner#baddies to give a chance to so congrats cc! youve been chosen! against your will! even though you are pretty much irredeemable!!!#gwen will put people in danger if she has even a chance of getting a slice of the pie#but of course thats just my interpretation lol (via @expired-blueberries)

Trust me I have been there with this fandom so many times, there's fuckers in here who would watch her shoot Kev dead for not putting the seat down and immediately start with how that's actually the worst thing a guy can possibly do, then turn around and give you shit for writing a scene where she gets a prank pulled on her because it just proves you hate women.

And yeah, there's, there's more shit with them, this was just a ramble I needed to get out of my head so shit like the mess with her opinions on Kevin's history with Charmcaster (she stored the woman in his apartment, I would leave a bitch for suggesting it-) or the mess that is their pre-relationship didn't end up making it in. They have their own posts scattered around.

I would not be surprised if all the shit you mentioned played a role in her shit with Charmcaster, and really even that again ties into the issues with actual respect for people she has. Because Kevin's reformation isn't something Ben did- it's something he started on him own, went for on his own (Kwarrel extended a hand, but Kevin was the one who chose to take it this time), and working with the Tennysons gave him the space and stability to go further with it. Charmcaster, on the other hand, has had chances to say 'I want to be better than this'- is a grown woman who has had these chances- and has only doubled down. She doesn't try to be better, she doesn't improve.

To compare them is really in some ways to compare apples and oranges- two people with bad histories, one of whom chose to be strive for better and the other keeps choosing to stay on their path. But, if you're just looking at it as 'well they're both criminals with sad backstories' and completely disregard how things like personal choice enter into it- which, again, her big plan for helping Charmcaster was to keep her captive in isolation with no due process of law for however long it took, personal choice is not exactly a factor she seemed to be considering- well then they're so so alike. Surely this is the same thing. No, it doesn't matter that they're very different people with very different circumstances who did very different things and feel very different ways about them. No, it doesn't matter what their thoughts and feelings are, what their boundaries are, because she knows best. She knows what they want, she knows what they need, even if they claim something else.

It'd be a fascinating character flaw to see her grow out of, but that would require admitting it's a flaw in the first place.

Have not-really-Gwen-or-Gwevn-positive thoughts in the head and want to get them down. Going under a readmore because I know fans follow me and y’all don’t want this shit.

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[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

hi. can i share something. its pretty personal...its sad but also a message of hope.

so. ive been freaking out rly bad about attending this bladee show tomorrow, august 6th. the real reason for this is not just my ocd and social anxiety but also.. last year on august 6th my really good friend died. they were going by the name saint at the time. i only knew them online but we were extremely close since around 2014. we would talk often, and in-depth, bcus we both had extensive interest in metaphysics, god, angels, etc. and we both had dead parents, specifically dead from illness, so we rly deeply related to each other on those matters. they were like 9 years older than me, so i looked up to them as an older sibling. it absolutely shattered my heart when i found out they died because i know it was an accident. i think they OD’d on fentanyl cus they had been posting about relapsing shortly b4 they died. but i dont know for sure, there’s no obituary for them since they don’t have parents or family. i have cried about it every day for a year.

when i saw what day the bladee show was, i felt a million feelings at once, like, oh my god, is this some kind of orchestrated angel event? saint had the most unwavering faith, they believed in angels more than anyone ive ever met, there was no doubt in their mind. we would talk about our synchronicities constantly. it was our fav thing to discuss. they were so validating of my experiences. so in a way, i rly feel like, their angel is escorting me to this show as some sort of gift for making it thru the past year. ive been going thru my saturn return on top of grieving their death, and idk, its just been one of the worst times in my life, ive never been closer to giving up. the timing of this show rly makes me feel like saint is blessing me. bladee, saint and I are all life path 9s who r obsessed w metaphysics n spirituality, which adds to the meaning of this synchronicity for me.

the reason ive been so terrified to attend the show is because i keep having ocd freakouts that someone is going to die or that, like, this date is evil and tainted or soemthing. like literally to the point that ive spent a few entire days this past week just crying in my bed because im so terrified of losing anyone else in my life. but as the show gets closer, i am realizing i just need to trust god and believe that im allowed to enjoy myself. believe that saint’s angel is protecting me and my loved ones, just like they have every day for the past year. they have sent me so many signs, and ive known a lot of dead people but never have i received so many obvious signs from anyone, even my own father. it makes me wonder if saint graduated the rebirth cycle, since they were a 9, and they brought so much goodness to this world. i think they graduated and are now a very powerful angel forever.

its been so hard to go on without them. they were my grief councellor fr. there were some years of my life where they were one of the only people i talked to because no one else could understand. they loved POSTING, we met on tumblr and they were always so supportive of the way i express myself. after they died was when i started drawing and posting on here again bcus i knew i had to honor them this way. i cant put into words how much their friendship impacted me and i wish i could do more, i wish i cld plaster their face onto every wall and scream from the rooftops “THATS MY FRIEND AND I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!”. god i am going to cry so much at the bladee show, i know they’ll b rite there on my shoulder the whole time.

if u read all this, thank you. it weighs on me massively n i try not to show it too much online but man. i have been a mess. n sometimes i just wanna spill my guts. i cld say so so much more about my dear friend but i’ll leave it at this for now. im praying that the show goes well tomorrow and everyone makes it there safely. if u guys cld pray for me too id rly appreciate. i rly feel like saint is with me and im allowed to have hope now. i love you saint. thankyou for posting so much so i have plenty to look back on. <3

[takrat]

I hope its okay that ive stolen snazzy-suit's name for this... I wanna go ahead and share my take on the District 9 AU. Oh yeah spoilers for the movie

Irken/child shippers DNI (yes dib is older in this au but z*drs do not fucking interact)

District Doom AU notes under cut:

So its not a perfect parallel of the movie but roughly here are the character parallels: Dib is Wikus (son of Prof. Membrane the founder of PEG labs--"MNU" who's primary goal is researching the aliens for SCIENCE! and Dib desperately wants to be a part of it), Zim is Christopher (former Irken Scientist and lead Invader of his squad in Impending Doom I who were aboard the Massive before catastrophe hit), Gir is Oliver 😊, Skoodge is Paul aka the alien that gets shot early on in the movie but don't worry he's okay now, Gaz is here but idk she's just vibing on her own, oh that assistant guy to Wikus? Uhmm probably gonna be Dwicky or something

After an encounter with a Florpus Hole, the Massive is seriously messed up and finds its way to Earth, hovering over a miserable city, miserably out of fuel with dozens of miserable Irkens aboard. Its systems are horribly damaged so there is no contacting Irk for help.

At the very oldest Dib is 19 and the Irkens have been there for around 20 years, possibly only 15 or so?

Because the Massive's systems are all offline, theres no online PAK charging stations--after about ~20 years, the Irkens with standard issue PAKs are growing weak and dying off (Zim has an Invader's PAK--his charge can last much longer)

The Tallests are there basically in hiding. Purple hates earth donuts.

Dib is put in charge of Operation Eviction, moving the Irkens to a new district further away from the city because they are just so fucking ANNOYING nobody can stand them--while this isn't what he wants, he still goes with it because he hopes to study the aliens up close. It'll be the first time he's been allowed in District D--not just snuck in as a kid and either got kicked out by security or almost blown up

Zim and Skoodge have been collecting fluid from scattered Irken technology for many years, fuel for the Massive so that they may return to Irk and send aid (and also come back and destroy Earth)

Commence chaos and commotion--Dib finds himself with a dead Irken's PAK attached to his chest that is slowly turning him into an Irken. and also he confiscated the fuel which was taken to high security PEG labs

I cant believe they fucking killed skoodge

PEG doesn't have a large focus on alien weaponry like in the movie (they do have some, but studying the aliens and their tech in the name SCIENCE! is their whole deal)

Dib and Zim clash and have to end up working together. Dib is able to get them into PEG labs to get the fuel, Zim can get the PAK safely detached from Dib without killing him and reverse the side effects once they get aboard the Massive. There's a lot more character development and friendship that i just don't have the brain power to work out right now

Unfortunately Prof. Membrane is a bit less redeemable in this au.. hes more antagonistic but I really don't want to fuck my man up too bad cus I really like this guy. Hes not horrible, but he does see whats happening to Dib and wants to study him, reasonably though I think that comes across as very scary to Dib and he freaks out. So not entirely sure why Dib has to run away and seek refuge in District D, but I think he's just scared? Miscommunications with him and Prof. I'll flesh it out later whatever

They go to the Tallests' little hideout and Zim tells them his plan for saving them all.. they think he's crazy but send him and Dib off with some cool gear (probably hoping he'll end up killed or captured by PEG labs).

Zim is outcasted among the stranded Irkens because he's generally assumed to have caused the Florpus hole (yea it was him), but he's been desperately trying to prove himself and make up for it (and hes really the only one with any initiative to save them and return to Irk--everyone else is too stupid, hopeless, or cowardly).

They break in whatever. end up running into Skoodge who's kind of just been chilling in the labs and going through some boring experiments

"Skoodge? I thought the humans killed you" "Yeeeaahh but im okay now"

However, Skoodge exempt(?), there's been some Fucked up tests going on to captured Irkens and Zim is really angry and distraught. Dibs also freaked out--like yea he assumed the scientists were doing scary tests and in fact wanted to perform them, but actually seeing the results and how it effects Zim, and getting to know Zim and the Irkens as people, really snaps him to reality and how messed up what PEG labs is doing

Now this would be the end where Zim takes off in the Massive back to Irk and Dib ends up retreating to District D and ultimately transforming fully into an Irken.. but the au definitely doesn't end here. But I dont have the brain power to think any further. Let's see if District 10 ever really does come out like the directors promised

They get the fluid, escape, Zim gets the control module up and running God DAMMIT who is supposed to be that stupid bald military guy in this. That guy in the movie. Okay there's some guy ill figure it out later.

Zim was gonna just fix Dib up, leave him, and take off for Irk, but after finding out about what PEG labs has been doing with experimenting on his people, he has to use all of the fuel and get help as fast as he can, so Dib is left behind.

Anyway if anybody has any ideas im begging dont hesitate to share 🥺 ive also got a bunch of doodles for this? So if you think I should post them sometime let me know. I need to stop typing because my hands hurt now

[jaehyukiewrites]

i love you.

2k words | fluff, w/ a dash of angst & soft smut

↳ reader + bestfriend!yuta

↳ ↳ 📁“i don’t want to but i love you.” - billie

it's not true, tell me i’ve been lied to

yuta and your relationship has been complicated, at least for him. you two have been friends for years and he was the only person who knew everything about you. your family, your wants in life, your fears...everything. he knew the pain that resided deep inside you. he knew how some nights were harder than others. he knew how much pain your ex had caused you. and when you would cry on the phone to him, he couldn’t help but feel this weird mixture of jealousy and anger. he hated that he did that to you. all yuta ever wanted to do was make you smile, laugh and give you all the pure things in life and seeing you so hurt over someone who could care less really hit a nerve. And when you called him tonight, in tears again he couldn’t take it anymore. he needed to tell you how he felt, even If you didn’t feel the same…you just needed to hear it from him.

“im coming to pick you up.”

“yuta-”

“bring a jacket and I’ll be there in 5.”

crying isn't like you, what the hell did I do?

you sat on the stairs that led up to your apartment building. where was he going to take you? you pulled out your phone turning it on, the blue light shinning onto your face.

battery 15%, 12:15pm

you sighed, stuffing your phone into your jacket pocket. there weren’t many cars on the road and the only people that could be heard were from the bar a few blocks down. you twiddled with your thumbs, until you saw yutas car down the road. you got up and stood at the curb waiting for him to pull up. once he did, you pulled open the door, getting in. you turned to face him, his eyes puffy and red.

“yuta? were you crying?” you voice filled with concern.

“no. don’t worry about it.” he said coldly, making you feel small. he put the car in drive and pulled out of the street.

“what the hell did I do?” you asked yourself. you were so concerned with your heartache and pain that you never once asked yuta how he felt. you sighed and slumped down into your seat.

it felt like you were driving around mindlessly for hours. every time you would ask him where you two were going, he would just smile at you and say

“it’s a surprise.”

god, sometimes he was such a tease.

you lifted your head to see out the window; what you saw, took your breath away. the buildings were alive with lights, as if someone had taken a handful of glitter and thrown it as far as they could. It was too dark to make out individual buildings, but the lights were enough. amazed by the view you called out

“yuta are you seeing this?”

he turned to see you, staring out the window aimlessly. an affectionate smile spread across his face, the way the wind blew your hair, and he couldn’t see your face, but he just knew you had stars in your eyes.

“yeah, it’s beautiful”

maybe won't you take it back? say you were tryna make me laugh

yuta stopped the car at the top of a hill, you turn to him with a curious look. he stares out of the window, trying to prepare his words.

“why’d you take me up here?”

he sighed loudly, pulling the keys out of the ignition.

“yuta?”  

“remember when we came up here in high school?”

“I don’t think so.”

“after homecoming? my girlfriend at the time threw her drink at me for dancing with you?”

you giggled quietly

“oh yeah. she was wild.”

“but she was hot.”

you two looked at each other and laughed, laughed so hard to the point where you couldn’t breathe. yuta tossed his head back, bouncing off the car seat. his smile was so big as he looked at you. the way the single lamp post lit up only one side of your face but not the other. the way your laughed filled the air. he felt so much for you, and in the most intense way.

once you stopped your giggle fit you turned in your seat to face him, looking down at your hands.

‘hey, im sorry for making everything about me lately.”

“y/n- “

“no listen. all ive talked about is me, and how im upset but I never thought to ask you how you are.”

he only responds by reaching for your hand with his, the action was common between you two. yet, each time it makes your heart skip a beat. you looked up at him, and he looked at you.

you didn’t mean to say "I love you"

“y/n…I love you.”

when he looked at you it was as if every ounce of your breath was taken from your lungs, floating into the air like smoke.

“what do you mean?”

“y/n, I’ve loved you for a long time.”  

your breathing became heavy, at a lost for words. your best friend of years, the boy that you went to prom with when your date didn’t show, the boy that had listened to all your heartbreak and tears…loved you. it didn’t make sense to you, there were so many other people who would throw themselves at yuta if he just asked, but he loved you. you didn’t feel worthy.

the smile that you gave me even when you felt like dying

“I…um…”

he traced his thumb along your hand, even though he felt like he was going to vomit he simply smiled at you. you looked at him, tears welling in the corner of your eyes. you were so overwhelmed, you didn’t know what to say…or what to do.

“don’t worry about it. take your time.” he reassured, letting go of your hand he started the car back up and drove you home in silence that night.

i love you and I don't want to

you walked into your bedroom and threw yourself on the bed, a loud scream muffled into your sheets. you didn’t know how he had gotten into your head. and you hate the fact that he can mess up with your mind just so easily. to be honest, you’re afraid of love after your ex. you’re afraid of the feeling that someone keeps stocking in your heart, making you wonder all night whether he had feelings for you too.

you know, that kind of pain. pains are caused by being rejected when you decide to give all your heart to someone doesn’t need it. pains are caused by opening your heart so easily and casually. and you knew deep down that you loved yuta. every time he would talk about another girl it felt like there was a lump in your throat…you knew there was always something more than a friendship, but you never admitted it.

up all night on another red-eye

and there you were, lying in bed, tears flowing down your face. you felt awful for how you reacted, and you couldn’t imagine how he felt. all you wanted to do was pick up the phone and call him. you just wanted to not to remember his shinny smile, his beauty when he laughed. then the memories with you two hold spills out of your mind again.

maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie

even days later, you daydreamed about him, with you standing next to him, and him going on about something called ‘our beautiful love’.

whenever you wake up from the nightmare named ‘daydreaming’, you feel guilty instantly. here you were, accepting the fact that this could go somewhere but you haven’t texted yuta for days.

during work you sneaked into the break room and pulled your phone out of your work locker. you dialed yutas phone number.

it rang…and rang…and rang and you thought he wasn’t going to answer.

“y/n? hi.” he said breathlessly, and you smiled wildly.

“why are you out of breath?”

“im at the gym with jaehyun. um, not to push you off the phone but aren’t you at work?”

you giggled into the phone

“um, yeah I am but I needed to tell you something.”

you could basically hear the big smile across his face.

“oh? and what is it?”

“meet me at the hilltop at 5?”

“alright, see you then.”

we fall apart as it gets dark i'm in your arms in Central Park

you sat on the hood of your car as you waited for yuta. your brain was running a mile a minute. what do you even say?

“hey buddy im sorry I left you hanging there when you were vulnerable.”

no, does anyone even know what to say in a situation like this?

your thoughts were interrupted when you heard a car pulling up behind you, but you didn’t look.

the car door closed, and footsteps shuffled towards you, until you felt the weight of the car shift.

you both stared at the sunset for a few minutes, until you built enough courage.

“I love you too yuta.”

there's nothing you could do or say I can’t escape the way I love you

you traced his lip lightly with the tip of your finger. it pouts slightly, and you have such an urge to bite it, to kiss it, to wrap you guys up in a quilt and listen to your breathing, watching the blanket rise and fall. his lip feels slightly chapped under your light touches, but you couldn’t give a damn. You gazed so intently at each dip of that lip, but you don't want to look up. because if you look up, I may find myself at the mercy of questioning eyes, pleading, begging to know what I was doing.  his lips brush yours as he leaned closer. Not innocently, like a tease but hot, fiery, passionate and demanding. you wanted to pull away before you lost yourself, but you can’t seem to…in this moment, you can no longer think straight.

“y/n” he whispers slowly.

you smile, your heart fluttering at his voice as you clasped your hands on either side of his face. never has my name ever felt so wonderful, and you think…you leaned in all the way this time.

 there's nothing you could do or say I can’t escape the way I love you

even when you two made it back to your apartment you still were curious.

“why do you like me?” you whispered, tracing shapes on yuta’s arm.

“How could I not?” he replied, cupping your cheek so your beautiful eyes met his own.

he dropped his hand from your face and interlocked it with yours. you kissed each other tentatively, passionately and then, tenderly. he pulled your thick sweater up, over your head and you felt little sparks of static dancing over your skin. it’s a magical feeling and causes you to shiver in complete pleasure and ecstasy. his lips press against yours with so much affection as his warm hands roam all over your naked body, setting your skin on fire. “you’re so beautiful.” he whispers in your ear, feeling the his hot breath. “shut up and kiss me.” you whisper back. his lips gently brush yours and you smell his cologne as our naked bodies press together. he slowly massages your breast as you two kiss, causing you to arch your back and moan softly into his mouth. you roll your head to the side, your chest rising and falling under him. he smiles into the kiss as your fingers tug at his short hair and the other scratches at his back. “I love you.” you whispered as your eyes made contact.

I can’t escape the way, I love you

[mad-ncity]

Perfect for You | Ghoul!Renjun

tokyo ghoul au :)

youve always been best friends with renjun

ever since you two were little youve been practically inseparable

his family were the peaceful type of ghouls

they never hunted…only got food when it was already prewrapped

but somehow renjun has kept it a secret from you

cant say there havent been moments when he thought he was caught though

and you cant say you arent suspicious

but if he is actually a ghoul and keeping it a secret from you you can understand why and will gladly wait until hes ready to tell you

you two were now in high school together and lets just say that renjun has harbored feelings for you for a while

but he cant tell you that

one: because it could mess up your guys’ friendship

two: because he feels like he should tell you what he is before taking that next step

three: reason number two would absolutely mess up your friendship if number one didnt

for gods sake his kind eats people like you

but you also liked renjun

and you didnt see why you shouldnt just tell him

because you were sure that even if he rejected you you two could still be friends

it would take more than rejection to end many years of friendship

so as you two were walking home together one day you brought it up

“hey renjun could we stop for a moment”

he stopped and turned to look at you “yeah sure whats up y/n?”

you made sure to make eye contact with him “for a while ive wanted to say this and ive finally gathered the courage to say it”

you take a deep breath and grabbed his hand

“renjun i love you. i love the way you ruffle my hair, how you always yell ‘dog!’ when you see one, and how you always walk me home even though your house is before mine”

hes silent and avoiding eye contact with you and you take this as a sign of rejection

but hes actually having internal conflict right now

does he tell you?

“its okay if you dont feel the same i understand”

a few tears prick the corners of your eyes but you give him your best smile

“um i think i forgot something at school so you can just go home. bye renjun see you tomorrow! ill text you when i get home!”

renjun just stood there clenching his fists and grinding his teeth as you ran away

why did he have to be a ghoul

why couldnt he a be human so that he didnt have to worry about this

he made his way home slowly but surely still thinking about you

he tried to take his mind off of you by doing his homework and it works

when he gets it done he looks out the window and sees that its dark out

and then he looks at his phone

no text from you

you should be home by now

renjun calls your phone and theres no answer

he knows theres something wrong

you always pick up your phone whenever you go out for a walk because its not safe on the streets

he rushes out of his house and heads towards your school because thats the last known place you were at

hes running with everything hes got looking down every alley to see if youre in one of them

suddenly as hes running past one alley he hears something or rather someone

he walks down it and sees you slumped down against a wall panting and when you look at him he can see the fear in your eyes

he bends down to your level and puts a hand on your shoulder “y/n what happened?”

“i-i saw a ghoul eating and i gasped when i saw them and then they whipped their head at me and grinned at me and started to walk to me so i ran”

you were crying at this point

he let out a deep breath and wipped your tears away

“y/n lets get you home”

he helps you up and when you two start to head out of the alley a figure steps out in front of the exit

“ahh heres where you went. you cant escape me babe i can smell your sweet blood anywhere”

renjun pushed you behind him “y/n theres something you need to know about me”

he isnt looking at you while hes talking though hes keeping his eyes on the ghoul in front of him thats slowly making their way towards you two

“renjun i hardly think this is a good time to make a big revealing monologue”

youre squeezing his shoulders so tight out of pure fear right now and he can feel you slightly shaking

“no i need to say this y/n im-“

“oh my god will you two shut up now give me that precious little thing behind you or ill take them by force”

the ghouls kagune is out now and is running at you two

renjun pushed you back and released his kagune

the two of them fought until it was just renjun standing

he was panting from the fight and was bleeding in many places but he didnt care

he turned around and rushed towards where you were at

before you could say anything renjun grabbed your hands with a slight tremble in him

“y/n im a ghoul. thats why i was so hesitant to accept your feelings because even though i return them i didnt want to lose you because of what i am”

you placed a hand on his face and rubbed your thumb over a cut on his cheek thats already healing

“renjun you idiot ill love you no matter what you are because that doesnt define you. you define yourself and the renjun i know is smart, caring, a little insecure but has an open heart. im not scared of you so please dont be scared of me and what i might think of you”

you closed the gap between the two of you and kissed him

he swiftly moved one hand behind your neck and the other around your waist

when you both pulled away for air renjun smiled at you

“why are you so perfect?”

you chuckled a bit “im not perfect…far from it actually but maybe im perfect for you”

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OH FUCK I THINK I FINALLY CRACKED THE CODE OF WHY I ALWAYS LIKE THE VILLAINS BETTER

Like man it always makes me so confused cos i mean im a soft AF person and i always end up having sympathetic redemption headcanons for them so its not like i like VILLAINY ITSELF but what else do all these characters have in common?

Thats it. Thats it, ursula helped me crack it.

I just WANT THOSE TRAITS ON THE HEROES

I really want a nice confident sassy funny chubby trans auntie who promotes body positivity to our young hero and always gets to say the coolest lines and get the best moments and BE LOVED FOR WHO SHE IS

And like usually whenever you get anywhere close to seeing those "villain traits" on a hero they like.. Remove all the good parts. If you have a supportive hero aunt she's always boring and generically supportive instead, and has to look like the most stereotypical boring mess ans have a super small plot role and uuuugh thats IF SHES EVEN THERE i mean seriously aunties and grandmas are weirdly less represented as mentors than grandpas who are already REALLY HARD TO FIND and again OFTEN GENERIC AND UNFUN WHENEVER THEY GET TO APPEAR

And how damn often are we allowed to have a chubby gay aunt!! WHERE IS MY CHUBBY GAY AUNT!! ive met SO MANY chubby gay aunts in real life like 90% of all my psychologists have been either that or like.. The exact same but a straight lgbt ally instead. Sassy plus size aunties are THE BACKBONE OF OUR SOCIETY DAMMIT! I've had so much help thanks to sassy gay aunts!! And like even just looking at any damn crowd scene in a normal city centre youre gonna see so many chubby aunts and long nosed uncles and all those sorts of bullshit "ugly people" that mass media pretends are ugly and relegates to One Minor Role In The Entire Cast despite them being infinately more common than supermodels and NOT UGLY AT ALL GEEZ IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH

I cant believe im a fuckin disney villain fan cos of body positivity

Tfw u suck so bad at making hateable people that the fandom universally hugs all your villains and ignores your boring protagonists like fuckin TAKE THAT DIDNEY

God i wanna hug hades sooo bad he just needs a friend aaaaaa

And i mean its not just disney, every damn time ive obsessed over a villain its been because they have some trait thats supposed to be "bad" but its actually good and we dont get to see it on the heroes

Like my thing with science villains in particular is that when i first played ff7 i really liked the idea of an evil minion who's a bad sidekick not just because he's "dumb" or "bumbling" but because he's actually not interested in any of the evil stuff and he works against his own boss and is like.. Friendly to the heroes, i have no particular grudge against you and i wont stop you if im off duty and all. I liked the Turks for the same reason but in the origibal ff7 translation they were kind of stoic and serious and i didnt really become as much of a fan of them til i saw them being more goofy and comic relief in some optional sidequests and then their movie adaptation. But hojo was always being all "lol my boss's plan is so stupid amirite" and had that very memorable scene where he's just sunbathing and tells you everything you need to know to get to the next thing to ruin his boss's plan cos i mean fuck it who even cares im just here to soak up some sun while fully dressed in a turtleneck and labcoat. It sucked so much that he was such a reprehensible bastard with creepy sexual assault vibes and murder and child abuse and experimenting on people and basically just NOT A LOVEABLE VILLAIN but his CONCEPT held so much potential to be filled by a sympathetic character instead...

So yeah then cos of him i kept being obsessed with finding SOME CHARACTER SOMEWHERE that actually lived up tp that potential, and thats why i was instantly interested in charon from pokemon and totally on edge waiting for the slightest chance for him to become That Perfect Sass Gramps Of Legend. And then he was indeed sassy!! And had so little screenyime that there was potential for interpretation of him as potentially redeemable cos i mean the game never said he wasnt, the game barely said anything about him at all, lol. And he was so old and small and frail looking and i just wanted to protect him!! And then that one wifi event that actually hinted at synpatheticness!! Aaaa its a recipe for a Forever Fave~

And i guess maybe it all started with my grandma being awesome and me really missing her? Cos i had shitty abusive parents and she was my ONLY good family member who showed me what love was like. And she was also basically a supervillain. Like every damn supervillain trait except being evil! She was bombastic and confident and sassy and mischievious and loud and passionate about stuff and always had something funny to say and never gave up no matter how many times she failed. And she also used all that great power for the forces of good!

So yeh thats why i love sassy good guys and i hate that often even when a sassy villain gets redeemed they seem to lose all their edge and become more generic now theyre a good guy. Or they get totally sidelined with no screentime anymore, or they ONLY get to be comic relief and dont get the full and complex redemption they deserve. Or just a lot of bads!! Its never the simplest answer of just fuckin.. Keep the character the character. Thats kinda why i didnt feel too much for the maleficent movie even though the concept itself sounded like everything i ever wanted. The character in that movie is a very different person to origibal maleficent, she's more just a stoic tsundere mumsy figure than a hammy badass iconicness. Still a nice villain redemption but it felt like it would have been better as an original story instead of an attempted maleficent. Also i wish they handled it better with the whole "true love's kiss could be from your mum instead" thing cos i get sooooo grossed out whenever i see people shipping movie maleficent and aurora! Like yes sleeping beauty with lesbians would be great but not when one of them is old enough to be her mum and raised her like a mum and changed her goddamn diapers! Also why did they have to ruin the three good fairies just to make maleficent have the mum opportunity? Like just remove them from the story if you wanted maleficent to raise the kid instead. No need to rewrite them into incompetant assholes when they were everyone's fave part of the original! Dont sacrifice the rare and elusive Good Sassy Gay Aunts!! THEYRE LIKE THE ONLY ONES IN DIDNEY!!! (Incodentally merlin is the equivelant of this to hades as the fairies are to ursula)

Also also villains tend to have ACTUAL FLAWS in stories that have a more boring bland protagonist. I wanna see the story behind charon's neuroses and how he struggles with overcoming his temptation to be bad because of greed but ultimately manages to conquer his own negative side because power of friendship and such. Thats a great character arc that provides so much more than he does as a villain where they just wasted him entirely :(

SO BASICALLY IN SUMMARY

* villains are often more complex and well developed characters with flaws while the same wroter might make shitty heroes due to the illogical fear that nobody would root for them if they werent 100% perfect and successful at everything ever

* villains are also often made as negative stereotypes of minorities and other rarely seen traits, which means its easy to reach out to them and reclaim them as a more positive version when theres literally no other options for you to cling to

* the quite common accidental sympathy factor where a villain will seem to be hated more than they deserve for their actions, ir unjustly punished so much that they feel like an underdog, since the writer assumes you'll think theyre "more evil" for being a stereotype and if you dont agree that this thing is bad then it seems like they have way less sins than the story claims they do

* also sass. Sass is good.

But basically the whole root of it is that its stupid and cruel and doesnt goddamn work when you make villains bigoted stereotypes. It just makes me love them! The only person i hate when i see a stereotypical villain is the writer who thought that was a good idea, lol. Just imagine that meme of the samurai holding the cat but its me holding all disney villains!

Also even if a villain isnt outright intentionally meant to be "this minority is bad", it can still make me symoathetic to them if theyre still something thats rare amoung the hero side in the same series. Like charon being the "most unredeemable" villain despite being the most harmless and funny and his plan being so much less world destroying than cyrus, and also he's the only grandpa villain in like.. The whole of all. And he's drawn very much in that way thays supposed to be "ugly" i.e normal grandpa, vs that weird sort of younger than he looks grandpa that hero ones tend to be because blablabla beauty ewuals goodness anti body positivity whatever. Tho actually sinnoh was good with that, they had the best grandpa professor in my opinion cos he got to be sassy too! Rowan always reminds me of auron from ff10. Sinnoh was a good game where i liked a lot of both the heroes and villains even if i still had more villain faves cos i mean pokemon is always biased towards that for me since every game has a voiceless perosnalityless main character and often theyre the one doing most of the heroing with the supporting hero characters having surprisingly little proper screen time. Thats a big part of why i loved hau gladion and lillie in sun and moon! They felt more like a real friend group than any other ones before.

ANYWAY now im just going offtopic into more "i love lots of stuff about every pokemon game" so ill stop typing now

But just basically VILLAINS ARE GOOD COS THEYRE GOOD CHARACTERS and if those stories gavethe same character a good guy role then id still love them just as much, if not more. I dont specifically like villainy, its just that my definition of a good character is often considered a bad character by lazy writers, apparantly?

Also WHERE IS MY SUPPORTIVE GOOD GRAMPS CHARON GAME AND GAY AUNTIE URSULA GIVES YOU FASHION TIPS SMARTPHONE MMO

[tayegi]

im crying not only bc of your amazing writing, but bc i was scrolling thru my dashboard and i saw you answering all these asks about new rules and i’m so dump thinking that you set up new rules or sthg, i didn’t understand it so i read all those asks and fucking spoiled myself kmp, but on another note yOU FUCKING ROCK OMG NEW RULES IS SO AMAZING I LOVE IT 💘💘💘

Anonymous said:I'M LOVING NEW RULES SO MUCH just wanted to show my support. i love your writing in general don't get me wrong but new rules is messing with my heart and it's amazing

Anonymous said:Hi! I just read both parts for "New Rules" and I loved them! If this goes in the same direction as Dua Lipa sings (I guess it will) it sounds like it'll be very interesting. I love how everyone in the story is human, not just good or bad, you know? 90% of fics would've made Mijoo the stereotypical barbie bitch, but you didn't and I was pleasantly surprised! I also feel very identified with the OC. I really want her to open up and discover who JK really is, whoever that is. Keep up the good work!

jabaelashit said:Hey! i already wrote you a message on one of your posts but i just wanted to say that i am feeling so skabakks right now, I can't stop thinking about new rules and i'm torn between crying or crying but w angsty. I hope oc learns her worth and can understand she's just as amazing as mijoo, even better if we're talking about morals but oh well people fuck up:( I'm glad she forgave her but I hope she distances from her cause that gurl ain't having the same respect for the friendship as oc/1

jabaelashit said:and i also hope she gets to tell jimin her feelings not to like make him break stuff w mijoo, but to let him know she hadnt seen the note and to release some pressure and feelings cause oc bottles up so much and i just want to go and hug her and don't leave her until she understands shes fucking badass and cool and that the way she thinks is 👏👏👏 lu you've made me feel such a diverse amount of emotions i don't know what to do w myself anymore, your writing is amazing! love love loove you❣/2

Anonymous said:Hey!!:) idk if this is the right place to send compliments cause im really new to tumblr but THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR FICS. Tbh I'd buy it if you published a physical compilation;)

Anonymous said:Wow for the longest time I was searching your old username; idek why cause I’ve known you changed your username and have been keeping up to date with you LMAO this is what being sick and delirious does to me. ANYWAYS! Hope you’re not too down with the crazy anons your story is great and I’m thankful for the dynamic characterizations you create! It makes it so much more interesting cause you create many characters with depth!!

Anonymous said:Can I please just have your writing talent? The OC is just so real, and that moment when she's deciding what to do with Mijoo, and what she actually says at the end.... I can't actually put my thoughts into words. I'm legit stunned by the sheer amount of emotions I felt reading the second chapter. I genuinely adore the banter between JK and OC, I personally prefer people to be more direct with what they want, so I already appreciate them, but also Jimin's convo with OC... (1/2)

Anonymous said:Jimin's convo with OC... Idk about these other anons going off on Mijoo, I was more thinking 'why didn't Jimin chase the note?' and then he would have had his answer then and there. But that might have just been me... And also, thinking back to it now, when JK said 'I need you' and OC repeated it back to him like super softly, like she was surprised oh god, okay, my heart is breaking even more for OC now, idk if I'm reading too much into it. I love you Lu, I hope you're well, and happy! (2/2)

Anonymous said:I love your fics so much!! The sass is real esp with jungkook 😂

Anonymous said:Anyways do ya thang hunny ✨ Keep wrecking me with your writings 💞✨💞✨💞✨💞✨💞✨😩

Anonymous said:Read part 1 of New Rules and was like yeah thisll be fun, I'll have a great time. Then I read part 2 and ended up shedding some real tears at the end?!?! LU WHAT THE...... But really though its so nice to read a fic where the OC values friendship. The idea that its always girls against girls makes me sad.. we should be sticking together!!

Anonymous said:so... surprise surprise, dis gon be about new rules 😂 but I really wanted to thank you for adding so much of the oc's inner dialogue, and making her such a character in the first place. a lot of fics do not portray ocs with more defeatist attitudes, but yours does and I was glad, because I could finally relate to a fic :) also, coming back to the inner dialogue thing, it was so in depth that i could really feel what the oc was feeling, what she was going through. it was amazing ❤️ thank you!

Anonymous said:Man this is one hell of a good fic i’m highly anticipating the next chapter!!! Even though it seems like traditional frat fuckboy x ‘i hate frat bois but ye i’d fuck u’ type of girl it still is in a way a little different i just can’t quite catch how but nonetheless it’s amazing!!! Keep up the good work babe

oceanjoon said:ok so ur newest fic new rules literally is so real n relatable !! like honestly i understand seeking physical comfort in people u dont care about wen u r feeling down/insecure to validate urself n it just rlly hit home

kyarybunny said:Lu. At this point I have so many compliments to give you I can't really form it all properly. But I really am enjoying New Rules and this plot you're breathing life into! It's a different facet of your writing and I love how you can interpret every character's actions in a few different ways. Thank you for continuing to write and I hope you enjoy writing as much as we do reading/analyzing.

Anonymous said:Istg when I read the new chapter of New Rules I clenched my fist like that Arthur meme when it came up to the part about mijoo and the note. Girl got me heated lol. As usual, your works do not disappoint! I love your wittiness and how it shines in your writing. The remarks and dialogue in all of your series really proves your talent. You’re truly a gem amongst fanfic writers 💕☺️📢

Anonymous said:i was happily reblogging a few things on my dash and ch1 of new rules just came and i started reading WHERE THE FUCK DID I GET MY ASS INTO???!!!???!?! IT'S FUCKING AMAZING i don't know why i didn't start reading before. don't you ever dare stop writting, you're such a good writter and i enjoy your works very very much

Anonymous said:OC DESERVES HAPINESS JUST AS MUCH AS MIJOO. OC SHOULDVE PUT HERSELF AND HER HAPPINESS BEFORE HER FRIEND'S BECAUSE SHE IS TOO GOOD FOR ALL OF THEM DJFJFJ i hope one day jimin finds out about her feelings :(

Anonymous said:new rules just keeps getting better and better 😻😻

Anonymous said:Wow.. Okay.. I do believe chapter 2 of New Rules has officially ruined me. My heart was actually beating so fast through out the whole chapter, and it's still racing now too. I've thought this multiple times while reading your fics, but you're writing really is incredible. Your characters and the way you describe their emotions is so unbelievably relatable that the reader can't help but be sucked in. I always find myself becoming invested in your characters! Thank you for all the adventures!

Anonymous said:I felt so bad for the OC this chapter ;.; If I were in her position, I'd probably do the same since causing a scene is yes, immature and not worth the energy. But, if i could be a character in New Rules I'd probably be the other best friend who'll be like "guurl, confront her ass it isnt an excuse just because she's your friend." All in all I see the OC as the kind of person who'll go out of their way to care for someone to the point of disregarding their own feelings, which is unhealthy :( (1)

Anonymous said:(2) but thats what makes her such a relatable character. I really, really like that in your OCs. This is probably the second OC i emotionally relate to, first is Copper Girl. But yeah I'm just distracting myself from assignments lol this series is amazing and just you are amazing Lu!!!! ily!!!!! PS. Jungkook is still agsjshskll he's cocky but with OC he's quite vulnerable. I wonder why? Is it just a front or does he have other intentions?

Anonymous said:alternative ending to new rules: mijoo and mc are over their respective boys, does not bother to get into any messy scenarios like that ever again, love each other and support each other and is forever the friendship that everyone envies anD I HATE THIS SITUATION SO MUCH GODDAMMIT LU!!! UR REALLY TRYING TO TEAR MY HEART APART!!

marchxseptember said:OH MY GOD CHAPTER TWO IS UP. I HAD A FEELING SO I HAD TO CHCK UR ACC AND I WAS RIGHT. BRB GONNA READ

marchxseptember said:AND THE PLOT THICKENS. I JIST FINISHED READING CH. 2 AND I AM FUCKED UP. I HAD A THEORY BEFORE BUT NOW I HAVE LIKE 2 MORE IM CONFUSED. I LOVED IT SOOO MUCH. AND I HATE MIJOO NOW. I CANT WAITT TO SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN. THIS WAS SO GOOD LU.

omg the amount of response ive gotten for new rules is unbelievable. I dont think ppl were even this into equilibrium. the last time u guys acted like this was during the golden boy trilogy and it really feels so good to have this again.

thank you all for your thoughtful messages and for giving this ridiculous little fic a chance. I love you all

[pldubrahs]

anyway, this has been a While coming and now im back in new orleans so LOTS OF GUSHING ABOUT THE LIGHTNING THIEF MUSICAL, UNDER THE CUT

the ambiance of the theater, dim and filled with soft storm sounds

this show does really beautiful things with overlapping singing and w harmonys and its So low budget but still so good and the cast is small but amazing and literally everyone but chris is cast into several roles and its just amazing

if u dont wanna read this whole thing, just scroll down to the end for a Special Surprise

ACT 1

the Bitter, Angry, Sad music, ltm is truly the Emo Rock Musical we deserve

i seriously almost fell out of my chair when chris mccarrell came out. he honest to god was SUCH a good percy, so fidgety and all his expressions were ON POINT

“CHROOONOOOOOOOS”

ms dodds in General she was hilarious for the literal 3 minutes she was onstage

the pen to sword transformation is literally just: chris hides the pen and grabs the sword from somewhere else onstage. during my show, in the ms dodds fight scene, the sword was on the back of chirons wheelchair and it got stuck so he had to trip after the chair as chiron wheeled off and TUG it off to fight

DID I MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVED CHRIS MCCARRELL AND HOW AMAZING HIS VOICE WAS? BECAUSE I DO AND IT W A S

sally is a BLACK WOMAN 

just in general, this show was Amazing at raceblind casting

sally sprayed febreeze after smelly gabe, like he leaned to look in the fridge and she stood behind him spraying febreeze directly at him for like 30 seconds

“he was handsome and strong and before too long- you came!” percy was roasting marshmallows and looking out towards the audience and sally was rubbing up and down the sides of her body during this before “you came!” and it was v funny

Strong in general was Great bc WOW IM LOVE THE “NORMALCY IS A SOCIALLY CONSTRUCTED MYTH” MESSAGE

grover and percy meeting outside camp

“oh look a goat” “percy!”

“he met a furie” “youre all furry! what happened to your legs”

the v cute friendship bickering, overlapping voices thing that percy and grover v often did. this was the grover and percy friendship that we always needed

during the weird dream when he sees annabeth and hes like “gee whiz shes the most beautiful girl ive ever seen”

and then when he officially meets her after hes not out of it, he says “youre my dream girl!” and then backpedals and its great

ANOTHER TERRIBLE DAY. DEFFS ONE OF THE TOP FIVE SONGS. MR D IN GENERAL WAS JUST AMAZING, GEORGE SALAZAR ROCKED IT

he kicked the chair over so much and then there was a part after his camp halfblood intern thing left so his chair didnt get reset behind him and so he kicked into the air, got frustrated, and put the chair up himself

“of course, who am i to give relationship advice, im literally the god of alcohol”

“you can hate it here, but i HATED IT FIRST”

so so so many Soft sex jokes and bc im a Child i loved them 

chiron is just a guy galloping with a horse tail its the cutest thing and everyone laughed bc like imagine a kid galloping w their legs high and w/e, but on an adult and slow motion

“you’ll get used to mr d. he can be a bit... well, he hates children”

luke was Very attractive and ALSO he had a lot of chemistry w percy and w annabeth and i, who remembered shipping percy and luke back in my Youth, was Living

annabeth deffs had a crush on luke dont @ me

also luke was Softly bitter. like he sounded like a modern kid, bitter and upset but saying it in a joking way; totally makes sense that no one suspects that he’d do anything w chronos bc all the kids are upset and he doesnt get dark until the very end of the show

“are you ever going to wear pants again?” “Nope!”

luke: “havent you ever played capture the flag?” percy, excitedly: “not with swords!” *makes swooshy lightsaber noises* annabeth, suffering, full of regret: “It’s not a lightsaber.”

“sexist much?” “no, i love girls” [muffled luke and grover cackling in the background]

CLARISSE, LOVE OF MY LIFE! her song was so so good

im sure everyone has mentioned this but the LEAF BLOWERS BLOWING TOILET PAPER TO REPRESENT WATER LITERALLY CHANGED MY LIFE

the campfire song

percys Soft concern for annabeths story about running away “wait is that true”

grover starting to cry during his part

“my father is chronos.... remember my lecture, he ate his children””....... chiron wins”

APHRODITE'S DAUGHTER’S STORY “godess of love, my moms aphrodite... i bring home a boy and shes there in her nightie! oh nooooo” “she steals my mascara and all of my dates!” wonderful

percy sings nicely about his mother and everyones like “hes doing it wrong”

“we dont care where our parents may be, as long as you are here with me!” FRIENDSHIP MAKES ME EMO

“havent you noticed that there arent any other little sea godlings running around? any sons of hades or daughters of zeus? the big three gods arent supposed to have kids!” i loved this tiny easter egg i love my big three kids

“look at the boy, hes clearly not a thief!” “oh, yeah no yeah yeah yeah no no yeah yeah no yeah no, youre right! you cant fake being that stupid unless youre a brilliant actor, but im also the god of drama, so i can tell you HES NOT”

“his lightning?” “yeah, we're not talking some crummy tin foil zig zag from some off broadway play!”

GOOD KID IS EVEN BETTER LIVE THAN IT WAS ON THE RECORDING IT RUINED MY LIFE

Killer Quest! is an amazing end of act song and v upbeat and cute

“so where is the underworld actually” “look for doa records” “its a record company? actually, im not surprised”

ACT 2

WE’RE LOST IN THE WOODS SOMEWHERE IN NEW JERSEY AND WE’RE NEVER GONNA MAKE IT TO LA

“half bloods to monsters smell like mickey ds, like tacos or take out vietnamese”

“dude are you talking to the squirrel?” “satyr powers, be nice. this squirrel knows every corner of the woods, maybe he can help us” “really? because i think that seems kind of nuts” [silence] “you hurt his feelings. tell the squirrel youre sorry.”

medusa in general, what a Good scene

ensemble members shaking maracas to make snake noises for her

medusa cant say “nemesis”

“ive done everything to prove to the gods that im the best and you- i mean, you dont even know how to hold a sword” “yes i do!, yes... i do...” “no, hands here *adjusts percys grip*” “i didnt ask for any of this: gods, monsters, quests- oh, wow, that is a lot easier”

my grand plan is the most annabeth chase song ever and i love it its such a good look into her character and i love her so much

“when boys mess up they always get another chance”

“cause most girl never win if theyre polite”

THE COMMENTARY ON HOW WOMEN HAVE TO BE IN TODAYS SOCIETY IN ORDER TO BE TAKE SERIOUSLY HELL YEAH

“the gods will think we’re impertinent” “we are impertinent”

the squirrel gave them three amtrak tickets

DRIVE IS A COUNTRY SONG AND I FUCKING LOVE IT IM HONESTLY SHOOK

i hate country except for this One Song

ITS ONE FOOT FORWARD AT A TIME; DUST OFF ALL THAT GRIT AND GRIME; WE STILL GOT A LOT LEFT TO DOOOO, CAUSE PEOPLE ARE COUNTIN ON US AND IM COUNTIN ON YOU! DRIIIIIIIIVE JUST DRIIIIiiiiiiiiIIIIIIVE STAY AHEAD STAY AHEAD STAY ALIIIIIIIVE

“is that chihuahua?” “its a chimera!”

“maybe if you hadnt brought all those dam snacks” “uh it was the hoover dam and i was hungry!”

ares drives them to las vegas and when they get there he says “this is where i... get off” and its HILARIOUS i love lowkey sex jokes

gentle easter egg to bianca and nico re: may 1st 1939

“the oracle can can it ill save my mom and savE THE PLANET!” im love percy so much

tREE ON THE HILL IS ABOUT THALIA AND IT MADE ME CRY GOD WHAT A GOOD SONG and grover feels like a failure and annabeth is like “no u saved my life ur a good friend and a good guardian <3 friendship”

THE FERRYMAN TO THE UNDERWORLD FLIRTS WITH GROVER

“you wanna hear my demo?” “uh-” [loud music plays] “im sorry i couldnt hear you over this SWEET ASS RIFF”

YOURE IN THE D.O.A. AND YOURE HERE TO STAY YEAH YOURE STUCK FOREVER NEVER GET AWAY NO HOPE FOR SURVIVAL YOURE DEAD ON ARRIVAL

“oh! do you have any josh groban?” “we will.” I CACKLED

DJ CEBERUS W A COOL 3-HEADED DEADMAU5 ESQUE MASK

the ferryman also attacks them all like “youre not gonna save the planet, you wont protect your friends, you wont be remembered”

everyone says this but “i think this pit is tartarus” “LIKE THE FISH SAUCE?”

“why would chronus want my shoes?” “they were really cool shoes”

bitter, sad hades who just wants people to stop thinking that hes the bad guy and for his brothers to come visit him

“one does not simply walk out of the underworld”

W H A T  B E L O N G S  T O  T H E  S E A  C A N  A L W A Y S  R E T U R N

small reprise of good kid as he considers hades offer and then the melody cHANGES and percy realizes that the seashell, a gift from a god, can SAVE THEM and its beautiful because SON OF POSEIDON IS A GOOD SONG

“maybe my dad was a screwup too, his best laid plans always falling through... maybe he never knew how to care but hey, thats life, and life aint fair... but i think my dad mayve thrown me a line, and better late than never, ill finally get a sign!”

its a good song kids

the kids get to the oceans and they FIGHT ARES and ares and percy are both singing, percy singing The Son Of Poseidon chorus and ares singing Put You In Your Place and its b e a u t i f u l

THE TOILET PAPER THROW- basically they bring in like 6 leafblowers w toilet paper rolls attached and the first five rows get covered in toilet paper. as someone who was in the fifth row, it was amazing

poseidon comes in, they have a Heart To Heart, he brings sally back to life, he flirts with sally, its hilarious and awkward

“the gods are unfair but we’re not total dicks”

percys like “you dont have to stay w gabe anymore” and sallys like “smh boy u cant solve all my problems. you saved my life, now i have to figure out how to live it”

he gives her medusas head

“what is this” “its a... do it yourself scupture kit” “oh! *begins to open it*” “no no no its, um, medusas head”

“well, as my official protector, you can officially escort us back to camp” “and youre conscience this time!”

chiron is also cast as poseidon so like he runs into the camp scene after a quick change and says “i hoofed it here as quick as i could!” 

last day of summer happens and w/e its cute but whAT REALLY MATTERS IS LUKES BETRAYAL: okay so the music slows and goes into the minor key and percys like “we still dont know whos working w chronos :/” lukes like “yeah it sucks” and he starts singing about how he doesnt trust the gods and how the gods hate them and how they need to take over the world and put the gods in their place--he and percy do their handshake fist-to-the-chest thing and luke is serious and percy does it but hes v confused and it Hurts. this is the first time in the show that luke sounds just Bitter and Angry instead of jokingly deprecating and its quite the effect

THE DARK GOOD KID REPRISE 

“ill do anything, i dont care if i hurt anyone, it doesnt pay to be a good kid, a good kid, a good son" GOD IT HURTS luke has so much pain and i feel so bad for him like yeah hes evil but,,, hes had a hard life

annabeth comes in and DISARMS LUKE but PSYCH luke has a small switchblade and STABS PERCY IN THE BACK (bc they cant use scorpions onstage)

percybeth moment interrupted by clarisse’s loud coughing and grover

percys like “we cant just sit here and wait for our parents to fix things.”

“the gods will say we’re impertinent” “we are impertinent” goddamn that symmetry

“are we ever gonna once have it easy?” my poor poor kids

percy- “feeling ready” annabeth- “feeling stoked” grover- “feeling queasy”

THE SEA DOESNT LIKE TO BE RESTRAINED

bring on the monsters is just a Good song

also hey if you got to the end of this, congrats! i have a ltm audio and either in a message or in an off-anon ask and ill hook u up

[r-o-se]

Just a tad bit over 101 thoughts on Produce 101 Season 2 ep 5 [watch it here]

Me: Hahaha 60 thats too many people I won’t talk about all of them

Me: Talks about 58 or so 

Welcome back to my p101 lets play number 763 today i will teach you how to make a diamond sword come for Park Jihoon’s winking stay for emojigate and sad teenagers

1.      It starts with an auditorium clip, BoA is talking about her experiences and a voice crack in Japan when she was a baby and the piano cover of Nayana is truly in the top 101 worst things I’ve heard in a while lmao

2.      I.O.I Sohye, Yoojung and Sohee are the MC’s for this cursed elimination episode

3.      They are showing how to vote and the sub just says ‘you cant vote anyways’ lmao u right bro

4.      Anywawys its time for my faves get fucked I’m gonna be real depressed

5.      I need to get a life I reciognize way too many kids from here

6.      NEW HAIR COLOURS HERE TO SAVE MY LIFE

7.      Some kid just got a shock out of the sudden start of dance battle music

8.      DOYEON AND YOOJUNGGGGG SPECIAL MC’S TO DANCE BATTLE EVERYONE ARE GOIN NUTS

9.      They put Bangarang on one A grader backflipped onto the stage

10.   Soo many people on the stage it’s a mess aahahah

11.   First battle is MMO Daniel vs Cra.ker Haknyeon Danny boy is b-boying and twirling on the ground and Haknyeon b-boys too pretty even evenly but I’m Daniel biased SUE ME

12.    Next Samuel vs CS ent Jinhyung, then Sungwoo vs Kim Yongjin and then GON ent Hong Eunki vs Park Jihoon EUNKI FUCKING HUMPED THE FLOOR LMAO

13.   Ok real talk Eunki is so flexible holy fuck now time for modern dance collab stage by Eunki, then joined by JungJung which is the prettiest fucking collab of this entire show this far wow I’m shook they twirl and shit so prettily msg me for link I’m on phone rn rip

14.   Is that….. Seunho??? Surely not??

15.   Hyungseob and Moonbok kings of embarrassing themselves and

16.   They played what does the fox say… rly now… and then BTS Fire… And then Very Very Very…. Who the fuck made this playlist lmao

17.   Ok they’re choosing the dancing king now we all know its Jaesuk but still

18.   ITS HONG EUNKI YOOO HE DESERVED IT GOOD BOY GOOD BOYYYYYYYYY

19.   Entire D grade got new bootsies thanks to Eunki’s performance yoooo both modern dance babes are there

20.   They playin Nayana on ungodly hours Daehwi looks like he wants to stab himself and everyone are dancing in their beds or on the floor whatever goes

21.   Someone’s sleepin in a Pikachu onsie

22.   Lots of half naked and confused boys running lmao quality content Baekho looks dead inside

23.   JONGHYUN GOT THERE FIRST GOTTA BLAST

24.   Some rando trainees stroking Guanlins soft sleepy face same lmao get it

25.   Some dude came up and he looks like he could snap me in half

26.   That dude is gonna measure their shoulders and get them to sweat blood probably

27.   How the fuck did Ren just do this w his shoulders omg what on earth

28.   Bunny Danik won shoulder competition with 60cm

29.   Little Woojin has problems with holding plank poor baby

30.   NOW PLANK WITH ONE HAND HOLY SHIT

31.   ARM WRESTLING WITH PLANK YOU SERIOUS

32.   Omg the dude who goes against Jihoon, it’s Sunghyuk I think, is like ‘will I get evil edited?’ LMAOO DUDE KNOWS anyways he won

33.   It is actual arm wrestle time damn son

34.   MUSCLE SHOT COMPILATION I APPREACIATE YE BOII

35.   Baekho can’t show his arms bc he has tats I’m so emo over this

36.   Lmao one dude winked during 1v1 arm wrestling and the other due is like ‘why are u making this weird’

37.   EVERYONE ARE DOING SEXUAL ASS FACES IM W E A K AAHAHAHAHA

38.   Kenta told his opponent to ‘eat well’ or some shit in Japanese which apparently sounds like ‘fucking bastard’ in Korean aaahahah

39.   Everyone are soo hype over this macho battle (Including me lmao)

40.   I think they are going against their song teams

41.   Bruuuuuuuhhh KIM YONGBIN IS RIPPED

42.   AAAAAHAHAH ITS BIL TEAM 1 POPULAR BABIES VS TEAM 2 BUFF FUCKBOIS THIS IS SO FUCING FUNNY AAAHAHAHAH

43.   Baekho: alright everyone come here

Team 1: *takes a step back*

44.   He fucking destroyed everyone POOR CHILDREN AAHAH FUCK DUDE

45.   Haknyeon played around with Guanlin aka the weak child of team 2 and now Baekho is taking revenge this is the most unlikely friendship of this show and I LOVE IT

46.   Guanlin is havin the time of his life laughing poor baby Haknyeon got his arm fuckin smashed

47.   Oh my goddddd its elimination time for reals now I want to fucking dieeeee

48.   Almost 25 MILLION votes in total holy fuuuuuuckkkk

49.   Everyone are scared as hell out of their minds and holding hands

50.   FCUK DUDE IF JINWOO OR HAN MINHO ARE DROPPING THEN I AM FUCKING DEPRESSED

51.   Park Woodam fell from 1st place from onstage voting to 68th overall holy shiiiiiiittt people are cruel

52.   If it’s like last season and they show all trainees one by one I don’t think I’ll say all of them out only the special ones esp to me because I’m biased ok SORRYYY

53.   One kid just got saved by his 3000 vote benefit

54.   INSU MADE IT FUCK DUDE THANK GOD HE DROPPED SO MUCH THO

55.   HWISEUNG BABE GOT THEREE GET EM HIGHJ NOTES AND HIGH VOTES MY BOY he fell too tho?? Everyone I love are falling w h y

56.   WOO DAM WOO DAM WOO DAM MADED ITTT aahahahah Sohee is supporting him too

57.   Me: I’ll only mention the ones I know

Me: *Talks about everyone*

58.   Kim Youngjin made itttt AND BYUN HYUNMIN THE KTIGER TOO YESSSSS

59.   Sunghyuk rose from 95 to 51 wooowwww holy SHIT HES CRYIN SO HARD BABY BABY BABY

60.   Miracles do happen kids

61.   Jungjung fell but still made the cut I’m so blessed

62.   RBW Hwanung made it but he has fallen a lot so many have fallen in ranks who are the ones who rose??

63.   Ha Minho made it… fuck dude I’m so depressed I really liked him so much… when the news broke out… I’m fucking depressed how could he do it? I was really rooting for him hard… I’m so sad how could he…..

64.   JINWOO MADE IT JINWOO JINWOO JINWOO MADE IT FUCK IM SO BLESSED FUCK DUDE JINWOO MADE IT

65.   If MMO doesn’t debut after this all together I’m gonna sue CJM

66.   Jinwoo was at 80th spot at one point fun fact he made it to 45 because hes so fucking great ok LOVE JINWOO I BEG U GUYS HES AMAZING

67.   SANGGYUN MADE IT TOOOO AND THE CUTE RAPPER FROM MANSAE TEAM WOO JINYOUNG TOO

68.   Visual choosing time lmao a number of them chose themselves

69.   Ong Seungwoo is so fucking sassy and pretty and KNOWS hes pretty his expressions are sooo good holy fuck

70.   Ren got 7th from visual ranking wow I’ll pretend to be surprised

71.   Hyungseob got 6 hell yeaaaaa DUDEEE Seunho got 5th for his baby image

72.   MINHYUN GOT 4TH IVE ALWAYS TOLD EVERYONE HE HAS THE  PERFECT IDOL LFACE KITTY EYES AND EVERYTHING NOT YALL SEE WHAT I MEAN NOW U OPEN UR EYES

73.   ‘When he’s not smiling he’s hot and when he smiles he is cute’ I AGREE

74.   Hwang Minhyun king of having single eyelids and a soft round nose and STILL being fucking perfect even to Korea’s killing standards

75.   Holy shit Guanlin is #3 both Cube boys soooo high ranked

76.   Top 2 is between Jihoon and Bae Jinyoung lmaoo classical cute idol visuals

77.   Jihoon won and even tho his wink is overhyped I do admit he is killer gorgeous

78.   Back to eliminations it’s sadness time

79.   ‘Full of expressions’ ‘Oh it’s Justin!’ It’s Jisung cmon

80.   ITS NOT JISUNG IT’S A KID FROM 93RD RANK  YEEHYEON HOLY SHITTT

81.   What is the bunny hop thing Jihoon keeps doing wtf its so cute

82.   EUNKI GOT THERE 36TH PLACE AND THE OTHER S.HOW TRAINEE DONGSU MADE IT TOO IM SO SO SO PROUD AND KIM YONGGUK AND KIM TAEMIN YOOOO MY BOYSSS

83.   YUEHUA FAM GOINN UP ONE BY ONE JUSTIN MY SMALL KIDDO LOVE U

84.   JELLY HEESEOK MADE IT GOD BLESS UP BLESS UP JELLY PRIDE

85.   KENTA YOOOO MY BABY JAPANESE RICKY PRETTY CUTIE BABY BOY

86.   HOTSHOT TAEHYUN MADE IT TOO HE LOOKS SO SOFT WITH PALE HAIR

87.   Everyone from Vibe have made it besides Hyunwoo…. God damn sad….

88.   BIG WOOJIN MADE IT IM HAPPYYYYY HYUNBBIN AND SUNGWOO AND SUNGWOON TOO AAHHHH TOOO FUCKK IM SHOOKT

89.   This is the ghost hidden camera ft emotional letter to yourself kinda cheesy lmao

90.   Aaaaahahah Kenta took the chair to swing at the mirror and Hyungseob actually fucking flinged his chair towards the camera, slipped on the floor and then ran out

91.   Seungwoo looks like the scream painting aaahahah fuck

92.   Guanlins reactions are so slow this is fucking hilarious hes like those sloths from zootopia

93.   AAAAAaaahahah fuck Moonbok was really into the talking to himself thing that when the ghost appeared he was like ?? what

94.   Omg they’re dragging Baekho’s beard now lmaooo my fuckboi babe NU’EST have been dragging his facial care way before p101 get on witht it

95.   MMO won’t shut up is the next talking topic apparently it’s because Jisung won’t shut up lmao I LOVE ALL OF THEM

96.   Jihoon’s fashion is the next thing in drag list aahahah poor boy

97.   Ok back to eliminations time to be sad

98.   ‘Loved by other trainees… Pledis Kang Dongho’ u sure they all look so scared of him lol

99.   Ren right after him 20th and 19th places and 18th is the little Woojin and 17th Euiwoong

100.   16TH KIM JAEHWAN MY DUDE MY DUDE YOOOO INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE PRIDE

101.   AAAAHAHAHHA SEUNHO WANTED TO STAND UP ASAP THEY SAID CUBE LIL BIRD KNEW IT AAHAHHA

102.   Moonbok dropped a lot goddamn this is weird kinda ironic considering I’m finally starting to warm up to him aahahah

103.   Sewoon got there Jinyoung got there

104.   BAEKHOS NICKNAME IS SEXY BANDIT AAHAHAH I BET HES HAPPY ABOUT IT AAHAH FUCK HES SO FUNNY

105.   MINHYUN BACK IN TOP 11 YEA BOIIIII

106.   Haknyeon is dropped to 10 wow damn ok but lbr mnet hates him for something they don’t show him at all lmao what did the poor boy do

107.   Guanlin is 9 lil kid aw WAIT WHAT HE SPEAKS ENGLISH??

108.   JONGHYUN IS 8  IM SO SO SO PROUOF OF HIM HE DESERVES IT SO MUCH IM SO GLAD HE GOT THERE BABY BOY HIS EYE CONTACT W MINHYUN BEFORE SITTING NU’EST LOVE IS REAL

109.   Daehwis rank dropped holy shitttt hes 7th?? Goddamn? Wow? From 2 to 7 goddamn WAIT HE SAID HE’LL BE LESS ANNOYING UR NOT ANNOYING BABY I PROMISE U CUTE

110.   HYUNGSEOB MADE ITTTTT FUCK DUDE  

111.   DANNY BOY DANNY BOY DANIK DANIK MADE IT HE IS 5TH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE AINT EVEN PINK ANYMORE BUT HE STILL BUNNY CUTE

112.   JISUNG HAS RISEN SO MUCH DUDE IM SO PROUD OF HIM also lmao Daniel almost fell over in his chair when he appeared

113.   Jaehan and Taewoong are a bit salty… I’m too ugh I love them so much I’m emo they didn’t make it…

114.   Dam son Seungwoo just said he’d wanna have a battle with Samuel he goin all out giving Mnet material aahahaha

115.   JISUNG IS THE THIRD BRUH HE IS THIRD HES CRYING I LOVE HIM FUCK THIS IS SO SAD MMO GETS SEPARATED AND JISUNG IS SO EMO FUCK THIS IS SO CUTE AAHAHHAHA HE HAS RISEN FROM 35 FIRST WEEK TO 3RD IM SO PROUD OF THIS BOY DANIEL HUGGED HIM ON HIS WAY UP

116.   Now it’s a compilation of good sides of Sammy boy and Jihoon

117.   Jihoon got over a million votes holy fuckin shit and Sammy boy is 2nd

118.   AND NOW TIME FOR THE 60TH PLACE AAAHHHH the candidates are Sangbin, Dongha, Hyunwoo and Wontak

119.   SANGBIN MADE IT THANK GODDDDD INDIVIDUAL TRAINEE PRIDE YOOOO HE RANKED LAST ONSITE VOTING AND NOW HES HERE IM SO SO SO PROUD

120.   Hyunwoo is tearing up during his speech…… poor boy got 61st place… this is so depressing truly a shitty rank to be at…

121.    So……. Moonboks buddy is off, Youngbin the nose boy got eliminated, MMO is divided, Yuehua Seunghyuk got left behind alone, Gunmin the kid who got hit with balls during his intro clip is gone and Im Woohyuk aka the kid mnet edited to look bad is gone too. Riperoni

anyways ya this was sad heres a screenshot of daniel almost falling overr w his chair + some other shit lol

holy trinity of ‘pretty and knows it’

save small cute sungwoon

[sensitivitysensitivity]

books i read summer 2018!

so, here’s all of the books that i read over the time of like, end of may to august, including my star rating as well as a short synopsis and a brief little paragraph about what i thought about it while i watch comedians in cars getting coffee. don’t read my reviews if you don’t want ANY spoilers. the reviews aren’t spoilery, it just has some hints to the end and such. 

i. the hate u give by angie thomas

★ ★ ★ ★ ★

the hate u give is about a young african american girl named starr who is present when her childhood best friend is tragically murdered in an unwarranted act of police brutality, and how she finds her voice and the strength to speak out about the matter of police brutality with the support of her family and friends, as well as finding out who her real supporters are.

i adored this book with every last bit of my heart. the characters are absolutely hysterical, as well as strong and inspiring. i even loved starr’s stereotypical white boyfriend (who is being played by KJ Apa in the film adaption coming out this year and i literally yelled). i loved the way the book incorporated social media and such without making it seem as if teenagers are simply media obsessed. it really showed many different perspectives and sides to arguments that make you think, as well as inspire you to stand up for something you believe in.

ii. emergency contact by mary h.k choi

★ ★ ★ ☆ ☆

emergency contact follows two college students who are seemingly lost in life, dealing with issues in their respective lives, who meet under strange and awkward circumstances, and take a liking to one another and start a friendship that consists almost entirely of text messages as they help one another through their woes of life, and develop feelings for one another cause yanno its a YA romance.

i didn’t NOT enjoy this book, but it wasn’t my favorite. i found penny’s character kind of annoying, and really rude sometimes, and i didn’t really love her dynamic with any of the characters, including sam who is the guy she is texting throughout the book. i really liked how realistic it was, kind of giving a real look into how life works i guess? i thought sam’s storyline with his ex girlfriend was incredibly dramatic and unneeded and it frustrated me, and the end of the story literally wasn’t affected at all by that storyline, it was just not needed. at all. like the ending was like cute and sam was cool but it was just kinda not as good as everyone online said it was. if it would’ve ended differently it would’ve gotten two stars lol.

iii. every day by david levithan

★ ★ ★ ★ ☆

every day is the story of a genderless character that goes by the name of a, who jumps around from body to body every day into the life of somebody else, but they meet a girl, rhiannon, while in someone else’s life and they fall in love with her, and they then spend every day finding ways back to her

that was real hard to explain okay, but i really, really enjoyed this book. i found some aspects a little repetitive and it took some time to get to the point, but it was such a sweet story, and i loved getting to know each of the characters that a used as a host, and i enjoyed figuring out which characters that i liked more. i also liked the slight thrill of the kid who is trying to get a caught, as well as the ‘reverend’ who has the same condition as a, but learns to control it. i usually don’t like an open ending, but i liked this one since it implies a goes away to find out how to control himself and get back to rhiannon. overall i enjoyed it, and it was fun to read and get to know the characters, but i gained nothing from reading it because the ending was open and it felt like there was no actual point. i don’t know it was good.

iv. play me backwards by adam selzer

★ ★ ☆ ☆ ☆

play me backwards is a really freaking weird story about the misadventures of leon who finds out his childhood girlfriend is possibly going to come visit, and is pushed down a rabbit hole of weird tasks he is sent to do by his best friend stan, who apparently is actually satan, such as finding the white grape slushee, date a popular girl, and listen to the full audio book of moby dick, all the while spending almost all of his time at the run down ice cream shop he works at. honestly that’s the best i can do the book is super freaking strange?

the weird thing about this book is that i actually really enjoyed reading it, and i actually really liked the character of leon, but i genuinely had no idea what the hell was going on the entire time. he was just kind of running around, like messing around with his girlfriend he didn’t like, thinking about some british girl, and being a lowkey satanist. like i have no idea what the point was, i honestly don’t even know what it was about. leon was a relatable character and he was funny, and i enjoyed his point of view, but the book was bad. the idea sucked and i felt like i was wasting my time reading it. but i had a fictional crush on leon and the ending like kinda forced itself into having a point, even though it was a stretch, so two stars only for leon. but i liked it. i don’t know. 

v. eliza and her monsters by francesca zappia

★ ★ ★ ★ ☆

eliza and her monsters is about a young girl, eliza, who writes/draws a world renound web comic, monstrous sea, but remains completely anonymous except to her three best online friends and her family, but then she befriends the new student at school, wallace, and she finds out he is that he is the most popular fanfiction writer for her webcomic, she finds it harder and harder to keep her secret as she falls in love. 

so i read this book in ONE NIGHT. it was really good, and never failed to entertain me. i couldn’t blame eliza for falling in love with wallace cause girl i did too. he was such a cute character and so were her internet friends, and so were all the characters and i loved reading all of the little snipits of the webcomic, it was just adorable, and their love was adorable, and it was just adorable. plus it really puts a nice look on mental illness, and im not talking about eliza, wallace had extreme anxiety and it was very real and i really appreciated it. took away a star because eliza pissed me off on multiple occasions and i found her annoying a lot. other than that rEally great. 

vi. i’ll give you the sun by jandy nelson

★ ★ ★ ★ ★

i’ll give you the sun is told from the perspective of twins noah and jude during two very separate periods of time in their lives, jude telling her story at age sixteen and noah at age thirteen, as they go through life, and falling in love, and family secrets and tragedies as the grow apart and back together.

okay so i didn’t know how to explain this without spoiling it completely, but WOW i loved this book. i genuinely couldn’t decide if i liked noah or jude’s story better, and finally decided on the answer being BOTH. it was so good, so emotional, noah and brian made me sob and so did jude and oliver, and i loved the characters and all the revelations they had and im just rambling and i feel like im making no sense but jesus, this book was amazing and the story was just so absolutely amazing. not a single flaw in this book. absolutely amazing OH ! MY ? GOD! absolute favorite of the summer.

vii. the absolutely true diary of a part time indian by sherman alexie

★ ★ ★ ★ ☆

the absolutely true diary of a part time indian is the critically acclaimed novel about a teenage boy, junior, who had many medical issues who lives in an indian reservation, but decides that he is destined for greater things and decides to transfer to the “white school”, and he faces many challenges such as finding his place at this school and the backlash of the other members of the reservation. 

it was very difficult for me to like this book, at first because of the fact that i read it for school, but then ONLY for the fact that i found out about the sexual assault charges against the author, and im so upset i bought the book and essentially supported the author before i was aware olf that, but that doesn’t change that i had to read this for school, and that i actually liked it. it was very aware of racism and a lot of racial stereotypes and provided very raw experiences and the drawings were fun to read. i don’t really wanna go on cause i don’t wanna praise it too much, but i took away a star cause sometimes i found it repetitive and some things simply didn’t have a point, but i liked it. 

viii. a semi-definitive list of worst nightmares by krystal sutherland

★ ★ ★ ★ ☆

this book tells the odd story of esther solar, who believes her whole family is cursed by Death, and whatever fear that cripples them throughout life will kill them. but the curse is threatening the life of her twin brother, eugene, she decides to face every fear she has written down on her list of things she must avoid so she never has to face the curse herself, with the help of an unlikely friend, to lure Death to them and reverse the curse. 

so that summary probably little to no sense at all. because the book itself is so difficult to explain, but i actually really enjoyed it. it took me a while to read it, but i loved it. esther was a real character, with so many real flaws, and her ‘friend’ jonah who helped her overcome all of her fears, really brought out the best parts of her, as well as bringing light to the nature of abuse. the book dealt with a lot of real problems, such as mental illness, and does it in such a lovely and sensitive way, but without holding back, as well as showing someone who seemingly had no hope, get better, which i find amazing. the only reason i took a star away was because so many parts dragged on and i got bored sometimes, but overall, it was a great read with so many great characters and it was very whimsical and enjoyable!

ix. crazy rich asians by kevin kwan

★ ★ ★ ★ ☆

crazy rich asians follows rachel chu and her boyfriend nick young as he brings her home to his ‘crazy rich’ family that he hasn’t prepared her for at all, and essentially don’t approve of her, as well as it follows everyone in nick’s extended and immediate family as well as some family friends and their extravagant lifestyles as well as all the drama that comes with being that freaking rich. 

okay i adore this book. it was absolutely amazing, and i could barely begin to tell you all of the amazing characters and storylines, each one more interesting and intricate and extravagant than the next. i loved the representation, and accurate representation at that, of the asian culture. it was just great. other than being somewhat hard to follow at times with the constant perspective change, i loved it. the movie was rlly good too lol. 

x. the kissing booth by beth reekles

★ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

the kissing booth is the absolutely dreadful story of a young girl, elle evans, and her best friend, lee flynn, as they plan a kissing booth for their high schools fundraiser (for what? i have no clue) and elle ends up kissing her best friends older brother, noah flynn, and by a strange turn of events they fall into a forbidden (because lee makes the rules ig) romance. 

really ended off the summer GREAT with this one! it sucked, it was horrible. there were actual, typos? in the book? it was incredibly sexist, literally making elle seem like a piece of property, and theres MULTIPLE occasions of sexual assault that is glossed over. in fact, the best friend lee assaults her (slapping her butt without permission) and when someone ELSE assaults her he says “no one is allowed to do that but me” thats reason ENOUGH. it’s gross how they both try and control her, and its honestly just bad. the story is all over the place, and it feels like a wattpad book, because it literally is, and i payed six dollars for it. so the jokes on me ig.