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starbee comic,,, if u get the reference then u understand a pivotal part of how i see their dynamic
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Bee x scream is like if that one rlly bubbly & makes herself seem ditzy and cute girl to everyone to have friends who'll dump her the moment they get a bf & she's probably on the spectrum but no one notices or cares to delve deeper into her bcs she's so 'cute' & smiles & masks to be liked ( bcs she doesnt want anyone to delve deeper into her personality & realize shes actually Not perfect miss lil daddys girl purity ring ) was forced to be stuck with The Bitchtm intimidating weird girl who's also undiagnosed but everyone knows there's Something with her & treated her differently in a way they Think is discreet but She Knows & no matter how hard she tries, everyone's gonna have this Undertone with her so she's just given up on trying to seem pleasant to everyone but still desperately wants to be loved & has a slight clue as to why ppl keep hating her even when she tries for them not to for once but still can't get an answer bcs her life sucks and diagnosis is expensive and she has no time and she's - omg why is this bitch (bee) making her notes all cute with big colorful fonts & organized by alphabetical shade marker collection haha she's so weird (<- is Also weird bcs hes starscream). im gonna ask to borrow one of her favorite markers (the baby blue one) and dry it out while she stares at me with big wet eyes trying to find a polite way to put 'im gonna kill you' in a sentence
#bee instantly introduces himself to a new person bcs hes thrilled at the idea of molding his own perfect image in#a clueless person's mind and purposefully hangs out with ppl who are worse off than him so he can focus#on helping their problems rather than focusing on his own & also it helps him feel like a Good Mech#bcs hes just SO NICE. RIGHT ?#meanwhile star instantly introduces himself as a powerful bitch rather than a helping hand#so ppl know to back tf off and respect order and if they dont respect order than at least theyll try not to hang around#but he also hangs around worse ppl to feel better abt himself except it's not a secret but what Is secret is how he#wishes he didnt always have to scare off nice ppl bcs hes sxared of breaking their sparks bcs it'll inevitably happen bcs hes Starscream#idk tho maybe im insane#bag u a bitch that say yepperooni#bumblebee#starscream#im like insane abt these two but like in an insane not quirky im so different way but like the wtf made u think that#way that i cant explain normally bcs im not normal abt them#starbee#transformers#maccadam#transformers idw#tf idw#need moots that love starbee like im not used to being in big fandoms.. im used to tightknit lil followers who all reblog the same 5 posts#bcs theyre all insane abt it & wanna have a conversation like i love funny tags over 100+ likes any day#pls dont be afraid to yap in tags comments or asks like i love yapp look at me I LOOOVEEE YAPPPP
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Ok. I work on a floor with 2 bunsen burners and a flamible/combustible liquids cabnet. Last week, I realized I didn't know where the fire extinguisher was (despite frequently using an open flame). Turns out it is out the door and down the hall. About as far from the fire hazards as possible. And I can't stop thinking abt it. Like. That feels fucking crazy right? I ask bc I seem to be the only person who cares. I told my advisor that I think we should have more fire extinguishers and he looked at me blank faced (despite the fact that he had to actively wander around the whole floor bc he also didn't kno where it was). And like yeah, in 20 years they haven't had a fire and maybe they never will but this feels like a fucking common sense preventative measure? It's just tempting fate. The hubris of not putting a fire extinguisher next to a bunsen burner is driving me crazy?? It's not even in the same god damn room! You would have to run out the room, sprint down the hall, open the case, and sprint back to use it! Why am I the only one who cares???
#am i just a fucking rule following loser??? maybe. but like. it seems like not a single person gives a fuck abt safety in the god damn state#im in the fucking land of liberatarians and everyone just seems fine to pour live cultures down the sink and let ppl walk thru the outskirts#of a superfund site without protective equipment. fucking. god dammit. they dont even make u do lab safety training!!!!#at my last school i had to do online trianing. take a test and get it renewed every year. then get special training for hazardous waste#disposal bc we autoclaved our biological waste. which we dont fucking do here. here u take a common sense test that one of ur peers#basically assumes u passed and there u go. ur trained to work in the lab. and my last fucking school was not in some progressive utopia#i was in the southwest. i didn't kno we could get more yeehaw hands off than that. i just. its crazy#and i feel like im the only one who cares. and i feel like im being a cry bby for saying something but im not gonna fucking let it go#bc it is one of my greatest god damn fears to make a stupid fucking mistake and not be able to fix it in a way that was clearly fucking#preventable. so like fuck u. accidents fucking happen. my friend had to use a fire extinguisher last semester bc she started an ethanol fire#ugh. my advisor said he would talk to someone higher up at the University bc it feels like this should b their problem. Anyway. i told my#dad abt this and he was absolutely astounded bc he works for the government and they have a million safetly standards#ugh. i hate this. this is why ppl dont fucking speak up when they see something weird. now i gotta b a neurotic lil safety bitch#unrelated
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Pinoy Pride Headcanons ft.Cherik
Charles ain't a sweet tooth himself but he does occationally eat some good 'ol Halo Halo. He is as well likes ube (cakes, rice cakes etc.) 'cause its reminds him of Erik (the color purple hehe)
Erik do enjoy Lumpiang Sariwa than Lumpia itself (IK CONTROVERSIAL BUT-)
Charles and Erik argue what Filipino dish is good between Sinigang or Adobo. But they settle with agree to disagree about it instead lol
They both hate Balot - Erik is mortified about it tbf
That's all for my goofy Pinoy Pride on your ask Snap :D
Im gonna keep it 100 if youre arguing sinigang to be better than adobo my friend you lost the second you opened your mouth LIKE SINIGANG DELICIOUS but adobo is grossly iconic
#snap chats#i was JUST dragged to my mom’s friends house for filipino . linner.#dude the adobo my mom’s friend made. holy fuck i had never eaten adobo that tender and delicious#my family’s adobo is a lil on the tougher and more-savory side so having this sweet and soft/juicy adobo…. i have couvid#and oh my god im so hungey thinking of it- LECHON KAWALI UGH so delicious#i know erik could fuck up a whole pig but charles would def enjoy the smaller bits- esp that pork belly……… 😩#i feel like erik wouldnt mind balot tbh- maybe not his first choice#but hed prob be poetic about it… if hes poetic about Raw Steak then theres gotta be room for baby duck in the egg#like i feel like erik’s a lot more Open in his pallet- he’ll find a way to eat most anything/palletable to himself#Oh No My Chef Erik HC Coming Out ANYHOW. as for charles..#i do wanna say he might be a bit pickier- notP PICKY picky buuuut i do see having to convince him to try balot#not pancit tho…… bitch im just hungry sorry…… i really want pancit 🤤#charles would love stuffed milkfish. just so i can try to stay on topic#and you can never go wrong with sisig………#you CAN go wrong with lumpiang sariwa OVER REGULAR LUMPIANG????#please…… my head hurts already from not eating yet…….. dont do this to me…#honestly you know what’d be a cute treat for the boys to have ? taho#so simple yet so yummy.. i havent made it in a while- i reckon i should…#maybe this weekend who’s to say….#for now i should. probably eat djPWDNSJ#ALAS… none of it filipino food…..#thank you for letting me think of filipino food for the time being tho… maybe if i stop beinf lazy for once i can cook some this weekend…
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the worst part about finding more and more about totk that i dont like is that ... it seems like one of my biggest fears is going to become true; all of my previous hyperfixations died because a new thing of the franchise came out and i didnt like it, turned that strange, perhaps unhealthy, love and attachment into disappointment and sadness and im afraid thats happening to zelda right now, the one hyperfixation i hoped could last or at the very least i would just grow slowly away from in a good way if it was just totk that i didnt like, tho its hard to see all the love people have for it and just ... feel the opposite about it, it would be fine (heck i really disliked links awakening but ultimately i just regret spending so much money on it, it didnt impact my feelings about the rest of the franchise) but because it diminishes everything about botw too .. a game that i still love deeply, its not fine aside from me not liking anything they did with the zonau, it basically steamrolled botw too, damn near ignoring it ever happened, cramming in zonau stuff where it wasnt before just so its literally everywhere, taking its mysterious and answerign them in boring ways, implying that stuff i loved so much about botw was yet just another zonau thing (the three dragons possibly having been zonau ..........the ancient hero mystery being .. that.......) people basically claiming as fact that its somehow slammed into the old timeline despite it making no sense nor has any evidence aside from some names that happened to be used once before or them saying whats the point of ever looking at botw again bc totk does everything "better" ...
you cant ignore it really, even if i try to ignore what i dont like, i know whats revealed in totk, and others know it too.
and in turn it all makes me go back to that strange self hatred i thought i had finally left behind, the why do i care so much, its stupid to care so much about a piece of media i have no control about anyway, whats the point of caring so much, you have wasted so much time and effort and thought and tears about something like this, why are you so weird, why cant you just be like everyone else and love it all, why are you like this, stop being like this.
knowing i cant stop being like this, fearing from the start it might happen just like it has so many times, that i fall in love with a piece of media so much that when it gets a new thing that i dont like but affects every aspect of it it all flips into anger first, then disappointment and sadness and in end into wishing i wasnt weird like this, knowing i cant change it ... and it turning out true
#ganondoodles talks#i dont know how to feel#i dont want to lose interest i really dont#but im seeing it happen just like it has all these times before#on top of feeling bad for beign so negative#also feeling like the villain here bc so few people have the same criticisim as me#the only people that dont like it are those posting rants on youtube complaining about enemy variety or whatever#the game wasnt what i expceted nor what i hoped but weird thrid worse thing#that i dont know how to feel about#.... not to mention being afraid of making myself hated for being the way i am#probably the reason why so many popular zelda artists i liked and even talked to suddendly completely shadowbanned me#im afraid of losing everyone i got to know in this fandom#for being over emotional and annoying i guess#or maybe i am just a bitch#maybe they are right#maybe theres a good reason i never joined the ranks of cool and relatable popular artists#and maybe its better for me to stay in my weird lil bubble
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Gonna risk my life saying this opinion but here goes wtv lol: the lost trio’s potential & the broken trio’s backstory>>>the og trio’s canon
#maybe percy just got too overhyped for me 🤷#ok WAIT I don’t hate him I actually love his character#but it’s the same thing with leo#ppl kept hyping them up and mentioning them EVERYWHERE that they got boring for me#fan favs are never my favs sorryy#wait that sounded so fucking pick me 😭😭#listen im sorry it’s just like that for me in every fandom#same with remus & regulus in mainstream marauders fandom#not that the two of their characters are anyway even hovering near their canon selves rn#and yeah u have enough info from canon to know they’re at least not like#(gestures hand) yk like THAT#and put ur pesky lil fingers away from accusing me of being a jkr dick rider#hate that bitch so fucking much#mithi's own#slightly less beloveds#the lost hero#the lost trio#the broken trio#the og trio#pjo hoo toa#percy jackson#rick riordan#percy jackon and the olympians#the seven pjo#pjoverse#pjo hoo#pjo hoo toa tsats#pjo series#pjo fandom#pjo
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a little wip post just to show im still in the zelda brainrot stage + quite happy with how this is coming along so far.......
#kunst huli#experimenting a lil bit.....................just gona let it be messy. as much as i can#ive seen the linktober thing............and i wish i could join but i dont think i have the energy.....but maybe one of these days....#a little link. as a treat#also my job is being such a bitch. the amount of disrespect these people have for the cleaning staff is baffling#what do u mean i have to work for 6 days this week. without overtime? without overtime pay? hey? hey??????? im going to [redacted]#their office
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bitches be like. i hate vegans so much that i’ve decided i like killing animals and its fine and i dont feel bad and animals dont have feelings and its fine and im cool subversive and different and edgy and like to post fucked up stuff to make vegans uncomfortable bc im just so cool
#you sound like every cishet republican man to me#you're not a Cool Subversive Leftist you're literally regressing by seeing animals as just objects of your pleasure and thats it lmao#im sorry but you dont just get to throw out all of veganism. it does infact have some roots in leftism.#you can sit there and cope with the fact you agree w some vegan talking point by calling it 'animal welfare' all you want#doesnt change the fact that a lot of those ideas in those circles were formed by vegans.#damn woooah vegans arent a monolith and dont all agree on the same shit woooahhh who knew#literally i have no idea how we even got to this point or how this would be surprising.#when i was on vegan twitter bitches were arguing all the fucking time within it. ur really gonna sit ther en tell me they're all secret#eco fash that hates native ppl and people who have to eat meat? ya sure???#you would think the individuals on tumblr- of all places- would understand how frustrating it would be to be grouped in with the worst#members of their community as if you represent them and are the sole spokesperson#you'd think they'd hate when someone jumps to conclusions about them based on their lifestyle#but naur. i think yall take it too personally. as if a vegan just being in a room is somehow trying to force you to be vegan.#literally grow tf up.#if a vegan being in the same room with you triggers feelings in you that you Have to stop eating meat- i really think thats a you problem#bud. homeboy hasnt even spoke to you leta lone look at you and apparently you feel this weird pressure now#idk man dont you think that pressure might be coming within?? maybe.... you do infact feel things and feel a lil guilty abt eating meat?#not telling you to stop... i still eat meat here n there. but at least im honest with myself about how it makes me feel to do it.#its infact normal to take a second to think about the loss someone made in exploitation to provide you with whatever.#if you can let yourself feel a lil guilt about buying a fast fashion thing you can sure as fuck finally extend your fuckin empathy to#animals and stop treating them like objects or toys.
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#so im gonna be a lil bitch on main for a minute#ive been offline for a while#pretty much absent from all my socials#im in a pickle financially like i have no money anywhere#my credit cards are maxxed#my bank account is negative 400 dollars#im getting 20 dollars less in disability benefits a month without a clear reason for the witholding#granted its only 20 bucks less but that still makes a huge difference when thats my ONLY source of income#AND i am moving into a new apartment which should be an exciting experience finally moving out of my parents house and on my own and all BU#even with the voucher program i would need an additional 600 to be able to afford my rent share and utilities#on top of being negative 400 dollars a month so now thats -1000#WHICH end result and the crux of this whole rant#i can no longer help#like i am fucking useless right now and people are literally dying#i have many unanswered asks from gazans right now that I cannot even help bc im so broke#it feels really bad bruv like reallybad#feels like absolute shit#and it ust feels so wrong to ask for help when others need it more#like i dont think i could do that#wtf man#is it me upset that my entire disability check goes to bills to the point where i overdraft every month? yeah sure#my art does not sell and ive tried everything! like it just DOES NOT sell#and it all kinda boils down to me not having any sort of following online#i just breached 200 followers here after 13 years on this website#most are inactive blogs from years ago so i maybe have like... 10 active followers?#whiny usamerican rant over for now#delete later
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haunted by the knowledge that sega loves referencing their franchises and how many missed opportunities there were for kiryu to meet sonic the hedgehog
#snap chats#//me three seconds before making this post// im going to make a post SO niche#NO LISTEN TO ME sega all star tennis.... sonic riders...... ok those are all the examples i got BUT STILL#like in sonic riders you get to play as three non-sonic sega ips AND the sega carnival levels are literally just love letters to sega ips#MY BROTHER IN CHRIST THEY GOT OPA OPA THERE !!!!! they even have vehicles based off of Super Hang On and Hang On#and when you equip them the ost changes to those games' themes !!!!!!!#shaking and crying cause at the sega carnival they have a spot for crazy taxi WHICH#AGAIN I HAVE TO REITERATE THE AMOUNT OF LOVE SEGA SHOWS FOR THEIR IPSLK i love...#anyway i have a reason for this mention. sit and hallucinate with me kiryu having to Be A Taxi Driver#and then he gotta drive sonic bitch ass around. durin a fuckin race#the urge to make a comic of that is so strong.... and the fact kiryu and sonic are in it means it'd be funny to a lot of people...#SURE the enjoyment of sonic riders is niche APPARENTLY but everyone like kiryu... eveyrone like sonic...#and itd only be like two panels lol.... im not doing that now tho. or ever maybe idk we know how my motivation is#it'll be there red hot one minute and then gone never to be seen again#it doesnt even have to be a comic it could just be a silly lil doodle#RIP all those comics i have collectin dust in my folders...#ok im done bobmarding eveyrone with Hyper Specific posts. tonight. i promise :)#theres a bonus joke here about daigo being in kiryus taxi again. lol <- please shut up#bye bye now
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"God i hate shuichi SO much he's so pathetic and annoying i wish he died instead of-" 💥💥💥🔫
#mindless chatter#rant#shuichi saihara#Listen i get it. I do i know he's not everyone's favorite#But some of shuichi's haters are so...... good Lord#maybe its cuz i relate and like him a lot but yall are so ruthless and for what#like yknow what.. maybe he isn't that good at being murder cases...... BECAUSE HE WAS NEVER MEANT TO#HIS PREVIOUS DETECTIVE LIFE WAS DEDICATED TO INFIDELITY CASES AND SMALLER SHIT#OFC HE'S NO KYOKO WHY DO YOU THINK HE COMPARES HIMSELF TO HER SM#and how shuichi suffers so Much mentally but noo he's a damn emo boy.......... side EYE#ik most or whatever amount of the hate are jokes but like man i just.. do not Care#Let me browse through his tags online in Peace#This is.. dumb#dont mind me. Its 1030 pm im tired and im a lil bitch about my faves#Normal me is like respect peoples opinions c:#Mental illness me is like THEY HATE CHARACTER? BEAT THEM WITH METAL PIPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I could also apply this to gonta and kaito#But hate for them is less common and more so stuff like#They're dumb as rock and (instead thing that literally isnt them)#Like okay you can say you didn't pay jack shit anout them its fine#Okay thats enough goodbye (walks away with my ass out)
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local audhd having idiot has to do something not related to their hyperfixation and fuCKING EXPLODES!!1!!!!!! /j
#/silly#don't mind me im just trying to brainwash myself into being productive#i am capable of focusing on things. i am capable of focusing on things i am capable of focusing on things.#im using my stupid blog to keep my stupid self accountable#i did a page so now i get to bitch and moan!! as a treat!!#this has zero entertainment value#if this is what my emotional regulation is gonna look like then so be it#*crying and throwing up* i love art its my passion#this might b a sign i OFFICIALLY FR need medication but thats gonna b incredibly hard to achieve. groan. ill figure it out. hopefully soon??#hate my countrys mental health system!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! ill figure it out!!!!!!!#shut up maiora#fandomNOT#is this liveblogging???#maiora shitposts#once i figure out how to hack my own brain chemistry into doing what i want it to its is so over!!!! im gonna kick so much ass!!!#im gonna draw silly comics!! im gonna draw platonic affection in many different ways!! i wanna make shit people find interesting!!#i wanna make shit im gonna be proud of!!! i wanna make my corner of the world a lil less lonely!!!! earnest cringe lessgooooooooooooo!!#maybe ill even learn how to write coherent stories?????? that might be too high to aim at rn but its not impossible!!!#ill figure it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's gonna be okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok ok ok what matters right now is i gotta calm down and lower my heart rate lmao#its gonna be okay#thanks for reading have a nice day!!#<3
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me getting an 88/100 instead of an A in my engl paper because i was too wordy and complex, which led to less conciseness and directness 😐
#i always get the same 2 criticisms#be more direct give it to your reader don't hold back#maybe im just being smart and im a pretentious lil bitch 🙄#arshia talks
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Huh do you guys remember the book tuck everlasting? How the main girl Winnie was a fat ten year old with an immortal love interest who was "17" but actually like 100 n something and the whole thing with him was he wanted her to drink the everlasting water when she turned 17 so shed be 17 forever and they could get married like that was kinda weird he would.like take her just the two of em and talk up marriage with her and she was like TEN ? They changed it in the movie and made her a skinny fifteen year old but still wow I'm surprised why so many christan parents let that romance book be allowed but like....pride n prejudice was a debate? I don't understand the logic of homeschool mother's AT ALL WHY WAS THAT BOOK ALLOWED BUT WHY WAS I SCREAMED AT FOR CHECKING OUT OLD YELLER AT THE LIBRARY BY A HOMESCHOOL MOTHER IN OUR CO-OP???
#like uh i remember reading that book when i was 11#and uh it's a lil weird just saying#i remember being really angry they made her skinny in the movie but uh maybe I'm misremembering but i picked it up to read to my siblings#and once again had to 'lose it' because uhhhhhhhhhh what the fuck#im not sure if the author made it intentionally creepy for jessie to be pushing and preparing her for marriage and being alone with her but#uhhhhhh I didn't like him when i was a kid and i sure as fuck am like wow#I'm not sure if the author was trying to make it negative and about grooming because the homeschool moms always acted like it was romantic#they always went awwwww i wish she hadn't wasted that wayer on a frog but like#idk#once again why was that romance ok but pride n prejudice romance not ok for some homeschool moms?????????????#like we did p&p the play in lur drama troup and uhhhh a lot of familys dropped out#i loved it though i played jane it was so good and fun#also there was.like 6 moms in the homeschool co-op that just made my life H E L L#like they literally humiliated and bullied me constantly and over minor things like reading OLD YELLER?????????#like don't get me STARTED on the harry potter lotr and anything that had magic drama#giving Narnia which is like the most Christian homeschooler books got me in trouble with like four of em BECAUSE MAGOC? EVEN THOUGH ASLAN#just I do not understand the logic#like i just DON'T GET IT#like grooming is romantic but#like magic is evil? and don't you dare read that book where the dog dies you evil little bitch
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#focus who? i dont kno her#its so bad. i csnt focus at all. and ive got way too much to do. take me back to last week where i spent hours reading papers#annoying. also possibly lack of sleep cstching up with me#do u ever get very little sleep and not miss it at all? yea bitch all the time. then i get depressed and its sleepy time#and by sleepy time i mean i get like 8hrs of sleep lol#maybe ill just do nothing and completely fuck over my sunday lol#maybe i should go run up thr mountain rn before im stuck in a car for 2 hrs#bc im getting spikes of being insane. unfortunately i have no emotional object permanence so when i feel crazy its like#ive always felt like this ans its terrible forever. and then immediately afterward im like lol wot? nah im fine. ive always been fine#shout out to mood swings ✌️ like bro im trying to get materials together so i can teach a class. can u shut the fuck up? and focus?#well see how i do today with a ton of socializing. itll b fine. im normal i can b normal#or i can b endearing quirky. or whatever i usually i am. i dont think i have conversations like a normal person but i cant tell bc im not#there for conversations im not in. whatever everyone else has conversations in a way thats boring. i just wanna grill ppl til i understand#how they work. and then feel like im gonna die if im in a group conversation 🙃 let me study thr ppl around me#bc im very normal. god. i promise irl im not that weird. ppl think im nice and cool and successful#ok maybe not cool. but i think i can get away with being interesting. i got at least a lil charisma. im only a bit horribly awkward ;-]#but i try to own it. wtf was i saying. jesus. i cant with my brain rn. i shoulf have gone for a run this morning#being social just makes me anxious so im babbling i guess. but itll b fun. and itll b pretty im sure#maybe ill try to draw my ocs while im not paying attention. ive neglected them for so long 😭#unrelated
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ok since tears of the kingdom is coming out like. insanely soon i figured i’ll just dump how i’ve been feeling abt it here. i wont tag for them and i dont intend to share any but because i have been actively seeking out spoilers i will vaguely reference them here so… idk really long musings on this game and my feelings abt it
(im just writing this out mostly for myself since i really kind of just. want to really figure out how i feel about this)
i… am not excited for totk?
i’ve figured out a bit ago that my severely waning interest in botw and general anxiety and discontent surrounding totk is just that… these games arent for me. i dont enjoy open world games with half a million things for you to do like it’s basically a sandbox. i struggle to really enjoy singleplayer minecraft. the space stage in spore gives me genuine anxiety, both when i played it as a kid and again when i reached it as an adult.
botw and totk are not games for me, and that’s cool. i’ve figured that out.
so why am i getting so damn anxious about this new game?
i am getting totk- not entirely of my own volition, i live with someone who is very genuinely excited for it, so it’s pre-ordered digitally on our switch. i am going to play it and complete it at least once.
the gameplay and world of botw never really got to me, and even what snippets of gameplay i see for totk dont really entice me. it just makes me anxious to think about the sheer amount of new stuff i’ll be dropped in the middle of and how i really dont care about this version of link or zelda or anyone else in botw’s hyrule
and some of the story spoiler stuff and general direction this game is going in has me just worried that the zelda series is moving away from what it used to be into an entirely new direction, that being a direction that it seems like i wont enjoy as much as everyone else seems to
so then i guess my main worry outside of totk is that i just end up struggling to really feel connected to the rest of the community about this? being a contrarian is fun until everyone is enjoying something you for some reason can’t get yourself to
i dont have a lot of hope in the story of totk to harken back to… ANYTHING of worth that past games have built up and made to be so important and interesting. hype is a dangerous thing for a not-yet-released game, and while i think the insane amount of speculation and theories and hype around totk will cause a lot of people to be disappointed with the final story, i dunno if i really wouldve liked it even if the story actually piqued my interest
maybe totk’s gameplay will really hook me. maybe i’ll enjoy the massive open world and gmod-ass gimmicks. but what ive seen of the story makes me less interested and the snippets of gameplay i see just make me remember how bored i now am with botw
at the end of the day this is just a video game with tags on this site i can blacklist and videos i can ignore and lore i can brush aside because at this point loz canon is a suggestion more than anything
i just cant shake the discomfort of once again being an outlier as everyone i see loses their mind about this new game while i just feel overwhelmed by it. i have played botw for a long time and have long since worn it out. i played age of calamity to completion and have not touched it or cared for it beyond the music since. i am not excited about totk and i feel like i am in the wrong due to my opinion
#salty talks#kinda personal? just angsting abt totk and being a lil negative abt it#at this point im not expecting it to blow me away. i no longer have fun playing botw. i do not care for the story or characters#this if anything is to soothe my nerves and is for the sake of my own wellbeing to articulate how i feel about this#it is cool to like. put your feelings into words. this is a lot more eloquent than ‘i miss linebeck’#it feels kinda selfish to bitch abt a game thats not out yet and complain abt it not seeming enjoyable to me#but it looks like a genuinely good game. but its not for me. and thats what im ruminating on here#like i love linear stories games that limit you and fun little gimmicks and characters with complex arcs and all that#i played a little bit of skyward sword earlier and was finishing up the cistern dungeon and was so delighted to see the main statue lowered#i love the dungeons with gimmicks that flip everything around and force you to really think abour your next move#im excited to reach the water temple in oot again to swim around and tinker with the water level#i cant wait to finish oot and move onto mm and its wonderful gameplay and areas#id love to revisit albw and get back to playing ph (and maybe finishing triforce heroes idk abt that one i just want the linebeck outfit)#i played botw for like ten minutes a few weeks ago and then put it away without a second thought#so. if anyone wanted to know how i feel abt totk. its a bit alienating#i might blacklist every variation of ze/ink tbh. sayonara you weeaboo shits and your bland fucking milquetoast ship thats kinda irritating#i may delete this bc it errs on the side of being too personal but i really just need to write this stuff downh#anyways. going back to writing my thing abt my oc n linebeck hanging out and being gay
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#.....im just a stupid fuck up#if anyone actual met me irl theyd be mean to me just like my dad#.....i dont try to be horrible :(#i just cant keep shit inside and then he gets mad at me :(#he wants me to be smiley all the time and be his lil monkey “yes of course sire”#i ger tired of playing the Yes Man....i wanna feel human#its just hours of him talking and me going yup yup yip yeah uh huh#and its fucking killing me#hes always so posionously mad when i show emotions#im Not even directing my bad emotions AT HIM!!!!#i dunno why he wants me alive if im so horrible#if he didnt have to take care of an autistic adult his life would be how he wants it#i think im doomed to be sad#ill have the tiniest flickers of happiness but then something ruins it#i wish i could hurt myself but hell just get mad and bitch about being sick#im still sick and need a chest xray so maybe stfu :D#i hate myself and i hate my dad and i wish i could just die#i hope i die in my sleep#he just doesnt care....all he does is get mad and ocasionally apologize for oyr shitty lives and make empty promises#every new years he promises things will get better#.........its terrible but i wanna hurt myself so i can MAYBE see his soft loving side#i know he'd just get mad#i need someome to coddle me and hold me close and love on me#but im too ugly and selfish and stupid and fat and disgusting#all i get is anger.........#he keeps putting mentos in my coke and then getting mad when it makes a mess#im gonna cut myself i dont care if he gets mad he can fuck off
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