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Testing out some things
#it me. i am once again refusing to use external sources#Its kinda corny but im trying to get the feel of the drawings back in 'talking about the house'#im thinking on taking a picture of my wall for the background#but then i dunno#the eyes might be a bit much. unless theyre like. very subtle#maybe if i made them smaller#im not even at this ending yet i just felt like drawing it already
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Reminiscing about Little Witch Academia.
#personal#delete later#maybe i'll talk about it tomorrow but it's a really cool anime and i'm forever shocked that it was made by trigger#a full cast of teenage girls and absolutely zero fanservice or sexualizing! what a concept!#also i was looking at designs for the bg student characters because they designed a whole student body to fill the school and gave them#names and nationalities and personalities and. there's a middle eastern student who wears a hijab/niqab! how cool is that!!#i don't think i've ever seen rep like that in a mainstream anime and speaks to how they genuinely gave a shit about diversity#you read about all these bg character's details and realize how much they cared about this anime's world#there are these twin from india who are both very protective of their smaller roommate and will get into fights about taking care of her#none of them have lines in the anime#there is a fat side character who is sweet and unapologetically just likes to eat and everyone is friends with her#there is a canonically butch character and an entire episode about her crossdressing as a man
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end cards please, an epilogue, please, I’m begging
#forgive me I haven’t drawn in months#but I had to act quick#I tried to do it a la dragon age trespasser slides style#the captions are kinda cringe but I didn’t know what to do and I was trying to keep them vague enough to fit the smaller details in#so I chose the major ish options#bg3#astarion#baldur's gate 3#bg3 spoilers#spoilers#morights#I’ll clean them up later…. maybe….. fix it….in post…..#doing this made me realise how insanely difficult it is to stuff in a neutral character that represents tav#esp when tav can be so many races with tails or horns or big or small or masculine or feminine#or claws.#larian studios
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the fancier sister of the canal view townhomes, this is the industrial canal district townhomes. nikolai and bambi will be moving here in year 4 spring. it features four townhomes and three single bedroom apartments.
#p#ts2#sims 2#sav: bloom valley#i defeated my demons. it's basic but it was my first time using cfe and grid adjuster#mind that up until smth like two years ago i just made boxes. that was the extent of my building#no common area this time. it made sense to me since this is more upscale so maybe not as community forward as the poorer place?#although the single room apartments here are defo more affordable than the others. way smaller though#bambi n niko will be in the biggest. it has two rooms with possibility to expand if i wall off a section on the top floor#you know. as the family grows#makes sense to move them now esp with niko finally getting into politics and getting paid way more#looking at the buildings around and knowing who will live where sdfjsdfjsfd lmfao
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Many things about the Ink Demons deisgn bothers me, but I think the number one thing is his "smile". Because it isn't really a smile, it just looks like a regular exposed jaw. I honestly think if they kept the beta smile it'd be infinitely better
So I made an edit of what I thought it should look like. I had to stretch and mesh it a bit to get it to look right, bit I think I achieved what I was going for (I know I suck at editing but at LEAST you can picture what I mean)
Left is the original, right is my edit
I honestly think the right would be way creepier. The demonic goat legs, the big ass hands, I would ignore ALL of those if they changed his smile
#Tbh the goat legs don't bother me too much#I wish they kept the limp#Maybe made them a little more human and goat mix#Like a saytr#Hands tho???#At least make em a little smaller#Just a bit???#doodles rants#batim#bendy#batdr#bendy and the ink machine#bendy and the dark revival#bendy and the silent city#Ink bendy#Ink demon
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yay i did it! i finally finished my first knitting project ever! bub bonnet by whatlydiamade! im really happy with it! shout out to gardenvarietyfae and eeriecore on here for helping me out with smaller horns!
#myart#knitting#i wish i could have made the horns even smaller but i already had lots of help to make them this small...#maybe i could find a way to make itty bitty impish horns
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everytime sukugo gets called a crack ship i suffer +10 damage
#f.txt#it's not about the ship or anything#it's more just. they be calling anything a crack ship these days huh#djdfhskdsffgs#like with skg they did used to be a rarepair but arent anymore#but they were never a Crack ship. it's a ship that has made sense since the begginning. (ok maybe i MIGHT be a biased fdjfdfg)#but!!!!! they had 2 interactions!!! two!!!!! for a crack ship u need a minimum requirement of 0 canon interactions#even THEN. u might not necessarily call it a crack ship#i think it maybe has to do with how fandom has gotten much larger and the Big Ships are so much more omnipresent in any fandom#so maybe that skews people's perceptions of other ships? like. any smaller ships gets totally overshadowed.#or maybe it's just confusing the term with rarepair#but i mean i have seen people be so confused when presented with skg and finding it slightly bizarre#and before i would have kinda gotten it . but now after the fight. im like......did u NOT see all that.#a lot of people seem to not venture into ships outside the 'main' ones#and take them as canon to a certain degree ?#('why would u ship X with Y if Z is right there')#idk#it's interesting#maybe related to the mainstreaming of fandom#?#just thoughts honestly#tho i feel the same about rarepairs tbh dsfjsdfds#i feel like the idea of a rarepair has also gotten skewed#where some big ships (in my opinion) are also getting called rarepairs#had this drafted from a while back. but i saw skg being called a crack ship again and remembered it#anyways. i will reiterate......ppl really be calling anything a crack ship these days#dhsfjdhjdghjfffddfhhfd#it just makes me feel....old(?) idk fjdhfjshgjs more kinda like a purist all NO!!!!!!!! wrong use of the word!!!!!!!!#but let's be honest ppl have always been like that. 'there's X!! why ship Y!!!!!'#basically. conclusion. fandom gettin so big intimidates me fhdjdfghjdfhjdfhfsdfgg
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yet another TMA fic I haven't seen and desperately need to read:
A comedy of errors (or horror, depending on your POV) featuring the Not-Them
It replaces someone, and picks someone to remember the old person, like usual. Someone - based on its usual MO - who knows the victim passingly but doesn't know them well
except it didn't do any Really Drastic changes to this victim - same race, similar build, maybe a couple inches and a couple kg difference in size, but it went for subtle changes this go-around
and its chosen secondary victim is faceblind
"Oh hey, Katie, you dyed your hair!"
"Did you get contacts? You used to love those big glasses, but you look great without them too!"
"I found an old casette you recorded when we were teenagers and man, do people's voices change over the years!"
Just, rolls a nat 1 on every one of their perception checks. Everything they think they notice that's different can easily be justified as their own forgetfulness, or people changing over time, especially when everyone around them is acting like nothing weird has happened
Meanwhile the Not-Them is slowly descending into madness as it tries to frighten this person who is rivaling Sebastian Skinner's levels of obliviousness lol
#mine#the magnus archives#tma#this is brought to you by my realization#that my headcanon of real!sasha being black and not!sasha being white#in part comes from the fact that. if i was the Remembering Guy#and someone I met 6 months ago came in looking completely different but claiming to be the same person#it would need to be a DISTRESSINGLY different person for me to realize something was wrong#like. we're talking a foot of difference in height#or a different race entirely#but seeing sasha vs not sasha art online made me realize that maybe.#maybe my faceblindness is worse than i thought it was!#and other people would generally recognize smaller differences!#but like. i'm now obsessed with this concept. let the not them have its own clusterfuck of a would-be victim lol
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Suds!! You are yet again like 90% of my art reblogs. 😭😭😭
Thanku for remembering my arts. 💙
HOW COULD I FORGET WHEN YOURE LITERALLY ONE OF THE BEST OUT THERE???? I'M ALWAYS EATING GOOD WHEN ITS YOU
Actually everyone who sees this post I provide you with a list of good tired art to reblog:
->Pretty boy skateboarder Punz
->Sparkly lovely XD??? Oh my god??
->Drunz is doing a little dance<3
->Being emotional about cFundy, as a treat
->Schlatt being a poor little baa-baa<3333
->Listen Punz deserves to give Dream flowers. shut up I'm normal
->Foosh. The Most Foosh. Look At Him. Give Him Hugs.
->yes I'm grabbing every drunz art. its not my fault its so well done. I have demons okay. theyre hugging.
->Dream getting cuddles from Steve The Polar Bear
->Philza and George bow designs !!!! Jesus christ these are so cool. how do I learn to make weapon designs.
->A Ranboo design that absolutely delights me. Different ties depending on if its Ran or Ender, aaaaaa
->hey guys did you know Punz is one of my favorite characters<-frothing at the mouth
->honestly weapon and armor designs are my weakness
->DRUNZ DRUNZ DRUNZ DRUNZ DRUNZ AAAAAAAAAAAAA
->Dream getting the comfort he deserves
->Punz covered in blood
->Catboy!Punz (no the dopamine hits I get every time I reblog Punz art are normal doctor)
->I am NORMAL about PUNZ shut UP (Valo design)
->Post-Prison Dream trying to cut his hair, HNRRRR-
->FUCK (more Catboy Punz)
->hnnnnnn Mob boss Dream with loyal right hand Punz???? augh
->FEM DREAM EVERYONE ITS A CODE GREEN, STAY CALM WAIT FUCK SHE'S FULLY COLORED IN THIS ONE. STAY FUCKING CALM-
->Drunz chained together. Very normal. I am normal.
->hnnnn why is Dream so pretty in this. I need Punz to kiss him.
->no you dont understand I'm studying how you drew Grians wings to see if I can learn how to draw them that good. christ I want to learn your power.
-> Technoblade comic featuring other people missing him. My heart hurts a lot looking at this.
->Valo Punz (instant dopamine hit)
->Tireds DTIYS Dream that I don't feel I could ever feasibly attempt just because its so fucking godly. But I Will Try Someday Soon. fucking hell.
->WAIT MUMBO WITH LONG HAIR???
->Lynx Punz (instant dopamine hit)
->Holy shit. Grian as a marble statue with wings spread. The level of ability on display here is spectacular????
->drunz are hugging (I am once again frothing at the mouth)
->Hnnnnnn tarot card Dream looking so pretty
->god, this fucks me up so hard. Punz is taking a picture of Dream, in absolute awe, but Punz's comic panel is the one thats shaped like a photo. As if they can capture their reaction but theyll never be able to capture Dream's joy, his beauty and light. (AND THEN YOU COLORED IT)
->Witches Dreamnap. Its so funny to me that Sapnap seems fully into it while Dream is right behind him looking Ready For Mischief
->hnnnnn baby Punzzzzz, BABY PUNZZZZZZZZZ AAAAAAAA (instant dopamine hit)
->literally all of your expression memes??? Dream covered in blood while Purpled is chill about it. Wet Cat Mumbo. The Foosh with hearts in his eyes. Shy pretty boy Dream with braided hair. TANGO. The fuckinnnn Foosh/XD kiss. SNF (my favorite underrated ship) and Grumbo. DREAMNAP YES. Drunz getting to be happy!!!
->Obligatory Etho Chilling In A Tree<33
->A Canary Loves His Coal Mine. FUCK (comic)
->Dreamnap kissing and more FooshXD. <-bites down on my phone, instantly destroying it
->Enderman Dream for cHybrid day<333
->pissboy Purpled<3 (says this with love and giggles)
->smalletho comic. Why does this feel so comfortable and nostalgic.
->the flowers trailing down.... who is this...
->bdubs and Dream, and interaction I've never thought of before but now want to see happen
->Drunz, hgnhhhhh
->Jimmy Solidarity worshipping Scar at the altar.
->I tried really, really hard to scroll past Sam, thinking I could be strong. I have my own demons to face.
->I really love when people do like, Different Eyes For Different Characters Posts. Its delightful
->god fucking damn. stop converting me to Ethoisms
->DREAMNOTNAP THIS IS NOT A DRILL
->Drunz with more Lynx Punz (instant dopamine hit)
->MORE DRUNZ WITH LYNX PUNZ (a second dopamine hit)
->SNAKE DREAM WITH LYNX PUNZ (stop stop I'm already dead)
->fuck. goddamit. Dream is leaning in to bite Punz's wrist. I need to throw myself directly into the lake.
->noooooo Snake Dream wrapping around Punz for warmth. My 37th weakness.
->Punz. (dopamine hit.)
->Drunznap. Objectively beautiful<333
->Valo Dream to go with the Valo Punz, HNNNNN THEY MUST ALWAYS BE TOGETHER
->hey you ever cry while gently caressing a cracking marble statue of your lover? Just normal Dream about Punz things :))))
->Hnnnn Punz expressions. Theyre so fucking !!!!! barkbarkbark
->Drunz DBH au. hahaha I can be normal (you witness me shatter a plate in my hands)
->punz in a dresss hnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
->IM FEASTING, DRUNZ KISSING. BRAIN IS LIGHTING UP.
->s2 Dream design !!! He has a cane!!!!! As he should :oDDDD (WAIT THERES A SECOND VERSION)
->inhales. You Can Always Rely On Your Knight, Dream. He loves you so much.
->Punzzz (instant dopamine hit.)
->Dream in Punz's clothes!!!! (smashes my head against a concrete brick)
->Drunz DRUNZ Drunz Drunzzz dRuNz DRUNZZZZ (them<3)
->The Grian/Dream apocalypse, the ship we needed and so desperately deserved. I have been converted.
okay I have to stop. This list is getting too long. I have to be normal. (Foolish Valo Design)
Yes I went through Tired's art tag to grab these. Honestly I went through about 20 pages before I lost steam. And There's Still More. I'd go check out his art for the full list, I barely covered half of it- especially if youre into the Hermitcraft/Life series. Here's the tag, have fun scrolling <3
#suds asks#suds soapbox#art recommendations for People Who Are Definitely Normal#now you all see why I reblog 250 posts a day and then get locked out of tumblr because of the post limit#this started out as me just wanting to grab some highlights and then I got 18 pages in and was like#this is ALL a highlight#its a really big deal to me because I when I think of artists who's skill level I'd really want emulate- Tired is always one of them#And this list ended up being so long because while maybe I should have chosen solely ones that were Long Comics or Obvious#or ones that showed off the Technical Skills that Tired so clearly has#It feels Not Right to not include all the art that was clearly made from a place of love and passion even if it was sketches or smaller??#Like. The love poured into an art piece feels just as important as the detail and effort and skill#How Could You Not Lovel Sketches Of Dream And Punz Being Happy. How Is That Not Worth The Whole World#Its wonderful. Your art is wonderful
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thinking about cinderlion kits and how hollytufts reaction to flywhisker and snaptooth leaving to become kittypets was to aggressively call them traitors
#i speaku#rotating these six guys in my brain#i know i said i wish cinderlion had way smaller litters and i still feel the same way now but i can still think about them#w a dynamic of having drifted apart due to the shit theyve been going thru as well as the distance bet the two litters bc of age and stuff#nd spotfur feeling so ostracized from her fam bc of 'gestures at everything'#im ngl the first lotter really genuinely are kinda just there 😭#litter*#i wonder if you couldbe just made them be one singular cat and it wouldve worked better#thats an interesting dynamic i think... a one kitten litter being excited over the prospect of having siblings when cinder n lion announce#the news and getting devastated when two of the second litter decide to leave#maybe they n spotfur couldve beeb close once but the hypothetical only child just xouldnt get rid of those feelings of betrayal and anger#that their sibs left just grew very distant bc of that#i like sibling dynamics have i mentioned that yet
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sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)
but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!
so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"
....
my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!
SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!
#mind you this was over 10 years ago now. it *could* have gotten better but id be extremely shocked if it has#autistic#autism#actually autistic#adhd#neurodivergent#audhd#school#school problems#yes i know theres rules or maybe even laws for this and its why they are like this but its bad and should change#if they offered smaller classes with less sensory overloading bullshit and other things i needed it would be great!#but they refuse to accommodate your actual needs and make up useless accommodations to legally say they help disabilities#ND people (not just audhd) and other disabled people that graduate with no useful accommodations are so strong and cool. proud of you!#ones who had to drop you youre also cool for not dealing with their bullshit snd allowing yourself to not suffer for a sheet of paper!#(though i know it can feel bad when everyone around you makes you feel bad for needed to drop out or failing out and not going back)#i completely stopped going to my psychology class because i started a week late due to scheduling issues and#suddenly we are told theres a paper due in 3 days and need to hse the textbook i didnt have yet as the source for it all#and it was in the syllabus i didnt get because i was a week late and didnt know we got one. the professor didnt notice me out of#the 100 other students in that large lecture hall. that room was also a sensory nightmare hellscape#too many students made things noisy and distracting. multiple fluorescent lights were flickering constantly and never fixed#the professor used a mic to speak to us and it had a constant horrible loud buzzing. it did that loud mic screech noise randomly#without warning. all the time. the quality of the sound was horrible so it was hard to understand her. on top of that she had a very thick#accent i wasnt familiar with so that on top of the horrible buzzing mkc quality that also cut her out constantly was auditory processing#disorder HELL. I dont know how ANYONE survived thst class but i seemed to be the only one struggling. everyone else turned in their papers#and i gave up and stopped going. was too late to drop the class to get my money back so i wasted probably a few thousand dollars#and THATS what i mean by give me reasonable and useful accommodation. test time would NOT make that class better at all#fix the mic and light issues at least or give me a smaller class with more attentive professor or something!#offer smaller classes for struggling disabled people! if the issue is not knowing who needs them then offer a switch to those struggling!#i got called onto a dean/counselor meeting because a professor noticed my horrible grades and stuff so its possible to catch us and help!#THESE SCHOOLS JUST NEED TO START BEING WILLING TO. dont make us do all the work to accommodate ourselves and expect to do well in school!
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more and more it's feeling like we just...don't have room for people trying anymore. it's all or nothing; get it right the first time, or be crucified by a jury you can never fully see or convince. and this isn't new, isn't born of current events. it's become more and more prevalent over the last ten years thanks to social media putting every little thought on blast, but i'd put money on the idea that it's actually been brewing much longer than that. and, for me, it goes beyond being tiring or upsetting. it feels bleak. it feels downright fucking broken that we're all so busy trying not to condone anything remotely problematic that we don't leave room for good faith learning. watching people trying to suss out their own identity--something literally ONLY they can fully understand or explain--be vilified for trying to fit words around their own experience sucks. watching people misunderstand something and try to apologize for it later, only to be told they should have known all along, sucks. seeing people who once held truly toxic beliefs actually grow and learn and apologize and still be told to fuck themselves as if they're a lost cause--it sucks. just. does that not fill you with despair for the state of things? does that not break something in you, to think that if you one day don't understand something, or misuse a word, or grapple with complicated feelings, it will forever stain you in the eyes of perfect strangers?
dude the world is fucked, and we all see it, but like. it doesn't feel like it helps to be so goddamn reactive. it doesn't feel like it helps anyone to demand perfection out the gate. it's exhausting. there are enough people out there who don't want to learn, who aren't trying, who actively revel in cruelty. looking for malice in every little fuck-up from people who seem to be genuinely striving to live their lives with kindness strikes me as lending strength to an army that already glories in suffering. and makes the world look more fucked than ever. and i really don't know that that energy is what we need when there's already so much to set right.
maybe it's just me. maybe this last decade just shattered something in me. but i really, really hate the idea--reject the idea, frankly--that people can't learn and change and grow. that people can't be better than a bad day or a failure of understanding. i reject the idea that people are something to be thrown out because they fucked up. it just seems...yeah. bleak. really fuckin' bleak.
#personal#i dunno dude#this is that fighting energy from earlier. found some actual words for it i guess#but i'm just so tired#shit's fucked. some shit's complicated. and some isn't--some feels incredibly straightforward to me.#and to the next person maybe there's more nuance. it's all so fucking...there's so much to process all the time#and i catch myself in knee-jerk mode#i catch myself writing people off. making lists in my head. sometimes it's just purely a matter of safety#but god the things i'd give for some of those people to come back into my world#to learn. to grow. to apologize. to decide they value kindness and life over brainwashed beliefs#i would give so much for those friends back. those family members. those people i knee-jerk wrote off back in 2015#i shrunk my world down when i cut them out. i shrunk it down when i told them to fuck off instead of having a conversation#i actively made my safety net smaller in the effort to keep myself protected#and i just keep watching other people do similar things#and thinking like. if i could go back. if i wasn't so hot-headed and Certain that evil thoughts make a person evil#or that miseducation or ignorance or straight-up brainwashing broke a person for good#maybe it would all be different now than it was for my 25-year-old self#i just. i don't fucking know.#people are trying. people need to KEEP trying.#and telling them they're shit for NEEDING to try is only ever going to carve out the part of them that wants to be better#the world is fucked. why help fuck it even more. what is the point of that.#and i'm not saying don't call people on their shit. but maybe calling them shouldn't look like telling them to kill themselves#maybe it should involve a little grace#slamming doors just feels like it makes the house smaller. and shuts off exit routes you might need later#and i kinda wish i'd known that in my 20s
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Take some Fydd's I just realized I never posted
#keese draws#oc art#oc#ocs#eternal gales#fydd is such a comfort character to me rn its not even funny I adore this lil lad#hes been helping keep me sane#Ive also been keeping sane by brainstoriming more abt how I wanna make eternal gales someday which is also helping#and lemme say its getting real ambitious folks this bad boy isnt getting made for a While lol#the more Ive been thinking abt eternal gales and how I want it to be formatted the more certain I become that while its not going to be a#game Im probably going to be making it within a game maker engine#like Ill still look into how feasible making it all into a website would be but I think for what I want to make this would work best#which is! very ambitious and is definitely not smth I can manage rn! but I have been wanting to re learn to code anyways so!#its mostly just a matter of like. doing some smaller projects first and getting my shit together#ideally I want to be able to be in a place to get started in about 5 years maybe? idk that feels reasonable to me#but Im fine if it takes longer as long as Ive gotten at least some actual real project started and worked on#Ive been playing around with the idea of maybe trying my hand at making a small game for fun#not right this second but maybe soon? idk depends on a bunch of shit#honestly eternal gales has dragged me through so much whenever I feel hopeless I just have to remember that I Need to make it some day and#imagine ppl asking me questions abt it and analyzing my writing and I go ok so I must persist no matter what I need ppl to read abt them
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Just Desserts Pets by size (and owner)! (Patreon)
Bonus Joel and the new Bamboo cat-staring each other down:
#Doodles#Just Desserts#I would also say by name and sex but a lot of them are still undecided lol#I'm pretty sure these are all the at-least-somewhat canon pets - Just A Bee for example was omitted lol#Maybe there'll be someone who gets Just A Bee someday! But it's not gonna be Honey&Easter Nest I can tell you that much lol#I do not care how thematic it would be! She gets a bunny! It is the most correct!#Also somewhat ironic that she got a cherry-filled donut bunny and then Cherry Shortcake got the merengue dove...#Look they're not meant to Match they're meant to be What The Owner Wants!#Anyway this has all gotten off the rails lol - down the line!#Starting with the itty-bittiest of spiders! Spider Bites' spider bites ♥ I still love them - probably even more now lol#I never did decide how many she can summon at once since they're not like...properly physical in the same way Taffy is lol#You can touch them and hold them to be certain! But only when they exist (lol) Probably wouldn't be more than a baker's dozen hehehe#The birds ended up being the smallest after the spider(s) huh :0 I wasn't planning that but it seems fitting#I think Merengue (name not decided on but if Wafer is any indication lol) probably is a little smaller than Kiwi's flan chicken#Chicken is chicken-sized but Merengue isn't quite as small as a pigeon - somewhere in the middle#Sunflower is tiny by mammal standards tho! The smallest yet! Even smaller than cinnamouse!#Then again for a mouse cinnamouse is quite large lol - big plush teddy-bear sized! :D#I really do want to get better at drawing dogs... Do Sweet Pea justice one of these days she's such a sweet girl#I still love that she's made of almond BARK white chocolate - so she can lick her own paws hehehe#Konpeitoad is wider than they are tall really - still counts for medium sized just an outlier is all! Still cute tho#They're probably one of the ones I most want to draw digitally as well since I can imagine their colour palette easily haha#Cute purpley and cream toad skin with rainbow konpeito warts and clear bubble-cheeks hehe <3 They're very cute!#Barnaby too - he's got a strong mint colour palette! Lots of greens and whites! Still such a fun and cute lad with all his segmentation#Also finally cleaned up the Mercandy's amezaiku catfish design a bit - better fins!#It's a bit funny as well since Marshmallow Fluff originally had a mint colour palette as well until I simplified her design :P Things!#Wafer's largely unchanged tho ♪ Seeing them near each other I kinda wanna draw him and Sweet Pea playing now hehe ♥#Finally Taffy! The smallest of the large pets! About what you'd expect for a mammalian farm animal tho I suppose haha#Butterscotch is still so cuuute ahh ;; I can't believe I haven't drawn her more - she has so much room for scalloping! Her earsss#And finally the Queens' pets! They get to be the biggest because they're royalty lol - they already make the biggest creatures!#Oh and I suppose double-finally the Vargases' licorice cat and the new cat! I still hadn't decided on Bamboo's coat pattern...
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Just remembered I have a psychiatrist appointment so early tomorrow. And I obviously dyed my hair so recently because there's green staining on my face. I don't think it's going to look great for the bipolar diagnosis, to disclose that I was feeling impulsive and wanted to get control over something, so I dyed my hair at midnight.
#i dont really like this psychiatrist but ive only seen her once so i figured i should give her one more shot#last time i saw her she adked how i liked my anxiety meds#i said i love them. theyre helpful and have no side effects since my body got used to them#and i said i explicitly didnt like ky old ones cuz of how they made me feel#she prescribed the old ones and said i should just tey taking a smaller dose. even though im on meds i like#but the bigger problem is#we went over all my previous medications. ive been on several. a lot of antidepressants especially which is really bad for bipolar#the worst antidepressant cause pericarditis (swelling around my heart) that made me go to the emergency room#we went over that. i told her everything i just told you#my bipolar leans heavily into the depression so she decided to tey another antidepressant along with my mood stabilizer#can you guess which antidepressant she prescribed? can you??#and i didnt realize it at the time because she called it the generic name so i couldnt explain she shiuldnt prescribe me that#and i meant to callher about it but it completely slipped my mind and i thought i had more time#and then suddenly my appointment is tomorrow#or the other thing she recommended was lithium. which feels like wuite an escalation#eapecially since she said it can cause irreversible damage to (maybe remembering this wrong) my kidneys#like i feel like there must be a better option. none of which are anxiety meds i dont like. an antidepressant that sent me to the hospital#or something that could cause irreversible damage. like i feel like theres a better way#i also need to talk to her about setting up an adhd assessment#i had an assessment a few years ago in which i was told im 'too smart to have adhd'#calling adhd people not smart is bullshit. you cant be too smart to have adhd. and i feel like i was just dismissed because im female#he said he wished he could score as hugh as i did on the knowledge tests#man me too. maybe then you wiuldnt be such an idiot. how did you get a license to practice. how did you pass any higher education#are you just a random guy that walked in off the street? i refuse to call him a doctor#i call him a quack or by his full name because i don't think he deserves the respect of that title#what was i talking about. oh yeah trying another assessment with an actual doctor this time#wish me luck with my appointment tomorrow bcuz she might try to kill me again#or dismiss my concerns of adhd like she dismissed my dislike for my old anxiety meds#im in hell. being mentally ill is hell a little bit#actually its not. im fine with my mental illness. im not fine with how doctors treat me because of it
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Menegroth was totally sacked in Second Kinslaying, right? You know what invaders do when they sack cities? They steal shit. Everything that isn't bolted to the ground (and few things that are) is taken.
And Menegroth was, well, the cultural center of Doriath (and only stone/ish city to my knowledge) and also housed Daeron, who famously invented his own alphabet. I'm sure they had a great library.
Someone, and I'm nominating Maglor for the honor, definitely stole every and each paper (that wasn't burned down during sacking) and took it with them to Amon Ereb or wherever SoF dwelled at the time. ("I mean, it's that or leaving it to the orcs" - Maglor)
SoF had more Sindarin texts and cultural treasures than people in Sirion (they're refugees. what is there to say). Maybe they even offered to trade them for Silmaril (cultural heritage for cultural heritage), before they decided to just go on with the 3rd Kinslaying.
Sure a shit thing to do, but came in handy when Elrond and Elros happened.
#silm#silmarillion#maglor#I want to say#very english of them#but every empire and invasion does this#I don't think there were a lot of texts as elves aren't really all that about written records#but they should have Something#stealing their stuff after destroying the country really adds insult to the injury#smaller hurt than all the murder#but still very much a hurt#I really think that has potential#maybe that made the negotiations for Silmaril worse#maybe in the end somehow they had more Sindarin texts than Noldor ones#maybe they gave it all to E and E when they send them to Gilgalad#they gave that all back this time not for silmaril but because it's the right thing to do#and of course it didn't matter in the end#you can make a story there is all I'm saying#headcanon#menegroth#second kinslaying#sons of feanor
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