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maybe it's my fucking fault I can't pass
#cat's rambles#neptune is complaining again#maybe I look too feminine#or act too girly#or dress like a girl would#augh blinding stars why do I fuckinf try even#maybe I sound too feminine maybe my voice is too higj#maybe I should stop dressing up like how I like and dress like how boys my age do#but I've fucking tried that !! and still get perceived as a girl !!!#everywhere I fucking go people assume I'm a girl#even when I try my blinding hardest to pass I can't#i should stop trying I guess#stop binding as often as I can stop cutting my hair short stop trying to be seen as masc when I can't#maybe it's my earrings or my rings or my bracelets or my beads on my shoes or my face or#my clothing or my voice or just me in general idk
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incredibly low quality Anaya appreciation post bc i think he’s adorable.
#and if I said he’s one of the top things I’m looking forward to in this movie AUSHSJSB#gonna become a comic relief fan favorite TRUST. I CAN SENSE IT. if I’m wrong may I choke on a shrimp#pota#kingdom of the planet of the apes#anaya#wish we had more / better pics of him 💀#When the teaser came out I had a feeling he might die at some point in the film but looking at this new trailer. Maybe not?#i always get his and Soonas names mixed up lmao. Bc they both end in “a” so it sounds feminine to me.#AU where everything is the same except Anaya is named Anayo#Ah. Noa ends with “a” too LOL. AND RAKA??? WHY SO MANY “A” ENDING NAMES LOL#Planet of the apes#100#ekhras ya ameerah
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but fr outside of my contracted madness i absolutely refuse to give joe alwyn gold rush like how is that song at all related to their relationship the lyrics clearly spell out a relationship that either never existed or only existed in implication and fantasies and maybe-maybe nots and its so bitter and yet desperately soft in the bridge where it almost projects a sense of envy, of wanting to be them as much as you want them. It continues an interesting oft ignored lyrical trend of taylor wanting just as much to be her lover as to have them, envying their easy charisma (you were flush with the currency of cool/i was always turning out my pockets) or quiet dignity (your integrity makes me seem small) dating back to her earliest songs (the kind of flawless i wish i could be). Theres a projected self hatred and yearning to be better that twists itself into both romantic and sexual lust for her partners thats so fascinating and speaks to how all of her songs regardless of who theyre about are also an act of self reflection on who she is and who she wishes to be.
#barry.txt#taylor swift#putting this in the tags as a form of self protection but make no mistake this is a gay thing to do especially in gold rush#which through simple context clues is Obviously About A Woman or maybe even women in general#whivh is a totally seperate post on how taylor constructs and uses gender identity in her music#her girlhood and femininity are earnest but also so carefully constructed and so high effort and kind of desperate#shes a deeply self concious and obsessive person who never looks comfortable in anything ever unless shes#onstage or like. by herself in loose jeans and a tshirt#i think thats one of the things that subconsciously irritate ppl when it comes to her shes constantly and clearly putting in effort#to appear As The Celebrity Taylor Swift and struggles not to self censor or overperform in interviews (when she gives them)#especially present in pre 1989 interviews where the interviewers really didnt have to respect her or worry abt how they frame her#if they didnt want to. Like the fearless era rolling stone interview where she almost has a meltdown over her mom buying eggnog instead of#milk. That whole interview is strange looking back not just bc of the weird misogyny but also because of what it does share#taylor is....weird. She has a strange and desperate vibe and always reacts slightly too much and uses slang poorly#shes media trained and has learned how to socialize but you can feel her discomfort whenever she doesnt have a guitar in her hand#idk these tags have once again gotten so unweildy. i just find it interesting that she finally feels some level of comfortable#in sharing that construction w us in songs like mirrorball and mastermind and imo gold rush#and scene#should i write this up and put it in the swiftieism zine#i should write something and put it in the swiftieism zine
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i have seen a lot of headcanons (& fics!) about bucky doing crochet or knitting that i LOVE but i also need everyone to consider --
steve watching his mother doing irish crochet; maybe she even teaches him some simple things when he's sick and needs something to occupy him so he'll sit still and rest; its a creative outlet for sarah and that artistic streak is something she and steve share almost a century later, crochet comes back into fashion with millennials and gen-z, and steve looks up a youtube tutorial. he doesn't have many physical things left from his mom; but he can make some stuff that she would have loved and it helps him feel close to her.
#marvel#steve rogers#bucky barnes#stucky#ive been thinking about this a LOT lately#ive been looking at a lot of vintage crochet patterns lately and it had me thinking about sarah rogers and the fact that this would 100%#have been something she was exposed to/taught as a young girl. ofc as a single mother she wouldn't have had a lot of free time.#but making little things here and there as a hobby is far from out of the question#also since i hc steve as neurodivergent (adhd and possibly autistic) its entirely possible sarah was too#and crochet is just. such a good stim.#also lots and lots of headcanons about steve getting bored when he was sick#sitting in bed is BORING and im sure at least a few sketchbooks were filled that way#but maybe also a mother who is desperate to get her small child to calm down so his body can heal. will go “hey wanna see what i'm making?”#ik everyone has headcanons about bucky doing traditionally feminine stuff and sees steve as more traditionally masculine#bc that was gatekept from him bc of his disabilities#but let me have this
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Hot take but some of y’all good omens fans are just racist lol
We haven’t even SEEN Season 2 yet and y’all are already hating on Beelzebub’s new actress because she’s not Anna. Not to mention how many of y’all I see still drawing Beelzebub as white when they’re being played by a brown person now (this doesn’t apply to pre-fall or pre-s2 fanart obvs). We haven’t even seen Shelley in action yet and y’all are already hating for no good reason.
Y’all are absolute babies and need to grow up and re-examine your biases. Especially re-examine why you’re holding a brown woman to higher standards than a white woman.
#I also saw someone say Shelley Conn wasn’t a good fit for Beelzebub because she looks too ‘traditionally feminine’#like first off holy transphobia#non binary ppl do NOT owe you androgyny#do You say this to actual non binary ppl?#‘hi sorry you can’t be non binary because you look too traditionally masculine/feminine’#funny how I don’t hear anyone saying this about David or Michael or Jon when they’re all traditionally masculine looking#second off maybe you should think about why you’re holding a brown woman to higher standards than a white woman#like seriously think about that#good omens#beelzebub#Beelzebub good omens#good omens Beelzebub#Shelley conn#ineffable bureaucracy#ineffable beurocracy
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ok so here's. ehre's the thing
there's a very funky rtoyalty au that me and wheeze have that's just called 'funky magic royalty au' where a whole bunch of characters are in weird places, despite it not being a swap or shift or switch au of any kind. but anyway i just realized i could add H!DS to it. so, in the spirit of the rest of the crack AU, i decided byte could be queen. and hohm y god she's so
don't worry about the spider that's just her familiar it's fine it's totally fine i don't know what you're worried about cmon it's just a little guy it's not like it's gonna earthbend you into the sun (probably)
i also forgot that gouge has a pet spider. so i'm going to now have to give gouge a larger spider of a different element
im working on the short essay of why this thing is a convoluted mess (affectionate), and maybe i'll drag the basics of the magic system out too. but right now i'm just being borderline incoherent and very gay and all of my attention is trained on the pretrty lady with none to spare for making sense
#this is related to the fic that autocorrect wanted to insert Gonzalo into#but like. tangentially.#same au. entirely different timeline#Horror!Dreamswap#H!DS Byte#Funky Magic Royalty AU#god shes so fucking#fuck#guh#there's new clothes again and that shawl is one of them. and it's perfect#she's getting another outfit btw. this is her formal wear but she's getting combat gear too#i just want to get my ass kicked and have her tilt my chin up and grin down at me because she knows i ain't getting back up#and then maybe take me home as a 'prisoner' but i'm cute and stupid and she decides she's just going to keep me. and i get kisses#scary queen is still scary but is much kinder and nicer and gentler with me. because i'm a special little guy and she likes me#maybe her advisor and personal guard will kiss me too...?#not sure about pluto since i look pretty feminine but the chances aren't 0. so maybe.#slash i think i could charm with my cringefail loser vibes if i do it right#i'm kidding ofc. i would not survive. but i can dream#will probably add the rest of the horror squad once i make them (including alt outfits. though pluto might be the only other one with one)
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i'm gonna be so honest rn but 'androgyny' lately has really been looking more masculine than anything else.
#from the bodily features such as: flat chest#masc facial features (e.g strong jawline)#but the haircuts?#too?#the clothing is more masculine leaning too#<- that CAN be androgynous#BUT#1. seems we have ONE (1) type of androgynous that we can accept as androgynous#2. i think it looks more masc leaning#(i don't see longer hair or makeup as gendered. maybe i'm just a goth tho)#<- impossible to feel androgynous with even one single feminine feature#this is just a random thought!#not an attack on anyone or anything#i hope i make some sense here#androgynous#nonbinary#genderfluid#transgender#transtuff#.txt
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loki/william rufus fic, where bill explains that as the second son he has inherited england while big brother bob only got the duchy of normandy, ha ha ha.
#no offence to normandy of course i'm sure it's a fine duchy with many things to recommend it.#oh but wait! England Son then dies in a “Hunting Accident” and the next brother heads for the capital ASAP!#where is Bob? idk i think he was on crusade or something. BUT! he'll get to stay in england when henry keeps him captive for life <3#apparently robert got very into welsh poetry while imprisoned for being the older brother so maybe that made up for it all?#PLOT TWIST: henry the first of england leaves no legitimate sons and england ends up having a civil war when he dies.#btw it still throws me a bit that post-conquest kings have names like william and robert while the pre-1066 dudes are all named Aethelthing#*whispers* i kind of feel like asgard should be on a atheling system like pre-conquest england but i don't want to complicate things.#though this would explain why Thor 1 treats a Loki succession as a real possibility and thinks aptitude for kingship in any way matters.#whereas the later movies all assume it works on primogeniture (and none of us in fandom really absorbed the fact that when hela shows up#thor instantly accepts that she's ahead of him in the line of succession and objects to her evilness rather than her sex/gender.#so clearly if thor and loki have an older sister the OLDER matters more than the SISTER. right? yet sif is the only female warrior.#and while i think the 'kings NEED to go into battle!' thing was overstated by the past and by modern observers we do all go along with that#in the context of these films don't we? loki is unsuitable due to his *checks notes* weak fragile feminine form.#*looks at him and experiences a brief moment of cognitive dissonance before moving on*#and that's a story more of us want to tell (or i assume that's what's up) so we all just ignore The Hela Evidence don't we?)#(i can explain my own reasons if anyone asks but nobody will so i won't bother doing it in these tags.)#btw a friend once made a william the conqueror joke about passing the duchy on the left hand side which was FANSTASTIC#but explaining it would take far too long so i won't do that either. BUT IT WAS RLY FUNNY U GUYS (gender-neutral)!#history shitposting#plus the mcu because of course
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Thoughts at the bar this Friday. I also started reading Pageboy, and although it sometimes hits close to home, it's giving me some good gender-affirming feelings. Elliot Page and I have a roughly 2-inch height difference.
#siggy draws#meself#i may be 5'2 but around my friends i am still 'dad'. and although being the sober one this friday was boring and isolating at times -#- it also allowed me to protect my friends and my partner. to look out for them and get them water.#to hold my partner's glasses while they moshed. to hook my friends' arms under mine and guide them away from traffic.#i had a gastroscopy in the morning so my throat and stomach were pretty sore and i couldn't sing or talk much. couldn't drink or smoke.#so i was just this sort of sweet little quiet guy and my partner and friends kept swarming me with kisses and words of affection.#''as an experiment'' i'd asked them all to refer to me as he/him for the night and they hugged me so tightly#and it didn't feel weird#my clothes are still too big. my face is still too feminine. i'm the size of a middle-schooler. but around them i'm 'dad' and 'dude'#thinking of hitting up a clothing swap because i can't afford new clothes or shoes. i'm also looking into some ftm-specific support groups#transgender#gender euphoria#genderfluid#honestly idek#trans butch maybe? i love my children (friends) but i will kill them for forever saying i'm a twink
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maybe i just need 2 change vi's (my oc) hair...I love the buzz cut and it suits her character but it doesn't make her very interesting or fun 2 draw, and all her friends have fun hair so she always looks out of place...hmmmm....thinking thinking thinking
#jay says a thing#her og design had half up half down shoulder length hair#but thats too feminine 4 her i feel#but maybe i could look at some butches on Instagram and see how they do their hair??#Definitely for Research Only...no other reason
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i feel better with leg hair, simply cause i hate stubble and don’t want to keep up with shaving. but i shaved it recently for senior portraits and easter. and it’s finally growing back. but proms coming soon and i like how i look more in the dress with my legs shaved. but i hate having my legs shaved for anything other than that occasion, and on guy days (i’m gender-fluid) not having leg hair makes me dysphoric.
#stupid fucking dysphoria#this is a stupid dilemma#maybe i’ll wear stockings with my prom dress#so i don’t have to shave#but i still look feminine enough to be happy for prom#genderfluid#transgender#gender dysphoria#trans#tw dysphoria#cress talks way too much
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Nothing like lying in bed sick w a bad cold and having gender thoughts 😂😭
#kdkdkdkd oversharing about my experience:#i'm like if a girl was a girl and a lesbian but like. you know all those 'oh no women are too much like men nowadays' fearmongering articles#i think it's a social + sexual/romantic roles thing.... like i wish there was flexibility with that 😅#i'm aware its an actual school of thought like oh gender roles arent real. but the problem is. nowadays so many people's feminism seems to#be emphasising that 'traditional female roles' are empowering and theres nothing wrong with liking them 😭 over and over#and i just don't relate to that and never will !! plus all my life i've gotten a kick out of like. taking on a diff role w other girls#not only like in a [redacted] way but like. random small things lol#it's all really difficult to articulate because of a twin problem: 1) i have a decently conforming physical presentation that i'm ok with#like i'm not butch lol. idk maybe this all is 'i'm not butch but i believe in their beliefs'#2. i feel like with some specific fem4fem lesbians there is heavy emphasis on femininity without wiggle room#so its like. i look and act like a girl but sometimes you have to pretend i'm crown prince rudolf if you want me to be happy JDJDKD 💀😂#sorry i cant believe he's in this post. so embarrassing#anyway i need to write my lesbian rudolf x stephanie fic some day i think it would be great
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ohhhh. i forgot that people used to say michael was getting surgeries in order to look like diana ross. ugh. i don't think there's anything to that but............ugh.
#that's tough#maybe i'm wrong but i get the impression she and michael never really REALLY talked about their situation#which. diana...... maybe she didn't realize how serious it was for him but... idk. she did seem kind of uncomfortable about that#like i feel like she knew he felt a way about her that didn't fit with the maternal relationship#i think it would have been responsible of her to put him in his place if she wasn't interested in that too#which maybe she WAS but felt like it couldn't happen#either way... you know him well you know he's not normal you know he's got weird attachment issues#a lot of this is based on rumors and My Feelings i realize that. i'm just thinkin#i thought jermaine described it in an interesting way. that michael had this 'fascination' with diana#'she was this dream for him... he had this ongoing fascination with her... he loved her'#ok should i go into queer michael speculation mode. well i'm always there lbr#..........so#1. gay men obsessed and fascinated with diana ross. many MANY such cases#2. looking up to her as a mentor and an idol. ik i just said i don't believe the rumors that he was trying to look like her#but that's just. of course that's a persistent rumor#they had similar roles within their groups. ofc michael grew up covering the supremes and even Being diana a j5 skit#huh. michael Becoming one of his older female idols and friends. where have we seen that before#i'm just gonna say .#i have no idea who he truly wanted to be. who he WAS deep inside#but i think he was inspired by a lot of artists especially women and he Did want to emulate them AND he had a natural draw#towards feminine things/expression#no matter how deep or far that went for him i also know that he recognized his privilege in being a male artist#that comment about madonna 'well she's a woman...' which people cite as a moment of misogyny#not at all. that was a moment of putting himself into a woman's shoes and understanding her position and potential jealousy#(i'll defend THAT part of it. the 'witch' comment well there ya go there's your misogyny lol. rest assured!)#whatever i'm not truthing in any way. i love the topic of gender and there's MUCH mj gender discussion to be had
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heyheyhey. do you guys wanna know a secret :}
#a reason i like yoimiya so much; especially compared to other fem characters; is because she has more obvious proof of a journey through-#-femininity. this is also a reason i like shikimori so much!#becaus etheres an entire episode where we learn about shikimori's journey through femininity#she is such a major reason i realized that i need to go on one myself#and yoimiya idk. like. i don't really care much for genshin lore BAHAHAHAH#and i haven't looked at her voice lines in a bit but#idk. she just. theres a lot more to her than there is in canon idc she's more than what she was made to be and i love her for that!!!!#but yea elaborating on honestly not usually liking fem characters as much as masc ones. even though i dont even like guys im a lesbian JDSF#but it's because they're all made just to be people. and i lvoe all hte characters i love#but i feel like so many fem characters could be so much more than they were given the chance to be if there was a hint of a journey in her#so many just feel too hollow; especially compared to the masc characters they interact with#shikimori by herself was just a fun character. a strong girl who enjoyed being soft#but getting the background of she did karate because her brother did; she left because her brother did; she followed every trend because-#-everyone else did; she kept her hair short because her brother did; she never did anythign her brother didn't explicitly do or tell her to#and then one day he told her to be more. and so she decided to be more.#idk i just think more fem and honestly masc characters should have hints of a journey through any sort of identity!!#whether it be gender or sexuality or general personality or presentation via fashion or anything!!!!!#show me them at a young malleable age and show me them growing out of that and becoming a beautiful person but beautiful in a way only THEY#-could be. and while we didn't get that for yoimiya#i can stillfeel it. maybe im just making stuff up but. like i said earlier; she feels like so much more than the canon made her to be#adn i really love that :)#i should sleep soon but i just got my spotify workin again and catabolic seed is playingg#i lov eyou all <3#thank you for reading my rant haha#:shroom is typing...#:shroomiya:#kisses kisses!! <3
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Year of the 🐉
The chokehold this man (and his man Wrio) has on me <3
#fanart#genshin impact#neuvillette#digital art#my art#I wasn't sure if I'd have time to draw smth for LNY this year so y'all getting this early#HNY once again and I will deffo be reblogging this on Feb 10 if I haven't made any new art <3#crying over the amazing art I've already seen of Neuvi for year of the dragon#So I decided to have some fun and draw my own#Deffo need more practice at side profiles and back views tho XD#I was originally planning on drawing a dragon tattoo on his back#But I couldn't draw any dragons that looked good rip#not an expert on CN dragons bc I mainly know Thai lore but#I've read that some art depicts them with a pearl representing immortality/wisdom etc#so Neuvi gets a special pearl too#(maybe he can share it with Wrio so they can both be immortal hehe)#(god I love Wriolette shipping so damn much)#drewed him more feminine bc I SUCK at drawing men will need to practice that in 2024#also I like giving him more blue streaks in his hair sue me XD
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Listen, I love the LGBTQ+ community as much as any other queer person. But we have got to stop ostracizing people in our community to fit in with cishetallo people.
Some of y’all really do go ‘these are the acceptable boxes for queer people and their definitions, anyone outside of these is actually not queer and making us look bad’ and act like that’s ok. Now that being queer is generally acceptable in online/progressive areas (as long as you are one of the ‘well known’ orientations), a big part of the community has started regulating what’s ‘acceptable’ of a queer person and how we should fit into society.
I’ll see people hating on trans people who don’t fit into the ‘normal’ expectation of ‘Trans girl, Trans boy, or Non-binary’ or use Neo pronouns because that’s how they feel the most comfortable. I’ll see people hating on queer people who don’t like labels ( or try to assign people one even if they don’t want it). Or people who use a label in a way they don’t like (bi people who mostly date the opposite sex, lesbians who use pronouns other than just she/her, gender non-conforming people who don’t identify as trans, obscure micro-labels, etc.)
And it’s so frustrating because we as LGBTQ+ are supposed to be better!!! We are supposed to empathize with the feeling of not fitting in with regular society and help others like us! But the community has become part of the oppressive ‘societal standard’ for some people.
Some people just can’t be put into a perfect little label box and a lot of y’all aren’t cool about that. And I can’t believe I have to tell my fellow queers this, but there is nothing wrong with denying societal standards in order to live in the way that is genuine to you and makes you happy. End of story. If you disagree with that, look inward at your internal biases and try and fix that. Get rid of the cop in your brain telling you that you have to police others self-expression.
#look man I am just TIRED of having to pick from a bunch of different boxes to feel like I’m REALLY LGBTQ+#as far as I care I’m queer#and if that label changes as I grow?#good for me#That’s something y’all need to get cool with too#labels changing over time#I just don’t feel like most big labels really fit me and I don’t really want to use micro labels#not a micro-label hate post btw#love y’all and glad you’re happy- it’s just not for me#like you could probably find some obscure aspects label to describe me#but is that anyones business other than maybe my future partner if I get one?#I don’t OWE people an explanation to me and how I experience attraction#I’m also tired of seeing people shoved into being LGBTQ+ just for going beyond gender norms#like y’all will say ‘yeah I’m normal about feminine men’ but won’t believe that a feminine man is cishetallo#which in turn is why a lot of cishetallo men don’t feel comfortable being feminine#I have a lot of feelings about this#but anyway you don’t owe society anything and you shouldn’t have to change how you present yourself to make them happy#unless you are actively harming someone by being yourself then I don’t care and I support you#actively harming in a ‘purposefuly harming someone’ way -not in a ‘you make other queer people look bad by not conforming to the norm’ way#I love the queer community if you can’t tell tho#I just think we can do better#cw queer#I like the label and I use it#but I get why some of y’all might not#gay#LGBT#lgbtq#lgbtqia#lgbtq community#queer
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