#massage and crying

[spirk-trek]

I'M LOSING MY MIND what is the point of "dig in there mr. spock" ? why did they write that??? spock regularly gives jim massages? in public? on the bridge???WHAT? whY? why does he stop her when he realizes it's NOT spock???? it's somehow more professional that way?! was it for laughs?? IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY!!!! WHY!!!!

[raviollies]

Edit: the way I thought blythe would be losing cause she shouldn't have anything wrong with her ever

[cheesecake801]

Throws WIPs and low effort doodles at you

cries why is it so hard to finish wips

[moonshynecybin]

obsessed with how marc's performance of celebrity has this kind of forced im normal im regular sheen to it sometimes that comes off as deeply vulnerable and trying too hard at the same time. his documentary where he tells everybody hes normal no really (conditions of normal: having family members and emotions) and then every other person interviewed is like hes an asshole hes insane hes the next virgin mary hes maybe icarus hes a wizard hes a workaholic and i dont know he does x y and z because it should be IMPOSSIBLE. like hes often balancing some degree of a lie AND often some of the most intensely intimate images ive ever seen come from a celebrity. literally inviting a camera crew to film him waking up from anesthesia. balancing "normalcy" with clear alien status as recognized by his peers. AND he'll drop ass to britney if given half a chance

[lotus-duckies]

no but casey's reaction to being in april's body

He's elated, he looked doped up on gender euphoria, looking at himself and pinching himself to see if it's real, if this body is his (it's not) and unable to contain his joy

and the devastation on his face when they get switched back

the way he touches his chest only to discover it's flat, his hands big and gloved, he's a boy again and he's upset about it

the earnestness in the way he says, "Man, I kinda liked being a girl." without a hint of humor or fun to an April who couldn't possibly understand the emotional turmoil bubbling inside of him

i'm inconsolable

[cloud-ya]

three must pay

[mr-stottlemonk]

*zooms in on Leland's hand on Adrian's shoulder* I- Leland.

[soaps-mohawk]

Love, I agree with thevoidwriting. If you need to push the next chapter back to Sunday because of your back, do it. I know how bad just the pain in that lower part of you back can be, because my back is also messed up in that region. Had a bad car wreck a little over 5 years ago now, and I'm still dealing with the issues in my back..

This was my doctor's impression after they did x-rays on me last September (I think. I know it was later half of last year) when I could barely get up and walk without my crutches after I'd done an apparently too strenuous physical assessment test for a job.

1. L4-L5 right anterior epidural cystic lesion could be a perineural cyst, some type of spinal meningocele within the epidural space versus arachnoid cyst. This marginates the descending right L5 nerve root at the lateral recess. There may be a smaller similar finding in the left anterior epidural space at this level.

2. L5-S1 disc protrusion with annular tear causing mild central stenosis, and mild left foraminal narrowing. Moderate right facet arthrosis at this level.

3. No compression fracture or subluxation.

*There's a lot of big words there that even I can't remember the meaning of.* All I can clearly make out of it without looking up every single definition is the disc between L4-L5 is screwed up, and is possibly what's causing the disc between L5-S1 to bulge.

So you got at least one follower here who knows your pain. And is telling/wanting you to take care of yourself! 🥰🥰

P.s. I consent to you responding to this as a post. I kinda don't care that people know about my messed up back because I feel that more people need to realize that not all of the things that make people physically handicapped are visible on the outside, whether the cause be physical or mental! It's still an issue that a lot of people have to deal with

Good lord 😭 I'm so sorry you went through that (and still are, I know how long those car accident injuries can linger).

We've got a back injury/back pain club here on this blog.

Thankfully I got some meds prescribed that will help with the pain and inflammation. I think the hardest part is I can't sit comfortably so I have to try and write laying down, which is hard even with a laptop lol. If my desk chair wasn't awful (which may be part of the reason I irritated my back) I'd just sit there. Unfortunately I get about 30 minutes max sitting at it before I have to get up.

I 100% agree, though. So many people think of disabilities and illnesses as things that are visible and forget they can be internal and mental as well. I always get that when I see doctors because on the outside I look healthy and then they look at scans and my lab work and my mental health history and it's...not good 😂 Just proof you can't judge people based on what you see on the outside. Wish more people understood that.

[blackbackedjackal]

I love how there was 0 reading comprehension with that ask.

I spent nearly $7000 ($6300 for the ER and $500 for his GP) for a /diagnosis/ only to find out Lobo has cancer that can't be treated without putting him through uneciassiary stress. I won't be pursuing any further treatments other than things to make him more comfortable while he's going through this (fluid removal, special diet, and medication).

I had saved up around 5k in our collective emergency medical fund for me AND him. That's what that money was saved for (over the course of like 12-18 months working my irl job). I still have to pay the remaining balance.

I know a lot of people have grown attached to him through seeing him on my blog, and I wanted to provide an option in case anyone wanted to donate to him. All the money that has been sent has gone directly into the fund to pay off the rest of his bills or buying him some food and treats that he likes. It's helped so much and I really don't even know how to express how grateful I am, not only for the donations, but any advice to help with his care and the time and space some of you all have provided to allow me to vent and make sense of everything. Not to mention all the kind and compassionate messages. Nothing has gone unnoticed on my end, I'm just so overwhelmed that I haven't had the energy to respond to everyone. However I will absolutely remember your kindness in turn if any of you all end up in a similar situation (which I hope no one ever does cause this hurts so much).

Anyway, again, messages like that don't bother me as it comes with such a lack of empathy and perspective that I can't relate. I easily brush off things like that as "wow someone's gonna have a bad wakeup call in the future and regret being an ass about this". But still it's like, the brazenness of it all is what gets me. Like "why didn't you use your personal medical funds to help other people in need?" Like why don't you be a more productive person and donate to those causes your damn self than sending stupid shit on tumblr?

Because I DO donate my time, resources, and finances to others in need. I don't make a huge ass deal about it, especially online, because it's something I've always done out of habit. If you wanna do good, just fucking do it. Because I truly believe the more good you put out in the world the more good comes back your way, and this whole situation is very much proving that theory.

[mpregspn]

I feel shy asking this but it is in your url name so do you have any Mpreg Sam fic recs? Lol. Thanks.

hi anon i'll get to it over the weekend but i don't want to promise too much bc 1. i fell off the fanfiction train lately 2. i kinda don't want to share the degenerate smut i read like i'm not posting my top five spnkinkmeme fills

in the meantime may i recommend browsing @phoenix1966sbottom 's mpreg tag

[unproduciblesmackdown]

no context no details "these days ppl can't Work Through Conflicts or they don't Try hard enough & this is why Communities are broken :(" how is it meaningfully different from "look at the divorce rates Today vs in the '50s :( everyone just throws marriages away. Women aren't having Kids everyone just throws Families away"

"oh these days people can think about their experiences as Trauma or Abuse simply if they Want to :( you can't even talk to anyone anymore, if you make them uncomfortable (through no fault of your own. they're too sensitive & i'm simply always Being Normal) they'll be crying victim :(" how is this meaningfully different from "ugh how can a man talk to a coworker woman anymore or even look at her. how can men try to flirt with and date women anymore :( everythinnng's misogyny ohh harassment assault oppression because you breathed in her direction :("

[practically-an-x-man]

finally home. they were still shooting when I left but my joints were doing so rough that i had to bow out early. at least there wasn't much else for the MUAs to do tonight and the director is an absolute treasure of a woman and completely underrstood the situation. I still feel bad for leaving but I was (and still kinda am) in rough shape

[astridthevalkyrie]

everything you see ab being the oldest daughter is true btw why am i the family therapist AND punching bag smh

long ass depressing rant in the tags srry i got a wee bit emotional

[lurkiestvoid]

massaging my flesh from the outside is no longer enough I need to peel it from my bones and really get at it from the inside, really get on up in there. just fuckin tenderize me cap'n

[silouvertongues]

every time the weather starts getting cold i feel like kaz brekker the way my leg starts aching constantly

[wellthebardsdead]

Falûne: *laying face down on the bed, Dammon gently massaging his back* I’m not that tense, this is- *suddenly starts tearing up as he hits a particular spot* o-oouh??

Dammon: Gods there’s some tension here- *nudges it more*

Falûne: *just bursts into tears without warning, literally in no pain but unleashing years worth of built up emotions in one go* th-that feels good w-what’s happening to me-me?!

Dammon: Oop, there’s trauma in that nerve!