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jenniferdiazisatransgirl · 4 years ago

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My Journey

Hey everyone, As you will likely know by now I am a trans woman and I live in the UK where lately trans people have been under significant scrutiny by the press, government and groups claiming to be acting in the name of feminism.

One of the arguments used when not directly attacking trans people, is that the medical institutions that help us in the UK fast track us through transition, even the NHS and I know so many trans people in this country that I can say without a shadow of a doubt this is not true. This includes a significant number who have been under the care of Tavistock and Portman, the under 18s service which was recently banned from giving its patients hormone blockers without the approval of the courts.

But anyway, I’m gonna share my story and how lengthy the process actually is and I will warn ahead of time this deals with suicidal ideation, gatekeeping, mental health, etc. So proceed with caution. This will also be a long post.

September/October 2008

I can’t remember which month but it was just before my 16th birthday, my Dad encouraged me to go to my GP regarding my gender dysphoria. I lived with my transphobic Mum at the time and had to go behind her back which was terrifying to say the least. I saw a doctor called Dr Moulsher and explained everything I was going through and his response was, “I don’t think the NHS funds any of this.” He was very ignorant on trans issues but it actually fortunately worked out in my favour, I got lucky, I know, but he just wanted me off of his hands.

I explained in Sheffield there was a GIC (gender identity clinic) operated by the NHS known as Porterbrook and he was just like, “Oh right. Well I’m more than happy to refer you but they likely won’t see you till you are 18.”

He asked me some questions, wrote up a detailed report and put in the referral to “get the ball rolling” as he worded it.

I was terrified at the time of the referral letter going to my home address though and he was like, “Well it needs to be sent somewhere.” So he agreed to send it to my grandparents address.

Later That Year

About a month or so later a letter arrived at my grandparents saying I had been accepted onto Porterbrook’s waiting list, explaining it is substantially long, that they wouldn’t be able to see me till I’m 18, etc. Your typical boiler plate stuff. Also as I understand it they don’t typical accept referrals for under 18s so I got lucky there. I remember getting so excited when I got my letter though, that I took it into school to show all of my friends.

Back then it was a requirement that I have a mental health assessment while on the waiting list though. So I returned to Dr Moulsher who I had become rather comfortable with and had made him my regular GP. He made a referral to the local mental health clinic and that was that.

January/February 2009

A letter came in the post asking me to ring to book at appointment at the local mental health clinic. I couldn’t ring from home cos my Mum would overhear and she was spying on me a lot at the time due to really being against the fact I’m trans. My school - which was a Catholic school shockingly enough - had already decided my home environment had become so toxic that I needed removing from my Mum’s care. They would be a process that wouldn’t be completed till June 2010 but yeah, it had got that bad. Anyway, I ended up asking the school receptionist if I could ring on their phone to book the appointment. That was booked for February.

The appointment was a weird one to say the least. The doctor asked me a quite a lot of questions but these are the ones that stuck out.

So with this first one, I am going to preface with that as far as I am aware, I am white and of white ancestry for all the generations I know of. However I do have remarkably curly hair that left to its own devices grows into an afro (or at least what looks like an afro). So the first set of questions that stood out; Dr: What’s your mother’s ethnicity? Me: White British.

Dr: Sorry, did you say Afro-Caribbean? Me: No. White British. Dr: And your father’s ethnicity? Me: White British. Dr: Sorry, was that Afro-Caribbean?

Me: Nope. White British.

Not really sure how you can get Afro-Caribbean and White British verbally mixed up but he seemed very adamant at least one of my parents must be Afro-Caribbean.

He then later goes;

Dr: Do you have a partner?

Me: Yes.

Dr: Are they male or female?

Me: I have a girlfriend.

Dr: Then you can’t be trans. You can’t be trans if you like girls.

Me: What about lesbians?

Dr: That’s beside the point.

Shockingly, in the end he agreed with my GP’s assessment that I am trans but Jesus, as you can probably guess from above that mental health assessment was a minefield of weird.

24th October 2010

In June 2010, I was finally removed from my Mum’s care at the age of 17 and placed in supported housing and on the date about I got a phone call from Porterbrook GIC on my 18th birthday no less, inviting me to my first appointment in November.

22nd June 2012

I legally changed my name and title by deed poll to Miss Lily Nichole Robinson.

22nd October 2012

I’d now been at Porterbrook for almost 2 years, had lots of appointments, most of which repeated the same mundane questions and it had started to feel like nothing was ever going to change. I had become increasingly depressed and suicidal and I had decided that if nothing had changed by my 20th birthday I was going to take my own life. I did not want to enter my 20s still living my life as a man. I didn’t want to lose another year of my life.

I remember this date exactly, not because I marked it in my calendar but because Taylor Swift’s album “Red” came out that morning. Despite everything, I was dancing along to 22 that morning while ironing some clothes, before I headed off to Porterbrook. I didn’t really feel like it mattered, I was going to kill myself 2 days later but I figured what is the harm in going through the motions one last time.

I sat there, trying not to let on how miserable I was, didn’t see the point in letting them in on how I was feeling. Nothing would change.

I remember being asked some really gross questions that day though. I got asked if I masturbated and I just declined answering. When challenged I was just like, “I maybe trans and I may hate that equipment but I’m a human being. I still have sexual urges. What do you think the answer is.”

The appointment though, shockingly ended with them telling me they were going to put me on hormones. I was gonna get my estrogen. It was enough to give me a reason to keep on living.

But just bare in mind how close I got to taking my own life there. 2 days away from my 20th birthday. Also it took almost 2 years for them to say they’d be placing me on hormones.

January/February 2013

In January, I had my bloods taken to get a baseline and I was told about options for storing gametes. I did decide to consider this but in the end it ended up being too costly for me at the time. So in February, on a day it was snowing I got the train and was adamant the snow was not stopping me getting to Porterbrook and I had an appointment with the head clinician, Dr Kevin Wylie.

He oddly listed all the testosterone blocker options to me with side effects and risks and all the estradiol options to me with side effects and risks. In the end I chose Cyproterone Acetate for my blocker and Estradiol Valerate pills for my hormones.

50mg per day of Cyproterone Acetate and 2mg per day of Estradiol Valerate. I was ecstatic and took them both the second I got on the bus 😊

May 2013

Slightly unrelated to the medical process but just 3 months in and my mental health had improved drastically. Since I was removed from my Mum’s care I had become a bit of a shut in. I didn’t have any friends, my anxiety was through the roof, I was insanely depressed and I just avoided everything and everyone, only leaving my house for work. Hormones changed that though, I just felt so much happier and I also remember that Spring just being like really vividly aware of the colours of all the flowers and plant life for like the first time in my life. I actually wanted to go out and social and make friends and there was a local LGBT youth group for 18-25 year olds that I decided to join and I started to have and social life again. And by September 2013 I started university and soon came getting drunk with the LGBT Liberation Group at the various socials. I was happy and finally starting to feel like myself.

2013 - 2016

Porterbrook became very gatekeepy in the final stage of my transition. They didn’t like how I dressed. Apparently girls wear dresses while I preferred jeans, t-shirts and hoodies. I didn’t like wearing make-up. I wasn’t the 1950s image of a girl that Porterbrook seemed to expect. I actually have a trans guy friend who around the same time had been told he couldn’t start on testosterone unless he cut his hair short, cos apparently men don’t have long hair.

It pissed me off to no end because I transitioned to be me, not to be a performance of how the world thinks a woman should be. I refused to give ground on how I dressed, etc but in the end I ended up telling a few white lies to get past the final level of gatekeeping. And I can’t remember most of this dates as they happened while uni was going on in the background. But eventually Porterbrook gave me the go ahead for surgery, about 6 months later I had my second opinion and then I was referred for surgery.

January 2016

I had my pre-surgery assessment at Nuffield Health Brighton and I was told if I wanted I could have my surgery as early as March 2016. Due to university though, this proved a bit too soon and the date was pushed to June 2016.

22nd June 2016

The day before the EU Referendum I had my gender reassignment surgery. I don’t actually remember feeling all that ecstatic after the surgery. There was lot of pain and I was on a lot of drugs. But a friend, Rosie, who I hadn’t seen since high school lived in the area and she was at my bedside when I woke up. I was in hospital a week and had 3 months of recovery ahead of me.

Post Surgery 2016

Having surgery had been great, things finally felt right. My entire body felt right for once but I had tunnel visioned my life towards surgery and put a lot of stuff on the back burner and had some major post-surgery depression so I sort counselling at my university to get through these issues and once that was sorted I felt a lot more stable in myself and like nothing was in my way.

October 2016

I put in my application for my Gender Recognition Certificate only for it to get rejected because they did not like the assessment from Porterbrook GIC and Dr Wylie who wrote the assessments was off on leave. Me and a nurse had to sit down and look through my medical record to find a medical report they might accept and we finally found one. However they wouldn’t say what was wrong with the original which made Porterbrook kinda stumped on what was wrong.

February 2017

I received my Gender Recognition Certificate and my new Birth Certificate.

March 2017

I was discharged from Porterbrook GIC.

For those who are under the impression gender reassignment is a fast process it isn’t, it took me 8 years and 6 months start to finish, from initially seeing my GP at 15 to finally being discharged from Porterbrook GIC at the age of 24. It is a long ass process with a shit tone of gatekeeping and honestly going through the process as it stands isn’t something I’d wish on my worst enemy. When I was discharged from Porterbrook GIC in 2017 my first thought was, “I’m free. I’m finally in control of my own life.” As up until that point, I felt I had no autonomy and that my life and happiness was in the hands of doctors. It was miserable.

But there it is.

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kyohrus · 5 years ago

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Kyohrus’ 1K Celbration!!

Hi All!

That new trailer sure was something right. It’s reinvigorated my excitement for season 2!! Anyways about a month or two ago I hit 1k followers and I wanted to do something to say thanks to all the love and support you’ve given me. To celebrate I’m going to do gifsets/manga edits of your top 15 Fruits Basket Characters! (yay)

Here’s How it’s Gonna Work:

1. You guys are gonna vote for your favorite character in this poll right here https://linkto.run/p/ZGWCQOH1). You can only vote once, but you can go back and change your vote if you want. Please also note that i’ve only included characters that have some main plot/dialogue (so not someone like Momiji’s mom) or that I think the fandom universally hates (i.e. Ren Sohma).

2. Voting will be open until Sunday March 22nd, 11:59pm EST. After then I’m going to try to crank as many of these out and (hopefully!) finish before the new season airs on April 7th.

Here’s what you can do---> vote, vote, VOTE! I really want as many people to contribute as possible to see who your faves are. Please if you can share this post by reblogging!! I’ll reblog it a few times a day but I can only do so much. Thanks again for your continued support and love (even with all the insanity of the world atm). Let’s get pumped for s2!!!

#fruits basket #furuba #kyo sohma #Tohru Honda #yuki sohma #sophie speaks

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cryptosharks1 · 5 years ago

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Bitcoin, Cryptocurrency, Finance & Global News – March 22nd 2020

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Hi guys. Thanks for tuning in to tell episode of nuggets news. Well another truly amazing week we’ve got so much macro news and crypto news to get through. A lot of that is intertwined these days so I do encourage you to watch the full video. We welcome a couple of thousand new subscribers. Thanks so much for following us we’re trying to give you the most up to date information we’ve got literally thousands of people contacting us through all our channels wanting to know how to learn about gold and silver Bitcoin crypto currency what is going on in the economy. So we’ve got all these free resources on our Web site guys. So said friends and family they’re all your favorite videos. This video we encourage you to share all that content. That’s why we’ve been busy making it all for you for the past few years for these types of situations particularly a big thank you to our members like all businesses we are relying on you for our revenue and I employ 13 people now and I know I need that money coming in to keep them employed to keep giving you guys the best content. So huge thank you. 58 new members in our premium area read that welcome post guys stick by the rules it’s all functioning really well for the most up to date information you know to the minute type updates from everything around the world and I can’t thank you guys enough for the way that’s all running at the moment. Let’s get into the local news first where Prime Minister Scott Morrison has just gone live. He’s unveiled a far bigger stimulus package. I’m all for anything that gets money in the hands of people that are losing their jobs. We just need to make sure that people can get by. And I know a lot of people are still saying he says well you know how do I keep my business going and this time the other big guys. The reality is businesses are going to close. It’s going to be bad. This is what I’ve been talking about. A lot of people have never had a rainy day and we need to acknowledge that you know let’s support people. Let’s make sure there’s food on the table. They don’t have to pay their rent their mortgage their power bills. We need to just you know do everything we can to get by until this all passes and it will pass so I’m not getting into all the details of that package. We’re going to go through all the different countries and what they’ve done so I’ll let you guys read the details of those specifics but I certainly think there’s been no mistruths pushed by the media. So look at these stats again from today from Core Logic and all the real estate industry telling us that house prices are still going up by the day. I mean who on earth believes this stuff and we know that it’s all connected particularly in Australia where we need to protect house prices from going down. That’s very hard to do when people start losing their jobs and have a lot of investment properties because it’s all connected now. Our banks the most exposed in the world in terms of their mortgage books. So yes the government are going to do everything they can to rescue the banks. We’ve seen all these excuses around the world now encouraging people not to take out cash or you know telling you the reasons why you can’t even spend your own cash. So look these things are to be expected. If you’ve been following the channel we’ve been saying this is going to happen and it’s just happened probably faster than we thought because of these recent catalysts. So earlier this week a lot of super funds including Australia’s largest Super Fund sent out emails to clients basically saying you know markets go up and down you have to really ask yourself if it’s if it’s a work taking these unnecessary risks and trading your super assets. So a bit of a typo there that tells you that that was rushed and panicked and telling people not to sell. Markets are since down another 15 per cent and I know a lot of people with their super fund are hurting at the moment. I certainly feel for you guys the RBA coming out and they’re going to have to print this money and buy our bonds. The next step is obviously corporate bonds and then stocks you know mortgage backed securities in other countries. It is just insane the level of stimulus that we’re seeing at the moment. And obviously bitcoin and go to the two things they can’t print. We’ll get to that in just a second but all this leads to the collapse of the Aussie dollar down to 55 cents you can’t quite see that behind me there sorry. That’s. This is one of the side effects of our economy that I’ve been warning about since we made our documentary over a year ago. And this pushes up yields. So when the government is now issuing debt because governments are going to run up huge huge debts and they’re issuing these bonds trying to get people to give them money but people aren’t going to give them money when they know the economy’s in trouble and this is when interest rates rise and that’s when central banks might be forced to raise interest rates. And that is just the nightmare scenario having to raise interest rates. Well everyone’s got all this debt. This situation is really messy and that’s why everyone is looking to escape into these perceived safe haven. So look good timing over in Italy where some of those banks are opening up bitcoin trading. One point two million you’re in lockdown. So these are the options the on ramps that we’ve been talking about that are now really global for people to escape the crumbling financial system. I did a detailed video on that all the different options you have to get into US dollars gold silver Bitcoin stable coins the counterparty risks of each of those so watch that video share it with friends and family if you haven’t already. FCX have got two gold stable coins a T and Pax G is the other one over there and they’ve also recently added Aussie dollars as an on ramp so you can connect your bank account and it’s a very quick way to get into US dollars or stable coins and then you can withdraw those and keep them on your hobby wallet or your ledger as well as other tutorials I’ve done recently on how to hedge if you’ve got your gold and silver holdings or bitcoin holdings as well there’s ways to hedge with the other products. All right. So what are you that managing your own money. Very happy right about now and we’re hearing all these stories about super funds and the delays. We’ve had a record amount of people start to manage their own so finding super funds so I’m gonna get Mike on this week because there’s a lot of questions now about can we withdraw from our super fund another thing that the government announced today. So hopefully we can address all those questions really clearly. One thing I will mention with that announcement from the government is that if people are withdrawing that ten thousand dollars or more from their super you remember the stock market is down it’s probably gonna keep going down. So all that money that you’re drawing now could be more down the road. Now some people don’t believe we’re going to have retirement funds in decades from now but that can start more of a ceiling because traders and investors are going to say Well everyone’s going to be selling to take many of their super. I’m going to front run that selling. And so that can I just think it’s coming together. There’s nothing that is going to make markets go higher anytime soon until this all passes. So that’s the financial side of things in terms of the health care side of things. I thought our government were going to announce more measures on Friday. They’ve come out again today and extended things encouraging people not to do non-essential travel. But it’s still not really enforcing any of this. It’s up to you as the individual just like no one’s going to save you from the world of finance. No one’s going to make you healthy and no one is going to protect you and look after you guys you have to take that responsibility yourself and a lot of you guys know that you’ve been following the channel you prepared for everything that’s happening now. So yes schools still aren’t closed. There’s talk as I’m recording of New South Wales and Victoria looking to implement that in the next 48 hours as soon as one state does it they’re probably all going to follow. But yeah I’m certainly surprised I’m giving everything that’s happening firstly on Friday. It was one cruise ship. Now it’s five separate cruises that have all had confirmed cases those people are scattered throughout Australia. We haven’t really seen that spike yet but if this doesn’t scale nothing will. This is a beach on easily 12 days ago. This is absolutely reminiscent of what we’re seeing in Australia down here in Tassie. I spoke to friends. They went for a walk this morning. All the restaurants are packed all the bars are packed. No one is taking this seriously yet and no one is taking it seriously. In Italy twelve days ago just have a look at where they are now. These excuses that we’re hearing it’s only all people 54 percent of New York City’s cases are between 18 and 49 year olds. So it is not just affecting all people at all. We’ve now got cases of babies as young as seven months old and and children that are getting this so please guys you have to realize the severity of what’s going on at the moment. I’ll just press refresh here. There’s a couple of Web sites giving us up to date information on the Australian statistics. But this is just growing continually. You know 20 percent a day exponentially we haven’t even slowed it yet mathematically we are still on track to you know to hit the number that is going to overwhelm our hospitals unless we slow this down. So we’re not quite as bad as Italy and Iran. We’re somewhere in the middle here. We are certainly not down here near Singapore and we’re not flattening the curve like the government is is telling us that they you know they’re really happy with the job they’ve done so look a couple of positives here. Kofi to help dot com today you. This is a website built by one of our friends. It lists all the freebies and the help how you can help other people charities check that out in the time of need we’ve got to come together and help each other globally. Let’s just refresh that. Three hundred eight thousand now at time of recording the deaths ratio has actually gone up a little bit recently. Again we don’t know how accurate this is in terms of total that are going undiagnosed and not tested recovery takes a little bit longer. Two or three weeks you’re in hospital in a lot of cases. So we get the deaths before we get the recoveries. That’s all to go through the system but the wiring thing here is that even on the exponential scale we’re now accelerating higher again in across Europe across Australia across the US. All right let’s go to China another 50 percent plunge after 44 percent last month. So these auto sales a lot of industries are down 90 percent. There’s talk that China’s factories and people going back to work. Now we don’t know if they just try to push out those stats or if that is the truth. I certainly don’t believe the numbers we’ve seen some photos from hospitals with new cases in China. So they’re saying I’ve got zero new cases I’m not sure if I believe that Secretary I’m a nutrition. Now the same guy who said that cash is not used for money laundering now says that won’t cause a recession in the US so I’m not sure what he’s looking at. But if you have a look at some of these State of the restaurant industry statistics Australia hasn’t been hard hit yet because we’re a week or two behind the rest of the world. But globally restaurants are down 98 percent Canada is down 100 percent. The friends that I talk to that own restaurants and businesses having to fire staff this week there’s just no nice way to put it guys this is the reality we face where we have to lock down and if we do that for a month that gives us the greatest chance to pull through the other side. Five hundred thousand jobless claims in Canada. I certainly think some of these estimates about unemployment and GDP are going to be around 10 per cent loss. And this is kind of the slack that governments are gradually picking up in terms of the stimulus that they’re putting out. Trump looking to give every American a thousand dollars. We’ve now got similar things in all the different countries. Yeah. I think you have to do it. Some people get to complain about government debt. That’s another issue altogether. They were already running huge deficits but we’ve got to make sure that people have food on the table in the US. Some of my friends are telling me that the swearing over there about how the system is you know treating different patients with different health care and insurance and some of the backlogs for just getting those admissions and claims and whatnot it’s another headache altogether. So if you know more about that let me know down in the comments below about how that’s going to work once those U.S. hospitals start to get busy and people losing their jobs. New Jersey the latest one to shut down. I think the total is now around 100 million in terms of Americans that are in lockdown. National Guards deployed because people aren’t taking it seriously. Similar over to the UK in Europe now where British police are giving people powers to detain suspected cases of people that quarantine themselves. And this is where the totalitarian invasion of privacy is beginning now. There’s all sorts of conspiracy theories going around but the big tech giants being asked to hand over all that data once they do that there’s no going back. I guess that’s what what worries me. So yeah they’re asking the big tech giants to hand over all these tracking data so they know where you are every time even if you turn your location data off and your phone off. Edward Snowden has told us that you know these new smartphones. That’s why you can’t take the battery out because they’re always triangulating your signal to the different cell towers. Now tying that together with how you can maintain your privacy with a VPN a P2P VPN office offering free services so it’s lovely to see all these communities looking out for each other. In this time of need so orchard this is actually a cool little project that I’m going to talk about more in future. Great stuff there at the brave browser. If you don’t use these already to block all the ads and to block all the data it’s free to use download brave browser but are they really taking on the big tech giants with all these privacy issues at the moment. Bank of England have canceled all their stress tests. Look all these stress tests don’t plan for these sort of situations so you know it��s all a bit of a walk in the park and they take these boxes and tell the public how strong the banks are. Well look look at them now they’re all getting bailed out. You know a week into a bear market Britain 2000 sorry. Twenty five thousand dollars to the local businesses there AC base got out their bazooka in terms of QE and other stimulus. The stock market has hit record highs in the VIX closing at 82. So that’s perceived volatility from the stock market. They’re saying that markets could currently what they’re pricing in is that it could go 82 percent lower. Now that rarely actually eventuates but that’s just the level of fee at the moment in the S&P 500 in the volatility index. The Lehman playbook continues So the Fed have unveiled another bailout this time for the money market funds. The Fed is going to have to bail out everyone the engineers of the 2009 bailout say that this has to be bigger than the GFC bailout. These numbers are off the charts. Outflows absolutely everybody is getting out of ETF bond funds. The stock market investment grade bonds people are just running for the exits and trying to go into US dollars. And there’s simply not enough dollars in the world at the moment that’s why the Fed is having to expand their credit and bail out all the different countries including Australia at the moment distressed debt has doubled in the U.S. in two weeks half a trillion dollars now. So this is that spike that they’re talking about the interview with Marika to star will be out this week. He’s the commodities expert and a lot of these junk bonds that have been issued by the U.S. oil frack is shale producers. They can’t pay that. They don’t have any revenue and positive cash flow they’re going to default on all this debt and that can stop the next wave down in the stock market. So Boeing is just one example of a company that repurchased over 100 billion dollars in stock and now they’ve had their debt downgraded to sorry 4.5 trillion dollars worth of buybacks have occurred. And this is what’s pushed up stock prices and now all these U.S. execs are demanding that taxpayer funded bailouts of shareholders after they’ve spent all that money buying back shares and making themselves rich. The Fed extending its currency exchange program to all those central banks around the world. I just mentioned that confirmed these theories and these rumors that were going around earlier in the week that the Fed are now bailing out hedge funds. Absolutely crazy stuff and a lot of people still completely unaware this is happening. Insiders were dumping their stock. So this is Kelly Loeffler who came out and denied that she said all her investment fund manager. So really stock so the day after they were briefed about how things were how bad things are getting in China and how it was going to affect other countries and come to the U.S. these you know the elites that were in this meeting room dumping millions of dollars of shares in things like hotels and airline companies and whatnot. So wait to see if that goes to criminal charges. But man I mean these people are just so corrupt. So the record number of CEOs left they saw this coming. Two hundred nineteen CEOs left in January after we already had record amounts in the months leading after that. So the reach that are paying themselves a hundred 200 or 300 times the salary of the average worker they’ve got so much money they’ve gone to their private islands or their bunker or whatnot and they’ve got out privatized the profits and then published the public put stumbling my words he guys publicized the losses. So get the government to bail you out. Taxpayers. So so frustrating to watch these happen and I hope this brings about change. You know the bank of Japan have been buying up trillions of dollars worth of yen of stock markets. They own all the ETF. And a lot of shares they own all the government bonds and I’ve lost money doing so. So if this doesn’t bring about radical change in our financial system I just don’t know what does. We need a new system and obviously hopefully a lot of the decentralized world those ledges that cut out people in the middle and bring about transparency and trust was what would get a 10 to couple of positives to finish on the FDA have authorized these new 45 minute rapid point of care tests. We’re getting stories that people of you know in one case people have died waiting for test results to come back. There’s more tests and newer tests being designed in manufactured in Australia. Hopefully these things are still a few weeks away. But look all the smartest minds are out there trying to work on solutions. High hopes for a treatment. We’ve seen some positive results in a few of these other HIV drugs. I spoke about that in yesterday’s video a little bit say look these trials are going to take weeks as well. Anti malaria drugs. There’s a few others that have shown benefits for me. What I recommend you do. I’m going to do a whole whiteboard video about this but it’s just getting your immune system as healthy as you can help. You know he’s eating healthy trying to de stress I know that’s tough at times like these with meditation or going for a walk or just tuning out at nighttime you know you vitamin C.. Personally I love eating you know that the spicy foods getting you chilli garlic Asian food really healthy style diet. Guys get your immune system ready to fight off anything that he catches a lot of jobs are going to come out of this as well as a lot of job losses so people are going to all be wanting to get hired at Amazon Coles and Woolworths are putting on people. I think we tend to see huge demand for extra health care workers. Maybe we can do some fast tracking you know one month basic nursing course. Something like not just all hands on deck society coming together almost like a wartime effort until we until we beat this. For those of you that are wanting to trade this just remind you of how risky and how volatile markets are. But if you do want to short the stock market don’t use any leverage or anything like that. It is possible to still make money but I think for most people now it’s about hedging whether that your currency risk your portfolio your crypto holdings or whatever you want to be hedging and protecting your capital. So we’ve got that hundred dollars free bitcoin sign up for those that are interested in trading these guys off of that virtual account. And if all you want to do is practice trading in these sort of conditions you know that is going to be a lifelong skillful when we have that you know the next market cycle whether it’s 10 or 20 years from now. So look even a practice account is good for learning while you’re at home. Let’s get into the crypto news where bonds and with Xerox have announced a 50 million dollar block chain fund in India. These guys are doing great stuff. They’ve got a token that’s been performing extremely well again of late. So once crypto markets turn around I think exchange tokens are ones that are going to do well. Ripple have cemented their Asian presence with more partnerships in Thailand with fintech Company D money their car down in the headlines again. Charles Hoskinson did go live and say this wasn’t a big deal. This was an old partner. Nothing to worry about and it’s not going to affect the launch of their may net which has been months and years in the making now. So hopefully Shelly does come out soon. The Teslas Foundation has settled a lawsuit for 25 million and saying that they’re sick of paying all these legal fees. We know how much lawyers love to charge and in the crypto world we’ve got steam in the community. They’re actually hard for the network and they’re relaunching hive as they’re calling it they’re after everything that’s been going on with Justin sun trying to buy out the network. So great to see a decentralized community coming together there storage decentralized cloud storage is in computing. I’m very bullish on these type of projects. They’re tardy grade upgrades now live. This is a perfect example all the theorem being able to have these censorship resistant file storage so Chinese journalists are sharing reports on a theorem because if they tried to share them on the Internet they can get censored and blocked and shut down. So this is the decentralized World in Action that Micah has had its issues this week. The system didn’t function as it should because the theorem got clogged during that huge sell off. So they had to issue some more make it tokens and that is the way the system was designed to function. That was the emergency backstop those auctions have all finished now. There were plenty of buyers in the make a token and that one has bounced back really well in terms of price after a lot of people were fearful that was the end for the project. With all these issues happening in the world of day at the moment insurance has never been more important. So Delphi digital did a great research piece on all the best insurance projects in the world of five. And um I’ve spoken out nexus meet you had them on the channel open. I’m going to have those guys on as well. Ether risky is another one you can’t see behind me there are some very cool little projects there. So I read that report from Delphi digital. HTC are getting right behind Kibo and a lot of these smartphone companies are really integrating with crypto wallets and what not so great to safety for public awareness. The theory and baseline protocol is now open source on github. So this is the the protocol for building private systems for corporates and businesses to use the fear in public chain while still keeping the data that they need to private. Using this protocol layer on top of the theory in public chain open browser have enabled Apple Pay debit card crypto purchases in the U.S. So as if they didn’t have enough on ramps already it’s more these developing countries which is really the rapid expansion of getting the millions or billions of people into the crypto world that I’m excited about. But Coinbase Coinbase has said that traffic broke records and so huge volumes during the recent market collapse. So these are very similar to the stories that I’ve been hearing. Like I spoke about at the start of this video the website traffic was it was through the roof. We’ve had thousands of people and hundreds by Go Silver and bitcoin for the first time because with everything happening as ro says here Heyman I’ve been talking every day at the moment because it’s kind of you know you need to branch out with so much happening around the world. But in some ways it’s exciting for the bitcoins and the people that have been expecting this and bunkering down living within their means and saving getting into your goals you Silver’s getting out of shares and if you’ve been prepared hopefully there’s a lot of good that can come from from the bad at the moment when people lose their jobs. Hopefully the new system when the dust settle it’s going to create a better job and a better quality of life for a lot of these people. That’s what I hope can come out of all of this. I certainly think that decentralized system is going to play a huge role in all that. So just quickly looking at the charts here. Bitcoin has had a pretty decent bounce this week. We’ve got to be careful that this is just a bear flag when we see a huge sharp sell off like this. But you know my thoughts that that liquidation on Pete makes actually push prices a lot lower than they maybe otherwise would have gone if we didn’t have that cascade where they had to shut the systems down and other exchanges were getting dragged lower. So there’s plenty of healthy buying like gold and silver have not been immune from this either. It’s ridiculous to see the price of silver under 12 dollars when you can’t get physical silver at basically all bullion dealers around the world. So that is going to break in the coming weeks when people actually buy those futures contracts and they demand delivery at the 12 dollar price. So the paper market is going to break and it’s going to come back to the real world price and demand for silver. The same with gold. You’ve got your digital options. I’ve done videos on that guys hang in there. I just can’t explain how bullish I am with the governments and central banks around the world printing trillions of dollars. What this means for these finite currencies that can’t be printed longer term so hang in there. We’re all in this together. Head over to our website to check out our resources. Join up to our community if you want to join the discussion and stay up to date with everything that’s happening. Thank you for supporting the channel more than ever guys place mass that like button subscribe. You haven’t already shown these videos around and I’ll talk to you again soon. Cheers.

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the second one- where does this start?

okay okay so I guessss this is the part where I kind of have to talk about myself since honestly truly now that I think about it- not a lot of people know MY story.. its usually me asking to someone else what theirs is and why they are the person they are, but sometimes not even my closest best friends know, because they never asked? weird, I know lmao. buuuut okay where to start right? well I was born in Guatemala, September 21st 2001, for the ones who didn't know hahah aaaand I was a happy kid. always a happy kid. to keep the long story as short as possible, moms filed for a divorce, father said no. for my fifth birthday though, they both wanted to take me to Disneyland, in Cali. this meant that we had to get a tourist visa from Guatemala granting us permission to leave the country, which for those of you who don't know how that process works, its HARD. somehow we managed to get it, and a few weeks later I was celebrating my birthday in Disneyland. that was when my mom made the decision to run away from my dad. obviously telling this story now, I know we had family in Virginia. and being an immigrant traveling with your also immigrant daughter as you're already in the United States- not so hard. I woke up to my mom packing bags, she just told me to go back to sleep and that we were going to the beach later that day. I, listened to my mom, and proceeded to waking up basically in an airport. just like that my life had shifted. we flew into Virginia, and proceeded to living there, hiding for six months. hiding was tough. my father had even filed a missing child case basically saying I had been abducted. Amber Alert who, right? During my time there, I did start to notice money coming in, we would go shopping, and I would get random presents out of nowhere. AAAAnd thats where my stepdad comes in. Once again, to summarize, my (now stepdad) had been in contact with my mom ever since they were high school teenage sweethearts. when my mom split up with him, it was because he had decided to flee to the United States and stay as an illegal immigrant. that’s when she met my father and had me- talk about a cockblock. anyways I soon came to find out that all the money and presents coming in, were from him. he came to Virginia for Christmas, also took me to New York for the first time and I got to get hello kitty EVERYTHING inside that Toys R Us- and then we came back home to Virginia and I was completely in awe of how good this man was treating me and my mom- aaaandd thats when they dropped the bomb on me. We were moving to Seattle. shortly after making that decision, it was January of the year 2006 and I was on a plane (again) and headed to my new life, with a new dad, and SOOO many new toys. I was happy.

Fast forward a few months, moms is pregnant, has my brother in 2007, I can suddenly speak and understand English FLUENTLY, and I have an entire new family. As if it couldn't get crazier, my 3rd grade year, my biological dad reached out to my mom, told her he was in town. I had no idea until we stepped into the closest mall by my house, and there he was. Live and in the flesh, it was my father. I ran into his arms and obviously balled my eyes out, and I just couldn't believe it.

Fast forward a few years, he visited again and then after that visit went kind of MIA. No more emails, or letters, and most definitely no calls. When I turned 13, I still waited for that phone call, waited all day for my mom to tell me “your father’s on the phone” and nothing. Until it was 1AM, September 22nd, and my mom told me THATS when he called. 1 fucking am here, meaning 3 am over there, basically the day after my birthday. After that year, noting stayed the same. No longer waited, or anticipated, just- nothing. I later came to find out through social media, that he was having a daughter. Insane. I couldn't believe it, but part of me saw it coming. I mean this is what I wanted right? for him to move on and start his new life, and I didn't care anymore if I was a part of it... right? On my 16th birthday, he called. By this time I wanna say my little sister was probably around 3 or 4, (still hadn't gotten a call, until now.) When he called me I was in the middle of a small get together with just family, my boyfriend and bestfriends at the time had already left and I heard the phone ring. my mom looked at it and went silent, and showed me the phone. I knew who it was. I recognized the number. and I didn't want to answer, but I needed answers.

so I pick up.

“hello?”

“hi mija, god how I've missed you I can't believe I actually got a hold of-”

“stop.”

you can’t believe you got a hold of me? you never tried.

I proceeded to basically cussing him out, and asking about my sister. You know when you accidentally rat yourself out to your parents by saying something you shouldn't have? yeah thats exactly what happened to my not so dearly beloved father. he basically spit out that my sister’s mother was the same bitc- lady, that my dad had cheated on my mom with- go figure! no wonder the woman ran away from you, jesus.

“look, im sorry. god I am so sorry for everything I promise I will make it up to you what do I have to do?”

“never speak to me ever again. just like how I was basically dead to you and had no right to know the truth about everything, as far as im concerned the only thing that connects us is blood.”

he ruined my 16th birthday.

never talked to him ever again.

fast forward to my senior year- tf when did that happen?

I’m in Washington DC on a school trip (so much fun by the way AMAZING) and I call my mom to say hi and catch up (actually just calling because she was across the country and if she didn't hear from me she’d think I was dead inside the White House or something, hispanic moms, you know) and she then proceeds to tell me that she saw on Facebook (once again this damn social media) that my dad had just became a father, again. another baby sister. also that he had been living back and forth from Germany to Guatemala.

sounds like a blast daddy��dearest.

(yeah he has a lot of money by the way, still waiting on the child support from the past decade but its good HAH)

FAST FORWARD AgaIINNN to March of 2019.

I became a legal resident of the United States, free to travel in and out of the country without a problem, free to work wherever I wanted, free to go to college and actually have a social security number when im asked for it- just simply free.

April 2019.

The month I got the chance to go back to my beloved Guatemala for the first time in thirteen years. THIRTEEN. To not bore you with all the details of my trip, on the last night, fate decided that it was time, and yes ladies and gents, there he was, in the flesh, my father. I always call him “father” and my stepdad “dad” just because all that other guy did was help with the process of me being born he was never a real dad to me ever, as heart wrenching and harsh as that may sound. so fuck him. seriously, fuck him. I saw him, with tears of anger streaming down my face and my entire body shaking, and he walks up to me crying.

he leans in for a hug.

“not a step closer don’t you dare touch me.”

he walks away and disappears into the crowd of hundreds of people, and I proceeded to having the worst panic attack I have ever had. paramedics asking if I was okay, my mom on the floor with me as I was sobbing and screaming, and everyone scared out of their minds because suddenly I felt trapped in a ball of water with no air as everyone watched the color of my skin slowly beginning to fade until I became white as snow. when I snapped out of it and finally calmed down, I cried. god I cried so damn much. I was so hurt, mostly because part of me thought he would take a stand for once and try. just try. even though I told him not to I knew a part of me wanted him to, but he didn't. and he disappointed me- just as I expected he would.

haven't heard of him since.

that was almost five months ago. and that leads us to today, the present! and thats my story, without all the minor details because with those included id have people reading for hours. But, even after this longgg ass post, if you're still here hi! thanks for reading, and for being interested in my story? not a lot of people tend to be, but if im gonna be writing on here I might as well include it- right?

anyways- yep thats me, this along w other crazzyyy things are part of what shaped me to be the person I am today. As for my family? My mom, my dad, and my little brother? I’d take a bullet.

and as for my father?

I don’t know,

I don’t bother to ask,

I don’t care.

besitos,

ria.

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3x17 Mr. Solomon Pt. 1

“I’m here to ask you, to implore you… Please. Don’t do this.”

So last episode Liz “learned” that her mother was alive. And she “accepted” Tom’s proposal. This episode she and Tom will attempt to get married. It won’t go particularly well.

Solomon is being transferred to Leavenworth. Only not. The Cabal is going to take him out.

Hitchin apparently ordered the hit. No loose ends. Protocols that Solomon helped to put in place. So Karakurt’s probably dead, right? Maybe? I’m curious about what happened to him.

I wonder why Solomon’s considered a loose end. Perhaps Laurel is just cleaning house after the Peter vs. Reddington debacle. Erasing all traces of that fiasco. And in that, Solomon is a loose end. He might not talk, but he was still a part of it.

Solomon is rescued at the last minute by a mystery person that we later learn is Scottie Hargrave.

So does Scottie have ins in the Cabal? To know where they were going to take Solomon out? Laurel will later tell Red she despises Halcyon.

Scottie’s already been hired to get Masha. She’s recruiting Solomon because he has experience with Liz and Red. Caught them once. And she knows Red will likely be keeping track of Solomon, which is crucial to the whole “rabbit trail” strategy.

There’s been a cancellation at the church where they wanted to get married the first time, so Liz wants to get married there - today. In about nine hours..ish. Before she’s so big they’ll have to roll her down the aisle.

She’s due April 22nd. ... ...

Okay, see, the absolute latest that boat sex happened was May 15th of last year. My personal math puts that last ep more in April of last year, but let’s go by the prop newspaper with the episode air date, just to be generous.

So... if she’s pregnant from the boat sex, that’s an eleven month old baby in there. Going to be, anyway. It’ll be born a month “early.”

Let’s just accept the fact that dates after 2x22 are insane and make no sense.

Tom is like, ‘idk if we can pull off a wedding by this afternoon.’ And Liz is like, ‘if we don’t do it now we won’t get another chance until I’m pretty much in labor.’ I think she wants to tie the knot before the kid shows up. She accepted his proposal after deciding to keep the kid. Now wants to make it official before having the kid.

I ain’t saying she doesn’t love him or anything, but I definitely feel like this would be going differently if there were no kid. Maybe I’m wrong.

I definitely get the sense that she’s eager to get it done with before her doubts catch up with her. She wants to leap.

I wonder how they were planning on handling all this before they decided to use the pregnancy. What Liz’s motivations would have been for the fake death. When she wouldn’t have had a kid to pin it on.

Red calls her over to tell her that Solomon has escaped and has been nosing around asking about nuclear weapons. They know it wasn’t the Cabal who broke him out because of all the dead Cabal dudes.

Red: Yesterday, Solomon reached out to an associate of mine…inquiring about the storage and transport of tactical nuclear weapons...your Air Force is scheduled to transport just such a weapon down the New Jersey Turnpike. I’m afraid your wedding plans will have to wait, Lizzy.

Liz: Is that what this is really about? Getting me to delay my wedding?

No, Lizzy. Pending nuclear disaster is not about getting you to delay your wedding. But I’m sure Red does not mind at all if that’s a fun side benefit. I’m sure he’s more than happy to delay it now and hope for another excuse to delay it later.

At least she recognizes the proper order of importance later to the task force. “I would love it if you could be there, but preventing Solomon from getting this weapon is much more important than coming to watch me remarry my ex-husband.”

It’s funny that Liz is so suspicious of Reddington that she would think, even for a second, that he would somehow set all of this up just to prevent her from getting married.

Then again, knowing Reddington, is it really so crazy?

Solomon reaches out to an associate of Red’s on purpose. Halcyon wants Red chasing after something, looking the other way, while they snatch Masha. And a nuclear weapon is big enough to hold his attention. They want him to know about it, hence his associate.

Red also knows about the Air Force transporting a nuke. What he doesn’t seem to know is that that transport is a decoy.

I just find it interesting what information Red is and isn’t able to get his hands on.

He also knows about her wedding plans, but I’m assuming she told him earlier in the conversation.

Liz says she’ll take the case to the task force.

“But I’m not going to get involved. What I am going to do is get married.”

Rather fortuitous for Halcyon that Liz is at cross purposes with Red right now. I wonder how they would have nabbed her if she had decided to chase after the weapon rather than get married. Then again she’s not a field agent, and she’s super pregnant, so maybe they banked on her being in a different place from Reddington no matter what.

Liz invites Red and Dembe to the wedding in a way that’s nice but firm. She knows Red objects. She’s trying to do what she wants to do without being a giant dick about it. Dembe thanking her for the invitation is adorable.

Liz leaves. Red is upset.

I wonder how much time has passed since last ep. Why she’s not pissed at him still for supposedly keeping her mom a secret from her.

The task force discusses Solomon’s escape, etc...

“Did you get your information from Beyonce herself?”

Liz tells them the wedding is this afternoon.

“Let me guess – soon as you told Reddington, he gave you the case.”

Ha. Ressler so has Reddington’s number.

Liz asks Cooper to officiate. If he can wrap up this Solomon thing in time.

Solomon and Nez make a show out of breaking into a nuclear research facility and taking some of their nuke transporting equipment. They make sure the people hear them talking about stealing a nuclear warhead.

Good grief, they’re pretty.

Tom is amazing at impromptu wedding planning.

Liz is eight months pregnant. So this would put this episode around March 22nd. Somewhere around her birthday. Factoring in the due date being April 22th.

... ... I know, I know. Just go with it.

Gina sits in her car watching him as he exits the church. Watching him get ready to re-marry the mark he dumped her for. Ouch.

Cooper has no luck with the military guy. The military guy knows the nuke on the turnpike is a decoy, so he’s not concerned. But he doesn’t tell Cooper that. So the task force has to focus on Solomon.

Solomon will need a team. Samar will reach out to Mossad to see what mercenaries they’re tracking in the area. Aram will put together a list of equipment Solomon will need. He hands Liz a playlist for the wedding. ... not sure when she’ll get a chance to use it, but okay.

Ressler is a little less into the wedding excitement.

Liz: This is about you and Tom. Look, I know the two of you have –

Ressler: It’s not about him and me. It’s about him. I mean, he laid a hand on you. As far as I’m concerned, there’s no coming back from that.

I would actually put the physical altercations Liz and Tom had at the bottom of the list of problems with Tom. Although him punching her in his hideout and then being all like, “I can’t stand the thought of someone hurting you like that” was pretty bad.

The other fight and the boat stuff you could put down to agent vs. enemy agent (and also Liz doing her own form of therapy, which should give you a window into how much it all screwed her up and how ridiculous it is that they just gloss over it because Tom killed an old dude “for her” and confessed to it “for her”). But that punch at the hideout is pretty gruesome.

But there are a bunch of other problems to get through before you even get to that. Like top-level classified assassinations and the deaths of colleagues and the attempted strangling of the dude who’ll be officiating your third wedding.

Liz kinda tears up while answering.

"I get where you’re coming from, and I love you for saying it. But I kept him prisoner in the hull of a ship and tortured him for two months, so in my book we’re even.”

That’s not how this works. That’s not how any of this works.

If you’re Gina, then maybe. Tom and Gina are the couple that beat each other up and then have hot monkey sex. Tom and Liz? Not so much. That’s not Liz’s scene.

It makes sense that Ressler’s the one, besides Red, with the objections. Cooper and Aram should have them too (Samar I give a pass to since she wasn’t around), but Ressler is the one Liz confided in at the end of season one. He’s also the one she told about holding Tom on the boat. The one she told about the Harbormaster. The one who walked into the Deer Hunter room and saw Liz choking the life out of someone with a wild look in her eyes. He saw more of what Tom did to Liz on a personal level than anyone else on the task force.

Aram discovers the robbery from the nuclear research facility. Samar and Ressler go to the facility and find footage of Solomon and Nez.

Nez was a nuclear weapons specialist in Navy. Been a freelancer for eight years. They find out that one of her aliases is checked into a hotel in Baltimore.

They raid the hotel and capture Nez after a firefight which leaves two FBI agents wounded, one in critical care who may never walk again.

I’m gonna try to keep track of the carnage caused to the FBI in all of this.

Cooper is pissed at Kirk in season four for causing the deaths of FBI agents. But really, Halcyon is to blame for the way they carried out their operation. It’s unbelievable to me that the government would just allow a private agency to shoot up FBI agents, but hey.

Nez tells Ressler she wants a deal. That she’ll talk in exchange for full immunity. That she knows the bomb in the turnpike is a decoy. Continuing to misdirect the task force from their actual objective and mislead about the nature of her employer.

Of course her entire capture was intentional.

Tom goes home to pick up his tux and Gina comes in after him with the Major in tow.

And now we get a scene about Tom’s love for Elizabeth Keen. And good grief could this be any more lame? There’s not even any real tension in the whole waiting for Gina to shoot the Major thing.

Also, here we have the Major asking Tom when he began to feel love for Liz. If Tom loved her before even turning to Berlin, which is what the Major told Reddington, then you’d think the Major would know the answer to this question. Again with the Major not making sense.

Or maybe it’s what they’re doing with Tom that makes no sense. If you’re gonna invest so much into this guy and create a spin off out of him, maybe at least try to not have him running from one side of the boat to the other from one episode to the next as if trying to make it capsize.

“I’m going, I’m staying, I’m going, I’m staying!”

Gina saves his little life because after she thought she killed him in the back of that van, she actually missed him. And now he’s got a dead body to get rid of. And a wedding in a couple hours.

Gina’s wedding present.

The General tells them to give Nez whatever she wants. Nez tells them that Solomon’s going to blow a bridge to halt the traffic that the real nuke will be in and then hit the convoy hard.

They re-route the nuke and scramble to intercept the van with the bomb in it. Ressler says he’ll go alone. The rest of them can go to the wedding.

Liz is at the church getting ready. Red comes in. He basically said at the end of Drexel that he was done interfering in her Tom choices, that he was going to let her make her own mistakes. But that was before talk of remarriage. And even so, he’s merely trying to persuade her with words here, not sabotage things behind her back.

Aw, he’s happy for a split second.

If only she was marrying anyone else. The dogcatcher maybe. Sewer Inspector guy.

Red says that Samar briefed him on the nuke situation.

Liz: Then you’re here for the wedding?

Red: No, Lizzy.

“I’m here to ask you, to implore you, please, don’t do this. I’m telling you, no matter what you believe, Tom is not the man you think he is.”

Liz: You’re wrong. You don’t know him.

Red: He’s a criminal.

Liz: No. He’s changed.

He literally just robbed a diamond store like a month ago. Also, him “changing” doesn’t have any bearing on whether or not he’s a criminal. He’s committed crimes, many multiple crimes, and paid for none. But that aside, Red is speaking to Tom’s fundamental character. A character that will not allow him to leave that life behind in favor of the normal life Liz claims to desire.

Red: Men like Tom don’t change. You’re attempting to build a life with a man who is fundamentally dishonest.

Liz: No. I am attempting to build a life with the father of my child.

“A normal life with two parents who love one another. With everything you know about me, can’t you see that? Can’t you see how important that is to me? To my child?”

Trying to give her child what she never had.

Is the montage of burying the Major supposed to be backing up what Red is saying? Because I’m as anti-Tom as they come, and even I know that that’s one situation that doesn’t paint Tom in a bad light. Apart from the whole not telling Liz anything about it thing. That’s a problem.

Red: You were wrong about him once. What makes you so sure you’re not wrong this time? Do you really want your child to pay the price for that mistake for the rest of his or her life?

Liz: Get out. I want you to go. Please? I don’t want you here.

Red leaves. After he’s gone she’s visibly upset.

Red isn’t saying these things because he wants to ruin her wedding day. He doesn’t get joy out of her suffering. He’s not saying it because he doesn’t want her to have a normal life with a husband and a child and happiness.

He's saying it because he does want her to have those things, and he doesn't believe Tom will deliver them. He's saying it because he believes it to be the truth: men like Tom don’t change.

He believes that if Liz does this today she will come to regret it. That it will cause more and prolonged pain in the future rather than brief, sharp pain right now. That the dog will return to its vomit and the child will pay the price.

Liz is doing this because if there’s a chance that she can make a life with the father of her child, who she believes has changed, if she can give her child two parents who love each other and a normal life, then she’s going to take that chance.

This comes from her experiences as an adopted child who loved her adoptive father, but always wondered about her real parents and clearly has abandonment issues. Especially in the wake of everything she’s learned.

Soon after Red leaves, Cooper arrives. A newly minted minister of the First Church of Life and Energy.com.

The Red and Cooper scenes parallel each other. Liz crying at the end of the Red scene. She does indeed have doubts and he’s just given voice to them.

When Cooper comes in, Liz asks, “What am I doing?”

If Cooper had echoed Red, I think she would have called it off.

Cooper reassures Liz about her “leap of faith.” When Cooper leaves, the close-up is of her smiling rather than crying. And she says that Cooper is the closest thing she has to a real father.

“You’re trusting Tom. Taking a leap of faith, one you know could end in disappointment, but it’s because you love him.”

That’s...about as good a spin as you can put on this whole thing I suppose.

Red is all upset, but also puzzling over the things he heard from Samar.

Dembe: Raymond, we should turn around. You’re upset. I’m sure Elizabeth didn’t mean –

Red: Why didn’t she escape with the others?...Agent Navabi said she broke off on her own, tried to get away in a second vehicle.

They go to see the car she “tried to escape” in.

Tom finally shows up with his tux in tow. After meeting Aram and Aram’s grandfather’s car (R.I.P.), he goes in to tell Liz that he just buried the man who raised him. Or shaped him, I suppose.

And here we have probably the third keen2 moment in the show history that I actually like. I think that’s it. I think there are three.

The problem is that it’s a scene we needed to see much earlier for me to even be on board with the idea of Liz sticking her little toe back into Tom water, let alone taking the plunge.

“I told myself no more secrets. And I promised you that I would be completely honest, no matter what.”

ha. Liz is like, oh boy. Okay. What now?

“Today the Major found me. Gina told him where to find me, and he came into our apartment and tried to kill me. But he’s dead....What I want you to know is that it happened because I made it clear that I’m out. I’m done with those people and that life.”

It happened because Tom decided to do an op of the Major’s even after Gina basically told him she was gonna tell the Major about it. I mean, that was stupid. Tom might as well have walked up to the Major and put a gun in the Major’s hand and put the barrel between his own eyes. But the Major would have missed because the Major still wouldn’t have been able to find him.

“But there are things that I did...and I might be done with those things, but I can’t promise you that those things are done with me. And I can’t promise you that it’s not gonna happen tomorrow or next week or five years from now. And I would understand, frankly, if you didn’t want to deal with any of - “

“Stop. It’s me, remember? Your ex-wife who shot the Attorney General and was publicly branded a Russian sleeper agent. I know a little something about baggage. But I love you. And I am willing to help you carry yours if you can help me carry mine.”

‘It’s fine if someone comes into our house and tries to kill you five years from now because of something that you did. But let’s not have any security ever. A pox upon Baz!’

Sorry. I have to be snarky during this episode or I can’t get through it.

So there are things that Tom did that might not be done with him.

Liz sees herself as baggage lady. I’d say that being framed for something you didn’t do and pressure cookered after a recent screwing around in your memory that makes you flashback and shoot a bad dude is a tad different than the things Tom has done. Just a tad. I mean, a tad. A smidgen, really. But whatever.

She lost her badge. She sees herself as damaged goods. She has doubts, but she’s willing to take the risk. On the off chance that it might work out. The father of her child is sitting in front of her trying to be somewhat honest and offering to take the disgraced Attorney General Slayer, and her offspring, and build a home.

Meanwhile, Red and Ressler are discovering that this is all a giant misdirect. There is no bomb in the back of the van. And Red asks about the failed getaway car. At first he seems to think that maybe there was something in the car. That she broke away to get to that car because of something in it. But the guy says it was empty.

“Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe the car means nothing. Maybe she was just unlucky.”

He asks why the car didn’t start. It starts just fine.

“She’s a sacrifice.”

“Solomon isn’t after that weapon. It’s a distraction to keep us looking one way while they go another. He’s after Elizabeth.”

Red calls Ressler from the car and tells him to get to that church. He no doubt knows since he talked to Samar earlier that the rest of the task force will already be there.

Red: Ever since Elizabeth went public as Masha Rostova, still waters have been stirred up and old grudges have surfaced. And now someone out there is singularly focused on coming for her.

Ressler: Coming to kill her?

Red: No. To abduct her.

Ressler: They’re sending Solomon.

Red: In retrospect, that’s a perfect choice. He knows us intimately. He knows about the task force. They gave us a false trail, and we followed the scent.

I don’t think Red knows for sure who is coming. But he knows they want her alive.

Red arrives at the church. I count at least two other vehicles, at least four armed men, including Baz. They stand outside while Red goes in to grab Liz.

While he’s in there trying to get her, Solomon and his men show up. They have more than four.

“Elizabeth, I’m sorry, but we need to go....Men are coming for you. We need to leave now.”

So, what’s up with the little blurry and garbly and thing going on. Red in Liz’s perception. Is this just to showcase the horror of the moment? Or is she almost fading into another flashback?

If it’s the latter, given the context and everything, I wonder if it’s about him coming to take her from her family. And now Kirk is here to take her back.

“I’m sorry, Lizzy.”

‘Well, I didn’t want the wedding to happen, but not this way.’

Baz comes in. Shot up. Solomon dispatched with the others and they’re surrounded. Solomon calls Cooper’s cell. Red stalls for time. And fishes for information.

Red: I thought you were the Cabal’s most loyal soldier. And yet here you are, under the patronage of a new benefactor.

Solomon: I was loyal to the Cabal. Right up until they tried to kill me. I’m totally violating my non-compete agreement, but… what the hell?

They’re jamming the cell signals except for the little window where Solomon calls. So Samar gets out a call for help when he calls back.

Liz says it’s her mother.

Red says her mother is dead.

Liz: We’re not all out of options here. Nobody has to get hurt. Red: Lizzy, you are not going out there – under any circumstances.

Solomon prepares to breach.

“Your target is Elizabeth Keen. She’s to be taken alive and unharmed, but please… feel free to kill anybody else.” Liz: This is on you. Red: Yes. All of this, indeed, is on me.

“This is on you.” Liz is talking about his determination to not let her walk out like she wants to. She wants to go. Red and Tom say no. This battle that’s about to take place because of that, whatever happens, is on Red. According to her.

It’s funny, cuz I actually agree with Liz’s instincts. Except the Tom marrying instincts. Those I don’t understand at all. But the giving the kid up for adoption thing, and the walking out of the church thing? Idk. I kinda think those were the right calls. Little organ lady would certainly say so. If she could still say anything.

But anyway, I think that’s what Liz means when she says it’s all on Red. And I’m not sure if he’s being like, yep, I’ll take responsibility for whatever happens in this one, or if he’s speaking to waaaay back. Saying the whole lot of everything is on him. It feels more like a far back thing.

Liz is so over this entire thing. Her entire life. She’s so over it.

Baz is like, what is she doin’? She crazy or somethin’?

“We will get you out of this.”

She’s like, yeah, yeah. Whatever. Here’s your bag.

Solomon gets word that the police have been alerted. They’re three minutes out. Time to breach the doors. Little organ lady gets shot. Would be alive if Liz had just kept walkin’.

A couple people come in. One gets shot, Dembe punches out the other one and rips off his earpiece.

Ressler comes in. Very recklessly, I might add. They very well could have shot him. Announce yourself, boy.

Tom and Liz make a run for the car while the rest hold off the men coming in the back.

#rewatch 2017 #mr. solomon part one #anti-keen2 #rewatching 3b so you don't have to

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What a surprise and welcome back to another video. So in today’s video, we’re going to be talking all about the bitcoin price breaking below this very crucial support level. Now we did have an ascending support level here and we actually broke it down around about 12 percent in the past few days. So really really interesting stuff not only that we’re going to be taking a look at the Federal Reserve printing one million dollars every second or the equivalent of doing that. That’s how much money they are printing. We’re also going to be taking a look at Donald Trump indirectly advertising Bitcoin. So a really exciting video coming up today. So definitely stick around and if you haven’t already definitely smashed those likes we haven’t quite reached 500 likes and video. So if you could smash those likes that would be great. Also if you haven’t already made sure to subscribe and take that notification bell so you get notified when I post my next video. Guys, of course, you know the drill by now. Post a video comment down below to be entered to in that tree’s storage device. Now tomorrow is the giveaway. So get your comments down below. So guys without any further ado let’s jump into the video so we can see it. We had this pretty nice ascending level of support here we took a step back here on the 13th on the 16th almost on the 19th on the twenty-third and then on the twenty-sixth we actually came down tested it and then on the twenty-seventh we finally break broke below it and fortunately now that’s really unfortunate because I was hoping that potentially we could have broken to the upside however that doesn’t always happen and we were going we’re going to break one way or another if we go ahead and take a look at the volume we can see that the volume just isn’t really that high we can see we’ve got a descending volume line here and the volume just really really wasn’t really that great, unfortunately. So I’d really like to see the volume kick up a notch if we were gonna see any test to punch back up here. However, I do think we could fall a little bit further before things get better. I’ve outlined a few areas here. If we go ahead and take a look on the for our child first you can see that we have this area here down around this area we could potentially go about down to just below 6 K that will be a reasonably probable area to go into next. If we were to pump upwards we could potentially test this six-point four K range which we have been holding a little bit of resistance there in the past. We could also go up and test this range here at about six point five. So between six point four and six points, five K will be the target for the upside downside short term probably around five points six to five point seven K. If we were to fall to the downside now if we go back over onto the one day chart we’re going to go ahead and take a look at this 20 day moving average because right now Bitcoin is sitting exactly on it. Yes we are still way below on the 200 days moving average I’ll bring that up now we’re even further below now we were making good grounds to coming back to this 200 day moving average. You guys all know I love the 200-day moving average I think it’s a great moving average to two to basically get great information from over the 20 days is also pretty relevant as well. We can see we came up here when you got rejected by we came further down. We came up we tested the 20 days here. We can’t get rejected. We came down tested the 20 there we jumped above the 20-day moving average and then we found literally we found to support all the way down on the 20-day moving average and that’s currently where we are sitting now. So we could potentially slide a little bit further into this five-point eighty-five point nine K range as I said that 20 day moving average is holding us there quite nicely. I’d like to see the volume increase a little bit. To be honest the volume is really low. We can see when we had these massive drops here. The volume was absolutely crazy of course we had that massive price drop. But nevertheless, the volume was still large even back here a few days ago when we had this minidump and pump the volume was still way higher than it is actually now. So that’s definitely fairly interesting guys that we are going to get into the news now. But before we do that if you haven’t already checked out the bitcoin Blueprint 2.0 it’ll be linked down below in the description basically in eight is a guide on how you can become a profitable trader with cryptocurrency even if you don’t know much about trading or you’ve not traded before the bitcoin Blueprint 2.0 will guy guide you through the steps on how you can be a com a profitable trader with the right steps tactics and methods have been tried and tested and there is currently a hundred dollar discount going on right now for the next few days. So if you were interested in that the links will be down below. I highly recommend checking it out. There are so many good reviews about it. Not only that there is also being a new three Commerce section added a full section on three commerce and then how you can profitably trade with that. And there’s also a seven-day money-back guarantee. So literally no reason to not jump on board and hopefully become a more profitable trader. So guys moving on if we take a look at the crypto fair and index we can see. Yesterday was absolutely crazy. We were actually at eight last month. We were out of fear and we were at 30 yesterday we were actually at an eight which is crazy. Last week we posted 10. And today we are on a 12 probably because the drop slowed down a little bit. So people’s fear slowed down. But we can see the crypto Fear and Greed Index chart has actually taken a complete pummeling. And of course, it is in correlation with the price when the price pumped. People are not scared when the price pumps. People are very scared. It’s pretty logical, to be honest. Moving on now and if you guys don’t already follow me on Twitter is crypto Jack with two Ks at the end. Watch out. Don’t get scammed by someone. This is the only account I have. Crypto Jack with two Ks and actually tweeted something out which many other people also tweeted because it is just huge news. The Fed is actually printing one million dollars per second. This is absolutely insane and I’ll get on to some more articles about this in just a few seconds. But the Fed FED printing a million dollars per second. This is exactly why we need bitcoin. I’ve covered in previous videos that Fed pretty much admitted they have an infinite supply of money which we already knew they did. And they’re willing to print whatever they need to keep the economy afloat. So if you did want to see more nice tweets like this definitely give me a follow crypto Jack with two Ks on Twitter. So the Federal Reserve is printing ONE MILLION DOLLARS EVERY SECOND the United States Federal Reserve balance sheet has increased by 586 billion to five-point to five trillion in the week of March 18 to 25th according to the official report. This means that on average the Fed has been printing roughly nine hundred seventy thousand dollars every second during that time period and its efforts to keep the market alive amid the breakout. This is just ridiculous. In fact, the Fed has been printing the equivalent of Bitcoin’s market cap every thirty-five hours just that doesn’t blow your mind every thirty-five hours the Fed printing the equivalent of bitcoins market cap. It’s just ludicrous. According to Bloomberg, this is the first time ever when the Fed’s balance sheet has topped five trillion. So yeah that’s at an all-time high. It might seem a lot apparently it’s just a drop in the ocean or the drop in the bucket. The president of the Fed Reserve on the 22nd said that they have an infinite amount of cash. I’ve covered that in previous videos but it’s still a very crucial point. Speaking on 60 Minutes it basically said there’s enough enough enough enough cash in the financial system and there’s an infinite amount of cash in the Federal Reserve will do what it will need to make sure there’s enough cash in the banking system. And then the article goes on to say if the supply of USD is infinite doesn’t that make the dollar worthless. Of course, it does. Leave your comments down below. They’ll also enter you fought the trades a storage device. Do you think the dollar will become worthless? Or do you agree with that statement that the infinite supply of USD makes the makes it worthless? Let me no doubt in the comments below. Moving on to the fundamental article now guys stay with me. Donald Trump just advertised bitcoin after the Fed creates six trillion dollars. A beautiful image thereof Mr Donald Trump himself. Bitcoin game ironic support from the United States President Donald Trump on March 27 after he appeared to say he supported manipulating the dollar which is just absolutely crazy. This form of meddling in the money supply that forms a central tenant of Bitcoin as a financial solution. The epithet epidemic emboldened its supporters who watched on as the Fed admitted it had infinite money. How much would we? How much did we pay? Trump to advertise bitcoin. Of course, that is indirectly advertising bitcoin. It goes on to here to say for scale six trillion dollars is the equivalent of the U.S. GDP in 1990 or enough to buy almost 70 percent of the world’s gold supply at a spot price. So the Fed pretty much just blows my mind how people just I don’t even know it’s just crazy. Let me know what you think down below in the comments section below. That’s pretty much it for this video guys. I already outlined where I think the price may be going to potential options. Well, of course, we are holding on this 20 day moving average 200 day moving average is still quite far away. It’s not all doom and gloom is Bitcoin as we are still increasing. We are in a reasonable uptrend from the bottom, of course, we are the bottom was crazy at around thirty-eight hundred but I would be interested in your thoughts below. If you think this is the bottom or sorry this was the bottom at this thirty-eight hundred here or do you think we have lower to go. I’d be really interested to know your thoughts down below. And as always guys if you haven’t already check out the bitcoin blueprint 2.0 without seven-day money-back guarantee T. And the hundred dollars off right now. It’s pretty much a no brainer. So, guys, I’ll catch you in the next one.

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