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royalrudberg · 3 months ago

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Reading The Pairing and banging my head against the wall bc of these two disaster bisexuals

#the pairing #casey mcquiston #making me feel so lonely #and so stressed

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anchoeritic · 2 years ago

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im done living his girlfriend-less life. i deserve affection!

#closes eyes #and #dreams #gn #THESE ABBY #AND ELLIE #FICS #ARE #MAKING ME FEEL SO LONELY

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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god, i wish i knew you back when i was a kid / but when you stare into me now, it feels like i did

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk 266 #jjk leaks #fr anon thank u fr the request i am once again emo thinking abt them #n denial fv....god end me put me out of my misery #itfs context makes the lyrics more . healing n hopeful as opposed to wistful and lonely :'<#'everything around me looks so different now / yet everything about me wants to show you around'#PLS PLS PSLPSSLPS ILL CRY ILL DO ITTTTT #anyway emo hours aside original plan was striped shirt yuuji but i gave up smile #put him in white t shirt jail yet again sighs i feel like i do tht with him so often.....#like kid megu that's just his canon outfit but yuuji i wanted 2 get a bit more creative. task failed :(#hes got mismatched socks n scuffed knees but thats abt it #i often think abt how in official art they always put gojo in a gd white t shirt and i go smh but then here i go #pot kettle etc etc #megumi voice whatever!!!!! white tshirt in sunlight Looks Good sue me #pls enjoy them :'> anon i hope i delivered

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tahopo · 3 months ago

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we truly regressed when people started buying into the genderbending is inherently transphobic thing. yeah that twelve year old being inquisitive and having fun on deviantart was your enemy all along.

#how did that even have a leg to stand on. when so many emerging trans folk literally began exploring gender because of it #ill never forget seeing a lone korean comment on fc2 under genderbend art talking about how they visit that picture every day after work #because it makes them feel understood #to even think of being beyond what you were born. in korea. my god i feel it in my spine just how lonely that ought to be #every time i see that rhetoric make rounds im reminded and equal amounts astounded #by how determined people are at making trans folk a monolith #and how there must be a Correct way to explore gender #if the discussion had stuck to the concept’s Capacity to be transphobic and not about inherently being so we’d have been better off.#& at the end of the day art shouldn’t always have to need such a disclaimer on selfhood to be worthy #in the same vein actors should not need to relinquish themselves to the public to act as a gay or trans character #I don’t know !#saw hatsune mikuo art in the year 2024 and the soul near jumped it’s been so long king 🙀#putting this in here because it’s sooort of art related no?#and people know where I stand on this so perhaps if anybody finds it uncomfortable they can gracefully disengage with me

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teddybeartoji · 2 months ago

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been thinking a lot abt fwb!gojo today.... this is his first time ever doing this kind of a thing btw. i do not think he sleeps around AT ALL. but with you, he just... you start off as very good friends but then it keeps escalating – you start sitting closer and closer, your thighs always touching as you lounge on the couch. his hands seem to always find your waist in public, your seem to be in his hair more and more. and the thing is... satoru isn't all that good at deciphering his own feelings. he isn't entirely sure what this is; the butterflies in his stomach whenever you laugh at his jokes, the warmth that spreads under his skin whenever he sees you bend over. it's weird. he doesn't know what to do.

so, when one night you inch closer with your hand on his thigh, he lets you. he welcomes you with open arms. you ask whether it's okay or not and he lets out a shaky yes, his cheeks burning with something new, his eyes low and heavy as he stares at your lips. you feel so good on top of him, your body flushes to his and he thinks about how perfect this is. how much he likes it. the night is like a wet dream for him, something he's always dreamed off but when you leave the bed and hop into the shower without giving him a kiss, he doesn't even know what the weight on his heart means. where it comes from. he doesn't ponder over it for too long though as you step outside the bathroom in a shirt way too big, his shirt. he watches you get dressed and hums when you joke about his bed hair. he thinks you look gorgeous. he doesn't ask for you to stay – if this is what you want, to leave without the desire to continue your adventures from the last night, then so be it. satoru wants you to be happy. you tell him it was good and that you'd like to, perhaps, do it again and he can taste you on his tongue when he says that he feels the same. satoru will take every crumb you'll give him with a smile on his face. he won't complain and he won't ask for more, not yet at least. for now, he'll be completely and utterly at your mercy, a lapdog for you to play with whenever you so desire to do. a selfless kind of love.

#this might not be everybody's satoru i realize #but idk i think he's a lonely boy who doesn't know how to deal with his feelings #he really does like you and he wants your attention #he wants your love #he just . doesn't know how to ask for it #idk ok this is also wordvomit #but yeah sad little meow meow satoru who just wants to do everything and anything for you #he's kind of a knight in this #selfless type of love yk #even got the dog motif in lmao #okok i'm sleepy so idk if any of this even makes sense just bear with me yeah #(the bear is very calm and friendly please relax)#mickey is daydreaming #angel boy #gojo x reader

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amogus-real-not-clickbait · 2 months ago

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I wish gay people were real,,,,,, carrots au my beloved

#hlvrai #half life vr but the ai is self aware #benrey #gordon feetman #frenrey #but like‚‚ qpr #theyre so soft‚‚‚‚‚‚#i cant stop thinking about them #carrots au #they make me feel so happy but also lonely :(#art tag or whatever

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months ago

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Suspirium - Thom York

#this is my very favorite song and i think ive been wanting to make this for abt a year #when i was at my most compulsivly unwell i would be focusing so hard and sleeping so little that i would feel physically sick #like the world was tilting around me and i would think: all is well as long as i keep spinning #bc i would stop moving and suddenly id be in pieces on the floor. but now i think my favorite lines are: when i arrive will u come and find #me? or in a croud be one of them? bc its such a profoundly lonely idea. i dont believe in a life after death. i think when ur gone ur gone #your brain stops and the thing that made you you is gone forever. but if i imagined an afterlife image getting off a train onto a crowded #platform and searching for my mom through all the chaos. when i arrive will u come and find me? would our connect extend past a lifetime?#or would u be in a crowed one of them? would i stand alone in a sea of people waiting for someone who was never coming?#its a very upsetting thought #im glad i waited to make this bc i feel the song more deeply after the death of my mom. it feels more sad and more ethereal.#there r like 2 different versions of the lyrics bc thom york is so fucking hard to understand #so i use the version i like better #original art

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napping-sapphic · 1 year ago

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I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

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neonbuck · 11 months ago

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you have to love people for real. and that means loving them as people who have flaws, and will annoy you or get on your nerves some times. treating them like a toy or product you can throw away when you get bored or upset is not acceptable. it's what we've been conditioned to do, but it makes the world worse.

#.txt #i didnt always know this and i dont pretend i did.#i'm just glad i've learned it now at least #i went straight from a cult-like group into tumblrs 'its ok to kick any one out of your life for any reason' environment in my early 20s #it made my life turbulent lonely and miserable #thinking on the older adults who should have known better leading sheltered young queer people astray back then makes me feel so bitter.

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shalom-iamcominghome · 2 months ago

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I've been doing a lot of reflection as of late, especially after this past class.

This past class was about the Torah and Tanakh in general, and the way the rabbi talked about the commandments (specifically the ten commandments) has made me really reflect on how I interpret them, specifically the fifth commandment, or honoring your mother and father.

This is a commandment I have wrestled with for a long time - in fact, it brought me away from g-d at multiple times. I was severely abused when I was incredibly young by my mother, and I used to feel insulted at the implication that I were to honor her while she got to live a better life. It was hypocritical, in my eyes.

But this rabbi surmised that this particular commandment was because parenthood is an act of creation, something that is like the g-d from which we come from. My realization is this: I don't think we're necessarily meant to take even these commandments literally.

I this particular commandment is more of a call to honor creation - creation is a gift, and like any gift, many people simply will not like it and will discard it. The person who abused me created me, but she did not honor creation. She didn't honor me, but I can still honor it.

I have started to honor creation much more. I'm too young, too unstable, not mature enough to be a father (though I fantasize about it), but I create all the time. I create relationships, I create with my hands through crochet. I create memories, I create my world. And I can honor who I am and where I came from that made me who I am. I've been learning one of the mother tongues of my family (Italian, since part of my family originates there) and it was judaism that inspired me to do this.

I don't think g-d wants me to honor my abuser. I think He wants me to remember the Holy action of creation. When I am a father, that act of creation will be Holy, and indeed, I am already joyful about the thought.

I have seen many people struggle with this particular commandment, but I think this perspective helps me personally. I don't think I ever have to forgive my abusers (plural), and I don't think I am commanded to simply because they happened to be family. I am commanded to recognize the holy, to elevate the mundane. In doing so, I will remember g-d. Through creation, I honor g-d and everything he has done for us, for me, and for our collective people.