#makes sense since he cut out the whole part abt like

[chunkitakii]

Since lux can cum in us, can it get us pregnant? Genuine question, and I honestly think that lux would get his rocks off to you swollen with a part of him in you. It makes sense the more I think abt it

WOW there’s quite a few of you who are very fond of this idea. (I now know what y’all are…)

WARNING: This contains Lux having a breeding kink, overestimation, belly bulge, and hints that the reader is AFAB.

NSFW UNDER CUT

(this is going to be a long one...)

This has probably been my number one request for Lux ever since I've done fics where Lux likes cumming inside.

OKAY OKAY, Lux having a breeding kink has been adapted ever since he met you.

Because let's be real. Before Lux met you, he didn't spend a single thought on children. He does not like them.

Sure, his whole cartoon form is meant to appeal to young audiences, but he could care less about them.

And even before things started to get serious with you, Lux STILL didn't think much about children. (Maybe even after, REALISTICALLY SPEAKING)

HOWEVER, when the two of you watched a couple of romance movies (with a little spicy scenes in them that involved getting a woman pregnant), Lux had taken some consideration with it the whole breeding idea.

"Why are they talking to each other like that? I’m aware of the whole 'releasing inside' and whatnot. But why do they speak about having children so... lovey-dovey? It’s sort of weird if you tell me…" Lux questioned, still not taking his eyes off of the film in front of the two of you.

"Well, most of the time it's not about having children. It’s about…Eh…You know…” You started to fumble on your own words, trying to find a better way to explain it in a way that makes sense to Lux.

Yet you can also feel sort of embarrassed talking about it. You don’t have these conversations with people much, let alone a god. And knowing full well what a breeding kink is while trying not to get yourself turned on by thinking about it and watching the film. Gosh, you were dirty headed…

Lux took note of your pauses and stutters, removing his gaze off of the screen and onto you. He tried to find out more information from you about this whole 'breeding thing' you humans liked.

As Lux stared at you, he noticed you shying away from him, trying not to look him in the eyes. Lux groaned and rolled his eyes, "Oh, It can't be that bad. Tell me, what is sooo neat about releasing their reproductive stuff into someone? Hm...?" Lux had now scooted over and was about a couple of inches away from your face. He pooked your stomach countless times as if it was going to get you to answer him.

You grumbled at him with a furrowed stare, your face still warm from embarrassment. You sighed and finally got your confidence back, "It's just people find the thought off... Releasing inside someone and having their spouse carry their seed is attractive." You stated, but then continued. "It does not really matter if they want a child or not; it is just the thought of being full of their spouse's seed. It's called a breeding kink, Lux..."

"Oh, so that's what it is then..." Lux understood it now. But what he didn't understand was that, as you explained it, Lux could tell by the way you couldn't keep eye contact, the way you fidgeted with your hands, and the way you moved around in your seat.

And then, it just came out, he didn't even really think much of it. "Do you have a breeding kink?” Lux then watched as your face of shame turned into shock. “Pardon me?!” You shouted, but Lux kept a neutral face. “You heard me, do you have a breeding kink? I’m not gonna shame ya’ for it.”

You debated if you wanted to tell him or not, so you just masked it with another question. “Why do you want to know?”

Lux raise his hands in defense and turned back around to watch the rest of the film. “Calm your horses, I was just askin’ a simple question…”

Lux still didn’t get the hype in it, he assumed it was just human instinct to breed and have children.

Yet he found himself caught on the fact that you didn’t give him a straight answer. You only got defensive over it. Lux might need to dig into this rabbit hole a little further.

Lux still was curious about the whole kink thing too, and yet curiosity killed the cat.

Lux gave you hard, slow thrusts. Groans softly above you as his arms were wrapped fully around your waist. His laid right on your collar bone, his antennae ticking your cheek.

Your could fell he was close to cumming in the way his hips faltered and his breath turn shaggy. And you were not too far behind from him.

Lux then got a little recall of that day, the day you explained to him what a breeding kink was. Right then and there, Lux had an idea. A lightbulb shined above his head, making a toothy smile upon his face.

You felt Lux’s arms lock in place, and his thrust lasted longer than the other. You felt something change in Lux, yet you couldn’t tell what it was.

“Lux?…” Said but it came out as a soft moan. “What would happened if I—” he cuts himself off with a low groan, “—Pumped you full of my seed. Stuffing you full until you can’t even take anymore? Hm?…” Lux spoked dirty to you in a low tone, testing the waters to see how you would react.

Lux didn’t know how to even ask, so talking dirty seemed right to him. He didn’t even know if you did or did not have a breeding kink—

Lux suddenly felt you moan and squeeze his shaft from within you.

Yep…That just answered his question.

“Oh ho-ho-ho~. So you do have a breeding kink!” Lux giddily chuckled, happy to know he was right. His change of tone had threw you off. “L-Lux you ass-” “Language!”

Lux then adjusted his position, bringing your lower half to lay on his thighs and he quickened his lace. “But, on a real note…” He raised his head to where his mouth was just right next to your ear. “Would you like to try it? Me stuffing you up like a little creamed filled donut-”

“Stop!”

Yea, when he first started getting intimate with you, he didn’t know much about wordplay.

But on a good note, Lux kept his word and filled you up.

With how much he filled you, you looked like a glow stick. (Yes, he has glow in the dark cum. I’ll get to that later…)

So the next couple of times y’all had intimacy, he didn’t want to cum outside of you.

(This next part is for AFAB readers) But then it caused you to question something: could you get pregnant from the god of light?

(again, this is intended for AFAB readers)

“Hey Lux?” You questioned Lux. “Yes, darlin’?~” He teased as he batted his eyes at you. You just rolled your eyes at him.

“Can you, ya’ know, get me pregnant?”

Lux then perked up and gave you his full attention. He paused for a moment. He put a thinking face on and put his finger on his chin to think.

Then he squinted his eyes, showing that he is really thinking.

“Nooo?…”

“Lux that sounded more like a question than a statement.”

He scoffed at you and crossed his arms at you. “Well, this body can be anything I make it, as long as I abide by the rules. So, technically, I can get you pregnant-” “What!” “Would you stop cutting me off!”

After yelling at you, he continued once more. “I was going to say, before you cut me off, that since this body can be anything I make it. And even if I did wanted to get you pregnant, I could have done that by now, hun. Yet I didn’t! So don’t go running around like a headless chicken.”

You then sighed in relief. “So what you’re telling me is, with just the snap of your fingers, you can just get me pregnant. Just like that?”

“Now you’re getting’ it!”

You let out a relieved chuckle, happy to know that you couldn’t get pregnant.

“Unless you wanted me to-”

“No.”

But as time went on, he found himself growing into the breeding thing, believe it or not.

Every time the two of you had intimacy, he found himself drawn to even get you pregnant. (If you are AMAB, just skip this bit.)

Just the thought of you growing something just like him inside of you, his seed being a part of him inside your body at all times. It just fills him with an unknown pleasure.

Thoughts of you, swollen with his seed. Growing another god right inside of that little body of yours. Gosh, how that got him going.

“Lux, please! I don’t think I can go for another round!…” You moaned, trying to plead to him that you could go on.

You could feel your lower abdomen bulging with his cum. The only thing stopping it from coming out was his cock, keeping it all in. You have never felt so full in your life.

“I can’t, the thought of ya’, filled with my seed in that tight belly of yours. I just cannot stop myself, sunshine!…” Lux confessed. He can feel himself about to leave another load inside you. He could see the glow of his cum inside your lower half. Lux could not find himself to remove his gaze from it.

There it is, his seed, snug inside you. Lux can almost feel it as he pumped himself in you. Oh gosh, this was all too much for him. Yet he lived for it. For you to take every. single. drop…

Lux then let out a lewd, loud pathetic moan as he came in you once more, feeling you squeeze deliciously around him as you came too. Lux was sure that he was on cloud nine at this point.

Lux gave out and landed on top of you, you gave out a ‘humf’ sound as he did. Lux slowly came down his high, still giving out small, short thrusts in you to ride it out. Hearing you whine out of overstimulation was nothing new to him, but he still could never get enough of it.

The two of you laid there in each other’s arms. Breathing heavy of the workout the two of you did. But you had still felt full, and you didn’t mean the cum that currently sat inside you.

You meant a different kind of full.

Lux was still inside you.

Now normally, Lux would pull out and often clean you up before himself. Or to put on his heart printed boxers to go to sleep. Yet this time, Lux stayed in.

“Lux, Aren’t you going to pull out?” you asked him, curious of how he didn’t pull out yet.

Lux let out a ‘hm?’ sound before speaking. “No no, not quite yet. I want it all to sit inside ya’ before I do. I don’t want any drop of mine going to waste. Does that sound peachy, sunshine?…”

Lux then felt you tighten around his shaft, he couldn’t help but let out a ‘hss’ sound. Seems like you like that idea considering your breath hitching and the quiet cry you let out.

“I’ll take that as a yes…”

If Lux would have met his past self, his past self would be looking at him with shame.

You got him into the breeding kink, now you’re going to have to deal with it. <3

The thought of having kids? ❌

The thought of breeding you and getting you full? ✅

[monstermoviedean]

@angelsdean here: While I do agree with a lot of the bitter deangirl posting abt the Trap I also have always still liked the scene? and offer a slightly less bitter perspective.

I have always viewed the scene less as Dean thinking he NEEDS to apologize but more as Dean understanding Cas feels he needs Dean to forgive him. I read the whole scene (and episode) from the POV of Cas being very rooted in his own insecurities, and thus projecting out a bit and deflecting and being short with Dean. Because purgatory is magnifying Cas's own guilt and well, Cas isn't handling it well. And you Know i am the first to get angry on Dean's behalf and I DO think Cas is being a unfair, but, I think I also need to practice what I preach in the sense that, if it were Dean behaving like this I'd be talking abt his own grief and pain and motivating factors. and i think that applies to cas in this case. he's still in a lot of pain. Cas also bound by his empty deal, possibly purposely keeping Dean at arms length out of fear of triggering the deal if they reconcile too well. We see that "arms length" maneuver at play imo when Dean has more he wants to say and Cas cuts him off. I think, perhaps, part of Cas felt SAFE while they were "divorced" / fighting because at least then he KNEW he'd never be truly happy. Which just breaks my heart for both of them.

Anyways. Dean. We know he's a self aware king. And he's also incredibly emotionally intelligent when it comes to others. Empathy boy, etc. and Cas is his best friend. He knows Cas better than anyone else. And I think he knows Cas is beating himself up. Feeling guilty for everything AND displacing that guilt and anger. Because yea, Dean's been there. And dean's dealt with Sam and John doing similar things too. He understands. And yea it sucks that he's once again putting the feelings of others first, but at the same time, that's his MO. He's the one who cares abt everyone. He's the beating heart of the narrative. And he loves cas. He does. So of course he's going to make sure Cas knows he's forgiven (was always forgiven! implicitly!) and that Cas matters to him. He's his best friend. He never wanted him to leave! (the cut "of course I wanted you to stay" IS canon to me. He said that part quietly, internally, ok).

I view the whole prayer as Dean giving Cas what he needs. Telling Cas what he needs to hear in that moment (and it's not that I think dean doesn't means these things, he does! but I think dean didn't think it needed to be said-- that Dean forgives Cas. that Cas matters to him. but again, Cas is not at his best. In normal circumstances I think Cas wouldn't need to hear it. But just as DEAN is doubting what's real, what matters, I think so is Cas. Yes he told Dean they were what's real, but a lot has happened since then. He let bel's words in hell get to him a bit, for one. He's now feeling out of place in his family, not sure if he ever mattered at all. And so he needs a little reassurance imo. And that's what the prayer scene is to me. It's not about Dean begging to be forgiven. It's dean giving Cas what he needs for Cas to be able to forgive himself.)

As for the stuff abt Dean apologizing for his "anger" -- anger that was justified and part of his grief (he is allowed to be upset that his "son" killed his mom!)-- and "groveling": I don't like it. I don't like that Dean is seemingly positioned as "the bad guy" and the reason for their separation when Cas was the one who CHOSE to leave instead of stay and work things out. And when Cas, in his own pain, stopped giving Dean "the benefit of the doubt."

However. Despite hating it all from a deangirl perspective, I think from DEAN'S own perspective, this IS stuff he believes about himself. Dean has his own fears and insecurities and I think being "angry" and "becoming John" are genuine fears. And I think it's important to remember that what characters say about themselves isn't the Objective Truth. We KNOW Dean is most often "not mad, worried." We KNOW Dean cares so so much and loves so fiercely. We know he's more than his "off" moments. We give him that benefit of the doubt. But Dean? He'll beat himself up for everything. And Cas echos this in the confession when he tells Dean "you see yourself how our enemies see you....You think that hate and anger, that's what drives you. It's not." As much as I think yea Cas should've said all this sooner, I think this part is indeed a response to Dean's prayer. And it's basically Cas saying, "yea all that stuff you said earlier abt always being angry and your anger being the problem, no you're wrong<3 and I do know that you care so so much. About me and jack and sam and the whole world. And everything you do comes from a place of love and good intentions."

Would I have liked to have heard Cas say all this immediately after the prayer and would it have been more effective in relaying the message that Cas doesn't think Dean is ruled by anger or that Dean needs to grovel for his forgiveness over it? yea. yea I think the confession coming 9 episodes later kind of breaks up the flow of this arc. But in this reading, I am willing to give Cas some grace. Right after the prayer they were still under a lot of stress to get back to earth and stop Chuck. Cas is also feeling conflicted abt his deal. Not knowing what he CAN say to Dean. What is even safe to say. And the fact that (imo) a big part of Cas's moment of happiness IS getting to tell Dean how good he is and not Just the declaration of love, just shows that maybe it Wasn't safe for Cas to say all these things to Dean earlier.

Anyways. This has gotten very long but I just wanted to offer a different perspective, that doesn't absolve Cas of his wrong-doings or the part he played in their separation, but is more considerate of Cas's own POV. AND shows Dean being thee heart of the narrative and giving Cas what Cas needs to hear, being emotionally intelligent, but also being just as insecure as anyone else re: his own self-image.

publishing this now because i think you're making a lot of sense and i cannot tell you how much i appreciate your perspective and the time you took to lay it out! i want to respond more thoroughly later but i didn't want to let this languish when it's so dang important and helpful.

[malevolentconfessions]

i think people are absolutely sleeping on gold cross both as a ship and a general dynamic and i'm not joking . yes john is a hater and yes oscar's probably not completely fine with nearly getting his head cut off but . hear me out.

its a take that doesn't make sense to anyone who hasn't listened to parts 33-38 religiously over and over and also poured over the transcripts for completely normal reasons but throughout the story john has a lot of moments where he is genuinely appreciative/awed abt oscar + also like. seemed to Understand his shame around the whole. nearly beating a man to death situation. it was probably fumbled foreshadowing for his time in the dark world right before appearing in s3 but like. whether it was right or wrong knowing you have the Capacity for that violence (and the capacity to feel good and vindicated by it) can be horrifying and john even points out arthur being a hypocrite since he just killed uncle to make himself feel better - something arthur refuses to acknowledge. there's definitely some sort of similar experience there and that's not even getting into nuance with religion and john being the closest thing to divinity oscar will ever be able to see/touch and there's a whole lot of Things there to explore.

i'm just. at the very least they could have been friends (and, in my mind, more). i'm just saying. okay. its definitely a crackship but it has thematic cohesion i'm not willing to ignore. none of this even gets into the fact that john's haterism towards oscar is one of the primary reasons both of them are my favorite characters but that's another post

No no keep talking

[psilliguykai]

i admit i havent listened to much of will wood other than a handful of songs, but im still curious abt ur wwww au:3 here r some questions!!

so like are they all kinda the embodiment of different albums? or is this kind of cccc but with ww covers instead?

and do the 4 have songs that are entirely "theirs"/their pov/embody them kinda like the heart acoustic for heart or be born for mind(if that makes sense)? plus what songs would they be i need to listen to more will wood and ponder cccc lmao

also is there a juno incident equivalent??:0 and are they still stuck in a loop?

Yayayayayay !! Thank you for asking :D this got Way Too Long so answers are under the cut :,))

To the first question: both! They’re still 3 guys trying to kind of. operate/Be one guy [William!] and this is basically CCCC but with Will Wood’s songs But each member of HMSW is also Sorta the embodiment of their respective albums. Like they still do the things original HMSW do but their personalities and actions are also based on their albums. I hope this makes sense but lemme know if more clarification would help !!

“Will they get songs that are entirely “theirs”?” yes!! I’d say they’ll probably end up having Roughly the same number of shared and solo songs. Possibly even more exclusively from each member’s perspective? Details are gonna be somewhat worked out as I go along but short answer is Yes :3

short answer to“what songs would they be” is also kind of Yes sorry 😭 there will be at least 27 [probably more??? Depends on how long my motivation lasts :,]] tracks. TNA, ICIMI, EIAL and SELF-iSH will each get at least 3 [almost certainly more] songs featured in the album since each character gets a sorta “solo” like in CCCC, and each character primarily sings from their respective album :)) I also wanna include some “bonus” tracks using unreleased/unofficial songs, poems, etc. so if you’re asking what to listen to uhhh all of it? I’m so sorry 😭 I Will be including a link to the YT version of each song as written covers are posted though so realistically you really don’t have to worry about it until each part of the au comes out. If you want particular WW song recommendations though feel free to shoot me a dm! I’ve got uhhh a couple [<- understatement]

“Is there a Juno incident equivalent?” I’ve been thinking it this a lot but also not enough lmao- this answer might become outdated as I add a little more depth/details to the story but at the moment: probably and I wish I could tell you about it so bad but I haven’t fleshed it out well enough yet :,)

uhhh here as an apology for being an utter Fool extra lore drop !! Cotard has a halo with the like . “Cut here” pattern from the SELF-iSH album cover and can pull the scissors out from it as an equivalent to the OG Soul’s trident . They’re magical. Sorta. This will be better illustrated in the ref sheets lol-

And as for the last question: yes! I think some details are outlined in the master doc but this is the 2012th loop [William splits and recombines fairly regularly and quickly. Or he used to - his split periods have gotten longer over time and the loop WWWW takes place over is longer than any of his past ones] . [3/3/25 edit: that previous part is now outdated!! The loop number and lengths are now ambiguous as the whole “2012th loop” thing just never really sat right with me sorryyyy] Soul remembers everything [or as much as his brain will naturally retain]. H/M get “reset” every time they combine and split again but physical changes stay and they sometimes get memories in dreams or senses of Deja vu etc. Whole doesn’t really. Experience the loops [the literal time loop is sorta contained within Marybell so only HMS experience it as an actual Loop] but he does experience mental health cycles based on HMS’s repeated actions.

Sorry this got so long but tysm for asking about this!!! I super appreciate it :DD and hey to everyone else. My ask box is still open if you. Wanna ask about the AU. You know you want to ooohhh you wanna ask about wwww soooo bad … [/silly . But I mean if you are interested-]

Anyways uhh yeah thank you Jaggy !! ^^

[c00pswhore]

wutz the best thing abt stenny. wut do u LUV abt stenny. wut iz their CORE? GIV MEH ALL UR STENNY LORE PLZ NOW I NEED IT

This unintentionally got super long soo...adding a cut

The best thing abt Stan and Kenny, is first s5 ep 13. Previously a completely unexplored relationship, the dramatic yet cheesy tonality of the episode is what really sold it to me. Stan’s selfishness, Kenny’s desperate hope to see the last of his 2 best friends and being denied? MWAH, chef’s kiss. I understand Trey and Matt did on purpose but they INADVERTENTLY posed the most angsty situation.

And even after Kenny comes back, Stan is the first to acknowledge him being “gone” for so long and invite him to leave the Christmas tree lighting. From there on out, Stan and Kenny’s relationship isn't explored in depth but theres a subtle noticeable difference between. They spend more time together, talk in the background some more. It’s a quiet intimate relationship, not too upfront but they still both have a noticeable connection.

During the Rac-Coon and Friends arc, Stan though fleeing, is the first to tell Kenny he would see him later, which implies they were gonna hang out later and Stan wanted to make sure Kenny was okay. Then, Stan is the first to entertain Kenny during his Mysterion arc about not being able to die, attempts to slightly comfort him. Kenny takes Stan’s word so seriously and when he dies, Stan freaks the fuck out!!!! (I get that its apart of the bit.) And it HAPPENS AGAIN at the end of the trilogy. Stan was ALWAYS the first one to notice when Kenny died. Theres OBVIOUSLY a sense of deep care and understanding between the two!!

These two quite literally have so much potential for angst and whatever love you believe is between the both of them. It scratches my brain just right. You can factor in the tension both of their home lives being rough between parents in different ways plus their relationship to Kyle and Cartman respectively also completely changes!! They are the two juxtapositions in the friend group.

Kenny's view on life is more laid back since he never stays dead (post-covid literally shows that the one time he does the world FALLS APART) and is more true to his less favorable aspects of himself. Stan's view on life is more serious, despite how chill he attempts to play it, he cares a WHOLE lot more than Kyle, Cartman and Kenny do combined, but his fucking HUGE the-world-revolves-around-me ego literally prevents him from admitting it at times.

Like, fuck dude, their relationships to girls shakes shit up a WHOLE lot more. Stan's a lover boy, but hes also a huge fucking asshole who can't see past himself until it negatively affects him. Kenny, contrary to the fandom's opinion, isn't a "player", HE'S JUST SMOOTH AS HELL!!

He cares about Tammy and goes out of his way (remember he is DIRT POOR) to buy her Jonas Brothers concert, which at the fucking time were not cheap. He bonded with Tammy because he RELATED to her about being the people poorest in the school and being chastised for it. You can argue he's just as selfish as Stan because of why he did it BUT!! Kenny didn't care until he found out. It was just a cheat code that he put before himself in order to use.

You can put them together and make a crazy ass Barbie storyline if you don't have a stick up your ass about canon BUT don't completely ignore the juicy parts of it. Stan and Kenny balance each other out. This pairing literally leaves Kyle and Cartman and those two are literally the fucking opposites of Kenny and Stan because they are constantly clashing. (For very valid reasons). Don't get me wrong, the m3 all care about Kenny a whole lot, because he's a pretty cool kid. It's the differing relationships between all 3 that really get me going.

Stan and Kenny are the cumbersome pair in the m4. Their relationship is so fucking lowkey but when it comes down to it can be intense as hell and the potential makes me fucking melt.

[axl-gets-creative]

lil scenario i cooked up from my mcr crossover au while writing diabolical shi :)

just lil silly thingz from my crossover au <3 ive been working on this au for like- a week so im glad i can start to make content abt it!

characters: Gerard Way, Daisy (OC), Frank Iero, Ray Toro, killjoys, mikey way, bli hoes

THIS IS NOT RPF, ALL CHARACTERS INVOLVED ARE WRITTEN ABOUT IN A FICTIONAL SENSE

so basically i took my mcr au and crossed it w/ the killjoys au which i also weaved in sum of my own headcannons so yeah. also i'd make this into a fic but i think its too silly to write professionally so yah-

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Context: the bitches be taking a trip thru california to visit mikey who was also taking a trip in california and they stay at a crusty ass motel six in the middle of zone 3 and run into the killjoys

Ray: Hi can we book a-

*CRASHHHHHHH*

bli faggot #1: HANDS UP THIS IS AN INVASIO-

*ANOTHER CRASHHHHH*

*KILLJOYS MAKE THEIR CUNTY ENTRANCE*

Fun ghoul: FUCK YOU BASTARD *kills w/ ray gun*

the bitches: wtf-

bli faggot #2: *appears* HEY THAT IS VIOLENCE AGAINST A GOVERNMENT EMPLO-

Jet star: RAAAAAAHHH🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅*rips out faggot #2s internal organs

blie faggot #3: OH HELL NAH I AM SKIDADDLIN MAN I AINT GETTING DUSTED BY A BUNCH OF HOMOSAPIENS🙏🙏🙏(he means homosexuals)

Party poison: GO THEN BITCH WDGAF

bli faggot #4: CAN YALL FUCKERS JUST CUT IT OUT SO WE CAN KILL U

kobra kid: WOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SO UR GONNA KILL A GROUP OF QUEER KIDS??? WOWWWWWW HOW HOMOPHOBIC MAN I THOUGHT U WAS BETTER THAN THIS😔😔😔😔😔😔

bli faggot #4: H-HEY!!! WE'RE NOT HOMOPHOBIC!!!😖😖

Daisy: ok, WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE???????

fun ghoul: bli faggots tryna invade the zones again and kill innocent ppl

bli faggot #4 & 5: *points guns at bitches*

bitches and killjoys: *collectively* HEY HEY WOAH WOAH WOAH WO-

Party poison *shoots them both cutely* 🥰🥰🥰🎀🎀🎀🎀

Party poison: ok i think we've killed all of them can we go to ikea now i wanna get a new blahaj 😋😋

Jet star: BITCH U ALREADY HAVE FOUR OF THEM TRANS ASS!

Ray: Ok, can someone PLEASE explain wtf we just witnessed instead of fighting over ikea shark plushies??

Kobra kid: uh so basically theres like this corp called better living industries aka bli and they tryna wipe out all things that rn't bland and emotionless but me and these other fag- i mean dudes are this team of rebels, we're called the fabulous killjoys u can go follow us on insta <3 and uh we basically fight them and shi to protect the zones 👍

*crickets*

Frank: oooookayyyyyy..... so r we.. safe now..???

Fun ghoul: yah

bli faggot #6: *busts😩thru window*

everyone: OH FUCK NA-

Party poison: dw hgs i got this o-

bli faggot #6: *explodes the whole function*

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context: part two of the last one 😭 so like everything explodes and they all somehow survive but since the motel went brrr the killjoys offered the bitches to stay w/ them (lowkey might make this into a fic chat..)

*the bitches squeezed into the back of the transgen- i mean trans am silently as the killjoys sang aeysha erotica aggressively*

Frank: so uh- *ehem* thx uh for the ride and everything but uuuhh were r we going?

Jet star: our hideout

Daisy: wait- what? i thought u were gonna take us to another hotel or smth??

Jet star: oh no, no no no, *eheh* that WAS the only hotel so uhhh yeah its our place or a draculoid mask <3

Ray: wtf is a draculoid mask??

Kobra kid: *turns down radio ever so slightly* looks like i have to be the paragraph guy ?? okayyy uh so its these vampire gorilla mask thingys that when u put it on, u loose all sense of self and reality and u see killjoys or rlly anyone that ISNT brainwashed by bli as like these spider thingys and they have to be "squashed" so its like their way of making killing machines for us

Ray; ........ so im guessing these ppl rlly dont like u guys

Killjoys: yup

Ray: okAy...

Frank: wait so uhh we're going west right? bc we're traveling to a friend in that direction.

Kobra kid: oh uuh- ye- *ugh* wait on sec- *yelling* FOR FUCKS SAKE TURN THE FUCKING MUSIC DOWN POISON!!!!!!!

Fun ghoul: OH FUCK U MAN * radio back up*

fun, star, and poison: GOTTA PINK PURSE WITHA RINESTONE BUCKLE KEEP A PINK STUN GUN JST IN CASE IM IN TROUBLE-

Kobra kid: im going to murder u ppl

Party poison: that violence against a transgender individual so that classifys as a hate crime <333

Fun ghoul: DAMN RIGHT MF

the bitches (exept gerard bc he went sleepy): oh my lord...

*FAST FORWARDNMSKUDCNHL*

Daisy: hey gee cmon get up we're here

Gerard: huh- where?

Frank: the killjoys crib hoe now get ur wakey wakey eggs and bakey ass up

Gerard: im sorry did u just say wakey wakey eggs and fucking bakey????

Frank: its called sarcasm dipshit

Gerard: did u just call me a dipshit??????????????????????????

Frank: r u fucking high-

Ray: *already out of the car* GUYS CMON DO U WANNA SIT AND FIGHT IN A CRUSTY ASS CAR ALL EVENING???

Party poison: HEY OUR CAR IS NOT CRUSTY 😤😤😤😤

Jet star: no no it- it is. it is poison.

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context: part 3 everyones in da crib 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥(this was originally all one part but it was too long so i split it💀)

Gerard: so uhh what now? how r we gonna get to mikey?

Daisy: OH SHIT I FORGOT ABT HIM-

Frank: how tf do u forget abt ur brother-in-law?

Daisy: OK WELL- for the record, no offence Gerard-, hes not my legal in law so im allowed to have short term memory loss ok, midget?

Ray Frank and Gee: *side eyeing eachother*

Daisy: what????

Ray: Daisy imma hold ur hand when i say thi-

Gerard: NOPENOPENOPE UR NOT SAYING SHI-

"poison busts😩into the room in a skirt so mini its exiting the stratosphere*

Party poison: I GOT PIZZA MFS🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Fun ghoul: IS THAT FUCKING PINEAPPLE

Party poison: uuhh yeah? whats wrong w/ pineapple??? 😭

Fun ghoul: BRO... ITS FRUIT. ON FUCKING PIZZA

Party poison: SO???? TOMATO IS A FRUIT AND ITS ON PIZZA AND NO ONE SAYS SHIT!!!!

Fun ghoul: THATS BC IT DOESNT TASTE LIKE A FRUIT AND MOST PPL R TOO FUCKING STUPID TO EVEN KNOW THAT TOMATO IS A FRUIT!

Jet star: OMG STFU U FAGGOTS ITS JUST PIZZA

Fun ghoul: HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL U PPL TO SHUT THE FUCK UP IN ONE DAY?????????????

Kobra kid: WAIT I HAVE A SOLUTION, poison just put fun ghoul on the pizza hes fruity enough and if it doesnt taste good than we know fruit isnt good on pizza🥰🥰🥰🥰

everyone: .....

Gerard: i dont mean to chime in, but WTF kind of mentality is that??💀

Jet star: autism

Fun ghoul: kobra did u just imply that im a homosexual.

Kobra kid: wait ur not?

Party poison: *cunty gasp* FUN GHOUL HOW DARE U LIE SO HARD😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

Frank: yeah imma go get sum fresh air yall brb..

Ray: ugh take me w/ u 😭🙏

Jet star: ok everyone CALM TF DOWN ok😔😔😔 we have guests!!

Fun ghoul: idgaf let them burn <3

Kobra kid: FUN GHOUL!!!!!!😡😡😡

Daisy: type shi

Gerard: ok sooo uuuhhhhh seriously how r we gonna get to my brother??

Party poison: depends, where in cali is he?

Gerard: uhhh palmmm desert i think?

Party poison: DAYUM that is FARRRRR *bites hair in cunt*

Kobra kid: dont yall have a car or smth hoes???

Daisy: it exploded along w/ everything within a 20 feet radius of the motel 💀

Kobra kid: ohhh ritghhgttt shorry😋😋😋😋😋

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ok i have zero ideas on how to continue this so imma repost to my main blog and hopefully yall could gimme sum feedback or ideas 🙏🙏🙏

[mittykidi]

moreee color practice yippeee + better composition (kind of)

not super happy w it but ykw it served its purpose- timelapse + ramblings below cut

you can see i had like no plans for anything lmao if i could do this again id at least sketch out more detailed outfits and fit them to the narrative but i just wanted to color something

uhmm theres like a weird pause at some point in the video for some reason ibis keeps in the long periods of time im afk from the drawing soz.

anyways, if you know what kagerou project is, or at least who ene is, i based the concept of bf in this piece off of her (which is funny if u think abt it bcz enes original design appears to be based off hatsune miku).

basically, bf is a downloaded virus in this universe. (universe? dear glob i accidently drew another au). since i ddnt plan anything other than that,, again, i kept bf & gfs designs pretty close to canon; didnt wanna go through the whole design process just for this one doodle (tired).

bf lives on earth, and when [insert plot point that makes sense here], then bf sent himself through his computer files into space or something idk this part is hard to imagine on a whim but it happened somehow okay?

gf is living on another planet, bf basically sent himself to her via space signals or something, and together they get up to silliness (like in canon) and fall in love or something mushy like that. the planet gf lives on is super high-tech, but not in the weird corporation lookin way, more like the world in stray (i never finished the game but i got a gist of the environment methinks).

this signal also hit cass's spaceship, and it fucked with their systems (couldnt handle downloading a living being into the system) so they crash landed into earth. cass doesnt know why the ship crashed but she saw a flash of bf on the screen so shes on the hunt for him, thinkin that he crashed the ship on purpose in an attack (again, it was an accident). cass eventually gets another ship and makes it over to gfs planet for like an epic showdown or something. pico n the gang are taken as hostages since they have intel on bf. BUT hol on a sec before that happens-

bf and pico were together on earth (although they were struggling with their relationship). pico comes home one day and finds bfs physical body is unresponsive, leaving pico devastated. he figures bf isnt dead, however, once he sees the computer, and him n the gang try to find a way to send themselves to where bf is. when cass finds they knew bf, he hides bfs body in a safer space and sees cass as an opportunity to get to where bf sent himself.

when i say pico n the gang btw i mean pico, nene, and nell. and cass has a crew with her- hanzo, cylops, and alucard. theyre all from different planets, and cass has slowly gathered them as allies throughout her missions.

might build upon this idea l8r, might not,, although i rlly rlly want to rn, im tired lolz- hope it made sense, ik i jumped around a lot w the messy plot.

[magical-regical]

Ok so I've been playing 'Sword of Convallaria' for a few days now and honestly, I'm absolutely hooked.

More yapping below the cut, some spoilers abt the Spiral of Destinies. Although I haven't reached any endings yet so it's mostly speculation from my part.

It's interesting how this game seems to have two 'main stories'. Like,

The tutorial makes it feel like 'The Fool's Journey' is the main story since you're collecting Tarot cards for...something (the explanation kind of went in one ear, out the other). Some timey wimey space timey stuff. But I swear the actual main story happens in 'Spiral of Destinies' I mean look at this screen,

Does this not scream 'ANIME'

The fool's journey seems to give you some backstory for the characters you encounter in spiral of destinies but the actual story with your MC in it is in spiral of destinies. And can I say, I absolutely adore the story they're cooking in spiral of destinies.

It has different routes with different endings depending on which faction you side with which drives home the 'your choices affect the future' aspect of the game. You manage your mercenary group on a week by week basis which gives it a resource management aspect and there's an event at the start of each week before it lets you go to do your own thing and given the setting of the story it really gave the sense of 'oh god what now'.

They do such a good job crafting the atmosphere of 'everyone's trying their best but we all know war is about to break out' because the town itself looks so cheery with the bright colors but then you start reading your quest descriptions (because doing certain quests increases your affinities towards different factions) and the letters you get at the start of each week and you're like 'oh man things really aren't doing so well'.

On one hand we have The Union and Iria playing the blame game while The Papal States seem to be 'indifferent' or 'neutral' abt the whole thing (sus), possibly waiting for a good moment to strike. Then there's the whole thing with Darklight, what's up with them huh? Just your local cult doing cult things? It makes me more and more curious about who exactly caused the Waverun incident. Then there's the Vylders who seem to be caught in the cross fire.

And the fact that Convallaria, your city, is in the middle of it all. It's literally almost smack dab in the intersection of the three factions (which is why you can choose to side with either The Union, Iria, or the Papal States) and it's your job to make sure your little mercenary group can protect your little town in the middle of these three super powers who are frothing at the mouth, ready to rip each others throats out. Along the way you meet people from all three factions which kind of gives you insight on all three perspectives and it's really hard to pinpoint who exactly is 'in the right'. I love it. I haven't played a game that didn't have one obvious 'this way to good ending' sign in a hot minute.

As of writing this, I just finished 'Potential Threat' where the split happens and I ended up going down the Iria route because I pulled Dantalian early and he's been carrying me through the game so I thought it'd be a disservice to not side with him on my first run through.

Also I don't trust Lutfi. I don't know why. He sounds like a politician. Like his little speech at the tavern where he's like, 'all of this is Dantalion's fault so we should overthrow him so I can be a better leader!' and how he immediately calls the Swords of Convallaria his 'friends' feels just a little bit sus. Even more so if you've played chapter 2 in the fool's journey.

I'm excited to see where the story goes and I'm interested to see if there is (or is going to be) a 'save everyone' route because the way things are looking now, no matter who you side with, you will end up hurting people on the opposing side.

[r0zzk1ll]

Hello bendy fandom Really fucking long rant/analysis abt me defending wally franks batim in a nutshell (and kind of basically making an au??.?. idk probably). enjoy if u want or don't idc 🎷🐇

i know this is a really stupid thing to be mad about, but the fact that wally isnt buddy boris has stuck with me ever since dctl was released. i found out through a fucking superhorrorbro video of all things all the way back in like 2018 i'm pretty sure 😭😭 i was so disappointed when i found out bc like WHAT DO U MEAN THE JANITOR/HANDYMAN OF JOEY DREW STUDIOS, EHO WAS GENERALLY A TRICKSTER AND A CLUTZ AND LIKED TO PISS PEOPLE OFF, ISN'T THE PERFECT BORIS CLONE. BUDDY BORIS FITS/HAD POTENTIAL TO FIT MOST TO ALL OF THAT CRITERIA.

and don't grt me wrong, i (kind of) like buddy as a character, BUT i really just don't think he fits the role (from what i've seen/read). like he could've been a different boris clone as a little easter egg/nod to what happened to him and how he died but as like. an important role in the game?? even though the books aren't even fucking canon apparently now so his subplot doesn't even make sense anymore?????.????... ooh bitchh

ALSO the "he (wally) got outta there that's why/he has a wife and kids" IS A WEAK ASS FUCKING ARGUMENT. THIS IS NOT A SHITS AND GIGGLES PLOTLINE U CAN JUST THROW AWAY. how come thomas grts to be tom (which makes somewhat sense with him also being a handyman type of guy), but wally can't also partake in the Main Character-ified Borisification to help henry traverse the studio. why can't that just be so easy to do. there could've been so many cool extra plotpoints and nods to what could've happened to him but Noooo Noooooooooo they just HAD to make a whole new character JUST for wally to NOT BE BORIS. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE BOOKS ARE NON CANON NOW BECAUSE THAT MAKES TOTAL SENSE. (/sarc)

and don't FUCKING quote me on batds bc i know SOMEBODU will be like "b-b-b-bbut b-b-buddy's whole s-s-side plot with collecting the scraps in batds makes him c-c-c-canon!!! 🥺🥺🥺💖😭😭💔💔💔🎀🎀✨✨ ur just mad bc it's not what was assumed by the fandom!! ;-; úwù heh..." FIRST OF ALL, BUDDY ISNT EVEN MENTIONED IN ANY OF THE CANON GAMES (besides the secret message in the safehouse but i don't think that rlly counts imo), NOR DOES HE HAVE ANY RELEVANCE IN THE STORY WHATSOEVER, WHICH MEANS HE IS STRICTLY BOOK-CANON. SECOND OF ALL, BATDS WAS KNOWN AS A SIDE/EXTRA GAME AT THE TIME OF IT'S RELEASE AND WASN'T EVEN CONFIRMED TO BE APART OF BATIM OR ANY OTHER PART OF THE FRANCHISE (ASIDE FROM A SIDE GAME TO PLAY WHILE BATDR WAS IN PRODUCTION) UNTIL BATDR WAS RELEASED AND CONFIRMED BATDS IS HAPPENING DURING IT (WHICH DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE EITHER)!!!

I DON'T CARE WHAT KIND OF OPINION COULD CHANGE MY MIND. WE GOT A PERFECTLY GOOD AND WELL-DEVELOPED CHARACTER (AND A [PERSONAL] FAN FAVORITE) AT THAT POINT FOR WHO BORIS COULD'VE BEEN, AND IT GOT TAKEN FOR SOME STUPID SEEMINGLY HALF-ASSED SUBPLOT THAT'S ONLY HALF-CANON NOW BECAUSE MIKE FUCKING D IS A GOD DAMN MORON IDIOT BASTARD ASS BITCH OHHH MY GOD IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY I'M GONNA PULL OUT ALL MY HAUR

sorry. almost lost my cool there guys.. ☝️😎 (/J)

soo with all that said, PERSONALLY this is what i think they should've done with buddy instead (under the cut so this post isn't 600 pages long)

first of all; scrap buddy's origin story completely and just make dtcl about the fact that he was simply another victim of the machine instead of making him such a major character (ex. a boris clone that was almost perfect but didn't quite make it like i said earlier)

on top of that, dctl could've just been insight on a single worker's process through working at the studio to being one of many victims of the machine, instead of turning him into such a titular important gary stu ass character with an in-depth backstory and Joey Drew Favoritism™ apparently that CLEARLY didn't need it + shouldn't be an mc if he's only in the books + the books aren't canon and the games are. so then it doesn't make it make any sense if he has such an important role and he isn't even fucking canon anyway and etc.

if he would've just stayed a minor inconvenient mc in a non-canon book it wouldn't have been detrimental to the lore as Mr. D Likes To Exaggerate (to me) + the books just seem like a fun one-off exclusive to the game series anyway, so it starts to kind of make sense why they aren't canon and leaves a lot of mysteries up to interpretation which is something i DO appreciate (to a CERTAIN extent)

here's what i think could've been done if wally was actually buddy boris and faced The Horrors™ like a normal main character should. an au, if you will (AND bc im VERY bias abt wally since He was my first ever og blorbo the first time i heard his audio log i literally owe him my Life💜💜💜💜)

wally could've started dropping hints in his audio logs that something funny was happening in the studio (specifically to him)/he could've been the last major victim to be sacrificed to the machine and therefore being one of the reasons of having the role of "the perfect boris" as malice said

-he also seems like the type of person to give into manipulation fairly easily, not knowing how truly bad something is before he gets involved yk

-a bit of a stretch BUT could also be a nod to susie's initial likeness towards wally pre-canon and vice versa (sourced from the special audio log wally has on the jds yt channel)

-him being the perfect boris also could allude to his personality/attributes and the way he talked abt the studio

and you can't forget the audio log of him and thomas bickering like COME ONNNN THERE COULD'VE BEEN A WHOOOLE SUB-SUBPLOT WHERE TOM AND BUDDY BORIS RECOGNIZE EACH OTHER SOMEHOW AT SOME POINT BUT THEY DON'T KNOW HOW

-TOM COULD'VE RECOGNIZED HIM EVEN AS BRUTE BORIS AFTER HENRY KILLS HIM and allison too but TOMMMMMMM😭😭😭😭😭CAN ANYONE HEAR MEEEEE

extra hints in the game like certain phrases and mannerisms of his (ink/glowing ink writings like his "i'm outta here!" written in certain locations or like. boris being clumsier as he walks/carrying around keys/scavenging for food [kind of like in the start of chapter 3], etc.)

-i also think that the connection that buddy boris (and just boris in general) has with food can connect with wally as well bc of the audio log where he's like "Omg 💖 Cake 💖just for me! Don't Tell Anyone Though. Our little secret. 😝" or the bit in the handbook where he finds some "churros" i Guess

there's also a LOT of potential for there to be a whole OTHER subplot where sammy could have found him one day and hadn't recognized him bc All The Boris Clones Look The Same, but buddy boris recognized sammy and there could be a whole conversation with henry and sammy abt him and dropping hints at it and blahblahblah etc etc.

-sammy probably could've mentioned him* at some point too even if he hadn't seen buddy boris as like a "hey.. i knew that fuckass guy.. wtf" (*and i know he mentions wally in the hot topic takeover thing on twitter from a while ago but i mean like in the actual game)

i think that the fact of boris being a Non-Verbal King™ would also be a funny contrast to how many god damn audio logs wally has. like Shut yuor mouth fucker /REF

the bit in chapter 3 where boris knows every nook and cranny of the studio and how to navigate the vent system could also lead to wally's nature of having a lot of knowledge of the layout to the building (due to being a janitor/running errands for people, similar to buddy) + he mentions staying in late to freshen up some offices so he might've explored more using that time as well because his personality shows he's a bit of a nosy guy

ALSO a stretch, but wally's first audio log in chapter one being fairly close to the first boris corpse displayed could've been a good foreshadow to his revival as buddy boris (and where the theory originated i'm pretty sure once ch2 came out)

the saferoom at the start of chapter 3 could've also been a great place to reference him (they could've put his hat from bendy royale in the shelf next to/on the hammock Can anyone hear me)

i also think that wally is supposed to be painted as an older guy?? so he probably already would've moved on from the studio due to leaving and starting his own business and having a family I Guess?????? idk but to me i think he'd be more of the college drop-out that thinks he's hot shit type of guy when in reality he doesn't know what a 2 + 2 is (ex. the audio log in batds where he's like "i was the best Student! Brickmore High! [tiktok bold emoji] These college bozos don't be knowin' shit!!"

-younger people are easier to manipulate like i talked abt earlier (especially someone like him that doesn't think before he Does Anything . boy has no thoughts)

wally also most likely would've known who henry was/was friendly with him while working there too at some point while henry was still at the studio pre-canon, so he probably recognized him throughout the cycle

i could ramble forever abt this bc it's such a strangely frustrating topic for me BUT in conclusion; i personally tbink that it would've been perfectly logical for wally to have been buddy boris (probably called somethig else), and buddy should've been a completely seperate character that would've done just as well on his own in the book instead of having a whole ass overarching plot for no reason?? and the "canonicity" of it is weirdly up for debate??? idk Watever thank you for coming to my tedtalk 😇😇Bye

⭐ !! bonus wally doodle dump since u made it this far !! seriously why r u Here ⭐

[year2000electronics]

Ok so what’s shimmer relationship like with the main cast like in the brotherhood au?

RUBS HANDS TOGETHER EVILLY. I ACTUALLY HAVE SOMETHING I WROTE A WHILE BACK ABT SHIM AND THE BROTHERS. HEHEHEHEHEEEE

i havent gotten to the outcasts Yet but. one day. i'll put it below the cut!!

“You probably don’t remember me, but-”

That was the first thing Shimmer had decided to say to baby Branch- no, it was just Branch now, wasn’t it? No matter how hard she looked at him, she could still only see the hopeful, gleaming eyes and the sweet smile as that kid she had come to briefly know so many years ago. It was a tough habit to kick- and the other members of the village clearly had a leg up on her with that.

“No, I remember you!” He replied, swinging his hands back and forth as the two of them walked through the village together. “Johnny doesn’t talk about you anymore, not really, but I remember going over to your pod!”

Shimmer tried her best not to seem too desperate for knowledge. Johnny? Her Johnny? Well- formerly hers. Not anymore? She knew it, he hated her, dammit, why did she come here-

“Oh, yeah? That so?” She laughed quietly. “Gosh, you’d make a mess of the place… you were so cute.”

“Yeah…” Branch said, looking off to the side. He was clearly quite a bit surprised, hearing someone talk about him through their sole memories of him being a baby. “It’s… been a long time since then, though.”

“I know, I know,” Shimmer assured quickly. “You’re all grown up now. And it makes me feel… very old.” She gave a laugh to shrug it off, but… it was true. Staring her in the face was the very sobering realization that it had been nearly two decades… Two decades since she had seen any of these people. And yet, somehow, despite Branch going from a baby to an adult…

…It felt like he had changed the least.

“Well- you don’t look very old,” Branch chirped. “Not to me.”

Shimmer looked back at him with a sort of sad smile, combing her hair out of her face.

“...You’re sweet, kid,” She mumbled. 

“No, really! You look Johnny’s age, and he’s not old, so… you’re not old either, right?” Branch grinned. He thought his logic was flawless, clearly. 

Shimmer snorted. “Is that how you see it?”

“Yup.”

Shimmer laughed, and decided to leave it at that. Branch’s peculiar little sense of humor did amuse her, to be sure. 

“So-” Shimmer asks after a bit of silence. “Do you mind if I ask you something, ah… a bit personal, kid?”

“Depends,” Branch said with a shrug. “What is it?”

“What was it like? Growing up here, I mean,” Shimmer asked.

Branch paused for a moment, to think about it. He looked up at the sky, down at the ground, every which way, except at her.

“Normal, I guess?” He shrugged. “We’re safe here, and I had my brothers. I don’t know what else a guy could want.”

Shimmer supposed she should have expected an answer like that. Of course Branch would see everything as deceptively normal. From the time she spent at the village, she didn’t exactly discover any blood sacrifices or chaos magic rituals happening behind closed doors or anything, and even though John and his brothers had morphed into slightly mythic figures, they weren’t referred to as His Holiness or anything. 

“Guess so,” Shimmer replied. “I was just… gone for so long, I’ve been curious, I suppose. About all the changes.”

“There aren’t that many,” Branch mumbled.

“No?”

“No.”

That’s what Branch’s mouth said. But his eyes told a different story. 

—---------------------- 

Shimmer sat down in Bruce’s pod, staring him down. 

His hand automatically moved to grab some matchmaker’s tarot cards when Shimmer lowered it before he could.

He glanced up at her, confused.

“Don’t,” She grunted. “I’m not here for that. I don’t even want to know.”  The sooner she could stop Bruce from doing the matchmaking thing, the better. There was a whole nest of hornets there- and whatever he said about her “potential prospects” would just remind her that a part of her never moved on from John Dory. 

“Then-” Bruce furrowed his brow, leaning back. “What are you here for?”

Shimmer gave him a surprised glance. “For you. Is that so hard to believe?”  

Bruce scoffed, leaning on one of his hands as he pressed his elbow onto the table. “Usually people come to the matchmaker’s pod because they want their match made, miss Shimmer. And yet, here you are, asking for me and not even wanting a match while you’re here! I think that makes you the strange one.”

Shimmer groaned. “Neither of us are strange, Bruce, don’t play this game with me-” 

Bruce laughed. “Oh, man- I did miss this. How is it that I’m always able to get under your skin?”

“I don’t know, you little devil-” Shimmer snorted. She cleared her throat, combing some hair out of her face. “But- that’s the only part that feels like it hasn’t changed, after all this time. What’s someone like you doing with a job like… this?”

Bruce frowned. “Are you trying to imply this isn’t a real job? The village won’t like that.”

Shimmer furrowed her brow, putting a hand up. “That’s not what I said. I mean- this job feels so prestigious. And everyone I asked about you immediately followed ‘Bruce’ up with ‘The matchmaker’. Doesn’t that… bother you at all?”

“Would it really matter if it did?” Bruce said with a shrug. 

“I mean-!” Shimmer gave an exasperated sigh. “I… I just want to understand. Everyone here is used to this, used to you all being leaders, I was just…” She shrugged. “I guess I was just hoping an old friend might be able to help me stop sticking out like a sore thumb.”

Bruce frowned, studying Shimmer’s face and body language. She seemed to be sincere, though her pride clearly held her back from just straight-up begging. And he did feel quite a bit bad for her… it was true that Bruce and Shimmer had been pretty close back when he was Spruce, and back when Shimmer was “JD’s girl”. They got on each others’ nerves endlessly, but that was almost part of the charm.

…He could use something like that again, perhaps. Nowadays, the only teasing he could get away with was either to Baby Branch or doing something so subtle to JD and Floyd that most other people shouldn’t be able to notice. 

“...Being a matchmaker is fine,” Bruce began to speak. “I’m rarely ever wrong, I’ll have you know. People trust me, and I like that. It feels… good to be trusted, I guess.”

He took out a tarot card from his deck, studying it. “I mean- I’m trusted for manners of romance, friendship, intimacy… But nobody is puttin’ pressure onto me to be a leader. In a way, I guess… I’ve got the best job in town.” 

“Still,” Shimmer said quietly. “I wouldn’t mind hanging out with Bruce-the-man instead of Bruce-the-matchmaker. If you can bear taking some time off your busy schedule.”

Bruce tilted his head noncommittally. “I’ll think about it. Gotta keep up appearances, y’know. That’s a big part of everything.” 

“I guess,” Shimmer half heartedly agreed. “Not that I’d know.”

“It’s good that you don’t,” Bruce replied, an oddly soft tone in his voice. So soft that Shimmer dare not toe the line and ask him to elaborate on that. Her absence of a question, though, left the two of them sitting in the candlelit room in silence.

“...So what’s the story behind the new name?” Shimmer asked to break it.

“Eh,” Bruce waved a hand casually. “I wanted a reinvention.”

Shimmer paused, mulling that over. “It suits you,” She said, finally. 

“Thanks,” Bruce smirked. He held up a hand, tilting it towards her. Between his fingers was a tarot card.

“Hey! I thought I told you not to do the matchmaking thing!” Shimmer protested with a frown.

“Relax, miss Shimmer,” Bruce replied coyly. “This one’s just about your social standing.” 

She took the card from him, studying it- oh. It was The Star.

“It means renewal,” Bruce said simply.

—--------------------------

“Morning, Floyd. I’d apologize for interrupting but I feel like that ship’s sailed already,” Shimmer grunted, going to sit on a mat near where Floyd was meditating.

He cracked an eye open, glancing over at her. “...Shimmer,” He said with a simple nod.  

She began stretching her legs, grunting every so often- this type of stuff didn’t come as easy to her as she wanted it to. 

“...Why did you come back?” Floyd asked bluntly. That made Shimmer stop in her tracks, glancing over at the younger troll with a befuddled look on her face.

Floyd put his hands up in a gesture of false surrender. “I don’t mean it like that! Don’t misunderstand! It’s just… one doesn’t just wander back into a place like this without reason.”

“Well- it’s home,” Shimmer admitted, bending down to touch her toes. “I was feeling… disoriented. Like I had lost myself. I didn’t know where else to go, so… I came back home.”

“Yeah, sure, but… you said it yourself. This place has changed. So, I guess, a better question would be… what made you stay?” Floyd asked as he bent himself into a different position. His tone was casual and calm, but there was a certain hunger in his eyes that let Shimmer know that he was very invested in this line of conversation. 

Shimmer’s mouth went dry. That… that was a good question. Especially since Floyd was playing a bit of a dangerous game, where she would make a major social faux pas if she wasn’t careful- Floyd was implying that someone coming to the village and staying there was strange. Of course, it was a perfectly safe place, but Shimmer knew she and Floyd both could feel the gated-community vibe of the village where nobody ever comes in and nobody ever comes out. She counted herself damn lucky that they even let her in at all. 

“...I suppose I’d say- it’s because some part of this place didn’t change,” Shimmer mumbled. 

“Really?” Floyd asked, stretching one of his legs to the sky.

“Really. That’s what keeps me here… I think. It’s all very confusing, this new village stuff, but when I look at all my old friends here… I guess I can’t help but see the boys I used to know,” Shimmer bashfully said as if she was admitting a crime. 

“So you really believe that…” Floyd said quietly. “And- is it the same with me?”

“Sure it is,” Shimmer said, rolling over to be on her stomach as she grabbed one of her legs. “You were always the one who sat in the back, weren’t you? Just… watching. Soaking it all in. I still see a lot of that in you today. With Branch and Bruce, too, the more I talk to them, the more I realize there’s still parts of you I’ve met before.”

She sighed. “Stupid, I know.” 

“No, I don’t think it’s stupid at all…” Floyd replied. “I… I think it’s kinda nice, actually.” 

He smiled, looking up at the roof of the large cave they called home. He let the moment sit for a bit.

“Sometimes… I don’t really feel like that boy anymore. I don’t feel like I was ever him at all. It’s… confusing, I guess,” Floyd said at last.

“Ugh, tell me about it-” Shimmer grunted, stretching out another one of her joints. “I was looking at an old poster of myself yesterday, and it was like- who WAS she?” 

Floyd gave a gentle little laugh. “I guess we’re more alike than we thought, then. It’s… nice.”

“I don’t get to talk to people much about this stuff,” Floyd continued. “Me, Johnny and the others try to be strong… for the village. So- it just… doesn’t come up.”

Shimmer gave him a nervous glance. “I’m not stepping over a line, am I? You’d tell me if I broke some sort of village rule. You would. Right?”

“Calm down,” Floyd squeaked desperately. “You’re fine.” 

Shimmer sighed. “Sorry… sorry. It’s just-”

“A lot, yeah,” Floyd finished. “That’s the village for you.”

—-------------------------

Shimmer was never sure if it was her place to mourn Clay or not. She had known him once, but at the same time, that was a long time ago. Was it illogical that she felt like she didn’t deserve to mourn him like his brothers did? Maybe. But she couldn’t change how she felt.

Still, that wouldn’t stop her from leaving some lily-of-the-valleys near his memorial spot every now and again. 

“Sorry I missed you, Clay,” She murmured. “I would have liked to have gotten to know who you grew into.”

—---------------

Shimmer wasn’t looking forward to this. She wasn’t looking forward to any of this. In fact, she had taken extreme, deliberate steps to avoid this from happening.

But what she hadn’t accounted for was bumping into John Dory on his stupid shitty morning walk, DAMMIT- 

He dusted himself off, clearly taking on a facial expression that was preparing for an apology, only for him to realize exactly who it was he had bumped into. Right- the troll he hadn’t talked to since he initially told the village to let her in.

Oh, yeah.

Also, his ex. 

“...Shimmer,” He was the first one to cut through the silence as he looked up at her, adjusting his scarf. “You look… well.”

Shimmer scoffed, looking away. “You and I both know that’s a gross exaggeration.”

John frowned as she looked away. That caught her eye. She coughed, immediately trying to steer the ship of a conversation back on topic. Much as this was her old flame… this guy was also someone she clearly didn’t want to get on the bad side of. Best not to get… too testy.

“But- other than looking like I rolled out of bed basically every day, I’ve been-” She sighed. “Fine. How about… you? How- uh- how have you been?” 

John Dory blinked once or twice, not expecting her to turn the question back on him. “Me? Oh, yes, I’ve been great, as usual. Never a bad day here in the village. Heh. You haven’t… been having any trouble, have you? I know the villagers can get a bit testy with… ‘new’ people.”

Shimmer shook her head no, folding her arms. “No, it’s been fine. Just… just fine.”

“Good… and you’ve been behaving too… right?” He said- although his tone was light as a feather, he knew the underlying meaning in what he said- here was a girl he had been close with before she disappeared- She could drag him back down to feeling mortality, be so casual with him in a way he hadn’t felt from anyone besides his brothers in years- and if she wanted to disprove his lie, he’d have to put whatever feelings he still had for her aside. For the sake of the village.

“You think so low of me, John,” Shimmer scoffed, rolling her eyes. “Yes, I’ve been behaving. I’m a guest here- guests follow the host’s policies, and they’re thankful. That’s how I was raised.”

“Good!” JD chirped. “I wasn’t too worried about that,” He lied. It slipped naturally off his tongue as smooth as butter. 

Shimmer paused, looking him up and down some more. He looked at her looking at him, waiting to see her reaction and cautiously preparing for it.

“...It’s a bit of a different look for you, I’ll admit, but… I don’t hate it,” Shimmer spoke with a shrug. “The red looks nice.”

John laughed, flicking an earring. “Ahhh- thank you. It does, doesn’t it? I’ll admit, your look was a bit surprising, too. You’ve really changed, I almost didn’t-”

He paused, not wanting to finish the sentence… but Shimmer knew what he was going to say.

I almost didn’t recognize you. 

She knew that’s what he wanted to say, because she thought it when she first saw him.

Jeez, what were they? They used to be a teen hot couple, the poster boy and poster girl for puppy-love… But here she was, a disgraced pop troll who couldn’t sing… and there he was. The hero and saviour of an entire village. 

It was more obvious to her now than it was to her than that him even noticing her at all was… nothing but a stroke of luck. A fluke. There he was, brilliant, important, in control… And then there was her. A total mess. A flop. She felt like an intruder in the village, and now, being face-to-face with JD only made things worse. In every other brother, she saw that past part of them she once knew, but with John, she felt like she was only reminded of her own insecurities, her own failings. 

She swerved past him, eyes firmly trained onto the ground.

“I’ll get out of your way, John,” She mumbled half-heartedly, trying to just put a miserable end to the conversation and stop her mind from attacking herself so loudly. But as soon as she started walking, she found herself unable to keep going. Locked around her arm was none other than JD’s hand. She glanced back, looking at him in confusion.

“Wait,” He started. “...Come over to my pod sometime. You, ah, need to update me more on how you’re settling in. Yes. As the village leader… it’s part of my responsibilities, y’know? So- don’t leave me hanging.”

Shimmer’s breath caught in her throat. She hated the idea of seeing him more, and yet, the fact that he had requested her presence specifically… It made her heart skip a beat. 

“...Sure, yes,” She replied quietly.

She expected John to let her go at this point, but he kinda just kept staring at her in silence for a while. Somehow, she found herself staring back.

“...I’ve missed you,” He confessed with a breathy whisper. 

Shimmer tried to muster back a reply, but words failed her. She tried again, and again-

“I didn’t even think that was possible,” She finally said back. 

[h3r-h3arts-with-obx]

hey yall js thought id share my opinion on the obx drama with rudy, madison, mariah, n others.

also feel free to repost/like/comment if u agree. i wanna try to stop all the bullying going around. spread love n joy bbys.

(please don’t hate on anything!! js my opinion.)

rudy + madison falling out - i love both of these guys rly much. they were so cute as best friends, always taking photos n vids, being goofy, lowkey friendship goals. im sad that they potentially had a falling out bc of some heated dinner with their gfs. ended up with rudy n elaine unfollowing mariah (elaine unfollowed madison too) n mariah n madison unfollowing elaine (mariah unfollowed rudy) but madison n rudy stayed following one another. I’ve heard things like rudy was getting bullied by madison, but haven’t seen proof. ive seen vids of them kinda waking away from each other tho. idek if this is true, the whole falling out thing, but i think rudison shippers had a part in it. the constant shipping of the actors, the pestering and picking at the gfs. it’s to much. if yall supported them, then u should let them love who they love. fans r supposed to support their celebs. but throughout this, ive seen so much bullying n criticizing n name calling n its terrible. it’s also hella rude. like the nerve to message rudy in insta n halo abt his playlists n say ur having fun? like fuck u. that’s not funny, ur not cool. fuck off. also like get over the fact that rudy n madison didn’t happen n wont happen. theyre happy with who theyre with n yall should support if ur true fans.

jjs death - ive heard plenty of stuff saying that bc of all the drama, rudy wanted to leave. we all saw he wasn’t in a lot of interviews, bts, n less posting. i mean, it makes sense but theres js stuff kinda missing. he did kinda seem uncomfy in so situations, like a couple of interviews. ive also heard that elaine made him leave cuz she’s jealous of his chem with madison. im noting seeing it tho. i believe that she supports his work on obx, so i dont think she would go for that.

rudy + madelyns falling out - so umm i didn’t actually see this one coming, but like hit happened. they seemed fine on set n bts. but like during elaines bday, rudy flew down a girl (who a lot of people were saying she was maddies best friend) and maddie got pissed or smt n unfollowed both rudy + elaine + the girl who rudy flew down for elaine. (think her name was kate??) then she posted on insta like a meme of a lil girl staring at a burning house. Idrk what was going on there.

bullying rudy - so there’s always someone bullying this guy. like leave the man alone, he’s a human being with fucking feelings. ive heard from trusted sources that he’s been called fat, bald n ugly. LIKE STAFU. hes js a boy in the film industry doing his job. leave. him. alone. some girl js recently messaged rudy on insta, berating his playlists, n since then, he turned them private. she had the fucking audacity to say “don’t hate me im having fun” bitch u js made all of us lose his fire playlists. he’s actually got a good taste, kinda similar to mine. like look how this is turning out?? yall making it worse.

rudy unfollowing madison + madelyn - as much as im sad and hate that an era is ending here, if these two were giving him hell, good for him to cut of the bindings. i do hope they fix everything in another life or even here

(sry this was so long! ill probs add over time or smt.) overall, i think we should all try n bring more awareness of this. the more we bully, berate, criticize n pestering rudy n others, everything could get better. thx for listening to my yap session.😭😭😭

[angevinyaoiz]

saw Dune 2 (2une?), and since I don't have my dune blog anymore I'll post here, since blah blah this is my place for posting about Dynastic Weirdos. This is long but NO MAJOR SPOILERS, except about like, small detail things that aren't plot things but whatever

Tbh it was disappointing. It had all the correct elements to be liked but one thing grated on me the whole time...the Bad Dialogue and lack of Elevated Speech! Why the hell were all these characters saying stuff like "these guys" "we're ok" and "literally" it took me out of the fantastical world sOOO bad. Super bummer because what I loved about Dune 1 (D-uno?) As someone who went into it before reading or knowing anything was how much it didn't explain, how it let the visuals and the world unfold before you, and how serious and somber it was in a way that gave it a sense of scale and time.

I can only wonder if WB saw all the complaints and tweets about people being like "we didn't understand the first movie!!! It wasn't funny and quippy!!!" And decided to simplify it down so characters just SAY things really obviously and inelegantly. The writing has some competence in moving the story forward but there's no poetry or rhythm to the way characters say things, it's serving "Rings of Power" scriptwriting to me lmao. And it's not like any of the actors are bad? I've seen them do well in the previous movie and in other things, so wtf was going on with the direction. I know people complained Abt Villeneuve saying that whole thing about being more into visuals than dialogue but maybe he was right...there needed to be LESS WORDS. bc much of the words we had were NOT GOOD.

Positivity: the middle and latter part was where the movie picked up for me. The Harkonnen Freak Villain behavior was everything I could have wanted! Finally instead of EXPLAINING everything obviously we got to see a LOT of character building, for Feyd specifically in a very short amount of time. I know a lot of us complained about Bald Feyd-Rautha but Mr Elvis did a very good job. And we got Madame Fenring and weird scifi femdomming finally, which is Essential for the Duniverse! Wonderful fantastic no notes.

Of course, getting back to our heroes, I anticipated this 2 years ago sadly and it was true...the Fremen were badass but SWAGLESS. More Learned ppl have already written about the frustration with the erasure of the Arabic/North African cultural presence so I won't reiterate that here since I'm not super knowledgeable about the specifics of that but even as a casual watcher there was a weird emptiness to the way I feel the society was portrayed. There were individual good character moments, such as fun bantering among the Fedaykin etc, but for Pacing or Whatever they cut out the community aspects that served to make them feel more like well, a People rather than just either Grizzled Soldiers/ Religious Fundamentalists aka Marks/Panicked refugees. I have to guess this was ppl were like "we can't show a culture too cool and colorful and the part with Harrah (Jamis' widow) would feel too ORIENTALIST!!! But the result is something sadly very dry. At least in more older orientalist works, the interest comes from when the ~exotic~ stereotypes figures are able to have charming personalities and personalities and be known as people despite the cliches sometimes but this sadly wasn't even like that....

Jamis' funeral is a good example of this; in the Book, it's a moment where you first get a good look of what rituals are like in this world, and how people relate to each other and to the dead. In the movie, the funeral is looks more foreign and even a little creepy as the water is extracted from the body. There's not really a Personal or community connection aspect to it at all.

The ending was pretty good as it satisfied all the Cool Dune Moments I think we all wanted to see, and also did literally the end of The Godfather Part 1 Framing which was hee hee heh. Anyways, Messiah is MY favorite book of the series personally so curious how they get to that.

Maybe I've been too spoiled by Cool Historical Fiction lately? I've been watching too much of The Devil's Crown where action happens mostly off screen but the dynastic drama is written and acted so compellingly, the historical mindset and setting so alien and yet so human and relatable, it's frustrating to see when works try to do the opposite? Idk??? Dune books themselves is fun in how action is mostly an "offscreen, offstage"' thing.

*if ANYONE in the Universe is a quippy Bastard, it should be Leto II esp in God Emperor where he literally has nothing to do all day but quip all day to terrified acolytes

[windupaidoneus]

hi thistle ! idr if youve talked abt it before but what were ur ideas for hildemet post endwalker ? i remember u posted abt meteion and them after endwalker but i wanted to learn more abt ur thoughts or how the ship develops ! idk if this makes sense i hope it does LOL (@dmclr)

hiii clara :3 ohhh post endwalker. (lies down face first) this one's a real doozy bc i have yet to properly work out the timeline of events... there are two ways it could go & i dont know which i prefer. oh under the cut as per usual. this is actually probably my longest ramble yet LMAO

either hildegarde really did go through with bringing emet back with his own two hands (& aether. & magic. but like it's intentional is what i mean) or emet chose to have another pass at life bc the time spent during post shb/edw up until elpis gave him that want again, & his soul would've held on until a suitable vessel was nearby (so like, very likely one of the solus clones bc he'd rather not go for possession if he can help it lmao). fuck i also thought of the possibility of like... just it happening without either of their direct involvement, maybe something that kinda just happened because of emet's longing but not in the way that he would've actively orchestrated his return so to speak - his soul just doing that i suppose.? because of the power of love sparkle sparkle or something. they all have something good... um.. i started typing before opening the game i think but then i opened the game & now it's like 12 hours later & my head hurts BADDD but i want to answer this.

in the case of hildegarde intentionally bringing him back is. it being intentional is very yummies & good to me. in the sense of defying fate itself & whatnot to bring a loved one back. i am a lameeeee romantic so that shit always gets me..... but at the same time there is a part of me that like, thinks maybe at that point in time it wouldn't be narratively satisfying? since he has messed around with necromancy before then gave up on it it coulddd be interesting to ahve him go back to it bc like he's still a flawed character who does questionable things & all that but this one idk if i want it to be the case all that much. i like when he gets a little fucked up but i dont know about this specific flavour of fucked up... but i DO want emet alive for dt. so much to consider.

for emet willingly coming back... i mean. points at "i am a lameeeee romantic". additionally i think it brings something interesting into play - because the way i see it his death was intentional to start with, the only possible end for someone who had done so much to reach his goal & thus backing down would mean it was all for nothing yet at the same time the awareness all those things he's done were awful, unconscionable, & no amount of work he could've done in the hypothetical rest of his existence would make up for it, in which case death becomes the only suitable consequence for his actions. (there's also a layer of "emet is putting on a performance as a tragic antagonist & is aware of his role within the story to a degree, as he is playing a role of his own volition, making himself more detestable yet likable at the same time in very intentional ways". not all of his endearing traits in shb are intentional but some are, & them being intentional doesn't make them less... genuine? he pulls at the wol's heartstrings or attempts to, but that doesn't make his own longing for the unsundered world any less real, basically. but this isn't relevant right now)

with that in mind if emet were to bring himself back to life fully... well. it would say quite a lot about.. him. as a whole. just. choosing to live once more to be by hildegarde's side, going against his own previous implicit wish for death (which, beyond the whole guilt thing, he probably would've wanted anyway! he'd been alive so fucking long & all of it had been miserable! death was both something he deserved & deliverance.), tearing himself from something that was punishment & relief to trade it for a different kind of punishment & a different kind of relief. living with the things he's done as opposed to being able to just dissolve into the aetherial sea & no longer worry about it all i suppose, but being reunited on more proper, less high stakes & "we have to kill each other" terms with.. pretty much his soulmate. i'm not big on soulmate stuff necessarily but um (gestures at the entirety of the whole thing with emet & azem/the wol in canon) they make it so easy.

oh fuck i got distracted from finishing my custom deliveries before reset oops. well anyway i'm TALKING!

yeah that. he would get to be with one of his biggest motivations for doing all of this in the first place, & while the source is not a perfect world i do genuinely believe he is lying hard as fuck when he pretends he finds no beauty in it. the harsher he says it the more convincing the performance, for everyone & for himself. end of edw cutscene to me says that he does have an actual appreciation for the sundered etheirys, & i also think without zodiark's influence he would be more amenable to properly acknowledging the flaws of the unsundered world as well. now. would he think he deserves to have a happier "second chance"? probably not. but that's where hildegarde's feelings would sway him... how could he not be influenced knowing the one he loves is grieving him so desperately? hilde has lost many, many loved ones & never really learnt to properly deal with his grief because it's just too overwhelming for him to feel. he continuously drowns in it & that'ssss something he has in common with emet for sure. & emet, knowing how horrible it feels (though in his case it was probably worse. still, he's sentimental & also a tank so i know he's got that protectiveness in him ☝️), would likely want to spare hilde that trouble if even a little. he can't bring himself to bring other souls back to life (too similar to what he did with amaurot, probably something he'd like to take some distances from & not recreate too closely...) but he could at least bring himself back. make hilde smile. that would be nice.

now enter the "neither of them did anything about it it just Happened" path. this one is really just reliant on it feeling like an actual miracle. something that would probably bring emet some distress bc oh no he has to deal with all these things now & it's not on his own terms, buuuuuut... miracle of love 🫶 even if to be fair things would definitely be awkward at first. because they wouldn't really know how to approach each other after everything. they would work it out though, it's not unique to this potential timeline of events & they Will work it out no matter what. they have to! it'd be a miracle of love 🫶 all the same. ohh, maybe something kinda like sleeping beauty or something (loose comparison.) in which during the bit in garlemald in post edw hilde would look for the remaining solus clones in the imperial palace (not for any nefarious purposes if we're not looking at the "he does it himself" timeline it's probably just morbid curiosity at that point. also masochism a little honestly) & when chancing upon them emet's like... his soul would always be "near" hilde in some sort of sense, so maybe it could be made to inhabit one of the clones - kind of pulled into it? & yeah. bam. wakes up upon being observed. i don't know! it's an option. they're all options & they're GOOD & i haven't picked one & i don't know what to pick rahhhg. kicks a rock. Whatever... onto the actual answer to the ask now... (wipes forehead) this took a lot of .. preamble? not sure what i'd call that but the yapping before the ACTUALLY relevant yapping

the way they develop (chews on rocks) YAYYYY!! we got there!!! ohhh my god it's so AWKWARD in this room everyone is happy but wants to cry & feels guilty it's kind of beautiful.

emet keeps some reasonable distance & is actually decent at doing it this time since he's not tempered & not trying to get something out of hildegarde. came back for him but does not want to overstep by getting too comfortable too soon. hildegarde on the other hand really badly wants to have conversations & to be more open & vulnerable but he does not know how to even do that voluntarily. with anyone! he's really bad at being vulnerable! he's been able to do it "properly" with nero & cid (nero has big brother privileges so he's the one hilde & various other alters will run to if they are experiencing Too Much of life, & well. cid is cid. kind of cemented himself as an older sibling figure as well, even without taking into account the doozy that is cidnero) & perhaps surprisingly estinien (very detached & to the point, clear cut way of going about things, not judgemental the way others might be because he's not really giving a fuck abt that ascian business. his meatheadedness wins ☝️) but even then it was mostly him reaching a breaking point & having no one else to pretty much drop it all on.

the scions are great but busy all the time & while urianger probably would be best placed to hear of his troubles hilde rarely wants to tell him much of them because urianger's own problems always seem to far outweigh his own, & he doesn't want to put more on his plate. he's close to thancred but thancred would be the least understanding of his woes... & i think he really struggles with approaching y'shtola bc she hasn't exactly been vulnerable with him either. sucks bc he can tell she would probably be a fine person to be straightforward with but just... hasn't come up. he can be vulnerable with aymeric but aymeric is constantly busy & i do strongly believe if he hadn't been so occupied w his desk job they could've had something. he could be vulnerable with haurchefant but WELL. & the scions not mentioned are all younger than him so no way in hell he's relying on them emotionally when for someone as #unwell as him "relying emotionally" comes with SO SO MUCH shit.

i did ignore hancock & that's because i don't like him. (lying) no he can be vulnerable with hancock too on occasion. hancock is detached from this whole world so to be honest i don't think he gives that much of a fuck that hilde is mourning the loss of an evil immortal guy who was also the garlean empire's founder. on a moral level this has got nothing to do with him on an emotional level he's not sure when they ended up getting close enough for hilde to sob in his office about how he can't do anything right & so many people he could've saved he just didn't manage to & it's all his fault blablablah... but sure he'll do the comforting

but but, back to hildemet. it does happen eventually. hilde's not good at being vulnerable on purpose but he's also pretty earnest despite that... so without necessarily overwhelming emet with his emotions & thoughts he is at least capable of going, "hey. i want to talk. have conversations, about anything and everything. about the weather, about everything that happened. i am happy to come home and see you, and to know that i will come home and see you, but there is a gaping pit between us & i want to bridge it. i want to stand on that bridge with you & talk about the pit, how scary it is, & how we're going to overcome it anyway. can we do that? can i step closer to you, & will you return the embrace if i hold you?" which, he will, & he does. & maybe they even have a shared cry about it. emotions really catching up to them in the moment, not realising the extent to which they'd missed & love each other up until they get to really embrace each other fully. i know songs do this to me a lot i'll think i'm fine then suddenly BOOM i'm crying hard as fuck because holy shittt why didn't i tell myself this made me feel THINGS... horrible!

note that no matter the choice made earlier it's more than likely hilde did hold emet when they first reunited, in which case emet would've at most placed one hand on hilde's back without it being an actual hug. he's not really the "outburst of physical affection" type but especially not under such circumstances while he's Just returned & is parsing where he stands on what joys he deserves to experience in his newfound existence. because of course there's that too. he'll indulge if hilde reaches out for it but for a while it is only half-hearted & the guilt eats at him more everytime he leans into it, which fortunately isn't often by that point since hilde is working out how to go about everything. yay!! not very yay okay you got me

BUT THEY WORK ON IT they have to. the weird distance is unbearable & neither of them want it. they understand they now have a chance at this for real, & they have limited time to do it! emet does not have much of a limited lifespan still but he knows he's turning in the moment hilde dies. maybe he'll stay long enough to ensure hilde is remembered & honoured as he feels it should be but like that's It. hilde's gone he's GONE. & until then they get to learn to love each other all over again

which goes pretty great all things considered once the early stages of weird awkwardness are behind them. it would be easier & go faster if they were allowed to settle down properly but you know how it is when you're The WoL. hilde's wol duties can actually be a bit of a cause for concern for emet, which he himself was caught offguard by. probably chastised himself about it a bit too. being worried for the wol?? ridiculous. he's not capable of dying from unnatural consequences it's like he's got plot armor or something (looks into the camera). gets a bit embarrassed about his worries but they don't really go away, & it does lead into him attempting to keep hilde home more often & longer. hilde doesn't really catch onto it until it becomes a little too egregious to ignore but well. when emet expresses reluctantly that ooooo he cares & is worried about him & also a little bit lonely too it actually makes hilde laugh. because that man is CUTE 🫵 & he will in fact tell him just that. to which emet gets "offended" (did not expect a compliment of all things out of that, & compliments when he's not "in control" of a situation are the number 1 way to destabilise him in a harmless way. lest we forget he is the unsundered world's original tsundere) & denies & protests. & it's probably the point where they start acting genuinely more relaxed around each other, & subsequently emet gets less roundabout about keeping hilde around as long as possible.

he also gets the offer to tag along! which he doesn't want necessarily, it's a lot of effort & it would mean being around the scions (he doesn't hate them or anything but well if i was emet i would not want to be around thancred either. just like if i was thancred i would not want to be around emet either) who at this point in time are not aware of emet's presence in hilde's life & also more generally the world lmao. the twins, tataru & krile most certainly have bets on why hilde seems less available & perhaps even a bit flaky & while alphinaud is genuinely worried hilde might finally be crushed by the weight of responsibilities :( (buddy that was an expansion ago catch up) alisaie is like. scary close to the truth. she suspects hilde is trying to settle down but duty keeps getting in the way of it. this gets everyone involved very curious to potentially find out who he's settling down with of course because for some reason they're all willing to entertain that theory. tataru simply wishes hilde isn't trying to settle down with hancock of all people (close! It's Worse)

he takes it up from time to time. bearing a different appearance (keeping his face but he probably wears a face cover around the scions & doesn't speak much) & going by a different name to avoid being recognised, y'shtola absolutely works it out the moment she sees him buttttt that's why emet avoids hanging around if he knows she'll be there lmao her aethersight would clock him instantly

um. yeahg! my fingers hurt from typing this much & also that's like many paragraphs already oops. uhh. yep.! post edw hildemet. they have rough conversations about their respective places in the world & what they deserve & don't deserve to have. sometimes hildegarde gets very upsetting memories from lachesis' life & emet has to be there to ground him. sometimes emet is overwhelmed by the thought of his actions & hilde has to be there to distract him since ruminating won't really change anything.

they're also gossipy queens who go out to big fancy events to comment on the people they don't like there (in hilde's case it'd probably usually be lolorito & gegeruju honestly but it's fine emet can be irritated at minimum by most people for the both of them). they have to take care of each other delicately & they don't always get it right but they gotta keep trying so they do.

emet is a complainer by nature but he also complains in bad faith a lot & is quite unpleasant specifically when he's lying or dancing around the truth, which all remain true to his personality still, however when he allows himself to be entirely truthful & more open he is painfully romantic & loving. not without teasing here & there of course. it's very good for hilde though. getting to be flustered & giggly & just happy after the everything is such a breath of fresh air, very good distraction from the wol shit. he even gets to tease emet back & have it work! love can be so beautiful & augh! they make me sick

emet did not expect the many people hilde's adopted in a found family sense however. he does think he was a little foolish for not expecting it bc. lachesis. wanderer. the guy who makes friends everywhere all the time. but also how was he supposed to expect so many kids were out there calling hilde their big brother or sometimes even "like a dad"..... he's just pickin everybody up off the street at this point & emet's getting a little concerned about the amount of kids he's going to become a bad influence to just by following hilde around. lmao. & ofc the kids love him bc kids fucking love it when there's a guy who's kind of an ass

i keep saying "okay i stop typing there" & then i keep typing SORRY AHHH. i'm not even out of thoughts i just need to end the post somewhere sobs. i really need to sleep 😭 thank yoy so much for the askkkk wah

[sodafrog13]

random swans hcs under the cut ✌🏼

- alex and ash are identical twins and were both amab; alex found out she was trans and transitioned while they were still in high school (i think she actually just kept the name bc she liked it but even if she didn't, i'm thinking her deadname would probably also have started with an A)

- speaking of, both of them played football while they were in high school. alex was more of the star player of the two of them; ash was almost exclusively a bench warmer. their uniforms in current day consist of parts of their old football uniforms

- even though tony is their unofficial ""leader"", the whole idea for the vigilante copycat stuff was the davis'. not rlly much basis for this one admittedly but i think it makes sense, considering they're the most politically active (relatively speaking) of the fans

- and the reason why that is is that they had family who were living in san francisco when it got bombed. again, not much basis but it does make sense to me considering they're motivated enough to be picketing outside the courthouse during jacket's trial. i specifically also have a kind-of oc that's their little cousin who lives in SF; i shifted around some things to feature her in UDC, my beardjacket au fic, but she's existed in my mind even before writing that chapter and i'd like to flesh her out more one day

- i think they're both bi (w pref for the same gender) and that ash is ace. that's just on me :-)

- they make fun of each other for being gay All The Time. wlw/mlm hostility.

- ash moved out at some point and lives with his (boy)friend, jack. he still frequents the house somewhat often to hang out with alex, since they're so close, but he very rarely sleeps there anymore

- alex is a little touchy about the whole thing, but she gets it. she just wasn't ever thinking about the possibility of either of them moving out since they've basically been together they're whole lives so she's just been moody about it ever since ash brought it up to her. she's a lot better abt it now, though

- ash is a lot more organized than alex is. he was the only reason the house was ever clean; since he's left, alex really only cleans up if things are getting Direly trashy

- alex LOVES horror movies. ash thinks they're ok. they watch a bunch of them together and alex spends a lot of pocket money on VHS tapes of her favorites

- ash is more of a video game guy. they had a console in the house but he took it when he moved out; alex really only ever used it if ash was playing something multiplayer anyways so she didn't consider it a huge loss

- that said, they both love listening to music. they had a bit of an argument over who was taking what when ash moved out (since their collection was joint owned) and alex ended up keeping the records while ash took the cassettes since ash is the one who actually has a car

- both of them can drive but alex honestly doesn't need a car; she'd take the bus to work most days anyways since ash started his day earlier than she did and would be out the door before she even woke up

- the both have insomnia but alex's is decidedly worse. for some reason, the meds that ash uses don't rlly work on her so she ends up staying up and waking up late. she falls asleep at her job often

- alex works a boring office job. she tolerates it; it's relatively easy and pays fine and she learned some basic computer knowledge from ash so she's basically set on being there for however long she can.

- she also does music on the side, specifically electronic stuff. not ever a thing she'd consider for a job but one of her favorite past times is smoking and jamming out on her synth. ash partakes in these jam sessions sometimes; part of me wants to say he plays a little electric guitar (and that he'd probably love guitar hero)

- ash works in IT. his computer knowledge is almost entirely self taught (esp considering he and alex's would be college years were spent serving in hawai'i) but he's damn good at what he does so it was pretty easy for him to get hired

- their relationship with their folks is... fraught. the whole reason they joined the army was to get away from them, particularly because their mom had always been rather nasty to alex because she favored ash and ash was always really annoyed by that. they thought is was the best years of their lives thus far. ever since coming back home to pick up their stuff when they got back from deployment, they cut contact with them (but not the rest of their family. that said, they refuse to go to any family functions if they kno their parents are gonna be there)

- alex is pretty butch and dislikes wearing fem clothing. ash is honestly kind of more wishy washy about the whole thing; he'd be open to wearing slightly more fem stuff like skirts if he wasn't so put off by the idea of being judged for doing so. most ""fem"" he'll get is painting his nails black every so often

- idk something in my heart just tells me they'd like karaoke. they'd both belt that shit out, no holds barred (but also fans karaoke night just sounds like such a fun idea. just all of them getting wasted and singing silly shit)

- they're just each other's #besties y'k? swans stick together their whole lives and all

[gaypio]

my thoughts of what each jojolands character is VAGUELY based on.

Disclaimer to the ppl who get angry at these kinds of posts: I KNOW theyre all their own characters & i think of them as their own characters too. I dont see them as like “giorno, doppio, and hermes” and all. I hate dio, but i LOVE diego. The fact that hes slightly based on dio doesnt make me hate him 🤷 its more like he would be his better cousin LOL. thats how i (and most of us) feel about jodio and usagi too. theyre like giorno and diavolo’s cousins. its very fun to associate them to previously existing characters!

Anyways!:

Jodio = inspired by jolyne and giorno (obvious)

Dragona = partly inspired by hermes and mista

Paco = very slightly inspired by risotto, santana and abbacchio

Usagi = partly inspired by fugo, narancia and diavolo/doppio

my reasonings are:

(Dude i dont wanna explain jodio its so obvious…. There are many posts out there already explaining this.)

Dragona: mista: mother-like figure to their stand. ☠️ jobro to giorno (hermes also is a jobro to jolyne). Also that scene of jodio and dragona being silly together reminded me of trish and mista🥺

hermes: no not only bc of her locs 😭 bc of the “big bro” title as well. Ik its silly to base on hair style too, but jodio had a star braid at first (still has a bit of a braid) so i think its kinda intentional on araki’s part.

Paco: santana: bad dad, can manipulate skin, theres a better explanation abt this somewhere 😭

risotto: his design exposing his chest with an X & his foot (nearly) gets cut off lol. also similarish vibes? but hes more similar to abbacchio, trying to act tough, physically strongest of the group but lowkey a softie. Risotto isnt rlly a softie, at least not like abbacchio is.

abbacchio: hates on teens but then is secretly like 🥺🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 when theyre safe (usagi). And he was aggressive towards usagi in the beginning like was with giorno.

Usagi: narancia: sillay. Paco and Usagi’s dynamic is similar to abbacchio’s and narancia’s. Usagi is 17 and Jodio is 15, Dragona is 18. Just like nara, gio, and mista. ☝️🤓

fugo: similar hair to fugo, anddd BIGGEST NERD OF THE GROUP. thats it. i think usagi is more like narancia if he went to school tbh🥺

doppio/diavolo: stand based on king crimson, also super cute like doppio. also his pony tail reminds me of doppio’s braid (plus the fact that i loved him the moment i saw him (yes, even when he was known as just hotdog man i was like OMG HE LOOKS FUNNY AND CUTEEE I LOVE HIM HAHAH I HOPE HES A MAIN CHARACTER :D while everyone was hating on him. Im his fan since day 0!!!) & the rest of the whole part ive been adoring him. /platonically (if it wasnt obvious im a big fan of doppio)

Also, a lot of ppl who love those characters love the characters theyre based on too.

Of course, some ppl who dont like those past characters like the newer ones despite that, just like me with diego☠️

IK FOR SOME IM STRETCHING for SOME A LIL BUT IT MAKES SENSE OKAAAAYYYY

If u have any questions ask me lol.

[3lectra-he4rt]

since there’s only a few weeks left until the day of reckoning,,

What scenes do you *need* in the ballad movie?

This one’s gonna be a long one, i’m pasting it from my notes app. (Some have emojis cause i was going through the rings of hell while reading) Buckle up. Also, some are just very vague in the sense that i just want *something* like what i’ve described.

- Coriolanus reading the letter from Tigris

- When Lucy was crying in the classroom with Coryo

- When Coriolanus gave Lucy the compact

- When Lucy is running from Reaper

- Arachne’s death

- Sejanus putting the breadcrumbs over Arachne and her tribute after they died, either Coriolanus noticing him doing so or it in the background for us to find

- Reaper making the graveyard

- Reaper cutting the flag

- Sejanus going into the arena and everything that followed (and him putting the breadcrumbs over Marcus!!)

- Sejanus showing up to be a peacekeeper with Coriolanus

- When Coriolanus calls Clemensia “Clemmie” </333

- When Clemensia comes into Coriolanus’ hospital room in the middle of the night

- The pus coming out of Clemensia when she is bitten (it NEEDS to be blue, pink, and yellow)

- Coriolanus and Lysistrata. Them while watching the games and strategizing bc Lysistrata has Jessup, but also just them being silly together ☹️☹️☹️

- Tigris with her fathers coat

- “Lucy Gray, having languished in Dr.Gaul’s lab, would be long dead, and his heart dead with her.” (Coriolanus thinking of his future)

- Sejanus’ house + “Ma’s corner” 😭😭😭

- C: “I don’t know what ever possessed me to ask for twelve.” S: “Completely random, obviously,”

- Lucy saving Coriolanus from the bombing, a shot of when her arm is around his shoulder and he’s clutching the ruffles of her skirt (the clutching is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT.)

- Him parading her around the monkey house when he get stuck in there w her and the other tributes

- The picnic at the zoo </33

- Coriolanus holding Clemensia from behind when the snakes show up in the arena

- When Smiley says there’s going to be someone named “Lucy something” singing at the hob the book says “His girl. His love. His Lucy Gray.”

- Ma’s explanation of the bread crumbs

- “We pour money into our industries, not into the districts themselves,” said Sejanus. “The people are on their own.”

- Literally just the daughter of Mayor Lipp’s name. It’s Mayfair.

- The execution of Arlo Chance + ‘Lil’ coming through the crowd for him

- “What’s bothering you? And don’t say nothing.”

- Everyone slapping each other’s backs after drinking some of the stuff smiley got in the Hob

- “It reminds me of the capitol” “you don’t say home.” “No. For me, that will always be district 2.”

- The hob fight

- “And yes, I’d be happy to go with you.”

- C: “Do I look okay?” S: “Gorgeous. Trust me, that lips working for you, soldier.”

- Lucy and Coriolanus’s argument with Billy Taupe

- C: “I thought you were letting this whole rebel thing go!” S: “I can’t, all right? It’s part of who I am..”

- Sejanus having drugs in his locker box

- ‘High-as-a-Kite-Bottom’

- L: “that’s what my daddy thought, too. And he ended up with more bullet holes than I could count on my fingers,”

- “ "Well, that's it, then. I saved you from the fire, and you saved me from the snakes. We're responsible for each other's lives now." "Are we?" he asked. "Sure," she said. "You're mine and I'm yours. It's written in the stars." "No escaping that." “

- “ "You know, Sejanus, I'm your friend. More than a friend. You're the closest thing I'll ever have to a brother. And there are special rules for family. If you need help . . . I mean, if you get into something you can't handle ... I'm here." Tears welled up in Sejanus's eyes. "Thank you, Coryo. That means a lot. You may be the only person in the world who I actually trust." Ah, trust again. The air was full of it. "Come here." He pulled Sejanus into an embrace.”

- Barb Azure is a LESBIAN?? “She just started seeing a gal down the road,” (Lucy talking abt Barb Azure

- L: “People have been around for a long time without the capitol. I expect they’ll be here a long time after.”

- Cc finding Katniss for Lucy

- The lake being the same lake as THG trilogy, Coriolanus noticing the house that would end up being so important for Katniss in THG

- The explanation of the covey’s names (song + color)

- The “we all have a ballad, and this is Lucy’s!” Scene with the song

- Sejanus looking like an eight year old boy to Coriolanus as he’s being pulled up to be hanged

- Sejanus saying “Coryo” while being pulled up to be executed

- Sejanus’s last word being “Ma!”

- Coriolanus’s absolute breakdown after Sejanus died

- The epilogue.

- "Because we credit them with innocence. And if even the most innocent among us turn to killers in the Hunger Games, what does that say? That our essential nature is violent," Snow explained.

Ladies, gentlemen, and everyone in between, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.